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On May 11, 1998, Luke met Gina Ryder and her hubby Joe two weeks after they entered porno. I wrote this:

From San Antonio, Texan Gina Ryder entered porn near the end of April, as the industry struggled with its most serious HIV outbreak yet. Ryder stripped in clubs for 18 months "and was ready for the next level. I had gotten to the high level of dancing… Now I am working my way up in this world."

In February of 1998, Gina got breast implants for $3800, moving to a 34D. "I've had nothing but positive results from it."

Her favorite video so far is Tales of Perversity (with Brick Majors) for Elegant Angel's Marc Wallice, shortly before my news of his HIV + positive status hit the internet.

Condom only Gina plans to be in the adult industry for the long haul to make as much money as possible. Her stocky briefcase holding boyfriend Joe stood beside her as we talked. "I don't know how long I will insist on condoms. But while I am new to the industry. I am still learning who is who, learning who injects… Who does drugs… "

Joe and Gina have dated for three years, living together since the end of 1996, and engaged since October 1997.

 

"We have probably seen three porn movies in our whole life. We're not very sexual. We're just in this business for the money. We want to get to know the industry. She's in it for the name and status. Come the turn of the century, the adult industry is going to be explosive. Once we get a cure for AIDS. It won't be for the guy in a trenchcoat masturbating in a corner, rather it will be for couples. It will create strength in marriage.

"We probably have a better relationship than anyone. We are open. Men cheat, women cheat. You have to accept that. America is a great country but it needs to open up its sexuality. Even if you are married, you are going to want to have physical contact with others. It doesn't mean you are going to lose anything emotionally from your relationship. It has made us more secure.

"Now is a very scary time, considering the four HIV cases in the last few months. But when you see how it was spread, who did it and who the partners were, and it is not so scary. I am not going to name names. [He seems to be referring to Marc Wallice.] It's over. PAW, with its testing, has finished it. If you are stupid and are not going to take tests, you should only mess with your own life, not other peoples'.

"I thought the industry would be scary with drugs, mafia, Boogie Nights, Jerry Springer show… But it is nice. We are here to make money in this billion dollar industry. We're here to make money and achieve status and stardom. There is no sneaky underground to this industry. At least we have not seen it."

Gina: "No one makes you do anything you don't want to do.

"We just got in touch with Jim South and came out. He's taken good care of us.

"We've mainly been shooting for Elegant Angel."

12/02/98

A source: "Gina Ryder has left her newlywed husband. She has no ill feelings and he treated her good, it was a decision she made to be on her own. He has bugged her often for a return of his love but he is out of the picture. She's now with T.T. Boy. Gina is also housing Shay Sweet..."

12/03/98

Gina Ryder has rocketed to porno prominence on the strength of an intimate connection with World Modeling agent Jim South, says a source (who says she is a fellow female performer who wishes to remain anonymous). Jim, Gina and Chuck Martino say the charges are nonsense.

Hours before I published anything, I sent the charges to Jim South at World Modeling. I hear that the reason he did not want to respond was that he did not want to give me added fuel to burn him with. This web site has aired numerous charges against the polite, intelligent and hard working Texan.

Sin City's production manager Chuck Martino, whose ex-girlfriend Shay Sweet lives with Gina, says the charges are nonsense, motivated by jealousy. Chuck spoke with Jim and Gina Wednesday and he says they are bewildered and annoyed by the wild charges.

Wednesday morning I received this E-mail from a female performer: "I'm upset at how close Gina and Jim are getting due to the fact that Gina is supplying Jim with oral pleasures one or two times per week. Gina Ryder's bragging consists of how every girl in the business is a dumb bitch giving up their assholes as fast as they give up their cunts. She states that she is all condom and no anal and is further ahead in her career because she has people in the palm of her hand by using her brains and pussy the right way. She stated everything here is politics. I am friendlier, bubbly and know how to make these directors think on my side. It is all so stupid how easy it is when you f--- the right people and I will f--- who I have to just to beat out the next girl. She also states that being drug free allows her to outsmart most everyone in her one main objective, her stardom and that every girl in this business either smokes pot or some other drug and that f---s them up. Her reasoning behind the blowjobs for Jim is that it has motivated him to get her more work and that is a fair trade. She slammed so many other actresses it was literal suicide. She also stated that she has a scapegoat for anything that is against her. Whatever that means."

