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Mike Ramone Vs. God
Jack (an ex-porner) writes:
Yes, there is a more clichéd, knee-jerk reaction around than quitting porn to become a born again Christian. It's the bitter anti-religious bigot who denies the existence of God, and yet at the same time, can't stop talking about God.
Mike Ramone rambles more about God than Pat Robertson on speed. This begs the question, why is Ramone so obsessed with a being whom he claims doesn't exist?
Imagine, if you will, a grown adult rambling on and on about the tooth fairy, claiming it doesn't exist, and yet talking about it ad nauseam. Is that logical?
If Ramone is right and God doesn't exist, then what's the problem? Why does Ramone get his panties in a wad over the non-existent?
If anything, Ramone comes across like a modern day Job, openly wrestling with his doubts about himself and God. And with each blog, Ramone finds himself pounding his head against the same wall.
If there is no God, then Ramone is ranting about thin air and may be a candidate for institutionalization.
If there is a God, then Ramone will be outlasted by the Almighty.
Either way, Ramone loses this fight.
Mike Ramone responds:
By his knee-jerk reaction, I see ex-porner Jack hasn't really thought this issue out. Let's see if I can shed some light on it for him. I work in an industry that I love that is being threatened by religious right anti-porn forces. Also being threatened by the same forces are some bedrock principles of this nation such as church state separation. The RR's values, however, are based on beliefs that have zero empirical evidence to support them and which in all likelihood are myths that have no more credence that the myths of the Greek, Roman or Norse Gods. This is why I'm so opposed to those values and beliefs. And I'm hardly alone. There is a growing secular humanist movement in this country (secularhumanism.org, Skeptic, Skeptical Inquirer and Free Inquiry magazines, etc.) that sees religion as a great evil. And thus, it needs to be be spoken out against if we are to evolve as a society. If he wishes to learn more (and I know I've been shamelessly plugging the following repeatedly, but here goes again), Jack should read the recent New York Times best-seller "The End of Faith" by Sam Harris. As one review all but screams on the back cover, "Read Sam Harris and wake up!"
And Jack? I'm not bitter at all. To the contrary, I'm thrilled...
Bill writes: "I haven't seen the xxxchurch people operate, but you have. Are they as militant in their mission as Ramone seems to be in his? Maybe it's the Lord Master Damien in him."
No, they're not as militant as Ramone.
Who Is Escom LCC (The Company That Bought Sex.com)?
I want to know the people behind it.
Jack writes: "Good luck finding out who they are as they are a privately held company. No SEC filings, of course."
Poppa John posts in the forum:
Girls, Girls, Girls: I saw your web site through a link on WorldNetDaily, and I am amazed at what you are doing. I support the efforts for I believe that they are needed. Here are some comments and suggestions that may fine tune your much-needed ministry.
1) Tone down the "sex kitten" images. All of you are attractive women. Each of you are "shapely" as your tight tee shirts attest. As a man, I am visually oriented, and I get extremely mixed messages from pretty women in tight shirts trying to talk about Jesus.
2) As attractive and shapely women, each of you are aware in some way that you are seen as a "trophy". As a pastor, the brother of an attractive woman and the father of an attractive duaghter, I have seen the devastation that causes women to pander to that attitude. It is almost as if being attractive is a handicap, especially as you recall Roy Orboson singing, "Pretty woman, won't you give your smile to me?" This is an area that needs to be addressed especially for the teen girls. To supplement income as a pastor I substitute taught. Because I am considered friendly and attractive, I can not tell you of the many aggressive girls who made passes at me. Also in every middle school I taught, there were several in-school incidents of oral sex. Attractiveness needs to be re-evaluated as a barometer of worth, and you can help get that message across.
3) Being pretty causes men to turn their heads, and that in turn causes other women to be jealous. That makes the pretty women cling together. Look at the pictures of the friends of Natalee Holloway as an example. In this case, attractiveness is a matter of self-esteem. We all know that is false.
4) You need to take your message into churches, but that will be difficult for all of the above reasons, and this, important one: some pastors are addicted to internet porn. Only those in the pastorate know its loneliness, and how easy it is to click on a "curious" link, and to get more than what was suggested. What Lori and Tanya may not know as behavioral science majors is that those images we men see on the internet last in our memories for at least two weeks. That puts a pastor spiritually "out of commission" for two weeks. He battles the thoughts he knows are evil, and tries to restrain them as he ministers to the flock. He knows that he is helpless, and that he is vulnerable. Therefore, he tries to fortress himself by doing things to insulate him from further temptations, naturally he fails in his self-effort. Some pastors give up, and walk away from the pastorate, others act out and are caught. But the vast majority of pastors addicted to porn lead lives of quiet desperation. Thus our Enemy has a victory in an ineffective pastor.
Press Photographers Banned From Friday's Neu Wave Hookers Premiere
The Neu Wave Hookers premiere party was held at Miss Kitty's Parlour (6510 Santa Monica Blvd, LA, CA 90038) in Hollywood, but don't be shocked if you don't see any photos from the event, because in spite of inviting the media via a press release earlier this week, photographs were not allowed. I had shot four photos when a large four hundred pound woman dressed in black stormed up to me and huffily asked,'What's that for?' I explained to her that I was a press photographer and she roughly grabbed me by the hand and escorted me to the door saying,'I'm Miss Kitty and I don't allow photos in my club. You can either check your camera at the door or put it back in your car.'
I left after that. I have to put the VCA Neu Wave Hookers party in the same category as the disastrous Bikini Brawl benefit last year. The event even started out on the same sour note as the aforementioned event with door people problems (the 'security' officer was unprofessional and then the door hostess told me that I was not on the list in spite of the fact that director Eon McKai emailed me and asked if I wanted to shoot photos at the party and offered to put me on the 'do not pay' list. I ended up paying ten dollars to get in.) What was the point of sending out a press release if press photographers aren't allowed in?
Cam writes:
When I arrived at the door, I said I was there to shoot some snaps and do some interviews for LukeisBack because he couldn't make it due to personal obligations. I was told by the security guy outside that if I wasn't on the "list" (which I wasn't) that I'd have to pay $10 to get in, and $3 to check my camera at the door. I paid the $13 bucks and went inside.
I think this issue only came up because this was a Miss Kitty party. I mean, it FELT like a Miss Kitty party--the gogo dancers and stage show were the main attraction--the whole porn premiere thing seemed to be totally secondary. They had the movie (atually just a teaser loop) projected onto a brick wall in the CORNER--nobody was paying attention to it. It probably would have been a better party if Eon (or his promotion people) had rented out a private space, but that's their call.
As far as I'm concerned the club promoter is entitled to set whatever rules they want, it just sucks that Tara had to go through all that. Clearly some sort of special arrangement was made with Brian at hardcoresource, although I can't report on whether he had problems later on in the evening with Miss Kitty herself, since I bolted at around midnight.
When I spent time chatting with Gram I don't remember seeing a camera around his neck--it might be worth your time to check in with him, too.
Ronnie Caan On Hollywood Mafia
This is Ronnie Caan. The brother of the LAS VEGAS television star James Caan. Ronnie might be less talented than his famous brother, but he knows how to work it. He can often be found in Frankies on Melrose looking a little in the bag. He is a producer on his brothers films. He produced one of James Caan's best films "Thief". This guy is a handful! He once scared his brother by throwing an ashtray at his head. He used to hit the Playboy mansion where he would hit up the brother Ippolito for cocaine. He was into the both Joey and Louie for thousands of dollars in blow. I would see him around Frankies and as soon as any girl walked in he would be all up on her. He could often be found with Ronnie Lorenzo when Ronnie was in Brentwood.
I have a name from the past... Theodore "Teddy" Gaswirth. Teddy was big into the porn. He used to make and sell loops. He was with Mickey Zaffarano, back in the day. Teddy was one of the largest porno guys in the 1970's in Los Angeles. He was also partners with Jacob Molina's who became a victim of an OC hit. Teddy would later be arrested for soliciting of murder. Teddy's company TGA was bought by Mike Esposito and Tommy Sinnopoli then renamed it Visual Images. It has since been sold to Legend. Teddy opened up Southern Periodicals in Miami. I used to call him Curly after the Three Stooges character.
Here's an anonymous post to the HollywoodMafia blog:
hey jimmy the gent, you some english major. me i am not. this kid kenny has tried to ruin very nice people. people you dont even know. i have been around street guys all my life. i surmize that you are what we call just a mob watcher. my people are locked up in the federal system, i see what they go through. what thier loved ones go through. do you? this chink kenji, is starting to sound like an eggplant. you and me , we might know each other for all i know. and yeah i make threats. have a good day mob watcher.
Here's another post:
Ronnie Caan has been sober for the past 8 years and doing very well as one of the head guys at Impact House Drug Rehab center in Pasadena ca, and he has been away from the movies well over 20 years, and I stay at Frankies Restaurant on Melrose and I think I seen him there having Dinner one or two times over the past few years. I guess all your info is very old, and not very accurate, if you're going to give infomation out and slander people you should get your facts straight. It seems you really don't know what you're talking about.
