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In 1993, John Decker (Adam Vaughn) lived with his two girlfriends Tara Monroe and Wednesday. Tara did magazine layouts and girl-girl videos, but along with Wednesday refused to do boy-girl sex on camera unless John would do it with them.

Decker entered porn in June, 1993 and over the next four years appeared in 600 videos.

"I never did amateurs. Because companies wanted Tara, I did features.

"I've often had two girlfriends," says John. "The way life works is that you can get what you want, so long as you hold out for what you want.

"I have a wife now, Roxanne Hall, but I screw whoever I want.

"I'm not a swinger. Swingers search for other couples to swing with. We don't swing with couples as a general rule. Roxanne usually only wants to be with other girls."

Born in 1964, John says he's a quadruple Capricorn.

A 20-inch baby born in Los Angeles, John lived in Kansas, Texas, Florida, Georgia and New York.

At age nine, when he lost his virginity, Decker stood 5'10". He was seduced by a 19-year old slut who worked at Disneyland. "One night we began making out and ended up f---ing all night long. My first sexual experience was an E ticket."

John essentially raised himself and his four younger brothers. He left home at age 13, and dropped out of school. "I worked in a restaurant and lived in a tiny, dingy apartment."

A motorcycle accident in 1994 put John out of action for over a year.

Decker reads widely, from science fiction to engineering. "Everything but romance." He's learning sign language and Spanish.

"I have no idea what I'll be doing next year. I don't make plans. Things just happen. The luck of the Irish. I'm starting to produce my own videos."

John enjoys the power that comes from giving anal sex. "I can flex my dick and make it hurt. Or I can make it exceptionally pleasurable. I have complete control of her. She would never dare talk back to me while she's in that position. It's a control thing, a mind f---. I like coercion. I like a girl who's never been f---ed in the ass. I've devirginized many a girl's ass.

"I love to stick my tongue up a woman's ass. It's a wonderful, glorious thing."

11/15/99

Separated for almost two years, John Decker and Roxanne Hall are now officially divorced.

Roxanne lives in England in a relationship where she's raising a four month old boy (John is not the father).

For the first time in 18 months (aside from a brief hello at CES), Luke talked to John by phone Sunday night, 11/14/99.

Decker: "It's amazing how slow word travels in this business. People have said to me, I hear Roxanne is retiring. [Roxanne retired 18 months ago and moved back to her native country of England.]"

John, 35, lives with 22-year old asian porn star Mia Smiles.

Luke: "Does she still work for Jim South?"

John: "She never worked for Jim South... Hang on a second let me check with her..."

John comes back to the phone. "You know more than me dude. She volunteered there for one day when Chaz and Jim Jr were gone."

Luke called World Modeling on that day (Spring, 1999) to check on a story about Jim. I left a message with Mia but Jim never returned my call.

John Decker Mia Smiles

With JJ Michaels and Hall, John Decker formed a production company two years ago and made four porno movies in Europe.

John: "Everyone else faded away but the company stayed with me."

Decker finds it difficult to find time to shoot while he's still performing sex regularly in front of the camera. He wants to do his shoots overseas, such as in Australia and Malaysia where they behead people for making porn.

"If I shoot a movie in Malaysia," says Decker, "I will become famous one way or another. I will have made either the one porn movie in Malaysia or I will get beheaded trying."

Luke: "We don't behead porners in Australia."

John has taken up a new hobby - going on vacation. He spent ten days scuba diving on the small island Cozumel on the eastern side of the Mexican Caribbean.

Decker: "Some website says that Mia is pregnant and having my child. She's not pregnant at all and she's not having my child. I'm never getting married again."

Luke: "She's pregnant with Jim South's baby?"

Decker: "There you go. You'd love to print that, wouldn't you?

"She has six-pack abs. I wish I had her abs [abdominal muscles]. But she's 22 and I'm 35."

John's been shooting a porn movie in San Francisco on and off for the past 30 months.

Decker: "It's the shoot from hell. Roxanne was the female lead. Then we split up, she retired, and we had to kill her part. So we recast and shot part of it with Natasha Blake. Then she retired.

"We also had to stop shooting because one of the investors got into a car accident and went into a coma. We thought it would be inappropriate to go to his wife and say, 'Can we have the check anyway?'

"If you watch the movie it will be funny because I age years over the several days.