I had an IM conversation with my source Wednesday evening.
FEMALEXXX:    how much longer before today's news is up?
Luzdedos1:    i'm checking it out, thanks
FEMALEXXX:    meaning?
Luzdedos1:    how are you?
Luzdedos1:    i emailed jim south, had someone talk to gina ryder etc
FEMALEXXX:    hmmm. i see
FEMALEXXX:    you will get denials you know that.
FEMALEXXX:    i have first hand knowledge trust me
Luzdedos1:    yeah, i guess... how sure are you about thisinfo?
FEMALEXXX:    very sure.
FEMALEXXX:    it's no different than the rumors you wrote about jim and other blowjobs
Luzdedos1:    yes, this is happening in present, the other stuff was in past
FEMALEXXX:    gina is fooling a lot of people. that's why she got rid of her husband. check out reb's office. she is registered there behind jim's back. she makes it out to be so loyal to jim ask reb if gina is there and then ask jim if he knew this. she is sly
FEMALEXXX:    yeah it is happening.
Luzdedos1:    fascinating...
FEMALEXXX:    it's true. go to reb's tomorrow.
FEMALEXXX:    don't reveal me. or you can lose alot more
Luzdedos1:    do you have any reason or personal problems with gina...has she been decent to you? i will keep you anon
Luzdedos1:    can i say a fellow female performer?
FEMALEXXX:    she is sickening. she walks around all bubbly and friendly and is a two face.
FEMALEXXX:    yeah say fellow female performer
Luzdedos1:    hmm, thanks
FEMALEXXX:    gina even had dinner with him and the poker buds.
Luzdedos1:    right
FEMALEXXX:    she is a real smart girl stealing work by f---ing for free
FEMALEXXX:    when did you send someone to chat with her?
Luzdedos1:    how do other female performers feel about her?
Luzdedos1:    i emailed jim this am...and then things developed on their own...and folks called me, called her...
FEMALEXXX:    chuck called gina? that's interesting.
Luzdedos1:    yes, chuck called me this pm to talk about gina/jim
FEMALEXXX:    what were his feelings on it?
Luzdedos1:    he's pro gina, if you gave jim a bj, would it help you get work?
FEMALEXXX:    No cuz he really likes gina in a different way. it is so obvious.
FEMALEXXX:    did you get any responses about her and tt boy?
Luzdedos1:    tt boy is out of the country, so that sounds strange
FEMALEXXX:    i know that she went out with him two weeks ago then and a week before that. her husband found her with hickees and rug burns. that's what started the mess she says her husband let her go out with him
FEMALEXXX:    did chuck talk to her?
Luzdedos1:    yes
FEMALEXXX:    today?
Luzdedos1:    this pm
FEMALEXXX:    hmmm she denied it?
Luzdedos1:    yes
FEMALEXXX:    she is on a set today.
FEMALEXXX:    for legend
FEMALEXXX:    i thought you printed the truth. everything is a cover up. boy i am disappointed in you LOL
FEMALEXXX:    well. what was her response?
Luzdedos1:    she denied it all...it is sucha touchy issue, 'cause all i've got is one source, you saying x... then others saying y...so it's tough...
FEMALEXXX:    well. you have printed far far far more touchy subjects. this is fact. i would just print it and watch. then go to rebs and print that proof tomorrow. it is there. you will have that to back up this. trust me. remember i advised you about the adult check on your site. i am looking out for you as well. just print it today. you will uncover another scam
Luzdedos1:    thanks,
Luzdedos1:    other scam?
FEMALEXXX:    just make sure you reveal that she is registered at rebs behind jim's back. jim thinks she is an angel.
Luzdedos1:    good point
FEMALEXXX:    go to reb's. trust me, LUKE
Luzdedos1:    i WILL
FEMALEXXX:    print it today. i love this stuff. LOL
FEMALEXXX:    yeah. Gina says TT f---ed her so rough she was scared but enjoyed it. she believes he raped her but she liked it gina feels tt raped gina (herself) because she thought it would just be a date, gina got scared but let him do it and later liked it
FEMALEXXX:    that's what got her husband hurt gina came home all roughed up.
FEMALEXXX:    kinda date raped. don't get carried away on gina LOL
Luzdedos1:    have you been raped lately?
FEMALEXXX:    Gina is a weirdo. she acts very friendly but her husband told me she used to freak out at home and break a lot of stuff. she would throw him out while driving and s---. LOL
FEMALEXXX:    no i have not been raped. dork
Luzdedos1:    ok
FEMALEXXX:    i want to check out her attitude once it gets out.
Luzdedos1:    thanks
FEMALEXXX:    her little lie is coming out. i love it. she always goes to the back room with him and comes out about 10 minutes later. NO LIPSTICK pretty f---ing obvious LOL
FEMALEXXX: He is gonna have her go with him personally to avn awards. I tell you she is a player. Conniving.

