Hi, my name is Amber AKA Jessie Jewels. I was involved in the porn industry for a short period of time. Let me tell you something, it’s not anything great, that’s for sure. I hurt people who loved me when I did that raunchy stuff. I was fooled by dollar signs and false illusion. I was gullible enough to believe that it wouldn’t hurt me. Now, I pay the consequences of what I have done.
Before I ever did this stuff I was an average girl. I was definitely a little different in some ways but for the most part I was pretty average. Well, I’ve made some pretty poor choices in my life. I take full responsibility for each one. I’ve seen a side of the world that nobody would want to see. It’s evil, dark and very manipulative. People in the porn industry are numb to real life and are like zombies walking around doing what they have become so accustomed to. It’s really sad. It’s really painful to see. You have no idea how badly their feelings have been hurt. The abuse that goes on in this industry is completely ridiculous. The way these young ladies are treated is totally sick and brainwashing. I left due to the trauma I experienced even through that short time. The industry forgets that these little girls are human and no human on earth deserves to be abused such as they are.
I just really wanted to justify myself to those who have no idea what goes on in the porn industry or inside the minds of these young jaded girls. Most of us didn’t dream of becoming porn stars, we some how fell into it. Some of us believed once you’re in, there is no way out. WRONG. I got out. I will never go back! What does not kill me will make me stronger. God will never let me down, even during the worst of times.
I am so thankful to have been brought back to God through all this. My one and only God! He feels the void inside my heart and the empty space deep inside my soul with unfailing love and never ending mercy. He is the one and only solution to our lives. I am grateful for each and every single day because I have Jesus Christ by my side. He has given me so much hope and I am more than 110% positive that through Jesus Christ all things are possible!
When it comes to life, its how you handle the circumstances you’ve been put under and what you choose to do about it that makes you who are today. I have decided to not let the past break me but instead to make me even better than I would have been before.
I would like to thank the Pink Cross for the amazing support they have shown and given me. Without the Pink Cross, I would not be able to share my story or come clean like this. I love the Pink Cross and everything they are doing to stop the porn industry, as it really does kill the souls of the people who enter. Thank you so much Shelley. God has really used your past to give us hope and through him, to help save us. I would like to thank God for putting Shelley and The Pink Cross together to help save the lives and put an end to the abuse of the wicked porn industry. Thank you Pink Cross. I am truly thankful.
I also wanted to acknowledge the hard times I put other people around me through. I am sorry. You didn’t deserve to be hurt like that. I wish you all the best. You know who I am talking to.
Amber AKA Jessie Jewels
NL- Did you notice Shelley’s clickable box on the right side of this page , that takes you to her site? I’m surprised no one has mentioned it.
Before I debate Shelley on the Factor… what is the status of her education?
“Shelley is ordained Chaplain and currently pursues a Bachelor’s of Theology degree at Vision International University in California. Shelley has attended Pierce College in Tacoma Washington for her general academics, Wisdom For Life Leadership School in Tacoma Washington and Harvestime International Bible College where she received a Christian Workers Certificate in Biblical Studies in 2003. Shelley majors in Theology and minors in Creative Writing”
Just curious if she has any accreditation for counseling…
…. btw is LIB so popular now that everyone is sponsoring LIB through banners? or is LIB sponsoring Shelley’s fight against porn by donating a banner?
Final note…. good luck to Amber in finding whatever she is looking for.
And now you’re letting a religious org. exploit you, old habits die hard. Own it why don’t you!
As if we can’t like sex as well as God.
It’s nice to see women in the industry who think for themselves questioning this organization and it’s star. And I share Vicky’s sentiments, “…good luck to Amber in finding whatever she is looking for.”
Per http://www.vision.edu:
Vision International University is not accredited by a U.S. Department of
Education-approved accrediting agency. Various secularly accredited
Universities and seminaries throughout the USA may accept transfer students,
credits, and degrees from educational institutions such as Vision.
What I’d like to know, is whether or not Shelly has ever lived and and/or attained a productive and responsible life independently (in other words, aside from the Pink Cross, what exactly has been her real JOB).
I’m sorry but from what I can surmise from her bio and other info she went from being dependent upon the “evil porn” money to being dependent upon a “christian” man to be financially taken care of. If I’m wrong about this – correct me.
It’s great to want to help women who have opted for a different path outside of porn, but is Shelly teaching these women the life skills needed for independent survival?
Furthermore I’m very disappointed in Shelly’s comments and attack on Oprah – Shelly, considering everything that Oprah has accomplished in life and considering how much she’s done for others, how DARE you.
For someone who’s religious, there’s an awful lot of judgement on Shelly’s part and last time I checked, in Christianity the only ONE TRUE JUDGE IS GOD – the name Shelly Lubben is not mentioned in the bible.
