Stefani Morgan

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I follow Tara to interview Stefani Morgan, who's done eleven movies. She's under contract to Vivid for three years.

Tara: "You're going to be their top girl."

Stefani laughs. "That's my plan."

I ask Stefani about what she loves and hate about porn. She says she loves getting paid for getting laid. She hates some of the artistic compromises in the medium.

Luke: "What are the artistic parts of porn?"

Stefani: "I come from a mainstream acting and modeling career. That's why I love doing feature movies. Sometimes you want a certain look and they want you to look [another] way."

Luke: "How has it affected your love life?"

Stefani: "Love is a strong word. I'm a serial dater. It is hard. When emotions get involved, guys want to back off. But I'm not looking for a relationship, so for me it's perfect."

Luke: "How many broken hearts have you left behind and do you feel any moral responsibility for what you've done?"

Stefani laughs. "I plead the fifth. I don't think of myself as a heartbreaker, but feelings get hurt along the way. I've had my heart broken and I'm sure I've broken some hearts. It comes with the territory of being a girl."

Luke: "When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?"

Stefani: "I don't know. I've always been performing one way or another my whole life. I love the entertainment world. I've always known I was going to be in it. I didn't expect but it's always been in the back of my mind. I've always been sexual since I was a child."

Luke: "How did you get into porn?"

Stefani: "I didn't know how. I dabbled with the idea for a year before I did it. Finally I took the initiative and set up an appointment at Vivid."

Luke: "How did family and friends react?"

Stefani: "I've never been close with my family. My friends were like, 'OK, I really wasn't expecting that one but I'm not surprised.' I told my family. They're supportive. I was just at my mom's earlier today. My relations with my family are better now. They accept that I do what I want to do whether they like it or not. We agreed to disagree. We don't talk about what I do. I respect the fact that they disagree with that."

Luke: "What traits turn you on in a man?"

Stefani: "Tall, dark hair, dark eyes, cocky."

Tara: "You'll love Luke."

Stefani laughs. I blush.

Stefani: "I don't really have a type. I love businessmen. I love bad boys. If you're a boy, you're a shoo-in."

Do I Have A Chance With Vivid girl Stefani Morgan?

Stefani is a deadringer for Holly Randall.

I met Stefani at the XRCO Awards Thursday night and we had a deep and meaningful exchange of ideas. In between, I took photos.

Luke: who was the gorgeous blonde vivid girl?
Jane: Stefani Morgan
Jane: She used to be brunette
Luke: I love her
Jane: yeah, I read that on your site
Jane: Are you going to try and hook up with her?
Luke: no, that would be unprofessional
Jane: like that stopped you before
Luke: I would if I had a chance, I don't mind following Tommy Lee.
Jane: do you think she'd be interested?
Luke: I dunno, please God. Maybe if she picked up the LA Weekly.
Jane: do you like how she looks or is it the combo of how she looks and that she seems very normal even though she is in porn?
Luke: both
Jane: I don't think she associates with the porn crowd too much.. she just seems very nice and normal and classy
Jane: I wonder how she got recruited for Vivid.. just seems weird Jane: I think she is someone they are breaking in gently, like they did with Chasey Lain
Jane: they are grooming her
Jane: They've got something up their sleeves at Vivid with Stefani Morgan.. I'd bet you money on it
Jane: it might even be them that got the 'gossip' about her and Tommy Lee planted on Page Six
Jane: I don't think it would be farfetched to think that they are looking past the Jenna Jameson years and wondering about who they can put in that spot after Jenna winds down.

ChaimAmalek: She does look a bit like Holly.
ChaimAmalek: You should rent Vertigo. That's what this is about.
ChaimAmalek: Stefani is fated to play the role of the beautiful Carlata Valdeez
ChaimAmalek: It must be great knowing so many hookers.
Luke: You don't hate me for it?
ChaimAmalek: I think you'd make a great pimp
ChaimAmalek: Emoboy as pimp.
ChaimAmalek: "if you don't do this one last trick, I'm going to cry"
ChaimAmalek: "Bbbbbut, you want me to fornicate with your 400 pound friend Chaim Amalek. that's disgusting"
ChaimAmalek: Fat men need love too.

HollyRandall: hey it's funny when i first saw those pics of Stefani i also thought how she looks like me, but prettier
Luke: great minds
HollyRandall: c'mon, boost my ego and tell me that's why you took so many shots of her
Luke: She fills the hole in my heart you left.
HollyRandall: lol
HollyRandall: aawww

Stefani Morgan Newest Vivid Girl

Vivid PR 6/9/05:

(LOS ANGELES, CA) -- Stefani Morgan, a 5'9" blue-eyed mainstream model, has become the newest Vivid Girl, signing on to do her first-ever adult film as a member of the elite group of adult actresses who work for industry-leader Vivid Entertainment.

"I have been doing mainstream modeling for a year or so," the 19-year-old, Stefani said. "I've never even posed for nude photos but I decided that I wanted the challenge of adult work and once I'd made that commitment and left college to pursue this dream, I thought I might as well start at the top. So I approached Vivid and they signed me up. I told a childhood friend about my decision and she said, 'I'm surprised you waited so long.'"