"It's a huge action adventure movie. My partner supplies guns to mainstream movies like Broken Arrow and Rock. I am a government snoop and there are lots of action scenes with machine gun fire and helicopters...

"If someone didn't have the stuff we have, it would cost them a million dollars to shoot it. We fired over a thousand dollars worth of blanks last weekend. But we may never finish it... We'll have a whole other movie of just scenes cut out of it because the girls retired. We'll put them all together and call the movie 'Oops.'"

Decker has often thought of writing "The History of X" when he retires but he finds the history of X "too f---ing depressing. As it is, I'm going to get into trouble because I am going to make a porn movie about X. Like Boogie Nights except the real deal. And people are not going to be happy with me. Even though I'll change the names to protect the guilty... But the people who recognize themselves will still go off on me. 'Why did you do XYZ?' Because that's the real life, man. I didn't name you and nobody knows it is you but you."

John says most of his big fans are psychos. He had one guy who called him three days in a row to get naked in front of his wife. The fan asked, "If I gave you a plane ticket and $500, would you whip my wife?" Decker finally had to threaten the guy with calling the police.

Luke emailed John Saturday night to ask him to do an interview with Nice Jewish Girl.

John: "Is she strange?"

Luke: "No, she's a little different... Really spunky. She was into punk rock. The girliest girl."

John remembered a female porn writer in New York who once interviewed him. She was into witchcraft. John offered to take her out to lunch and she replied, "Oh no, if I met you, I'd have to kill you. They'll get you."

John asked who was "they?"

Witch: "People are afraid of me because of my power."

At 9:30 PM, I brought NJG into our conversation. They started by complaining about computers and marriage.

John: "There will never be another one."

NJG: "I understand that."

Luke: "How does Mia feel about that?"

John: "She's not thrilled. I've lost more girlfriends over that... The girl [Tara Monroe] I came into the business with and I split up over that. She wanted to get married and have kids. Within a year of us splitting up, she was married and pregnant. Not mine.

"The greatest moment in my life was when I found out that Roxanne's baby was not mine. I found out about it from other sources and I said, 'I really need to know how pregnant she is.'

"I already have a 12-year old daughter. Last I heard she lives in Washington D.C.. Her mother bounces around all the time. I didn't say I had a child with a sane person. We're still friends, she just likes to pick up and go somewhere else so noone can track her. Her parents have lots of money which facilitates this. I've sent private investigators after her but unfortunately if you have an unlimited supply of cash, you can't be found.

"So what do you do?"

NJG: "I'm an administrative assistant."

John: "Oh, a secretary."

Then NJG talked about her acting, such as in the play "Who's Afraid of Virginia Wolf?"

John: "I'm doing a porno version of that in ten days. [John was later bumped.]"

NJG: "I would come home and I would be that character."

John: "That's not a good character to be. I've had relationships like that."

NJG: "They're fun, from a distance... People get addicted to the drama."

John: "I'm not a drama fan. I like peace and quiet."

NJG: "I do too but then I get bored."

John: "If you want drama, just read Luke's page."

Then they talked about their experiences walking through bad neighborhoods.

John: "The reason that tall blonde blue-eyed guys don't get messed with in bad neighborhoods is that people look at them and go, 'He's either a cop or a criminal or crazy to walk around here. Let's not mess with him.'

"I used jog in Watts and nobody ever said a word."

NJG: "That's right. They're going to clear a path for you because you're tall and big."

John: "They think that any white boy running through Watts is crazy."

Then the conversation turned to punk rock.

John: "It started out in Britain as rebellion against authority. Then it came over here and became rebellion against everything."

NJG: "Rich kids slumming it."

John: "When it crossed the sea, it lost its ooomph."

John and NJG used to hang out at the Starwood in the 1980s, which was owned by Eddie Nash, a friend of John's.

John: "I remember Esteves and Sheens... My ex-girlfriend dated one of them so I got the whole scoop on their personal life. I knew about Charlie's weirdness long before he became famous and all that came out. Charlie's a freak but he's not gay.

"Way back then Charlie had the hugest porno collection of anybody on the planet. Before he dated Ginger Lynn.

"Charlie's been in trouble all of his life. He is trouble. He wants to do what he is not supposed to do and he is truly a hedonist."

NJG: "Charley is weird. He has sex with lots of different people."

John: "That's just slutty.... Rob Lowe's like that. Rob likes young girls."

Luke: "He videotaped himself doing that 16-year old at the Democratic Convention in 1988."

