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Alexa Leaving Wicked - No Longer Wants To Be A Porno Star

3/27/01

Alexa, Wicked Pictures contract girl, writes on her Yahoo club: Hey everyone! I have some news for you that some are not going to want to hear, but I think you will agree that I am making the right decision. I am leaving Wicked. Doing hardcore movies is starting to get to me. I have realized that I do not want to be labeled a "porn star" for the rest of my life.

I have been told on numerous occasions and by tons of different people, that I have too much talent, and I am "wasting" it in the adult industry.I harldy believe that it was a waste. I have been in some great movies, and had a lot of fun. I am very proud of the work I have done. I thank Brad Armstrong for giving me "Mirage" and I thank Jonathan Morgan for giving me "The Gate".

Now, I will still be dancing and doing magazine work, I just won't be in adult movies. I have told Wicked, and they don't seem to be too happy about my decision, but I think that they, too, understand. I love everyone who has helped me in my career, and I will never forget them. I may not always act like it, but I am truly grateful for everything everyone has done for me. I will never turn my back on the industry- I am always going to be a supperter of anyone who chooses this as a career move. I am very young, and I have the world in my grasp. I have a mainstream agent who has been dying to book me on "real" movies, but has been waiting for me to drop adult. So, look for me in the mainstream world. I love everyone dearly, and I hope everyone sees that my decision is the right one. Feel free to e-mail me with your response! wait4me102@aol.com

Shanefan writes: I'm a member of www.wickedweb.com and don't really like it. I joined it to see pics of Alexa and it's been a dissapointment. HOWEVER, they seem to be in the process of a major overhaul and it's looking GREAT. There's over 400 (!) pics of Alexa there as well as full length movies, clips and behind the scenes. If you were thinking about signing up, wait about a month then hit it-the enw stuff looks great. Also, Alexa is supposed to have her own site soon.

Wolverine writes: Hey Alexa, I'm sorry I won't be seeing your gorgeous self in any more porn vids, but I'm glad that your going to be doing something that'll make you happy. life is way too short, so go for all your dreams while you can.

Director Michael Raven writes: "I have realized that I do not want to be labeled a "porn star" for the rest of my life." Uh, Alexa, I think it's a bit too late. You are already labeled a "Porn Star" for the rest of your life. If you are indeed walking away, I wish you the best.

But if you think for one moment that your past will just disappear because you wish it away, then you are mistaken.

Bryan Sullivan writes: Well, Alexa, under normal circumstances I would have to agree with you - about wasting your time in the porn industry. But, you have already been in the porn industry for 3 years and x-amount of movies later; now you claim you to want to be a legitimate actress - don't waste your time - stay in porn. You've already ruined any and all your possibilities of becoming a legit mainstream actress. When are females going to realize that porn is not the stepping-stone to mainstream stardom, instead, their social downfall. Here's a few examples for you Alexa: I can count on my fingers and still have a balance - the # of x-porn whores that have gone on to be suck-cessful mainstream actresses. 2 or 3, the one who comes to mind instantly is Traci Lords, and even she has had a tough time getting parts in top dollar Hollywood Productions. Ask her directly if you don't believe me, or catch a rerun of the Howard Stern show - in which she talked about not being able to live down her porn past. Save yourself some money, honey, and fire Mr. Secret Agent Man - he can't do nothin' for you. You ruined yourself in mainstream Hollywoods' eye's. The dancing part is cool, you should have stuck to that and then tried to break into mainstream tv,film or radio. How the hell is Dennis Rodman?

BrandyAlx1: But Alexa is a porn star for the rest of her life no matter what else she might do. Traci Lords has done a number of other things, but her introduction is always "porn star Traci Lords." This is something she should have thought about before the first time you had sex on camera. I don't think there's anything wrong with what we do/did, but far too many other people do. Seven years after retirement and three years with the same employer, it still came down to "porn star Brandy Alexandre" was not suitable to continue as the secretary to the president of Forest Lawn Memorial-Parks. It's a shame, but if luck is with her, the speed with which girls are in and out of the business these days, together with the sheer volume of totally forgettable material, will enable her to at least for the rest of her life and get away with it. Unless she's just going into escorting, in which case why retire? She's still be in the same class make less money.

