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Kendra Jade Part One Part Three From MarksFriggin.com, a summary of the Howard Stern Show: Stripper Kendra Jade Comes In. 7/26/99. 8:45am Kendra Jade is the stripper who set up and taped Jerry Springer in a room with her a couple of years back. She also slept with Mike Gange from Howard's E! show. Today she came in to announce that she'll be at The Bunny Ranch in Carson City, Nevada screwing her fans from August 5-12. That's right, she'll be giving sexual favors for money at this Bunny Ranch. Kendra said that she decided to do it to make her fans happy. She went with the Bunny Ranch because it seemed like a safe place to do it even though she'll be splitting the money 50/50 with the ranch. She said she won't turn down any amount of money. If someone comes with $50 she'll tell them what she's willing to do for that amount. Benjy came in at one point and told Kendra he had $3. Kendra told him she'd shake his hand for that amount. Howard read off some of the items on the Bunny Ranch ''menu'' which included: Lingerie show Those were just a few of the items on the list. If you're interested you can call 1-888-BunnyRanch to make an appointment. Howard also asked Kendra about her 75 year old boyfriend who was on the show with her a few months ago. She told Howard that things just didn't work out with them. He didn't call her back after they appeared together on Howard's show. Howard thought that it was just a publicity stunt anyway. Kendra swears it wasn't because the guy was sleeping with her and she didn't receive a cent for promoting the Duro 2000 crap they were talking about. Howard took a couple of phone calls for Kendra before she left. One guy just wanted to tell Kendra that she's nothing more than a whore now but then asked if he could get her business card. One woman told Kendra that she wanted to be her first lesbian experience. Kendra said she was into that and she's also in to doing couples. As Kendra was getting ready to leave she told Howard that she cut herself while trimming her pubic hair so she showed him where it was. She also showed her ass and Howard noticed some zits on it. Kendra said it's because the stage she dances on is dirty from the other strippers and her ass breaks out sometimes. Kendra also mentioned that she shot a video with Everclear that will start airing on MTV in the near future. 11/2/99 Luke conducted a threeway phone conversation Monday evening between Nice Jewish Girl and Kendra Jade. At 8:10PM, I had to leave for a Torah class but left them chatting, my tape recorder running and my phone off the hook. When I came home at 10:30, they were still talking. Kendra suggested that I email her former roadie Shaye with this question: "Kendra says you have a book that will help me find out if I am gay? Luke" Shaye replied: "Not that I can think of......that isn't something you could find out on your own?" Kendra: "I read that you were so depressed so I said to Luke, we have to call her." NJG: "He's such a bastard. He didn't even call me Sunday. And he knows I get depressed every morning before I go to work." Luke: "I was busy chasing porn stars." Kendra: "I liked almost every word you wrote because I can relate to it. A thing that a lot of people don't know about me is that I write a lot. I write a lot of poetry and music and I just think you are very articulate expressing your feelings." By popular request, here again is NJG's email from Sunday: "Sweetie, where are you? Luke, I'm depressed. I have to go to work tomorrow. I'm depressed about it. I wanna talk to you so I won't be depressed anymore, you always help me with my depression Lukey. I promise to always help you with yours. "It's like co-counseling, we do that naturally with each other you know? You familiar with RC (co-counseling)? It's very very cool. It's where people counsel each other, and help each other one to one, like you and I do. Only a little more intense. Even telling each other they love each other, etc. all within the realm of RC therapy. Very very cool stuff. So, if you don't mind, I'll just vent here to you, ok? Thanks sweetie. "Lukey, I'm depressed. I'm lonesome. I hate myself. I don't feel beautiful. No one loves me. I only hook up with guys who reject me. No one is ever gonna love me Luke. No one. I feel so alone. Mercury is retrograding. So that's kind of a depressing planetary aspect. I hate my hair. It takes so much time to look beautiful. I love my hair it is beautiful. I hate my face. I am ugly. I hate myself. I hate the music on the radio, it is always awful. I hate/love gay men. I hate them, because they don't want to f--- women. I hate them so much for that. I love them, because they are nice to women. I hate them because they've caused str8 men to be meaner to women, because of gay men, because now men think they are the greatest and are not grateful to women anymore. "I hate men who play women, I hate players and liars and cheats. I hate any man who's hurt any woman in this or any other lifetime. I hate men because they hurt women's hearts. I hate men because they