Monday, November 13, 2006
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No More Boy-Girl Scenes For Melissa Lauren
She writes: "...yep. those who know me, know i ve been talking about it for a while. Now is just the right time for me to do this. To my fans: thanks for your support... there are hundreds of movies out there with me doing b/g scenes. You can watch them over and over...and look forward to more great g/g scenes from me. Those who have watched my scene with Belladonna in "Bella's fucking girls again", or with Sandra Romain in "Lick between the lines" know what i m talking about..."
Eve Mayfair Retires From Porn
She replies to my questions:
No love life right now. But I haven't really had time for dating anyway.
I am happier out of the industry. I think I really got spoiled coming in on an Eon McKai set. There are a handful of other directors who were really fun to work with -- fun sets, fun costume, fun senarios. I'd look forward to seeing the finished product. But for the most part it became too much like "work", and that wasn't my reason for getting into the industry. It was to have a good time first, the pay was gravy. After awhile it became challenging to get excited about going to shoot. That wasn't what I anticipated and not at all what I wanted. I did meet a lot of great people in the business, though and some days I miss it!
I've worked as a massage therapist on and off for probably five years, but this is the first time I've gone full speed ahead with it, and I enjoy this work a lot. There are many different modalities and I'm always learning something new so my technique stays fresh, and boredom or stagnation is kept to a minimum.
Angie Savage, Gram Ponante Angie Savage, Gram Ponante Courtney Cummz Courtney Cummz, Monstar Courtney Cummz, Monstar Kayla
Dear Penthouse Forum:
You wouldn't believe what happened to me today.
First, let me tell you about myself. I stand 6' tall. I weigh 160 pounds. I have short brown hair. I look like a young Robert Redford.
When I was a senior in highschool, I was the Editor of the student paper. But while covering softball and detention, I dreamed that the day would come when I could apply my journalistic talents to getting inside beautiful young women.
Meanwhile I dreamed about this Indian woman who taught sex-ed. I wanted to take her into my teepee and make her my squaw, even though this was not God's plan for my sexuality.
I also spent many nights dreaming about my busty blonde seventh grade teacher (and mother of two of my friends), the sexiest woman I've ever known.
So, yeah, I'm a big wanker.
I had no idea that one day my dreams would come true.
I've been out of sorts for the past few months. Tendonitis in my elbows, fatigue in my muscles, depression in my head.
I battled through my disabilities Thursday morning and called my bud Terri Redor and asked what was up.
He painted a thrilling picture of the day's events at Webmaster Access. The panels sounded taut but pert and they drew me deep deep inside as they arched their back to receive me.
Grabbing a copy of John Updike's new novel Terrorist and CDs of Jon Stewart's America: A Citizen's Guide to Democracy Inaction, I strapped myself into my chariot and, after turning the ignition 20 times, got the engine to turn over.
I was so excited that I began heading in the opposite direction of Universal City and by the time I had my emotions under control, I was on the 10 East..
I could feel the sputtering power of my van's 12 cylinders on my legs and it made me very very excited.
I dreamed that I was going towards a better world, a place of lavish satisfactions. Sure, the women at Webmaster Access would not be virgins, but quantity has a quality of its own.
The $14 valet parking price took the edge of my excitement and I wandered in the wilderness of the Universal Sheraton for 40 minutes until I left my self-defeating tendencies behind me.
Pornographers were the dominant group at the hotel.
With my fringes tucked in and my hair cut short Travis Bickle-style, I went deep under cover.
"I like your haircut," said Maja Lee (unfortunately she was not in her Pocahontas outfit). "It slims your face."
Shame I couldn't say the same thing about my lithium dosage.
The crowd was overwhelmingly white males. That's not hot.
About one person in 50 dressed up, including blue-eyed red-headed Pamela, who bought DVDsforabuck.com from Dave Koenig about a year ago.
She hung out with programmer Brandon Shalton.
I heard that Gonzo took out a second mortgage to buy Oprano.com from Serge Birbrair and Mike AI. Shame few people go there anymore.
Mike recently paid $1.3 million for camera.com.
It seemed that most conference attendees were staying in their rooms recovering from partying last night.
It seemed that most people came to Webmaster Access "to get f---ed up." Few conversations were about business.
Last night during poker, there was a fight over a racial remark. "It's the first time I've seen violence in my eight years coming to these shows," said a porner.
Ramos was drunk and talking his usual s--- playing poker. Someone I don't know got fed up with it. Ramos got punched. He got knocked down to the ground. While on the floor laying there (fully conscious) the guy that laid him out tried to stomp him but people were holding him back and pulled him away and walked him out of the poker room.
At the last Internext in Vegas, most of the important people did business in their suites or hung out at the Circle Bar. This year there will be a big bar in the middle of the show floor.
I ran into my friend Tara, who's depressed that she can't get a ticket to the Playboy mansion Friday night.
"I thought Tara was your friend?" said another friend later.
I ran into Stephanie Swift and her boyfriend Stefan (they will be together seven years in April). They now live in San Diego. She finds herself coughing when she's back in L.A.
They take a couple of classes online. She dances on the road a couple of weekends a month.
She has always been religious. When she goes to church, she's often greeted by her porn name, including by pastors. Nobody gives her a hard time. It must be her quiet demeanor. She's an outsider wherever she goes.
She does a couple of porn movies a month.
I thought about dark hands reaching into my private places and meditated on pages 45-46 of Terrorist:
The majority of security personnel were recruited from the minorities, and many women, especially older women, recoiled from the intrusion of black or brown fingers into their purses.
A shaggy brown-haired bloke on the newbies panel said: "I'm old school. I make sure that all the links work on my paysite."
Is that the definition of old school? One who adheres to traditional values?
I'm told that Shanes World lost so much content due to the 2257 regulations that they had to combine their two paysites into one.
After attorney Michael W. Fattorosi issued dire warnings on the porn star panel, moderator Terri Redor said, "I knew that after listening to you we'd end up broke, in prison, and diseased."
Even porn stars such as Kayla Quinn were not immune from the American disease of trying to impress people with the number of hours they work.
Angie Savage looked stunning. I didn't recognize her without her tattoos (they were covered up by her clothing).
She had blond hair and big tits and a flashing smile and a breathy voice and numerous other traits worthy of a letter to Penthouse Forum.
Crissy Moran sent a lot of emails to Angie during her journey to Jesus (said Angie's husband Devon). When Miss Savage wouldn't join her journey, Moran moved out of porn and left the godless infidels behind.
"Have you seen any evidence of organized crime involvement during your time at KBeech?" I asked D$.
He wasn't sure what to say. I guess he's locked away in a small rubber room where he can't hurt himself while running the online program.
His brother Kevin works the crowd for his new hottub and processing company PureVanilla.
(I know this is Penthouse Letters format is a lame way to report on Thursday's Webmaster Access but the thing was so damn boring, I have no choice in expressing my feelings -- aside from choreographing an interpretative dance -- but to amp up my writing.)
Several people talked to me about Playboy buying AVN.
I've created a monster.
My source at Playboy Online said that the first he heard of this was from me.
Mike Albo emails:
Despite all the evidence that your "source" for the story was incorrect, you never have posted a retraction or correction. ("I have better things to do with my life than post corrections," I believe was your response.) Arrogance and stupidity in equal measure. Way to go, Luke!
