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Email Luke Archives Photos Stars Essays Search Luke Is Back.comAdvertise on Lukeisback Aug 18 Crossing the line from news to voyeurism I would like to dedicate this blog to a great Jew and a great gay American - the distinguished correspondent Cly Maxwell who got my blog up and running despite disruptions to our server in Gaza. In my vast readings of American intellectual history, I've noticed uncanny parallels between American Pornography and American Reform Judaism. For one, both take place in America. Two, over the past 35-years, both have increasingly embraced diversity and empowered women, gays, lesbians, the transgendered and bisexual, to storm the citadels of patriarchy and put The Man in his place.
Some critics of female directors in porn claim that the ladies stress compassion over intellectual rigor, sensitivity over historical precedent, and egalitarianism over obligation. Anecdotal evidence suggests to these critics that women directors have less grounding in traditional sources than men and less concern with traditional pornographic precedents... Watching the decision by Larry Flynt Publications to bring in Joanna Angel as a director, a certain female journalist at AVN observed: "Those of us watching this battle knew that the struggle would clothe itself in the prestige of...feminism and that any discussion of law, tradition and precedent would likely be thrown out in favor of appeals to compassion and mercy."
The success of directors such as Toni English, Jane Hamilton and Mason, has rocked America's social fabric. Rabbi Camille Ang-l of the San Francisco Reform homosexual-outreach synagogue Sha'ar Zahav says about their school: "Not only are we teaching Jewish values, but we are bringing the experience of lesbian, gay bisexual and transgendered people to bear on Jewish values." She says that "the experience of coming out, the experience of being on the margins, if not altogether invisible, helps us to identify with the stranger and the oppressed. For so many LGBT (Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgendered) Jews, we feel that we ha vecome out of Mitzrayim [Egypt]." Rabbi Ron Jeremy of Valley Torah, which has a special outreach to industry workers in the San Fernando Valley, says about their school: "Not only are we teaching Jewish values, but we are bringing the experience of porn people to bear on Jewish values." He says that "the experience of coming out, the experience of being on the margins, if not altogether invisible, helps us to identify with the stranger and the oppressed. For so many Jewish smut peddlers, we feel that we have come out of Mitzrayim [Egypt]." Amy Sohn writes in New York magazine about New York lawyer and writer Chris London:
In an August 12 blog, London takes on Stephanie Klein, who was lauded in The New York Times for living the Sex in the City lifestyle:
I call Chris Wednesday night at his Manhattan law office. We discuss Stephanie Klein and how better-looking female writers get more attention. Luke: "So many women in their 30s don't realize how much their stock has gone down. I've lived in LA for eleven years. Many of the women I met in my first few years here have now gone to seed. And they used to be gorgeous and unapproachable." Chris: "I know a girl in her 40s. When she was in her late 20s, she met a guy who's now extremely successful. He had an MBA and went to work for UPS and worked his way up. He treated her well. He took her to nice places. But periodically, he would pop over to her house in the brown truck and brown shorts UPS drivers wear. She'd make JAPy comments. 'I can't see myself dating a guy who wears brown shorts. It's embarrassing.' "That was part of his training program. The guy is now a multimillionaire and the guys she goes out with are blowing her off. Guys she would have never dated ten years ago. "LA is equally as vapid as New York but in different ways. Here you have this psuedo-intellectualism you don't have LA. Women in LA seem to prefer to date a guy who's a drug-dealer and drives a Lamborghini than a guy who went to an Ivy-League school who's pursuing a writing career and living in a small apartment. In LA, it's all about the flash. "Stephanie Klein is one of the least liked people but has massaged the whole blogosphere to link to her. She doesn't feel any of the angst that she claims she feels. The kind of guys she's going to meet are guys who want to f--- her and get on her blog. She's get a skewed sample." Luke: "What do you think of the show Sex in the City?" Chris: "Mixed feelings. It's an infomercial for New York City and the brands displayed there. It is a postcard from New York City. I am sure that the show has led to increased tourism and interest in things that have a "New York" flavor. But it's a caricature of New York. You have a lot of vapid chicks in the city who are [attempting to create] creating this psuedo-Sex in the City lifestyle. 