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Shelley Lubben's Anti-Porn Crusade

The ex-porn star blogs Nov 13, 2006:

 Becca Brat, who did over 200 movies, says about the porn life style: "I went to work at 8am, did my scene- hopefully I got paid that day and it wasn't payroll . If it was, I went to the bank and got money to buy my drugs for the day. Then I went home, got high, called "friends" to come over so I wasn't getting high alone. They would come over, do drugs, have a swingers party (with unsafe sex) and stay up all night on ecstacy, meth, and heroin... and whatever else we could get our hands on. Sometimes I stayed up for 3 weeks without sleep."
 

 Porn performer "Regan Starr," in an interview with Talk magazine in February 2001, described her experience while filming Rough Sex 2 in horrific terms. She said that, while sex acts were performed on her, she was hit and choked until she couldn't breathe. Other "actresses," she said, wept because they were hurting so badly. In the same article, a sex-film star notes how threatening the work is to performers' health. "Nearly everyone has STDs [sexually transmitted diseases]," said Chloe. "If you're a porno performer," she continued, "your latest HIV test is your work permit. ... The tests we take test only for AIDS. We've contained AIDS in the industry, but what about all the others? You know we're now up to hepatitis G?"

 "I'm a typical porn star," Rebecca Bardoux says with a smile, at the June 1997 Erotica LA Convention. "I come from a dysfunctional family. We don't relate... When I was a little girl, I wanted to be a call girl."

 Crissy Moran writes on her myspace: I went through more heartbreaks and became suicidal.  I was taken to the hospital for panic attacks.  I tried to overdose on xanax, strangle myself, and cut my wrists but not nearly deep enough.  I was too scared of the pain.  I prayed God would just take me away!  I felt helpless.  I even went to church for a few months but the guilt I felt was overwhelming that I would feel as if I were choking when I was at church.  I had to choose and once again I chose to continue sinning.  It was easier and I needed the money.

 Alex Devine writes: "Donkey Punch was the most brutal, depressing, scarey scene that I have ever done. I have tried to block it out from my memory due to the severe abuse I recieved during the filming. The guy, Steve French has a natural hatred towards women in the sense that he has always been known to be more brutal than EVER needed. I agreed to do the scene thinking it was less beating, except the 'punch' in the head. If you noticed, steve had worn his solid gold ring the entire time, and continued to punch me with it. I actually stopped the scene while it was being filmed because I was in too much pain."

 Tianna Lynn admits, "I tried porn a year-and-a-half ago for three weeks. They [my agent DK] booked me for everything I didn't want to do. I was in the hospital three times. Allergic to lube. Being pounded too hard. My cervix closed up. My a** got torn up.

 Jenna Jameson says porn has more pitfalls "than nearly any other occupation." Drugs is one. Maintaining a boundary between your job and private life is another. Jenna Jameson writes in her book on page 132:

Most girls get their first experience in gonzo films -- in which they're taken to a crappy studio apartment in Mission Hills and penetrated in every hole possible by some abusive a**hole who thinks her name is Bit***. And these girls, some of whom have the potential to become major stars in the industry, go home afterward and pledge never to do it again because it was such a terrible experience.

 Kami Andrews says: "I love the money, the glamor. I like being recognized. I like the attention. What I don't like is not being able to s--- right. You are constantly doing enemas and you're fasting and you're taking all these different pills, exlax, and it screws up your internal system." allow God toheal their shattered lives.

Shelley blogs:

You've read their words. Every day they wake up to go through pain and abuse because the demand for more hardcore sex continues to increase. YOU, the consumer, are the one making the demand on these women. They don't love sex. They love the MONEY. The ATTENTION. They are hurting little girls who are screaming out "pay attention to me". They hate the sex but love the acceptance. Stop abusing them! STOP VIEWING PORN.

Then pray their chains be broken and that they would allow God to heal their shattered lives.

Crissy Moran's Testimony

She pours out her life story on this Nov. 4 MySpace blog. She says she's been looking for love.

Most people are. They seek love/attention/meaning and will orient their lives towards that in the same way plants grow towards the sun. Aside from the money, attention is the primary reason girls do porn.

Crissy grew up in Jacksonville, Florida. Her first 11 years were relatively happy. Her home was peaceful and Christian. Her father was a pastor.

Crissy writes that she was first molested at age five by the father of friends.

Moran's dad began drinking. When drunk, he'd often rant about his daughter's virginity and how he would kill any man who took it.

She felt embarrassed. She felt men looking at her with lust. More guys molested her.

Crissy writes that to this day she is insecure about her looks and hates to be seen without her make-up.

Crissy's step-dad ridiculed her. She had bad posture and poor table manners.

"My dad kept calling me and asking me if I was still a virgin or if I had become a whore... Both boys and girls had molested me all my life and now I was starting to enjoy it."

At 18, Crissy had an abortion.

She graduated with her class in 1994.

She had several relationships that lasted longer than a year. For a little while, she was promiscuous. "I would have wild nights from time to time where I would drink a lot to get through the pain in my life. I would hurt myself to see if anyone would care and no one did."

Crissy yearned for a man to rescue her.

She got engaged at 21. She was sad when she found her fiance had porn stashed in his closet. Because she did not feel good enough for him, she got a breast job.

They broke up.

After another break-up, she started having panic attacks. She went on medication. It dulled her emotions. She was bored at work. She cruised the internet. She put up pictures of herself on a modeling site. She did a topless shoot. On day two, she went completely naked.

She got a boyfriend who managed her nude modeling career. He pushed her into having a threesome with another woman. Crissy hated that.

Moran got into a three and a half year relationship with a man she says repeatedly tried to kill her. "He controlled my modeling career, my emails, my phone calls, my friendships, my bank account, my life!"

She joined her boyfriend in doing cocaine, crystal meth, marijuana, and ecstasy.

It hurt her that her boyfriend used porn and chased women.

"The remaining time during my relationship was me trying to get away. I had fallen out of love but only felt sympathy for him. He was with me every minute of the day. If I was out of his sight got 5 minutes he would come check on me. One time I jumped out of the car after he threatened to kill me. I ran across lanes of traffic into a gas station crying and screaming for someone to call the police only to be looked at like I was crazy while my boyfriend carried me away."

"One day he tried to smother me with my pillow. After hours of arguing I ran out of the house and down the street to a neighbors house. They called the police and he went to jail. I tried to make plans to leave but his friends posted bail and he came home before I could leave."

This reminds me of the story Linda Lovelace told in her book Ordeal.

Crissy had more bad relationships. She was taken to the hospital for panic attacks. She tried to overdose on xanax. She tried to strangle herself. She cut her wrists but not deep enough to die.

She went to church but felt guilty and chose her nude modeling work over religion.

"I was friends with several girls whose lives changed while being in porn. I saw the looks fade with drug and alcohol use. I witnessed their spirits being broken. I saw the way the men in their lives treated them."

Crissy was now in the best relationship of her life, but her boyfriend kept nude pictures of his exes around the house and still went to strip clubs. This upset her.

She started thinking about the men who were cheating on their wives by looking at nude photos of her and sending her long erotically charged emails.

Moran decided in the summer of 2006 that she had to leave porn.