Born and raised in Riverside, California, the self-confident and admitted Romantic Stefani has a 34"-24"-34" figure and dark blonde hair. She's one of five siblings, with three sisters and a brother. As a youngster she alternated between being an athletic tomboy and a "girly-girl" who played with dolls and danced. Today she loves to read poetry and short stories, and for relaxation she enjoys dancing and singing, and hopes she'll come across a singing part in a Vivid film. When she's not busy acting, dancing or singing or driving around L.a. In her Audi A6, she likes to apply her creative talent to interior design.

Tommy Lee's Stefani Morgan Film Debut

Vivid PR 1/18/06

(LOS ANGELES, CA) -- According to the gossip columns, Motley Crue drummer Tommy Lee has been "quietly dating" Vivid Girl Stefani Morgan, a 20-year-old, 5'9" former mainstream model whose first major film with Vivid Entertainment will be released January 25th.

Lee and Morgan met at an after party following the annual AVN Awards ceremony (it's been called the "Oscars of porn") and they've been going out since then, says Page 6 of the New York Post. Similar reports have appeared in other gossip columns this week.

Lee and the rest of the world will get to see everything there is to see of Ms. Morgan as "Debbie" in the new Vivid film "Star," the first in which she is, in fact, the star. Her previous fame came as a result of her appearances in the "Girls Gone Wild" series.

In her first major role with Vivid, Morgan plays the part of a small town girl who competes for a spot on a hit television show with a rock star named "Birdy." as the plot unfolds she has a myriad of sexual adventures, including with Birdy, who is played in the film by Nick Manning. The film is directed by award-winning director Paul Thomas.

Vivid Girl Stefani Morgan Celebrates Cinco De Mayo With Her Friend Niki

On Stefani's MySpace page, these photos were posted May 6, 2006 by Niki: pic (Stefani on right) pic pic pic pic pic pic

Here are some gratuituous photos from Stefani's MySpace page: pic pic pic pic pic pic pic

Stefani tells XRentDVD: "I want to be big. I want to as big as I can be. I still have my regular manager and I still go to castings for regular movies. It's kind of hard because I have to be more established with what I am doing because it is more of a title to be a 'porn star'. It's not something where I can gloss over it or leave that detail out. Right now my main focus is Vivid but I do have work in the regular, mainstream world. I do want to be a cross-over star."

5/9/06

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Stefani Morgan's Cheatin' Heart

Paul writes: "Hi, Luke, thought you might be interested to know that there was a kiss-n-tell story from Stefani Morgan in one of the British tabloids about her sleeping with Jesse Metcalf (from Desperate Housewives)."

Ben Widdicombe writes in the New York Daily News:

A porn talker

Now we come to the part of the page wherein we give ink to whatever bleached blond is prepared to talk aaaall about her celebrity hookups.

"More guys than girls ask me about Tommy [Lee] in the bedroom," shares his girlfriend Stefani Morgan, who apparently is a thespian with the adult motion picture studio Vivid. "The girls want to know, of course, but guys go on about it ... with Tommy, it's awesome."

No doubt you're wondering whether our girl has had the benefit of relations with Wilmer Valderrama. Turns out, she has. "I wasn't a porn star when I met Wilmer, but he loves that I'm a porn star now," she says in the June issue of FHM. "I wouldn't say we dated; we had a couple of flings. There's something about him that's sexy and mysterious. It lures you in."

Like a Roach Motel.

And Jesse Metcalfe from "Desperate Housewives"? "That was short-lived. ... We started hooking up, and then it was done. I guess we were both over it."

We pause to lament what could have been before moving on: JC Chasez "had a problem with what I do. ... He couldn't understand. He felt like he was constantly in competition."

Just to complete this particular circle of hell, Stefani, 20 (!), has not only filmed herself with Rick Salomon (of the Paris Hilton video), she "kissed Paris on my birthday when we were hanging out." "She is a good kisser." And just like that, the secret of Paris' fame is revealed.

March 1, 2007

Jon writes: "Also Stefani Morgan and a few other Vivid girls have retired in the last few months, but Vivid does not want anyone to know. Apperantly Stefani is dating William Asher, Steve Hirsch's party boy partner. Things aren't what they seem in the land of Vivid and the power of perception is catching up to them quickly."

April 21, 2007

Tam writes: “Just saw the last episode of Debbie Does Dallas…Again on Showtime. At the end it says that two weeks later Stefani fell in love and left the industry."

April 26, 2007

She posts April 23 on her MySpace:

i am back with vivid. i'm not ready to go into detail. much of it is far too personal. i know this decision is going to hurt and/or upset some people in my life, but those who really matter will love me regardless. that's why i love them so much in return :) ...and to be honest, i don't really feel the need to explain myself. and that's a good feeling to have. however, i will give my two cents for the day...ladies, don't ever let a man tell you you are anything less than beautiful inside out.

i'm still going to school to finish my bachelor's. there are 24 hours in one day, and i plan to take full advantage.