'I'm so Carrie.' 'I'm like a Charlotte.' Stephanie has tapped into that. "Candace Bushnell (author of such books as Sex in the City) f---ed her way through the city and became famous for doing so. I have no genuine interest in her but she's a real writer. She created that brand (of the female sex columnist). "Amy Sohn lived that life. She wrote the column 'Female Trouble.' It was real, not posed. Stephanie tries to come off as this artsy downtown chick but she's a JAP who lives on the Upper West Side. She grew up in suburban affluence. She had false delusional princess dreams of what marriage would be like. So she married a guy who was super-successful and super-wealthy and he got bored of her within a year and traded up. "A lot of the angst that these women have is from naively going for the biggest meal-ticket they can get in New York City. They feel somehow screwed if it doesn't work out. "Stephanie's become a millionaire from her blog (the advance she got from Regan Books)." Luke: "What's the highest number of sex partners a woman could have and you could be interested in marrying her?" Chris: "Indefinite. "The women who are writing about this sexy life, their lives aren't so sexy. I'd rather marry a porn star than marry someone like Stephanie." Luke: "What do you think of the dichotomy in perception of men and women who sleep around -- men are studs and women are sluts?" Chris: "I think it's less true today. I don't think guys care. Joe Gallant (former musician turned porn director) gave me this great quote: '"The current NYC Sex Events are a lot like a Phish Concert. Part of the reason the new "Sexutantes are so VERY eager to be all' bitchin' in nicely-publicized clean upscale environs is due to the likes of $$ex & the City, writers like Amy Sohn (a nice Brooklyn girl who fabricates her jaded, men-can't-satisfy-me-though-they-try posturings), the lez-mafia machine at toys in babeland, etc. It says a lot about the safely iconic distancing of this era, when virtually every woman of a certain age and societal rank in this matrix-green radar-cooked shark tank we call contemporary culture desperately wants to be seen as a BAD GIRL-----14 year old girls wear "pornstar" rhinestone t-shirts in malls, Britney and ol' Madonna rehearse a corporate-edgy tongue kiss to lay on th' k-mart yokels in TV viewer-land, etc... The current crop of NYC party offerings provide a safe, non-threatening, non-consequential place to get their 5 minutes-of-nipple-lick wings, without fear of it hitting mom & dad's breakfast nook. This collective (entitled? as all louche "sex trend" adherents have been, throughout the ages, never comes from a stridency of spirit, rather from the well-nourished and oh so bored) and latest version of pussy power has its pulsating roots (of course) in media, a reactive (rather than innovative) construct that must prove itself on the very bleeding crest of all movements, seeming or real... What starts out as small like the Grego Loft thing (who is only continuing on a smaller scale the outrageous weekly parties of Neville Chesters (90's porn director) at his midtown loft for the last 10 years) must de facto get "Real Sex" coverage ANON, as field producers fall over themselves to track down that LATEST... "underground"... EDGY... odd, these scenes are never THREATENING.'" Chris: "These chicks who write about the sexual life they lead are not really having sex. There's an artistic edginess to write about it. It's bulls---. You're either in the sex industry for real or you are an artistic poser. "I'm more concerned about a girl who's not a slut but is using sex as a lever to extract something from me than a girl who says, 'I love you but I loved a lot of people before.' "You become relevant as a writer when the publishing industry can figure out a way to make money off of you. She sells to a lot of people who have no idea what New York is about. Intellects don't take her seriously except as a product to sell to the heartland. "I had a friend from an affluent family who I introduced to Heather "This Fish" Hunter. He said to me, 'I don't want to be in some chick's blog.' So he stopped dating this woman