Michelle St. Marie

I am a couple weeks away from homelessness. I will be putting my worldly possessions into storage in a couple of days and after that, I will be open to relocation and paid work pretty much any place I can afford to get to. I've kept this information to myself because I figured I'd sort it out before it came to that. I need a few things and I'm reaching out to my network of friends at this time for suggestions or connections or whatever. I need paid work. I can do lots of things.

Here is a smattering of stuff I've done. I've mostly included things I've done for a sufficient period of time. I've been to college for art and English. I've been a model and actress, I've been a pro switch; a retail manager; a merchandiser/art director; a bookkeeper; an office manager; managing editor and calendar editor for an art magazine; shipping manager; vault manager for a wholesale jewelry company; I've done video camera work for adult sites; writing and editing for adult and events web sites; I've managed my own adult site including doing updates, some site design, image editing, link exchanges, marketing., etc...; worked in restaurants and soda fountains; I am a master Photoshopper, I've been a cook and housekeeper; I've done maintenence and updating of toplists and other marketing type stuff. I have musical and artistic abilities and a ridiculous knowledge of trivia and a knack for research and fact-checking.

I'm people friendly, outgoing, and make friends pretty easily. I am smart, discreet, kink-friendly, honest to a fault, and I work my ass off. I'm dedicated and (probably way too much so--) loyal. This is embarrassing, but if you can't reach out to your network, what the ---- good is this Internet anyway? If you want to respond privately, please write to babydoll@babydollbound.com Hello Universe!!! I'm offering myself up to you!! Show me your stuff!!!!

Nina Hartley writes March 23, 2006: "Babydoll is, for the moment, living in New Mexico with her mother and step-dad, and is trying to find work. I don't know when she'll get to come back to Los Angeles. She had wanted to maybe live here but, without a car, it's really impossible to do so. It totally sucks, as I don't get to see her! We do the emailing thing, and I wish I had a job to offer her, but I just don't."

Nina Hartley writes March 30, 2006:

There will be no union in porn, at least not in our lifetimes.

Yes, the business is very crowded, but that's really not the problem here. One problem is the structure of the business: an ever-churning population of eager women and a dismissive attitude toward them. It's hard enough on one's ego when a womanis barely out of high school, and it gets worse the older she is when she enters. You should hear some of the stories that Vicky Vette has to offer about her early days in porn and the rejection she got for being over 35, and she's willing to shoot b/g hardcore.

Babydoll, through no fault of her own, ran into that implaccable force of age prejudice. Few people can triumph over that. There would be no way in hell that I would enter the business after thirty. At 25, I was almost too old, which is why I took two years off my age for the first 15 years of my career.

Babydoll posts April 4, 2006:

My mom's little dog is dying.

He is very old (120 human years). He's been my only steadfast friend since I was exiled here. I'm the only one who can get him to come out from under the bed. He can no longer control his bladder, and the vet says his quality of life is not very good. He doesn't seem to be in pain, but he does get very embarrassed and hides when he has an accident. We don't want to put him to sleep. I've been crying all night long.

My fingernail fell off this morning--I've been mutilating them so badly and this one finally just ----ed off.

I like my solitude so much that it really wears me out when I have to be social all the time and I tend to need to drink to become gregarious enough to do it.