HollywoodMafia Fingers Tabitha Stevens
Kenny Gallo writes about his ex-wife:
So this is Tabitha Stevens.... She has now become the Michael Jackson of porn. This girl is on DR 90210 everytime I see the program and that is not all that often. I have her listed as an associate because she was around so much.. What else can I call her? Tabitha was around at San Gennero's when Ori was wearing a wire on Jimmy. She was with us the night before Jimmy was arrested at Ori place for Ori's attempted extortion.(The one where Jimmy saved Ori from getting shot.) She was with me when I picked up Jimmy at MCC LA after his five month stay. We were at Nicky Blairs in Las Vegas after Keely Smith and Bobby Milano performed. So Tabitha has seen it all. I don't even have the time to get into her New York connections. Let her say now what she wants she was there.... I have some more good video that will come out soon.
The LA Family is own one made guy..(Crybaby [Pete] Milano) The other position was long ago filled after Carmen had his little pow wow in the hotel room with the FBI. You just cant take that back. So who took his position? There was talk that Tommy was upped. I was told when I was in Ontario that he was upped. Then there is the very capable John Vaccarro. This guy has done his time and is well respected everywhere. He is also so mean he once beat the shit out of his daughter! He let that be a lesson to any who doubted his dedication to violence. John is in Las Vegas busy with his construction. He could be the man, but does he want it? Tommy has Anthony and a few zips. I don't think Lil Louie Caruso wants anything to do with being a boss. He spend sometime in Westlake, but mostly he sticks to Arizona. Really its like Jimmy [Caci] said OVER.. It's still there but dormant. Michele Giovanni Marchese this was the drug dealer who had Tony Sposato running around as his bitch. He was not only a drug dealer but an accomplished Shylock. Hey our favorite barroom drunk Ronnie Rome was with him after he left the safety and warmth of Rose.
Does Paul Cambria Speak for You? Attorney Misses Golden Opportunities in Senate Testimony
On a lazy Thursday afternoon I found myself watching C-SPAN with a mixture of frustration and disappointment as respected adult industry attorney Paul Cambria got up before a United States Senate committee and made a number of extremely unfortunate mistakes in response to questions from a panel of four senators – two Democrats, and two Republicans. Mr. Cambria, dressed in his Sunday best and trying very hard to project humble humanity, spoke on behalf of the adult entertainment industry on the issue of children’s access to “internet pornography” – but, in a matter of bitter irony, it is precisely the internet side of the adult business that Mr. Cambria knows the least about.
Darklady writes: Cambria Struggles in Senate Porn Hearings.
Keri Sable's Departure From Porn
MyAdultGroups writes on ADT: "The craziest thing is that she obviously showed up for the AEE promo material photo shoot and then didn't come to the event."
Monstar writes:
About 2 weeks before any rumor hit the street I had talked to Keri (Early Dec), but at her request, i am not allowed to say anything until (or IF ) she gives me the ok... BUT I can say, she is a wonderful girl and pretty much had the intent of going to the AEE. what changed her mind with a couple of weeks left, i don't know. what sucks is she really was starting to get into her acting abilities. Stormy had a lot of confidence in the girl, enough that she wanted her for a big movie she is planning on making later this year, and word on the street is that Keri's turn in Michael Raven's Visitors is really amazing. If she would have had a longer run at wicked, she would have easily hit superstar status in no time.
Former Wicked publicist Daniel Metcalf writes:
Since, like any true New Yorker, she doesn't drive, I drove her to the many radio appearances we booked for her during that time (KDAY, Power 106, KROQ, etc.) and internet interviews (KSEX, etc.) and she was truly a joy to work with. She's a great girl, and was an ideal spokesperson for the company. While she was new to "celebrity," she never failed to put her interviewers at ease with her grace, style, wit, and a truly unique sense of humor. And as she's a true fan of hip hop, she was a perfect fit for urban radio, and we focused on reaching out to those types of LA radio stations - she really helped Wicked connect to the urban demographic.
With Michael Raven's "The Visitors" scheduled for release later this year, know that some of Keri's best work ever has yet to drop. You'll be impressed not only by her sex scenes, but by the depth of characterization she brings to her role.
Alison Armstrong said on Dennis Prager: "Intimacy leaves a relationship when a man becomes convinced he can't make his woman happy. So he shifts his focus to not upsetting her. Men are single-focused. They can either try to make her happy or they can concentrate on not upsetting her (not telling her things she won't like, walk on eggshells, stay invulnerable).
"Women like to emasculate men because they fear the power a man can have over them."
Allison suggests that if a man uses porn, a woman should pull up beside him with her favorite porn (erotica such as Anne Rice novels), and say, "You look at your porn. I'll look at mine. And if we get excited, then let's play.
"Women shouldn't be so afraid of a man's interest in porn. If a man looks at a woman in a magazine, he's not trying to provide for her and make her happy."
From an article:
Basically act like you have two Playmates in your bathroom getting ready for the date you promised them when THIS date is over....NICE!!! "In any situation with a woman where you think your self-respect may be being compromised, ask yourself this: "What would the man I'm committed to being do in this situation?" You can also ask: "What would I do in this situation if there was an abundance of sex in my life?" Then take the risk of losing the girl, and acting with self-respect. That can be hard, but it's worth it! As they say, "living well is the best revenge." When a woman sees you treating yourself with respect, she'll be more likely to respect you, too."
AVN Awards
Kimberly Kane writes on XPT: "I HAD A PRETTY GOOD TIME. I'M COCK SUCKER OF THE YEAR! MY MOM IS SO PROUD!"
Kara Nox posts:
I had a great time at the show. It was my first one, and I got to sit up front. But I do have some gripes:
1. The food. My money went to what?
2. Not enough girls.
3. Too many fans getting in by buying tickets from hotel staff.
4. Did I mention the food sucked?
5. Lame jokes.
6. Monotonal presenters
7. I love Jenna, but not that much.
8. Please, please, PLEASE NO MORE MULLETS!
9. I thought these people were misfits in high school. Hmmm. Vivid&ClubJenna certainly made up for. YAY! GO TEAM!
10. I didn't get laid, or invited to any kick ass parties. My husband and I wrote a letter to the folks who run the show, and told them that they need to allow female talent in either for free or for a good price, and cut down on the number of pornies (sort of like Trekkies, but for porn) buying tickets from waitstaff. You have no idea how pissed I was when I got emails the next day from guys I know outside the industry who crashed parties looking for me. Where was I? Home nursing my sore ass feet, and taking a nice plunge in my jacuzzi. Next year, I'm throwing a party at my house.
Tod Hunter writes:
Let me be honest: I have not been to the AVN awards the last two years, 2005 and 2006, so my perspective is more historical than current.
The band at the AVN awards SUCKS. They have ALWAYS sucked, they are a tone-deaf garage band that -- if the two main people in the band didn't ALSO PRODUCE THE SHOW -- would have disappeared like a turd down the toilet 20 years ago.
They are awful, dreadful, horrible. I remember when I was assigned to cover their gig at Palladino's on Reseda Boulevard years ago. They had Dyanna Lauren singing with them, one bright light of competence in the sinkhole of wretched awfulness, but the one thing I remembered was when they offered their new CD to anybody who wanted one and NOBODY MOVED TO THE STAGE until some good-hearted soul -- Dasha, I think -- walked up and took one.
In an evening I have referred to as "detention" -- "You don't want to go but you have to, and you are bored out of your skull for three hours" - the band is one of the lowest points.
The Return Of Scott Ross to AVN?
Nope. Scott Ross has not rejoined the AVN staff. He occasionally writes freelance articles for AVN, but never about any of the companies he does PR for (as far as I am aware, but would love to catch that if it were ever true).
Shining A Light On Penetration
Jason posts on www.kabbalahcurious.com:
My name is Jason Sechrest and I am, among many things, a pornographer. I produce, direct, review and write about performers of adult entertainment, straight and gay. I host various shows interviewing performers of the biz - all while attempting to break into the mainstream acting world. I am not a porn star, though I guess I have become a “star” of that genre over the past eight years.
I began studying Kabbalah at 18, the same age I began my career. I’ve lived my life as an open book, telling all about the journey of my own sexual discovery, but I've neglected taking my readers on the discovery of my Soul. Why? It's scary. Talk about getting naked! But the more I study, the more I learn, the more it becomes my job to share. So my question: Is it possible? To be wading in superficiality and materialism but maintain a spiritual connection to something greater? After all, the darker the corner, the brighter the light that can illuminate it. And if challenges are truly gifts, I think I’d like to try. Hell, if Madonna can do it after the "Sex" book, so can I.
Reminds me of another Gentile pornographer who studies kabbalah -- Donovan Phillips.
Did You Hear the One About the Ex-Porner Who Became An Existentialist?
Is there a more clichéd, knee-jerk reaction around than quitting porn to become a born again Christian? Recently, I've read remarks by one performer saying she plans on becoming a "devout" Christian several years down the line and unconfirmed reports about another semi-retired one, who at the urging of her Bible-thumping mother, has quit the biz altogether to find religion. They follow, of course, in the footsteps of numerous other ex-porners such as Harry Reems, Missy and reportedly more recently Aria. Why don't we ever hear of porn performers quitting the industry to become say, existentialists, or secular humanists, or agnostics or atheists or socialists - anything other than blindly accepting in grand reactionary fashion a tired, brain-dead, self-contradicting, myth-based value system invented two thousand years ago by ignorant (by today's standards) humans without actually intellectually examining it first? This is more a rhetorical question than anything else as I'm aware of many of the various reasons - levels of education, socio-economic status, religious upbringing and the anti-sex guilt it instills, etc., etc.
