Lexxi Tyler

I've seen Lexxi, 21, a couple of times at Porn Star Karaoke. And each time I have committed a sin with my thoughts.

Next time I promise to cover my eyes.

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Lexxi, who stands 5'8", and her man Dee call me Friday afternoon, April 15, 2005.

Duke: "When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?"

Lexxi: "I wanted to be a supermodel."

Duke: "Is that what everyone was predicting for you?"

Lexxi: "Yeah. Everyone thought I'd be in some form of entertainment. They didn't think adult entertainment, but as long as I'm happy, everybody's supportive."

Duke: "What did your family expect for you?"

Lexxi: "They always wanted me to do something in real estate. They're all real religious. They wouldn't have minded if I had followed in their footsteps."

Duke: "Were you really religious as a kid?"

Lexxi: "When I was younger until I found myself. I still have my own faith and beliefs but it is not the same as when I was growing up."

Duke: "What kind of crowd did you hang out with in highschool?"

Lexxi: "The popular crowd. I hung out with the cheerleaders and the football players. I was not a cheerleader. I was an athlete. I did volleyball and track.

"I grew up in Oregon. I moved to LA when I was 15."

Duke: "Was that traumatic?"

Lexxi: "No. Not at all. I love LA."

Duke: "When did you become interested in boys?"

Lexxi: "I was chasing boys when I was in preschool. I've always been interested in boys."

Duke: "Were you a cute kid?"

Lexxi: "Yes. I had cute little curly red ringlets."

Duke: "What kind of student were you in highschool?"

Lexxi: "I was an honor-roll student. English and History were my best classes. I went to community college but I got bored. It was one of those things where I was working and trying to put myself through school. It was too much. I looked for other avenues."

Duke: "Were you a big party girl in highschool and college?"

Lexxi: "Oh yeah. I partied hard. I could drink anybody under the table."

Duke: "Tell me about the jobs you had after turning 18 until you became a dancer."

Lexxi: "When I moved out on my own, I was a manager at a gym. After that, I became a retail buyer in a corporate office (for a year). Then I wanted to make some extra money. So I started cocktail waitressing weekends at Spearmint Rhino. I also got that job so I could get my boobs done. I got my boobs done (moving from a B-cup to a DD-cup). I worked as a waitress for about a year. I took some time off. I kept in touch with the strippers who worked there.

"One day, I was talking to one of my close friends there. I said, 'I really want to make some more money.' She says, 'You should start dancing.' I said, 'I don't know if I should do that.' But I tried it and liked it."

Duke: "Did you have to take a few drinks before you did it the first time?"

Lexxi: "No. I've never had to be intoxicated while working. I enjoy what I do. I'm not one of those girls who says, 'F---, I've got to go back to the strip club.' It's very entertaining for me."

Duke: "Did you notice a change in the way men reacted to you after you got the implants?"

Lexxi: "Oh yeah. It was like day and night. I always got attention before but now it was ohmigosh, you've got these big titties."

Duke: "Did working as a dancer affect your view of men?"

Lexxi: "A little bit. Sometimes I just get irritated because guys will say stupid things. And I'm upfront. 'Just tell me your broke. Don't make up excuses.' That's the only thing I don't like. Other than that, we're all human. We all like to be entertained. I go to the strip club on my days off. I don't think anybody's wrong for doing it. I don't judge anybody for it."

Duke: "When did you make your first movie?"

Lexxi: "Everything's on my website. I haven't put out any movies yet. I have other goals right now, like trying to get into Playboy. They like to be the first ones to publish anything. If I don't sign with Playboy, I'm going to be working with Tera Patrick."

Dee: "If I can interject, she is signing with Tera Biz next week. They're just finishing up our contract. They (Tera and Evan Seinfeld) will be doing her personal management. She is not staying away, she's holding back from the movie aspect of it because we're exploring the extent to which the print can go prior to movies."

Lexxityler.com went up in January and became a membership site February 15.