Ex-Pornographer Donovan Phillips (Pauling) Joins XXXChurch's Porn And Pancakes Crusade

There's a Youtube clip of a recent TV news report.

Donny blogs:

...She begged and pleaded to return the money she was paid in exchange for her photos being removed from the sites for which she'd posed. I had to let her know there is nothing I can do for her. There are hundreds of producers around the world, all of whom have models that change their minds and want to reverse their decision to work in the adult industry. The companies to whom we sell our content generally ignore all requests for removal.

...If, in the future, this model applies for a position that requires a morality clause be signed (a practice that is becoming more popular all the time, by the way) this girl will not qualify. I know this from experience, as another of my models lost a position due to such a clause. This girl's entire future was changed for the worst when she posed for us on June 26th, 2006.

...Belinda and I can't remain together because Belinda is not ready to stop producing pornography and I simply can't be involved in that in any way. It would be too easy to step back into it if I stayed together with her. I'd feel the need to step in and help if she experienced a tough situation, or if she needed help closing a deal with a client or... whatever. The temptation to produce porn has left me, but the instinct of a man to help his woman would never leave, and if I stay with her there will undoubtedly come a time when I gave in to that instinct. And even if it was something small, it would eventually lead to more and more, until I was back into it full time. So as sad and heart wrenching as it may be, I have to separate myself from the business in any way possible.

If Belinda wasn't producing porn I could remain very close to her and perhaps even continue our relationship even if she had no interest in God. Unfortunately that is not the case.

I can no longer feel good about myself being so selfish that I'm willing to hurt others (like the girl in this blog entry) in order to make a living. I simply do not want to be involved in it anymore.

Donny blogs:

Much of the appeal of porn can be taken away be removing the mystery of porn. And thats what I intend to do with my life: educate others. My goal is to share some of the stories of porn production from my past, and in so doing I want to show men and women that the reality of pornography is not nearly as attractive as it's made out to be. Pornography is not glamorous. The fantasy portrayed on camera doesn't exist. There is an ugly human cost that is paid to bring this product to market.

Donny blogs:

Since Thursday, Belinda has been in Los Angeles at an adult industry convention known as Webmaster Access West. Industry conventions are great places to network and acquire new business, but the highlights of these conventions and the reason so many people attend are the elaborate parties that continue until 4am each day. This particular event culminates in the mother of all parties: a night at the Playboy Mansion for those lucky enough to receive an invitation.

It saddens me that Belinda's there, surrounded by people who pretend to be her friend while speaking face to face or while intoxicated, yet don't really give a crap about her at any other time. The two of us have attended numerous conventions all over the country. That after-party letdown still exists while together, but it's dulled by being there with someone who loves you. This time she's there alone, with nobody to truly care about her when the party subsides. She's called a few times and admitted to feeling depressed anytime there's "nothing going on".

...Some models have lost careers over it. A certain redhead on my website being the latest (which happened just 2 months ago). What you may not realize is that many degreed people receive jobs with companies that require them to sign a morality clause. Personally appearing in pornographic productions violates that clause and results in a lost job.

One model we photographed had always dreamed of being a cop. She was in the police academy when called in to a supervisors office and confronted with the work she'd done for me. They kicked her out. She can never ever ever be a cop because she posed for me.

John & Jennifer respond:

Give me a break.. She is working! You know as good as I do that she doesn't believe that those people care for her, she is playing the game to make money just as you used to do. She isn't being conned by their gratitude, she is having a good time and drinking on their dime while associating with new people that can make her more money. It's a job, her job. Should she be feeling sorry for you because you are working the 9 to 5 deal? After all, you are working alone in an environment full of people that don't give a crap about you. Right?

Anon writes:

If Belinda doesn't want to marry you anymore you have yourself to blame. If ANYONE spoke to me the way you do her I wouldn't even give them the pleasure of hearing me answer the phone, much less talk in person. The sad part is I believe in God and I am very open minded but you immediately turned from a porn producer that tried to manipulate people into doing what you wanted into a Jesus freak that tries to manipulate people into doing what you want, as subtle as your attempts may be.

The Esther Fund -- Shelley Lubben and XXXChurch set up a fund to help people leave porn.

Maya Hills Returns

She's with Fresh Talent Management.

AVN Seeks Journalist

This journalismjobs.com listing for an AVN.com job says Dan Miller is the Editor-In-Chief. Does that mean Editor-in-Chief of AVN.com alone? Yes, but you would not know that from reading the ad. It reads like Dan Miller is in charge of the whole AVN enchillada.

Mike Ramone is the Editor-In-Chief of Adult Video News, the monthly magazine.

Mike and Dan each work about 60 hours a week. AVN.com and Adult Video News are intertwined but independent operations. Mike will look at AVN.com and use some of its stories in the magazine.

During Tim Connelly's time at AVN (2003-2005), he was theoretically in charge of AVN.com and the magazine but what exactly Tim did during his AVN tenure is not clear. Maybe it will come out during his lawsuit against AVN.

Kendra Jade's Latest Rocker Boyfriend - Lukas

He was a contestant on Dave Navarro's reality show Rock Star: Supernova.

Here's a recent selection of Kendra's poetry:

You see , my heart is a whore , and my soul is a sinner.
My mind is a labrynthe of compassion and angst and
My body ; purgatory for all that may enter .

Mary Carey Wants To Make Her Lips Bigger

Mary calls Wednesday afternoon. "I'm going to do a number two while I'm on the phone with you."

"I got bumped from my flight because they thought I was drunk."

"People tell me that if I get my lips bigger, I'll start looking silly. Everyone at Legend and on set was telling me not to do it. I want to get more botox but I missed my appointment.

"Monday night, I was with a guy and he wanted to use a condom and I said, no, no, no, I can prove to you that I don't have an STD. We can go to this website where I have four years of tests and I've never come up positive."

Directors' Cuts

Why do porn directors get all righteous about their director's cuts? As though Corruption wouldn't be the same movie if you edited out the fisting? It would lack gravitas? The character's portrayals would no longer be fleshed out? As a serious work of drama, it would be compromised by the lack of fisting?

I love how Corruption's proponents kept saying, "Cambria says this is fine." Finally Paul had to step in and walk the line...

No First Amendment lawyer can say that any hardcore is going to be invulnerable to obscenity prosecution because the definition of obscenity depends on community standards, which are unknowable.

I ask a pornographer friend about the state of the business. He replies: "I watched my father pass away for years. I feel the same way about this business. You look around and see that it is dying. There's little energy and excitement."

How Long Can AVN's Adult Entertainment Expo Persist In Its Current Form?

With the profit margin on DVDs dropping, manufacturers are increasingly reluctant to buy big booths. We're heading towards separate shows for the fans and for the trade.

Though some say: What God has put together, let no man set asunder!

How's David Aaron Clark Handling His Handful Of AVN Nominations For Asia Noir 5?

I've yet to receive any angry ranting emails from him about being short-changed by AVN. That they were the wrong nominations...

Perhaps he's truly left the industry? Perhaps I can no longer goad him into returning my phone call?

Paul Fishbein, Frank Koretsky, Steve Hirsch Watched Borat Together

Then they shape-shifted into cockroaches.