On January 19, she posted on MySpace:

I left the adult business today. (Well kinda sorta...my contract is kinda on "pause" so I can go back if I wish in the future).I always said I would never do it a long time, it just came to an end a little sooner than originally planned. There are several reasons that led to this decision, as it was thought about for a long while. A large handful of you witnessed a few things first hand that led to this, and I thank you for being there for me. I had the opportunity to wash my hands in all the bullshit I put up with this past year, and walk away....well, I'm running, really haha. I actually made up my mind early December, but decided to wait until after AVN. People are going to talk, everyone thinks they know why. Then again, most people are oblivious to most things around them. I'm sure in the future I will finally go into my psychobabble, and tell all. However, right now, it will make some people upset, maybe hurt a few, and I'm not ready for that quite yet.

May 5, 2007

Stefani posts to her MySpace page:

hola. so, this morning i took the SAT...can we all laugh and point? i mean, my little sister just took the test 2 months ago. i never took them, i started college at 16 and was just gonna transfer, and i wasn't exactly shooting for an ivy or planning on being a rocket scientist. but when a friend suggested i take them, i decided i really should. a high test score never hurt anyone's transcripts. but more importantly, i spent most of my life in school bored out of my mind, and didn't always apply myself. i was actually really curious to see how well i would do. to be frank, i think i did pretty fuckin well hehe. well i'm going to take it again, just cause i can, and i'm sure the second time will be better cause i've been out of college for 3 years now. and after starting back up, i am pretty sure my little, old brain will slowly stop thinking like a pornstar, and more like student...although, either way i'm still an idiot :)....but who knows? anyways, i'm done with my ramble...just thought i'd share. everyone be safe today! now if you'll excuse me, i'm late for my date with jose...

May 17, 2007

She posts on ADT:

i am not always dating "celebs". here is the reason why i have dated a few, most are sick of attention and want normalcy, and i normally don't want to hit the town, so to speak. so i get my boy, a blanket, my pup, and movie night snuggled up, sometimes go out to dinner before. i know i'm boring. but no i am not even toying with the idea of dating, i need to be alome for a long while right now, very long.

um, let's see...i'm a mut. um i don't know all about my heritage, i started bugging my mom to try searching a bunch of stuff when i got to be a teenager...still working on that. i'm mostly german, irish, and english though. i had german family that lived in russia so who knows? i'm morganian, enough said.

p.s. i hate roses.

[For Entertainment Tonight} it was a fresh faces of porn segment. i guess insider did it once, and et liked the idea. it was myself with sunny leone and a newie. alexis love. it went well, but who knows. i hate interviews with other girls though. i think with other girls talking it can alter how you come off, and of course you get asked irrelevant q's. great exposure nonetheless.

Joe writes August 15, 2007: "Stefani Morgan called me to tell me that Vivid co-owner William Asher is the guy she has been dating on and off again, and that he also owns a few bars across the country such as the Pussy Cat Lounge in AZ, some new spot in Venice and a strip club in AZ.. She informed me that his bars are struggling because of the over-saturation and the need for a hip clientle, which his watering holes lack."

Joe writes August 15: "Stefani Morgan called me to tell me that Vivid co-owner William Asher is the guy she has been dating on and off again, and that he also owns a few bars across the country such as the Pussy Cat Lounge in AZ, some new spot in Venice and a strip club in AZ.. She informed me that his bars are struggling because of the over-saturation and the need for a hip clientle, which his watering holes lack."

Stefani Morgan blogs on MySpace August 17 (and I am assuming she is directing this to Bill Asher):

I should have never met up with you and Andrew. From the beginning you just kept playing with my head, making you think you cared while you were out sleeping with numerous girls. I sat at home thinking maybe you'd stop, you'd realize you didn't need that to make yourself feel better. It never happened. I hadn't seen you in a month, and leaped at the chance to, you already had complete hold of my heart.

We partied all night; everything was perfect (in a Sid and Nancy way). A few days later when I came over, we slept together; you wanted to get up early. I left so you could get to bed. The next day I asked how you were so tired. You laughed when you told me a girl had dropped by late, and you fucked her.

At that point I told myself I wasn't going to get hurt again. So a couple days later when an ex-fling called I decided to meet up with him. I tried to get my mind off you, I slept with him, which is completely juvenile, and I cried the whole way home because I hated myself for it.

When I told mo the next night she tried to convince me it was ok that I had. She and I started up with our own lil party at dinner, followed by her house. You said we could stop by the next day had come over to continue our party with you, we both wanted e. everything was fine, then mo went to bed, and you asked me if I slept with JJ. I said yes, I couldn't lie to you.

You commanded I get upstairs, then told me to "lay on the bed, I'm going to rape your ass" I pleaded, and fought, so you pinned me down and forced me to take it. I didn't know the man on top of me. You went downstairs and left me sobbing on the bed. I heard you ask mo something and I picked myself up, not knowing what was going on. Mo was in a daze, and I found you in the living room. You had ME pleading for forgiveness. You had just stripped me of all my rights just minutes before and I was apologizing.

I'm so glad it happened, don't get me wrong, because of that I went to talk to mo and she started getting sick from partying so hard too long, I was horrified, I had never seen that firsthand, let alone someone I cared about.

Looking back on it I think that is the only reason why I told myself I was ok after what you did. What if something happened to mo, we would've just been sleeping upstairs, no one to help her.

You left the next day before I woke up to avoid me. I wanted to die, I felt so dirty and guilty.

The next week we chatted, I blamed myself for everything and thought I deserved it; I was filming the following weekend after all. You went to Jay's Christmas party, and Andrew went along.