BrandyAlx1: Oops, I didn't read past that first paragraph. :::sigh::: why bother retiring? She's not leaving, and if she thinks doing mags and dancing is making use of this "talent," I feel sad.
BrandyAlx1: If this alleged Hollywood agent is waiting for her to give up porn, that means dancing and magazines included.

Satyric8 writes: If Traci Lords had not been in porn she probably would have never got close to half the work she has gotten in the "mainstream industry". A very very small percentage of ALL actresses can have a career like Julia Roberts etc. Your porn career might hurt you in one way and in another way could help you tremendously in getting work. You might not ever win a acadamy award,but a reasonably successful foray into the mainstream is certainly attainable Alexa. Just try not to let losers like Bryan Sullivan get you down. Good Luck.

Hey Raven, Alexa said she is proud of the work she has done. Where does it say she is "wishing it away"? Why be so negative dude? Afraid she might accomplish something without your kind? Why can't you wish her well and leave it at that?

Bryan Sullivan writes: Man, boy, blockhead or dunderhead - Michael Raven is not saying that he wishes Alexa bad on her mainstream endeavor, but simply stating to her that she will always be labeled a porn whore. I don't think there's anything to be jealous of, hell, let's look at the #s one more time, nincompoops! Marilyn Chambers - mainstream flop. Ginger Lynn - mainstream flop. The #s don't, and won't likely add up in her favor, s---heads!. But what do I know? Hell, she might be the lucky 1 to strike mainstream gold - out of the thousands of x-porn whores that tried their shot at mainstream stardom. Here's 2 more final examples Alexa: Brandy A. - from her own x-porn whore mouth, "It still came down to "porn star" Brandy A. was not suitable to continue as the secreatary to the president of Forest Lawn-Memorial Parks." Porn whore Raylene tried her mainstream hand in the world of music; when the powers that be found out about her porn whore past, what did they do? You guessed right - they fired her! , and s aid she wasn't the image they wanted to portray to young girls. Alexa, I, Bryan Sullivan, wish you all the best; but don't let horndogs like Mr. Satyric, give you false hope. Brandy A., what the heck is Forest Lawn- Memorial Parks: (a) a chain of ammusement parks or (b) a chain of pre-paid funeral plots?

Michael Raven writes: She should be proud of her movies. I was referring to her "wishing away" her past. I was NOT inferring that she did nothing to be proud of. Alexa is the one that said she no longer wants to be labled a "Porn Star". I was simply pointing out that NOTHING can ever take that label away from her. I did wish her well and truly hope that she finds the success she seeks. I know Alexa personally , believe in her talents and do not doubt for one second that she can accomplish great things. I also think it is wise to be realistic and accept the fact that no matter what agents or others might tell her, she can never erase the past. In one way or another it will always affect her for better or worse. I hope for the best.

And why would I be afraid of her success? As I read through your post I can't help but notice we are basically saying the same. I agree with you. I never said anything negative regarding her decision. I simply pointed at that the label she no longer desires will never go away. Why do you find that negative?

Satyric writes: Michael Raven, you say you were refering to Alexa's "wishing away her past". Well I wish you would point out to me where she does this because saying she no longer wants to be solely labeled a porn star isn't even close to "wishing it away". So maybe she just wants a new challenge or a new experience just like anyone who changes directions in their career. I just don't know what your purpose is informing her that she will always be known as a "porn star". I'm sure she knows that better than anyone. Is this something you have a great need to remind her of in a public forum? It's seems to me to be a peculiar way of "wishing her well".

Director Michael Raven writes: Satyric, it is a fact that Alexa has become a "porn star". She has attained a high level of fame through her own efforts and those of the Wicked "PR machine". Her many fans recognize her as a "porn star".She has performed in sexually explicit scenes and performances that are forever captured on film or video. These things will not disappear just because she wishes to no longer be "labeled a Porn Star". The fans she has earned over the last two years will not forget that she is a Porn Star. These are simple facts.

