Porn Star Nadia Styles Leaves Porn!
(Nadia Styles above at AVN Porn Convention 2008)
Patrice (aka Nadia Styles) shares in a video and her written testimony below how she recently left porn and joined Pink Cross Foundation to reach out to porn stars at AVN 2009 in Las Vegas. She was a huge blessing to us and we applaud her for her courage to share her story and her heart to reach out to porn stars. We are so proud of you Patrice! Please leave encouraging and positive comments to show support of Patrice at www.myspace.com/enternadia
(Pictures of Patrice reaching out to porn stars with Pink Cross Foundation at AVN 2009.)
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Enjoy the testimony below and be inspired that with God all things are possible!
Patrice’s Testimony
I started in the industry when I was 19. I first started because I needed money. I was on my own and I did not know where to go for money. I needed it quick or I was going to lose my room in an apartment. I found an ad in the L.A. Weekly for girls to make money fast. I called it up and a man asked me to go and meet him at his apartment in Santa Monica. I went and met him and 10 minutes later, I’m doing my first movie. I went back a couple times and did movies with him. He soon offered me a job in his office being an Assistant. I worked doing talent, paperwork and cutting movies, sometimes making movies if the talent did not show up. So you could say I was living a semi regular life. But still hurting my spirit at times. It came to a point where I was tired of the job and I wanted to be talent in the industry just not for the website. I got attracted to the attention and the money girls were getting. I wanted that too. The nice clothes a better car. Something about being a porn star seemed glamorous. Boy was I wrong!
My boss tried to warn me about getting deeper in the industry. A girl even committed suicide around that time. She was depressed because of her life in the industry and killed herself. I still left my job and went toward becoming a porn star. I called a company called New Sensations to try to do my first movie. They booked me right away. I remember being excited. And I also remember them letting me shoot without a full panel STD test. I had my HIV but not STD’s.
I did the scene and got through it. I then had to go take a full panel test so I could shoot more. I found out 2 days later that I had caught gonorrhea in my first scene! As quick as that the glamour of being a porn star was gone.
In the five years I was shooting I caught Gonorrhea and Chlamydia many times. Sometimes both at the same time about every 3-5 months. Catching these STD’s makes you so sick! Your stomach hurts your back and my private parts were on fire of pain. It sucked! And also you get yeast infections and bladder infections pretty often too. A lot of people get herpes. I was lucky that I didn’t.
I continued in the industry because my life was ruled by a porn star lifestyle. And this lifestyle was very destructive. Besides catching STD’s as a porn star, there were more bad things. I soon became friends with other porn girls and we would do nothing but drink all day. Or take pain killers all day. I soon got addicted to alcohol and pain killers (Vicodin and narcotics). You first start taking pain killers to get through your scenes, especially anal. Even agents would tell their girls to take them so they could do a good scene and the agent would get a pat on the back by directors for having such good talent.
My addiction grew and I would drive home from shoots totally trashed. If I would have been pulled over I would have gone to jail for a D.U.I for sure! I even had good friends call me asking me to pick them up from their shoot because they were too fucked up to drive home. It was sad because the companies that would shoot us would know what was going on and they would even support it sometimes. A lot of times when I shot for certain companies, I would know I didn’t need to bring my own alcohol because it would always be on set for them and the talent.
Note: It’s completely illegal to give talent alcohol or drugs when they are shooting. I even got hurt on set where the director and all the crew knew I was drinking. I had to go to the hospital because they didn’t clear off the set properly and I ran into glass and had to get 8 stitches on my ankle. I went back and did the shoot because I wanted to be a "good porn star" for the company. I wanted to get more work from them maybe even a contract. That didn’t happen. I wish I would have thought about myself.
Four years into the industry I finally took a step out of my porn life box and looked at all the abuse that was going on around me with myself and others. I practically took a whole year off. I was able to quit my pain killer addiction. It got so bad I would take them for anything whether it was going to the market, going out with friends. I was lucky I never got addicted to coke. I had a lot friends that did because it was always around. Even speed and crack. I never touched those drugs but I remember porn stars that did. And probably they did it to take away the pain of their porn star lifestyle.
I went back making movies again the next year. I needed money and I didn’t know anything else for myself to make money. Porn was all I knew. I still had a bad alcohol problem and I would take pills to do my scenes again because I simply didn’t feel comfortable. I didn’t need to take pills or drink a lot to have sex in my personal life. One day after a scene, where I was drinking and had taken pain killers my heart stopped!!! I couldn’t take this anymore.
I took another big break and did a lot of traveling seeing what the world has to offer. And I found there’s so much more out there that’s way better than being a porn star. When I returned home I got a regular job at a Friends retail store. But because I still had an expensive porn star lifestyle that was meaningless I couldn’t pay all my bills. So I tried to go back shooting but there wasn’t much work because of economy right now and no one was shooting. Then my agent offered me in his words an "opportunity" to go work at the Bunny Ranch (basically a legal whore house) I sadly said okay at that moment. I went home extremely sad about this.
