Sunday, November 14, 2004

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Mr. Marcus At An Orgy For Fat Entertainment

Veteran male performer, director and union organizer Mr. Marcus sounds distracted when we talk by phone Friday at 3:30pm.

Mr. Marcus says to somebody: "Puerto Rican looking. Crazy. Likes to ----."

He chuckles and returns to me. "I'm going from one thing to the next. Even when I'm not working, it's work. I'm working present and for the future.

"The union is something that stuck me for a minute. I thought it would be easy. Get a group of people together and everybody would have some valuable input and we'd get the ball rolling. Once everybody went back to work, the performers relaxed. That put the necessity to come up with a solution to the back of their minds. You get things happening like Cal-OHSA or a lawsuit and are we considered employees or independent contractors and here you go. You revisit the issues. Performers need some type of rights and protection and security.

"I heard the term 'transient' [to describe porn workers]. They come and they go. There have been other guilds and unions formed out of people coming together."

How do you think company owners would react to a porn performers union?

"They seem to be split down the middle.

"I suggested we have one more meeting before we go to CES [January]. Stress that the union is not dead. Issues to be discussed. Come if it is important to you. This time have a case to present. A lot of times there was no designated topic and we just discussed all kinds of stuff instead of having an agenda."

How are your businesses going?

"Getting started. I ain't got no business plans but I think that if you ask me for one, I can do it.

"I would like to work on features more. I had a nice little run with Michael Raven. Gonzo work. That's an infinite thing.

"I'm doing an orgy. All day. They've got all these onlookers. They think it is cool to watch. It adds to your [burden]. You have to go into that special place to perform for everybody."

Dion Giarusso Replies to Lexington Steele

Dion Giarusso, former operator of Red Light District with money from his brother David Joseph, writes on ADT:

As most of you know,I'm out of porn, I sold Red Light District to my Brother, I still enjoy reading the forums, and this happens to be one of my favorite forums, the truth about Vince, Everhard,Mike John, and Lexington is yes Money they came to my company that I started, not Vince or anyone from Anabolic, they all make much more money now owning there own product, and I'm very happy I was able to give these guys opportunity to own there own product, I feel I'm a very good salesman, probably one of the best at the time, but without good directors and good boxes you will not do well, and Vince was a big part of the sucess of Red Light District, as far as Anabolic cutting corners and lowering there budgets that is complete bullsh-t, these people at Anabolic still give big budgets and offer residuals to there directors, outside of owning your own product,Anabolic is still the best place to direct for, I have some close friends that direct there and there very happy,I hope my input was informing.

You know I never read this interview lexington gave, all I will say is I never took nothing from lexington, I gave him a loan close to 200,000 to own his own product, we had a deal that he would perform for all the Red Light District Directors, lexington didn't keep his word, I didn't like his box covers, I didn't like the choice of girls he put in his movies, we had a formula at Red Light District that we would shoot new fresh girls and thats not what lexington was doing, not that his girls were bad, they just didn't fit into my formula,I believe in my heart Lexington never planned on staying at Red Light District from day one, he just wanted to use my money to launch his own company, I fired lexington Steele, told him to get his stuff and get out of my building, he can say what ever he wants about me, I will take the high road, I could say allot about this guy, but truefully I got to much to loose, I got some good things going on in my life, I truly wish Lexington the best, but he will find out real soon it isn't that easy to put out your own product, I walk tall and did alot of good for alot of people in this business.

From the thread on MrMarcus.com, Rao posts:

As for as Lex's stuff goes, I was harsh when I said it was garbage because he has produced some good scenes. However, I think that it would be great if he was still in the fold with RLD and shooting scenes with their talent, as well as the PXP crew. If he had stayed with those guys and played the game, we would have seen so much great work. As for directors being color blind, I'm all for it. You mentioned Joey Silvera, Iron, Everhard, and Mike John and even as a hardcore IR fan I like a lot of their stuff. I also respect the European male talent. The principle problem with Lex is that he is spending way too much time behind the camera. Lex is not a bad director, he blows Sean Bond away. The fact remains that when you buy a product from Lexington Steele, you expect to see Lexington Steele and at least a one other black male performer. I understand that it's hard to find talent and Lex uses the reliable guys that he's comfortable with ( just like all of the other directors), but you would expect him to at least scout for black male talent. That's what Justin Slayer has done. JSP found BOZ, Shocka, and now they have their new guy Nat Turner. The last gripe that I have is with Lex's casting. I agree with him about putting the emphasis on full figured, mature women and I like most of the female talent that he casts, but the exclusion of "little girls" is going to hurt him in the future. Madison Monroe is a hot prospect, but Lex probably won't cast her when she starts doing scenes again because she is a younger performer. Well, hello? Most of the performers in the industry are very young, and that's what the fans like. If companies don't film these girls before they fizzle out, they are missing out. I still like Lex, but I have questions about how long his company will last with his policies.

Nina and Aunt Peg, Fun together

Nina Hartley writes on Nina.com:

Aunt Peg and I never did a scene together, though we did a live show together for the Mitchell Brother's Theater in SF in '87 or so. We're in occasional contact, and she's doing well up in the Bay Area. Erica [Boyer] is way retired, and her husband isn't interested in her being with anyone on camera again. Sad, as I never did do the scene with her that I wanted to.

I'm not one to 'be taken over' by another woman, I'm afraid. With women, I'm the butch/dominant, and my partner is the receptive one. I've rarely met a woman for whom I'd lie back and take it. It's a nice feeling when it doesn happen, though, since it's so rare.

Epistles To A Porn Star

Chaim Amalek writes Buffy:

I just got back from the wedding of two dear friends whom I had told, years ago, that they would marry. And now they have!

Thank you for your many kind words. Truth be told, however, I have not seen any of your work and really am not into porn. It depresses me on several levels. (A man of my weight and years does not feel better about himself watching other people have fun on the silver screen.)

In fact, I really don't know who you are, except that Luke is quite fond of you. In the spirit of the first paragraph, I think you should use your feminine charms to lure him into marriage. I can't know if he would be good for you as I don't know you, but I suspect that you would be good for him and would "fix" him in ways that he needs to be fixed. And don't let the Jewish stuff scare you off - Moses himself took a shiksa for a wife, as have prominent Jewish men ever since.

Luke needs to settle down and get serious about life. You need a man - a husband, to be blunt - in your life, a man with whom you could make babies. I think Luke could be that man, and you could be his woman. All I ask is an invitation to the wedding.

.........

You ask some very fundamental questions. The matter of "Jewish blood" is controversial, because Judaism, unlike Christianity, has components of group-identity that are racial in that they are passed along blood lines. The concepts of religious identity and racial identity and tribal identity are all commingled here. On the other hand, when all is said and done, prominent Jewish men from Moses to Steven Spielberg have taken shiksas to be their wives, and the Jewish people have been cool with that. Moreover, inbreeding is NOT good for the Jews, no matter what a bunch of inbred rabbis have to say about it. Finally - and this is your trump card with respect to Luke - you have just as much Jewish blood coursing through your veins as has Luke, and not a drop less. (And depending on the sorts of sex you have had and with whom, perhaps a drop or two more.) So stop fretting about having "real" Jewish babies. The whole thing is ridiculous coming from a man who wasn't a "real" Jewish baby himself.