Marino writes: "Imagine for a moment that my entire life all the jews I have ever known have been from the porn biz. Think about it, all the jews in the world are Paul Fishbein, Frank Koretsky, Danny Mamain, Yoseph Shemesh, Ron Jeremy, Al Goldstein, etc. Now imagine my opinion of the Jew."

Porn Mourns Robert Altman

Wicked director David Stanley posts:

i loved his movies. and i loved him. his views on filmmaking and politics and how art is something woven with the people you're working with instead of something that comes out of a can, were always incredibly important to me. his legacy is that of the true iconoclast, the maverick, the guy who only does what interests him no matter if the audience responds or not. he embraced the entirety of the artistic process. not the polish or the phony gloss, but the mistakes. the messiness. not just of movies, but of life. he had a kind of stoner's ambivalence regarding morality, authority, and just about any other "ity" you can suffix. if it wasn't truthful, or interesting, or organic, or like life, then it didn't find it's way in front of his constantly roving camera.

Tony Malice Bars His Ex Gia Jordan From XPT

Tony and Gia have been like a mother and a father to me. Watching them fight has destroyed my world.

Tony Malice posts (the thread has since been erased):

I have removed her from being a moderator, and at least temporarily barred her access from the site. This has nothing to do with her relationship with XPT and more with personal resentment we both harbor towards one another. In a nutshell, I have to cut ties with her for my own good and XPT is a cathartic part of that. This may or may not be temporary depending on how we both feel about it at a later date. Those of you who know us may understand the rationale behind this.

Here's a message that Gia posted under an alternate name that Tony deleted:

This is actually gia jordan. I had to use an alt I'D to communicate that Tony and I dated for 3 seconds last year. I wish for him to move on and get over it. I have tried being friends and business acquaintences, but it's evdently not what he wants. We're both in the same industry, so all I wish for is peace. (And that T-Mobile would block calls.) My definition of peace includes not hacking into my emails, myspace acct, etc to write to other people as me. Luckily, these people have been made aware of the situation and understand. I can't believe that I am banned all because I didn't feel the need to tell Tony my whereabouts when, really, I just wanted to drop off supplies he needed for a shoot and be gone. I feel no need to respond after 55 missed calls and 20 missed texts. I'm not angry. I just want to be left alone. Thanks for putting my life up on the Porn Enquirer aka lukeisback. If leaving xxxporntalk solves the issue, then so be it.

Tony Malice posts: "Gia and I are working on it, her response would have required a response from me, and neither of us would have wanted my response."

Chico Travieso posts: "I know most of the circumstances and I wish I didnt. Both are friends and I hope it gets resolved soon."

Gia Jordan emails me:

Luke, Tony and I figured it was a slow news day. Truth is we get along fabulously. We were just having a disagreement about who needs rehad more - Michael Richards or Roxetta? It turns out it wasn't Tony who hacked into my email, myspace, etc but Sports Swami writing back to himself as me agreeing to do his interviews. Tony was actually calling to inform me about the new jerk off graemlin that he discovered for xxxxporntalk. He knew that I'd be totally stoked. Animated bananas jerking off are the hotness.

Holly Randall posts on XPT: "Take a wild guess as to who deleted it. What I find interesting is that Tony deleted my response to Gia, and then quoted it when defending his actions (which are kinda un-defendable, btw)."

Jeff Steward posts: "Tony, Tony, Tony, you have brought shame to the house of JM. A public meltdown? For shame. If I didn't know better I would say your on the drugs."

Holly posts: "I like rough sex where everyone is having a good time, not an emotionally abusive tirade of insults. I can read LukeisBack for that."

This debacle reminds me of Tony's feuds with Genesis Skye and Alyssa West.

I'm starting to realize that the XXXPornTalk family has some dysfunctional aspects that can only be cured by love.

I present my relationship with Holly as the role model for healthy relationships.

Before closing, I'd like to sing a song for Tony and Gia:

Can love survive when all else fails?
Can’t hide the feelin’ the feelin’ s gone
My heart belongs to me
But now my love, hey didn’t I love you
But we knew what had to be
Some how my love I’ll always love you
But my heart belongs to me
Put out the light and close your eyes
Come lie beside me, don’t ask why
Can’t hide the feelin’ the feelin’s gone
My heart belongs to me

I believe that us porn people need to act in a more caring and compassionate way with each other. XOXO Monkey out.

April 2, 2006:

Gia Jordan, Gen Padova And The Magic That Is Tony Malice

Da Burglar replies to my inquiry about why he stopped posting on XXXPornTalk:

"Chicken Little with Extra Beak" is Gen Padova, "Vengeance" is Gia Jordan, and Malice is the "irrelevant/annoying" male. I talk with Gen frequently and had considered her a confidant...she was often encouraging to me in my ridiculous hangups and eccentricities. Likewise, I had become good friends with Gia Jordan, albeit with a slightly different flavor than Gen.

Gia is a smart girl, an exagerated sense of 'taste' as it were (especially for a porn whore), but still a lot of joy to talk to...Gia was quick to offer me advice and opinions on a lot of things in my life, from where I will be moving next and buying another house, to food/diet issues, to suggesting potential women for me to 'see' as a client. A little forward and invasive on her part, but really no big deal..

Gia recently broke up with Malice and, during a conversation with me, Gia shared that fact, along with a VERY general explanation of why she broke up with him (she basically said she lost interest in the relationship.) Now here is where I messed up: During a LONG online late nite conversation/exchange with Gen Padova, I somehow related to her that I was bored/frustrated/concerned with Gia, that I thought Malice was being a jerk to me, and I related to Gen what Gia had said about their breakup.

BIG Mistake, but I didnt realize or think it at the time...in fact i didnt think at ALL...it was one of those Gossip Dynamic Situations at work, and GEN had already shared MUCh info and opinion with me about A LOT of things and in a lot of areas, and I felt I could be the same with her. What I DID not know was that Gen had a pre-existing relationship with Malice, that they were former lovers, and that Gen has issues with pretty much every other girl in porn. Gen immediately shared with Malice what i had said to her about Gia, Malice confronted Gia, then Gia lambasted me....BOOM.

I felt very bad and was very sorry, UNTIL: Malice sends me a VERY terse, demand-like MYSPACE message where he INSISTS I tell him EXACTLY what Gia said about why she broke up with him...he was EXTREMELY anxious about this. I found this amazing (and annoying) because I had attempted to communicate and be friends with Tony for months, but typically he never responded, even with short replies, to most of my messages. I know the man is busy but...anyway, he sends this demand message to me and I am thinking: "This is the guy who derives GREAT joy from posting OVER and OVER again threads about such unfortunate women like Alyssa West (using her newborn baby pics and private chats no less), Genesis Skye and the like; the guy who, as one half of the Johnson Brothers has perpetrated DONKEY PUNCH upon the psyche of society....this guy is all INSECURE over what an EX Porn Whore Squeeze of his said TO ME?"

The fact was, even though I should not have told Gen what Gia said...it really WAS NO BIG DEAL, Gia really didnt say ANYTHING horrible about Malice. Besides, when people break up, they talk with friends and others about it...what the f___ did he expect?? I mean, Luke, you and Holly are a CLASSIC example...stuff gets revealed after the relationship is over.

It's ridiculous, but this is a big reason why I am reluctant to continue posting at XPT and it is why i am now so interested in this Donkey Punch Phenomenon.