Perhaps porn stars embracing Christianity is a cliche because it is effective means for people to send their life in the opposite direction from porn. I remember that before I got seriously ill, I was studying hard at college. While ill, I read a book that recommended doing the opposite of what you were doing before you got sick. So when I recovered my health, I pursued acting (with no success). Some people have bad experiences with porn, alcohol, drugs, promiscuous sex, etc, and an effective way of turning one's life around is to embrace Christ and join a religious community.
Where are the secular humanist homeless shelters? Which secular humanists devote their lives reaching out to alcoholics, drug addicts and people with AIDS? The people who reach out to those in trouble tend overwhelmingly to be Christian.
I'm not a Christian. I left that religion in my teens. I don't believe in any of its unique tenets. I have no axe to grind here. I suspect that the human need for religion is as great as the human need for love. Secular humanism will not make most people happy. This does not argue for or against its truth, just that most people yearn for the transcendent and for lives that have ultimate and eternal meaning. One of the basics of AA is belief in the Higher Power, a neutral term for God.
"Spiritual" is a popular term because anyone can claim it without doing any work, such as belonging to an organized community. Spirituality is a way to get transcendence without making the sacrifices that an organized religion demands. Examples of porners dabbling in spirituality include the kabbalah fad which has intrigued Jason Sechrest and Donovan Phillips. It seems that the only behavioral demand that the Kabbalah Centre (a money-sucking cult) makes on its adherents is that they spend money on its products.
Jack writes: "I think the ambiguity of calling oneself "spiritual" is what makes it so popular. It has sincere, noble connotations, and yet requires no actual study or adherance or membership in an organization. It lifts the bearer into quasi-superior state of mind where they can be above the secular, and at the same time avoid being identified with the "religous" with its pesky sacrifices and moral code."
Delusions Of Grandeur
I am easily susceptible to delusions of grandeur, so I could be completely wrong about the following.
But when I read most writing on porn stars and pornographers, I think it is just froth and bubbles. By contrast, when I look at my best 50 interviews and profiles, I think my work stands like stone. That it will last. That it will forever be the definitive look at the psyche of the person I profiled.
I feel that I've branded my name in the flesh of dozens of my subjects and that their lives will never be the same after talking to me.
Who's The Toughest Agent?
Without a doubt, it is Derek Hay, owner of LA Direct Models. He makes more porn girls cry than any other agent. And it is precisely this quality that both producers and talent love.
Because his talent fears him, Derek gets them to show up to sets on time and to give 100%. Producers obviously adore an agent who can do this. And flakey porn girls respect a man who can keep them in line. If a porn girl is unreliable or alcoholic or drug-addicted, there's probably no agent who's more likely to whip her into shape (and make her money) than Derek.
Many porn girls want a man who will take charge of their life. That man is Derek Hay. They fear him. They obey him. They make more money because of him. What's not to love?
What's Up With Kurt Lockwood?
Wankus, program director at KSEXradio.com, writes Jan 21 on ADT:
The funny thing is, from day 1, I never had anything against this guy. I always thought he was a little bit of a primodonna and a little quirky but I was always nice to him and always gave him props cause he seemed always cool to me.
He claimed to be mad at me for doing an immitation of him on the air (which was harmless and funny and very good I might add) but the bottom line is, when chatter of me and Tyler {Faith} getting close started circulating, is when all of this aggression and hatred towards me started coming out.
When Tyler first started hanging out with me (even before we ever had anything intimate between each other}, he called her freaking out, telling her to stay away from me, etc., etc.
When it became full on public that we were together, he began his crusade of odd and hostile behavior towards me and while I used to ignore it, it's sometimes hard to now because it's so over the top.
Everytime I say to myself, "Okay, this guy rec'd enough attention from me, I'm done"...he does or says something else that is just too hard to resist poking a little fun at. Haven't heard from him since my last post on my blog so maybe he'll just go away now and we can all move on. Doubt it, but it would be nice.
[FYI: I have NEVER posted as Kurt or anyone else for that matter on the AVN Blogs. In fact, like XPT, I hardly even read them anymore because they have become a place that doesn't inspire good banter between porners and fans, moreso a place where unregistered morons can pretend they're back in grade school. When I post, I sign in. Like me or not, it should be pretty clear that I have no problems saying how I feel and taking the credit for it. Just listen to my radio show.]
Porn Star Kara Nox Says Donkey Punch Is Not Cool
There's a lot of degradation in porn. It's getting to be a cliche. If anyone thinks Donkey Punch [where women get punched] is cool, they should contact a therapist. Women beaters are the bottom of the rung in prison, right down there with child molesters. Cops, no paragons of morality, routinely beat the living s--- out of guys who cuff other women around. (I worked for a law firm after I got out of college, and I assure that not even our CDA would take on cases involving guys hitting women.) Eating pseudo-feces out of a girl's ass is degrading. Licking a guy's hairy bunghole on camera is degrading. Come on. Let's use our brains here. Even CroMagnons came up with interesting cave art. Hardcore can still be exciting, hot, and bizarre without being violent, or degrading.
Prodigy X Sounds Off
I've been acquainted with Prodigy X for a year or two or three. He's a tall black guy with a long goatee.
I spoke to him for almost an hour over the phone Sunday night, Jan 22.
As I publish his words, I welcome responses from anyone who knows Prodigy or is named by Prodigy in our interview.
Prodigy: "I just don't know where to start."
Luke: "How did you get into the porn industry?"
Prodigy: "When I was 19, I lived in a homeless shelter. I saw an ad in the LA Weekly: 'Guys, want to work with beautiful porn stars?' I thought it was like a gangbang. I thought, hey, I've been wanting to get into this for a while. Why don't I go down here? I went down and it turned out to be a bukkake [Jim Lane's American Bukkake] -- with about 60 other guys standing around.
"The director said you had to stand around, beat your meat, and come on a girl's face and get paid.
"I did two of those. Back then it paid $50 each. The HIV-test was $85. There was no chlamydia and gonorrhea check at the time.
"I've been going to every one since American Bukkake 15. The only one I missed was 20.
"What motivated me [to get into porn] was watching [a lot] of porn. These guys get to be with a bunch of beautiful women without even knowing them. Hopefully this is something that will get me into a better situation as well.
"On my first bukkake, I met Jasper Wade (a 6'3" buffed black guy). Jim told Jasper to watch out for me. I started working with Jasper. I had a little VHC camera that was good for nothing. We started shooting scenes. He was the talent. I was the cameraman.
"It turned out that Jasper was into a lot of other things -- heavy drugs. He was never on time. He didn't pay the talent when he was supposed to pay them. He was supposed to pay me about $300 per scene for camerawork.
"A few weeks go by. He tells me my camera is not good enough. I go out and find two other camera guys who've just graduated from filmschool.
"We organize a shoot in Century City. Jasper doesn't show. We wait about five hours.
"He calls me back the next day and says he was in trouble, blah blah. Could we do it again?
"We used a Puerto Rican girl named Alexis. He was supposed to pay her $300. We did the shoot. He only paid her $50. She said her husband was going to be pissed off, so he went out and at least got her some drugs or something. They smoked. He was supposed to pay her back later.
"He never paid me. He disappeared. I heard he was in jail. I heard he went back to Japan.
"He's come back a few times. He's worked for T.T. Boy and Jim Powers. I heard the guy started smoking something more potent than weed. He was going to sets and flapping his arms about as though he could fly and making an ass out of himself.
"Jasper took all the footage from me and never paid me a penny. I haven't seen the guy since.
"I started asking people how to get into the industry. People told me, 'What you need to do is bring some girls that want to work with you and then the companies will shoot you.'
"I think, OK, that shouldn't be too hard to do.
"At the same time, I'm still going through hard times. I'm living off the streets. No place to stay.
"I start going to malls and walking up to every girl I can. Maybe talk to a hundred girls and I'd be lucky to get three that wanted to do it.
"I started taking the girls around and asking if I could work with the girls."
Luke: "Did many of the girls get angry at you?"
Prodigy X: "Yeah. Luckily, I've never been slapped. A lot of them looked at me and said, 'You look like you're broke, like you don't have any money. What are you supposed to do for me?'
"A lot of them get offended. 'I would never do that.' They look like they're getting ready to slap you but they don't.
"I didn't feel too good about it but I knew I had to make a move.
"As I started taking the girls around to companies such as West Coast Productions, Multimedia, Darkside, etc, the same people that told me before, 'If you bring some girls down, we'll shoot you,' all of a sudden say, 'We have our own guys, but we'd like to use your girls. We'll give you an agency fee [around $80].'
"I didn't really like it, but I said, 'Oh well, I might as well do it.'
"My mistake at the time was that I wasn't managing girls. I was just getting girls and taking them to companies."
[For instance, Joel Lawrence of Gold Star Modeling pays a $500 referral fee for each girl who signs up with his agency.]
"I ran into some hard times again. I must've disappeared off the scene for a year or two and the only thing I was doing was bukkakes whenever they came up and a few blobangs here and there.
"Three years ago, after moving to a stable place and getting off the street, I thought to myself, 'I need to go into [managing girls] fullforce.'
"I started putting ads in the LA Xpress to get girls. I learned that managing girls is very difficult. They don't show up for shoots and then call you two weeks later. Just trying to get all the paperwork together...and get them to show up on time.
"I've had girls not show up and the next thing I know is that the director is never speaking to me again.
"Managing didn't work too well, so I tried to do the performing thing again.