At this time God started coming into my life a little at a time. So I went to church got on my knees crying to God for another way for me then the Bunny Ranch. God gave me answer to my prayer the next morning. A friend called me real early and invited me to Brazil for a month to get away from the world I was tired of living in. God is so great!!!
So I went to Brazil and started my relationship with God. Learning the teaching of Jesus and growing with the Holy Spirit by my side. I started reading a book "A Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren. Wow! That book changed my life!! God bless that book. My relationship with God is so awesome now and getting better each day. I am now saved and living in Salvation of the Lord now and forever.
While I was in Brazil getting away from the world, I got a message on my Myspace from Shelley Lubben form the Pink Cross foundation. She had noticed I quit the industry and she was just sending me love and hope in the message and it was so special to me. I then looked at the Pink Cross website and saw what it was all about. I was so excited to see that someone like Shelley existed and her foundation! I read it over and it felt so good to see that there were other girls out there struggling with the same things. I saw that I wasn’t alone and there was help.
When I came back home from Brazil I had a big box in the mail from Shelley. She sent me the sweetest Christmas gift I got this year. I was in tears of the support and love that she was giving me. I called her right after I opened it to thank her and she was so sweet it felt like talking to a mother that was nothing but understanding and had not bit a judgmental towards me. She then asked me to go to AVN to help reach out to the girls. I told her I’d think about it. But then I watched Shelley’s DVD of her testimony and it wow’d me. I was so grateful for her letting out her demons in her past and showing all the magic of her present life. It gave me a real sense of relief and joy to think that my life could be better too.
Right then I knew I was going to the AVN show in Vegas and stand by her side as someone she has saved through her testimony and foundation. I got my Dad to give me a ride to Vegas because I’m low on cash and it wasn’t going to be easy going by myself. I just told him about Shelley and her foundation and how positive her and her foundation was to me and everyone else. He was happy to be apart of it. Note my dad and I didn’t have a great relationship because of my time in the industry but right then and there my Dad and I became close again. It felt so special to have him supporting me again. I forgot how this felt.
AVN came around and I went to Vegas with hardly any money and no room to stay in but lots of hope and love and support of the Holy Spirit. I knew if I took the Holy Spirit with me it was going to be okay. Right away I got a hold of Shelley and she met me at registration booth for the first time. She was so beautiful and full of love. We were able to get me in to the convention for free! And Shelley had a hotel room I could stay in. It was already going well.
We got into the convention and I met other ex porn stars who gave me support at the Pink Cross booth and everyone was super sweet. We gave hugs to each other like we already knew each other.
We then passed out gifts to the porn stars signing. And it was really great to go around and show love to porn stars I knew and didn’t know and showing them that there’s people that care about them, not their looks or their sex abilities but really care about them as a person. Some girls had tears in their eyes from just hearing me say we love you at Pink Cross. It was almost like no one ever cared for them and they saw someone who did. That’s what happens in the industry. You don’t know who cares for you in a loving manner anymore.
Some girls asked me why I quit and after I told them the rough beginning to the sweet end of my story they said "Awww, I want to go with you". And I want to bring them with me. Out of my five years of being at AVN convention where I signed for Shane’s World, Playboy, Jules Jordan, etc.., this time was my best time ever. I didn’t drink which I would do very heavily there. I didn’t take pills or do drugs. And I went with nothing but support from Shelley and the Pink Cross Foundation and the Holy Spirit. IT WAS THE BEST TIME I EVER HAD IN VEGAS!!!
Shelley and her foundation are super and I love the support they give and I feel really blessed to help them give support back to others in the industry. I’m now seeing this is a big calling from God.
Good for her getting out of porn. Although from reading the article, porn seems to have been the least of her problems. Seems more like drugs, not taking responsibility for her own wellbeing, poor choice of friends, no education and looking to others for financial security are her problems.
This is what irks me most about “reformed” porn people, they blame porn, rather than seeing porn as just another symptom of their actual problems, be they drugs, finances, abuse, lack of education or shitty boyfriends/fathers/mothers etc.
Porn is not the reason for their problems, nor is it the solution.
That said, there is obviously a lot of porn actresses who should never have started in porn. Without realistic information and expectations of what a short or long foray into porn actually means it wont end well in most cases.
So who was the girl that committed suicide?
Sadly it wasn’t Shelly Lubben.
Shelly you dumb fatso, if you so strongly believe in an afterlife and eternal paradise, then why don’t you just kill yourself like Jim Jones AKA Loony Bin Jim and go hang out with the father, the son and the holy spirit? Why are you still alive, leeching off whores and pimps and religious nuts and skin heads and anybody you can? What are you waiting for, a divine invitation?
You hypocrite fuck, you don’t even believe your own bull shit, do you? I feel sorry for those desperate whores who trust you and your empty lies.
wouldn’t work, colonel. she’d believe she’s stuck in purgatory then.
I’d be a lot happier for Nadia (and all these women) if they didn’t solicit their sob stories for $$$. Yeah, you get a job, and sometimes, it doesn’t go so well. With the exception of nobody, who can’t attest to that?