Lexxi: "We put up one page and launched it right before we went [for the first time] to AVN [Adult Entertainment Expo]. We just networked. We met a bunch of people we already knew. We didn't know they were in the industry. We made a lot of contacts and got a lot of different advice."

Dee: "While I'm handling all the website stuff, Terabiz will handle the final negotiations between Lexxi Tyler Entertainment and the other companies (Wicked, Vivid, Digital), in addition to Teravision."

Duke: "What are your ambitions?"

Lexxi: "I'm not in a rush to blow up. I want to be successful like Jenna and Tera are. I don't want to be a girl who jumps in, does porn, and 18-months later, she's all used up."

Dee: "And what's your biggest ambition? As in, you want to be the queen of what?"

Lexxi: "Oh yeah. I want to be the queen of girl-girl."

Luke: "Holly [Randall] was showing me pictures yesterday of your shoot with Charlie Lain."

Luke: "It looked like you were being mean to her in the photos. You were dominating."

Why do so many people think I'm a submissive in bed? Because my general demeanor is so passive and whiny?

But that's not fully true. I'm vanilla. I don't like taking a lot of instruction in bed. I like to be the man, but not some caricature of masculinity. I don't like to perform. I just like comfort and merging.

Holly taught me to be much more aggressive than I am used to. But I was willing to put out for the spiritual and material rewards that came along with being a good boy.

Lexxi: "He's bigger than me, but he doesn't get too crazy. But as far as anyone else outside of Derrick, I have to be the dominating one.

Lexxi: "I just have to be careful of the camera angles, push the titty up. I'm getting silicone because my skin is thin. I hope silicone will take care of the ripples.

"I shot some bondage stuff yesterday for Jay Edwards. It was pretty brutal. I will never do it again. I don't mind being tied up. OK, strap my arms down, bend me over and being blindfolded, but I had a gag in my mouth for hours and hours. My jaw is really sore today. My legs were tied up. My hands were tied up. My shoulders were tied up. My elbows were tied up. My titties were tied up.

"I got through it, but it was really brutal. I can't believe people get off on this ----. And that was mild compared to the flogging and beating that other people do.

Lexxi: "That was definitely my toughest shoot. I had to be untied a couple of times during filming because I was having panic attacks."

Lexxi: "That was fun. It was probably harder for her because she had to do all these awkward positions. It was more playful and fun. We really didn't get into the pussy licking. I was bummed out about that.

"I shoot about once a week. I dance four nights a week (Wed - Sat) at The Wild Goose (near LAX), five-to-six hour shifts. I make good money. For me to do boy-girl, you'll have to make me a contract girl and give me a thick contract, none of this $60,000 a year bull----.

"I don't even have to take off my clothes [at the club]. It's a topless club and you're only topless on stage. I don't even waste going on stage. It's not worth it for me for $5."

Lexxi: "It's fun. You're like a counselor, a therapist, for all these guys... I have guys say, 'I haven't had sex with my wife in three years.' A lot of guys like me to talk dirty to them. Their wives aren't into it. They love that. They eat it up. It's just a game. It's acting.

"I've got lots of weirdo customers. One guy acts like he's a dog. He'll come in on a leash. He'll sit there and put his paws up and beg for the pussy and bark. Everyone in the club can see him. He's like, 'I want you to embarrass me and punish me in front of everybody.'"

Lexxi: "I've got guys who want me to squeeze their nipples as hard as I can and smack 'em in the face and kick 'em in the balls with my high heels."

Lexxi: "Not at all. I try not to even drink on the job. If I order a shot to take with the guys, I don't even finish it. I'll wait until they take their shot and push it to the side.

"The day I need to drink to do my job is the day I need to look for another job."

Lexxi: "All the girls are respectful of each other. There are always girls who talk ----, but as long as they are at a table and out of my way and not ----ing with my money, that's fine. Nobody really steals anybody's customers. I haven't had to beat anybody's ass yet.

"If I do the same thing for too long, I get bored and burnt out really fast. I like variety -- dancing and posing and feature dancing. I'll take off to Vegas and dance there for something different. I'll do a bondage shoot instead of girl-on-girl."