don't care about us. I hate men because women raise kids alone most of the time now, because men are pigs and can't keep their penises inside their pants. I hate men because they objectify us and don't see us as real people only as breasts and vaginas. I hate men because now porn has sexualized anal sex and that really really kills women. I hate men because they have all the power, the money and the choices. I hate men because they have made our world dirty, because men have men made sex dirty, when it's not, but men see it as dirty. I hate all men. "Love, NJG, p.s. Love You Lots! You Love Me??" Hayim Goldberg writes: "NJG, unless she was in an unclean state when she gave those recently posted laments to you, is such a hole. She wants and needs love and affirmation. But let's face it - you are not going to do any of those things that would truly make her feel better about herself, and you know it... You have got to be really careful about what sort of verbal play you and she engage in. I suspect that she takes it far more to heart than you do." Kendra: "I can't have you being depressed." Luke: "Jim DiGiorgio came over today. What did he say?" Kendra: "He knew that I was menstruating so he told Rob that he and Rob shouldn't talk to me at all because I might throw things... Jim wouldn't even look at me. He thought I might explode and kill them." NJG: "I wish you would've. "Kendra, have you seen that new video by Kelis on MTV? It's this black chick and she just goes off, I hate you, I hate you, I hate you, to this guy and starts throwing everything in the room." Kendra: "I dig it. My favorite parts in movies are when women explode on men. Like in Waiting To Exhale, where she sets his car on fire. I saw American Pie last night, I laughed so hysterically. "I get invited to the prom by a 16 year old. He emailed me and invited me to his prom." NJG: "You should call Howard." Kendra: "f--- that. That's a Houston copy cat thing and I'm not doing it for publicity. I'm doing it because he asked me genuinely and he's just a cool kid. I told him he has to bring two dates. One date to whatever he wants to with after the Prom, and me to show off at the prom. Because I am not going to party after the prom because they are a bunch of kids. I didn't go to mine." NJG: "I didn't either. In high school I was too cool to go to the prom." Luke: "I didn't go either. I went camping that weekend." Kendra: "I'm just doing it for the fun of it. It's not till next May.. Gives me plenty of time to shop." NJG: "You could be married by then." Kendra: "I'd still go to the prom... I'm not getting married. I have the same opinions on men that you do. "Luke is supposed to be my friend and he prints this stuff [hurtful of Kendra]. And he knows it's not true. He knows me. He knows things about me that nobody else knows, in the whole world. Things that I trusted him with... I've trusted him with a lot of stuff that he hasn't put on his site. So, he's my friend. But, in the same breath, he posts things that he knows are not true." NJG: "I was the known anarchist punk rock bitch in the city... And people would rake you over the coals because you're known. And I would just wind up laughing..." Kendra: "But it's hurtful stuff and no matter how much sometimes I just want to laugh things off and say whatever, they're talking out their ass. This business just kills a girl's self-esteem." NJG: "Luke, those new gun pictures. You look cute, but that '70s haircut... It's awful. Part your hair on the side and get rid of the fluffy s--- on the bottom. "Kendra, you need a good comeback..." Kendra: "No, because that just eggs them on." NJG: "You should read what some of those gay guys say. They have the best comebacks... 'You mean that's the best you could do?'" Kendra: "I'm just not a spiteful person. Even when people say negative things about me... I have a best friend right now. We have been through more s--- in the last five years... The person she has a child with is my ex-boyfriend... As long as a person can say, hey I was wrong, it's cool." Luke: "Hey, I was wrong." Kendra: "Don't you think that Luke being my friend, when he knows that something is totally fake, should at least say, 'I know that's not true.'" Luke: "A lot of my female friends complain that I don't support and protect them enough. I guess it is not my instinct to try to defend people because I know from experience in flame wars on the net and off, that defending your friends is usually not effective. You're compromised." Kendra: "I've always wanted to be a writer but I am not that great at it. "This industry could kill somebody. Every day people are saying s---... These girls have to take beatings from people every day. People from normal life who think that what they are doing is terrible and wrong. And people like these jerkoffs on the internet who just want to put them down for no reason. "If it's not a film company saying she's not pretty enough, she's not skinny enough, then it's people around you, the people you look to for support. "When I lived back home, everybody thought I was pretty and was full of