Jessi Summers

Jessi Summers Finds God, Leaves Porn, Gets Sober

She's returned to her real name Megan.

According to her old website clubjessisummers.com, she was born August 18, 1978. She stands 5'9 and weighs 125 pounds.

She blogs July 8, 2006:

I am so happy to say that thanks to god i have been sober for just a couple days shy of two months. he has taken my cravings for eveythinng away. and i'm no talkng a little coke habit or supposed weed addiction. i was so bad for the last 9 months i had to smoke tweak all day everyday or i couldn't function, i also used coke daily, loved pills and ate them every chance i got, drank enough to get drunk daily and i also developed an addiction to sleeping pills.

She blogs July 6, 2006:

i know most of you in the industry are saying to yourselves..."she'll be back...." and i don't blame you. most girls do return, but there is one thing that's different about my situation. i have given my heart and soul to the lord. i am finally at peace with myself. for the short time i have been on this planet i have experienced many bad things, i carried around all the pain, bitterness, and anger from my past experiences. it was consuming my heart more and more everyday. i turned to drugs and alcohol to try and numb it and the money from porn supported my habit... until one night a couple months back, i o.d.ed. whether u believe me or not i left my body and i saw where i was going if i continued living my life the way i was. i also spoke with god...(yes i know it sounds crazy, i was a non believer before this happened and it took me a good two months to be able to truely except what happened to me!) and while god was with me i felt a love and peace better than any high or love on this planet...it was amazing, i can't even explain how wonderful the feeling was. he gave me the choice to go with him or come back to earth.... after asking him many times if i would be alright i made the decision to come back and live my life right, and after ii made the decision i guess the best way to explain it was that i was sucked back down into my body on earth, on my mom's ex gf's couch in her living room, where she explained i had been laying since the night before, it was late afternoon the next day, i still don't undersdtand why she didn't take me to the hospital, but i am sure it was all part of god's plan... there is much more to my whole experience and if you want to know more please message me.... anyway i know most of you that read this are going to think i'm a wack job and that's alright! i would have thought the same thing if it hadn't happened to me! but i feel that i should share my experience in hopes that it may open up someones eyes to god and maybe help you to make changes in your life to come closer to him and let him take your pain and suffering away, so you may finally have what you were looking for in all the wrong places.....unconditional love, healing, and happiness:)

She blogs July 5, 2006:

i grew up in portland, oregon with my mom and her girlfriend....yes my mom is a lesbian. at fourteen i was kicked out because my mom couldn't handle me anymore, so i started living with friends or boyfriends....basically whoever would take me. i got into partying and drugs and stopped caring about school. by fifteen i was living a lifestyle that no fifteen year old should be living... i felt it was necessary to get fucked up everyday with whatever i could get my hands on to mask lonliness and pain that i wasn't quite ready to address. considering pretty much all of my "friends" were dealers i got some pretty hardcore shit. i don't remember all of fourteen or fifteen and i am glad... i witnessed too many horrible things to mention, but that's what you get for hanging out with tweakers and ex cons.... at sixteen my mom and her girlfriend broke up. my mom's gf cheated on her with the next door neighbor. there was more to it than that but that was the last straw. so my mom moved to reno, nv where all of our family lives and for some reason she wanted me to come with her and start a new life. i wasn't totally excited but anything had to be better than where i was at... so i moved down to reno with my mom. we lived with my aunt and uncle for a couple months which was to drastic of a change for me. i went from no rules and getting fucked up all the time to basically being on lock down. i considered it to be like prison then but i now i view it more as rehab.that didn't last long but then again i wasn't really in the habit of living anywhere long. i actually kept m ost my stuff packed in suitcases no matter where i moved because in my experience people usually only let me stay with them for a month or month and a half before they got bored with me and kicked me out. so my next home was my moms new girlfriend's place. she got a new gf basically right after we moved there. it was a two bedroom broke down trailer with four people already living in it, not to mention about thirty cats....so i was the lucky thirty fifth addition to their "home" lol. my moms gf had two girls around my age but we didn't really get along. actually i was treated like the red headed step child in that household. everyone took their shit out on me...and one night it got down to me almost stabbing my moms ex in self defense to realize i had to get the fuck out of there.....lol my stuff was already packed so i was on my own once again i got a place in my exes name off of wells ave. which i had to work a good sixty hour week at mervyns to get, but by that time i had already droped out of school so i had plenty of time on my hands. it was great for a couple weeks. we were getting fucked up everynight and partying and having fun... something i hadn't had for awhile. then one night he turned on me. he had always been verbally abusive but that night i thought he was going to kill me.... i can't remember who called the cops i was kind of in a daze, but they came and he ran. there was blood spattered on the walls and carpet in the bedroom and in the bathroom where most of the beating went down. he had ripped the bedroom door off the hinges and totally fucked up what i considered my home which was something i hadn't had since i was little. i was beaten up pretty bad but nothing so major that i needed to go to the hospital. The cops had helicopters looking around the neighborhood with spotlight and they still didn't find him. lol tweakers are pretty good at hiding, i knew they wouldn't find him. they told me to call as soon as he came back so they could arrest him. not only did he beat me he had a couple warrants out for his arrest. i was so scared waiting for him to come back home, it's like in the movies when they start playing the cheezy music right before the killer attacks...lol. it took him a good hour to come back and he just walked in the house casually like nothing had happened. i never called the cops back... this continued until one day while he was at work i moved, with my half brothers help, back up to oregon.