Once again I will state that I believe in Alexa's abilities and talents. I believe that she can succeed in whatever "new direction" she might move her career into. I have no "special need" as you say to make these statements in a public forum, however since Alexa chose to post them publicly I will respond the same. You seem to think she should be ashamed of the "Porn Star" label. I don't see it that way. I think Hollywood should grow up, no be so damned hypocritical and stop judging talent on the nature of their work, but rather the quality. I applaud Alexa for moving forward into other directions and wish her well, but I personally would like to see her wear her "Porn Star" label as a badge of honor and not attempt to sweep it under the rug.

Wicked Contract Girl Alexa Waves Goodbye To Porn

Alexa writes 4/3/01 to StunningCurves.com:

"Regarding my decision to leave Wicked last week, I can no longer be in the adult business. The bottom line is I was not comfortable doing it for a living any longer. I woke up every morning unhappy, and that is something you just can't do. I respect the adult industry and everyone in it, but I found out too late that it was just not for me."

"Since I left Wicked Pictures, I have really found out who my true friends are, and sadly that group is limited to only a handful. It turns out that the people who I thought were friends were nothing more than fair weather acquaintances. I put my trust in the people at Wicked, and I thought whatever I needed, either during or after my tenure at the company, they would be there to help me. It now seems that the Wicked staffers only have interest in being my friend if I have sex on film for them. So many people I had put my trust in turned out to be fake and self-interested, including sadly many of those I was closest to. I love Steve and I thank Joy for everything."

"The best thing I found in this business was a girl by the name of Red Velvet. Thank you for believing in me. From the day we met, you told me I didn't belong in this industry, and I should have taken your advice. Now take mine. Get out, you're too good for this. I love you with all my heart."

Get Alexa's full response on StunningCurves.com

Luke says: I believe that Red Velvet is a makeup girl and the daughter of Captain Bob. She was the subject of a Paul Fishbein written profile in AVN, the only one I recall of a makeup artist.

KevinM00re: I'm sure her fans will miss her onscreen
KevinM00re: but she's gotta do what she's gotta do
Luzdedos1: but no seconds thoughts about what kind of industry this is?
Luzdedos1: alexa's right, porno people are generally fair weather friends
KevinM00re: yeah I can believe that - but I've also had jobs before where my friends came from work and after having a falling out with my job those friendships become very strained

1/30/01

An excerpt from f---PaulFishbein.com: "Captain Bob, Captain Bob (no relation), you've got a lovely daughter. Did you know that your bisexual offspring (she also happens to be that 23 year-old redhead we talked about earlier) has been f---ing both Stacy Valentine and Paul Fishbein? Don't worry about your reviews, though. 'cause Mark "I'm In the Pocket of Seymore Butts" Kernes is taking care of them. (Fat-ass kernes winning the reuben sturman award is a big f---ing joke.) C'mon, everybody sing: "She wore Red Velvet, oh whoa, redder than velvet were her eyes...softer than satin her tender thighs..." In the December, 1999 issue of AVN, Paul Fishbein under the pseudonym Max Bloom writes an article about Red Velvet, the woman he was f---ing."

Luke says: Max Bloom is Paul Fishbein. Whether Paul and Red Velvet had relations, I don't know. One source tells me no. Fishbein does have a reputation for liking redheads.

4/5/01

From QuasarmanRants.com: Alexa "appears to be trying very hard not to pull a ‘Tracy Lords" and lash out at that which has given her her fifteen minutes of fame. On the other hand it does seem hypocritical to be spinning on poles feature dancing and promoting the movies which have caused her so much mental anguish. My first impression of Alexa was that she wouldn’t be in the business very long at all. In fact, I’m surprised she has been in it this long.