There should be a Holly-directed soap opera series we could pen episodes for.

WillieD emails me:

Luke, You probably know from you experience trying to have Rick "DaBurglar" guest-blog for you last year that he is about as reliable as a 1967 Dodge Cornet.

Rick is bitter and angry because he flew too close to the porn sun (think of Dedalus and Icarus) and got burned like a picnic hamburger. His life since then has been devoted to defending himself and trying to redistance himself while living on his pot farm in Mendocino County.

Is XPT (or ADT or any other group of porn degenerates) dysfunctional? YES!!! Of course we are...just as dysfunctional as you and Holly were. Does that make it all that different from the prototypical Uncle who comes to Thanksgiving dinner drunk and swearing like a sailor? NO!!! That's precisely why it is entertaining. The dolts over at ADT make money off having their posters behave like well-trained lab-rats, programmed into their vanilla-speak where porn whores are lovely well-behaved women expressing their sexuality for our enjoyment. Caca. If nothing else, we are honest about our degeneracy.

I was perfectly happy with Da Burglar's performance as my guest blogger.

Martin Del Toro Trial Date Nov 22

Martin666 posts on XPT:

Just to pass on the word, tomorrow the trial for annulment of marriage between Haley Paige and Csaba Marton (Maklary) del Homo occurs.
November 22, 2006
111 N. Hill Street Dept. 82
Los Angeles, CA 8:30AM

Numerous witnesses are slated to testify including an agent from Homeland Security, several industry people and former employers of Martin del Homo, and friends of Haley Paige.

It's the trial to annul the marriage, which would mean the marriage was a fraud, which would mean the green card was obtained fraudulently, which would mean he would instantly become an illegal alien, which would mean he'd never become a legal alien again because Homeland Security ain't too keen about fraudulent marriages in order to obtain permanent residency.

Lucy Lee Retired?

What's going on with the Asians? Honorary Asian David Aaron Clark retiring from porn?

Open Source Legal Motion: How Collective Knowledge Is Influencing Legal Practice

Bess Kargman writes:

“I don’t think there’s any doubt that I am the most sued blogger out there,” Ford said. “Overall I think it’s terrific that there are libel laws, because the alternative to a lawsuit is that someone would come and break my legs—or kill me.”

The writer has been sued five times in seven years, mainly for libel, resulting from stories plaintiffs deem false and reputation-damaging.

Since 2005, Ford has benefited from the legal assistance of Justin Levine, his pro-bono attorney.

Unfortunately the article makes no mention of my prodigious efforts on behalf of legal Mexican immigrants.

Banged, Sliced and Drugged

Sinammon Love blogs Nov. 14:

I went to work last Sunday for John E. Depth's Miss Phat Booty 3... Wearing a gold waist cincher, black bikini top, gold sequin shorts and my new fav black vinyl boots - John E. had Diana shoot me for the cover. Yummy! John E. put me through my paces... we fell off a contemporary designed red leather chair, I squirted twice, then I wound up tapping out during the "A" part of the scene... one too man orgasms and butt hole couldn't take anymore.

Can Women Enjoy Double Penetration?

Ira Levine aka Ernest Greene, the husband of Nina Hartley, posts on Nina.com:

Weary as I am of Jensen's screeds, I don't think they should go unanswered. If they do, it would appear that we either lack answers or are afraid to make them, neither of which is true.

In this particular instance, I would point to Jensen's obsession with the specifics of sex acts in porn, which I consider not prudish, as I've said before (to demolish the favorite straw man of anti-porn feminist that those of us who disagree vehemently with them dismiss them as mere prudes, when in fact their fixation on porn is clearly both perverse and prurient) but rather, as Carol Queen characterizes it "absexual," a grim condition in which hatred and loathing of this or that kind of sex forms the center of the individual's sexual identity.

As to the specifics about DPs and whether women hate them or men should because they're inherently degrading, that's just too silly to rebut. Men and women have been doing DPs since long before porn was invented and will continue to long after it's gone. Jensen's assertion that neither men nor women enjoy such activities in their private lives come from his anecdotal sampling of what even he admits is a skewed focus group - his circle of associates who most likely share his narrow construction of sex. In fact, contrary to his findings from his study group, DPs may not be the most common sex act among porn, but I know I am one of hundreds of thousands of men and women who have occasionally enjoyed them when there wasn't a camera anywhere nearby.

Let's be reminded once more that Jensen, though he conveniently never mentions it to mixed or het audiences, identifies as a gay man and I don't doubt that he and his half-dozen like-minded friends find the idea of putting their dicks in in vagina unappealing to begin with (though I wouldn't be surprised, or critical in anyway, if some of his friends find the notion less repellent because there would still be some dick involved).

Meantime, I continue to question the motives of a man who voluntarily exposes himself to hundreds of hours of a type of porn that has nothing to do with his own sexuality and serves only to keep his miserable, depressive view of what the heterosexual world finds appealing as dark as possible. If I felt I had to watch daytime TV, which offers virtually nothing that speaks to me, for hundreds of hours, I have no doubt I'd find even more things to dislike about it.

But let's get back to his central point, if he has one, which seems to be that men have all been conditioned to respond to forms of sexual behavior that women (for whom he claims not to speak while repeatedly doing so) just because women dislike them. This, in Jensen's opinion, helps perpetuate hostile gender dimorphism which serves the interests of The Patriarchy, though just how DPs help maintain the power and influence of the couple of hundred white guys who really are the patriarchy, or more correctly oligarchy, that runs this society (and from which most men, Jensen and myself included) are barred from membership by accident of class) remains a bit murky to say the least.

Now, when we look at a real, out-of-the-closet patriarchy to which most men in the society in which it exists truly do feel a sense of collective entitlement over the proper and improper uses of women's bodies, we find an interesting phenomenon. The men in those cultures find pornography, or any form of sexual expression involving women, every bit as repellent as Jensen does. Here's an ugly recent example that nicely supports my observation to the effect that societies that suppress sexual expression overall generally blame women for its existence and suppress them as well. This from today's AVN Online:

Iranian Soap Actress Faces Charges over Sex Tape
By: Carlos Martinez

LOS ANGELES -

An Iranian soap actress is being prosecuted on morality charges for appearing in a sex video she made with her boyfriend.

Iranian authorities arrested Zahra Amir Ebrahimi after the tape was posted on the Internet by her boyfriend, then released on a DVD, angering millions of Iranians, London’s Daily Mail reported.

The boyfriend, who was not named in the criminal case, is suspected of distributing the video illegally. He reportedly fled to Dubai.

The 25-year-old Ebrahimi had a leading role on a popular soap opera, but has been dropped from the show after she was arrested. She had played a morally upstanding woman on the program.

Iranian law forbids premarital sex and if Ebrahimi is convicted she faces a public lashing and a jail term.

Recently, television presenter was fired after a video surfaced showing him dancing at a wedding with a bride that he was not related to.

Does Jensen really believe that a porn-free society would be a better, safer place for women? I don't doubt his sincerity (it's too maudlin to be fabricated), but for a college professor supposedly trained in critical thinking, he doesn't show much intellectual integrity when it comes to facts that don't fit his theory.