Concerning the bipolar bulimic issue, I am of the opinion that much of this is the result of our culture, not our genes, and in particular is the result of not living our lives as our genes/god/nature intended. These intended that you be married and raising children, and not pretending to be a character on "Sex in the City." I think that if you two married each other and began a family, you would get the rest of your lives in order in a hurry and end up far ahead of where you will otherwise end up. It's the people who don't marry and have children who sink further into the madness of our secular culture. (And I should know - from time to time I encounter such women, pitiful delusional souls about whom I have said much to Luke. Hence, my envy of him.)

Are you monogamous by nature? I think women are, but even here, a safety back-up is available to you. Perhaps you could restrict your straying to other women, and permit Luke to watch and study the Oral Law while ridding yourself of such spurious carnal lusts. There is nothing at all in the Jewish Torah to forbid a wife from having any number of affairs with other women, and indeed, Lesbianism isn't even mentioned in the sacred books. (Homosexuality is another matter, of course.) Lots goes in in the Mikvah (ritual bath) that the rabbis don't know about.

Would Luke make a suitable father? I am confident that in him, you would face neither problem that you had with previous men, as Luke appears, if anything, to have unwholesome tendencies towards gerantophilia (which, through you, he has overcome), and not a violent bone in his body. (You can prove the latter by smacking him around, and seeing if he fights back. I suspect that he will not.)

So where to next? I say that for unconventional people like you, unconventional measures are called for. Luke is crazy about you, but he is too passive to act as he should and needs to be pushed in the right direction. He's certainly not even thinking about seeing any other women, notwithstanding the tremendous temptations he faces on the job each and every day. (Breathes there a porn star, male or female, who does not dream of screwing your Luke?) But he needs the stability and focusing power of a wife and family, just as you need a baby and a husband to help you turn your life around.

Here's what you do. Secretly go off the pill. Then tell Luke you are "safe," but want to go bareback with him. Trust me, he'll jump on the chance to fill you with seed. If he declines, then go off the pill anyway, but use some petroleum based lubricant when having sex with Luke so that the condoms fail during coitus (insist that no spermicide be used). Be aware of your monthly cycle, and pick the most fertile part of it for this sort of thing, after waiting a few days for Luke to reach his maximum load of sperm. Then use your wiles on him. It will be to the good for all concerned.

I look forward to meeting with you and your fine baby.

...........

As I understand it, Buffy was a woman who had sex for a few bucks while being videotaped. In her personal life, she dated guys who would have made terrible fathers, either because of their violent natures or because of their secret taste for juvenile versions of you (or worse). And in the end, she got bored with the whole thing, was smart enough to see where it would lead before she got there, and chose to let her pick something else to do with her life. The next time she starts yacking to you, what you ought to do is give Luke a call or offer him some sex, and that will shut her up. (She won't have much to say with Luke's procreative member in her mouth, now will she?) Longer term, by following the path laid out by your evolutionary ancestors, you will be safe from much of this temptation.

Remember, most of your female ancestors spent most of their sexually active years either pregnant or nursing, both states of being which enhance the female's ability to remain faithful to her mate. Picture yourself darning Luke's socks, serving him pancakes, while you are breast-feeding your twin children. Luke will be there, asking you about which A-list Hollywood guests and east coast intellectuals you think he ought to invite on his TV show for the following week, and you will have a todler underfoot as well. So ditch those pills, head over to Luke's, and worm your way into his life. Don't worry about whether you will still want to be there fifteen years from now. The future will take care of itself.

.............

I neglected to mention one more reason why you should eschew the fleshpots of porn and the lure of concurrent sex for monogamy with Luke, even if it should prove to be difficult and ultimately impossible.

Your health, both physical and emotional.

Simply put, women were not designed to have limitless numbers of sexual partners. I believe that every woman has a certain clock, a counter if you will, within her that ticks off every time she has a new sex partner. Each click represents burdens on the body and soul, ranging from emotional scars to viral infections that a girl can only take so much of. Women who keep at it quickly grow to become as hard as the fake breasts that most strippers sport, and ever more desperate as they prematurely lose their looks. The smart woman knows all of this and limits her sexual activities to a select few men in her life, thereby conserving her sexuality for where and when it really counts, decades past where the careless woman can maintain it.

I don't know you and I don't know how you and Luke get along, but I suspect that the two of you get along well in a very natural way. Luke can enjoy you without first having to tell himself that you are the sort of woman he "should" be attracted to. He is attracted to you because he just is - the chemicals are right - and not because of any paper you possess. That's a lot in life right there. And on your end, ask yourself this: would you be happy if Luke were out there, fornicating with various other women? I'll bet the answer is no, and that in fact you have become a bit proprietary towards him. That's a good sign.

Keep working him over, and soon enough, both of you will screw up the courage to ignore what the rest of the world thinks of you, and see that you are a couple, a couple who ought to be joined together in marriage. Listen to your ovaries.

..........

Slowly, you will see that I am to Luke what Karl Rove was to George Bush.

Khunrum writes: "You are right...Bush is still in the White House and Luke is still in The Hovel...Good work."

...........

Buffy, if we sound the same it is because I have been instructing Luke on the art of sounding like a New York Jew for about five years now. He is my pile of clay, and what you see is a man made in My image. (I started running out of clay when I got around to making those parts not normally visible to the unaided eye. Sorry.)

If you want to add to an air of mystery about you, do not share our talks with Luke in any but the most general terms. And pepper your conversation with many "Chaim says that"s to make him want you more. Luke seldom disagrees with Chaim Amalek. If you are at a loss for what to say under a given situation, just ask yourself WWCS (what would Chaim say?).

Now, concerning that latex, I suggest a good petroleum based lubricant for you, and some serious thrashing about. Also, using your teeth, you should be able to compromise the mechanical integrity of the condom before you get going.

........

Luke is just a male model I hired to be my public face. I pay him very little, as you can see from his "lifestyle."

.......

Funny you should say that (create a fake harem of followers) because that's what I proposed doing when I started this. But I was just too lazy to do it, and blogspot does not give you the space for free to do this.

Wifeblog does not inspire me to do much, as I don't think many people actually read it. (Although Luke insists otherwise.) I had a larger audience as a blogosite back in the day, when Luke bundled all of his stuff into one web site that attracted a fair amount of attention. These days he has atomized his efforts, and focussed so strongly on the Jewish stuff that there no longer is much of an audience for any one thing.

How about you - do you have a blog? I think you should, as you can both write and think. On the other hand, blogging is mostly a waste of time, and if you are busy living your life, the last thing you need is a blog to tell the world what you are up to. It ain't there business.

Buffy writes Duke Floored: "Goodness gracious. I really thought you were on lithium for schitzophrenia or something. I really thought that we were playing a funny game of alter ego and identities. Turns out that I have an overactive imagination. I live in a fantasy world. Please don't take my statements seriously. I just sent you those emails today so that you would know the full extent of the "game." I think I will pretend I no longer exist, humdeedum."

The Night Steve Hirsch Sent Me A Hooker

The following story is allegorical.