Oh, and PLEASE quit whining about your "disabilities," you girlie hypochondriac. I know people on ventilators who don't complain as much as you.
I'm not queer or anything, but Tom Hymes exuded vitality (and that cheered me up). He was the glad-handing face of XBiz.
Young man, there's no need to feel down.
I said, young man, pick yourself off the ground.
"I'm a nice guy," a porner told me. "Anybody can screw me once. You, you can screw me as much as you like because I don't take your website seriously."
On my drive home, I passed the apartment of a porn star I dated two years ago (Hayley Rivers). I couldn't handle her past and whined about it on my site for weeks.
In the end, she couldn't handle her present with me and blew me off.
7:30 p.m. Kendra Jade calls. "I'm just calling to share feelings," she says.
"I'm eating my dinner. My -- made me soup."
"How does your -- feel about you having porn stars calling you in the middle of the night?"
Heather Veitch comes on the line. "Kendra and I are chillin'."
NBA Player Dwight Howard Wants To Help Mary Carey
I call her Thursday morning.
Mary: "I'm on a radio show. Dwight Howard (Orlando Magic) is really religious. He doesn't drink. He's praying and telling me about God. He wants to hang out with me. I'll go to one of his games."
I chat with Mary's babysitter Amelia. "We haven't been drinking much," she says, "except for two nights ago when Mary was doing gymnastics. She tried to do a front flip over the couch and she landed on her head. She has to wear a hat now because she has this big rug-burn on her head. I'm sure you heard about the bruise she got a couple of weeks ago when she jumped and tried to do the splits.
"She gets drunk and does back-flips and cartwheels..."
Luke: "What's Mary's thing with religion? She keeps talking about but keeps doing porn?"
Amelia: "A lot of people are trying to get her to become religious. She's thinking about it. I don't think she wants to do porn a whole lot longer. She keeps telling people she's looking at quitting. In January she's planning on cutting down on appearances and lead a more normal life."
Nina Hartley, Ira Levine On Inter-Faith Marriage
I don't underestimate the difficulties involved in interfaith marriages, but I also see enough of them that work (such as my brother's) to regard arguments against them with a certain amount of skepticisim. Right now, it's a source of much alarmed discussion among Jewish intellectuals that a large percentage approaching a majority of American Jews now choose to marry outside the faith. While in some cases, this has required the conversion of one partner or the other, most such marriages these days occur between individuals who aren't particularly observant and don't feel a need to choose between their own religion and their mate's. They marry in civil ceremonies and continue to maintain their separate affiliations to whatever degree they see fit.
Nina posts:
If this has no real future, though, (marriage and family), why are you letting yourselves get more and more attached to each other? It will only make the inevitable break up that much more painful. As someone who has lived this lesson, I can only say that it will never get easier to leave him, and it will never be less painful than it will be this week. If you're really falling for each other as whole human beings, however, then religious belief won't matter. Many families raise children in both traditions, allowing them to choose which one, if any, to follow when they're on their own. It's very challenging, to be sure, but it's being done all across the country. I don't doubt that there are support groups in churches and temples devoted to this very topic. But what's there to fight about, anyway? No one is going to change the other's mind. The nature of religious belief/practice dictates that no one can think or say his or her faith is better than the other's. You belive what you do about these matters, and he believes what he does about them. If either of you do harbor secret judgements or attitudes about the other's religion, then even more so get out now. The religious issue isn't just a "fly on the windshield," Gagmouse. It's the engine of the car you're driving. If he wasn't Jewish, he wouldn't be the guy you think is great. Jewishness is as much cultural in nature as it is religious. The same goes for why you're how you are. Our faith traditions have a lot to do with who we are. My first husband was Protestant, and I, Jewish. Because we didn't want kids and weren't observant in our traditions, we didn't think it mattered. But it did. As a Protestant raised in a patriarchal family, my ex had a very different notion of "marriage," "wife," "husband," and "good marriage" than I did being raised in a Jewish matriarchal family. It just made for assumtions and clashes and misunderstandings.
Mourning Adrienne Shelly
Wicked director David Stanley blogs: "tonight, i thought i was dying, but i wasn't. it was so scary. i felt like i was shrinking. it was awful. death seemed so awful. life so wonderful. this coming from someone who never went a day without considering a voluntary end. but now . . ."
Help make a hooker a housewife!
Here is the skinny guys. I'm registered to start school November 13th, 9 days from now! I have now officially retired from porn, I really retired in March but I wasn't 100% sure I would have the will power to quit, so I didn't want to say anything, I wasn't sure myself! Dancing and bachelor parties are still iffy. I actually love doing them but as you all know I drink like a fish (and worse) when i strip and that's not who I want to be. I mean I'm still hot now but in 5 years damn, that would be ugly ha ha. Moral of the story is I need to sell off my stuff because 1. I'm de porning my life 2. My house taxes were due on tuesday 3. My home owners insurance is due 4. I'm about to return to being a struggling full time student and I need help! Please bear in mind I am not asking for free money, I am selling stuff! I have never once asked people to just give me stuff (although 2 people did last year). And the last time I sold anything or pimped anything out was over a year ago when I was trying to close on my house! And the money actually went to that no shoes or anything!
Ding dong the witch is dead. Kami Andrews has announce her retirement from porn, although expected to be short term it is still great and wonderful news. She is auctioning off her whore outfits on ebay to help pay her home taxes (they charge on trailers?), and this picture of her main one had me hunched over in pain from laughing so hard.
Im sure thats what monstar wore back home on his family's reservation when he came out.
I like to picture kami on a bed with the lights off and the glow of the tv shinning over her as she has a small pile of pills and a giant tub of ice cream taking turns on both while sobbing and watching sleepless in seattle wondering when her tom hanks is going to come and then passing out and drowning in a puddle of melted ice cream, But i'll take her leaving porn as a decent second best.
Do The Elections Have Significance To The Porn Industry?
In my view (formed in large part by my sources in law enforcement), the election results will make little difference to the porn industry.
That's why few pornographers got excited about the elections and pushed people to vote in any particular direction. It's the presidential elections that have the most significant influence on porn because the executive controls the FBI and the Justice Department.
Pornographers' biggest enemy is the federal Justice Department and that group has had its eye on porn since John Ashcroft took office as Attorney General in 2001. He spent millions of dollars hiring and training federal investigators and prosecutors with the aim of destroying porn. These investigations will bear fruit in the next two years with a slew of Interstate Transportation of Obscenity prosecutions (none of which will be effected by the Democrats taking the House and Senate).
AVN Editor Mike Ramone emails: "You could be right. Then again, Bush now realizes that he no longer has any kind of wide-ranging mandate (if he ever did, considering his narrow presidential victories) to pursue his social conservative agenda. I personally don’t believe that Bush thinks that “obscenity” is one of the burning issues of our times, but made it a priority for his Justice Department merely to appease his social conservative base - a base that, after last night, can no longer deliver election victories for the, as Kernes calls them, Repugnicans."
One pornographer disagrees with me. "Bush 41, the moment he became a lame duck, his Justice Department settled all its cases with the pornographers. Will a lame duck Bush 43 lay off obscenity prosecutions?"
A pornographer said to me: "Will this election push the Khan Tusions of this world to more extreme pornography or is that even possible short of human sacrifice?"