"Before her tenure at Wicked when she was just another fish with great gills in the talent pool she kept her involvement in the porn biz a secret from her then boyfriend who used to drop her off at video shoots which she had told him were merely single-girl photo shoots. After dropping her off at one particular "photo shoot" the boyfriend became wise or suspicious or both. He hung around after Alexa went inside and watched through the living room window as she proceeded to perform fellatio on porn performer Bart Myne. The sight being one that he was unprepared for caused him to begin weeping uncontrollably."

4/19/01

Alexa On Luke F-rd Live

Listen to Tuesday night's show. Read the chat here.

We had ex-Wicked girl Alexa, 21 years of age, on about 70 minutes into the show, right after Lynne L-patin's call.

Alexa: "I was online when Meni instant messengered me and said... I've got six IMs open and I am trying to finish all my emails and record this thing on the TV."

Luke: "What have you been doing?"

Alexa: "Dancing and a lot of mainstream work that I am not going to mention but you'll be hearing about it soon. I've just booked an independent film that will go to Sundance [independent film festival]."

Jim: "You're a real actress."

Alexa: "I've been acting since I was seven."

Jim: "Then what were you doing in this business?"

Alexa: "I have no idea.

"No, I am not going to say that. I have a lot of respect for the industry. But the business side of it is not me. I can't justify having sex on film anymore."

Jim: "Were you having moral issues with it?"

Alexa: "Yes I did. When I first got into it, I was so young and naive. I'm not saying that I am not young and naive now. All I saw were dollar signs and fame.

"As I think about it now, I don't really care about fame. All I want is to be happy. If fame makes me happy, I guess I'll learn that when I get fame. But my main goal is to mend my relationship with my parents which I completely messed up."

Jim: "It's tough on parents when your daughter does that."

Alexa: "It's very hard on them and I feel bad... I was a daddy's girl. I was always distant from my mom. It really hit home for my dad. Because I had the world in the palm of my hand. I had full scholarships to three different colleges. I went to a Catholic school and I graduated in the top three percent of my class. I had the second highest SAT score in my class - 1460.

"So no one understood why this happened. I don't want to blame it all on my ex-boyfriend because I do have a say-so in what happens in my life."

Jim: "Was he a musician?"

Alexa: "No. He was just someone who put a $12,000 engagement ring on my finger and all I saw was that ring. It basically made me stupid. I was a stupid chick. I've definitely learned lessons the hard way."

Jim: "So you were exploited by this guy?"

Alexa: "I wouldn't say that because he didn't really approve of what I did either. But he thought it was cool. When we first started dating, I was very conservative. I had no tattoos. No piercings whatever."

Jim: "How old were you when you first had sex?"

Alexa: "I was twelve."

Jim: "That's pretty conservative."

Alexa: "When I met him, I had just graduated from Catholic high school. I'd been in Catholic school my whole life.

"And he introduced me to the world of drugs and drinking. And I wanted to keep that ring on my finger and I did whatever I had to do to do that. I did do heavy drugs. Luckily I got out of that. Now I don't even smoke or drink or do anything now.

"He basically corrupted me. My dad blames him for it. I blame him partially for it. I blame myself too."

Luke: "When did you kick the hard drugs?"

Alexa: "About two years ago. Because I was literally about to die. I did Ecstacy and Coke. It got to the point where it took me ten Ecstasy pills to feel it. And I woke up one morning and I could barely walk. I weighed 93 pounds. I'm 5'5". I was completely sick.

"And I finally said, 'I can't do this anymore. I need control of my life.' I kicked the drugs at age 19. I kicked drinking at age 20."

Luke: "Many people are surprised that you lasted as long in porn as you did."

Jim: "How come you didn't become a Sin City girl?"

Alexa: "I didn't want to."

Jim: "I don't blame you. It always works out well for them."

Alexa: "Don't get me wrong. I love Michael Raven. But those girls get lost in the shuffle. They're not promoted at all. And if you're going to be a contract girl, at least be with a company that will promote you."

Jim: "How big are those things on your chest?"

Alexa: "They're 32D. And I am going in for surgery in July to have them reduced because I don't want so porno looking. For my little body, they're huge. I'm 5'5' and 120 pounds."

Luke: "How have your friends in the industry reacted to your decision?"