Little did you know at the time, Andrew's date was a hooker. She didn't fuck Andrew, she fucked you...and since she said she always used a condom you didn't use one. I forgave you, why not? I did for everything else up to that point.

We made up, we partied together, and I missed my family's Christmas because of it. And you let me sleep while you went out with your parents, when you came back, you were upset, and you ended it.

2 days later, the hooker from the party contacted me to say she was pregnant and it was yours, she couldn't get a hold of you so I got the wonderful news, great. I reminded myself it was an accident, you didn't do this on purpose, and I stood by your side.

When I saw you a few days later, you searched my text messages and saw merry Xmas exchanges between 2 men from my past and I. heaven forbid I still get along with them.

You then took me to Scottsdale for new years to just make me feel guilty. Once again you commanded me to get on the bed. Saying, "Lay on the bed, I'm going to rape your ass" I was so horrified of you. Your eyes had even changed. "The more you fight, the longer and more painful it will be".

Our suite was so isolated, I didn't know what to do, what you would do, you weren't yourself and I feared the worst. As I begged, you went to your suitcase and grabbed 2 ties, and tied each ankle to a bedpost. How do you do that to someone? You told me to bite on the pillow and not to scream.

When you stopped I lay there horrified for my life. I didn't do anything wrong. I don't care how many times you say I did, I didn't. You rubbed my back and said, "mo was right, girls like you are unlovable. No one has ever cared for you, no guys in your past, but I do."

I apologized once again. A part of me felt sorry for you, you know not what you do, even at your age. I remember saying something smart and you went to grab me again, I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in. you pound and pounded on the door as I pleaded for you to stop. You eventually did. And I remember lying there on the cold floor half naked; I had never been so afraid my entire life.

I crawled out to my purse after several minutes past, I grabbed my phone and then locked myself in the bathroom again to book the soonest flight home. The suites at Sanctuary are so isolated I was scared to call for help. what if you heard me? I figured booking a flight was safest. When you came back banging on the door, shortly after, I thought you had heard me, I pleaded for you not to hit me, I was sorry, and you promised not to hit me.

When I cracked the door the man I knew was back, you looked horrified seeing me like that you coddled me and said you would never hit me. I remember sobbing while you whipped my tears, I wish you had beat and left me there alone rather than feel what I felt inside. I am such an idiot for letting you talk me down. I forgave you. I am the fool.

Ryan and mark were on their way; my worst fear was having people know what you had done. I honestly, to this day, know from the bottom of my heart that that is not who you are. Maybe I am in denial, but it isn't you. I got myself ready; I was just one hit of e away from forgetting how much you hated me inside. I've never been so dependent on drugs and alcohol, but that was the only time I felt remotely happy.

The next week or so, you flew the hooker in and handled the abortion. It wasn't yours in the end, and to be honest I forgave you even more so because it wasn't. Then we had AVN's, the last of my journey, I was leaving, all we had to do was get through the week and for me to not have to go on that damn stage to accept an award.

We had it; it was supposed to be downhill finally. I had even changed all my contacts so you didn't have to worry about "my horrible past" (your words not mine) you still checked my phone and altered most things out of my mouth.... you'd think after years of drugs you'd be aware of your anger and paranoia...maybe that's just my wishful thinking though.

You adored me so much when had good days, others I felt like I couldn't go on. The hardest part was that you don't hear yourself speak. You don't realize what you say, your body language. A part of me felt you knew that you had hurt me and just tried to push me away as much as possible to end it. That was your way of saving me from you. Although my moods and thought were never clear, it was drugs, withdrawals, then all over again. And the pain I had was just getting pushed back further in my head, I never had the strength to deal with it.

You had become my everything. You controlled me. I lost everything without even realize it. I never once thought of what I wanted. And that was my fault; I loved you more than you loved yourself. My goal everyday was to make you see the good in yourself; I thought I was special enough to make you see it. But I was too naive at the time. You had cut me out almost completely by march.]

We had fought and made up for months, and every time was more intense then the time before.

I'll never forget when we were eating at the lil place down the street from you that we used to slip into for a late bite. You randomly said you fucked my as the night before when I was ambiened out. "Your ass was gapping" you said. I didn't know what to say, you smiled and said you weren't lying. You had taken pictures of the whole thing. My body limp while you pounded my ass in my sleep. Pictures for your sick pleasure.

You wonder why I cut my arm those few times. How did I let myself get to that point? When and where did I forget about me? When did I stop defending myself and become a victim? And how the fuck could you smile through it all?? I developed this sick thought that if I could have anal sex with you and thoroughly enjoy it I could forget all the abuse you put me through.

After getting an object "lost in my body" as the nurse put it, one symptom remained. I had nausea, throughout the day, and it peaked midday. The dr. told me he would like me to call my dr. to see if I was pregnant. I told you as I left. Do you remember what you said? You told me to take some tests while you got a coat hanger.

Everything I dreamed it would be when I played house when I was young. Real, fucking gentleman. The whole way home you asked anxiously. The thing that killed me inside was when you said, " god let's hope not. I'd rather Vanessa (the hooker) have my child than you." and you wonder why I lied to you saying that I wasn't pregnant.