Thursday evenings I like to kick back with a copy of the Hertz Chumash (commentary on the Torah), a copy of Rashi's Torah commentary and the latest Jewish Journal to read the views of one of LA's learned rabbis on this week's portion.
This change of season has made me feel out of sorts and I was blowing my nose and sorting fruitlessly through the pages of the Journal for the Torah column Thursday night, November 11. It wasn't there.
I was feeling quite upset when my phone rang. "Hi," said a breathy female voice. "I'm Jenny. Steve Hirsch sent me as a constitutionally-protected act of literary satire that could not possibly be understood by an ordinary person as damaging to his reputation or that of the Vivid Video."
"I understand," I said. "I'll be right out."
She was tall and blonde and naturally curvy. No surgeon's knife had touched her pure porcelain skin.
I brought her inside my hovel. She was wearing a long fur coat until she draped it over my pile of dirty clothes. Now she was dressed in the latest Victoria Secret fashions, including those black fishnet stockings and six-inch high heels I like so much.
"Rob said to give you this," she said, and handed me a note.
I unfolded it and read: "Luke, you have to question why your standard for true porn journalism is revelatory personal details. Paul Fishbein and Christian Mann took you to task for this, correctly so. I'm all for including them when they are relevant, but to only be concerned for those kind of stories means you miss or demean very important communal stories that feature no sex or violence. I like sex as much as the next guy, but I don't look to my community porn blog for a dependable source of titillation."
"Steve wants us to play a game called shmiros halashon (proper speech)," she said.
"But I really don't know Hebrew," I protested. "I just can't believe that Steve, who works for a reputable company, wouldn't send you. Are you sure it wasn't Rob Spallone?"
"Quite sure," she said. "Not David Sturman either, though he did give me these latest two screeners. Complimentary."
"Ahh, thank you." I took the tapes and placed them on my book shelf near my Unlimited Power book by Tony Robbins.
"But Jenny, I'm sorry. I just don't feel myself this evening. I can't find rabbi Yatzoo's commentary on this week's Torah portion in the Journal."
I sneezed and blew my nose in one of the partially-used paper towels that dot my hovel.
"I've got a decongestant," said Jenny. She poured some white power on my desk next to my keyboard. "Snort that."
I bent over and inhaled through my nostrils. Immediately I felt better.
"I don't know Hebrew either," said Jenny. "In fact, I'm not even Jewish. My boss Nici doesn't usually get calls like this. I guess Steve's a weird one. But he tells me that you are a very naughty boy and I am supposed to reason with you. Do you take seriously Kant's categorical imperative? Do you always act in a way that if everybody did what you did, the world would be a good place?"
"My Torah commitments prohibit that," I said. "We don't hold with secular philosophy. Particularly not Germans. Nor wops nor shvartzes."
"Rob says that if we didn't feel comfortable with the Hebrew, we could study this English-language book Guard Your Tongue. We were to turn it into a game. One of us would read a commandment about proper speech and the other person has to name the source. If you get it wrong, you have to either drink a glass of Manischevitz or remove an article of clothing."
She produced a couple of bottles and sat down. We opened up the book and got down to it. Jenny's knowledge of Jewish text was practically non-existent and within an hour, she was thoroughly sloshed and highly vulnerable.
As I took her in my arms and carried her three feet to the one open spot on my floor, she breathed in my ear, "Steve wants you to be nicer to Vivid Video on your blogs."
I fulfilled her wish and she fulfilled mine.

Hollywood screenwriter Michael Tolkin reviews Philip Roth's new novel in the 11/12/04 Jewish Journal:

...George W. Bush is surrounded by a crowd who know that scientific creationism is superstition, but support him anyway. After all, their children get a private education based on science, not the public schools’ program of de-enlightenment. But they have sold their piety and conscience because he cut their taxes, or because they think he’s good for Israel — as though lowered taxes or chimerical support for Israel are worth the catastrophe in Iraq, the catastrophe in our drinking water, the catastrophe in public education or the catastrophe in the national debt. For this last catastrophe, his supporters are happily sacrificing their children and grandchildren by giving them the bill, and leaving them a future for this country that could look like Argentina without much more effort.

Ken Marcus Party At The Erotic Museum

Several hundred people packed in to the Erotic Museum on Hollywood Blvd near Cherokee Thursday night to look at the photos of Penthouse photographer Ken Marcus.

The line was around 200-persons long around 9pm.

The Museum has Hugh Hefner's slippers, John Holmes' lubes from the 1970s and other memorabilia from the history of porn.

Amee Sweet, Aly Drummond, Juliet Lowry, and photographer David Goldner were there.

DCypher's party report.

The Johnson Administration

From DON RUSSELL:

A porn career for the vice president? Say no more! The wags at the Philadelphia Daily News offer the top 10 porn movies, starring Dick "the Bulge" Cheney:

1. Vice!

2. Southern Strategy

3. Undisclosed Location

4. The Bush Man

5. Hard as Iraq

6. Pet My Goat

7. The Joint Chief of Staff

8. Weapon of Ass Destruction

9. Inside My Beltway

10. The Johnson Administration

The Thief

The 1997 R-rated Russian movie The Thief is heartbreakingly great:

In 1946, a soldier fathers a child then dies before its birth. Jump to 1952: on a train, the child and his mother meet a handsome soldier who makes a play for her. She accepts. Posing as a married family, the soldier finds them a rooming house where he becomes everyone's favorite through his good looks and generosity. Meanwhile he gives the boy, Sanya, lessons in life: to fight back, to win at all costs. The child's mother, Katya, is head-over-heels in love with Tolyan, the soldier, but the relationship becomes rocky when Tolyan's true plans for the rooming house become clear. It starts them on a treadmill of flight that risks Katya's life, Tolyan's liberty, and Sanya's trust.

Mike Albo writes: "You should consider moving...to Uruguay (UR-Gay, get it?) given your insatiable appetite for movies only chicks could like. The Thief sucked. Watch a movie called The Searchers with John Wayne, ya nancy-boy. It has some of the same themes that seem to entrance you, but they're delivered in a completely non-faggy way."

An Interview With Charles Carreon's Daughter

Charles helped Gary Kremen win back the domain name sex.com. His daughter is a beauty and a brain (student at Stanford).

Charles used to employ lawyer Susan Whatley, who is now married to Serge Birbrair.

Stavros: Hello Dream. Thanks for your interest in doing an interview.

Dream: Thank you Stavros. It is a pleasure.

Stavros: You are from Siskiyou Oregon. Where were you born, what's your heritage?

Dream: Siskiyou is a little mountainous area above Ashland, which is a small town known for its Shakespeare festival. I was born in Ashland. My parents were snowed out of their yurt during February of 1982 and had me at a friend's house. They were hippies, obviously. As for my heritage, I am a mix or a mutt as they say. My father is a pale-skinned Mexican from Arizona. My mother is a fair-haired Mormon from Arizona too. Sometimes I call myself Hispanic.

Stavros: You list creative writing, Greek mythology Fairy tales and folklore amongst your interests. Have you ever been to Greece? What sparked your interest in Greek Mythology? (And for the record I was born in Athens, Greece!)

Dream: I wish I could say I have been to Greece, but it is in my future I guess. During my life I have read quite a few fairy tales, sci fi stories, and Greek myths. I love mythology so much it's kind of embarassing. I was raised in the Buddhist tradition, and I guess the Olympian gods kind of fit into my concept of reality from a Buddhist perspective. I guess I am not exactly sure what sparked my interest in mythology.