Martino says Sin City will shoot four gorgeous new girls in the next two weeks. "Two are from Texas, one 19 and one 20. Both are latin. Natural. They're to die for looking. They can't wait to f--- in movies. They did their first one yesterday in Texas and they're coming out here Monday. And we have one from Georgia, drop dead gorgeous. She's coming out on the tenth. And the girl from Florida looks like Janine. She's 5'10, big blonde hair, big tits. Beautiful. Coming to work for me on the 13th and then for the White Rabbit movie (Alice in Wonderland) on the 21-24th [of December]. Sunset Thomas has the lead. Also stars Jill Kelly, T.T. Boy and Nina Hartley.

"Poor Gina Ryder," said Chuck Wednesday afternoon. "Watch it Luke, people are using you. She just broke up [with her husband]. Those things that you are writing about her are not true. I hire her all the time. She's not blowing Jim South. She gets work because the girl does a great f---ing scene. Jim South has never even told me to use her. I've shot her ten times. She doesn't use drugs. She's a good person... She shows up on time. She's very professional. She's one of the girls in this business for the right reasons.

"If you really love someone you lent them go. You don't talk s--- about them like a kid. That's sad. The only way he can get through [to Gina to hurt her] is through you. People are using you to get back at people they're mad at...

"Now, her ex-husband is back in Texas because he doesn't have a choice. Is this worth hurting her career when it's an ex-husband telling you this? To ruin someone's reputation over hearsay is wrong. You're fulfilling his anger.

"He emails her vicious s--- all the time... She knows where it's coming from. This is a nice girl. Everyone likes her. I understand why he's doing this. I'm human. But it isn't right.

"Jim South does not tell us which girls to use. We want to see a picture and we want to shoot the girl. Jim doesn't want to get involved in this... It's stupid."

12/08/98

Gina Ryder writes Luke: "I would like to clear up some issues that have been previously printed on your site. I do not believe that I am better, smarter, or better looking than other girls in the adult industry. I believe that in making the decision to get into the adult industry it shows that the individual has courage, strength, and dignity. We have made a choice that will effect us for the rest of our lives and have made the choice to be in the adult industry based on our own feelings and not on what society has portrayed. Therefore, I do not think and would never say that a girl in the adult industry is a dumb bitch. I do not think that a girls ability to become a star is based on whether or not she does anal sex, or does drugs, or even if she does or doesn't have breast augmentation. It is based on her ability to be reliable and to perform.

"I have no reason to attack talent with such trashy statements that have been printed on this site. I do not judge a persons character based on gossip or rumors. I make my decisions based on my own personal experiences with that individual. And in doing that I have found that there are a lot of unique and wonderful individuals in this business and that the rumors are basically b.s. Moving on, I do not and have not provided Jim South with oral pleasures and I do not f--- for free or use my pussy, cunt, or mouth to get work. I am registered with both Reb at Pretty Girl International and Jim South at World Modeling and I have no reason to hide that from anyone. I was also briefly registered with Damien Michaels.

"I do presently and have in the past had lunch and dinner with Jim South, along with other directors and talent. And yes I have accepted the invitation to sit at the World Modeling table for the AVN awards show. I would like to clear up that I have f---ed TT Boy, however, I was NEVER RAPED. I don't believe that he wants or needs to do that to anyone. As far as my marriage is concerned, I am separated and I am in the process of getting divorced. I did not leave my husband for PORN; my decision to leave him was based on other issues that I do not wish to discuss. Since the separation he has said and done many harmful things including fabricating lies that have been printed on this site. I would like to end this by saying that I am not interested in outf---ing or outacting anyone. Therefore, I will have to decline the offer to have WAR with any talent."