so i get to oregon with no place to really stay, so i started calling the few friends i hadn't lost contact with to try and find somewhere so i wouldn't have to sleep on a park bench....lol... my friend trisha and her mom let me stay with them for a little bit until i got too out of control with my drug problem and then they kicked me out.... somewhere in the haze i moved in with a family that i lived with from like 4- 10. don't ask me how i got there because i really don't remember. and i met my ex david. he was awesome and i was soooo happy with him. i got kicked out for staying out too late with him, so i moved into his place. drugs started to have an even stronger hold on me than before.... coke, alcohol, tweak, and pills were my best friends... it really fucked up what me and david had. i would disapear for days at a time with no call to say that i was at least not dead.. and then show up at his place like nothing happened. he and even i didn't know the extent of my problem. i don't exactly know where i went from there it's all kind of a blur... but somehow i ended up working at best buy while i was still livig with david and in my first week working there i moved in with another one of the cashiers that worked there. oh yeah i forgot to mention that i did all my moving by bus (tri-met baby!). so anyway i worked there for a good 4 or 5 months which was a LONG time for me considering how much i moved around.i thought it was great i had someone to corrupt so i could have a new party buddy and the most convient thing was that our dealer worked in car audio in the same store.... drugs became even more of a problem... me and david broke up and got back together fifity billion times over last summer which is about the point i am up to now. i moved in and out, i also lived wit various other people all over portland and the surrounding areas.. basically going whereever the parties were good and the drug supply was ample. i was miserable not to mention broke. there were times i got stranded cuz i spent the little money i had for bus fare on drugs... then around my 18th birthday i moved back in with the family i grew up with again, claiming that i had changed and would abide by their rules, which when i moved in i intended to do,but then a couple days after my b-day i was right back doing what i had been doing for a good three and a half years. i found some sleazy guy that claimed to be a legit photographer that ripped me off by paying me close to nothing for nude pics that he claimed were artistic not pornographic...anyways some good did come from it. the next week he hooked me up with a shoot in florida for inthevip.com he said it payed well and i figured it would be fun....plus i was sleeeping with guys for free or for a place to stay for the night, why not make something substancial and get a trip out of it? so i did it and i was sooooo nervous! overall it was a great experience. a week after i came back from the two day mini vacation i got hooked up with my first agent. and i moved to cali after talking to him just a couple times. i didn't really know anything about porn or the industry, or the lifestyle i was getting myself into( although it wasn't that far off from how i had been living)...

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Chico Wang posts July 15, 2006 on ADT:

I just got back from Palm Springs with Jessi and her boyfriend. I was with Haley Paige. We went there to relax and get some sun. I've known Jessi for quite a while and have never seen her happier. She works out daily to a ridiculous sweat and concentrates her time between reading the Bible and improving herself. Yes, she had a substance abuse problem at one point but I know for a fact she no longer does it. I think a major component of her change is her newfound faith. I'm not a religious person and don't like religious zealots. She's very non-judgmental and is one of the nicest, sweetest girls in the business. The decision to get out of porn was hers and hers only. And frankly, I'm really beginning to think she made the right decision. It may be bad for me because I can't shoot her but she's a much happier person. In fact, happier than I've ever seen her.