Alexa: "This is what I figured out. I don't have friends in the industry. I separated from the industry as much as possible because I didn't want to get sucked into the whole porno life. Going to the porno parties and having orgies and there's nothing else other than porno.

"From the day I got in, I knew I wouldn't be in adult very long. I lied in 99% of my interviews when I said that this is all I've ever wanted to do, because that is what the fans want to hear you say. They don't want to hear you say, 'Oh, I am only in this for a short period of time.'

"I knew when I got in that I was going to use the industry as much as I possibly could to do whatever it is I thought I could do, then get myself out of there to make something of myself, whether it be a housewife in Georgia or something other than someone who has sex on camera all the time.

"I knew from day one that I was never going to be the next Jenna. I just said that because it sounded like a good promotion."

Jim: "Are you going to get the tattoo removed?"

Alexa: "I start my first treatment in August."

Jim: "What did you do before porn?"

Alexa: "I trained equestrian horses."

Jim: "How did you manage to have sex when you were 12?"

Alexa: "It was my 19-year old babysitter and it just kinda happened. My family is religious and this was a neighbor... In the little circle where we lived, we all went to Sunday School together. We went to Mass together and church together. He was an altar boy. When you came in to church, he greeted you and handed you Bibles. His parents were friends with my parents and we lived next door to each other."

Jim: "How do you feel about guys jerking off to you?"

Alexa: "Once you enter the industry, you become hardened to anything a guy could say to you. I've been in the malls and guys have said, 'Oh my God, I jerk off to you every night.' And it's like someone coming up and saying, 'Oh, I like your shirt.' You form a shield."

Jim: "Hey, it's flattery."

Alexa: "I guess."

Jim: "So what did this 19-year old guy say, 'Time to get your pajamas on'?"

Alexa: "It started off as kissing and petting and simple things like that. And one thing led to another. It was a slow progression. It was for at least a three hour period while my parents were gone. The sex only lasted about five minutes.

"I was in too much pain. I couldn't sit down. I was crying. I was bleeding. I couldn't tell my parents. I was mortified.

"Then I had sex again about five years later."

Jim: "How do you feel about your fans?"

Alexa: "I feel weird over the fact that I have fans. Because I don't really think I am anybody. I'm just a girl from Atlanta who's just trying to have fun. I'm appreciative of them because they've given me enough of a name to go out on the road and pack clubs."

Jim: "The whole fan thing is based on them watching you have sex."

Alexa: "It is what it is. It is fans watching porno. It's not fans because they love my acting. It's fan of sex."

Jim: "Do you have a web site?"

Alexa: "No. I am actually working with Steve [Orenstein] at Wicked about that. Honestly, I don't know if I want a web site right now."

Jim: "Doesn't that propagate your porn career?"

Alexa: "I didn't say I was completely leaving porno. I said I was completely leaving doing movies. I'm not jumping out of porn to become a mainstream actress. I'm leaving porno because I can not justify having sex on film. So I am continuing to dance. I don't want to turn my back on an industry that has been good to me."

Jim: "Steve Orenstein is a good guy."

Alexa: "Steve Orenstein is probably the best guy in the industry. He treats me with respect. He's professional and he believes that business comes before anything else. Sometimes he puts his foot down and says, 'This is how things have to be.' What bothers me is that some owners of companies believe that a girl's talent is proved by her getting on her hands and knees and sucking the person's dick. I didn't want to do that."

Luke: "Can you watch your movies?"

Alexa: "No, I cannot."

Jim: "Were there any guys you liked working with?"

Alexa: "Only one - Brad Armstrong. Only because we had something going off camera. Some guys walk on a set and see me as a piece of ass. They treat you like a whore. They start rubbing on you...and that's not how it works."

Jim: "Did you get along with the other Wicked girls?"

Alexa: "The competition was so high that I would have to leave. Because I don't see the point in porno. Why are you competing to be the best piece of ass?"

Luke: "How did you get along with the other people at Wicked?"