I hurt to so bad inside, my worst fear is that I would never get over the pain you put me through. I couldn't look at that baby and hurt. I thought I wouldn't be a good enough mother because of it.

The thing that hurt most was that you wouldn't change, you don't want to. Look how long Nicole has been in your life, and you still haven't. Why would you for this kid? You take such horrible care of yourself like nothing will ever happen.

I had you lying in my arms twice were you had taken too much and you had no idea you and spazming, and I remember lying there, watching you, crying. I was horrified. What if something did happen? I lost my dad when I was 6, and it is hard. I have siblings that still aren't over it 15 years later.

All these reasons just scared me, I didn't know what to do, and I was too scared. I was so in love with you still, and I didn't want to blame you. I figured if you didn't know I could only blame myself.

A few days later you got mad at me for celebrating Odette's new show with her and the cast. I was drinking and men were hitting on me, they all knew I was in love, everyone knew about you. I had no life outside of you, how could they not? Yet you were pissed and ripped me to shreds the next morning. You altered my story, you were so mad; you didn't even actually listen to a word out of my mouth.

I blurted out I was pregnant. And your exact words were, "well then we have another problem, it can't be mine."

How the fuck could you say that?? I changed everything for you, just so you could cope with your own problems. I kept my mouth close so you could think what you wanted to. You were the center of my world and you accused me of cheating on you?? Do you know what that did to me?

A couple days later we went to dinner and we talked about it, I told you was going to a clinic by my mom's, I had planned on you never knowing. You said with Vanessa it is ok, but in my case it was sad. And you had the look in your eyes I never saw before.

I felt that I was hurting you, so I tried to let you think I made the whole ting up. But in the end, I couldn't. I needed you. Every reason I had led to you, and I loved you so much I didn't want you to hurt. That's why I lied. If you didn't know, you couldn't stop me, and I couldn't blame you the way I wanted to.

You know I wanted that baby, you knew how much I love kids. But I wasn't strong enough, I was selfish. I hurt too much. I thought couldn't keep him/her. The shitty thing is I will regret my decision every second, of everyday until I die. I keep telling myself I would've never been able to give he/she everything they deserved, but I'm just lying to myself. You asked how I felt when I came back; it wasn't much but I am so glad you tried a little. Honest, I really am.

The thing that destroyed me the most was one week, to the day, after my procedure we called Andréa (your hooker who you buy drugs from). She had some friends with her, they partied with us. I was upstairs when you brought her up to your room. She went into the bathroom and you put your arms around me, and kissed me. I instantly had tears in my eyes. I said, "I can't do this" you told me "don't worry, there won't be any insertion".

I went downstairs and cried in the bathroom then went out to mark and the girls and numbed my pain with my chemicals. The next day when we woke up you said was weird at the end of the night, I seemed uncomfortable, you asked if I felt weird around the hookers, didn't it remind me of the old days? You the fuck did I ever do to you to deserve the way you treated me?

That was the first time you put your arms around me since my procedure, do you know that? I remember reading a book on coping next to you, I was crying. When you shut off the light you heard me set the book down and said, "I didn't realize you were awake."

I needed you more than anything at that point. It took 2 weeks and you asking me to never speak to you 3 times before you hugged me and said "it was sad", that's it. You were partying more, your moods were worse than ever. You wanted me out of your life completely. That was it. You left me when I had nothing.

I have never felt the pain I had inside ever in my life, and it scared me to death. And you just kept ignoring me, doing more drugs.

You lashed out when you found out I was coming back to work. I was trash, a whore; I was a waste of your time. I'm just a 21-year-old girl trying to get my life back, and it's going to take a long time. I was afraid to talk about anything after you threatened to retaliate if I did. You told me I was crazy and I made things up. I wish I were.

There have been nights I go to bed hoping I won't wake up. Everyday is harder than the last. Keeping quiet has caused the pain to become unbearable. I'm not ok, but I will be. Because if am not, you win. And you have had a hold of me too long. You know, all I asked for was an apology, you cut me out of your life completely instead.

But the hard part is that I will never hear the words I'm sorry come out of your mouth. I don't hate you. I hope one day you see how amazing you are underneath it all and can love yourself instead of sabotaging yourself.

That's the worst pain, seeing you destroy yourself. You can't see how much it hurts those around you even when they are screaming in front of you with tears streaming down their cheeks.

It's been months and things have only become worse. I'm glad you've numbed the pain that I have to feel every goddamn day.

Mo = Monique Alexander.

Can anyone help me identify the other people Stefani refers to in her blog?

This drama reminds me of Steve Hirsch's youthful antics with the porn girls (before MySpace and blogs).

Bill Hicks writes on XPT: "It's well-written, if not depressing. Just proves that some women really, really seem to like being treated like total shit."

Stefani's got to be talking about Bill Asher. She hasn't been dating anyone else.

Morgan shoots about three movies a month, sometimes they are all done in one day.

Stefani posts on ADT this summer (starting July 20):

"it is very hard being back with vivid. i'd had my fair share of issues and it only continues...i wish i never signed with them to be honest. i'm only back with them because of my contract, which i am working to get out of. i gave it an other try, they aren't for me."