I only want women doing porn who love it. If Nadia, or whatever her name is, doesn’t want to want fuck and suck on camera for dollars then fine because there is someone waiting in line to take her place. Have a happy life with Jesus.
Jed, you’rr right. Those religious fucks have thought of that, too: Shelly wants to see god, but god doesn’t want to see Shelly, not just yet. God prefers her to stick around and leech off crazy and desperate people.
Where is Saint Bill and Mother Sharon in all this…oh wait they are industry’s versions of holocaust deniers, same goes for their lobbying groups. Shelley should be more about finding jobs for these girls than finding god. Of course an HIV infected scumbag like Marc Wallice gets all the help in the world. When the Colonel says dumb porn whores, he is often right, the Earl counts on that to make a living, he should be shoveling out stalls at Delmar.
“Where is Saint Bill and Mother Sharon in all this…oh wait they are industry’s versions of holocaust deniers, same goes for their lobbying groups.”
Right on, the fact that the industry is filled with crazy (read mentally ill) and desperate (read unemployable) people is often denied because that weakens the consenting adults argument. The problem is that soon or later that is going to be used as a argument towards supporting greater gov intervention on the industry.
“When the Colonel says dumb porn whores, he is often right, the Earl counts on that to make a living, he should be shoveling out stalls at Delmar.”
Right on again, I bet the Earl and his minions know each prospective PW mental illness and drug addictions before they invite her to Pimpwich.
And more that often those illnesses and addictions are going to get worse in the Industry.
Again, we could mock Shelley religius beliefs and her practice (also critized by some of her allies) of parading girls around as a sort of big catch but what options some girls have. Streetwalking?
I think Sophia Mounds also needs Jesus. However, she’d probably attack him and then tell the police that he tried to rape her.
Germy, you should get Shelley to witness to Sophia Mounds.
witness what?
To the Light. Maybe Shelley can get Sophia to say the sinners prayer and get her going to a Bible Believing Church. And add another notch to her belt of saves.
Jeremias, try it. You will solve several problems at once. Or get a lot of lulz.
Wait, did anybody really read this? Because I just did. She made a fully conscious decision to get into the industry, was ADVISED against it but now it’s porn’s fault? Whatever. Of course there are countless scumbags in the industry who don’t deserve to be defended, but stop being a martyr and take some responsibility for yourself.
“She then asked me to go to AVN to help reach out to the girls.”
…so she can shove her overtanned face in pictures with you to claim she “saved” you. I wish her well, but if you need money to rebuild your life, try getting a new job. You know, like the rest of the planet.
–Interesting stuff–
Lotefa Says:
“So who was the girl that committed suicide?”
I wondered about that comment as well. I did some research and found Nadia’s 1st scenes were released in early 2004. “Nadia claims” she started at the age of 19 working sometimes for an internet company she worked in the office for. Nadia was 19 in 2001-2002. I decided to search for porn girls who died between 2001 and 2004. I could only find 1 girl relevant to a 19-22 year old girl working in a porn office who died of non-natural causes during that period. A girl named “Naughtia Childs” fell/jumped off a balcony in 2002, but how anybody would know the reason for that is beyond me.
A lot of the details of this story don’t really add up. Also some of the details say a lot more about Shelley than they do “Nadia/Patrice”.
–I may speak more on this at a later date–
Interesting research, Daymond. I’ll look forward to reading more from you on this subject.
It’s important to reveal lies, misinformation and alteration of facts in Shelly Lubben’s salvation stories. They show her true colors and true motives behind her crusade.
Many girls get depressed and feel vulnerable during working in the adult industry, specially in today’s crumbling economy, and that’s when hypocrites like Shelly Lubben come in to exploit them and turn them into a marketing tool and milk everybody and every organization they can under the pretence of helping those girls. I can’t name one girl that has been actually helped and saved by Shelly Lubben, XXX Church or any of those clowns. If girls truely want to get out of this industry and start over but don’t have family or friends to support them, they must seek help from pastors, social workers and none profit organizations outside the adult industry. They can start with a gogle search instead of hitting up aunt Shelly or uncle Greg.
“If girls truely want to get out of this industry and start over but don’t have family or friends to support them, they must seek help from pastors, social workers and none profit organizations outside the adult industry.”
Actually sir, I have the same belief.
But some should make a pool of were to get them and who are the ones that are for real. That is a project I have given though for a while.
Rics, I agree. We’ll discuss that further.
I don’t know if it’s been posted before but Shelley has 19 pages of pictures from the convention with many of the top stars there.
http://www.thepinkcross.org/gallery/?g2_itemId=2720
How about Naughty America just releasing a scene from the vault with Nadia Styles and Kurt Lockwood. I bet “patrice” just loved that.
http://natour.naughtyamerica.com/track/MTMzMzczOjQ6OA/?&m=actors&s=actor&a_id=378&title=nadia+styles
Is fun that “The Versatile” mentions Kurt Lockwood in a post. Professional symphaties perhaps?