What's the mood among the pornographers? Ennui. They're wealthy but they no longer find porn entertaining. They don't find much challenge in it.
Vivid's Steve Hirsch has largely divested himself of day-to-day operations. He's farmed out his internet and distribution divisions. He's a big accountant. He monitors his money.
I wonder if a significant part of this ennui is the decline of the feature? Only hardcore believers such as John Stagliano get excited about gonzo. The rest need delusions of grandeur and art.
"We all knew the VHS market was going to be replaced by another technology such as DVD," says one pornographer, "but the DVD market is not going to be replaced. We're in a downward spiral of diminishing returns. There's so much product. There's so much free porn on the internet. There's widespread piracy."
Jack the Zipper Interview
I call him Monday night.
Jack: "I just shot my first movie for Vivid a couple of weeks ago. I'm working on a big one for the end of this month. I've shot about six movies in the past two years. I don't have a high output but I'm quality conscious."
"In this vast and lonely city, nobody knows where I am. I could be in my apartment for days and no one would miss me. That's different from New York. There, when I was a tattoo artist, I walked around with a $1,000 in my pocket like a gentleman. Out here as a filmmaker trying to play the studio system, the porn system, I'm running around with my debit card."
"My tattoo life was wilder than any porn set."
Luke: "What are your ambitions?"
Jack: "I'm working on making the greatest adult film in the history of adult films. I'm using movies like Caligula as an example. I'm doing a Barbarella-type space fantasy with the special effects guys who did Star Wars: Return of the Jedi. And they're putting their name on the project.
"I want to parlay it into a mainstream movie. I've written a couple. I know a lot of people on the other side of the business. They're fans of mine and I'm fans of theirs.
"After that, my goal is to be over in Tahiti and not have to work so hard."
Luke: "Is the primary point of an adult movie to help people masturbate?
Jack: "Yeah. Porn is less like real movies and more like software.
It is supposed to take your brain down a couple of notches."
Q9 emails: "Brianna Love has stated in interviews that she's only been in the business a short time however very young Brianna pics exists on the net on some seedy websites. I wouldn't have recognized her because she is so skinny and has bleached out blonde hair, but the mole on her chest was undeniably her. What's the story on that?"
Small Offices For Discerning Pornographers
He replies: "I was born at night but not last night...Why should I pay $100k when I can now enjoy a nice small office provided by the kind folks at AEE for a fraction of the cost. They saw the writing on the wall and established an area off the main hall leading to the show and created a group of offices for discerning pornographers who are concerned with the bottom line to meet with their customers and conduct business without the giant overhead of past shows. This is a win-win proposition. They get some income, we get to partake of the show amenities. Yeah!"
Jamie emails: "Zero Tolerance will not have a booth. Greg Alves will be driving his RV onto the showroom floor and leaving it there. Rockman Ent. will be doing the same. Juicy and Playboy are pulling their booths. Some companies will be sharing booth space. The truth is the Expo Mart is more effective."
James emails: "Besides the companies that are choosing not to exhibit at this year's AVN show, there's a possibility "fan" attendance might be in decline as the CES show ends on January 11 (the day after the adult expo begins on the tenth)."
Ice Cold emails:
Luke, In regards to your message regarding "Several Big Companies Are Likely To Pull Their Booths From This Year's AEE", one point that you missed is that AVN is making huge money off the fans and none of the companies that show there are getting a dime of that. So companies have to pay to show fees, booth costs, transportation costs to Las Vegas, hotel costs (which have doubled over the last few years), staff and overtime costs, and meals and entertainment at every show. They bring in the fans and AVN makes the money.. AVN is in a pretty sweet position, but it seems like the big companies are just fed up.
Tera Patrick, Britney Skye Party
Young Church (middle) and two blokes Lexi Lamour, Isis Ray, Marie Lexi Lamour, Isis Ray, Marie Lexi Lamour, Isis Ray, Kira Marie Lexi Lamour, Isis Ray, Kira Marie Lexi Lamour, Isis Ray, Kira Marie Lexi Lamour Marie Marie Marie, Isis Ray Lexi Lamour, Isis Ray, Marie Britney Skye Britney Skye Britney Skye Britney Skye, Jessica Jaymes Tera Patrick, Britney Skye Tera Patrick, Britney Skye Britney Skye, Jessica Jaymes Evan Seinfeld, Tera Patrick, Britney Skye, Jessica Jaymes Tera Patrick, Britney Skye Tera Patrick, Britney Skye, Jessica Jaymes Tera Patrick, Britney Skye, Jessica Jaymes, Nick Manning Evan Seinfeld, Tera Patrick, Britney Skye, Jessica Jaymes Britney Skye, Jessica Jaymes Jessica Jaymes, Nick Manning, Krystal Summers, Stephanie Swift Krystal Summers, Stephanie Swift Nick Manning, Krystal Summers, Stephanie Swift Jessica Jaymes, Nick Manning Jessica Jaymes Jessica Jaymes, Nick Manning Jessica Jaymes, Nick Manning Britney Skye, Jessica Jaymes, Nick Manning Jessica Jaymes, Nick Manning Jessica Jaymes, Nick Manning Jessica Jaymes, Nick Manning, Krystal Summers Jessica Jaymes, Nick Manning, Krystal Summers, Stephanie Swift Stephanie Swift Stephanie Swift Stephanie Swift Stephanie Swift
Monday night. Nov 6. At Josephs on 1775 Ivar Avenue.
I hang out with photographers. One says he has to teach in the morning.
They compare the prices magazines pay for layouts. Apparently Busty Beauties pays $1800 for a single girl and $2300 for boy-girl.
Call Girl Turned Author Dimitri Ekmeksis
I email her: "Do you recall any interesting differences between different ethnic/racial/religious men during your work as an escort?"
Dimitri responds:
Oh my god, Luke...it's what I am working on. I am writing my second book and I am happy to tellyou it will be a lot more explicit than the first. I am this minute researching PROSTITUTION NOT A CRIME IN ANY RELIGION...and it brought me to the fact that Muslim men recite marriage vows before engaging in sex with prostitutes. The vows can last from one minute to ninety-nine years...
As you probably know, most religious "leaders" today are sick perverts, due to the repressive beliefs they hold. Repression results in mental disease, I believe. I have heard of one of the top rabbis in this country who flies call girls to his house and the girl has to go to his dark bedroom, where he is waiting in a coffin. I never met him and if I heard his name, I forgot. He lives in L.A. and orders the girls from the ranches in Nevada.
I also heard of a prominent catholic priest who likes to be peed on.
I think intelligence and education makes the best clients in this business, for example I always preferred English men because they are so sophisticated and think it is low-class to haggle over the price. A lot of it is upbringing. The more civilized you grew up, the more respectful you are of ALL women. Call girls adore being treated as ladies. I would definitely say that people who grew up without learning the ways of polite society are rude and crude...unless they are college educated. But there is still a difference. The first 7 years in a kid are the most formative.
Jenna Jameson Unwelcome at Marine Corps Ball
What if it's just a matter of keeping the focus on the tradition and not wanting to make this about the pornstar? You know the media would focus on her appearance there and not for what the event was originally intended. It's kind of messed up but at the same time I've always believed that there is a time and place for everything.