"they fuck over the girls first of all in the contracts...my first year i had 6 movies a year/18 scenes...well any idiot can tell you it is 3 scenes a movie...so they should write 3 scenes into your movie. wrong. most of my movies were 2 scenes, and when i thought i was finished i was told i owed more scenes in other movies. it's bullshit, that is just another movie i appear in so they make more money without paying the girls more! i changed that when i resigned...bastards...let's see, this is fun lol...they have completely dumbed me down by making me the girl gone wild girl, i never knew they really had superstars but ok,i have never been on spring break first off, and second wouldn't saying i started college at 16 and was model be more appealing? weird... um then there was the time they asked me to do a book like "how do date a celebrity", i laughed. they tried to tell me it was a pitch like jenna's "how to make love like a porn star", i'm sorry jenna's book was great, and she poured her lil heart out. there is a difference between a biography and a book about seelling out on something beyond lame. then as most of you know they sold a gossip piece to fhm without my knowledge, we all know how i feel about debbie...for you newbies please see pt remake thread, oh and btw when i mentioned my fustrations of both those to a certain someone in the company i was told i was a pornstar, how can i worry about how i come across, that i was a joke(nice to know how the girls are viewed) so you can imagine why it was so easy to get discouraged. and when i left they said i owed them a set amount for movies i didn't do last year, although if they weren't so concerned in their trainwreck debbie i'm sure they would have been filmed. and they just took almost all my money out of my check today because of it. although it could be because of the shoot i canceled last minute a few weeks ago due to a major breakdown. and this is only half of it...some i will not disclose...well ok, i haven't been pushed that far yet! lol can you tell my feathers are ruffled??"

"oh and as for your questions lol, no i'm very independent and have always stuck to myself. there is only a few family members i talk to in depth and they love me regardless, there was that fear of hurting them, everyone so excited when i got out, i haven't talked to many about my leaving or returning to be honest. i would like to change companies, if not work independently. but we will see...it's sad, so many girls don't know any better. everyone thinks being a vivid girl is so prestigious. i wish i never went to them."

"they don't care about the product anymore, point proven at avn this year."

"i really would be shocked if i got a phone call. it's just disheartening...i shouldn't have to be so distressed, can't a girl get fucked and be happy?! the world would be a much better place with me in charge. don't get me wrong with all this, i love the people at vivid, and i love my sets, but it isn't worth it overall. i just feel they do not care really, as threy don't really have to...they've already made it. but i am proud of what i do, and i want my movies to fucking be amazing, and that's a minor conflict where i'm at haha."

"i obviously love it if i'm still here, good god, i even got out and came back! lol although that could just be my being blonde :) my contract is done april 2009, and things may work out. i have been through a solid rough patch this past year with my personal and business life. and i'm a lot stronger, i am much more motivated too. when i was away from the industry , i had a lot happen and kinda had to start over with a few things in my life, and in the end i'm so grateful cause i remembered how much i love myself and i need to do what i love, and it's gonna suck sometimes and it's gonna be great others, it all depends on me and how bad i want it.so...here i am! as for now, the only thing i can do is make sure i love my best, i'm positive, and all my sex is fucking amazing!"

i have been keeping my options open, i knew i was coming back to the biz and thought about it alot, and it's something that i had to prepare the worst for. i am to blame for a good amount of my unhappiness at vivid, i used to be much stronger and would not get walked on, and i slowly became a push over. i was new to the biz, i didn't want to be the pain in the ass, i was still learning the ropes, and look at me now. nice stefani isn't for me :) i'm a scorpio, my stinger is back out...you live and you learn, i finally reclaimed myself, and that girl is a lil more grown up. ::tear::

i plot every night!!!! lol wow, too much pinky and the brain... um i rarely go out, i have my phases when i do, but even if i go out i'm in my own lil world with who ever i'm with. i hate la, it is so boring. i like to just chill, beach day tomorrow :) yay!

since i have been back i do not consider myself a vivid girl. i have always said i view myself as stefani morgan, contract girl for vivid. maybe i jinxed myself?? well, i am really glad i've had my ups and downs so early in the biz, i'm only 21 and get a fresh start, and i'm taking full advantage

i think they should have not pushed my name at all, if they think i'm so geat then they should have let it happen on it's own.

it's how they sold me out, and the whole debbie thing was pathetic. i mean the butchered so much of it, and they don't let you hear what they are asking you to begin with. i think everyone looked like idiots in the show to be honest. it's sad...

i love changing my look, i get bored easily, i was in the process of lightening it get to blonde from dark brown when i signed with vivid, and with debbie i stayed blonde for a while, by the time we were filming debbie i was itching to go dark, i went really dark right after i left. i'm lucky, i can go red, brown, or blonde, i have a neutral skin tone, i'm keeping it dark for a while though, and i have it short and i use clip in extentions, so much more fun, i can do so many looks!