Lexxi: "No. Suze Randall really wants to do a photo shoot with us. I told her maybe after my boobs are done healing we can talk about it.

"Right now I already make good money and I don't have to do boy-girl. For me to do it, it has to be worth it financially. You'd have to present me a sweet deal."

Lexxi: "I don't know. Derrick and I have talked about it. He said, 'Whatever you want to do, I'm fully supportive of it.' I'm sure there will always be a little jealousy on both ends. We can only see when it happens. I'm sure he's not going to want details, just like I don't care to hear details. I just want to know that he did his pop shot, he stayed hard, and he got paid.

"Derrick's preparing for my surgery. He's going to take time off to take care of me. He's going to nurse me back to health. He's a nurturing guy. He's a sweetheart who looks like an asshole."

Lexxi: "The only time he gets mad is if you ---- with his money. He's a teddybear. He's a lover, not a fighter. He likes to think he is but he's not."

Lexxi: "I always tell him, 'You're always trying to save the world, honey. F--- everyone. Don't worry about them.'

Luke: "A lot of people in the industry are like puppy dogs. They want to be your best friend right away."

Lexxi: "Maybe two handfulls. I'm cool and I'm amicable with everybody but I don't talk to too many people about personal things."

Derrick: "Just the first couple of days. She needed help sitting up in bed. She was like a statute, all bandaged up. Dr. Gary Motykie is happy with the way they turned out. It will be on Discovery Health Channel. They're doing a piece on Dr. Motykie and her augmentation."

Derrick: "She's really sore because they went behind the muscle. When she got out of the surgery, Dr. Motykie was like, 'How do you feel?' And she said, 'Like somebody hit me with a truck.'

"He was happy with the surgery. He was nervous because the cameras were there. He took a lot of extra time. The surgery is normally two-and-a-half hours. He took like five hours.

"He did Dakota Cameron's surgery. He's a good guy. He's a young good-looking person who really seems to care about the way his jobs look. He's not just churning them out like an assembly-line. He's reasonably priced.

Derrick "Hell no. I spend so much time in the gym. I'm 205 pounds. I'm not a small guy. I didn't know I needed them, but thanks, I'll look into that."

Derrick: "I'll have to talk to her about that tomorrow when I'm on set with her (working with Cassie Young. Holly says she's got a really cool location."

Derek: "If I could shoot for Holly and Chris all the time, I would. They're so much fun."

"Playgirl wants Holly to do still photos for them and she keeps saying no. I said I'll do it if they take me. She says she doesn't want to take pictures of naked guys she doesn't know when they're by themselves."

Derrick: "No. I have no publication being in a publication geared for the non-heterosexual crowd. As long as I'm by myself."

Derrick: "Totally I would. How can it be gay if I'm by myself? If I can be naked on a set with 30 hardcore heterosexual men, why should it bother me to be alone?

Derrick asks Lexxi: "Luke was asking me -- when we're in bed ----ing, who's dominant?"

Lexxi: "He's dominant when we're in bed but when I'm on camera ----ing other girls, I'm dominant."

Derrick: "When it comes to the sexual encounters, it's my world. She's the one getting choked up a bit. When it comes to decisions within our relationship, we split things down the middle. I reserve my right to override her but that does not take place very often. I told her from the beginning, 'Sometimes it will just be the way I said it will be because I said so.'

"I'll get you a press pass to Lexxi and McKenzie Lee's birthday party May 25 at Club Ivar. I'll make sure you have a press pass. I like Dom, Gordon, Monstar and them but some [photographers] I'm not fond of."

Derrick: "She tried to throw darts. I was at PSK one night. I was talking to Jason, Belladonna's brother. There was a girl sitting between us. One time when I had my hand on the girl's knee or touched her, Tara took a photo. Tara said, 'I see you. Where's Lexxi?' 'See what? Lexxi's at work.'

"Tara said, 'Be good.' I said, 'My mom lives in Texas. I don't need another.' I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm not kissing nobody, grabbing nobody's ass. She had her camera, like, 'I'm going to take a picture.' 'Take a picture!'