He continues, like most anti-porn feminists, to insist that violence against women is of epidemic proportions in this country and that that epidemic is fueled by porn. As we've seen from a much wider, better study quoted in this forum, the facts don't support this contention. I doubt that he will, but he might want to check out this genuinely scientific piece of research provided by our logic-minded friend Frank:

http://www.law.stanford.edu/display/...0+%20paper.pdf

Not surprisingly, what he Stanford study concludes is that sexual violence goes down in societies where pornography is widely accepted. I don't think there's a one-to-one causality in this, but rather that it represents the differences between societies that accept sexuality, including female sexuality, as normal are less given to spasms of violent misogyny than those that don't. In that same thread, I provided some examples::

Pornography tolerant (tolerance certainly varying by degrees) societies:

Japan
Holland
France
Germany
England
Spain
Virtually all of Scandanavia
Australia
Canada
Israel
The United States

Now let's look at some countries where porn is rigorously suppressed:

Saudi Arabia
Iran
China
Afghanistan
Pakistan
Jordan
Indonesia
Singapore
India
Sudan
Egypt
South Africa
North Korea
Nigeria

Do Jensen and his crowd really think women are safer in the latter group than in the former? Does he have the intellectual courage to address this question openly, or does he share the anti-porn feminist view that dirty pictures count as violence against women in themselves and that, therefore, women in this society suffer more violence than in those societies in which they are merely raped, tortured, mutilated and killed for failing to conform to rigid social constraints on female sexual choice?

One thing that even Jensen admits, in a rare moment of candor, is that most of this society doesn't agree. In a startling admission to one of the like-minded gatherings of porn-bashers where he collects his honoraria, he pretty much condceded that his cause is lost:

"But we live in a society in which the pornographers have won, in the short term. Their products are more widely accepted and available than ever. Much of the culture has bought the “pornography is liberation” and “pornography is freedom” lines. To the degree that an anti-pornography position can get traction in the dominant culture, it comes from right-wing groups that have co-opted the language of feminism -- the political language of harm -- as a cover for a regressive moralism that rejects the values of feminism. Those same right-wing groups typically resist a critique of the capitalist commofication of everything, an analysis crucial to understanding pornography."

At least he's honest enough to admit that the rhetoric he and his self-appointed cadre employ has been more valuable to the enemies of women's rights than to feminists in general. Maybe when he's not too busy boo-hooing over the horror of DPs, he might want to consider the way in which anti-porn feminist claptrap has come to the aid of enemies of reproductive choice such as the sponsors of South Dakota's thankfully defeated attempt to criminalize abortion, or Dubya's new choice for federal family planning czar, who believes that contraception "is degrading to women." Jensen's crowd bears the responsibility for arming such cranks with talking points, not us.

If any of these fanatics really cared about the treatment of real women, instead of ventilating their own morbid paranoias about abstract forms of "oppression," they would be more concerned with the fate of Zahra Amir Ebrahimi than they would be with DPs in videos.

But then, to do this, they would have to admit that the liberal West has a more enlightened attitude toward women's rights than the kinds of non-Western societies that leftists are reluctant to criticized out of the fear of contradicting their equally corrupt notions of cultural relativism.

Meantime, while feminists argue among themselves about porn, women all over the world suffer real violence of the most ghastly varieties, largely unassisted by the naval-gazing, porn-fixated rad-fem left here where, thanks to that infamous tool of patriarchal oppression, The First Amendment, they would be able to speak out openly against such atrocities, if they actually cared about women as human beings rather than as faceless victims of a mass ideological campaign to keep them down.

The prosecution rests ... for now.

Tim Connelly Vs. AVN Publications

The first hearing in this case (go to lasuperiorcourt.org and put in PC039632) is scheduled for March 15 at 08:30 am in department F50 at 9425 Penfield Ave., Chatsworth, CA 91311.

Sasha Grey On Tyra Banks Show

She posts on ADT Nov. 19:

Yep, yep, yeah. I understood going in that I would be judged and I was more than prepared...every time I answered a question, they would cut me off, cut to a break, or say "this is hard for me". I had the opportunity to say a lot of powerful things; including the fact that I may not change everyone's mind, but even if I reach one, two or three people that would make a difference. Today a young woman from the audience sent me a message on myspace, a very positive one at that. I challenge anyone to put me on live tv...they never will because my words will always be stronger than editing. They also had f---ing Dr. Drew from that show lovline and that guy is a complete joke...even on a lovline episode the almighty Nina Hartley once informed him that anal sex doesn't have to cause a prolapsed ass hole if you take the right steps...and of course they ended the show with an unnamed ex-porn star hooker tried to throw that in my face! Just think about most cliches of this business and that was this girl, and they tried to compare our lives...bah humbug. I would gladly do it again and again because I believe strongly in what I do.

Jessi Summers Feels Rejected

She blogs on MySpace:

I am sad today I have been having a hard time lately... I am extremely shut off from everything! I feel as though i have been taking the easy way out lately, and i think god is punishing me right now( i know it sounds kinda weird, but hey i am weird! lol). It's amazing to know that only a few months ago i felt as if i was on top of the world!I had friends, a car, a church, i was in contact with my family, and then everything was snatched from me! i left my ex and got with my bf, had a nervous breakdown, went tothe crazy house and my car repoed/ stolen from my ex and it had a bunch of stuff of mine and my bf's... I truly feel now that god has been sending me message after message telling me i am going down the wrong path and i have been ignoring him. Can anyone relate? we also just got robbed a few days ago. the only two valuble thing we had left in our apartment were stolen( a camera and an ipod) one more sign... Do know how it feels to have no one you feel you can open up to? I do! i feel so shut off from everyone and it sucks! i know that God has put so many wonderful people and oppurtunities in front of me that i have declined by declining them all i have done is set myself up for more depression and lonliness. I also lost my job lately, which didn't help. i am currently looking for a new one, but i can't seem to find something i really want to do. i feel like i have so much energy and creativity inside of me but i hven't had the oppertunity to find a job that i like, or to come into contact with people who may have a job i would be interested in. I need help! i am genuinely asking anyone i may know for help. If anyone out there has advice please message me back. i need support and guidance from good people, i know it's kinda lame to be on the internet asking for help, but honestly i feel as though this is the only place i can go. PLEASE HELP ME OUT!

Gary Graver Always Denied Being Robert McCallum

Joplinfantasy posts on ADT:

One of the most important directors of the Golden Age, Robert McCallum (real name: Gary Graver), passed away Thursday, October 16, succumbing to a battle with cancer. Graver unfortunately consistently denied ever being "McCallum", claiming he never used a pseudonym on his films, but every performer I've spoken to who worked with McCallum has confirmed his identity as Gary Graver. McCallum suffered from the "Traci Lords syndrome", I think. Or in other words, because he worked with the underage Traci Lords, that may have affected why he didn't admit to having done adult films. In any case, though he was ashamed of his porno past and apparently took his "secret" to the grave (even a couple weeks ago, as he was dying, he denied being McCallum), he should be remembered by adult film fans for his incredible work: 3AM, V THE HOT ONE, THE ECSTASY GIRLS, COED FEVER, AMANDA BY NIGHT, GARAGE GIRLS, CENTERSPREAD GIRLS, SOCIETY AFFAIRS, PRIVATE TEACHER, SUZIE SUPERSTAR, TRINITY BROWN, EROTIC CITY, TOWER OF POWER, CRAZY WITH THE HEAT, DOLL FACE, PEEPING TOM.