[Re: a blowbang] mmm lots of cock sounds fun :) ...why am i such a whore?

yes i hooked up with mo in vegas, i don't have any friends in the biz really. i talk to cassidey from time to time, but that's it. nothing personal, it's just better for me, i'm a hermit in general...lots of acquaintenances, very few friends. i'm a bitchy whore i guess :P and i don't know if a could do a gangbang, the thing is...they would all have ot be super hot so i didn't get bored, cause once you start getting tons of people in the mix it loses all passion and it's just fucking...at least to me it is...i would have to have a talent search for this project!....hmmmm

i'll admit..i'm a bit of a narcissist

i fell out of my friends infinity pool (apparently i can't fly), and fell about 8 ft. i totally lucked out, i should be broken completely.but need not worry, my vagina is just fine! we were going to go to a party for a friend's new baby...but my friend had to explain he wouldn't be there because the pornstar fell out of his pool and we all were at the emergency room. never a dull moment with me around :) i go in to see my dr again tomorrow

too bad no guy will get to tie me up anytime soon...

i haven't watched too many of my scenes. a lot of my stuff was shot last year, and it was a rough year for me, i don't think most of my work was that great to be honest.

i have to admit i feel special that he is focuses on trying to piss me off. there isn't a grain of truth in what he wrote...although is luke ford, he makes perez hilton look like cnn...

i have been suffering from from depression for about a year and da half due to some personal stuff and a lot of work stuff. the hardest part is that a lot of it ties together, there's never really an escape.

i desensitized my vagina a lil, i started masturbating so young, and so often by the time i got the real thing it wasn't that great lol

i am very aware it [depression] will not cure itself. i am being treated. it's going to be a long process, but i can wait. baby steps :) and i have an amazing talent of hiding things. i'm very complex.

and i only meant sometimes sex just can't compare to the stimulation of masturbating. it's like if you vagina is used to so much, the basics just don't cut it. but no, i am not actually desensitized, good god, my life would be over if i was!! lol

Here are some of Stefani's other posts to ADT starting July 14, 2006:

i have not decided on the blackmale series. i am not opposed to it. i haven't seen the one with janine, and i'm sure once i see that i'll get a feel of what i want to do. i kind of would rather just do interracial in scenes for my features. i personally don't think interracial is a big deal, if i see a performer i want to do a scene with i request them. and hopefully i will be interested in a performer of an other race soon, i would really like to offer more of a variety for my fans.
as far as what types of scenes you want to see, i can only say you must have patience. most of my movies are not released yet. as far as when i do anal, i am not opening my mouth, i am not closed off to different ideas, but a lot can change in my life, and in the industry, within the next year leading to my first anal onscreen. yes i did know of christian's past prior to my scene with christian. i didn't have sex with christian in my scene, but i can honestly say i would've if i was paired with him. christian is a sweetheart, and has never been anything else but that to me. i also do not feel that people should be ridiculed for certain times in their lives, especially when the person at hand isn't known on a personal level. yes, i plan on having webcam, i think it'd be awesome, and i would love to give that extra something to my fans. whew...i think i covered it all!

i've been with a handful of black men [off camera].

i don't really date. most guys can't handle it...within 3 days of meeting, i get the "why do you do it?" speech. most people don't want to know that their significant other wants to have sex with other people. it is just sex, and some people can't detach themselves like that.

i shot my first scene in june 05, and my first movie wasn't released until late jan 06.

i wasn't really close with my fam, i told them cause i felt they should find out first hand from me. my friends were like wow ok, you never mentioned it...i didn't tell anyone until the day before i went into vivid, i didn't want anyone's take on it until i was for sure that is what i wanted to do. a lot of people see i'm happy and are happy for me, but think i should get out still and just do mainstream stuff. but they are all supportive still. my fam and i have actually become closer since of entrance to porn, the ones that disapprove just don't talk about it, they continue to be involved and just hope i'll get out of it. and then the others wanna know about every project i do.

all my friends do mainstream, and have no desire to do porn...haha they read my lines with me sometimes though cause they get a kick out of it.

i get along with everyone i work with, but i really don't hang out with too many. i'm making more friends in the biz, which is nice...i feel a lil more at home, ya know? monique and i clicked when we first met, i talk to her a lot, and we hang out and stuff. not too much...i started when i was 17, did some print/catalog work, then stopped to focus on school, then decided college would always be there to continue in the future, i missed the camera and performing. i dabbled with some runway in la, small of course, la is by no means a modeling market. i did some commercial, a campaign for a tech company is taiwan, then stopped to decide what i really wanted and got with vivid. i love mainstream...but i had a problem with how everyone sees me and thinks all american cheerleader and lets send you out for the part of a high school girl. yuck!

there is a lot of drug use in la period. i really don't know who does drugs, or what they do, for that matter. what people do in their time is none of my business, if it effects my environment at work, them i would definitely say something about it. i think people shouldn't need to be on something to work.

i don't talk about my pay, sorry...every girl has a different deal, and i prefer to keep the details of that stuff personal.