and he ended up in a blog entry. I wrote a negative comment on her blog, and she wrote back threatening to tell my employer that I had written a comment on her blog while I was at work." All the instances I've heard about this sort of threat have involved women, such as Washington Post reporter Susan Schmidt who tried to get a couple of people fired after they wrote her negative emails from their workplace. "Women who write these blogs complaining about their problems meeting [quality] members of the opposite sex...are only going to meet men who want to be written about. So they only have themselves to blame for this self fulfilling prophecy (unless they are merely posing to obtain fodder for their blogs). "Rachel Bussell Kramer is another [female sex columnist] whose sexuality seems contrived, or, at least embellished. A woman who dated Rachel told me that if she was half as exciting as what she wrote about, they'd still be dating. But she was this dead fish and lied about her provocative sexual experiences. Nevertheless, she is an interesting read. "Guys are more interested in actually f---ing someone than writing about it." Luke: "How did Amy Sohn's article, The Pick-Up Artist, affect your life?" Chris: "It still does. There are women who want to meet you because of that. Then there are women who have the eww factor, 'Ohmigod, he's slept with all these people.' Then there are women who think that if you f----- all these people, you must be good at something, so they want to f--- you. "It led to a lot of interesting things. It opened a lot of doors I wasn't trying to open. "At first I was embarrassed. But at the end of the day, for a guy, any kind of press is good press. People are speaking about you and that you are controversial makes people think you are more exciting than you are. "I'm not going to prejudge women who may have had a gangbang in college. I'm not going to date the pollyanna who's never had triple-penetration and then I get f---ed in divorce court and she's sucking the milkman's dick. I don't think chastity is indicative of character. Women who have taken the time to explore and understand their sexuality are ultimately better lovers and partners." Chris says this sentence by Amy Sohn about him is not true: "Beneath all his warmth, he seems to have a bitter core, as though his years of playerly ways have made him lose respect for any woman who would have him." Chris: "I was never really a player nor have I tried to be. I am just fascinated by people and perhaps that has led to some success in that regard." His father comes from a line of Sephardic Jews who moved to South America and converted to Christianity. His mother is an Italian-German Gentile. "At Dachau, there were probably relatives on both sides of the aisle." London says he's more spiritual than religious. "I was always much happier f---ing the same person, unlike a lot of guys who get sick of it. I am very much a creature of habit. If find something I like, I stick with it or at least try to. God knows I have been as pathetic as any needy woman and have myself tried to hold on a bit too long to relationships which were ill fated. I eat at a lot of the same restaurants. I'm not a guy who needs a lot of different women. It just happened that way." Chris says he's been "basically monogamous" in his long-term relationships. "I'm as flawed as any man. There were times when I was in love and I rationalized that it didn't count if it was an escort or a happy-ending massage. It didn't count if she was away for three weeks. Would I go out and pick someone up in a bar and f--- them? No. Sometimes you do other things. You use professional services out there. "I think everybody has [patronized a hooker]. Every man has seen professionals. I remember when I was up in the Hamptons and this woman, looking at the ads for escorts in the back of New York Magazine, said, 'Who sees these girls? These guys must be the biggest losers.' I said, 'Those girls cost a minimum of $500 an hour. Doesn't your boyfriend work at Goldman Sachs or a big law firm? That's who sees them. 'No way. My boyfriend is hot. He could get laid by anyone.' Just because a guy can get laid doesn't mean he won't pay for it. You either pay for it by the minute, the hour or the lifetime. There's always a cost to sex. Paid sex is one of the more honest transactions between men and women." I emailed Stephanie Klein about Chris London and his blogs about her. She replied: "Chris London is entitled to his opinion. Despite everything, I really do wish him the best." James DiGiorgio Takes After Mike Ramone JimmyD writes on ADT about offensive porn titles:
Sometimes I get the feeling that Jimmy doesn't like Mike. Jordan Fleiss = Trouble? Jimmy Lifestyles writes on GFY:
Israeli Troops Seize My Web Server In Gaza That's why I was down Thursday night. But we've successfully relocated to the West Bank and all of us at Lukeisback.com retain our dream of building a greater Israel. Evan's thread on GFY. AVN article. Pipecrew writes: "Where is all the hype in this thread? I only see KB posting over and over again. I watched the trailer, who would want to see that guy f---? Does he even have any fans?" BILLY TYLER SHOWS UP DRUNK WITH BOOZE & WOOD TROUBLE Robert Field posts on Porn Star Performance.com:
Rumsfeld Makes Surprise Visit To Wife's Vagina
KATIE MORGAN: A PORN STAR REVEALED
Right To Laugh - Conservative Comedy At The Friars Club In Beverly Hills Evan Sayet hosted the night and was the third and final comic. "George Bush could be Jesus Christ himself and liberals would say, 'Well, sure. His father got him the job." Lawyer Howard Smith (from Queens) led off. "The minute I gave my [future] wife a ring, she quit her job so she could be fresh for the wedding. How come no one worries about the man being fresh for the wedding? "We had the original members of Iron Butterfly do the wedding. The ones that hadn't OD'd. "The honeymoon was no better. We had to spend nine days in Maui. I get nervous about being on an island with no subway. I've never had so many $90 breakfasts. My wife got a $300 massage. Her massage: 'Don't worry. We'll just charge it to the room.' "This is when I gave my wife her pet name. I call her 'Crime.' Because crime don't pay. "My wife woke me up at 3:45 am and told me that we had been married for exactly one million minutes. "My wife not only needed to be fresh for the wedding, she also had to be fresh for our marriage, because she's still not working. "I'm a lawyer. Honestly, I provide no valuable service for society. (Huge applause.) That wasn't a joke. That was just information. "I came to Los Angeles to be an entertainment attorney. The closest I got was the Erin Brokovich case. I got stuck defending the chemical manufacturer in the movie. You're not going to see an Erin Brokovich 2. Nobody wants to hear the story from the side of Dupont. "The day we got engaged, my wife said, 'My Howard owns property.' The day we got married, she told everyone, 'We own property.' The day we were married for a month, she told everyone, 'She owed property.' "I understand why men get divorced. You can get 50% of your s--- back. "We live in Brentwood down the block from Coffee Bean. You go down there on a week day, and that place is jammed pack. Who are these people who can hang out there all day? I'll tell you. They're my wife. "I came home the other day and it was cold in the house. I said, 'You don't work and you run the air conditioning? We're three blocks from the beach. Open the window.' "My wife has an interview next week, which only means one thing -- A trip to Nordstroms to buy two new outfits. Eight hundred and seventy one dollars. I hope she gets the job so I can garnish her wages. "If she gets that job, she'll want me to buy her a BMW like I have. Which isn't a bad thing, because as a Jew, you know you've made it when you've bought that German car. "Remember how CNN reported that at the G8 meeting, there was an agreement to help the Palestinians rebuild their infrastructure. I didn't know the Palestinians ever had infrastructure. And if they do, it must be in Switzerland. "Finding the truth on CNN is like finding a Palestinian that wants peace. "I ask that we all take a moment for Yasser Arafat who finally did something good for the Jewish people -- he dropped dead." Jeff Wayne (the second comic of the night) and Larry Elder promoted their new DVD Michael and Me (about Michael Moore and gun ownership). Larry: "I took out a home equity loan to make this so please buy it." Jeff: "If we ever get the blacks, the negroes and the African-Americans together in the country, they're going to be a power. "I'm from the most oppressed group. White trash. Kentucky. People ask me if there was inbreeding in my family. I say, 'Let me ask my Uncle Daddy.' You can say anything about white trash and nobody cares. Not even white trash. "My 13-year old white kid wants to be a black rapper. He wears his pants around his knees. My dad wears his pants around his chest. The three ages of man. "You have to wait five days to get a gun. I might not be angry in five days. "In Bowling