Mary Carey's NBA Drama

I got a series of frantic calls from Legend contract girl Mary Carey Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday asking me to take down my item about Dwight Howard exposing himself to her in a bathroom last week.

I finally get a hold of Mary Monday evening, Nov. 20.

Mary: "Lukie, pookie, I have been dealing with the NBA's head of security. Dwight Howard's dad [Georgia state trooper]. Dwight calling me, 'What did you do?' I said, 'I didn't know he was recording the conversation.'"

Mary laughs. "I'm just a little troublemaker, aren't I?"

Luke: "What did the NBA head of security want?"

Mary: "Dwight's the head of the NBA Christians. He's the spokesperson for Christianity.

"He apologized for what he did.

"When I was in bed at Chris Kirkpatrick's house [in the band N'Sync], I said, 'I want bread and butter sandwiches.' And he sent his assistants to make me sandwiches."

Amelia, Mary's babysitter, comes on the line. "The article is edited now so that Mary doesn't say anything," she says. "It's all me. It makes it look like I got on the phone with you and... People think that Mary's stupid assistant called this Luke guy..."

Rather, when I call Mary the past couple of weeks, she puts Amelia on the phone and instructs her to tell me everything.

Mary sings loudly in the background: "I'm drunk."

The song doesn't have a lot of lyrics but it's catchy in its own way.

Mary sings to me: "I don't have HIV, chlamydia or gonorrhea."

That's one of the things I love most about Mary.

Mary: "Ever since I've been single, my test... I've got to shoot a movie tomorrow.

"I was nervous because of Shifty [from the band Crazy Town]. There's a picture of me and him on my MySpace page. He's the only one who's made me scared on my HIV test."

Luke: "How are you handling all the drama?"

Mary: "I'm not handling it well. It reminds me of when I hung out with Tawny [Roberts]. I think I'm pretty stupid for my behavior.

"I talked to Harold about it. He said, 'You invited the number one NBA player to someone's house. That's pretty pimp.'

"You post the conversation, not us. We just happened to call you. It's not our fault. It's Luke's deal.

"The NBA contacted you, didn't they? Be honest with me."

Luke: "No."

Mary: "I know they contacted the other website and they had to take it down."

"I am promiscuous. I lied to you when I told you I wasn't."

Amelia: "I've quit four or five times. The pay is good. The job is fun until it all gets turned around on me and you get away with everything."

Mary protests.

Amelia: "Then I look like some retard assistant who doesn't know how to control Mary."

Mary Carey in happier days. Mary with her mom. Mary Carey with Dwight Howard in happier days.

Where Do Porn Stars Go When They Leave Industry?

It's a 20/20 special Friday night, Nov. 24 and it will feature Kendra Jade, Heather Veitch and company...

ABC's porn expert Chris Connelly is the reporter.

Kendra's dating a rock star.

"I did an outreach on camera," says Heather. "We went to Olympic Gardens [a Las Vegas strip club] and the manager remembered me from seven years ago."

Director Eli Cross: 'The Last Four Hours Are The Hardest'

He blogs about shooting for Vivid.

LGI's Bo Responds To Director Jules Jordan Over Corruption

Luke, I was a bit surprised to read Jules comments concerning notifying distributors about the content of movies. We distribute his movies through LGI Digital for his new company. He or no one at his company has ever called us and said 'Hey here is what is in this movie. Does it comply with your local community standards?' This whole idea that producers tell any distributors what the content of movies is (past the story or idea) really is bulls---.

I have always been a big fan of Jules’ work and will continue to support his company. I just find his comments a bit off base. Sex Z Pictures sold Corruption as a Directors Cut the same way mainstream producers sell their movies to video stores (Directors Cut / Rated Version). We intended to deceive nobody.

As of the writing of this email Sex Z Pictures has not received a single copy back. We have received questions asking would we take it back on a return or exchange and we have stated we would. We have also told everyone that has sold it if there is any legal issue we will stand with them and defend the movie at our cost. We also have informed everyone that we would send call tags for the movies so they do not have to ship it in the event they wanted to return it.

Every company that expressed an interest in returning the Director’s Cut has said that they would like the XXX version as a replacement which will be available in a couple of weeks. Most companies have sold out of the Director’s Cut however. Sex Z Pictures is once again 100 % sold out of the Directors Cut at present.

Most of the websites, distributors and retailers that have sold out of Corruption have the XXX version on reorder and consumers should be able to find it online and back in stores for Christmas.

Sex Z Pictures is making a special offer to consumers. If they purchase the XXX version anywhere you can send Sex Z Pictures proof of purchase and we will send them the Directors Cut for a small shipping charge. We at Sex Z Picture believe adult consumers have the right to see this movie the way the director intend them to see it. We also recognize our customer’s right to sell what version they choose to sell and we support them.

Until The Torah Set Me Free

HollyRandall: are you going to PSK tommorrow for April Storm's farewell party?
Luke: umm, sounds good
HollyRandall: well i don't know if i'm going to go
HollyRandall: i have a meeting at 6:30
Luke: ok let me know home girl
HollyRandall: i know
HollyRandall: i'm such a loser
HollyRandall: i spent all weekend gardening
Luke: Holly, I too was a home-bound loser until the Torah set me free.

Dwight Howard - On A Mission From God

Next to the wooden cross and framed copy of The Ten Commandments, Dwight Howard posted his personal commandments as a reminder to stay true to his faith and his vision.

...His favorite song is a gospel hymn, "Praise is What I Do." And when someone asks for his autograph, Howard writes "God bless" alongside his signature, so that he can "let people know that everything that they've gotten is because of God."

Dwight Howard, Enjoying His Youthful Years

Mary Carey told me Nov. 16:

"When Dwight [Howard] showed up, I didn't know what to do because I thought he was a very good Christian.

"When we went in the bathroom, he wasn't acting Christian-like. I was like, 'I thought you were really religious.' He started laughing and pulled his pants down. I was like, 'I can't do this here. I'm with Chris [Kirkpatrick] here.'

"He's like, 'My dad's at my house.'"

From Deadspin.com:

You know how we know that the Orlando Magic's Dwight Howard is just starting to break the ceiling of NBA stardom? He's hanging out with porn stars. Specifically, amply bosomed former gubernatorial candidate Mary Carey, who tells the story of meeting Howard in a Luke Is Back, apparently a well-read porn blog.

Ashey writes: "ha, is this is the same dwight howard that said his life goal is to change the NBA logo to incorporate a crucifix?"

Criminal Appeal writes: "That original post made my head hurt. It's either terrible, or its brilliant because it manages to convey Amelia's pain from being along for the ride on Mary's week-long bender. Also, I think I'm going to be fired now."

Taco writes:

This makes no mention of Howard's super-Christianity, am I missing something? Did he come out and say, Just kidding about that Jesus stuff? No one seems to be pointing out the obvious hypocrisy ... maybe instead of a cross on the NBA logo he now wants to put a strap-on around Jerry West's waist.

Wingman says: "Guess Dwight will no longer be trying to get the cross onto the NBA logo, amazing what moving away from Mama will do for a mans views."