The Marine Corps did what they did to try and avoid any conflict of interest. This includes media, wives, mistresses, etc. I'm sure after so many years of living in the limelight she's aware of the fortune and misfortune of fame. A huge reason why I never wanted to be like Jenna Jameson. I admire her, but I wouldn't trade my privacy for anything. It must be really hard to always be "on" in public and deal with the constant scrutiny of the conservatives.
Dirty Bob Disappointed By Rude Porn Stars
I know I should be used to it by now, but I am continuously amazed at how some of these spoiled gals don't even have the decency to at least say a thank-you now and then. For example: for the last dozen years I have been instrumental in contacting and arranging to bring in nearly 300 DIFFERENT adult performers for the annual Tampa Show. Afterwards, how many do you think bothered to just say or e-mail a thank-you to me for bringing them in? At the MOST perhaps a half-dozen - and it is always people I knew well already. The same goes for the XRCO which I took over about 4 years ago - did ANY of the winners EVER take a moment for a thank-you phone call or e-mail? Or any of the people I arranged to be hosts for the shows? NOPE. And I bet that there are a lot of others out there who, due to firsthand experiences, feel the same as I. I'm not complaining, but geeze - doesn't anyone in the biz any more have any manners or common decency? I (and others) don't do this and expect anything in return...but a thank-you now and then would at least almost make it worth the effort.
Still The One
Bill "Pinkie" Stohlbach writes: "Your still an asshole, you make things up about people, no wonder no one can stand you. Find a job, we all made a fortune in this business except you, why cause your an asshole."
Pinkie had a long relationship with former FSC secretary Carol.
I'm trying to remember Pinkie's role in the industry and I can't think of anything. I can't even remember the name of his company. I know Pinkie didn't make any fortune, not in porn nor nowhere.
I suspect Pinkie was drinking when he sent me that email.
Mike Albo emails:
I’d suspect that Luke was high when he wrote the “not in porn nor nowhere” sentence, but we all know how Luke feels about altering his consciousness with drugs or drink...unless, of course, it’s some mood-altering substance prescribed by a doctor. For some reason, that’s A-OK in Fordania.
I Googled Bill's name and found this:
Bill Stolbach (nicknamed "Pinkie"), the president and founder of the Free Speech Coalition, had suffered a heart attack the day before and was still in a Las Vegas hospital.
A woman named Carol read the speech Pinkie had prepared before his heart attack. It began by stating the original purpose of the organization: to help all manufacturers, distributors, and storeowners combat the problems they had with the justice department: "to stop the cancer of censorship that is killing the industry" by providing an organization in which everyone stood firm together. Unfortunately, Pinkie noted, industry politics were destroying the Free Speech Coalition. In his words... only a few give a shit as to what happens to others. In this industry, it seems that people are only out for themselves.... We have had people go to jail, people who are now facing jail sentences and big fines for no reason at all.... There are so many of you out there who would not join the organization because someone on the Board would not give you special pricing or some other stupid reason.... Does anyone here think that because you have an organization the government will just roll over and give up?"
In conclusion and in frustration, Pinkie resigned as president of the Free Speech Coalition. His speech closed: "I hope to God that no one else in our industry will have to go to jail. God bless all of you who have supported us."
Several Big Companies Are Likely To Pull Their Booths From This Year's AEE
I hear New Sensations has pulled their booth from the Adult Entertainment Expo in Vegas in January. Red Light is also possibly pulling their booth. And Nectar pulled their booth as well.
Jack writes: "DVSX and Sin City also aren't getting booths in Vegas this year."
In tough times, many pornographers are cutting back on booths, viewing them as a bad investment.
For years, many big pornographers were ambivalent about buying booth space. With the downturn in the porn economy, that ambivalence has turned into "just say no."
A source observes:
AVN needs to look at what happened to E3... that should be a wake up call. E3 is pretty much no more - companies don't want to spend the huge money on it - so the convention that will replace it will be much smaller and more intimate.
On July 31st 2006, the ESA announced sweeping changes would take place prior to the 2007 E3.[2] No longer a massive gaming expo, the event is to be downsized at the behest of industry giants such as Nintendo, Sony, Microsoft, Electronic Arts, Activision, and THQ. Among the changes is a modification of the name from "E³" to "E³ Expo".
Although E³ was originally envisioned as an expo open only to game industry professionals, it has grown in recent years to include greater numbers of bloggers and attendees who were not industry professionals. Most of these bloggers will be completely excluded from the revised event, as the ESA has announced that the new E³ will be invitation only.
Jane writes: "The E3 analogy is perfect. Companies were spending $300K on a huge AEE presence... when business was "booming" they could write $500K in orders and justify it. But with the recession in adult, they can't risk fronting that same $300K (at least... costs are going up every year at the show) and only writing $200K or $300K in orders. This is the reason the ExpoMart show has come on so strong. A more reasonable outlay by the studio, and more of a guaranteed return. A lot of buyers don't even attend AEE anymore because it has become such a circus."
Scorpion writes:
Jane is correct. At one point all the big companies were obviously trying to outdo each other with bigger and more extravagant booths. And after last years booth fiascoes (in which many companies were left scrambling around trying to get their booths). As James DiGiorgio wrote: "Some guy who was hired to put up the booths for Smash Pictures and others got busted for heroin and, consequently, Smash Pictures and some other company's booths didn't get erected until Friday or Saturday."
And after the first business only day, It's a lot harder to get said business done with the public coming in after 12 noon. The volume of noise is unbelievable. I'm sure a lot of folks will wander the show floor and drum up orders/business on the fly the way many did after the aborted adult presence at VSDA.
AVN did themselves a big disservice by canceling their fall summit in Palm Springs I believe. Most of the big buyers went to the Expomark show instead and got business done there. All the sales reps I've talked to RAVED about the Expomark show saying it was miles more cost effective than AVN. AVN sent out a mailing saying that they would have a special VIP area for buyers after they canceled their Fall Summit. There had better something special in there if they want these buyers to come back. Without them, why should the studios even bother?
Lighthouse Talent Update
Seymore Butts emails: "business at the agency is still brisk! we have some great girls like sunny lane, kayla paige, demi delia, jordana james, veronica rain and many more! getting close to booking our 1000th job in less than 11 months of business. looking forward to a busy time in vegas as many of our girls will be signing there."
Seymore Butts needs you to work as an unpaid intern.
Ben writes: "Don't they charge $100 or more per booking? So they did $100,000 in business? Why on earth are they looking for free labor then? Is this because he is jewish and cheap or maybe he thinks people are just dying to work for free in LA with $2k per month rent being the norm?"
Shake-Up At Hustler Magazine
A source emails: "I hear Hans, the Features Editor at Hustler who took over for Carolyn Sinclair, is gone and that Editor Bruce David was in a foul mood earlier today."
Jim emails: "Could it be that Bruce is in a foul mood because he's suffering a flashback of the day he was touched in an inappropriate manner by Buster Crabbe?"
CrissyMoran.com
Well as I am sure some of you are aware Crissy Moran has decided to leave the adult industry and take up an interest in Religion & Christianity. As shocking as this might be to all of you, we are and are just as equally shocked being we were the last people Crissy told.