"Jason, myself and this girl posed for a picture. She turns around and emails Lexxi, 'Are you and Derek still together?' And sent her this picture.

"First, I posed for the damn picture. If I'm doing something wrong, why would I be posing for the picture?

"I emailed Tara on MySpace: 'I don't know why you're throwing darts and trying to get sniper shots with the camera. I wasn't doing anything.'

"I wrote back: If you thinks your website is going to get some mileage out of me and Lexxi, you're high. It's not going to happen.

"Lexxi was upset with me about it. 'Who was that girl?' I knew the girl's name but I didn't know her. Lexxi said, 'This doesn't look good. You've got to be careful.'

"Tara emailed me again, 'Are you going to be mad at me forever?' I blocked that bitch on my MySpace. I don't want to talk to her anymore.

"One night I was at PSK with Lexxi and Christian and Tara came up to my table and she was like, 'Hi!' I just looked at her and talked to Christian. Bitch, you can't throw stones at me and expect me to be cool with you. I don't know what your problem is. If you're bored, go take up knitting or crocheting.

"There's a difference between running a site that has information and trying to create drama.

"I don't know what's going on with her freepornstarpix.com website but the last time I saw her, she was taking pictures with an Instamatic camera. She's not going to be getting any mileage out of me. It's a lot better to be nice to the talent than to be backstabbing them when they're not looking. Now I'm not going to talk to her. Before I was cool with her.

"If Tara's there on May 25, she's there, but she won't be on the guest list. She won't get a press pass. She won't be allowed in the club."

Derrick: "Japan was great. The female talent are a challenge because they're not used to shooting the way we shoot here. The girls here, for the most part, have a good time. They're smiling and getting off or faking that they're getting off. Nobody's walking away with this, 'I just got raped look.'

"In Japan, the girls are more used to being used. They don't turn out for the camera. They don't face the camera. We were pushing them, 'Are you OK? Are you having a good time? Are you all right?'

"The girls were all the same: 'I'm OK.' Then why are you making these faces like I am hitting you in the head with a bat?

"The first day I was there, the girl couldn't take it. As far as endowment, I'm not big. I'm not small. I'm Mr. Perfect. I'm just right for everything.

"This girl could not take the dick. I don't know how else to put it. We had to try several different positions until she could relax and we could get some good shots.

"If you have an Asian fetish, the movies we did for Vengeance are going to be awesome. We were shooting in 150-year-old Japanese houses with crazy-looking bathrooms and beautiful lighting. You've never seen these girls before. They've never shot with American male talent.

A few days ago, Holly invited me to a barbeque at her home May 29. I said I had another barbie then but I could definitely stop by.

I thought I was noticing a trend and so I invited over a dozen friends. That was my way of showing my gratitude and making the event splendid.

I gave Holly a panic attack. She had wanted to keep things small yet I had seemingly invited everybody, including a few people who hate me (I was trying to patch things up with a good will gesture).

Holly has a huge heart. She's generous with her money and time. She often feels generous impulses and offers to do things that she later regrets or forgets.

By not checking with her about how many people I was inviting (I did the same thing at a dinner Sunday night, telling my host and restaurant a dozen when 16 showed and another four were invited), I imposed on her.

To appreciate that this is a big deal, remember Holly was throwing this party at her own home. How'd you like a bunch of strangers tramping around your house and possibly stealing and damaging things and dropping cigarette butts throughout the garden?

Remember that Holly usually lives by herself. Over the past couple of weeks, she's added about six houseguests.

Remember that Holly quit drinking (completely) three months ago yet she'd be providing plenty of booze at the party for anyone who wanted it.

Now you can appreciate how Holly felt when I started naming off the people I invited.

Thompson gave me the Air Supply: The Ultimate Performance DVD which I insist on playing immediately to the dismay of Holly, her brother Rob and company.

After 20 minutes, somebody turns up Sting loud in the dining room and I eject my DVD.