Stavros: What type of modeling do you like to do? Is there any type of modeling you haven't done that you'd like to do that you have as yet to do? Anything you simply won't do as far as modeling goes? Any web sites where we can learn more about you?

Dream: This is a good question. A friend was just saying that I need to define my area more, and let people know what I'm selling. I guess the problem is I'm not selling anything. But I really do love lingerie, and modeling in it is really fun. I just wish I had more of it! So maybe I could do more of that, you know "Victoria Secret" sort of modeling. As for what do I really enjoy doing, I like all sorts of modeling. I would even do explicit modeling except that too many people have told me not to and I don't really need the money. I love posing nude in beautiful places though, as long as it's not too windy.

Stavros: You look like you're an all natural girl. (No implants.) Have you ever considered getting implants? (I don't think you should by the way.)

Dream: The dangers of breast implants are enough to dissuade me from wanting a pair. But after watching a few hundred pornos I now think that implants are really lame. I feel sorry for half those girls, because their boobs don't look real. And I think silicone feels cold and unattractive. Sorry girls! I guess some of them enjoy touching their own boobs, so that's cool. If they make more money then that's cool too. I went to the Market Street Cinema in S.F. once and touched a few girls boobs, and I have to admit I had a lot of fun. But I guess mine are big enough, at least until someone thinks of a better way to bump my b cup to a c.

Stavros: You are a college student. Have you decided on a major at this point?

Dream: I actually declared my major in Greek Classics. This will require that I study Greek language for two years. I'll have to take some other classes too of course. It is not the most demanding major, and it's totally awesome if you love it like I do. I do have to go back to Stanford to get my degree though.

Stavros: How do you manage your time between your studies your modeling? Do you really have any time for yourself at all?

Dream: Not really. I'm not at school right now though. I am working in Ashland trying to get back to Stanford on my own terms. Yeah, I had a crisis. Decided to try to pay my own way through college. I wish I had more time for myself until my boyfriend leaves me alone for ten minutes. Then I want him to come back and be with me.

Stavros: Finish this sentence. In ten years I want to be...

Dream: In a beautiful mansion in Siskiyou with dogs and kids all around. I'll be a writer and my boyfriend will be a famous photographer. We'll both have lots of friends and students who share with us all our happiness and success.

Stavros: Any advice for college students or any young women for that matter that would like to consider getting into modeling?

Dream: I think if you want to get into modeling, make it happen. First you have to have confidence. Then you have to know how you want to portray your beauty and confidence. And then you have to find someone who can focus a camera and actually take a good picture. It's pretty simple. To me, being a model means posing for thousands of photos. Don't stop. Don't ever stop.

Stavros: Has your family and friends been supportive of your modeling? Any objections to your doing nude work?

Dream: Yes and no. I have a lot of friends who are supportive. And my brother stops by my house all the time and is really supportive of me. My father also helps me out the best he can. But, unfortunately I don't speak much to my sister or mother. It's a long story.
Stavros: Is there anything we haven't covered that you'd like to mention?

Dream: I don't know...I just thought it would be fun to do this. Thank you very much! I just want to let people see who I am. There's so much that I can't really express. But I think it's great that you wanted to know a little bit about me.

The Fall Of Anabolic

DP Jones writes on ADT:

It's obvious the classic Anaoblic/Diabolic days are over,they've got new people and they have their job to do. Frankly I haven't been too impressed with what's come out of the new guard over there. Even with no frills gonzo there is obviously differences between great and by-the-numbers.

Prague Porn Tourism

Mienhagen writes on ADT:

Prague is a wonderful city and worth a visit any time of the year. Its great cheap tourist and culural value. Last time I visited the Czech capital, however, I took the time to explore some of its Porn sites. I was basically pulled into it when staying at a small hotel not far from the airport with a nice view over the hills. Suddenly I recognized not only the view over this beautiful city, but even the roof terrace! Sadly there was no porn crew present at the time. But you can quite easily get a glance at some Czech porn girls downtown. Bohem for example is very porn tourist friendly.

Okay, the famous Czech agency is situated in Pragues morgue district (!), but the modern business centre in Vinohradska Street offers a handily situated pizzeria just opposite the agencies entrance. From there its easy to observe the suitcase pimps driving their girl(s) to the shooting, the girls arriving on their own by taxi or even the nearby tramway! I am almost 100% sure to have spotted Luisa de Marco leaving the building with a big fashionalble sports bag and a winning smile. More difficult to spot the stars and starlets you already know from your dvd collection it was in the vast blocks of Na Fortu where Patrixxx is based. No suitcase pimps visible all day, but a few girls I was sure to have seen in my pprn films already.

The best however is the local shopping mall. It makes you feel the high untapped potential of Czech teen girls. Must be ideal hunting grounds for Patrixxx just a few steps away! - while Bohem will not find many offers on those morgues, I bet...

Jessica Jaymes - The Pornstar Between Nick Lachey and Jessica Simpson

From NY Post:

Pop hunk NICK LACHEY cheated on his wife JESSICA SIMPSON with porn star JESSICA JAYMES at a bachelor party, according to two American publications.

STAR magazine and NATIONAL ENQUIRER both claim Lachey frolicked with Jaymes at the 12 October (04) bash for his sound engineer friend SEAN SULLIVAN, held at the Hollywood Hills home of C-NOTE RECORDS owner CODY LEIBEL.

While Jaymes admits Lachey watched her indulge in a lesbian sex show, she denies anything else happened. Jaymes tells website PAGESIX.COM, "I was hired to perform at a bachelor party. And yes, Nick Lachey was there. "I did a girl-on-girl show with another porn star, whose name I don't know. We brought over a lot of really cool vibrators and whipped cream and gear and stuff. There were toys used and naughty actions going on.

"The guys are allowed to put money on me, and Nick put some money on me and that's about it. I went home with my bodyguard later that night.

"Everything's been exaggerated. Everyone had a really good time. That's really all I'm allowed to say."

GFY thread

Veronica Lynn Interview

Veronica is a 21yo 5'2" asian military brat. Most of her family is in the military. And they don't do porn.

She calls me Thursday afternoon. She speaks rapidly.

"When I was a kid, I wanted to be so many things. At first, I wanted to be a doctor. I told everybody. My parents are really strict [Roman Catholics]. They were supportive of everything, but basically of the things they wanted me to be. They tried to scare me out of being a doctor.

"I graduated [at age 20] from San Diego State University with my bachelors in law and criminal studies with an emphasis in forensic technology.

"My parents wanted me to go into the military. They wanted me to be a medical coreman. That's what my sister is [in the Navy]. Everybody is proud of my sister.

"I wouldn't say I'm the black sheep of the family. Everybody loves me."

You are the black sheep of the family. Come on. You're a porn star.

"True. My mom freaked when she found out.

"I'm the youngest of six children. Everybody is doing all these professional things. They were proud of me after I got my bachelors but after that, dude, this sucks. This is so boring. I am not going to be stuck behind a desk job. This is gay.

"I went to school to study to become a district attorney. I had no passion for it. I knew that I loved partying. I loved guys. One day [in April] I was at the beach hanging out with my friends, and these people were putting out fliers for adult-oriented stuff. I threw it away.

"The next day, I was reading the newspaper. I needed to find a job. I saw the same ad with the same number. I called the number. Set up the interview [with Monarch Models] and here I am.