compliments towards me. And then when I came here, and I wanted to sign the contract at Cream, people started telling me, you have to get your teeth done because you have spaces between your teeth, you have to get your tits done because they are too small, you have to get your nose done because you have a bump in it... You have to have lipo because you're too chunky here. That sort of stuff can kill you. "I can't help the way I was born. I look the way I look. So if you want to find something to pick on me about, don't do it about something I can't change. Put me down for my bad attitude or my bad hair color... f---ing people always have to find some way to put you down." NJG: "It's the nature of celebrity." Kendra: "How many people say on a daily basis, 'that Sharon Stone is hideous.' I walk around feeling like I am the ugliest person on earth and I know that is not true. And regardless of the way I look, I know that I have other qualities that help me develop relationships with people." NJG: "Luke, I want you to say something supportive to Kendra." Luke: "Umm, I hear you Kendra." NJG: "No Luke. This is what I want you to say. 'Kendra, I think you're beautiful. I love you. NJG loves you and everything is going to be cool.' Now say it like you mean it." I start but Kendra interrupts. Kendra: "Luke, tell me the reasons why you love me?" Luke: "Umm, you're bright and sparkly personality... Ahhh, you're cutting wit. You're strong and independent... Ummm..." Kendra: "Now tell me all the reasons why you don't like me. I want to know all the reasons people don't like me..." Fred writes: "O.K. When Kendra says tell me all the reasons you love me, tell her that she's a warm sensitive, kind person, giving of herself. Although she's truly beautiful, she never lets it go to her head. Instead, she is always kind, genuine, warm and sincere. "[FOR G-D'S SAKE, DON'T GIGGLE WHEN YOU TELL HER THIS.] "When she asks why people don't like her, tell her that the internet simply attracts people who flame. If Mother Theresa or Ghandi posted on the internet, they would get flamed mercilessly. The flaming is no reflection on Kendra--it is merely a reflection on the mean spirit of people who post on the net. Tell her that you apologize for any hurt you may have caused. "[It has been said that women can fake orgasms, but men can fake entire relationships.] "Go for it, big dude. Let me know what happens. "BTW, if she asks, tell Kendra that I think she's pretty cool." Kendra: "I get violent when I'm angry but I'm not as bad as I used to be. I once cut off a girl's hair at school. "Luke, why did Rodger Jacobs leave XXXGen?" Luke: "He's been feuding with Craig who seems to get in fights with most everyone..." Kendra: "Everytime I talk to Craig, he's the nicest guy... I've never had a problem." Luke: "I haven't either, but I keep hearing from people who he's told, 'jerk...'" Kendra: "But it must be because I am sleeping with him." Luke: "I don't like to gossip ladies... Writers are very sensitive and Craig seems to have a quick temper and he keeps getting into pissing matches with writers... Then they yell at each other and go their separate ways." Kendra: "I need you to post this. Craig does not yell at anybody." NJG: "What's been your relationship with Craig?" Luke: "I've had a great relationship with Craig... Only time he got mad was over the bestiality pictures. And too much NJG on my site." Kendra: "Luke, you just get into these phases where your site sucks. We want the gossip." NJG: "The thing about the Mafia, snore... I want gossip." Kendra: "Him writing unimportant s--- is like reading the Enquirer to find out that Friends is on Wednesdays... "In the psychology books they give you in college to diagnose people's disorders, if you have an obsession with blow jobs, it doesn't matter if it is from girls, if you have a big ego, and any kind of an obsession with anal sex [this is LUKE], you're 99% likely to be gay." NJG: "That does make sense Kendra. Luke is commitment phobic with women." Kendra: "I've read every serial killer book there is because that's my biggest fascination in life. And I can tell you what would make him a serial killer. You have all the signs Luke. "The first thing is you drive a van. 98% of serial killers drive a van." NJG: "It's got to be that kind of a van, an older model, trashy, with a gate in there to lock people in." Kendra: "Second thing, his mother died. Most men who don't have their mother, they long for that bond. And they end up resenting their father because he can't give them the emotional nourishment of their mother. It's like adopted child syndrome. They usually end up resenting women or not knowing how to treat women... "Ted Bundy had a horrible mother who locked him in the basement for days... Then you have Ricky Lee Green who grew up without a mother. He had a stepmother and he cut off her head and buried it in her front yard and when the cops asked him he did it, he said because he did not want to hear her bitching anymore. "Third sign. They tend to use women. They just go through endless streams of women or stay