My friend Cathy told me she wouldn't come to the party because it sounded too "porny." So I keep asking Luke if the party is too "porny" for him. He says, "You can't get too porny for me."

Heather's breasts aren't bigger. I'm just not used to seeing her in a tube top. Normally we go to church or synagogue together and she dresses conservatively (at my request).

At temple, Heather was surprised that Jewish guys seemed even more eager for her once they knew she was not Jewish. "I can't imagine going to church and after telling someone that I was not Christian, they would go, 'Really? I love forbidden fruit.'"

On his Playboy radio show (DVD reviews), Adam Grayson is not allowed to review gay porn because he's told that his audience is overwhelmingly heterosexual.

Joey Silvera says I'm the most honest photographer in the business. I capture how the girls really look. If they look good despite my photography, then he's eager to book them.

Martina Warren and her husband launched pornvalleycash.com two weeks ago. Her husband concentrates on the photography and marketing and Martina does the html (despite never have picked up a book on the topic nor taken a class, she says).

Martina: "It helps being Pet of the Year (2005). A lot of girls look up to you and want to be like you. Most of them contact me through MySpace. I have almost 11,000 MySpace friends. I've only been MySpaceing for about five months.

"I had a dream that I got booted from MySpace. I woke up in the morning and wondered if it was a dream or not, so I logged in to MySpace.

"I've been modeling since I was three. When I was 16, a friend built me a porfolio website online. I felt bad asking him to put new pictures on, so I just though I'd do it myself. I learned from watching him."

Holly was a generous host. She prepared food specially suited for my finicky tastes. It was delicious. She bought me a cake with name on it. She gave me a kettle and a wooden box with 80 herbal tea bags.

(Sunday night, May 28, Holly told me: "My problem in finding a gift for most people I know is what do you get for the person who has everything. My problem with you is what do I get for the person who has nothing.")

I contributed nothing but my charisma and my friends. She brought in about 30 of her people.

Holly seemed exhausted all afternoon but she maintained a kind and giving spirit.

If I did not invite you to this party, please forgive me, but as you have read by now, I far exceeded my limits on my guests (many of whom could not make it to the party because of a fuel tanker spill on the 405 South). Though Holly may appear insatiable and divine, her boundaries and abilities are of this world.

I emailed Lainie Speiser, Penthouse publicist, to send her girls and she did all that and more -- Jamie Lynn (2006 Penthouse Pet of the Year who brought her mom Lisa), Martina Warren (2005 POY), and Charlie Laine.

After a few cups of water, I talk about watching United 93 earlier in the day and how it had moved me to want to lead my country in a time of crisis. I want to be the guy in the military control room wearing a uniform and yelling, "Scramble the fighters! Get me the president! I want every flight path!"

Shay Laren, Holly and company said that on a hijacked airplane, I'd likely be the guy locking himself in the restroom and sobbing into the phone to his mother, "I love you so much."

Though she suffers from intermittent PMS depression, Holly the Superwoman maintains a stiff upper lip British-style and does not like to admit she ever needs help (she's more resistant to needing someone than I am and I was raised in outback Australia by Aboriginees). She won't take psychiatric medication and she won't listen to Air Supply. Sunday, however, she fed her dog Poe doggie downers prescribed by the vet. Without such medication, Poe would've created a ruckus, if not bitten people. Under the medication, Poe moped around, his limbs shaking. In a triumph of will over pharmacology, Poe was still too much trouble for a while and Holly had to lock him upstairs.

HollyRandall: you made it sound like a mean dog owner
HollyRandall: the reason i locked him upstairs was because of Kelle's baby
HollyRandall: i doubt he would have done anything but i don't need to take chances-- Poe isn't used to children
HollyRandall: he was happy to eat scraps and get petted by everyone
HollyRandall: his leg shakes because of that stupid operation that didn't work

Shay Laren says, "You smile more than I expected. When you interviewed me, I thought you were a grouch. You were so condescending."