"After three years of begging Jim Powers to get me in a scene, he finally agreed. [Production manager] Johnny Thrust called me. He told me it was going to be a big boob video. I should've asked if it was going to be fat girls.
"At the time, there was a bus strike. I don't have a car. I'm paying taxis and walking two miles to get to the place. I got there two hours late. When I go in there, there are all these fat chicks standing around. I have nothing against fat girls, but you know... Out of all the fat chicks there, they gave me the fattest.
"I know now that 19 out of 20 guys in the industry take something for performance enhancement [viagra, levitra etc].
After our talk, Prodigy summarized in an email his thoughts about fellow pornographer Brian Moore:
I met Brian at an H.I.V. and other S.T.D. prevention meeting at A.I.M. He seemed like the nicest guy in the world at first encounter but I sensed that something was wrong. He gave me a ride to the nearest bus stop and we exchanged phone #’s that night. He called me promptly and we agreed to become partners. He knew absolutely nothing about the industry so I had to teach him all the basic from scratch.
Brian wanted to produce amateur video in his apartment and nothing else but after trying to convince him that management would be the way to go for a couple of weeks he agreed. At first I started off doing all the bookings and things of that nature while he observed. He still wanted to shoot but neither of us had much money so he called a friend in Arizona about a half year after he initially said that he was going to find an investor.
The conditions of the money were that no matter what neither of us could spend a dime without the both of us agreeing. Well a couple of month’s later I finally had some people in mind that would shoot for cheap being that it was only $1,500. When I approached Brian about the loan so that we could shoot he informed me that most of it was gone and there was only like a $100 left. I was furious and asked what happened to the money. He told me that he had been spending the money on the ads and that even though he told me that he bought his digital camera with his own money he in fact then turned around and used the loan to pay off the bill.
Originally (before the money) he was placing ads in the L.A. Express using his own money and somehow I was suppose to be psychic and automatically know that he was going to spend the loan money on that purpose after he received it. Even though we agreed at the beginning that the money was for shoots only unless we came together and decided to use it on another purpose.
Well this guy still expected me to pay off half of the money and still until this day hasn’t let that go even lying to people partners that he invested the money into one of my projects and that I f---ed up. But of course this is coming from a guy who never lies (Yeah f---ing right!). Well even after problems arrived he was still begging me to move in with him and telling me that things would be better once we were living together. Like an idiot I finally moved to save a little money and in retrospect it was one of my biggest mistakes ever.
Even Living on and off of the streets for five years (ages 16-21) was better than living with him. First I get there and nothing is the way he said it was going to be. He immediately tries to take booking matters into his own hands which was disastrous. He would have girls showing up to sets not knowing how much they were going to get paid or even what they were going to do. There were times when girls would show up and not know that they had an anal scene or had to perform with five guys.
From what I hear that even still goes on to this day which is a damn shame after a year and a half of doing the same thing you would think that a person would learn. Hell I never even f---ed up one booking on my part, not even from the beginning so either you have it or you don’t. Also what I said about him being the nicest guy in the world, when people meet him for the first time he can be, but try seeing him all the time and you’ll notice constant and gradual changes in his behavior over a course of a month.
He goes from the nicest to the most underhanded, lying, cheating, backstabbing, and annoying person you could ever know. Take this from a guy who once stayed in a mental illness program with schizophrenics for shelter, he’s far more sick in the mind than any of them are. Take for instance the time he was getting ready to go out of town. I went to his computer and opened a gallery (porn) to look at for a few minutes and was done.
He went to his computer and a window popped open (porn), it was two days until he had to go on vacation. He sat at that computer for nearly two days looking at hundreds of galleries and thousands of pictures because every time a new window popped open he had to go to every single girl on the site and look at or download her pictures into his Jack Off Folder for easy access.
He blamed me of course because if I never had opened that first window none of this would have ever happened. So it was now my responsibility to make his talent scouts a flyer because he didn’t have the time. No matter what this guy is doing , whether brushing his teeth, making a meal or looking at constant porn on the internet he’s always taking care of business because as he puts it “My Penis Is My Briefcase” that’s the quote of the year.
His internet porn habit which I kicked off supposedly got so bad that he said he had no choice but to jack off in front of me because I wouldn’t get out of bed and leave him alone for 30 minutes to an hour at 1:30 A.M. in the morning and he continued this almost every day for a week straight until I said enough! and agreed to leave at his every whim. The bed was uncomfortably close to the computer which was only one almost close to two feet away. Also for some strange reason he had to set aside a specific masturbation time for 11:00 P.M. because it’s right after the 10:00 O’ Clock news, go figure. You might be wondering why we were in the same room. Brian would invite new people to come and stay as roommates all the time because he wanted to save money.
He invited a friend who he told me was a thief and a crack head and gave me no choice so I had to take his bed for a while because that guy snored tremendously loud. Of course no matter how many people came he wanted the rent to stay the same in the tiny one bedroom. Once, this porn chick Nicole Brazzle came over after having a mental breakdown. She couldn’t even stand on her own or use the restroom by herself so Brian had to pull her draws down and wipe her pussy for her.
She didn’t give me her porn name and said she would never do porn again and that she didn’t want to talk about it. She’s doing porn again now. Brian, the same man who said that he doesn’t give a f--- about girls and that he’s never want to be in a relationship ever again, pulled me in the room to ask me if I thought that she might like him and if I could ask her. I quickly reminded him that he instructed me not to talk to her as well as his other roommates.
He then gave me permission to talk to her just this one time. As far as that situation I don’t think I need say more except that I didn’t talk to her on his behalf.
Well to make an extremely long story a little shorter he would keep falling for porn girls who showed the least bit of interest or no interest at all trying to establish a relationship but it won’t happen. I told him in the beginning this is just business don’t fall for your talent because in most cases it won’t work.
The straw that started breaking the camels back for me was the fact that his O.C.D. behavior which he doesn’t think he has became too much to cope with. Everything has to be in a certain order and if it’s not he can’t rest. I was looking for a business card once for an important cause. He stacked my paper on top of his and when I began to go too far I moved a piece of fortune cookie paper a few inches out of place temporarily. He lost his damn marbles and bitched at me for more than a half hour about putting that piece of paper in the exact order in which it was found.
If anything is ever a centimeter off on his desk all hell will break lose. No matter what time of day it is the guy has to eat breakfast food first or the day won’t seem right even if it’s 5 P.M. in the evening and yes as a roommate things like that affected me quite a bit because it usually involved me somehow. Of course I had to end our partnership because this little game had gone too far. It took a while because he kept telling me he could change and make it work as if we were a damn couple or something.
But alas I broke it off and it was indeed liberating. Then other problems arose such as potential talent leaving him because when they walked into the apartment they saw a black guy there who he introduced as a former partner and according to him that’s all it took for them to break off contact with him for the simple fact that they didn’t like black guys.
I hear that his newest lie now is that he owes the mob some money and that he’s hiding in Canada. Don’t worry I didn’t just alert the real mob to his whereabouts because he’s actually at home just trying to scam a few hundred dollars out of another hard working individual which he has deceived. I still tried to give the guy some advice on several occasions even though he’s f---ed me severely many times without lube (figure of speech for those of you who have as much common since as Brian).
Some pointers that he still hasn’t quite learned but could benefit from.
1. He let’s his talent run all over him. He doesn’t know how to put his foot down and stand firm.
2. He compromises too often over things that have been set in stone.
3. He does not cover all details when booking talent for gigs if any details at all.
4. He becomes too possessive and acts like a jealous boyfriend which scares talent off.
5. He can’t make up his mind and constantly changes things which confuse many people.
6. He finds way to blame others for any problem he’s ever having therefore never taking responsibility for any of his actions.
7. He has a very narrow and limited mind & imagination in fact it’s almost non-existent so he copy cats a lot and changes a word or too and swears that it’s original.
8. He lacks the ability to follow through with even the most simple of plans.
9. He’s too much of a fan to be a good manager or director.
10. If you look closely into the toilet you may find the shattered s--- clumped remains of his self-esteem and personality.
The list goes on and honestly speaking this guy has put me through so much s--- that I could go on for five more pages Nah make that ten but I’ll leave you with this.
If you’re considering working with a Brian Moore please do so at your own risk this guy’s like a walking, talking cancer who cares for no one but himself.
Canadian Pornographer Cries Over Conservative Victory
Monday evening.
Canadian: help, the conservatives are in the lead!!!!
LukeisBack: i hug you
Canadian: i've never been this upset in years
LukeisBack: aww
LukeisBack: how will your life be different in reality under the conservatives?
Canadian: I don't really know. I'm imagining the worst though., we've
progressed so much in the last while.... Harper is totally right wing.
I mean we have same sex marriages, in BC there were cafes where you can
buy & smoke pot...
Canadian: are cafes i mean. i'm just so dissapointed
Canadian: well now they're pretty much winning and harper is going to
be the new PM. I'm crying
Canadian: ok, i'm going to go offshore & possibly move to costa rica
Brandi Lyons Dating Kenny Knoll
I don't know which is worse: being married to Scott Lyons or leaving him for Kenny Knoll. In case anyone has not had the misfortune of encountering Kenny, I will describe him to a tee. He is a fat, Asian, no-talent, annoying, loser that makes very low-rent websites for even lower rent whores. I hope that Scott and Brandi can reconcile before they have to start dividing their assets.