John: "He hasn't hit the age limit yet. He's hit on younger. Now I'm going to get sued for all this. Rob, Charley, just kidding pals."

Luke: "You can't defame the defamed."

John: "All of this is open to interpretation except that John says that Charlie Sheen is a f---ing freak. I'll defend that statement in court."

NJG: "So what happened between you and Roxanne?"

Nervous laughter.

John: "We broke up. Do I want to discuss my breakup with my wife with Luke? You're my pal and all Luke, but..."

Luke: "You know it ends with me buddy."

NJG: "Did it have to do with other people?"

John: "No. Did that screw up your line of questioning? I don't believe that anybody splits up because of other people. Sometimes it is an excuse they use...

"One of the problems between Roxanne and I was the age difference. I'm almost 36. She's 23 now."

NJG: "You're in my age range."

NJG: "You're way better looking than anyone else in straight porn. Tony, Ron, TT Boy... Yuck! I have a friend who's gay..."

Luke: "And he loves John."

John: "Oh good."

NJG: "We'd discuss everyone..."

Luke: "Gay men love John and John loves them."

John: "Can you hear my career smoldering in this heat?"

NJG: "You know that gay men have good taste in what's cute."

John: "I don't know that."

Luke: "You can make more money John."

John: "If I could get my dick up for guys, you can bet your sweet ass I'd be going for the triple paychecks."

Luke: "Couldn't you just think about Mia while you're poking Harry? You're an actor. Use The Method."

John: "I'm afraid that wouldn't work."

Luke: "You wouldn't like some hunky guy slurping on your schlong?"

John: "Ewwwwwwwww."

NJG: "No Luke, that's what you're into..."

John: "I don't like guys, even as friends. They annoy me."

NJG: "I hate men too."

John: "I'm going to have to sustain a friendship with a guy before I decide to go gay."

NJG: "Modeling is like the porn business. Except you are not paid to sleep with people, you just have to do it."

John: "I've never slept with anyone for my mainstream gigs. I did three mainstream films but I will only tell you one (Bulletproof with Adam Sandler, James Caan). The other two were so bad that a porn star is embarrassed to admit he was in them. If you watched Bulletproof, you'll have to see me in the credits because I am there much longer than I am on screen.

"I don't seek out mainstream. They have to go get me. Several of my friends are mainstream actors."

Luke: "Are they gay?"

John: "No... A few of them are successful.... But the actor's life is one of rejection. Going eight times on a movie and then getting told no. My ego isn't that tough. I don't want to do that, especially if I have to leave work to be told no.

"The best gig they ever came and got me for, I then lost. David Lynch wanted me for Lost Highway. But then Marilyn Manson got the part and I got bumped. I love David's movies. He is weird. Laura Dern, from Wild at Heart, went to meet him for the first time. She came to his house. He sat her down at the kitchen table, went to his freezer and took out a chicken and something else that were completely taken apart. He put one down and goes, 'Could you put that back together for me?'

"I liked Twin Peaks... My friend told me, 'We have to get stoned and go see Eraserhead.' So we got stoned off our f---ing asses and went to the Nuart, and I'm going, 'Is it just me or is everybody else totally confused too?' And he said, 'I didn't say it made sense. I said it was totally cool.' Same friend sent me to see Darkman, telling me it was the greatest movie ever made. That was the dumbest movie I ever saw. Yeah, he said, but that one part reminded me of you. We're not friends anymore.

"Actually, the reason we stopped being friends was that he got a new lush girlfriend who did not approve of what I do for a living. And I approached that with, 'Who the f--- are you exactly?'"

NJG: "He should've had a punk rock girlfriend because punk rock girls are different. They never care."

John: "He should've had a spine...

"We were drug buddies."

Luke: "Any of the times that you guys were intoxicated, did you ever have sex?"

John: "All the time... One time we picked up the Raiders and did them all, and if you print that, I will kick your ass..."

NJG: "John, I am sorry for the way Luke is acting. He is so obsessed with this gay stuff. I don't know what is wrong with him."

John: "Actually, Luke, I saw something about that on your website. A confession of being gay."

NJG: "It's my fault."

Luke: "I came out as a homosexual and I wondered if that changed the way you look at me?"

John: "No, just how close I sit to you.

"No, when we did drugs, we never f---ed around. We went out and tried to find girls... But when you're blasted out of your ever-loving mind on drugs, picking up girls is not the easiest thing in the world. Because they see you coming."