"Monarch promised me all these good things. They fed me the whole line. I didn't know any better. I was so excited. They moved me out of my house to LA. My first scene was for Will Hansen's company [who owns Monarch]. A boy-girl for $500. I could've gotten so much more money.

"At first, Tiva, who left LA Direct Models, ran it. Will is supposed to be the financial backer, but really, he runs it. Everybody says it is a woman-run company. That's crap. We girls were treated so badly. They get upset with you in such a slick way that you feel like you're the one in the wrong.

"They don't know how to treat their girls properly. That's why they've got the most ridiculous website I've ever seen. I was their first girl. They had just started their agency. Keri Sable and I were their prime bank. When we left (Veronica left after three months), they blamed Tiva and they said they fired her.

"They wouldn't take Keri Sable off their website. Companies would call and want to book her. They wouldn't say she was not with them anymore. They'd say she's currently unavailable. They tried to steal my paycheck. Thank God the director had my phone number and thought it was fishy. They verbally abused us.

"The current manager of the company is Maria Menendez. She's younger than me. When she came in, she didn't know jack about the porn industry (except what she learned as the assistant buyer at the Hustler store in San Diego).

"We took her to a shoot. She sees these porn stars that she likes. We see Hustler and Clive McLean. She's starstruck. She embarrassed us. Keri and I left the room.

"Now I'm on my own. I'm not with an agency anymore. When I went on my Tera Patrick shoot, I met a lot of other asian girls. I've been taught how to do it on my own."

From a Filipino, Japanese and Brazilian heritage, Veronica Lynn has appeared in about 50 movies. She measures 34B-24-34.

"I'm a freaky bitch. I like meeting new people. What I don't like is that there's so much gossip. So many bad things that go on. Things get shady. Girls get ripped off."

What are your ambitions?

"I want to be big. I want people to watch my porn and be like, oh, she's really energetic. I want people to get off on it. I want them to see how much fun I'm having.

"I'll be walking down the street and a guy will, oh, I just watched your video. I get fan emails. One guy wrote to me, me and my friend want to know if you want to 'hang out.' As in, do a threesome.

"Just because you're a porn star doesn't mean you are going to f--- everybody around you. Business and personal life are two separate things.

"Escorts are not hookers. I could never do it because I have safety issues. Heidi Fleiss wasn't sending her girls to broke-down people. She was sending girls to Italy for two days and getting $500,000."

How is your family handling your new career?

"My mom freaked out. She had about three heartattacks. I came home to visit. I had a copy of AVN in my suitcase. I had told that I was working as a model.

"My mom likes to snoop through my things. She found it. She read it. She found one of my movies. It was an ad. There's my picture with some other girls on the boxcover in full glory. I come home and my mom has it spread out on the coffee table. She was sitting at home for hours waiting for me to get home.

"My mom says, 'Do you have an explanation for this?' My mom speaks in Tagalog [the Filipino language], so everything she says is a lot worse than English. She's going to curse me out until I die. She yelled at me for six hours, calling me so many names. She says, 'We're going to the doctor's tomorrow and get you tested.'

"Then she called my whole family in front of me. During the six hours, she turned on the speaker phone and called my family. She called my sister, who yelled at me for an hour. Then she said, let me threeway your grandmother.

"She saved the best for last. She called my dad. My dad almost flew his ass down from [the state of] Washington to San Diego to beat my ass.

"Throughout the whole yelling, I just nodded my head. I knew that if I said anything, my mom would just flip out.

"She says I shamed the family.

"When we went to the doctor, she said, 'My daughter is a whore. She's been doing pornographic movies in Los Angeles and I want to see if she is dirty.'

"My mom's crazy. Before she found out, after I'd moved up to LA, she'd cut out articles in the newspaper about how dangerous LA was and mail them to me.

"When the whole AIDS thing broke out, she said, do you know there are so many people there with AIDS? Cover your mouth when people cough."

She hasn't seen any of your work?

"She refuses to look. I'll say, mom, look how pretty I look on the pretty girls. She's like, that's what whores do. You're going to hell.

"She reminds me every day that I'm going to hell.

"When I found out I was on the cover of the October 2004 AVN magazine, I drove down to the Hustler store in San Diego to pick it up. There were 30 dudes in there. They all started looking at me. Ten of them had my video in hand. They wanted me to sign it. Some of them followed me to my car.

"My fan mail is funny. It's like reading a comic book joke every day. I get fans writing, are you going to do anal? You'd be the coolest chick if you did anal.

"I don't know how these fans find out personal information about you but they do.

"I went to school with the some of the biggest whores. We have a lot of freaky girls here in San Diego. In the future, I may want to start my own agency."

Would you prefer to date someone inside or outside the industry?

"Outside. I can not be porn 24/7. I have to have separation. And there's so much gossip in porn. I went to a birthday party. I went with my agent and Jean Valjean, who lived with us. I took Craven Morehead. We were hanging out. His ex-girlfriend and his ex-wife all saw us and the next thing I hear is that I'm hooking up with Craven.

"Jean Valjean is obsessed with Britney Skye. We called him on the cell phone. Guess who's here? Britney Skye. She's totally naked in the jacuzzi. I put Keri on the phone [as Britney]. 'Hi Jean, I'm in the pool naked. I'm waiting for you.' He says, 'I must come now.'

"He was so excited. When he came, he got so pissed off at us that she wasn't there.

"He has an obsession with McDonalds. We go to the drive-thru. He goes, 'Can I have the Happy Meal with the little puppet?'

"He's 25 and he's ordering a Happy Meal.

"When we go to the window to pay, he says, 'Where is the clown who gives the hamburgers to all the little kids? You see the mother------ on TV all the time but when you drive through, the mother------ is never there.'

"He didn't wash his clothes in three weeks. We had to hire a maid to clean it because he refused to clean it himself. The smell from his bedroom was creeping throughout the house. Tiva and I had to constantly light candles and incense to keep the living room smelling good. We had to constantly shut his door.

"I want to make movies as long as I possibly can because I am just having way too much fun. I meet the coolest people, like DVSX director Alex Ladd. We do South Park marathons together. We'll watch until we fall asleep.

"My fetish is accents. My favorite one is Australian.

"I grew up as a tomboy. My father treated me as a boy. When he talks to me on the phone now, he doesn't talk to me the same as he used to. It makes me sad. He'll ask, how was your day? I will say, dad, you don't want to know about my day. He says, no, I want to know. Ok. I did this scene with this guy... OK, I don't want to know. I'll call you later.

"We can't have the conversations we used to have. He's learned not to ask how my day went unless I didn't have a shoot that day."

Veronia has three older sisters and two older brothers.

"I'm obsessed with reading books. I bring them to shoots with me. I just finished Heidi Fleiss's pandering book.

"I've always been freaky, but since porn, I've come more out of my shell. I've unleashed a different part of myself that I had never seen before.

"I got married when I was 18. It lasted two years. He was a Marine. I love Marines. I love men in uniform. I fell for him. I thought he was so sweet. When we got married, he was a bad husband. He didn't think he had to pay attention to me anymore.

"On one of my movies, in the behind-the-scenes, they caught Keri and I talking about my ex-husband. We've been on-and-off since the divorce. He's going to Iraq for a year."

Veronica does not believe that we can turn Iraq into a functioning democracy.

"I don't want to have children until I am way older.