UnsilentMajority posts: "i'm so confused...i thought howard was a bible thumper not a whore humper."

It makes me sick when religious people try to hump porn stars.

MDT posts:

Can you imagine the scene at church next week?

"No, no, Dwight, the virgin Mary."

Tuffy posts: "Are we sure she was saying Chris and not Christ? Jesus can't be too pleased about Dwight wandering from the one true path."

Royalssuck posts:

The writing. As clear as Hemingway. As insightful as Faulkner. As homey as Lewis. And yet, as socially aware as Steinbeck.

I am going all misty eyed, as I think of the outstanding Florida educational system. Fitzgeraldian.

At least, she has two assets on which to base a political platform.

Philistine posts: "If you like Mary's writing, try the "Luke is Back" blog, which I just visited. What a major trainwreck that thing is."

Jules Jordan Vs. Eli Cross

Jules writes on ADT:

Eli, adultdvdempire would never knowingly take a movie with fisting, hell they wont sell my milk enema movies...they removed the movie all together from the site, as did gamelink...to try to say that they agreed to take it is ridiculous, the plan should have been release both versions and give the dist. a choice to sell it or not, dont sell it then let them figure it out, the last people you wanna piss off is big distributors who cant screen every movie sold to them. In most cases out the door numbers wont cover the cost of the production, so you have to rely on re-orders, if you have no reorders you're f---ed, Do you really think a pissed off dist. is going to reorder the other version?, but i'm sure you're only concerned about awards ;) Bo is a great stand up guy for offering to help out dist, but him doing business in VA, he would know the heat that can be brought on...i'm just wondering how you talked him into releasing this?....maybe you will do a great service to the industry and these big distributors will open their eyes and accept fisting movies, but i doubt it in this century.....no returns? gimme a break....

Mike Albo: 'You, Sir, Are A Retard!'

He emails:

You post on one of your other blogs: "In my personal life, all I want is peace. I don't like conflict. I don't like arguments. I just want safety. But when I blog, all I want to do is cause trouble. It makes me feel important."

There's a big difference between feeling important and being important. You're an amazingly shallow and pathetic gimp.

Paul Cambria On Corruption

He emails me:

Since everyone is speaking for me you might as well know what I really have to say.

To set the record straight. The Cambria list is simply a list of the subjects which are most frequently selected for prosecution. It is not a list of what I believe is obscene since only a jury can determine that and such a determination can change from jury to jury location to location and time to time. No one whether it be prosecutor or defense attorney can say material is obscene or not since we never know what a given jury will do at any given time. What we can do when we have successfully tried many obscenity cases both state and federal as I have is predict what may happen in any given area at a particular time.

As far as Bo's Movie: I have been Bo and Shannon's attorney for many years and have successfully defended movies for them before juries including Max Hardcore movies before Virginia juries. Bo asked if I could make the services of my office available in the event defense was needed for his movie Corruption.We are a law firm of 65 attorneys we defend criminal cases all over the United States and have for many years with great success. Of course we would make ourselves available for Bo and those he is affiliated with unless there was some unavoidable conflict. There is a vast difference between what the prosecution may think violates the obscenity laws and what a jury would find after hearing both sides and all the evidence.

There also has been a reference to an agreement concerning Fisting conduct and the LA prosecutors office. I am very familiar with that agreement since I entered into it for a client of mine many years ago. It was not as reported that fisting per se was against the law it was simply that unless the thumb was inserted it was not considered fisting. The agreement was no more and no less than that and had nothing to do with whether such conduct was unlawful again that is a determination that only a well informed jury can make.

Fisting Is Hillary Scott's Political Statement

She posts on ADT about Corruption:

True, some distributors are not buying this movie, as suspected. I believe a softer version is being edited and will be released next year. Do you think it's more important for our industry to make "inroads to the mainstream" rather than refuse to except our government dictating what is appropriate for us to jerk off to? I don't. My f--- you to George W Bush comes in the form of a fist in my ass.

She was replying to this post from Den of CAVR.com:

Gamelink has discontinued selling it. Adult Super Store will not sell it. It is going to be a legal nightmare for the industry. As the Adult industry is making inroads to the mainstream, why do we need this?

...Ask Patrick Collins about The Fist. Ask Seymore Butts about Tampa Tushy. Ask Den about his amateur fisting movies!

The Government has more money than the Industry does and is willing to spend it! It is not fun fighting the government, spending a fortune on lawyers and ending up being a convicted felon and serving time! I don't wish this in anyone!

I got a review copy 2 weeks before the official review package was sent out. I am not the reviewer they are referring to in the Press Release. Here is my review.

I think Hillary Scott had an outstanding rookie year and an even better sophomore year. I think her performance in Britney Rears 3 is the best performance this year. I do not wish ill will to anyone concerning this project, I am just very fearful! I prefer inroads to mainstream instead of setbacks.

Jules Jordan posts:

I am all for fisting in movies, I would love to do this in my movies, however, I have a responsibility to distributors to inform them if this content is in a release and give them the option to take it. I've spoken to a few distributors to find out if they were now cool with fisting in movies, to find out they had no clue corruption had this content in it and were shocked that they unknowingly took a movie with fisting and sold it to their customers, they said they were returning all the movies. I watched parts of it, it looked ok, the lighting looked off to me, but otherwise looked decent...hillary looked great....but im surprised this movie was distributed in the current form, without an option to distributors, i'm sure that every dist. that knew returned it. I think it would have been a better move to release both versions at once and give a choice of which movie to take... Hi Eli! see you in vegas buddy....

Sunny Lane Does Not Provide

Mr. French writes:

> Can you name one listed > by an agency that does not provide, at least at one time? >

Sunny Lane. I met her this past summer in a club and asked her about providing since she was listed at the Bunny Ranch. She told me she was NEVER available and the only reason she was even at the ranch was because she was dating the owner Dennis Hof. They listed her as a come-on to bring in people.

Aria Giovanni. She was listed with several less-than-reputable agencies. I forget which ones. She was NEVER a provider as far as anyone I've spoken to knows, not even UTR.

I also had dealings with Nici's Girls (now operating under another name - I forget what it is) who had a loooong well-known history of listing girls that they were not representing and/or did not provide. Again, it was done as a come-on.

Nevada Sex Trade

Da Burglar emails:

Luke, just thought I'd let you and your readers know that the Reno Police are seriously cracking down on prostitution within the city limits. The reasoning is the legal brothels are only an hour or less away (places like the Bunny Ranch and several others) and the police feel that anyone wanting that type of experience can go there. The problem with that reasoning is the Bunny Runch will cost you anywhere from a Minimum of 1000 to as much as 2500 for "straight sex.

I think this is ridiculous for several reasons. First, going two or more hours out of your way to frequent the Bunny Ranch, which in my opinion the girls are not all that special (fat even), is a pain in the arse. Second, there are some extremely gorgeous women to be found right in the heart of Reno, starting at the strip clubs where many of the girls can be discreetly "contracted".... and of course keeping a watchful eye at the bars in establishments like Harrah's, Silver Legacy and El Dorado (the classy Reno Casinos) you will inevitably spot a freelance lady to commisserate with, and more often than not their fees are reasonable.