So what does this mean for everyone with galleries, free sites and everything else out there promoting Crissy Moran? Well back in 2004 Crissy Moran signed a 5 year contract with Medium Pimpin (Net 227 Inc) entitling us to retain all rights to her Domain name CrissyMoran.com and all content new and old in conjunction with the site. So this is good news for everyone. Medium Pimpin will run the contract until it expires in 2009 leaving us with the rights to the site for just over 3 more years.
I am sure some of you wonder why you should still promote the site and its simple, nothing will change other then Crissy Moran is not involved at all. Her site has thousands of active members but we were lucky to see maybe 30 in her cam shows at a time. So with the departure of Crissy Moran all her personal stuff is now deleted such as her Surfer Forum, Daily Diary, and Cam Shows.
As stated we don't see this being an issue for anyones conversions, being research shows people we not all that interested in knowing her or talking with her they were more interested in her stunning smile and smashing good looks. Medium Pimpin still have more then 1 year worth of regular updates of photo and video updates, so conversions will remain strong as will rebills.
Do you think most women grow up wanting to suck and fuck random dudes for money while the whole world watches? Especially when you're getting on 30 years old? I think most little girls grow up wanting to be something other than meat. Honestly if Crissy Moran lost her looks in a car accident people would be posting "I'd hit it... with a bat". I'm guessing that since she probably doesn't have much in the way of friends or family that really give a shit about her, she can go the "God" route and instantly have MILLIONS of people who care about her, using "God" as the proxy. Think about it. If you wanted out of porn right now, Nico, who would you turn to? Let's use Eskimos as an example. If I left porn to go back to my eskimo roots, what, I might be able to get an old rusty harpoon, a pat on the back, and a plate of whale blubber to get on my feet? You go the "God" route and Donny has $$$ for speaking appearances, job offers, etc etc. A whole team of people waiting to help. Same with Crissy. I don't blame them for going the "I found God" route since I highly doubt that any woman really dreams of being a porn whore for the rest of her life. The "God" route simply provides a way out that is a fairly easy route. Plus, maybe it brings her some genuine happiness that she couldn't find in money.
JaneB responds: "She did not fuck and suck random dudes. She only shot hardcore with her boyfriend at the time. She has plenty of friends who care about her and so does her family. Why would you make such an assumption? She did not go the God route to get out of porn. She took a hard look at her life and did not like where it was going. There is nothing wrong with leaving porn. She is into religion now and I think that is great. I have known here since 1999 when she first starting modeling and she is a great woman. She will not be coming back to adult and people should just respect that."
Mutt writes: "where in the Bible does it say anything is wrong with posing nude? it doesn't. she felt badly about herself because at 30 years of age she had no skills other than flashing her beaver and that can make you depressed. unless you are a hedonist or truly feel that being a porn actress or model is a worthy profession then it should be a means to an end - something you do for fun and/or profit on your way to something else. unfortunately crissy stayed a little too long at the fair and at 30 realized it. the religious crap is the natural escape for her since her father was a pastor."
A Pornographer Goes A Courtin'
Friday afternoon. I call a friend. "My uncle's coming to visit," she says. "Our relationship hasn't been the same since he asked me for a blowjob."
I call another friend. "It's a stressful time for me," he says. "I fell in love with a girl. She works for [a self-help guru]. I'm wearing my meditation beads right now. I'll do anything to get pussy."
"Have you slipped her the ol' six inches?"
"No. And it's eight-and-a-half.
"I'm in Los Angeles, now, baby, the home of Holly Randall."
"How far have you gotten with her?"
"Not very far. She's traditional. I've been playing it good. We make out. We hold hands. She's old school. She lives with her parents.
"I am so used to being with whores, it is so weird."
I call Rob Spallone in Florida. "I'm down here to meet a few people to see if I can have girls sent back to L.A.
"I've got an office in Chatsworth. It's on Canoga near the old stage.
Smash Pictures is in the shopping center."
The Demise Of The XXXChurch's VH1 Reality Show
Red Brick negotiated a deal with VH1 to shoot a pilot. In June of 2005, we began work on a pilot that was based on the work that the ministry does. The first days of shooting were at Erotica LA. A month into shooting, the network saw some of the tape and decided to go a completely different direction with the show. They heard we had contacts with porn stars in the industry and were trying to help girls out of the industry that needed help. They halted production of the pilot, regrouped, and came up with a new idea for the reality show.
Bill Day was dismissed, Red Brick was let go and VH1 took over complete control for a new pilot based on helping porn stars out of the industry. The show became much more a SHOW and less about the actual ministry but we played along. They auditioned girls for the show and by January of 2006 things were in place by the time the AVN Adult Expo came around to shoot a new pilot. The pilot featured porn star and X govener candidate "Mary Carey" who wanted out of the porn industry and supposedly wanted our help.
...The main thing we heard from the network was the show did not come out as they had hoped for. it did not have a happy ending with a party to celebrate and that is what they were hoping for. as we were not sold on the format of the show, they were sold on the format but the happy ending never happened with the porn star leaving porn.
The Christians reaching out to porners seem to be all the same. They're all evangelicals. They all believe the Bible is the word of God and that Jesus Christ is the path to salvation and that porn is a road to hell. But the tiny differences between them are fissures that can turn into canyons.
First, there are differences in personality. Craig Gross is a finisher. He's more aggressive, more hardball, than his former partner in the XXXChurch -- Mike Foster. His present pastor partner, J.R., is a better fit for Craig.
Partnerships are inherently unstable and rarely work in business. Usually one person needs to be in charge.
Mike Foster is a gentle guy. He's like Heather Veitch. They're not likely to throw down, get in your face, and tell you to change your life. They'll hang out with you longer without preaching at you.
It is with great sadness that I announce the departure of Mike Foster from the ministry of XXXchurch.com.
We closed comments on this post so there is no he said - she said. Please support all of us here in the ministry and Mike and not try and draw conclusions from this that are not the case. This is a tough decision, please respect that.
Shelley Lubben is a throw down kind of girl. If she thinks you're not walking the walk, she'll call you out. She'll fight you.
The XXXChurch people say masturbation is a sin. JCsGirls.com don't have a problem with it.
Stephen Baldwin is an aggressive proselytizer for Jesus.
Much of the time, these Christians would rather hang out with pornographers than with their fellow Christians who condemn them for hanging out in pornland.
One of the great things about being a journalist is that you don't have to take sides in these disputes.
In my view, the main reason people are in porn is not perversity but laziness. It's the easiest way to earn a living. So folks such as the XXXChurch don't primarily get to battle evil. Their work is rarely dramatic. Their goal is to help people lead a conventional life of hard work and commitment to family. These values are not sexy and don't easily make for good TV.
Layne Thr-sher's Danni.com Failure
Lacie writes:
Luke! You're slipping, cutie! I can't believe you're going to let the Danni.com sale to Penthouse slide with out the obvious digs on what a failure it is for your arch nemesis Layne Thr-sher! Penthouse made out like an absolute bandit on that sale and the "management" at Danni.com should be hanging their heads in utter shame for the financial butt reaming delivered to them by Penthouse. Look at the math. Danni.com was a $7 million+ per year company under Danni Ashe's rule. Under the rule of John M-risano from Sunshine Companies and Layne Thr-sher, the company fell to barely $3 million per year. And rumor is its still on a windfall downturn. Which means Danni.com brokered a deal and sold all its assets and future value to Penthouse for its yearly gross (maybe less!). Danni's technical infrastructure is worth at least that, not to mention its brand value and subscriber base. They got absolutely f'ing hosed! Marc Bell should start wearing a patch over his eye and a parrot on his shoulder for that sheer act of piracy. Good for him, I guess. It doesn't take a Harvard MBA to realize that's the slash and burn sale of the century on Danni.com's part. Layne Thr-sher is the laughing stock of the porno business world. The Enron of porno! Curtain is pulled back to reveal you were right Luke – Danni.com is a failure run by a corrupt clueless jerk. Because that sale price don't lie. Nice reporting, but don't' let it slip!