with one woman and abuse her. Luke cannot stay with one woman... He couldn't make a commitment to a cat... He couldn't keep a houseplant alive. "Fourth. Luke hates himself so much that he antagonizes people to the point where they want to kill him. Like Mike Albo. Luke will not let it rest knowing that one day he may run into Mike Albo and he will not like what happens. Luke has a definite death wish. And if he doesn't have respect for his own life, why would he have respect for other people's? "Five. This new obsession with his gun." NJG: "Serial killers have bad haircuts like Luke does." Kendra: "It's just overgrown. He needs to lose two inches. "Six. Most serial killers can't hold down a job. "Seven. Ego. Either they just have big huge egos and think that they are the coolest and just too smart and too cunning...that nobody would ever catch them. Or they would have no ego at all, no self esteem. Luke oscillates between the two ends of the spectrum. If Luke killed somebody, he'd think that he was too smart to get caught. "Luke's inner child appears often... This pity me, love me, I miss my mommy thing. Luke, you're 33 years old. Deal with it. Name one serious relationship you've had, Luke?" Luke: "This woman I lived with in Orlando... Lasted several months..." Kendra: "I'm only 22 and I was with a guy for four years. "Luke does want to get married... Luke is in love with love. If somebody actually loved Luke and wanted to have the kind of relationship that he thinks he wants, Luke would fall apart... "Luke wants you to believe he has a big ego, but his ego is the size of a flea. Luke hates himself. If Luke thought he was good enough to do other things, he would do them... Like his acting career..." NJG: "At 33, he is not going anywhere..." Kendra: "If Luke really thought he was all that, he would push himself harder and strive harder to be better than what he is." Luke: "It's all true." Kendra: "When you feel like you lack something..." Luke: "You get implants." Kendra: "You overcompensate... Like Howard Stern always talking about his small penis. "Luke is twenty times smarter than he lets on. He lets everybody in the world think he's a big idiot. That bulls--- with Mike Albo... That's not Luke challenging Mike Albo. That's just Luke using Mike Albo for entertainment purposes." NJG: "When we talked to J.D. Considine, the guy was brilliant. Luke and I were left speechless. Luke cut the whole thing down to make it seem we actually had something to say. We had nothing to say." Kendra: "Luke claims he hates porn but porn is his life. He makes a f---ing joke out of all these porn people, exposing us for what we really are... And it's a big f---ing joke to him." Luke: "True." Kendra: "He's very conflicted about it, and no matter how he tries, he can't help liking some of us. Luke likes me for who I am. Even though he tries to hate all these porno people because he thinks it is despicable and disgusting and horrible and against his Jewish religion. Which is why he goes out of his way to trash everybody in the industry. "Or, he just gives them enough rope and they hang themselves. He loves it. He lets everybody destroy the business that they claim he is destroying." NJG: "I think Luke's making porn more accessible and mainstream." Kendra: "That's not his intention but that is what's happening. Because no matter how much he lets everybody humiliate themselves and others on his site, it is still their name in print. That's the final outcome. "Luke tries to hate porn because it is against his religous beliefs... But he can't hate me..." Luke: "I hate what you do. It's disgusting." NJG: "Then why do you watch these videos?" Luke: "It is just research." Kendra: "That's a line. He does it because he enjoys it, but then he feels guilty." NJG: "He's 14 years old." Kendra: "It goes back to his mother. She wasn't there to tell him, 'it's ok to masturbate, Luke.' It was really dirty to him. Sex and masturbation should never be talked about. "Luke has ten personalities... Luke has no idea who he is, that's why I wanted him to do these lists with me. But he won't do them. He's not serious about it. Luke doesn't want to find out who he really is. That scares him. "Some really bad traumatic things happened to Luke and if he allowed himself to feel those feelings, he might crumble. It's like being raped... You don't allow yourself to feel or you would fall apart. It's his self protection instinct. Won't allow him to dig that deep into himself. "Your first four years form who you are... I was molested from the time I was three years old. That's what I learned in life - that men wanted me for sexual purposes." Luke: "Maybe we should molest more girls early so that will become more sexually available to us." Kendra: "It was in my family, and more than one person. And I think that so much of what you learn in that time period forms your instincts. I learned to protect myself by... "Luke, this little excerpts here is not for your site... "It's very stereotypical that every girl in porn was abused. I do not believe that to be true. But I do think it is a