"What accent do you have?"

Australian.

"Oh. When I first heard you, I was like, ohh, this will be fun. Here we go. This is really sexy."

Veronica was born in the Phillipines and came to California at age six. She didn't know a word of English. "There were little white girls playing outside. I went outside and spoke to them in my language. They said, ohmigod, alien. They screamed and ran away from me.

"I went inside crying. I was traumatized. I worked hard to lose my accent.

"My mother called my cousins in the Phillipines and told them I was doing porn. She called my ex-husband. He already knew. She said, 'Did you know [Veronica] is a whore. That she's in porn.' He tried to lie. She could tell.

"If people are kissing on TV and we're watching, she'll change the channel. I'll say, mom, I was watching that. She'll say, you do enough watching on your own time.

"She likes to find ways to rub it into my face.

"She'll go online and find statistics. Did you know that porn stars die earlier than everybody else? Mom, where did you read that? Online. Mom, don't go online. She'll say, I'm going to read up more and win this debate. You'll see. You're going to hell.

"She came up to me with statistics about what states buy what kind of porn. This country is disgusting. Do you know what state buys the most sh---ing and peeing-on-people and tranny videos? Texas. You better not be doing any of those kind of videos.

"Mom, I'm not doing any of those kind of videos. I'm not a tranny. I will never s--- on people on video. She'll go, I don't believe you.

"We do have good times. We'll laugh and stuff. Then she'll stop the laughter. I can't be laughing with you. You disgraced the family. I'm mad at you.

"When my mom told my aunt, my aunt called and goes, what's porn like?

"My mom's ok with it now but she still calls me a whore every five seconds. We've found a common ground. I'm an adult. She can't do anything about it. I won't do the sh---ing and peeing on people videos. We won't talk about it. We're going to pretend I don't do it all.

"She'll read me Proverbs at night. I'll be trying to go to bed. I'll be sleeping. She'll come into my room in the middle of the night and turn on all the lights and read the Bible to me.

"I'll say, mom, do you know what time it is? She'll say, there is no time when it comes to reading from the Bible. God does not care about time. You should have time for Jesus all the time.

"She drives me to church when I visit her. She makes me sit in the front. She doesn't tell me I'm a whore at church. You're not allowed to say that.

"She goes into the confessionals and tells all the priests what her daughter does. I think Catholic priests are all perverts because they started giving me some looks. I've known them for a long time.

"I'll go to confession. I know their voices. I can just hear the dirty tone in their voice when I talk to them. I'll talk about my porn work. They'll go, so, what was it like? I don't get into descriptive stuff because the tone in their voice freaks me out. It's like they're jerking off in the other side of the cubicle.

"I'll tell them how many scenes I did that week and that I don't regret it and that I had fun.

"I'll ask my mom, why are we sitting in front? She'll say, so Jesus can see you better. And you can see Jesus better.

"She listens in on my confessionals. She stands by the door. She puts her ear on there. She'll open it. Sometimes she'll sit in there with me. I'll say, you're not allowed to be in here with me. She'll say, I'm your mother. I'm allowed to do anything.

"I will never treat my child like that.

"She tells her friends at work that her daughter is a porn star. She doesn't know what to do. She's failed me."

Gene Ross Interviews Rodger Jacobs About AVN

Rodger Jacobs writes Gene: "[Philadelphia Magazine writer Richard] Rys interviewed me via telephone earlier this year for over 90 minutes. It was kind of a cathartic experience for me, actually, having only weks before resigned from AVN as a freelance contributor due to certain promises that were made and never kept by Tim Connelly. In my dispute with Tim, Paul took Connelly’s side without ever hearing my version of events and that stung so I was willing to tell Rys a lot of interesting details, including but certainly not limited to the fact that Paul’s stores are stocked with screeners."

It's Good To Be Tod Hunter

Tod Hunter, former AVN employee, writes:

I've been married for almost 20 years to the same woman. She and I were separated for a while, but I didn't get divorced once, much less twice.

I have two teenage sons I am very proud of. The older one is autistic, and he still managed to name "Mary Baker Eddy" as the founder of Christian Science the other night when we were watching Jeopardy! (Phrased it in the form of a question, too. That's my boy.) The younger one is 6-6 at age 14, and seems to be following my lead as a writer. He's quite good.

I have a few mainstream credits, including two Emmy nominations. Paul [Fishbein, AVN president] produced "The Money Shot," a failed sitcom that he tried to give away on the Internet and nobody wanted it. (You can join the bandwagon and ignore it right here if you want, nobody's stopping you. Guess which character is supposed to be me, that'll be good for about a minute.) A character of a real sitcom, Barney Miller, was also based on me, which can also be called a "msinstream credit" if you aren't too hung up on precision.

It ain't $60 million in the bank, a hilltop home with a redheaded tootsie half my age living in, 125 bottles of wine in the basement and chicken on the barbecue, but I'll take it.

The Barney Miller character patterned on Tod Hunter was Det. Arthur Dietrich.

Mike Moz Moves To LA

For the past four years, Mike Moz has been running Nightmoves magazine out of Tampa Bay and putting on the annual Nightmoves awards show every September that attracts a couple of dozen porn stars. Now he's doing publicity for LADirectmodels.com.

I used to hear the name "Mike Moz" constantly invoked by the Flashman.

Rob Spallone Says: 'Leave Paul Fishbein Alone'

Rob calls.

Duke: "Who are you dating these days?'

Rob: "My kids.

"Paul [Fishbein] gave you an interview?"

Duke: "A little one."

Rob: "That was nice of him. You should put something nice up. Maybe he'll give you a job."

I laugh hard.

Rob: "I don't know why people keep busting his balls. Leave him alone, especially his personal life. No?"

I laugh.

Rob: "You don't like him?"

I laugh.

Rob: "He don't bother anybody. He's not in an easy position. A lot of headaches. He's got to listen to people complain. I've always gotten along with him."

Ashton Moore Update

Ashton replies to my inquiry:

The only thing worse than porn gossip is certainly porn gossip which is absolutely untrue. So, no I'm not pregnant nor do I have any plans on retiring anytime soon.

Where on earth did this come from?

Looking forward to seeing everyone soon while feature dancing on the road, doing the Howard Stern Show, on the set of filming more JKP movies, and at CES in January........proving to everybody that I'm certainly not pregnant and still alive and kicking in the business.

Devinn Lane Interview

Devinn writes on ADT:

I get up at 6:45 every morning and make my daughter breakfast and see her off to school. I then go to Pilates, shower, get ready for the days events. That can range anywhere from pre-production, production,post, photo shoot, interviews, I come home make dinner, read ADT, update my site.

I've always been an exhibitionist and facinated with the industry. Yes, my dad and my grandfather are ministers.

There's a few problems with me doing gonzo type stuff. One, I'm not very good at anal and two, I am a condoms only performer.

He [Jonathan Morgan] is notorious for being a jackass on set. We just clash and you couldn't pay me enough to work with him again. I don't like director/people that are verbally abusive to anyone and I don't like people that start BS drama. Other than that, I won't answer any more questions about him. It would be unfair to Wicked to give specific details. Let's just say that there's no love lost. Space Nuts was a great movie for Stormy. She did a fantastic job and deserved it.