Ok… So Porn may not always be a fun day at the park with Yogi the bear… But this chick bad mouths porn and says this Christian group has saved her and others??
here’s a question lil miss born again Douchebag…
How many people has porn KILLED since the beginning of time?
hundreds?…. certainly not much more than a thousand??
now how many people has religions killed? Especially the Christians? Atleast 1 million to 5 million???
so come back and brag when your Nazi/Christian friends stop HATING/KILLING and JUDGING in the name of God!
some fuckin peoples kids…. God is the answer to everything?
TAKE RESPONSIBILTY FOR YOUR OWN ACTIONS AND STOP BLAMING PORN/PEOPLE/ETC!
Signed,
Craig… “I’ve actually met a couple pornstars in my day & they seemed pretty Cool”… Amabello
Her organization would be way more successful if she left God out of the picture. /2cents
I WONDER? When certain negative people gather in one industry, it does make a person wonder if that industry is ‘bad’? But their are bad people everywhere, and some freinds of mine have turned on me and that was with real people, in the real world? So will she start another program for all the young people who get messed up in the real world? One of the bigest probs is that a lot of cali residents need to feel beter then someone else? My answer to that is: ‘shove your f-d up attitude up your arse and keep it to ypurself.’ why? Because people are hurting for money and just eating has become harder and harder to do for a lot of people right now… I’m sorry but porn was done freely. Now being forced to be a sex slave which is a crime hapenning in a lot of cali massage palors, now thats heart breaking. Maybe she should help some of them because they had no choice not to do it. No one in porn is forced and if you were then you could claim victimozation, but claiming you have been damaged by doing somthing you wan
wanted to is lame. NEW TECH sorry for the mistakes…
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To hell with Shelly Lubben AKA Roxy and dime a dozen reject whores she *saves* every now and then to use to collect donations and pay her pathetic bills. Ignore her, she doesn’t fucking matter and whatever she says and does amounts to nothing. She’s just a grade C porn whore who used to perform for degenerate masturbators until she found a better audience in crazy right wingers, religious nut jobs and radical white supremacists, so now she’s performing for them. It’s all a big, obvious, pathetic fucking joke. Making her relevant by making her a talking point is just what she wants. Instead of talking about Shelly Lubben AKA Roxy, You’re better off masturbating to her porn flicks including Roxy: A Gang Bang Fantasy, available on DVD and VOD.
Yikes! I go limp just thinking about Shelley Lubben.
I thought Shelly caught a Greyhound outta town??
Shelly can’t fuck for money or do anything else but pimp God and use these poor girls to feed her face and pay her rent, there is a special circle in hell for you sweetie! And on another note how are you doing Miss Julie Meadows? Good to hear from you on this site!
Sure Shelly can fuck for money, I bet she could call up Jim Powers and say she would do a Bukkake, with all proceeds going to Pink Cross. We could get all the guys to dress up like Jesus to make her feel more comfortable, and then she could receive cumminion. Load of Christ anyone?
Lubben must be losing her touch, or got a different ghost writer, as I was quite disappointed by the lack of any salacious details in this latest testimonial.
Seriously, were are the parts about this ex-performer being put through the Porn Valley Fresh Meat Grinder!? There’s nothing about shady agents/producers and directors who tell naive girls they’ll be able to give an award-winning gangbang, all orifice access, facial/swallow finish if they’re drunk/high. Or I love the parts about how a rookie to Porn Valley will think she’s found the pot of gold at the end of life’s sad rainbow — only to quickly learn you can’t repeatedly make a thousand in a week, only to turn around and spend two thousand at the mall.
Lubben has truly let us down with her newest ‘rescue from the evils of porn’!
Also, Lubben really needs to start going after A-list, top-tier porn talent if she’s going to get her ’cause’ any notice. As a girl who did two shitty Brandon Iron movies and a lesbian flick isn’t really worth the time to write a fake testimonial for.
Lubben was upstaged long ago by The Evils of Hollywood. Her “crusade” attempts to make headlines out of ancient news. I guess she’s never heard of the infamous casting couches, or the revered Errol Flynn seducing high-school girls, or the hundreds of would-be starlets who got gangbanged at gin-washed parties in Holmby Hills, Bel Air, and Beverly Hills… and that was just the ’30s!
The entertainment business has ALWAYS chewed up its young and spit them out. Maybe that’s why her yapping falls on mostly deaf ears.
has anything been confirmed over the years about errol flynn’s bisexuality? former secret service agents had said that jfk always had some young pussy at the white house pool.
I’m happy for you, Jessie, in your choices, past and present. I’m glad to have met you and enjoyed working with you. You were kind to me but everything has a time and place. Best wishes now and in the future.