12/11/99

Luke got suckered a week ago according to this email from Joe Tovar (JosephLouis@worldnet.att.net), who says he's the ex-husband of Gina Ryder:

"Gina Ryder did not state any negative remarks regarding talent. She has never given free sex in regards to getting work. She did sleep with TT Boy which was arranged totally by her husband allowing her to have the freedom she deserves. Gina Ryder never gave Jim South oral pleasure in return for work.

"How do I know this? I am her husband. I am the immature, selfish individual who intitiated the whole rumor. I apologize deeply to Jim, TT and most of all Gina. There is no reason for such behavior and I stand here facing up to my ridiculous actions. I have known Gina since she was 18. She is the most sincere, honest, compationate person that I have ever known. I won't brag about her scenes or her ability to act because there is no need to and that is not the capacity that I know Gina in. She loved me dearly and respectfully. I tried to return that committment but failed and in a childish fit of anger and grief I retaliated against the only person that has ever affected my life in a positive manner. Gina is dedicated to humanity and friendship. She is probably the only woman I know that can define love without any regards to sex or acts of sex. I did not have the mentality to separate the two and if I had I would be by her side now enjoying her smile and warmth of heart. She is professional, dedicated and above all HONEST.

"I challenge any director to take the risk in giving her any role in any scripted scene. She will prove to be reliable, pleasant and treat the entire shoot as the business it truly is. There is not a perverted bone in her body and I regret that she gave up 3 years of her life to a man she believed was the "right one" and turned out to be the most opposite of that. Hell hath no fury like a woman scorn....Hell did not know Gina.  Considering what I have done she kept her cool and continued to acknowledge my existance. I don't write this for pity, for redemption or for a response from Gina. I write this because it is the right thing to do and Gina deserves it. Success should go her way not because she demands it, but because she truly earns it. I only regret that I learned about love and trust from Gina way too late. You have to realize that I could have kept my mouth shut and let this go on. I risked my humiliation in one last selfish attempt to keep a tiny bit of friendship between Gina and myself. That should let everyone know that she must be one hell of a person to want to just be friends with. The only fools out of this scenario are Heaven, her husband and Me. I hope this closes the book on this drama I created. Good Luck Gina!! Love, Joseph"

How did Luke get suckered? Because all the previous information the Gina source gave me was correct. The source batted about 8-8, and so, reluctantly, after phoning around (and emailing) the parties concerned and those who knew them, I eventually ran the nasty accusations.

Brock Leigh: "First of all to Gina I am sorry for the s--- I said I was only defending my wife and other friends I have in this business. Now to your ex-husband the only FOOL is you I only defended the women I love and if anyone writes s--- about her then yes I am going to speak up.You are a "SICK f---"to even post something like that. No matter what happens between me and my wife I would not even think about tring to ruin my wife's life like that.Not only did I speak out I have talked to a lot of women in the business that did not take to kindly to it either but just didn't say anything about it.You have taken this to far when you said that she was calling women in this business "dumb bitches" you started a lot of bad feelings towards her not just from me and Heaven but from other women in the business that she has to work with. It's too bad that you did not just walk away and leave all this behind you, but no you had to start s--- with her and say s--- about her to get other people fired up against her. So the only FOOL is you not only did you hurt her with words you have upset allot of people because of your lies!!!"

Joe Tovar replies: "My only response to Brock is that you are correct. It was a sick thing to do. You are no fool now that you admit sorrow for the remarks. It takes a man to admit fault. You stood by your wife and educated me on what would have been the noble thing to do myself. Enough. Let it go. I am now back under the rock I crawled out from and the only thing important is that the truth is out. Gina Ryder is no one's enemy. If anything I am the only enemy she has and I concede to my own faults. Now let success rise and dreams come true. Foolish games are through. The sooner this ends the faster people heal."

6/24/99

Porn star Gina Ryder now only does girls due to her current relationship with Kevin Beecham, owner of Midnight Video and KBeech. "I think that is so curious," says a source. "That's one of the reasons she dumped her last man. I guess money makes the difference. Her ex-husband was constantly depressed [by her porn career]... and wanted her to stop and move home, have kids, blah blah blah. She slept with TT Boy and decided her hubby was a bad lay... She liked f---ing too much to give up porn.. now she quits boy/girls for Kevin... Go figure."

12/23/99

I hear that Gina Ryder has broken up with Kevin Beecham, owner of KBeech.