For Columbine, Michael Moore walks around South-Central (where the LA Riots started) with a UCLA professor at noon on a Thursday with a film crew. They say how perfectly safe they feel. "Let's take the same scenario, but haul your honky asses down at 2am Sunday. "I think Arnold is going to compromise on drivers licenses for illegal aliens. They'll get drivers licenses but they'll be restricted to driving south. "I want to see Michael Moore on Queer Eye for the Straight Guy. "Canadians say, 'We don't have an illegal immigration problem.' Of course. Who wants to live in Canada? "Canadians say, 'You don't know our politicians.' We don't even know our's. "In England, they think we're barbarians. A man asked me, 'Do you believe in the electric chair.' I believe in electric bleachers. "In England, they lose more people at a soccer game. At our sporting events, people aren't killed. "I told a joke: 'My grandma's going deaf. We can't afford a hearing aid. So we just stopped talking to her.' "A man told me after the show, 'It's not 'deaf.' It's 'hearing impaired.' "That's like The LA Times. They don't use the term 'Illegal aliens.' It's insensitive. They call them 'undocumented workers.' They're all workers. They're just undocumented. Twenty five percent of the prisoners in California are undocumented workers. What were they working on? "Pretty soon The LA Times will call burglars 'Unwelcome houseguests.' "Rainforest. When you were kids, there was no rainforest. There were jungles. A damn good word. Why did they change that word? When environmentalists got serious in the 1970s, they changed the word to rainforest. "Jungle conjures up images of cannibals, swamps, insects. Nobody wants to save that. So they came up with rainforest. "My wife and I took a tour of a rainforest and our tour bus broke down for four hours. We were in a damn jungle. "Tarzan in the Rainforest? Sounds like gay Tarzan. "I have the solution to gays in the military. We should have a separate gay army. Scare the hell out of everybody. 'If you don't settle down, we'll send our gay army over there. They take prisoners.' "I want to thank you for empowering me. I hoped you liked the diversity of the material. "The world has changed. My wife found our 13-year old son's Playboy magazine. It brought back memories of when my mom found my Playboy magazine, which she rolled up and struck me with. 'Wait till your father comes home.' I got a talking to and a spanking and he took my magazine. "My wife brought me the magazine. What was our response as parents' today? Thank God." Evan, the host, talks for the next hour but doesn't get as many laughs as the first two comics. "In other states, they are not going to believe what I'm saying is true. But California and New York are so much more gross than the red states. New York and California are so vulgar, that's why they're called blue states. He complains about driving his 13-year old kid to school and on every block there's a sign for "Orgasm: The Musical." On the way home, every block there's a sign for "The Vagina Monologues." Or "Puppetry of the Penis." Evan: "We owe Pee Wee Herman an apology. He was not masturbating in a theater. He was leading an actor's workshop. Why was George Michael arrested? How many superstars do you know who take the time to do theatre in the park?" Evan: "Why am I so much funnier than you think I am?" "I told my kid that until you're 18, you're flying Virgin Air." "Did you realize that it now costs more to see Miss Saigon than to f--- Miss Saigon?" "Let's take questions from the audience. I expected there'd be more laughs to fill more time." Melrose Larry Green sits in the front row and keeps yelling support. There's another man in front of the stage with a little white dog on his lap. Evan asks the man to hold the dog up. The man won't. I start screaming at the man to hold up his dog. The audience joins in. He finally lifts up the dog and that gets the biggest applause of the night. A liberal complains to Evan about conservatives imposing their values. Evan asks: When have you ever seen signs for, "Marry The Woman You Impregnate: The Musical." Sleazy Dream Posts: 'AVN - I'm BEYOND PISSED with you right now' I don't think AVN had nothing to do with this. Aly at AVN writes: "No, AVN had nothing to do with that. We only send plaques to the best Undercover Reporters. ;) It caused me quite a lot of confusion this morning but someone clarified on page 4 that there is indeed a company called 'in the news' that sends people plaques in order to make them do business with them."