Chico posts Sept 9: "Sad but true, like any meth freak, they may do well for a short bit, but Jessi after a good streak of about a month went back to being a tweaker. She's 18. Been doing it since she was 14. Will probably keep doing it forever. Oh well. I thought she had a chance but in the back of everyone's head, once a tweaker, always a tweaker. Too bad. There'll be more every month."

Chico Wang posts Nov. 17, 2006:

Jessi was in DTH 19. The only thing I do know is that PornoTube is violating copyright laws by dishing Diabolic stuff out free and I know for a fact they ain't got no 2257's on the stuff. Oy vey. BTW, haven't heard from Jessi in a while. A couple of days after I went to Palm Springs with her, she disappeared and, perhaps, found God in a different, more crystalline format. It's really a shame cause the girl is really a sweet girl with alot of demons.

Skronker posts: "What is it with the transitory meth-freak porn babes? They're always the hottest, for about a dozen scenes, and then gone forever. Mallory Marx, phone home!"

Jessi blogs Dec. 9, 2006:

to my real friends.... i miss you! i wish i could take back the things that have happened between us to tear us apart. i know that i sound like a pussy writing this but i miss you!

i want to say to all my friends in the industry i miss you and please contact me if you get a chance, i feel like such a loser for doing all the things i hhave done but at the same time i don't feel totally bad for everything, you guys fucked up too. and to steve you fucked me over royally! but i let you so i can't really blame you. i love you so much for the short time we were together. and to dave i am sooooooooooooo sorry for everyhting i did to you and i would love to talk to you again and see how you have been. i messed up with you and i am really sorry. i have done a whole lot of nothing for the last six months and i really want to get back into the industry! i miss you all and i miss my job! it was the best and i will do anything to get back into it! i went nuts, that's all i can say. i thought i was in love but i was wrong.

if anyone cares i'm in reno right now at my mom's trying to collect my mind. the last six months have been extremely hard but i guess all i can say is that i have learned from it and i am so much stronger from it. my mom is going through some tough times and if anyone who reads this is religous i will ask you please to pray for her. she is such a sweet lady who is going through so much. to my brother. thank you for getting me out of that apartment and that bad situation, you are awesome!

Jessi Summers blogs Jan. 31, 2007:

I HAVE BEEN OUT OF THE BUSINESS FOR ABOUT HALF A YEAR NOW AND I HAVEN'T BEEN UP TO TOO MUCH. I HAVE MOVED BACK HOME TO OREGON, AND I HAVE BEEN FOCUSING MORE ON FAMILY AND GETTING INTO SCHOOL. THERE'S ONLY ONE PROBLEM... I'M BROKE. I DIDN'T REALLY PLAN ON GETTING OUT OF THE BUSINESS I JUST DID. AND I DIDN'T HAVE A JOB OR ANYTHING LINED UP. I AM CURRENTLY CLEANING HOUSES FOR A LIVING AND LET ME TELL YOU IT'S NOT EASY! I MISS MAKING PORN, IT GAVE ME EVERYTHING I REALLY WANTED AT THE TIME... MONEY AND TONS OF SEX! LOL BUT IT'S NOT REALLY SOMETHING I COULD WRITE HOME ABOUT. I BASICALLY QUIT BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO PASS UP THE OPPERTUNITY TO BE REUNITED WITH MY FAMILY. I HADN'T SEEN THEM IN YEARS AND I KNEW IT WAS WHAT I HAD TO DO, PLUS I KEPT GETTING SCREWED OVER BY PEOPLE IN THE BIZ. I DON'T KNOW IF IT WAS THE SMARTEST DECISION TO MAKE BUT IT WAS SOMETHING I JUST HAD TO DO. I THINK ABOUT IT SOMETIMES AND GET REALLY SAD. I LOVED MY JOB AND THE FANS WERE GREAT! I DON'T KNOW EXACTLY WHAT IT IS I AM GOING TO DO WHEN I GET INTO SCHOOL NEXT SEMESTER, I'M DEBATING BETWEEN NURSING AND BEAUTY SCHOOL... MAYBE SOMEONE CAN GIVE ME SOME FEEDBACK. AS FOR MY LOVE LIFE I AM CURRENTLY SINGLE AND LOVING IT! WHO KNEW THERE WERE SO MANY HOT GUYS IN OREGON! I HAVE BEEN HAVING SO MUCH FUN SINCE I HAVE BEEN BACK;)