Kenny Knoll (he was close with Aurora Snow for a while)
Kimberly Kane writes:
Kenny prays on new girls with no experience in website design. Then he charges 2,000 for a sites real webmasters laugh at. FYI He took me to court last year because I refused to pay him for the piece of s--- website he made me. I lost the case. Kenny has more experience in front if a judge then I do when it comes to suing young girls. In the end I gave him a 1,000 bucks to get the f--- out of my life.
BRANDI, REMEMBER TO KEEP YOU QUIT. IF YOU WAKE UP KENNY'S PARENTS ONE TO MANY TIMES YOU MIGHT HAVE TO GO BACK AND LIVE WITH SCOTT! J/K I hope everything works out for Brandi and shes makes all the right decisions.
MyPornoReview.com writes: "Go to brandilyons.com or www.brandilyonsxxx.com or something like that. all his sites look exactly the same but with different color theme."
Sexycity writes: "That's cheesy part about his designs. He uses a template and just changes the colors!"
CodyBangs writes: "Oh, he's terrible. I'm surprised some girls are still with this guy. This guy should be banned from the industry so no more girls get screwed over."
Scott Lyons writes:
hello scott lyons here i want to give a heart felt FUCK U!!! to most of u, i thought some of u were my friends but once again FUCK U!!! brandi and kenny actually aren't together and now i know how some of you feel about us,but on the other side we have ALOT of support as well, so for those of u that popped those jokes about us cool remember that shit,i wouldn't advise coming near me on set or industry gatherings,we have always been cool mello people so where do any of u have the right to say shit about us and where the hell is being with me so bad i have a 9 inch cock that pretty much always stays hard so i don't think the fact that i'm skinny makes a hell of alot of difference.plus since i quit smoking i have been gainig weight so i'm not really so skinny anymore which once again really makes no diffrence i'm a pornstar my dick is all that really matters,oh and to this fucker malice why don't u arrange to meet in person so i can stomp your fucking ass!!!!??? u dispicable bastard you have the nerve to talk about my daughter have the nerve to let me stomp a hole in your ass you fucking weasel.so once again a heart felt FUCK U!!!! to all of you i thought were our friends and a big THANK U to those of you who proved you really were.VERY sincerly,Scott Lyons
Blind Item With Response
Psycho writes: "What "former" Vivid girl -- who cannot make up her mind if she is coming or going -- was hardly recognizable without her magician/make-up artist's tricks and gimmicks to make her appear alluring the last two days of the AVN EXPO? She threw a diva tantrum when she could not handle that her make-up artist had more than one latin friend. Diva is known for being as friendly as a wet wasp to everyone, especially towards other latina talent. So she fired her make-up artist in a jealous rage, and the poor dear had to make do with her own skills. She would be better suited working on her attitude."
I got a call today concerning an e-mail you posted from Psycho. Mercedez told me about what REALLY happened that day and asked me to pass it on to you. Mercedez said "My makeup artist Glen has been a good friend for over four years. What anyone saw was not me behaving in a jealous rage, it had nothing to do with another Latina and I did not throw a diva tantrum. What happened was Glen walked in my room at 5am wasted after partying all night. What anyone heard was not me throwing a fit and firing my make up artist. They heard a disagreement between friends. I did not want him to do my makeup in the state he was in. So I did it myself. Since I also do my own makeup for many conventions, I think I do a pretty good job of it. I have no attitude problem or bad attitude. I get along well with almost everyone. And Alexis had nothing to do with it. When I came back to my room after my signing, Glen was gone as was all his stuff. I just wanted to set the record straight."
The Tallest Porn Journalists
Gram Ponante and "Cam" stand about 6'5". They hung out at the Neu Wave Hookers party Friday night.
Thomas J. Stanton of AVN reports that the party "turned out to be quite a naughty spectacle." What a shocker.
Cam emails me:
Riley Mason looked particularly hot. I was amazed to see how small she and Joanna Angel are. This really does seem to be a small person's business.
Maybe you, me, and Gram should join forces for "Porn Journalists on Fire: Big Hands Put to Good Use." With all of our collective contacts in the biz, you know someone would want to produce THAT. Eon McKai has a thing about hands--maybe he's the right guy to direct.
Brian from the hardcoresource.com was about the only guy let in with a camera.
Tyler's Talent, based in Palm Beach, Florida, is about four months old.
Tyler calls me back Monday afternoon, Jan 23.
Tyler: "I was a professional runway model. After that, I was an exotic dancer for about eight years. I knew a lot of people in the [porn] business and I had been approached several times about getting into the business. But everybody who approached me was a slimy, sleazy guy and I was afraid of being taken advantage of, of being used and abused.
"I had a couple of relationships with porn stars. I heard their horror stories. Disorganization. Having to sleep with people to do anything. I have the personality for it.
"My fiance Brian used to work for Extreme Associate's wrestling division.
"We came up with the idea for the talent agency together. I started off using his old contacts. Then I made some contacts of my own.
"Being one of the few female owned and operated companies in the business, I've been getting a great response from it. I under women's needs and wants. They know I'm not going to make them have sex with myself or anybody else. I have the best intentions at heart. When a girl sits down and talks to me on the phone for five or ten minutes, and looks at my website, [they say], 'Wow, you're a down-to-earth person. I feel comfortable with you. I don't feel like you are going to take advantage of me.'
"I want to provide a safehouse where girls can go and be represented.
"I have a boutique management company. I pride myself on working closely with girls. A girl is not one number out of 115. I love handling the full aspect of their career. I like specializing in new talent.
"I love meeting people. I love keeping the girls safe. I'm very close with my girls. I'm picky about girls I take on as clients.
"I love the travelling. I hate the travelling. I look forward to coming home to Florida.
"I hate hearing about some of the crap some girls have been through. When I was out in California, some supposed-agent left her at the airport. She called and found another agent who put her in a hotel and he came over and f----- in the ass and then escorted her out of the hotel room.
"I hate dealing with flakey girls. That's why they tend to be in this business because they are flakey. Or girls who are on drugs who don't do what they say they will do."
"When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?"
"I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.
"Honestly, I wanted to be a judge."
In highschool, Tyler was a jock. "I was in the top ten percent of my class. I didn't necessarily hang out with brainy kids. I hung out with the party crowd. My mother was divorced and had found a new boyfriend. She'd go to his house after work Friday and then come after work Monday. For the entire weekend, there was a party at my house.
"I threw myself into [Tyler's Talent] about three months ago. I quit all my jobs because I was able to support myself off of what I was doing.
"I've been surprised at how fast it's taken off."
"How has it affected your real life to do this work?"
"I've started to let some of my family know about it. My mother's first reaction was -- why can't you be a nurse? She sees that I'm doing well with it and staying out of trouble and keeping everything legal. She sees that I am providing a good service. Girls are going to get into the porn industry if they want to. She feels better that there is someone like me out there who is taking care of them and helping them take care of their money."
"How much babysitting do you have to do with these girls?"
"Especially when I travel out to California it's a 24-hour job. Some young girls are out there for their first time and keep them with a level head. 'You have to get up early in the morning so we're not going to go out partying.' We still have fun. I'm like a big sister to a lot of these girls. They ask for my advice. I'm not only their manager but a close friend."
"Why did you not want to do [porn]?"
"My father holds a high-security-level job. I hold my father's opinion of me high. I didn't necessarily want to be all over the internet and DVDs. I don't knock anybody who does it. I welcome it. It's how I make my money."
Defending Paul Cambria
Video Team's frontman Christian Mann writes on AVN:
I expected the litany of second-guessing and armchair lawyering from the gallery, i.e. the different gossip sites and the assorted web-hacks who fuel them.
The usual suspects, wanna-be muckrakers whose existence is dependant on the exposure of anything negative, were bound to weigh in, opining on what they would have done or said, how they would have somehow put on a better performance.
This is complete nonsense. I don't know one gossip columnist who weighed in on Paul Cambria's performance (and I read all the main gossip sites). Aside from the FSC newsletter, I believe lukeisback.com was the only site that provided critiques of Cambria's testimony (AVN's Mark Kernes fluffed Cambria as usual), publishing criticisms of Paul and comments by Paul. Lukeisback aired the criticisms of a couple of webmasters (none of them gossip columnists nor would-be muckrakers nor hacks).
The suppositions upon which Mann's article begins are his pure invention. They have no basis in reality.
Unlike Christian, I didn't make sweeping generalizations about unnamed hacks and would-be muckrakers nor about First Amendment lawyers of which Paul Cambria is at the front of the class. Mann tilts at windmills.
I suspect that if Paul Cambria had the same view of my work as Christian evidently does, he would never have answered my emails about his testimony.
If people have better information, they make better decisions. That's what lukeisback is all about. I published criticisms of Paul. I published Paul. And now I publish a bit from Christian, and throw in four links to AVN's coverage. Lukeisback.com is fair and balanced. I report. You decide.
Layne Winklebleck (husband of Kat Sunlove) writes to the AVN blog:
In his AVN.com commentary today, Christian Mann takes exception to a description in the recent Free Speech X-Press characterizing one of Paul Cambria’s responses in his Senate testimony as “an unfortunate response in the eyes of some observers.” Mann argues that Cambria’s response was actually an example of careful restraint, reflecting his years of experience and serving the adult industry well. Christian Mann may well be correct in his observation. The X-Press editors take no sides in the matter, in line with our policy of evenhandedness in reporting, and also in line with our acknowledged lack of sophistication when it comes to the complexities of the Internet. We do, however, stand by our comment that Cambria’s comments were unfortunate in the eyes of some observers, namely those cited at the end of the report, Declan McCullagh, (CNET News.com, 1/19/06) and Connor Young, (YNOT.com, 1/19/06). McCullagh and Young are both Internet savvy observers that we frequently reference when news events involve technical issues. If we were writing our report today we would have added information on how a different observer, Christian Mann of Video Team, saw the events differently. Not incidentally, we do respect and appreciate Paul Cambria’s efforts, which we described in our report as “valiant.” Our report was not intended as a hit piece on Cambria.