Shay: "I'd say something and you'd go [in a bored voice], 'Huh huh.' I know I wasn't interesting. It was in the morning. I was in the airport. There was this little girl crawling around beside me.

"Lainie called me and said I was going to be interviewed for Penthouse. I thought it'd be some random dude, 'What's your wildest sexual experience?' You always lie about those questions."

Crystal: "Lainie said to me, what are we going to do? Get him drunk. But you don't understand that.

Shay: "I could definitely tell you were a grump. You're Jewish, so you do need therapy."

Aria Giovanni (who's shy and subdued) is Holly's right-hand man preparing for the party and cleaning up afterwards. Aria's a regular Martha Stewart.

Laren's worked four weeks straight. "I hate working for [a photographer] who's low-energy because it brings you down. Photographers who are uncomfortable with what they're doing. They'd rather be doing mainstream stuff and they hate it and it's so obvious."

Shay, 20: "Look at Rich (39yo). He looks 15. You look way older [because I wear a dress shirt and carry myself with dignity]."

I promise Shay and Crissy that if they follow me, I'll make them fishers of men.

Holly's webmaster walks up with his gorgeous wife. "I'm trying to go Hollywood dirty boy," he says, "but it's not working."

Shay and Crissy claim that their Hawaiin male friends relate to them as human beings rather than as sexual objects.

Crissy: "Not like you, Luke. You bring it up all the time. You have a big porn collection in your garage."

Luke: "I don't have much money because I don't work for other people. I want to pursue the truth."

Derrick: "Don't try to sound noble. You chose to live in a garage. You could do better and you chose not to. Just because you blog or write, you're still published in an Adult venue."

Crissy: "What barbeque are you at today? I want to understand why you chose to write about a business you claim to hate. In some way, you love it."

Lexxi: "It's all about the free porn he gets and then goes and whacks off in his garage and denies it. He's a closet freak."

Earlier in the day, I told Derrick that anyone who wanked to porn for more than half an hour a day had a problem.

Derrick: "If you whack off for more than half an hour, you're destroying society."

Luke: "It weakens the family structure. It creates unrealistic expectations in men what a woman can provide sexually."

Crissy: "Sex is very out and open in Europe and they have less percentages of rape than the US and lower rates of teenage pregnancy."

Luke: "Europeans who move to the United States and their descendents have about the same rate of teenage pregnancy as do their relations who live in Europe. Certain ethnic groups which have a higher percentage in the US [such as blacks] have high illegitimacy rates.

"Europe is not a good moral example. The United States had to rescue them three times in the past century, from World War I, II and communism. That the U.S. is such a great moral force in the world is not unrelated to America's more conservative sexual ethic."

Crissy: "Who are you celebrating with? Porn stars. You are against everything we do."

Crissy: "If you look at his site, he's making fun of us. There will always be a line in there that is very sarcastic and expresses your contempt."

I ask Shay about feminism but then she runs off to play the card game "Asshole."

Derrick: "I don't believe that anymore. To get a good scene, you have to get a good performance from the guy. If the girl is good and the guy is weak, it's a weak scene. If the girl is weak and the guy is strong, it's a strong scene. Everything relies on the male talent. If I don't do my job correctly, no matter how good you are, you are not going to look good."

Holly says that the men in porn are like Mexicans in the US. They do most of the hard work yet few people appreciate them.

Derrick: "If people are not sexually compatible, what are they? Friends. The difference between your best friend and your partner is that you have sex with your partner."

Shay's jealous at the number of longtime friends men have. "I'd rather have longterm [few] friends than lots of acquaintances. I hate it when you can't talk to someone on a real basis. Crystal is the only person on Maui I can call and say [the truth]."

I ask the table if men and women can be friends without one person wanting more.

Crissy Klein recalls the number of male friends she's had who she thought were only platonic friends until they made a move on her and when she rebuffed them, that ended the friendship.

Shay says men and women can be friends if they've had sex and become sick of having sex with each other.

When Lexxi's told she can't do something, she's liable to say: "I'm Lexxi Tyler. I can do whatever the f--- I want."