NJG: "They go ewwwwwww. Even crazy punk rock girls do not go near those guys."

John: "And the girls know that their dicks don't work anyway."

Luke: "What sort of drugs?"

John: "Everything... The first time I got f---ed up, I was nine."

NJG: "It's your Irish heritage."

John: "I was the oldest of five, and my cousin was the youngest of six, all boys. And my cousins were all criminals. I just ran into my cousin a few weeks ago and I asked him, 'How are your brothers?' And he replied, 'Well, Bruce is in Iowa hiding from the police. Bradley is doing time in Florida. Paul is doing a two-year federal stint here... They were all hardened criminal dope fiends. So that's what we did... I did dope really f---ing young.

John: "We were the bad element in the Bible Belt. We did drugs you've never even heard of. But I never got addicted and I never went to rehab. I don't have an addictive personality. All of my friends I used to party with years ago go 'Oh man, you're in denial. You're just going to relapse.' But some people have addictive personalities and some people don't."

NJG: "Except you smoke cigarettes."

John: "Yes, like a chimney."

NJG: "You should stop."

John: "Yes, I'm coming up on my 27th year of smoking. Do you want to hang out with me while I quit?"

NJG: "Ok."

John: "So how long have you been suicidal?"

NJG: "I'm a very intense girl."

Luke: "Oy ve!"

John: "I'm very unfriendly when I don't have cigarettes."

NJG: "But I am can be really argumentative."

John: "But when you're in a straight jacket and gagged in the closet, you won't be arguing a lot. When I get grumpy, it's not a good thing.

"The only reason that I did not become addicted to any drug was that I was a drug slut. I did not have a drug of choice. What you got?"

NJG: "That was in the past. Drugs have been passe for years."

John: "Not in this town. San Francisco is a mecca for Xtacy."

NJG: "Heroin is making a comeback.

"We need to get you some more guy friends. Perhaps you should hang out with Luke."

Luke: "I am the manliest man."

NJG: "Luke has no friends."

John: "That could have something to do with Luke's behavior. Luke doesn't want to have any friends. Luke wants to piss everybody off."

NJG: "Luke disassociates a lot."

John: "I never graduated from high school. I was registered at four different high schools but I didn't attend any of them, not even for a day. By the time I was supposed to be in high school, I was supporting myself, so I was busy...

"I entered porn at age 28."

NJG: "Girls can't start at 28."

John: "Yeah they can but it's a specialty Eddie deRoo type of thing.

"Guys can enter late, especially now with Viagra. Before Viagra, all these guys would come in, fail, and go away. Now, all of a sudden, all these guys have strong wood. Hmmm?"

Decker got his first tattoo at age 13 - a black rose on his chest. "I got it because of the movie 'The Wanderers.' I've got a 'Suzy' on my left and a 'Jenny' on my right. And a 'Rosie' on my chest. It used to have a girl's name above it but I removed it."

NJG: "Getting a girl's name tattooed on you is the curse of death on a relationship."

John: "I was tripping on acid and it seemed like a good idea at the time. Luke, you'll like this. The name on my chest was 'Jamie.'"

Luke: "Sounds gay."

John: "I knew you'd love to jump on that... Jamie was a really weird girl. She tried to kill me a couple of times. One of those dramatic relationships."

NJG: "Yeah, that Sid and Nancy thing. But they're really cool though."

John: "She hit me on the head with a champagne bottle. I remember it well."

Aside from his work, John is monogamous. "Mia is jealous and possessive."

NJG: "Are you madly in love?"

John: "Ummmmmmm... I refuse to answer on the grounds that I don't want to. A 22-year old can't marry a 35-year old man. Women outlive men by 10 years..."

NJG: "You need to marry an older woman."

John: "Men are not monogamous by nature. Men were made to f--- many women, to spread their seed among many women. Women were meant to do the same thing because the more men they sleep with, the more likely they are to get pregnant."

Then we talked about Decker's M.A. in psychology.

5/29/00

NJG On Decker

Nice Jewish Girl comments on John Decker and his wild side: "Well Decker is like that. He's very much an uber male kind of guy. He's a real alpha male type. I think he's very handsome, and really neat. I'm not into this kind of behavior at all, but that is the way he is. I actually like sweeter, more passive guys. More wimpy types I think. Although, I'm sure any girl would not be afraid to walk any street with Decker by her side. He has very protective energy I'm sure, and the wimpy boyfriend would never and could never protect you like a Decker could."