Gina, Tina Cherry, Violet Love, Shay Sweet and Gina Ryder all hang together. They all have identical tattoos on their little finger. Tina plans to write a script around the tattoo for Sin City shooter Michael Raven.

1/28/00

I talked with Shay Sweet and Gina Ryder at 10PM Thursday night by cell phone. They were driving back from performing at a bachelor party at a luxury home in Dana Point, Orange County, overlooking San Juan Capistrano.

George Mactier wants to know: "Re. Shay Sweet/Gina Ryder bachelor party in Capistrano: Were there swallows?"

People can book Shay and Gina for shoots and bachelor parties through Allure at 661-294-1115.

I wince when I talk to the girls, because I know how often I've printed gossip about them without ever getting their side. How often I've allowed their ex-lovers to pound them, without mercy, on my site.

I've been too embarrassed to get their side. How do you politely ask, 'I hear that you're going to be DP'd by black guys?'

XXX: "Shay says she's now a human being. She has her own toys. And she can talk now. Shay's singing the Tom Petty song 'Free Falling.'"

I try to talk to Gina Ryder, but Shay Sweet starts yelling in the background. They're intoxicated.

Gina: "Ohmigoodness, it's the first time I speak to you."

Luke: "We've met briefly on a Michael Raven set."

Gina: "Yeah, and you've written a lot of s--- about me."

Luke: "True."

Gina: "We know how that goes. That's great. I totally appreciate what you do. I am just my own person. I don't mess around. I know how you run your site and people write s---. But I'm pretty honest..."

Luke: "That's very generous considering how people have gone after you through me."

Gina: "You get used to it and you kinda go with it. This business is never-ending. People will say whatever they want. I've enjoyed it. It's fun. It's interesting how many people are captured by what it is that you do, especially being Shay Sweet's roommate. She's my best friend in the world. We're on the same level."

Luke: "You guys are always showing up in my column."

Gina: "We're always laughing and going, 'Do you think people talk about us that much?'"

Luke: "I don't even have the heart to ask you about it when they talk about you, half the time."

Gina: "That's totally cool though. If you need to call us and ask us, then you call us and ask us."

Luke: "I just haven't had the heart."

Gina: "I knew that because after I had my whole big thing with my ex and I was around you, you would not even speak to me."

Luke: "I felt terrible."

Gina: "I knew where it was coming from and I can deal with it. I have nothing to hide... These people come to you and try to tell you that they have the whole lowdown on everything, but if you sit down with us, you'll know the truth."

Luke: "What I try to do is keep it funny. I take their exact words and usually people find it amusing."

Gina: "You can produce our Harley Davidson movie. And do your first boy-girl-girl, during Hanukkah.

"Shay and I have been roommates since last November. We've been doing a bunch of paintings and crafts. We live out in XXX, away from the Valley. And we come home and spend the most amazing time doing crafts, and rollerblading in the evening. Shay's doing a mirror that looks like a window. She's putting all these gems and rhinestones into it. And I've been doing tables for my computer table... We're looking at doing live feeds from our apartment."

Luke: "Didn't you guys all get your little finger tattooed?"

Shay yells: "We all got one but we're [Gina and Shay] the only ones who deserved it."

They tell me about their tattooed finger club with Tina Cherry and Violet Love. Shay's feelings oscillate between hate and love for Tina and Violet.

Shay Sweet, grabs the phone and says: "Tina Cherry is a cunt. I hate her. She's a bitch. Cunt. She wants to look like me so much. But f--- her! Her tits are too big. Her pussy smells and she looks like a cigarette. I'll kick her ass. I don't care... She's a bitch. Whore. She talks s--- about us.

"Her husband Greg, he f---ing sucks too. I will never work with him or her... Tina Cherry sucks my cunt. No one sucks my cock better than Tina Cherry. Tina Cherry can lick my ass.

"No one sucks my cunt better than Gina Ryder.

"Chuck Martino was supposed to have a really cool birthday party with us... But he was totally f---ed up and really stupid. He would've had a cool birthday party with us but he didn't play it like he was supposed to. He probably had his birthday party in his car.

"He wanted to do a threeway with me and Gina. And we turned him down."

Gina: "Chuck found out that I was supposed to have my birthday at Hustler Hollywood... Chuck talks s--- about me. And he says, 'We'll celebrate our birthdays together because we're both Acquarius. But Shay can't be there. That's not cool because Shay is my baby girl and I love her and I will do anything for her, no matter what Chuck says.