X-Vision writes:
Sleazy Dream posted yesterday in a different thread:
Brad Shaw writes: "Get over it, you are not only a pornographer, but you make yourself a very public figure. I learned this long long ago. With the good, comes the bad." Jayeff writes: "We work on the Internet. Internet = computers = databases = what goes in comes out. Etc. Even if we might wish it were different, surely anyone in this business has to realize that sooner or later mail or whatever is going to arrive with "unfortunate" identification visible. I suppose it's predictable enough this is a perfect opportunity for SD to go into drama queen mode, but it's more than a little pointless to bitch about the obvious." Threats of Exposure to NBC and the LAPD from a client
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Heather Veitch Of JC's Girls We speak on the phone Sunday night. Heather: "We go to strip clubs and witness to strippers. So I started thinking about girls in the porn industry. My main goal of the ministry is that there's nothing they've done in their life that God won't forgive them for. I had a girlfriend die two years ago from alcohol. She was a dancer. She was angry. She was bitter. She never had a chance to know that what she's done in her life can be forgiven. "After she died, I realized I had created this perfect Christian world for myself. I only had Christian friends. I only did Christian things. People are out there and they're dying. If I hadn't been in my bubble, I might've been able to help her. "It's so hard for people with a past to go to church without the church judging them and being mean to them. I thought, wow, what would it be like for girls who have been in porn. I know the judgment that comes against me when I saw I was a stripper. "The ministry is about teaching churches not to be judgmental. Our church has made a commitment to not judge people who come through the door -- not on the way they dress, not on how they look, and not on their past. There are people who would like to go to church and would like to talk to God, but feel like they've done too much. My main goal is to let them know that they have not done too much. That our God is a forgiving God. We're just supposed to be messengers to let them know that God loves them. "We want to have porn stars and strippers come to our church. How do you do an ad for that? "Now, how are you involved in all this?" Luke: "I'm a journalist. I've written a couple of books on the industry." Heather: "What got you interested in this?" Luke: "The typical reasons that you would expect from a man. Also, I thought I could blaze journalistic new ground. And that's how it turned out." Heather: "Do you think they need a ministry like this for them?" Luke: "Yes. But I'm not an advocate. I'm just a journalist." Heather: "I'm hoping to develop relationships with people like you and with people who are more imbedded in the industry and to help them if they want help. "I went to this porn convention, Erotica LA, and everybody thinks that I'm a porn star. Primarily our outreach is towards women in the industry. But because I get so much attention from the men, I'm definitely going to address them. "I was dressed like a normal girl, but everywhere I went, I had lines of guys behind me to take pictures with me. I took pictures with everybody who wanted one. Over 100 in an hour. I also told them why I was there. They'd come up to me and say, 'You're my favorite girl here.' You don't know what you just walked into. I was the queen buzz killer of the day. "We had guys taking pictures of our feet. We had guys who wanted us to put stuff on our feet. No. "I had porn directors talking to me, wanting to get me into the industry, until they found out why I was there. This one porn guy was like, 'Did you know that Jesus hung out with tax collectors and prostitutes?' I go, 'Yeah. You know why I'm here.' "I was scared going in there. I thought everyone was going to hate me. It was the exact opposite. I thought, 'Man, I'm a star.' "A lot of them were polite. When they asked for my picture, they were polite. They weren't inappropriate. They didn't try to grope me. I anticipate that people are going to mess with me. That's why I was shocked when it didn't happen. I'm a thick-skinned girl. Say somebody grabs me, I'm not going to want that, but I'm not going to run off crying." Luke: "Strippers know how to handle themselves. Customers aren't allowed to touch them." Heather: "That is so true. As a stripper, I know how to move and grab their hands. You know how not to get touched. All of the past has helped me to reach out better. I do know that there were parts of dancing that were exciting, but there were hours and hours that were not good. Having people say things to you that hurt your feelings, having people judge you on the way you look every