factor in a lot of porn stars...And they just won't admit it. "At age six I was taken out of my home and put in 13 different foster homes until I was ten yo. Then I went back to live with my mother... Then one of my brothers went to live with his father and the other one was put up for adoption. I haven't seen the one put up for adoption until he was ten years old." Luke: "I've got to go to Torah class... Keep going..." NJG: "As long as he's paying for it, let's run up with his bill. "I have a brother who is 16 and I don't talk to him that much. When they took us out of the home, it changed my relationships with everybody in my life. And from that point on in my life, it changed my relationships with everyone. That's why I have so many failed relationships... "I think something very bad happened to Luke and he can't..." NJG: "Kendra, I've tried to go back there..." Kendra: "The people who did it to me, can't even ackowledge it to this day..." NJG: "See what I did to my grandfather... You should be in f---ing jail... You should be dead. I wish I could sue you for every penny..." Kendra: "I've never had the courage to confront the people who molested me..." NJG: "My grandfather is dead now and I am like, 'and, so...' My father really loved me but he was f---ed up. He was like Luke. A player." Kendra: "My father left before I was born. He told my mother to have an abortion. I first met him when I was 14 and I've seen him twice since..." NJG: "Men are f---ed." Kendra: "My mother was 15 and he was 25... You have to go through so much bulls--- in this country to adopt children... "All these people on welfare who have five kids. Don't you think that after you've had one, the state should force you to have your tubes tied? This country sucks." NJG: "Your life and my life was so much harder than Luke's life." Kendra: "I've only done girls twice, and that was recently. Now I'm experimenting... At 3AM, NJG sent me: Baby bear, you will LOVE this piece about jews and the media!! I love you!! I tried to call you at 12:30 because I can't sleep!! I want you to hold me...I can't sleeeeeeeep!!! LUKEY WAKE UP I CAN'T SLEEP!!! Ok, guess I will try to sleep...jeeez it's 3:00 a.m!!! I gotta go pee...think of me...I LOVE YOU!!! XXXXXX OOOO I love you Lukey, you need to be more EMOTIONAL with me...I will make you more emotional, you will see. I know it. I am powerful, you know that. Kendra is a very cool person. Porner: I would have laughed at your discussion with Kendra and NJG, because it is really funny. I too have read nothing but histories of sexual psychopaths for years, but I don't think you fit the profile, nor do I think you're commitment-phobic. You are very committed to your female friends -- just because your commitment doesn't take the traditional form of wedding ring and picket fence doesn't mean it isn't a commitment. If you weren't so deeply committed, it would never occur to them (or me) to think of you whenever something goes wrong, when something hurts... But the thread that runs through all this -- Kendra and her nose bump, NJG and her frustration with men, me agonizing over being betrayed and having months of my life simply ruined -- is the question: why do men do these things? Why are they so determined to hurt women who have done absolutely nothing to them? Why is it okay for them to vent their angst on us as a gender? I don't believe it is all men, but even those who aren't actively involved in denigrating women on a day to day basis stand by and watch their fellow men destroy the potential of half the human race. When I was in the van today, a female runner jogged by and the guys started hooting and I said very loudly, "And that, guys, is why I had a gun." They stopped. But we live in a world where any man can assault any woman at any time and pretty much get away with it. Physically, verbally, emotionally, legally...what have you. Abuse is abuse. I couldn't read the Hustler article, even after I printed it out, and I'm not going to buy a copy and give them my money, but it did occur to me after seeing his pictures that maybe Albo is just jealous of your darling cuteness and that you could have any woman you wanted (if you actually wanted any) and he could never have one at all.... Give love, be loved -- no strings attached. Luke: I don't understand why I have bags under my eyes and I can't seem to get rid of them. Help! Fred Freud writes: The latest addendum to the 3-way was interesting. Let's see, you have ten personalities, one of them is destined to be a serial killer, and you couldn't make a commitment to a house plant. Well, just explain to NJG and Kendra that you did, in fact, have a terribly traumatic event as an infant. It turns out that your mother breast fed you from falsies, and you never quite recovered. That explains the distance you've tried to keep from females all your life. When you were a child, your house plants ran away from home. The feeling of rejection was intense. In your adolescence, you ran into the 7-11 with a shot gun and blasted a box of Cherios. That was the beginning of your career as a cereal