The NJG: I wanna interview Mark Davis soon
The NJG: can you do this?
The NJG: I need a new porn stud to have a crush on

Anne Hedonia writes: Luke - So did she do him or what? :) Please print details so I can live vicariously. And ask him if he's into asphyxiation play (temporary, of course!) during anal sex.

Luke: Porn star John Decker got into a fight with a man in downtown Los Angeles a month ago.

A month before, Decker separated from his girlfriend Mia Smiles.

John told me by phone Sunday afternoon: "The last fight I got into was in downtown Los Angeles when someone broke into my van. I was at the Bonaventure [hotel] and my van was parked in one of the outside lots because it won't fit under the Bonaventure. And somebody broke into my van and stole a whole bunch of wardrobe. It was 1AM and I decided that I would drive around and see if I saw anybody.

"Sure enough, I found the guy who had taken it. It's downtown. It's a fairly small area.

"I drive down this street and there's this black guy with a Mexican guy. The black guy has a big armfull of clothes wrapped in plastic. That's nice. I pull over to the side of the road. 'Bitch, give me my s---.'

"'Oh, is this yours? I didn't know this was your s---. I thought it was somebody else's.'"

"f--- off. Then he pulls this knife on me which he used to break into my van. Bitch, I will f--- you up."

Luke: "So then what happened?"

John: "He left bleeding. Then the cops came. I told them what happened. I got my stuff back. One of my suits got ruined. It got dragged in the gutter. Everything was intact. I'd been shooting my action adventure. My federal fatigues were in there, which were $160 a set. Then I gave his knife to a girlfriend of mine as a souvenir."

Luke: "How did you beat a guy with a knife?"

John: "It was easy. Knife beating is an art which almost nobody knows how. Stabbing people is easy if you surprise them. Fighting with a knife is hard. Legs are much longer than arms. Anybody who wants to come at me with a knife, they have to get past my legs.

"I drop kicked him in the chest and he went bouncing down the street. The Mexican guy had run away when I came up. I presume the black guy had broken into my van and stolen it and he was trying to sell or trade with the other guy.

"It's funny. When I was getting my stuff back, he [the black man] said, 'Hey, you got your stuff back. You should be glad.' I should be glad? You broke the f---ing window in my van, caused me s---... f--- you. I did not share his point of view.

"The cops were funny. What did he look like? A black guy, about my build, about my age, wearing dark clothes. Can you give us anymore? I didn't fingerprint the guy. I was more concerned with identifying my clothes. Well, that's not much to go on. Well, he's bleeding. Does that help? Does that narrow it down? How many people walk around downtown LA bleeding at this time of night?"

8/31/00

Welcome To The Jungle

Luke: Last Thursday (8/31/00), I published this report by an unhappy member of the Adam & Eve production in South America. This weekend I interviewed porn star John Decker who gives a different perspective.

First, here is the initial post:

A journal of ULTIMATE PICTURES/ADAM & EVE production in Venezuela. By a Survivor.

Day 1. A 12 hour flight, wait for the baggage, get through customs, load into a van for the trip into town. Several hours after getting off the plane we finally arrive at a hotel. We're starving and the restaurants closed. It takes a lot of persuasion, but the local coordinator arranges dinner.

Day2. The jeep ride from hell. Overloaded into 2 jeeps, with the luggage tied on the roof, the 2 hour ride becomes over 4 hours of bumping & jostling over badly rutted dirt roads. Through the river and through the woods we go, occasional heads lean out the window to barf, trying to be careful not to get smacked by tree branches. What have we gotten ourselves into ???? We arrive at the posada, which was explained as a resort hotel on white sand beaches. The beach is somewhere over the mountain. There is no hot water. No, it is broken, there never was, never will be hot water. It seems that hot water isn't a necessity in the jungle. Before we brace for the cold showers, we're all given a towel. It will be ours for the next two weeks. It's instantly apparent how important it is to guard that towel. The only version of air-conditioning is standing in front of the fan after getting out of the cold shower. I suppose that's a solution to the towel shortage as well. It's hot, sticky, there are lots of mosquitoes. The food is mysterious. Women should be mysterious, not food. I can't sleep so I watch the lizards crawl through the bottom of my door. I could really go for a bottle of water, but the bats flying around the dining room freak me out. Welcome to the jungle.