"So come on down to Layne Thr-sher's Used Porno Site Lot! I'm ruining porno companies left and right and passing the savings onto you! If I can't ruin a porno company and sell it to you for a fifth of its actual future value then your next porno site is FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!"
Dahlia Schweitzer Seduced Me
From the press release:
Dahlia Schweitzer -- "the Queen of Berlin's electro scene” -- writer, performer, photographer, general provocateur, and author of Seduce Me (HarperCollins, Dec. 2006), is making her literary debut in Los Angeles.
• 11.22: SEDUCE ME book release party plus special performance by Dahlia @ El Cid, 4212 W Sunset Blvd, Los Angeles, CA 90029
• 11.30: reading from SEDUCE ME @ A Different Light bookstore, 7 pm, 8853 Santa Monica Blvd, West Hollywood, CA 90069
• 12.09: reading from SEDUCE ME @ Babeland shop, 6.30 pm, 7007 Melrose Avenue, Los Angeles, CA 90038These erotic short stories recount illicit affairs, intimate secrets, forbidden passions, and obsessive hungers -- and the sad, funny, startling, revelatory places our sexual desires can take us.
Dahlia Schweitzer spent most of her life in New York and Tel Aviv, where she lived, loved, and worked as a writer, artist, and photographer. But it was in Berlin where she found fame, transforming herself into a singing, dancing, stripteasing queen of electrocabaret.
Her first book, LOVERGIRL is a frank, revealing, and unsensationalized account of Dahlia's quest for meaning in the sex industry and in herself. The German edition of LOVERGIRL will be released next year by Heyne, a division of Random House. I DON'T REALLY LOVE SEX (Sex Mag Ich Eigentlich Gar Nicht), an anthology of her erotic fiction, along with accompanying photographs, is published in Germany by Maas Verlag and in America, as SEDUCE ME, by Avon Red, a division of HarperCollins.
I call her Nov. 2.
"Berlin is cheap, and you get paid more as an artist," she says. "And you have closer proximity to these other European cities."
Born and raised in Baton Rouge, Dahlia graduated from Wesleyan University in 1998.
Her parents (dad is a Justice Department lawyer and mom (Varda Fish) is an English literature professor in Tel Aviv, they divorced when Dahlia was 18) wanted her to study architecture or law, but Dahlia says neither was an option. She wanted to become an artist.
"My father strongly disapproved of my life choices. He can't get over that I don't have an MBA or law degree or something impressively conventional.
"I hung out with no crowd in highschool [in Washington D.C.]. I ran a bunch of the school's clubs. It was an excuse for me not to sit alone at lunch. Every day there was a meeting. Emblematic of the way I've been treated much of my life, the general student body respected me. They were intimidated by me yet never invited me anywhere.
"I was definitely more goth (a fascination with the dark side of life, the antithesis of cheerleaders) than anything else. There were only two other goth girls at my highschool but they were really scary. I didn't want to hang out with them.
"My only pair of shoes in highschool were my combat boots. There was a lot of angst and anger."
Luke: "How did you get involved with the sex industry in New York?"
Dahlia: "I'd been fascinated by strip bars for a long time. It was a response to my being ignored by boys. My sexuality was the great unknown.
"I decided to write a paper on strippers and decided that I needed to get on stage.
"I was 21. I'd only had sex with one guy.
"I drank a lot of alcohol and got up on stage. I was amazed at how empowering it was. I'd never felt looked at as an object of desire. This was the first time. I was no longer shy or introverted.
"I'd read enough to know that this was a dangerous road to go down.
"I never did anything full-time in the sex industry. I'd do one thing for a couple of weeks. None of my friends knew.
"I did a couple of videos. I can't find them anywhere on the internet. I was paid about $100 an hour for solo work, and $300 an hour to work with other girls.
"There was a guy with a studio in Soho who was making a video of pee scenes. He said I could stop in and pee and leave and I'd get $20 a pee.
"I worked as an escort for two weeks. My fee was $400 an hour cash or $500 an hour credit card. I would split it with the agency. I'd do about one job a day. I had no more than ten clients total.
"The owner, an Israeli, offered me a fulltime job managing his internet operation (over 250 websites including escorts.net).
"Everybody in the book Lovergirl has fake names.
"When I was escorting, I thought, 'This isn't f---ing with my head at all. This is great.' Then, when I had sex for free, it felt bizarre. I'd think, 'Some other guy paid me for $400 an hour to do this. How come you don't have to pay anything?'"
We chat about Dahlia's therapy. "I have a lot of father figure issues," she says.
Luke: "Let's imagine I am your therapist and you are feeling safe. Why did you do all the sex work?"
Dahlia: "A deep-seated need for attention from men."
Luke: "Because you didn't get it from your dad?"
Dahlia: "Correct."
"My father hasn't talked to me in five years. He told me then that he disaproved of my life choices."
Luke: "Did you ever tell him what you told me?"
Dahlia: "No."
"Despite my sex work, I'm not the kind of person who can drop her
clothes and have sex with a guy on her first date. It's an emotional investment.
It takes me a while to get comfortable with a person. I'm used to guys
who have a fantasy about what I'm like and want to f--- me as a status
thing, as a notch on their belt."
Luke: What is your mother's attitude to your sex work?
Dahlia: "That if I just found a good boyfriend, I wouldn't need the performances so much.
"She thinks a lot of it is the fault of my father. She wouldn't take much responsibility.
"Male attention is also very important to my sister (seven years younger). I'm fine if I don't have a boyfriend for years at a time but for my sister it is very important to have a boyfriend."
"My father is an atheist. My mother's Jewish roots are important to her but she's not religious. I had a bat mitzvah but we never went regularly to synagogue. We didn't keep kosher but we celebrated all the holidays."
"I haven't been to synagogue in about 15 years."
"If you take your top off on stage, that's the only thing people will remember about your show. My outfit may be sexy, but I never reveal too much."
Luke: "Could much of your yearning be for a male representation of God?"
Dahlia: "Very possibly."
Luke: "What do you love and hate about your life now?"
Dahlia: "Oooh. Intense questions. My life is in transition. I didn't expect the move to L.A. to be so disorienting. I feel like everything is in flux and I'm trying to figure out what I should be doing."
"My sex work has exacerbated my issues with men and my fear of being objectified. I'm really sensitive to that.
"I don't know if my ability to shut off during sex allowed me to be a sex worker or my being a sex worker caused me to shut off during sex. I'm very good at not being myself in bed."
Dahlia estimates that she's slept with no more than 25 men in her life.
Luke: "Do you know how to give a good blowjob and how did you learn?"
Dahlia: "I've been told that I give a very good blowjob.