Alexa: "I tolerated them. Serenity is probably one of the best business women, when it comes to selling product. Sydney Steele is the same way. I love her to death. She's not all strung out. I think Devinn [Lane] is a beautiful girl but we did not get along. She's too motherly and I'm too young. We just always clashed. She's who I had the biggest problem. I heard some things that she said behind my back and I didn't appreciate it. I didn't see much of Temptress and before I knew it, she was gone."

Jim: "Is she out of the business?"

Alexa: "I have no idea. I don't keep up with the industry gossip. The only reason I know that stuff is going on about me in the industry is that people email me every article written about me. I laugh at it."

Luke: "I always saw you hanging around with Jessica Drake."

Alexa: "I love her. She is such a sweetheart. She's also one of these women who's been changed by the industry. When they get in, they're always nice and sweet and cool. Once they sign that contract, their head goes to there. You can't really talk to them."

Luke: "You guys were always joined at the hip."

Alexa: "We were best friends."

Jessica Drake says that she and Alexa were best friends until Alexa signed with Wicked and then she never heard from her again.

Jim: "Alexa, did you ever get off in front of the camera?"

Alexa: "Twice. I did it [porn] because I loved the camera, not to get laid."

Jim: "It's easy to convince yourself that you are in a real movie."

Alexa: "No."

Jim: "Not even when you're doing one of those big Wicked movies with fire engines and pirate ships and all that."

Alexa: "When it boils down to it, it's a porno.

"I've been on two mainstream sets and let me tell you, 'It's heaven. It's so nice.' You don't have to worry about people groping you and things like that. I hope that everyone in adult gets to spend at least one day on a mainstream set because it will change how you feel about adult. And that might've changed my whole opinion on it because I have a lot of mainstream friends and I just sat on their sets while real movies were being filmed and I realized this is where I want to be.

"I want to meet my fans. But I don't want to be put on a pedastal for having sex on film. That's not the thing you worship someone over."

Luke: "Was there any single event that led you to make that announcement that you'd no longer make adult films?"

Alexa: "I think it was a mixture of hearing my mother ball her eyes out every single night, my grandparents going, 'What happened to you?' My friends back in Atlanta going, 'You could've had everything.' Me going home and reading my college acceptance forms and saying, 'What the hell am I doing with my life?' And my asking myself, 'Where do I want to be in five years and how do I want to get there?' Porn was not in my path. Porn was an obstruction.

"As far as inside the industry, while I was on Spring Break in Panama City, Florida, about six guys came up to me and said, 'I jerk off to you three times a day.' I don't want to know that. It took one guy to sit me down and he goes, 'I don't want to know anything about porn. I don't want to know about your boobies.' I want to know about you. I can see that when you're in those movies, in those eyes, you'd rather be somewhere else. He's not the first person who's told me that. He's like the tenth.

"When I worked on set with my makeup artist Red Velvet who's currently doing my make-up for mainstream, she'd say, 'You don't need to be here. You don't belong in porn.' Eversince then, I've kept my ears open to other possibilities."

Luke: "What kind of experience is it for you dancing in clubs?"

Alexa: "I like dancing in clubs."

Jim: "Do you sell your movies in the clubs?"

Alexa: "Yes. I don't have to sex on film to sell my movies. All I have to do is set them out on the table."

Jim: "You don't have a problem profiting from making those movies?"

Alexa: "As I said, I am going to use the industry as much as I possibly can."

Jim: "That sounds hypocritical to me."

Luke: "It sounds fine to me."

Jim: "That's because you're a whore, Luke."

Alexa: "If a company fires a girl, are they going to stop using her content? No. Just because they don't like the girl doesn't mean they don't want to profit off of her. Come on, that's ridiculous. That's money in my pocket."

Luke: "Alexa, how did your parents react to your news?"

Alexa: "They are very happy."

Jim: "Luke hates porno."

Alexa: "Most people do."

Jim: "I don't understand why."

Luke: "There's so much to hate. It's so inherently sleazy and degrading."