Day 3. We get the morning lecture from Nick Pinkowski, director and producer, about how important it is no one at the posada and no one in town find out what we're really doing here. That's when the scope of the lies is apparent. We were told what we were doing here is legal, apparently it is not. The prospect of a third world jail is hugely unappealing, but we're trapped here with no way out for two weeks. I knew this was a bad idea. Next time I'll follow my instincts. Kelly, the director's wife is a bitch. I hope she's just that way in the morning.

THE BEACH. The local beach is full of locals. Given the secrecy of our mission, we have to climb into a couple rickety wooden boats and head for a private beach. As the water gets rough and waves crash over the boats, I wish there were life vests, especially since some of us can't swim. The sea is too rough to get the boats to the beach, so we have to swim for it. Those that can't swim are pulled to shore. The crew ferries equipment high over their heads one piece at a time. There are many harried moments as several of the crew are getting thrashed about in the sea. The biggest guy gets smashed in the back when the boat shoots up and comes down on him. It becomes frighteningly obvious how dangerous this trip is. I'm told not to worry about the sharks, it's the barracuda that you really have to watch out for. I had no idea what I was getting myself into.

DAY 4. We've barely begun shooting and we're already a day behind. It seems like the crew should all be in the emergency room instead of working. The food is getting worse and worse. It's okay, I can survive on Oreo's and coke. I'm not the only one with that idea and we run out of coke.The director is screaming at everyone, his wife's the bitch from hell, we're hungry, we're tired, we're sunburned and mosquito bitten- and we haven't yet begun to fight.

DAY 5. Sunrise. Sautéed squid for breakfast. I'm not the only one to opt for crackers and water. My room smells like moldy socks. No maid service or laundry service ate this resort (Except for the director and his wife) It's raining, it's pouring, and we're hiking across rivers and up treacherous mountain trails to shoot a waterfall scene. We sit muddy in the cold rain waiting for hours for it to stop. Everything hurts. A big moral booster. After we drag ourselves and a lot of big, heavy equipment back down the mountain and through the river a couple of miles , it's a treat. Burgers. A long way from being as good as Mc Donalds, but they're here, they're familiar, and they're not fish. We're happy with the burgers.

DAY 6. The crew is sick. They think it's funny exchanging vomiting and diarrhea stories. I guess any amusement is good. The director is a bigger asshole every day, screaming at people who can barely walk. The first aid kit is almost empty and the nearest pharmacy is an eight hour round trip to Caracas. So far we've had 1 dislocated hip, 2 back injuries, spider bites, countless mosquito bites, various nasty unidentified stings and bites, sunburn, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, cuts, scrapes, etc. I wish I hadn't listened to the director when he told us that shots and malaria pills weren't necessary for this area. Obviously he was just too cheap to pay for them. I found out him and his wife got all the shots. I guess the rest of us just have to cross our fingers and hope whatever we get goes away quickly.

DAY 7. We're prisoners in the posada. Between meals, there is only coke and water. Lunch was sandwiches with one piece of meat between two stale pieces of bread. All things considered, it wouldn't have been that bad and some of us wish we hadn't missed it. There's a conspiracy forming to find out where Nick and Kelly are hiding their secret stash of Gatorade, Cookies, and chocolate bars. Even civilized men revert to primitive means when they're starving. The first wave to get sick are hungry now, haven't eaten in days. For the second wave to get sick food isn't an issue. Tension runs high, tempers are flaring. The director is no longer the only person prone to outbursts of rage. Only 3 more days. We can do anything for three days, can't we.

DAY ???. The days are running together now. We finished shooting at 3 a.m. and had to leave to shoot again at 6 a.m. I guess sleep is one of the last necessities we need to prove isn't really necessary. Nick and Kelly and a few others have been calling one of the actresses a bitch for days now. I just don't see it. I think everyone's holding up really good, considering. The fact that no one has been physically assaulted is amazing. Maybe it helps that the biggest guys have been the sickest. Well, bitch or not, things went to far today. "The bitch" has been writing her name on her water bottle, and Nick thought it totally amusing to spit into her water bottle. We just crossed over to a new realm of disgusting and I'm just walking around numb until it's time to leave.