Veronica Lynn Complains About Monarch Models

Veronica Lynn posts on ADT:

Its not that they worked us [Keri Sable and Veronica] too much that was just a peice of the problem.... we were always verbally abused.... ans when we confronted our old agency about it (MONARCH MODELS) they told us and i quote..."If you guys don't like how you are being treated then you can go work at Dairy Queen its right down the street!" They said we had to put up with it. Not only that but even to this day they are still harrassing us! Will Hansen he owns MONARCH..... if you look at monarchs website it says its a woman run company but really.... its not... he runs it... and they stole that idea from my agent currently cause her and will used to date. Even after we left they were pulling shady stuff on us. A producer i worked for called me one day.... and i thank god that she had my number cause she had a paycheck of mine that i hads not picked up.... she didn't know that i had left monarch and she said she called over there to find out where she can send my check and monarch told her to mail it over there and to put the amount in they're name including the agency fee.... they tried to steal my paycheck! the producer found that fishy so she called me ASAP and i explained to her the situation!

I don't know how Will runs that company all i know is that its pretty shady! I mean i don't know if they took Keri's picture off of their site yet.... people call over there wanting to book keri and they say... oh she is not available at the moment but this girl is! they are using her picture to pimp out their other girls! they are pretty shady! im just happy now that we are both at a better place!

Mutt, a Canadian Internet pornographer, writes:

Will Hansen is a guy who shoots movies for the Internet isn't he? I have a feeling it's not even him behind that agency, probably the web company he shoots the movies for put up the money to start the agency.

I have a feeling Keri's career was a short one. porn is a brutal business these days, girls are chased away in my opinion. it's too bad girls' careers couldn't develop more slowly and gently instead of being fed to the wolves at a frightening rate. girls don't know they have other options in the business, they don't have to do 25 scenes in their first 3 weeks in the business.

FSU Philosophy Major Carly Parker

From ADT:

Hi! My name is Carly Parker and I am new in the business and I just found out about this site. I wanted to say thanks to John who wrote about me. A little bit of info on me is that I'm a junior at Florida State and I study philosophy. My hobbies are reading and porn. I fly out almost every weekend to LA. I also wanted to congragulate Lexi on her Vivid contract. She is my favorite porno chic and we filmed our first scene together for girlshuntinggilrs.com. Well, I can't wait to get to know everyone. By the way John I'll be signing for Lethal Hardcore at AVN's. You'll have to cum see me.

Jessica Dee To Sue TT Boy

A few weeks ago, I heard about Lara Roxx of Montreal suing T.T. Boy for $10 million. Now I hear that Jessica Dee, who also caught HIV this Spring, is suing TT Boy. She alleges she caught HIV on his set. TT Boy has hired private detectives to dig up dirt on the girls.

The girls decided to go ahead with the suits after the CAL-OHSA fines made TT Boy's companies look guilty.

Jesse Jane on KSEX

JJ: "I'm dating Kid Rock now"

Bush Mentions 'Internet Pornographers' In His Speech Nominating New Attorney General

He was thanking John Ashcroft for his work against child pornographers. Still, it worried numerous Internet pornographers according to this thread on GFY. Sky is falling and all that.

Kylie Ireland Hosts Katja Kassin, Melissa Lauren Thursday Night

At 9pm on KSEXradio.com.

On The Fourth Anniversary Of Gene Ross's Departure From AVN, Paul Fishbein Responds For First Time

I asked Paul Fishbein for a response to criticisms of him by his former employees Gene Ross and Tod Hunter.

It's the first time Paul has given me a comment in about six years (I could be wrong).

Regarding Gene, Paul writes: "Gene Ross's assertion that I give the awards screeners to my stores is an outright lie. Not true.... never happened. And it's very sad four years later after he left he has nothing interesting to write about except me. I guess I should be flattered."

Gene Ross writes: "Maybe www.lukeisback.com should be interviewing the former AVN warehouse guys, instead. They're the ones who packed the tapes. Then, again, maybe they went to the Salvation Army but I could be wrong."

Tod Hunter writes on Tod-hunter.net:

By the end, Fishbein looks like a sad little man, pushing 50, carrying around a tiny bottle of Purell hand sanitizer to keep his hands germ-free, engaged to a now-retired porn performer 20 years his junior, getting ready to marry her (with a pre-nup, natch), wistfully looking at the booths at Erotica L.A. and wishing somebody would hand him some lube samples, looking over his 125-bottle wine cellar, barbecuing chicken and "doing his best to look every inch a man who believes it truly is great to be Paul Fishbein."

Paul responds: "I truly think it's great to be Paul Fishbein. What does he think? I want to be like Tod Hunter?"

Mike Ramone, AVN managing editor, writes: "Just for the record, the urine on my jockey shorts was at the Jasmine St Claire 'bang, not the Houston 620. Jeez, can’t adultfyi ever get its facts straight?"

Travis writes Duke about the Fishbein profile: "He had circle jerk contests with his friends when he was a teen. Where I come from, that makes him a flaming fag. If you play your cards right, Paul might invite you over the next time he holds a contest."

Eva Angelina's Boyfriend Commits Suicide

DeGalon writes on ADT: "I just saw this girl in her scene with Teagan in Cum Swapping Sluts 7 and I think she was awesome. She's one of the cutest girls I've ever seen."

Eva Angelina writes:

hey there guys its eva! i'm so excited to hear that i have some fans out there...i'm glad to say i'm back!! and i'm starting to film some scenes asap! i was temporarily retired but i can't stay gone for too long. hope you guys like my new look!

oh! and by the way... i'm chinese and cuban.

i'm not going to do anal just yet...i'm going for longevity when it comes to me newly revived career. i'll start doing anal when i stop getting calls for b/g scenes. but you will see swallowing in some scenes. i haven't really shot any scenes yet. i just got a new agent yesturday. i have a new look and a great new attitude. Nothing and no one is going to get in my way!

sometimes i wear contacts sometimes i wear glasses. my hair is shorty and my body is new and improved.

i guess the glasses are a fan of many... i guess i'm going to have to wear a little more often with you guys. well.. about the pictures... i've just got back from retirement as of two days ago so i have yet to shoot any scenes. but i shot a promo for 7 lives exposed on playboy tv and next week i'm shooting with digital playground and possibly a new episode for my internet series on shanesworld.com i just met up with september and stacy valentine for representation. so as of yet no one has pictures of me now including myself. but when i get some i'll post some hot ones up...you guys won't complain...hehehe

i knew before getting my boob job some people would have mixed feelings. but i did it because all my life i thought was going to have large breasts because of my moms size. but as i grew older i wondered why my sister was so flat and why i wasn't getting any bigger. with much disappointment i was told at age 17 that my moms breasts weren't her own. i was devastated but then went on a mission to find a way of getting mine done. finally i did them and i'm happier than ever, my clothes fit a lot better and i feel sexier than ever. thats all that matters...my confidence those pictures are only a week old..if that and my boobs are 7 weeks old. so yes they still need time to settle...don't worry.

i shot my first scene back with metro yesturday, i believe its in their "new cummers" series. it was amazing and reminded me of everything i loved that i had left behind. i'm here to stay and no one can take that away from me. i got rid of some old baggage. thank god! i believe you may be seeing me signing for zero tolerance at the vegas show so be ready! hehehe

..........