Alexa: "Yeah. There's a lot to hate about the industry. There's a lot to hate. And I am very resentful towards most people in the industry. That's why I am saying that I am using the industry. I am using it to make money. I don't really care about anyone in the industry because they don't really care about me. So why should I waste my breath? That's why I didn't do a single interview with anyone [when Alexa retired]. All I did was make a statement. I don't want to give anyone the time of day because they didn't give me the time of day. When I wasn't of use to them, it was like, 'We don't need to be friends with her.'"

Luke: "You go girl."

Jim: "Alexa, would you date Luke?"

Alexa: "I don't know Luke."

Jim: "You've seen pictures of him, right?"

Alexa: "No."

Jim: "He's a very good looking guy. I think you guys would make a lovely couple."

Luke: "Well, we both have the same view of the porn industry."

Jim: "And even though you have that view, you both make money off of it."

Alexa: "I'm moving back to my family in Atlanta."

Jim: "You guys could have l-keford/Alexa.com and you could hate and profit from porn.

"Let me ask you a question, Alexa. Luke has a problem performing oral sex on a woman. Is that going to be a problem for you?"

Alexa: "Sex is not the most important thing in a relationship."

Jim: "Whatever importance it holds, Luke's unwillingness to perform cunnilingus on you, is that going to have a negative effect on your sexual relationship?"

Alexa: "No."

Jim: "But he likes you doing it to him."

Luke: "Jimmy, please. Let's have some dignity."

Jim: "She came into porn, she must do that pretty good."

We say goodbye to Alexa.

Jim: "How can you blast this business and still profit by it? You still take off all your clothes in a club. You still have all these guys dreaming about you and watching you and you sell the very movies that you claim were such a negative thing in your life. And you still make money on it. 'Here ma, here's $200 for you. I know you were crying but I sold some of my movies today at the club when I took my clothes off and strutted around the stage.'

"Come on, you either say, 'forget about this' and don't do it."

Luke: "It's called give me porn money but don't give me porn dick."

5/14/01

Alexa Golfs In Georgia

Noah writes: Hi Luke, Long time reader, but have never written in before. I live down in Georgia, not far from Macon and last week I found out something that really shocked me. I went out with some friends one night and we decided to check out this new mini golf course with a driving range.

Well, we were about to go hit some balls, when I noticed this women that looked really familiar. She was helping some family out so I assumed she worked there. After awhile of wondering who she was, I realized that it was that Alexa girl, who used to be with Wicked!! I was stunned. I didn't know what to say. I knew from reading on your site that she stopped doing movies.

I left my buddies for a bit, ran down the street to the local CVS and grabbed one of this instant cameras. I knew no one was going to believe me, and I figured this was about my only chance to meet her. So when I got back I went up and introduced myself and she was really really cool! I was stunned! She didn't mind me snapping a few pics of her, but asked that I didn't tell anyone about the golf course. She told me she has always had a passion for golf and actually left movies so she could open up this mini golf course and driving range.

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Chris writes Luke: I LOVED the story about Alexa buying a miniature golf course. Please run more porn-star-makes-good stories.

Meni writes Luke: She didn't buy the golf course, you Moron.

BrandyAlx1: Does Meni not know what the term "open up" means with regard to businesses? It's one thing if Noah is mistekenly retelling the tale and Meni knows she doesn't own it. It's another for Meni to call the guy a moron just because they blood left his brain a long time ago.
BrandyAlx1: I also don't think it's very nice (1) of Noah to write to you when Alexa asked him not to tell anything and he did it anyway after she was so nice to him, and (2) for you to let him. And you wonder why some stars blow fans off. They have no respect.
BrandyAlx1: You know I'll get creamed for it, but damn! There she was all nice to him, let him have pictures and asked for only ONE thing in return. Yeah, we're all impressed he recognized the porn star and risked embarrassing her running up with his dick in his hand. Thank you so much for sharing.
BrandyAlx1: Then you get guys dropping to their knees thanking you for the greasy little orts asking for more. I GLAD nobody likes me anymore at this point. At least I can see it coming.

Meni writes: hey f--- face, I talked to Alexa, she said its a lie. Rob from stunningcurves.com took the pics.