THE LAST DAY. The director and his wife are leaving for town. We wish we weren't being left behind for one more day, but the end's in sight and the main objects of our hostility will be gone. We can hang. The production manager is finally able to wrangle a jeep and takes us into town. It's only for an hour, and it's the seediest little town you can imagine, but we love it. The production manager buys us cold sodas. Whatever kind we want. And cigarettes, and rum. Rum will have to make a good souvenir, there aren't many choices and we can't go back home empty handed. We walk the two blocks of the beach and pose for pictures together as the sun sets. We're refreshed, happier than we've been since we got there. We should have done this days ago.

THE WAY HOME. We don't care about the bumpy jeep ride, we are too exhausted to really appreciate a real restaurant with real food and a hotel with hot showers. We can finally make a phone call for the first time in two weeks. There's a dinner we're all invited to at the hotel, and most of us show up, but what can this even begin to do to make up for the last two weeks. The new gold and diamond jewelry the director and his wife are wearing that they bought in town today, we can't help wishing that money had been spent on some of the simpler things, like food for the crew. We can't help but wonder why they've never once asked how anyone was felling or how anyone was doing. We can only hope we never become people like that. But, We're focused on one thing and one thing alone. Tomorrow we'll be HOME AT LAST.

9/3/00

John Decker responds: "I was in Venezuela. My take - there wasn't enough food the first couple of days. When people got to work, blood sugar dropped. We said, we need more food and this is what we eat. And the food got better. And we got more of it.

"There was nobody with their head out the window puking on the ride. Lots of people got carsick but I did not see anybody puke.

"It was a porno shoot in a third-world country in the jungle. Which part of this should be a surprise? People had no idea what a third-world country is... People tend to get used to what we have here.

"Ok, there was no hot running water. At first, it is a shock to the system and then fast it becomes very welcome. I mean, it is 110 degrees outside. After you finish a sex scene, you're overheating and dying. Cold water is your friend.

"Yeah, tempers flared between a lot of people but you can expect that. Two weeks in the jungle, it is amazing that nobody decked anybody else. The confrontations never became physical.

Decker: "Everybody busted their asses to make it work and everybody survived.

"Shooting on location always has its down side. Punch "Venezuela" into a search engine on your computer and it will tell you everything you need to know about the country. It was no big surprise. The problem was with communication. I was told it was a resort on the beach. It was not on the beach. And other people read more into the word "resort" than they should. It is true we only had one towel for the duration. There was no hot water. The lack of phone access was a pain.

"Whoever wrote that was being way too hard on the director's wife. She was not a bitch.

"There were lots of personality clashes.

"You've got a lot of people and a lot of things going on over eleven days. Personality clashes will happen. The heat will get to some people. But tempers did not flare there more than on any shoot. I've gotten into much greater altercations on three day shoots here where conditions were fine. People just weren't ready for where we were going and what we were doing.

"There was a food issue. The squid breakfast thing, ok... And I was the one who was a pain in the ass about the food. I eat a lot here of heavy American foods. And you get down there and they are tiny little f---ing meals... I was shooting a scene on top of a mountain when my hypoglycemia kicked in. And I was about to pass out and fall off the mountain. So when I got back, I said, ok, food. Real food. Carbs, protein. Lots of serious food. And they did. They started feeding us much more.

"They were feeding us their portions. Americans don't eat Venezuelan portions. We eat big hearty meals, especially considering the crew working long, hot days in the heat. The male performers were me, Dale DeBone and Evan Stone. These are not guys who eat small meals. Particularly when we're pounding out scenes in the middle of the jungle.

"It wasn't that bad. It was what you would expect from a two-week porno shoot deep in the jungles of Venezuela. People expected it to be a vacation.

"Any complaints I have are just indigenous to the jungle. There are too many bugs. Duh! It's a jungle! It wasn't bad. You check your room when you go to bed. You chase them out. Yes, there are fruit bats on the patio but they are harmless. The most dangerous thing we found was when one of the crew got hit by a wave.

"Other than that, the greatest catastrophe was mosquitos and no hot water."

Luke: "Are you still producing?"

John: "Yes, I've got half a movie shot that I am putting together now. It is a feature. I'm taking off for Europe again in a few weeks and shooting there."

7/7/01

Ava Vincent Marries John Decker

From AVN.com: Adult performer Ava Vincent shared with AVN.com that she recently married fellow adult performer John Decker and just wrapped up a feature for Wicked Pictures. The busy performer is the August 2001 Penthouse Pet of the month, and plans to keep her schedule open for Penthouse appearances and perhaps some honeymoon time with her new husband.

In 2002, Decker left porn. In 2003, Decker lost an eye in an accident.