i'm sorry to say but that extra baggage that i got rid of ended up tragically... this mourning i found out that my boyfriend had killed himself because i left him on saturday. im still in shock and i don't want to believe that i have cause so much pain in his life...i'm scared now because i know he really is gone and i can't do anything to change this. i have felt a pain in my veins and in my heart that i hope none of you will have to feel. but unfortunately i'm left to feel this anguish and sorrow that my other half is gone and i will never be able to make love to him, breathe his air, or touch his skin ever again...i don't mean to be a bummer but i just wanted to share this with you guys because this is the only thing that is running through my mind....my poor baby...

i'm sorry...i still don't know what to say to myself i'm just devastated. my shadow is gone and i stand here alone. i dont know what to do except stand here and look at his pictures and hug his pillow so tight just to smell his body as if he were here next to me. but then i realize that i will never have him next to me...ever! which brings me to tears. now when i cry i barely have any tears because my tear drops have been dried out. f-ck! i hate what has happened to me...when im trying so hard to focus on one thing, something so heart breaking takes you away from everthing and you can only think of the pain in your heart. so painful that you literally are sick to your stomach. thats what i hate. my love is now gone. hes left me!

he had a lot of problems but me starting porn again only made it worse. its still so unreal that he won't be calling me anymore wondering when i'll be home so he can have dinner ready. it hurts to know that i will never be able to feel his body next to mine. it unbelieveable, i refuse to believe that i will never be able to taste him again. i can't believe that he had to take himself away from me god damnit! why did he have to leave me!

It's reminiscent of what happened to Cal Jammer. He blew his brains out on the driveway of his wife Jill Kelly.

A Chat With Vicki In Boston

VickInBoston: yea i want to go into porn
DukeFloored: are you a dancer or escort?
VickInBoston: Escort
DukeFloored: whoa
VickInBoston: big girl right
VickInBoston: i'm on a diet
DukeFloored: what is your height and weight and measurements?
VickInBoston: i would never want to do hard core though
VickInBoston: 44DDD i barely do hardcore as a escort
VickInBoston: mostly massages, rub and tugs
DukeFloored: there's little money outside of hardcore
VickInBoston: yea but couldn't i use that to raise my rate as an escort
VickInBoston: like if i get in some of the magazines like black tail etc..?
VickInBoston: i don't do black guys at all
VickInBoston: not even as an escort
VickInBoston: and i wouldn't want to be put in a position where i would have to. not attracted to them
VickInBoston: i've been reading l-keford.com for along time. i worked for a split second with kendra jade
VickInBoston: i use to run her official website kendrajadeonline.com before we had a falling out
VickInBoston: i actually thought up the name
VickInBoston: bought it started it like in 2002 then taought her how to update it and stuff, so now she does it herself
DukeFloored: do you run other sites?
VickInBoston: well i do mine: www.vickionline.com
VickInBoston: and i will be doing a couple othere escorts websites soon
VickInBoston: a few have asked me
DukeFloored: why do you do sex work?
VickInBoston: well I was very religious [Muslim] my entire life and very sexually repressed
VickInBoston: i would have guilt and panic attacks so bad that i would tense up and a couple times I had to go to the hospital after sex because i had tensed up so bad I started bleeding
VickInBoston: so I think i have always been fascinated with the sex world or had a preoccupation with it
VickInBoston: I'm 31 , been doing it 1 year
VickInBoston: before i started i was abstinent for 2 years
VickInBoston: anyway after not being with guys for 2 years I kinda went to the extreme opposite
DukeFloored: ever been married?
VickInBoston: and when i say i was absitnent, i mean nothinng, i didn't even masturbate, yea i got married at 18 years old
DukeFloored: how long did it last?
VickInBoston: it technically lasted 5 years
VickInBoston: but we were only together for 1 year
VickInBoston: it was a religious arranged marriage type of thing
DukeFloored: have you lost friends/family because of your sex work?
VickInBoston: I've lost friends which is sad. they don't approve
VickInBoston: some of my friends are just uncomfortable around me , I am still teh same silly girl I've always been. I'm still friendly
VickInBoston: I'm not cold or disheartened. i didn't go into sex work strictly for money or out of desperation
DukeFloored: what are your plans for the future?
VickInBoston: I'm hoping to make a bit of a name for myself or atleast get into some soft core things, raise my rates, then invest in some mutual funds
VickInBoston: I hope to own a healing arts spa in the future
VickInBoston: my family prefers to dig their head in the sand
VickInBoston: I did get in a fight with my brohter for calling me a whore or something of that nature. we got into a physical brawl cause i still expect to be treated and talked to with respect
VickInBoston: my mom is very religious and prefers to not know about these things VickInBoston: my sister knows but she is also very religious but she still loves me

Boomerang thrown from Philadelphia

Tod Hunter writes on Tod-hunter.net:

I don't know if you read the profile on My Old Boss that Gene posted on Adult FYI, but you should.

The Philadelphia Magazine article starts so lame and superficial that it could have been written for AVN. It's filled with misleading, carefully selected facts like Fishbein going to a porn set, a thing that happens with the regularity of a solar eclipse, and outright lies like the description of Erotica L.A. as "a convention... to serve couples and women who are looking for a new vibrator or a nice schoolgirl outfit, and maybe a movie to watch while using both." I was at Erotica L.A. and I could count the couples and unaccompanied women on one hand and have enough fingers left over to greet somebody I don't like.

The writer's ignorance of the adult industry is appalling. He takes this load of crap at face value: "Surrounded by black-and-white bondage photography, managing editor Mike Ramone reveals that, like Fishbein, he was roped into an on-camera appearance while on assignment; unlike Fishbein, he became #351 in the 'Houston 620' gang bang." If you ever set foot on a porn set, you know that bystanders don't get "roped in" to f-ck the star of a video while it's being made. Ramone planned to be at the gangbang: He filled out the form, got himself tested, and walked around in a knee-length T-shirt all afternoon while the professional performers racked up the numbers on Houston, and finally, to break "the gangbang record," Ramone, the AVN freelancer, was pulled out of the crowd and did the deed on her.

I know this because I was there, as an AVN editor, on a social call – I was originally assigned to cover the gangbang, but Ramone offered to write a story from the POV of one of the gangbangers and that looked like a better angle so he got the assignment – and I was approached by Greg Alves and asked if it was okay for Ramone to "break the record" because I outranked him and they wanted Official Approval. I wasn't about to put him under that kind of pressure so I just said "It's okay with me if it's okay with him" and the rest is history.

"Roped in." Do me a favour.

Small details about Fishbein start to accumulate as the story continues, though. The missed opportunity of the Marilyn Chambers interview. The embarrassment of the Red Velvet profile. The abject failure of The Money Shot, which went from big-budget movie to low-budget movie to cable movie to network sitcom to cable sitcom to 10-minute Internet show to $75,000 loss. By the end, Fishbein looks like a sad little man, pushing 50, carrying around a tiny bottle of Purell hand sanitizer to keep his hands germ-free, engaged to a now-retired porn performer 20 years his junior, getting ready to marry her (with a pre-nup, natch), wistfully looking at the booths at Erotica L.A. and wishing somebody would hand him some lube samples, looking over his 125-bottle wine cellar, barbecuing chicken and "doing his best to look every inch a man who believes it truly is great to be Paul Fishbein."

Nice piece. Check it out.

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