7/5/01

Former Wicked girl Alexa tells AVN.com: "I know that my leaving the business was abrupt, unexpected, and not well thought out. After being out of the movie side of the industry, I realized that it was not the movies that were bothering me, it was myself. I had screwed over so many people who put their trust in me, that it felt that the climb back up to the contract girl I knew I could be, was too long and treacherous for me to handle. Everyone at Wicked believed that I had "star quality", and I did nothing but take that for granted. They got tired of giving me numerous second chances, after I had made promises to them that I did not keep. I would love to make things right with the company that basically tried to create me into a star. I know that nothing will be fixed overnight, but I am willing to admit my faults, and take full responsibility for the lack of effort on my part."

7/11/01

Steve Seidman from Adult Stars Magazine writes: While I was reading the papers I found out that Wicked girl Alexa was performing at Toosie's a local Gentleman's Club in North Miami Beach, so I decided as a fair reporter to try and get a little more insight on her leaving the business and now wanting to return. Here is the exclusive story given to ASM for PNN [Porn News Network].

ASM: You are quoted as saying hard-core is getting to me so you left Wicked.

Alexa: Tentively left Wicked

ASM: Tentively?

Alexa: Yes, I am still technically under contract. I still have the same terms and I plan to fulfill everything I need to do. I am still working with Wicked to do something that will benefit both Wicked and myself, but my priority is to complete my contract and I will not renege on my agreement with them.

ASM. You say you'll never turn your back on the industry yet you don't want to be labeled a porn star!

Alexa: Well, what I've realized is that you're going to be labeled something for the rest of your life, a doctor or lawyer, so why not be labeled something you'll have fun with! People now respect the industry more because it's labeled as a business. One of the reasons I left was because of the stress that I was going through at the time. My grandmother dying of breast cancer, my parents saying you live 2500 miles away I never see you, the scholarships from schools that I'll never bother with and also a boyfriend that never wanted me near the industry. My problem was that I never really sat down a thought out my decision and this is one of my character flaws, I do things by acting out. When I first got out things were good, I went back to training my horses, my equestrian team is third in the state right now and we're going to nationals, so all that's good. But, I've started miss the fact that the adult industry, especially Wicked was like a family and I started to see a pattern because my own family I turned my back on, I lied to them, I made promises I could not keep and I'm trying to mend that but in doing so I hurt my second family, I hurt Wicked. I've lost a lot of respect from them and while they supported my decision I went about it the wrong way. Do I miss the industry? YES. It was a lot of fun; the people are nice now there are some people you have to watch out for.

ASM: But that's true in all businesses.

ALEXA: But at Wicked I felt safe, I knew that my product was going to be top of the line. They gave me so many chances; they saw something in me that I couldn't see in myself. All the directors would sit and talk with me and said this is the way and the only other time I had this much concern for me was with my equestrian team. I do want to go back and apologize to everybody for doing them wrong. I want to work off what ever I have left on the agreement, and I do realize that I'm not getting paid but I want to fulfill all my obligations. Then I'd like to sit down and talk with them about working with them, maybe as a non-contract girl. I really want to take things slow and not make any quick decisions and not make any promises I can't keep and do the responsible thing.

ASM: What are the rumors about Sin City?

Alexa: It's just a rumor. There were two people in the industry that talked me about how Wicked didn't like you and it's nothing but a competition so f--- Wicked and me being the naïve person I decided to listen another one of my character flaws. The same day one of the people made a call to New Sensations, they asked about my contractual obligation to Wicked and I lied saying nothing, which was a lie, because I do have the responsibilities to Wicked. Someone else called Sin City and had them call me. I later called Michael Raven, there was no mention of contract ever, maybe working on a couple of films, but no one mentioned contract it was never discussed, all they said was that it would be nice to work with them.

ASM: After talking with Alexa for a while I realized that this was a 21 year old that realized that she made some mistakes and wants to make amends. She seemed to be quite sincere and all I can do is wish her the best. Hopefully you'll get to see her as she does a great show while at the clubs.