I offer this advice because VEGAS has turned into an absolute nightmare ... unless you have established contacts in Vegas who consider you "regulars" you are basically at the mercy of whomever you meet, and you will PAY. Vegas, quite simply, is out of control.

What kind of crazy mixed up world do we live in?

Confessions of a High-Priced Call Girl

I finished the book Saturday night and emailed the author:

I am glad you did not have any porno bits in it. I am sick of that. It was a good read.

I am curious about your life since you quit being a call girl. When did you quit? How have you survived financially? Had you saved your money? What happened to that movie/doc with Ryan? Why did you not move to LA?

I think you suffer from the same problem I have -- a tendency to idealize and then devalue people... I have heroes and then I get disappointed and they are nothing to me...Aaron [Sorkin] was your great love and you did what you did as a scorned lover, not because he did not give you credit for his call girl role or get you extra work but because you wanted more from him than he wanted to give you... I have never seen anyone given credit for inspiring a TV character role. That's not realistic.

Dimitra responds:

The BIGGEST catalyst for me to turn against Aaron was that he didn't do what I asked of him for my friend Amber...I think anyone else would have...if they had Aaron's power. In regards to a credit...if someone is the inspiration for a tv or movie character, the producers show a disclaimer, saying "all similarities to characters living or dead is coincidental...blablabla.." -- and that would have been a sign to me that he was talking about me...instead of acting as if he'd pulled it out of his hat. Our relationship back then was very private, and I would have understood what he meant.

I quit woking in 2005 and I had saved some money. I also got an advance from my publisher. Right now they want me to fly to Turkey for 10 days to do tv and radio promotion. I am really nervous. What's interesting is that Turkey is a lot more open to sex and prostitution than the US. They run tv ads with top-less women in prime-time. They buy LOTS of books with explicit materials. I feel like I am in a de-sexualized prison over here. I don't think I can take it much longer! I mean, when I hear stories about some party in Dubai where everyone in a club ends up naked...and here I get evil looks for not wearing a bra under my t-shirt...it makes me sick.

Photographer Robbye Bentley Update

She blogs:

after eating some tacos and having biscuits for dessert, we all get our dance on. well, stupid me...i grab the top of the DJ booth to try to drop. and then my hand hurts. i look down, and there is this GINORMOUS cut on my right index finder, and i am bleeding everywhere. sandra and i run to the bathroomto wash it off. basically, without going into detail...my finger looked like a hamburger. i wrap a paper towel around it and ran back to the dance floor to decide what to do. you always make better decisions while getting your boogie on. group concensus: i will be needing stitches. so rags and i depart, saying "we're going to the ER, we'll be back after stitches." not so much. the waiting time in the ER was 3 hours, and both rags and i were a few biscuits deep up in the waiting room. finally, i am called in at 2am. 4 stitches and a splint by 2:30, and discharged by 3am. yep, the party was over by then. good thing: i didn't tear a tendon, so no surgery on my finger. bad thing: this is my trigger finger for my camera. and right now...i feel a bit like frankenstein with this huge ass bandage on my digit. lesson learned: dancing can be dangerous and should come with a warning label.

Robbye emails me Nov. 11:

ATTENTION: ALIENS ARE COMING TO ABDUCT ALL THE GOOD LOOKING AND SEXY ASS PEOPLE. YOU WILL BE SAFE, I'M JUST EMAILING TO SAY GOODBYE.

Robbye emails me Nov 18:

didn't you get the message? i was abducted by aliens. they are allowing me to use the email, so my friends don't worry. first off, check out my blog on my myspace page for "freak accident on the dancefloor". that gives me a rockstar excuse for any typos, considering i am sporting frankendigit right now, and can't type for s---. let's see...i'm doing okay. besides the digit with the stitches, i'm rocking a torn ligament in my knee, so i have to have lots of PT or surgery in my knee to get back to rowing. i'm a bit itchy to get back to shooting, and i just got a call from monica (mayhem) to confirm that i'm still wanted. and nikki benz is on the dial, too. so, i'm thinking if putting up a paysite for now, and eventually selling the content, blah, blah, blah. i would love to shoot for mayfair/mensworld/club, etc. but, it kinda looks to me as if the editor is playing faves in my divorce drama. as if the ex actually can s--- photosets out of his ass. PLEASE. this dude i was dating from rockstar energy drink hit me up, and they're doing a model search with perfect 10 magazine. and he wants me to put a bid on the job. hopefully, that will work out and i can shoot for them on the regular (if my previous ties haven't TOTALLY ruined my chances, they hate the ex).

Fashion Photographer David La Chapelle Retires To Hawaii

Many of his set designers and assistans are looking for work, and they're not too proud to seek out porn work.

Jessi Summers Update

Chico Wang posts July 15 on ADT:

I just got back from Palm Springs with Jessi and her boyfriend. I was with Haley Paige. We went there to relax and get some sun. I've known Jessi for quite a while and have never seen her happier. She works out daily to a ridiculous sweat and concentrates her time between reading the Bible and improving herself. Yes, she had a substance abuse problem at one point but I know for a fact she no longer does it. I think a major component of her change is her newfound faith. I'm not a religious person and don't like religious zealots. She's very non-judgmental and is one of the nicest, sweetest girls in the business. The decision to get out of porn was hers and hers only. And frankly, I'm really beginning to think she made the right decision. It may be bad for me because I can't shoot her but she's a much happier person. In fact, happier than I've ever seen her.

Chico posts Sept 9: "Sad but true, like any meth freak, they may do well for a short bit, but Jessi after a good streak of about a month went back to being a tweaker. She's 18. Been doing it since she was 14. Will probably keep doing it forever. Oh well. I thought she had a chance but in the back of everyone's head, once a tweaker, always a tweaker. Too bad. There'll be more every month."

Chico Wang posts Nov. 17:

Jessi was in DTH 19. The only thing I do know is that PornoTube is violating copyright laws by dishing Diabolic stuff out free and I know for a fact they ain't got no 2257's on the stuff. Oy vey. BTW, haven't heard from Jessi in a while. A couple of days after I went to Palm Springs with her, she disappeared and, perhaps, found God in a different, more crystalline format. It's really a shame cause the girl is really a sweet girl with alot of demons.

Skronker posts: "What is it with the transitory meth-freak porn babes? They're always the hottest, for about a dozen scenes, and then gone forever. Mallory Marx, phone home!"

Amber emails:

Jessi Summers is NOT 18. . . um, she was born in 1978 (and that's according to her website). That would make her 28, much like myself. Definitely not old. . .but definitely not 18. A lot of these girls lie about their ages though. . . I've seen some that are obviously over 30 and say they're 23. Right. No different than the escorts on Eros guide. I believe Morgan Ashley has been holding at 27 since 2000, and she's at least 35.

Roxetta: 'I am Pregnant with Ken's Beby and we are Married!'

She blogs:

Well I think I finally am free of Drugs Now I am Pregnant with Kens Baby. It was my Dream to Have a child and Now I am Pregnant from Ken! We are happily Married and I am in an Apartment. I hope that all the crack I did does not effect the baby on its way... I now have a purpose to quit drugs and Ken and I are getting along now and off drugs for now at least. Thank you for your prayers.

Silicone Breast Implants Approved by the FDA

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