day... A girl would go on stage and then another girl would get up and everybody would stand up and move away. That would hurt. "I know that New Year's Eve was horrible. Everybody [the strippers] were crying and suicidal. Because we were spending one more year there. "We've gotten a lot of criticism about the way the website looks. I want [sex workers] to look at it and see that you can still look pretty. I know that one of my biggest fears about becoming a Christian was that I would need to go put on a mumu (a big dress down to the ankles) and some berets in my hair and rub the make-up off. That scared me. Until then, I had only judged myself on looks." Heather works as a hairdresser. Luke: "XBiz did a good article on you." Heather: "Everyone has been honest about what I say and not manipulative." Heather got Bill Day to go to church with her, but not by choice. He came to film her. "I tried to talk Jimmy into going to church with me but he kept coming up with these crazy scenarios. That I wear a Bad Girls t-shirt with no bra, and a collar and leash. I said no. I said I'd wear a Bad Girls t-shirt and he could wear his Bad Girls trainer t-shirt. That's just lettering. Yeah, people would look at me, but that would be practice for the church in being non-judgmental." Heather: "So how do Jews get forgiven now that there are no longer sacrifices?" Luke: "If it is a sin between man and God, then the same as you. You go to God for forgiveness. If it is a sin between me and someone else, I have to go to that person for forgiveness and then to God." Heather: "What about repentance? What are you doing about that, Luke? That's your hard point. Repentance is stopping, turning around, and going in the other direction." Luke: "Exactly." Heather: "Can you find another profession? Or is this something you feel like you couldn't give up." Luke: "It's something I could give up." Heather: "You believe in the same God that I believe in. I know that you don't believe that Jesus came and he's the Son of God. I didn't know at what point you are in your life. If you are at a stage where you are going to make a change. "I believe in keeping your friends, particularly if you make a life change, because then you can help them make a life change. It's important that you don't leave them as I did." Luke: "It's so humiliating socially." Heather: "That's my goal for these girls. Just like you feel humiliated to tell your [community]. These girls feel too humiliated to go to church. My goal is to take that humiliation. So that they know there's a group waiting for them who knows that they have this in their life, currently in their life, and wants to help you. I want girls not to be embarrassed to come to us because I believe in a God who created the universe. I know that God can help them right where they're at and He can help you too. "God wants to use this experience you've had. He's not thinking, Luke, I want you to hide this past. He wants you to use what you know and turn things around. "I'm hoping you can reach a point where you can turn things around and let people know that this is a serious problem so that the next guy who comes in isn't ashamed like you are. "I'm just happy that you know God. He's going to be working on you. He'll keep your life in conflict until you go His way. Then things will get better. You are going to have to surrender, come clean, and go from there. "When I was feeling humiliated at church, I thought, this is wrong. Why should I be judged differently from others? You might think that this is wrong, and you might start making a change in your [community]. You might let people see that you're a sinner the same as anybody else, and you could work towards making changes. Look at how our culture is going. And if our churches don't realize... I'm on MySpace. This is a nasty little place. "I told my son, I have some disappointing news for you because your friends must think I'm hot. Look at all these kids emailing me. My son is so disgusted at men looking at me in the car and stuff. I say, I can't help it. I'm hot. "That's what I say just to mess with him because boys don't want to hear that about their moms. My son is the biggest prude in the world. "My four-year-old daughter is erotic dancing all over the room. It's so embarrassing. She's crazy. She has unbelievable confidence. It look so bad to have this out of control daughter. It's like I gave birth to myself. "I have some amazing plans for the convention. Maybe by then you'll be fully converted. You can help out at our booth." Luke: "I'm more a guy who stands back and observes." Heather: "Come on Luke. Maybe you can be our male bodyguard. Our church will not send in men. They think it is too much temptation. Maybe you can protect us. You'll be working for the Lord. Since you've seen enough of it, you're not going to be enticed. I've found your calling." Mike South writes:
Praise Luke Kelly writes:
The Salvation Of Barry Nick East, a porn star and the author of The Orion Compass, features in a new documentary called The Salvation of Barry. "One of the premieres is Saturday night," Nick says. "It's right up your alley. A New Yorker on the last legs of caring about being alive, comes out to Los Angeles to find spiritual identity. He wants to check out all the different states. He talks to a rabbi, a priest, a minister, a Satanist, an atheist. Among the people he wanted to interview was a porn star to 'find out what it is about our spirituality that allows us to sleep at night.' "He wanted to get Tony Tedeschi to do it. I just laughed. 'Dude, Tony Tedeschi doesn't have a spiritual bone in his body. Me, on the other hand, I just got a spiritual autobiography published. So they turned their attention to me. "I told them on film the story that I told you over dinner [which Nick would not allow me to publish]. It's all documented. It's a big publicity thing for my book. I get my first royalty check this week. But I can't go to the premiere because I'm working for Playboy [and Bud Lee] that night doing Spice Hotel." The Aussie Impaler Back In The Saddle I call Eddie Charisma Wednesday afternoon. Luke: "Anything exciting going on with you?" Eddie: "Yes, but I like to remain very secretive now. But I'm doing well. Write down that I'm kicking ass. I'm offered so many scenes that I can pick and choose what I want to do. There's a guy who wants to invest in me so that I can start my own line. Then I could pick and choose the American girls I want to complicate, confiscate and penetrate." Luke: "Are you mainly working in the industry or construction?" Eddie: "Both. Some days I get up at 4am and come home at 6pm but that's fine with me. I'm hard-working man. I like to keep fit. Some days I take the day off and do scenes and slip my Aussie meat bat into an American pie." Heidi Lives Her Dreams In The United Arab Emirates Her sojurn through porn was brief but memorable. She'll never be forgotten by anyone who's spoken to her for five minutes. Her star shone brightly but fleetingly in the pornographic firmament but all who were touched by her are the better for it. Born a Christian, she found ultimate peace through surrender to Islam. The ex-porn star writes me from the UAE:
Bruce David Scorecard The Hustler Tattler writes:
Porn Star Karaoke At Sardo's Bar Lexxi Tyler's sister Jackie and her boyfriend Lexxi, Jackie Lexxi, Jackie Angie Savage Angie and BF Angie and BF Wankus, Dee Lisa Sparxxx Lexi Lamour, Ethan Cage Seymour, Kelsey Michaels, Brooke Hunter Seymour, Kelsey, Brooke Ron Miller, Kelsey, Brooke Ron Miller, Kelsey Ron, Kelsey Ron, Kelsey Lexxi Tyler, friend Lexxi, friends Wankus, Danny of WantedList Sierra Sinn, Jenner Sierra Sinn Sierra Sierra Sierra, Jenner Sierra, Jenner Kelsey, Mickey G Kelsey, Mickey Ariana Jollee Smelly Monkey Commentary I arrive at 10:10pm. The place is almost full. I spot director Roy Karch getting a hug from the adorable Kelsey Michaels. Kelsey says her new best friend Jersey Jaxin moved to Tehachapi (near Lake Isabella) and bought a house (because it was cheap there). It's almost two hours drive to Los Angeles. Here's some info about Tehachapi:
Corey from the band Slipknot used to come to PSK in the early days when he was seeing Kiki D'Aire. Now she's married someone else and he's moved on to greater fame and fortune. Wankus yells at Mickey G: "You got HIV? You lost a lot of weight. You look good. Wash your hair." Mickey explains he's been walking and biking everywhere. After a few beers, porn's Pamela Anderson (who's headed for Metro) has changed personality and is yelling loudly. I meet Sierra Sinn, who's been in porn since April. She's with Jenner. Duke: "When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?" Sierra: "A porn star. "I grew up in Pittsburgh. I was never innocent. I was always sexy. "When I was babysitting, I'd discover magazines and I'd masturbate in the bathroom. "I lost my virginity at 14. I slept with over 100 guys in highschool. I did a seven-man gangbang when I was 17. "I was a stripper for almost five years (in Pittsburgh, North Carolina and Hawaii). I was scared to get into porn. Now I'm finally mature enough to handle it. Mentally, I'm ok with it now. "I've done about 20 movies. I did Porn of the Dead. I was a zombie." Duke: "What do you love and hate about porn?" Sierra: "I love that I can smoke pot all the time and no one says a word about it." Sierra says Jenner loves her bong. For the second week in a row, Genesis Skye is feeling low and doesn't want me to photograph her. She says her ovarian cyst has been taken care of but she has other drama that's bringing her down. I leave at 11:30pm.
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