Paul Cambria writes to the AVN blog:
I know what I said and why I said it and I am on track. I hope to be invited back so I can say more and eventually I can say it all. If I abuse them or correct them at every turn I most certainly will not be invited back nor will anyone else.some sites are rated but there are over 4 million of them and peer to peer is not and that is what that yo yo Weaver ws talking about peer-to-peer. I would like to see two things a very simple rating system for content as well as the site and .kids. That is exactly what I said before the Senate. My couple detractors obviously have an agenda or some kind of complex.I do not have the time or interest for either. I am doing this because I think it is good for the industry and society this is not a pay day for me my services are free on this issue.
JamesN posts to AVN: "My understanding of Mr. Cambria is he's been able to separate the fights that are potentially-winnable and focus on those with a good deal of success. I'm not sure there's any combination of JD's out there that are going to be able to storm into a situation of relative-disadvantage and come back to the rostra of porn and make everybody involved in all ends of the spectrum of the stuff happy."
Kim Chambers Birthday Party Saturday Night
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Sunday: Heather from JCsGirls.com Heather studies Torah Heather takes a break from her Torah Heather Heather preaches from the Torah
I interview Scott Nails (the LADM page lists his age as 20, and he's been in porn five years, something is wrong) and Cassie, a manager at Exotic Star Models.
Cassie: "He's my best guy friend ever. He's the only one who doesn't try to ---- me."
Luke to Scott: "How did you get into the industry?"
Scott: "Five years ago, I was dating a stripper. She got the same spin from the agent (Roy Garc-a) that everybody gets -- you can do solo. Then she got offered boy-girl. I used to work construction. I did 16-hours that day. She said, please come pick me up. I don't want to get a flight.
"I didn't even take a shower. She had her s--- by the door. The guy is like, I'll pay you this much to ---- her. I said, all right. We shot about 15-scenes together.
"The agent kept hitting me up every six months. I lost $40,000 one month [in construction]. I decided to move out here. After a few months, [the stripper] started drinking and moved away.
"I got offered a contract by Anabolic. I was with them for eight months. I sold my [construction] business. I joined up with LA Direct Models and I've been f------ every day since."
Luke: "When you did your first scene, were you asked for a test?"
Scott: "No, no test. It was 11pm. When you first start, you don't know what you're doing. I've f----- in front of people before, just never on camera. The only thing I had a problem with was coming. I only made $200 a scene."
Kim Chambers walks into the party at 11:40pm.
Kim is single. She's no longer married to Scott Styles and she's no longer with Grant Michaels.
Scott: "I'm very professional. I like to go on set and the girls to be very professional. I don't need to be fluffed. I don't ask for their phone numbers. Just, I'll do my job and you do your's. We'll f--- and go home. I don't like it when girls want to make-out. I don't want a blowjob ten minutes before the scene. I want to do nothing [but the scene]. Nothing before the scene or after the scene.
"It's not about the money. It's about the job. It's a whole mental thing I have to do. I don't want to talk to girls. I want to go in and make-up whatever I want [about the girl]. If I've got to talk to the girl for 20-minutes before the scene, I've already established who she is.
"I have a reputation for being a dick because I go in and I'm quiet. I don't want to talk to anybody."
"Have you dated any of the girls in the industry?"
"I wouldn't call it dating."
"Have you had relationships with any porn girls?"
"I don't have relationships. There are about five [porn girls] that I've f----- off camera.
"When I'm in California, I'm Scott. When I go home, I'm somebody else. I don't let anybody in Arizona calling me Scott and I don't like anybody in California calling me by my name.
"I'm in porn and California about 60% of the time and the rest back home. I have a lot of [real estate] business back home. I may work three or four hours a day and then I'm on the phone the other 21-hours of the day.
"I've had so many girls say to me, 'When you first walked in, I thought you were an arrogant prick, but after I got to know you, I want to work with you again.'
"That's what I have to do to work again the next day. When it's a different girl every day, you have to have some focus points. I'm able to focus on something different every time."
Scott first had sex at 14. As a kid, he dreamed of becoming a millionaire.
"I didn't go to highschool. I started my first [construction] company at 15. I did go to college. I have my associates degree. I was supposed to go into the military. I took the ASVAB test. I scored high. Then I got in an accident on my dirt bike and fractured my shoulder. They wouldn't take me. My recruiting officer sent my test scores to ten colleges and I got five full-rides wherever I wanted to go."
Scott says he got his first tattoo Friday night (Jan 20).
Mark writes: "Just saw your pics of Heather, okay, now I'm onto your scheme, converting her!"
Don Benn Didn't Even Ask For A Handjob In Exchange For This Release
AnnaMills: do you ever read
the other news sites?
LukeisBack: yes
AnnaMills: part of the job?
AnnaMills: I found my press release
AnnaMills: I still think its funny we almost predicted this a few years
back
AnnaMills: at the time you really liked Robert Lombard. I'm sure you still
do.
AnnaMills: Don Benn has always been so nice to me
AnnaMills: He's never asked for anything in return. Very interesting to
me.
LukeisBack: Not even a handjob?
AnnaMills: no never
LukeisBack: Don is a good guy.
AnnaMills: would you ask for one?
LukeisBack: No, never, that would be unprofessional.
LukeisBack: I've never hit on a porn girl.
LukeisBack: Never asked one out etc.
AnnaMills: see I think you guys are alike in that way
AnnaMills: nice to me at least and never asked me for sex in return
LukeisBack: We all have to take a vow of celibacy before we can become
porn journalists.
AnnaMills: oh, I did not know that!
AnnaMills: So porn journalists are like monks?
LukeisBack: Yes, some of us are anyway.
AnnaMills: Do you also make your own beer?
LukeisBack: Yes, we do.
AnnaMills: I like beer. I'll have to try it.
AnnaMills: I really like your AVN pics. I have one as my wallpaper. The
one of me with Daphne Rosen looking pouty
AnnaMills: sort of narcasistic I know
AnnaMills: but I am a porn girl
AnnaMills: So how's life treating you?
AnnaMills: I was at Playboy Tv last night sorta late.
LukeisBack: doing what?
AnnaMills: I need a nap. I haven't had a day off in forever.
AnnaMills: Talking to everyone and wathcing the shows to see which ones
I want to be on
AnnaMills: Bud Lee is heading the stuff up for spice, and I had fun hanging
with Evan.
AnnaMills: Kelly Kline was on the show with him. I thought she was a neat
girl.
AnnaMills: We both grew up on farms. We are both kind of shocked at how
people treat horses in LA.
AnnaMills: they don't feed them grain so the horses are like fat people
with bad nutrtion from eating nothing but pizza
AnnaMills: and they put them in something we would call a coral in texas...
AnnaMills: they aren't dogs
AnnaMills: but I think I'm being booked on the show sex hotel with evan
in feb
AnnaMills: It's neat. They have 3 shows fri,sat and sun.
AnnaMills: The 1st and last in a solo girl. The middle one is boy girl.
It's double x only and you do it live so the callers ask you to do things
and they jerk off to it.
AnnaMills: You get your own dressing room and everything. It's pretty
neat.
AnnaMills: They even put your name on the door.
AnnaMills: I also may do a thing like Pop up videos for porn clips. I'll
be the host talking about the clips.
AnnaMills: I'm sleep deprived and my dyslexia gets bad when I am low on
sleep.
LukeisBack: you sound so vulnerable, good thing I am a man of virtue.
AnnaMills: I know I can trust you to be nice to me.
AnnaMills: I am playing a girl that was in porn and left it and came back.
AnnaMills: and Evan Stone plays Evan
AnnaMills: The roles don't need that much researching.
AnnaMills: Art imitates life sometimes.
AnnaMills: I'm actually off today. I have to write a script that I am
shooting with Kenny Hurt on the third week of febuary.
AnnaMills: so its not really a day off, but I can take a nap and go work
out at least.
AnnaMills: I am doing the fetish part of the script. Thats my area. I
know kink.
AnnaMills: He writes the regular porn stuff and I write the stuff that
is kinky.
LukeisBack: r u submissive?
AnnaMills: I will also be there on crew to make sure its done right. I
also have a scene.
AnnaMills: I am a Switch. I usually have subs. In real life, my last boyfriend
was my sub. He was only submissive to me. He had had more subs then I
have had. I had a girlfriend before that was submissive to women. She
didn't like men.
AnnaMills: I liked to have my subs knock me around though. I only like
to do things to people that they want and or need.
AnnaMills: I never hit out of anger. Thats bad.
AnnaMills: Did I lose you with that?
LukeisBack: No. I had a GF who wanted me to slap her. I could never do
it.
LukeisBack: She wanted me to bite her. I couldn't. I just nibbled.
AnnaMills: I don't try to make people my subs. Some people need that,
they need to please people. I like to please people too. Thats my sub
side.
LukeisBack: I'm vanilla, but I could never be submissive.