"I went to a bookstore and read the instructions and then learned by doing."
Luke: "What are the strongest and weakest points in your sexual arsenal?"
Dahlia: "I was just told yesterday that I give a very good handjob. My biggest weakness is my self-consciousness. I get inhibited. I have a hard time being on top unless the lights are off."
Luke: "At which moments of your life have you felt the most desired?"
Dahlia: "Escorting. Because I had the luxury of not doing more than one guy at a time, I got off on it."
She says she's never caught an STD even though as an escort she gave bare-backed blowjobs.
Jessi Summers Finds God, Leaves Porn, Gets Sober
She's returned to her real name Megan.
According to her old website clubjessisummers.com, she was born August 18, 1978. She stands 5'9 and weighs 125 pounds.
I am so happy to say that thanks to god i have been sober for just a couple days shy of two months. he has taken my cravings for eveythinng away. and i'm no talkng a little coke habit or supposed weed addiction. i was so bad for the last 9 months i had to smoke tweak all day everyday or i couldn't function, i also used coke daily, loved pills and ate them every chance i got, drank enough to get drunk daily and i also developed an addiction to sleeping pills.
She blogs July 6, 2006:
i know most of you in the industry are saying to yourselves..."she'll be back...." and i don't blame you. most girls do return, but there is one thing that's different about my situation. i have given my heart and soul to the lord. i am finally at peace with myself. for the short time i have been on this planet i have experienced many bad things, i carried around all the pain, bitterness, and anger from my past experiences. it was consuming my heart more and more everyday. i turned to drugs and alcohol to try and numb it and the money from porn supported my habit... until one night a couple months back, i o.d.ed. whether u believe me or not i left my body and i saw where i was going if i continued living my life the way i was. i also spoke with god...(yes i know it sounds crazy, i was a non believer before this happened and it took me a good two months to be able to truely except what happened to me!) and while god was with me i felt a love and peace better than any high or love on this planet...it was amazing, i can't even explain how wonderful the feeling was. he gave me the choice to go with him or come back to earth.... after asking him many times if i would be alright i made the decision to come back and live my life right, and after ii made the decision i guess the best way to explain it was that i was sucked back down into my body on earth, on my mom's ex gf's couch in her living room, where she explained i had been laying since the night before, it was late afternoon the next day, i still don't undersdtand why she didn't take me to the hospital, but i am sure it was all part of god's plan... there is much more to my whole experience and if you want to know more please message me.... anyway i know most of you that read this are going to think i'm a wack job and that's alright! i would have thought the same thing if it hadn't happened to me! but i feel that i should share my experience in hopes that it may open up someones eyes to god and maybe help you to make changes in your life to come closer to him and let him take your pain and suffering away, so you may finally have what you were looking for in all the wrong places.....unconditional love, healing, and happiness:)
She blogs July 5, 2006:
i grew up in portland, oregon with my mom and her girlfriend....yes my mom is a lesbian. at fourteen i was kicked out because my mom couldn't handle me anymore, so i started living with friends or boyfriends....basically whoever would take me. i got into partying and drugs and stopped caring about school. by fifteen i was living a lifestyle that no fifteen year old should be living... i felt it was necessary to get fucked up everyday with whatever i could get my hands on to mask lonliness and pain that i wasn't quite ready to address. considering pretty much all of my "friends" were dealers i got some pretty hardcore shit. i don't remember all of fourteen or fifteen and i am glad... i witnessed too many horrible things to mention, but that's what you get for hanging out with tweakers and ex cons.... at sixteen my mom and her girlfriend broke up. my mom's gf cheated on her with the next door neighbor. there was more to it than that but that was the last straw. so my mom moved to reno, nv where all of our family lives and for some reason she wanted me to come with her and start a new life. i wasn't totally excited but anything had to be better than where i was at... so i moved down to reno with my mom. we lived with my aunt and uncle for a couple months which was to drastic of a change for me. i went from no rules and getting fucked up all the time to basically being on lock down. i considered it to be like prison then but i now i view it more as rehab.that didn't last long but then again i wasn't really in the habit of living anywhere long. i actually kept m ost my stuff packed in suitcases no matter where i moved because in my experience people usually only let me stay with them for a month or month and a half before they got bored with me and kicked me out. so my next home was my moms new girlfriend's place. she got a new gf basically right after we moved there. it was a two bedroom broke down trailer with four people already living in it, not to mention about thirty cats....so i was the lucky thirty fifth addition to their "home" lol. my moms gf had two girls around my age but we didn't really get along. actually i was treated like the red headed step child in that household. everyone took their shit out on me...and one night it got down to me almost stabbing my moms ex in self defense to realize i had to get the fuck out of there.....lol my stuff was already packed so i was on my own once again i got a place in my exes name off of wells ave. which i had to work a good sixty hour week at mervyns to get, but by that time i had already droped out of school so i had plenty of time on my hands. it was great for a couple weeks. we were getting fucked up everynight and partying and having fun... something i hadn't had for awhile. then one night he turned on me. he had always been verbally abusive but that night i thought he was going to kill me.... i can't remember who called the cops i was kind of in a daze, but they came and he ran. there was blood spattered on the walls and carpet in the bedroom and in the bathroom where most of the beating went down. he had ripped the bedroom door off the hinges and totally fucked up what i considered my home which was something i hadn't had since i was little. i was beaten up pretty bad but nothing so major that i needed to go to the hospital. The cops had helicopters looking around the neighborhood with spotlight and they still didn't find him. lol tweakers are pretty good at hiding, i knew they wouldn't find him. they told me to call as soon as he came back so they could arrest him. not only did he beat me he had a couple warrants out for his arrest. i was so scared waiting for him to come back home, it's like in the movies when they start playing the cheezy music right before the killer attacks...lol. it took him a good hour to come back and he just walked in the house casually like nothing had happened. i never called the cops back... this continued until one day while he was at work i moved, with my half brothers help, back up to oregon.
so i get to oregon with no place to really stay, so i started calling the few friends i hadn't lost contact with to try and find somewhere so i wouldn't have to sleep on a park bench....lol... my friend trisha and her mom let me stay with them for a little bit until i got too out of control with my drug problem and then they kicked me out.... somewhere in the haze i moved in with a family that i lived with from like 4- 10. don't ask me how i got there because i really don't remember. and i met my ex david. he was awesome and i was soooo happy with him. i got kicked out for staying out too late with him, so i moved into his place. drugs started to have an even stronger hold on me than before.... coke, alcohol, tweak, and pills were my best friends... it really fucked up what me and david had. i would disapear for days at a time with no call to say that i was at least not dead.. and then show up at his place like nothing happened. he and even i didn't know the extent of my problem. i don't exactly know where i went from there it's all kind of a blur... but somehow i ended up working at best buy while i was still livig with david and in my first week working there i moved in with another one of the cashiers that worked there. oh yeah i forgot to mention that i did all my moving by bus (tri-met baby!). so anyway i worked there for a good 4 or 5 months which was a LONG time for me considering how much i moved around.i thought it was great i had someone to corrupt so i could have a new party buddy and the most convient thing was that our dealer worked in car audio in the same store.... drugs became even more of a problem... me and david broke up and got back together fifity billion times over last summer which is about the point i am up to now. i moved in and out, i also lived wit various other people all over portland and the surrounding areas.. basically going whereever the parties were good and the drug supply was ample. i was miserable not to mention broke. there were times i got stranded cuz i spent the little money i had for bus fare on drugs... then around my 18th birthday i moved back in with the family i grew up with again, claiming that i had changed and would abide by their rules, which when i moved in i intended to do,but then a couple days after my b-day i was right back doing what i had been doing for a good three and a half years. i found some sleazy guy that claimed to be a legit photographer that ripped me off by paying me close to nothing for nude pics that he claimed were artistic not pornographic...anyways some good did come from it. the next week he hooked me up with a shoot in florida for inthevip.com he said it payed well and i figured it would be fun....plus i was sleeeping with guys for free or for a place to stay for the night, why not make something substancial and get a trip out of it? so i did it and i was sooooo nervous! overall it was a great experience. a week after i came back from the two day mini vacation i got hooked up with my first agent. and i moved to cali after talking to him just a couple times. i didn't really know anything about porn or the industry, or the lifestyle i was getting myself into( although it wasn't that far off from how i had been living)...