Gina: "People talk s--- about us and Shay Sweet is such a sweetheart. And Tina talked s--- about her. Shay called Tina the other day and Tina hung up on her. If people can't deal with the truth, that's cool.

"We're just all happy. We're going to be making money one of these days."

Shay comes on line: "Originally, it [the tattoo finger club] was me and Veronica [Violet Love?] and Sharon [Tina Cherry?] but we're the only cool chicks out of the whole thing. They f---ed us around. f---ing Tina Cherry is a cunt. She talked us into getting her tattoo. We didn't want to do it but she talked us into doing it. Linda [Violet Love] didn't want to do it but we talked her into it too and she knows that we're f---ing cool, that she couldn't say no."

Gina: "I'm not going to talk bad about anyone. They're all my friends and I'm not going to talk s--- about them."

Luke heard from his sources at the State Department that Violet Love replaced Gina Ryder as the woman in the his life.

Luke to Gina: "Are you guys friends with Violet Love?"

Gina: "I haven't spoken to her since the whole Kevin Beechum thing. That's ok. Life has been really good since then."

Shay: "We have nothing to say about that whole situation."

Shay: "We're happy with everyone and we're going to hang up now. We don't have anything bad to say about anyone."

I heard that Shay was feeling lost in the shuffle at Sin City and was not getting enough publicity. But when I checked with Sin City, I heard that they had booked her for many PR opportunities and she did not always show up or return calls. This week the TV show Blind Date called Sin City to use Shay.

1/30/00

Gina Ryder's ex-husband writes: hey luke. i would love for you to print this...not too sure how gina will react to this, though... but i have to say my peace.. she just called me about an hour ago..(midnight san antonio time) SHE IS TOTALLY AWESOME...we have been divorced now for almost a year and no matter what s--- we have put each other through i know if things came down to the worst i could count on her. all this "interesting gossip" about her is sooooooooo lame. she is unbelievable....so real and so much a fantastic person. she filled me in on all the stuff about kevin, violet and whatever silly things people can think about writing about all this. this drama couldn't happen to a better person, she takes it and laughs like a trooper.....GINA I ADMIRE YOUR CHARACTER...KEEP IT UP you are the bomb.

Emmett: It sounds to me like Gina Ryder's ex-hubby misses that hot, tight, ass Gina use to give him when they were married. Now he is saying all this candy, ass, nice s--- to probably get her back to his dehydrated cock. I feel sorry for the guy. I hope he knows next time that when some one gives him free hot ass and vagina he should take any s--- the woman gives him and then just grudge f--- it out of his system when he's pounding her. Take my advice Mr. Ryder. It works.

Gina Ryder writes Luke: "I was just reading your site when I couldn't help but to laugh out loud and to bring to Shay's attention what you had written. Yes, it is true people have read about us on your site and a lot of what you have printed about us has been very hateful comments and remarks that were supposedly sent to you from XXX, fellow porner, source, close source or whatever you want to refer to them as. But never did you refer to your sources as our ex-lovers until now. Thank you Luke for finally printing the real truth in this statement. Luke "How often I've allowed their ex-lovers to pound them, without mercy, on my site." Would this be referring to Chuck and Joe? Give us the real scoop from now on and don't feel that you need to protect their names especially when its ex-lovers that are using you and your site."

Gina Ryder's ex-husband Joe writes: "nothing has been written by me since december 98. what i feel or think about gina is not easy for most to understand. it's just now that i realize how much i hated being a suitcase pimp. i was sick everyday. that makes no one better or worse. it makes no one more devious or morally superior. it just makes a point of us all being different. i shouldn't write you , but i have had enough time to analyze my reactions and feelings and everytime i think i am doing something right it gets twisted to make it look as if it comes from a whole different angle. not a day passes by that i don't worry or feel remorse for moving my life to los angeles for sake of fame and profit. i lost my best friend. i would give the world to change things for myself and what i lost, but even with all that love i would still rather be alone in my new life than with gina in hers...and i am not being presumptious. i know what i want isn't what she wants. i just wanted it to be understood i am not "XXX" but yeah i used this medium to reach one person. now Luke F-rd or whoever is going to respond to this with a vicious remark or attempt to belittle my feelings.......here's your target."