AnnaMills: Yes I understand that. Thats fine. I think it's fortunate for
people that are. Life is much more simple.
AnnaMills: and 90% percent of what I do in personal life is vanilla, it's
the ten percent that is wild.
AnnaMills: You know vanilla is the best flavor. I just like to add toppings
AnnaMills: I bet you just aren't into S+M but roleplaying is kink too.
Have you ever done that?
LukeisBack: I like regular sex with lights out and under the covers with
someone I like and know.
LukeisBack: I've done some role-playing. We played rape. That was fun.
AnnaMills: yeah thats super kinky
LukeisBack: I once ordered in my roommate as a pretend escort.
AnnaMills: There you go. You are kinky my friend.
LukeisBack: Or I've played an unscrupulous journalist seducing a naive
porn star.
AnnaMills: Thats a good one.
AnnaMills: Some guys like tease and denial. some guys like feet.
AnnaMills: Robert Lombard likes expensive shoes. Thats his fetish.
LukeisBack: I just like pleasure.
AnnaMills: I guess thats a fetish everyone has.
LukeisBack: lots of affection.
AnnaMills: If you look up what a fetish is it is something you need to
be aroused.
LukeisBack: ahh, there's never any one thing I need beyond affection and
a feeling of safety with the person.
LukeisBack: Though I could never come with this girl for a month until
she urged me to "f--- me like a whore." Then I had a lot of orgasms. Very
exciting. Oh, I had to pull her hair too in doggie. AnnaMills: so you
aren't so vanilla, you just aren't a sadist or a masocist.
AnnaMills: Have a nice day I have to get back to writing my script.
Can One Be Heterosexual And Work For Free Speech Coalition?
It seems that the FSC team bats overwhelmingly from the other side of the plate (Michelle Freridge lesbian, and then there's the polymorphous sexuality of Kat Sunlove, Layne Winklebleck, Jeffrey Douglas et al, trust me, although I am ashamed to admit it, I have personal experience here, at least in my dreams, only in my dreams, every time I’m telling secrets, I remember how it used to be, and I realized how much I miss you). I know publicist Tom Hymes is married to a woman and has a kid but on the other hand, he's an actor, which is pretty gay, not that there's anything wrong with that.
Willie D writes:
If you were channel surfing last night, you would have found a porn "seminar" loosely themed around Pamela Paul's book "Pornified." It was sponsored by the two hip New York City colleges: NYU and The New School. I'm not one for seminars, a code word for mental masturbation, but you had the usual suspects: Paul, whose book is pro porn regulation, three others who of course take differing views on the subject, a hip hop writer filling the "black guy tossing around naughty words" angle. And some snotty moderator. Come time for questions from the audience, you'd naturally assume those nimble minds from the Village would come out and help porn degenerates like myself intellectualize the ATM, the DP, the EIEIO, whatever?
Guess again.
As you listen to all the profanity, picture it being aired on C-SPAN, because that's where I saw it.
Love Sick Over Courtney Taylor
Lainie Speiser at Penthouse writes:
I bought Love Sick: One Woman's Journey Through Sexual Addiction a few years ago when I suspected I had perhaps a problem. The book made me cry, it’s a good one.
Do you remember the very tall blond at AVN, Courtney Taylor? Would you be interested in interviewing her? We’re having a big superbowl blow out in Detroit, and she being a Detroit girl & sports fan would be cool. She’s in the January issue in a five girl set that features Jamie & Cassia. Another thing to talk to her about is her love of 69, nothing makes her happier than sitting on her man’s face for an hour. She’s five foot ten on bare feet. She loves Jewish men actually, big Woody Allen fan, big Larry David fan, big Jerry Seinfeld fan. She loves jewish neurotic humor.
Attached are Courtney’s photos & release.
With her tall, all-natural willowy frame and her fresh, angelic face, Courtney Taylor is the stuff made from daydreams about the Homecoming Queens, Beauty Pageant Starlettes and the Girl Next Door. Making her Penthouse Pet debut in the March 2002 issue, the 28-year-old who just earned her degree in respiratory therapy, said that she looks forward to a fun-filled year of meeting fans and touring with Pet of the Year 2004 Victoria Zdrok, whom she has become extremely close with. “I’ve met some of my closest friends though Penthouse, and I’m so happy I’ll get to spend the year working with her. I love doing promotions and meeting readers and fans. Among Courtney’s favorite appearances is her experience hosting Wild On E! and betting on horses in Las Vegas for the Daily Racing Form/NTRA National Handicap Championship IV for charity. “Cheering for those horses really gets the adrenaline pumping,” says Courtney. As if her new Penthouse status isn’t exciting enough, Courtney Taylor has also just moved to New York City. “I love it here. I love dancing and clubbing till 4am and then being able to go out to eat. I love running in Central Park, in fact I plan on running in the New York City Marathon this year.” We can imagine she’ll have her own Big Apple fan base by then cheering her on.
Tyler Young emails: "Tylers Talent was created as a safe house for girls in the world of adult. I am a female owned management company and take pride in launching the careers of my girls. Some of you know Maya Hills, one of my first clients. Maya can be seen on the cover of more than 20 videos and is also proudly on the front page of suze.net. She will be in Cabo with Hustler from the 31st of January till the 5th of February. I will be bringing Maya and three other girls to Los Angeles from the 20th of February until the 27th of February."
Thank You Jules Jordan For Teaching Me How To Live
In Beyond Good and Evil, Nietzsche prophesies about uber-pornographer Jules Jordan: "the last chord of a centuries-old great European taste . . . still speaks to us." Nietzsche warns that "alas, some day all this will be gone."
Nietzsche was unsure whether the future held the triumph of the despicable, bourgeois "last man" who is no longer even ashamed of himself or, as he hoped, of the newly heroic and disciplined races that the "new philosophers" such as Jules Jordan would mold. Either way, he thought Jules Jordan would become incomprehensible.
So, does Jules still speak to us? The fact that we are celebrating his new distribution deal this month suggests so, and for some fraction of the elite culture, he surely does.
Jordan is a silly man, but a genius, who produces porn that is very pleasant to wank to but somewhat lacking in punch.
Add a bit more--perhaps "who is this woman who does not kiss me?" from Jordan's child-prodigy phase, maybe his hatred for the archbishop of Salzburg, something about childish pranks, billiards, gambling, his wife's possible infidelity--and it fills out our picture.
AVN Editor Mike Ramone emails: "Having just read the preceding, I have to ask you Luke - what are you talking about? You sure that when writing it, it wasn't you doing rails off of Brit Skye's statuette?"
I teach and preach in parables for a select audience ready for mystical secrets. My kingdom is not of this world. Those who will understand will understand and those unworthy of such supernal wisdom will remain ignorant.
Ramone replies: "They put people in straight jackets for that and then throw away the key. Or at least crucify them. And if you really understood Nietzche, you'd abandon all those ignorant superstitious beliefs of yours."
Kami Andrews Back In The Saddle
I ended up doing 2 scenes yesterday one for pussyman (bgga) and one for will hansen (I cant bring myself to type the title eek) In the first scene my ass tore and there was a fair amount of blood, It was not my best scene by far! the second scene went way smoother and I came a zillion times, it's good to be back performing!
If someone said hey do you want to put in 8 hours dealing with the general public or can we slice your ass open I would take the slice! Honestly the good outweighs the bad, the problem was that I was completely not turned on, I just wasn't into it, I feel bad for the company because it wasn't the level of performance I'm used to.
It was actually the first insertion that tore me, we did the first position and when he pulled it out for an atm there was blood on his ccok, I did the sneak wipe with my hand and sucked, then cut, I squatted over a towel and it bled a bit then I sat on the toilet and let a lot of the blood run out, the crew seemed agitated at the delay (but they were so nice to me) as we were running late as I was replaceing a girl who had turned up with pink eye, I live in LA so it took me an hour to get there, then had to sit through hair and make up, this was the last shoot of the day so basically the entire crew ( 2 photogs 2 camera pa make up director) were all waiting for me to get there to end their already long day.
Anyways I was kinda suprised that no one really seemed to care, they were like wipe it up and let's hammer this out. I have always had a pretty stretchy ass so this is new for me but it must be common. The kicker was that I was doing Boz for my next scene.
Just to not villify the company I was shooting a scene and the girl was having a first term misscarriage, she was bleeding like crazy, I had no idea what to do, she had told the make up artist but not me, so we just shoved a bunch of sponges in there and kept going. I knew she couldn't afford to lose the money and I didn't want to embaress her, I feel sh---y about it though.
What happened is that they called me last minute and needed me there asap. I had already done my enema for the second scene so I took the job but I didn't have time to stretch.
Love Sick: One Woman's Journey Through Sexual Addiction By Sue William Silverman
"Was it doubted that those who corrupt their own bodies conceal themselves?" Walt Whitman
Sue writes:
[The therapist] explains that I confuse sex with love, compulsively repeating this destructive pattern with one man after another. I do this because as a girl I learned that sex is love from my father, the first dangerous man who sexually misloved me.
LF.com Asks: WHO'S AVN AWARD IS THIS? WHO'S COCAINE IS THIS? WE KNOW, DO YOU?
The avn award that has cocaine lines on it on Lukeford.com is Britney
Skye's (this sentence was altered over Sunday night).
Scott Fayner writes about my first report:
I see your keen detective work has uncovered the secret to whose AVN Award was being used as a coke tray in the picture I posted. It was Britney Skye's. Good sleuthing.