Porn Stars Who Love God
Kendra Jade, Crissy Moran, Sky Lopez, Shelley Lubben, Aria, Becca Brat, Autumn Rayne, Trinity James, Jessi Summers.
Who am I missing?
Catching Up With Dillan Lauren
I call her in New York Wednesday afternoon.
She says she dropped out of fashion design school after kidney problems put her in the hospital a few times.
Her former roommate, Courtney Simpson, is living in New York with a guy Dillan used to date.
Dillan: "What's going on out there? I'm not going to have these little exchanges if you hold back on me."
Luke: "Derek's doing well with LADirectmodels.com."
Dillan: "That's what I've heard. He's hardcore but he's good. He's difficult but he's fair. He gets you work.
"My first agent was Tara with Cherry Models."
Dillan turns to her boyfriend: "Sorry about this honey."
"Tara told me she couldn't get me boy-girl work. That I'd have to do anal. She let me sit in her apartment for two weeks with no work. She knew she'd get a higher percentage if she got me doing anal.
"I was 19. My first scene was anal. I'd never done it."
Luke: "Ouch!"
Dillan: "Yeah. I was thinking the same thing. I'm remembering now. Mentally it f---ed me up."
Porn Star Karaoke Halloween Edition At Sardo's Bar
Roy Karch, Mike Horner Roy Karch, Mike Horner Roy Karch, Mike Horner Roy Karch, Mike Horner Roy Karch, Mike Horner Monica Mayhem, D.J. Batman Jasmine Byrne Jasmine Byrne pic pic pic Sardos waitress Kat Regan Reese, Seymour, girl Regan Reese, Seymour, girl Eris, Ric Williams, Isis Ray Eris, Ric Williams, Isis Ray Eris, Ric Williams, Isis Ray Jasmine Byrne Jasmine Byrne Jasmine Byrne Ethan Cage, Lexi Lamour Ethan Cage, Lexi Lamour Ethan Cage, Lexi Lamour Jasmine Byrne Jasmine Byrne Tommy Gunn Monica Mayhem, friend Monica Mayhem, friend Jasmine Byrne, Monica Mayhem Kat Jasmine Byrne, Monica Mayhem Kat Seymour, Heather Veitch Seymour, Heather Veitch pic pic pic Monica Mayhem Heather Veitch, Seymour Holly Randall's new girls: Audrey Biton, Jana Foxy, Foxy Again
Heather Veitch from JCsgirls.com picks me up at 9 p.m.
She's in L.A. for a week as one of four main characters on Stephen Baldwin's reality show pilot for VH1. They've been going to porn sets (Adam & Eve) and KSEXradio.com and talking to porn girls such as Kendra Jade and Sophia Lynn (A&E contract girl) and trying to get them to see the light.
Stephen's approach is more aggressive than Heather's. TV wants drama. They want to capture people turning their lives around on a dime. But that rarely works. It is usually fake.
Sophia is sweet and gentle but she has no intention of leaving porn. She loves porn. She feels like she belongs.
Our drive is slow past Santa Monica, Sunset and Hollywood Blvds due to the crush of Halloween celebrants.
Heather loves God and her outreach but she is down on Christians. Many of them have developed an obsession with making her life miserable for her JCsgirls.com outreach. They said she doesn't care about her husband and kids because she doesn't mention them on her website. That she shouldn't drink. That she shouldn't go out without her husband. That she shouldn't masturbate. That she shouldn't exchange blowjobs for crack cocaine (not that Heather does that).
I am struck by a familiar-looking blonde in black lingerie.
"Who is she?" I ask.
I'm told that she used to be in the industry but now has a mission.
Cool, I think. I get her outside for an interview. She says her name is Kat.
It turns out she was never in the industry but is a waitress at Sardo's.
I interview her anyway. She says people tender to be nicer than normal on Tuesday nights. "And if you're a girl and you're cute, they're a lot more affectionate."
"I live in Los Angeles for a reason because you can do whatever you want," says Kat. "Porn Star Karaoke is the epitome of that. Do what you have to do. There's a lot more freedom of expression. In the porn industry, there's no inhibition. Those are the kind of people I like to be around. They don't care what people think. It's empowering to be around that."
"I'd live in Europe if the entertainment industry was there because they are so much better at expressing themselves sexually than we are."
"I learned all of my sexual expression from porn. Everything I know I learned from watching porn."
"Jenna Jameson is among the most dynamic and charismatic people I've seen on television. She's a great businesswoman. Everyone can learn from that. If you are living in a patriachal society, you might as well use your appearance to get ahead."
It's my first time at Sardo's in about nine months.
Seymour, the owner, hasn't changed. He's still smoking his girly cigarettes and sipping hot tea for his inflamed throat.
I chat outside with Ric Williams of Black Widow Talent (he's dyed his hair blonde) and his girls Eris and Isis Ray.
Ric emails: "Luke, Where have you been?? My hair has been blonde for over 5 years!"
Isis shakes uncontrollably and I fear there is something very wrong with her.
She's a stripper in Wisconsin who flew out to L.A. for two weeks to do porn.
"I haven't shot anything yet," she says. "I flew out here on the 21st and did a bunch of go-sees."
Luke: "What kind of experience has it been for you to go on these
go-sees?"
Eris: "It's all right. I haven't gotten any news and they say that no news is good news."
Luke: "What led you to becoming an exotic dancer?"
Eris: "I was 19. I was in debt and I had to dig myself out of a hole and that was the only thing I could think of at the time and so you go with what you know."
Luke: "How has Ric treated you?"
Eris: "Ric's a good guy. He paid for my flight. He put me up at his house. He's paid for all my food and necessities."
"I want to be a big star," says Isis, "without the big head. I want to stay the same person to show that there are people who can."
Isis graduated from an all-girl Christian boarding school.
Isis and Eris shiver in the cold.
Heather is her chatty self.
I am my restrained self.
We leave at my insistence at midnight. She could've stayed for hours.
"In Vegas, you don't have dinner until 11 p.m.," she says.
"I had a good time tonight. How about you?"
"It was fine."
"We should go somewhere where you are out of your element," says Heather. "I've seen you cut loose once. It was at your birthday party at Holly's house. You were so happy. I don't know if it was because Holly was around."
"I was with a lot of people I liked."