[Howard Stern] actually said no twice. they want me to talk about "celebrities" and i won't. i think it is so lame, i'm not gonna sell out people i know for others' entertainment.

i signed for 3 more years in march. i love acting, singing, dancing, photography, doing hair and makeup....who knows where i'll end up haha

as for the music video's go, it'd be awesome, i love music, music has been a huge part of my life since i was little. i wouldn't do it just to be some random hot chick in the background, it would have to have some depth to get my attention...

it was a fresh faces of porn segment [for Entertainment Tonight]. i guess insider did it once, and et liked the idea. it was myself with sunny leone and a newie. alexis love. it went well, but who knows. i hate interviews with other girls though. i think with other girls talking it can alter how you come off, and of course you get asked irrelevant q's. great exposure nonetheless.

i didn't talk to much to be honest. we were there hours, and i just sat back and let the girls talk. and then they pulled back in the room to ask me about some stuff, whih i asked to be pulled cause it was retarded. they still found a way to get some of it in. hollywood is so lame.

i just got home, and i am so fuckin tired! i had 2 b/g and 1 g/g today...and there was lots and lots of ass shots and i enjoyed every second of both of my facials! :) i am so happy to be back, i am just in a better place in my life, and i am focused on me...and trust me it shows in my scenes!! as upseting as my experience in porn has been at times, i'm so glad it all happened in the beginning. i am not gonna let anyone direct my career but me. and i will be a bitch, be i don't care...any other way isn't worth it!

barry scott was a last minute replacement, i had no idea he does that work [trannies]. no point in getting all heated about it, what's done is done...it was a great scene and he is a sweetheart. i am just more comfortable steering clear from the genre, this is a perfect example as to why. it is nothing personal, i'm sure i will be cutting out several great performers that are a pleasure to work with in the feature because of it.

i just do my own thing. i always have been like that though, i connect with very few people. and i'm not in the business to make friends, i'd rather talk to you guys anyways

Sep. 22, 2007

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I spot Vivid girl Stefani Morgan chatting with Belladonna's brother Jason Sinclair.

She says she's shooting a movie for Vivid next month.

I ask her if she got a talking to for her recent Vivid criticisms. She says no.

She posts Sep. 23 on ADT: "i am still horny as can be. i'm just not social these days."

"i am a firm believer in recycling the men in my life. nothing really sounds too appealing though lately...needless to say, i've developed a close bond with my vibrator lately."

Derek117 writes: "Stefani, Today Luke put up photos from some event--several of which are of you. Even though Luke can be a terrible photographer (lighting & angles), your photos are beautiful. Until seeing these pics I had my doubts about auburn hair (I love your blonde look)--but now I'm a believer. Wow!"

Stefani responds: "aw thank you! lol i'm not sure...i've noticed luke loves to shoot me as i'm talking, and i'm quite animated...so, i can look even crazier than i really am :P i ended up leaving shortly after i arrived, i had anxiety which was followed by the worse migraine i've had last night....but at least you guys have new pics! xo"

FBB posts:

I had never gone to Luke's page before, but had to this time. The new shots of you are really spectacular. I love that hair color anyway, but on you, with your skin and your blue blue eyes, you are heartbreakingly beautiful. If I saw those shots not knowing who you were, I certainly would not think porn star - I would think that this woman is beyond perfect. To then know that you are so horny and like having sex while we watch - what could be better? There were some older pictures of you, from 2006, with the blonde look - there were some shots with you and some other porn girls, including some very good looking ones (Lacie especially) - the other girls have the porn girl look, kinda over-made-up and a little too showy - and then there is this incredible vision with them, who looks out of place because she is so naturally beautiful and radiant.
I am gushing a bit, but I was looking at these new shots, trying to put my finger on what makes you so special - and it really is that I don't need to know that you do porn, or even nudes - I would be stunned by those pictures if they showed up in in a portfolio from a society event, or in the people section of a magazine. Of course, then I would have to find everything about you (like I do with Marisa Miller, Mary-Louise Parker, and Liz Phair) - and would be even more stunned to find pictures of you sucking and fucking with that same smile and those same sparkling blue eyes. You really are special, in or out of porn.

I also noticed that Luke has posted a lot of your comments here - so I guess Vivid must also have seen them. Maybe they will treat you better, or let you go.

Derek posts: "The "corporate payback" move on Vivid's part would be to put Stefani in shitty productions, with shitty co-stars, that will damage her career. Even after she leaves. Which, given her feelings expressed here, is certain to happen as soon as Stefani can. Bottom line: Unless they make-up I have very low expectations of any future Stefani sexvids from Vivid."

Stefani responds: "you are caption of my cheer squad fbb lol i can definitely see that happening, but to be honest...if that were the case, and it was the worst it could be, then i'm just leave porn. besides, there are a million things that i'm great at. i'm a whore even with the cameras off...so i'd still be happy. and in all honesty, this business can be rough, it definitely takes more than it gives. that is why i'm doing things outside of porn cause it's not gonig to last forever."

Stefani posts: "i have no idea what's going on with vivid. i'm pretty sure they are trying to avoid me."

Oct. 6, 2007

Stefani Morgan posts on ADT:

everything out of my mouth was altered. when asked what i think about the show pushing us more mainstream i said i think any of the vivid girls could do it, just matters who really wants that. and when asked what do i have to say to people when they are like oh, you do porn, you could never crossover i said oh ya, watch me. because i think if a pornstar that'd be awesome, any pornstar for that matter.
that was my final straw with vivid. all of my exposure with them has made me look desperate, and it drives me nuts. people have no idea who i am, and vivid sure as hell doesn't give a fuck.

and yes i was looking at scripts last year, i had several friends in mainstream trying to pull me out of the biz because they knew how miserable i was. vivid doesn't care how the girls look, as long as their name is out there and they sell more, then the girl gets burnt out and then replace them. and i want a long, successful career. and yes, when i'm a little older and tired of porn i know i'm going to want to dabble in mainstream...there is so much more to explore.

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