Unfortunately the story you heard (or made up) and then wrote is 100% false.
Please allow me to clue you in to the truth. Following the Award show, a party erupted at the V Bar. Tons of people jumped from both to booth and chicks were kissing and probing and the such all night. At closing time, Brit was unable to find her award. It was lost of probably ten minutes.
Trying to charge up the search party I remember blurting out something about whoever finds it gets to use it as a coke tray afterwards.
Well, someone found it and used it as a coke tray. A bunch of people. I was one of them. It wasn't I've done it the first time, won't be the last. It's become a tradition. And Britney was in the room with us.
Where your story becomes complete BS is the statement that she was doing coke, let alone off of her award. I've known Brit for a few years, and in that time I've never seen or done cocaine with her. It's a simple fact that she doesn't do cocaine, and if she did she nver did it around anyone I know - and I know pretty much everyone in the biz that does it openly.
Brit stayed in the room for about two hours and was the whole time chatting with another girl. Not once did she stand up and go for the pile on the award. I can gladly furnish you with a complete list of the people that were in that room while she was, and will sit with you and call everyone of them and ask them if she did.
I guarantee your story didn't come from anyone that was there. For starters, it's simply an unspoken rule that friends don't tell TheRealLukeFord things like this about their friends, and everyone in that room was friends (although I'm sure someone might have some distaste for Robbye Bently, namely me) enough to respect privacy of all parties except for Fayner.
I'd love to know your source. I've just this minute called
four people that know Brit better than I and they said that she doesn't do cocaine. I'm well-aware of her rumored past which included drugs, but cocaine was never one of them as long as I've known her. And don't even try that "well, maybe it was speed that she was doing of the award, not coke" 'cause I hate speed and did many lines off that award and would never have even gone near the thing if speed was present.
The proof is that I for one hate speed and would never have allowed it anywhere near my cocaine that I was doing off the award. Plus, speed lines are much shorter and not while and flaky.
Basically, you should remove the story and apologize because it is just not true.
David Aaron Clark's Favorite Songs When He 'Feels Like Geeking Out In A Welter Of Self-Pity'
Horse With No Name (America)
If You Could Read My Mind (Gordon Lightfoot)
Wear Your Love Like Heaven (Donovan)
So Far Away (Carole King)
Me & Bobby McGee (Janis)
Stoney End (Barbara Streisand)
Taxi (Harry Chapin)
Wild World, Moonshadow, Peace Train, Morning Has Broken (Cat Stevens)
Landslide (Fleetwood Mac)
One of A Kind Love Affair (Spinners)
Let's Stay Together (Al Green)
How Can You Mend A Broken Heart (the Bee Gees)
Without You (Harry Nillson)
Spirit in the Sky (Norman Greenbaum)
I Don't Know How to Love Him (Yvonne Elliman)
All I Know (Art Garfunkel)
Love Train (O'Jays)
O-o-h Child (The Five Stairsteps)
Show & Tell (Al Green)
You Wear It Well, Handbags & Gladrags, Reason to Believe (Rod Stewart)
One Less Bell to Answer (Fifth Dimension)
California Dreamin (Mamas & Papas)
Heart of Gold (Neil Young)
Is That All There Is (Peggy Lee)
Someone to Watch Over Me, One For My Baby, As Time Goes By (Frank)
Changes (Bowie)
Doctor My Eyes (Jackson Brown)
Never My Love (The Association)
Homeward Bound, The Boxer, Sounds of Silence (Simon & Garfunkel)
Downtown Train (Tom Waits)
Levon (Elton John)
Eres Tu (don't remember)
Seasons in the Sun (Terry Jacks)
A Love Before Time (CoCo Lee)
Paul Cambria Responds To Criticism About His Senate Testimony:
I do not have time today to respond to these mindless idiots about the reason for my comments to the Senate but believe me we did not say the wrong things and we will be talking more about that this week. I have received many many many emails and phone calls from attorneys around the US stating that they fully understood what we said and why we said it and that they agreed with the way I handled this first step but I must comment today and set the record straight I in no uncertain terms told the Senate we were opposed to .xxx and I told them why tracking what the FSC has published as the reasons why the industry was against this rating. At least get it right if you plan to say something about me.
TRAVIS speaks: "I think it's great that Paul Cambria is finally engaging with the vast unwashed of porn in between purchasing racing cars, but what's with his Fear of A Comma-inclusive Planet?"
James writes:
Thanks Luke for continuing to expose the .xxx domain name scam. It is as obvious as the nose on your face that the scam is a way for a private, non-adult company (ICMR, Jason Hendales, CEO) to quickly make a few fast millions by extorting adult webmasters. If we must purchase just 25,000 domains ( to protect our copyrights) at $60 a pop, that’s $1,500,000/yr out of thin air!
Meanwhile, adult content would be ghettoized thereby making the future right-wing crack down about 100 times easier. Some dimwits (usually so-called porn defending attorneys) say it is good because it will “legally protect” us and it’s voluntary. First, it is only voluntary so far and secondly, you know if an adult company does purchase their .com domain name in the .xxx version, they might as well throw away the .com version, because to continue to use it AFTER you set up a mirror site in .xxx would virtually be an admission of guilt!!! That you are continuing to try to attract those who don’t want to or shouldn’t be viewing your site.
Mr. Cambria and his attorney friends are the only ones in a love affair with the .xxx scam. Might it have something to do with the massive litigation that will ensue, making each of them far more valuable per hour and bigger stars than ever on the talk show circuit? Thankfully .xxx appears to be heading toward defeat. Otherwise it would be the first step toward the end of our industry on the Net.
Publicity Whores Mary Carey, Kendra Jade
Mary calls me back Friday afternoon. "We're coming up with a duo act," she says. "We're thinking of calling ourselves Publicity Whores.
"I had a dramatic night last night. The person I was driving in the car with got pulled over and got a DUI. It was a nice innocent girl who I'd just met that night. She wasn't in porn. I got in a car with her and her friend to get away from Harold. She got pulled over within five minutes on Hollywood Blvd. I don't remember her name.
"She told me that she was so shaken up because she'd just seen me in a fight with [Mary's boyfriend] Harold earlier. She told the police about my fight with Harold. The police wanted to file a police report. I didn't want to press charges. Now there's a preliminary investigation into the event depending on the cameras [in the parking lot] at the Hyatt. They have videotape of the fight.
"I always fight with this Harold guy. We got kicked out of the Venetian in Vegas.
"The police were so mean. We were on Hollywood Blvd. All the clubs and bars were getting out. I was getting harassed by drunk men. The police left us stranded on Hollywood Blvd. Thank goodness I had the money to take a taxi."
Luke: "What were you fighting with Harold about?"
Mary: "We'd been drinking at the Saddleranch. He was calling me names. He said, 'You're nothing but a stupid porn star.' You know how guys get. They love being with a porn star but then they hate being with a porn star at the same time.
"I'm sick of it. I've realized that there are a lot of guys out there who would treat me really good. He met me before I got my teeth fixed and lost weight. He thought I was beautiful then and I think I look better now. Don't you think I look better now, Luke?"
"I think you've always looked good."
"Aww, thank you. That was sweet. A lot of people are always saying mean things about me. Do you think I look better now?"
"I liked you before."
"I've realized that some people do like girls who are fatter."
"It's just personal taste."
"That's so cute of you. If you were my boyfriend, I could eat all the bean-and-cheese burritos I want, right? I miss them. It was a lot more fun eating a lot and not working out."
"Were you drinking heavily last night?"
"What do you think?"
We laugh.
"Dumb question," says Mary. "I used to drink vodka. Now I only drink Chardonnay.
"I'm trying to get a reality show about me running for governor. This time, because I'm not with Kick Ass Pictures, I'm going to use a different approach. I'm going to be more serious. I'm going to have my own ideas, not the ideas I was told to say. Last time I was 23. Now I'm 25. I'm a lot more responsible."
"Are you still with Harold?"
"Yeah. He's in the car with me. But I don't know if I'm still going to be with him. It's going to take a lot on his part. I've let myself be put down verbally, to be abused, for so long and I don't deserve it. The tendency of girls in the industry is to get these guys who will put them down. I'm sure there are plenty of guys I can be with who wouldn't be like, 'You're a stupid whore.'
"There are people out there who think I'm great, like you, Luke."
"Yeah."
Mary puts me on the phone with Harold.
"It's pretty dramatic all the time," he says.
"How do you handle it?"
"It's tough. Last night was pretty bad. I guess it was the worst. I'm not sure what's going to happen from here on out. I guess she'll go back to doing the single thing. It's hard because she drinks. The drinking gets in the way. I don't drink that much. When I do drink, I can get a little mean verbally. You get tired of seeing someone so drunk all the time, you don't know what to say but mean things. I don't mean 'em. I just say them when I'm frustrated.
"I hung in there longer than most people do.
"You hear people say different things. They want to see her naked. You've got to sit there and take it. It comes with the territory. I've dealt with it well."
Harold and Mary have been dating almost eight months.
Luke: "How has your family reacted?"
Harold: "They just like her. They don't care. They don't know for sure, but my mom kinda knows that she's a porn star. She asked me after the first time meeting her. But she likes Mary so much and thinks she's so pretty that I don't think she cares.
"I talked to my mom this morning. She was asking all about Mary."
"Are you a heavy drinker too?"
"No. I'll drink maybe two or three times in a month."