killer. Not a pretty sight. It turns out that you used to have twelve personalities , but two of them ran away--more rejection for Luke F-rd. Your therapist, Fred Freud, a graduate of Discount University of Culver City, has analyzed you. After delving into those disturbing dreams of yours, this is what we have ascertained. Finally, you are shocked that Kendra doubts that your work with pornography is just research. In fact, you are working on your doctoral dissertation right now. (You're getting it ready so that if you get into graduate school, you'll be ready to roll. You already have an application filed at Discount University at Culver City.) BTW, you clearly have a morbid fascination with pornography, and it is clear that you are not at peace with your inclinations and leanings. For some reason, you have adapted a religion/philosophy that is at war with who and what you are. You attack pornography, as a means of battling your central drives. It's kind of like watching Jimmy Swaggart condemn promiscuous women or women who wear short skirts, and then getting caught with a hooker. Anybody who ever watched Swaggart rant and rave could tell that he was battling his own inner demons. And here we see Luke F-rd battling his own inner demons. Dr. Fred Freud recommends: Luke, to thine own self be true. (Hamlet.) Well, that's it for our session for today. That will be fifty cents, please. 11/15/99 There was a "Tempest in a PST-Pot" (JD) when Diablo1504 last week banned Kendra Jade from IRC channel PornStar Trading. Kendra had told Nice Jewish Girl that she once went out with Diablo and he used to be in the army and is white, not black like he told NJG. I hear that Kendra and Diablo were once lovers. Brandy Alexandre writes Luke: "So, Diablo banned Kendra Jade PsT just for telling the truth? Yes, he did date her and definitely had sex with her. So many people in the industry knows this it's ridiculous to deny. Goes back to my original complaint that I was banned for no reason other than my presence caused another person to behave against the sacred rules, so instead of banning her for her hillbilly behavior I had to go. But that's their lame excuse. The real reason I had to go, and if you look in the archives this is confirmed by Mike South, is because of *my* alleged anti-free speah attitude from when I banned you, Luke, when you hadn't said anything--your mere presence annoyed me. Aye! There's the hypocrisy! They can do it to me, and now to Kendra, but it was a horrible sin for me to do it to you. It should be noted that you are permitted in any chat in which I am an op. What's PsT's excuse?" Luke held a threeway call with Kendra and NJG Sunday night and we found out that Kendra was not allowed on PST. This caused a huge debate between Mike South, Jim Gunn, James DiGiorgio and company. Mike insisted that PST's constitution be followed along the lines of "original intent of the founding fathers" while all the other porners, particularly Gunn, thought the sacred document should be more flexible and change with the times. The beginnings of trouble between Kendra and PST stretch back several times to an instance when Jade called PST favorite Roxanne Hall a "cunt." Operator VideoEd then banned Jade for months. Jade recently resurfaced on PST as reported exclusively on l-keford.com five days ago. Luke experienced the groundbreaking moment live with Kendra who was sure that she was banned. She wasn't, and broke through on to PST for about 40 minutes of graceful banter. Jade felt tired Sunday night. She has lots of washing to do Monday. She'd just returned from "shaking my ass in Michigan for a bunch of drunk guys." Constitutional stickler Mike South, fresh from brawling about ATM fees with NJG, said: "Videoed owns the channel and has proven himself fair and beyond reproach. "I seem to remember that Kendra got banned for continuously leaving saying 'f--- you guys I am never coming back.'" "When he's sober," adds DiGiorgio. Gunn: "It sounds like a bunch of bs, i really don't have any stake in Kendra being here, I just have a "hunch" that this is all bs." Delaney Daniels: "I don't think that because of "pornstar" status anyone should have a right to come in and be an ass, simply because they without threat of being banned ( not saying anything about KJ, I don't know the story there~Just adressing banning pornstars in general). James DiGiorgio: "You dealing with a dyed-in-the-wool anti-establishment type here (with me) so the whole OP concept i'm not too keen on.... all im sayin is, if i would pick one op who shouldnt be involved in the banning of KJ, or BT or some others..it'd be diablo...and i like diab..but that's my opinion. "I love a good catfight...so her calling roxanne a cunt, in my opinion...is entertainment." Sultana: "Luke in case you are wondering and logging that is, Diablo didn't ban Kendra, he just reinforced a ban ED made on Kendra. The reason Kendra even got in the channel is because she used a different ip..she is banned in chain serv and the bot when its here." 11/16/99 Porn star Kendra Jade has been banned for months from Porn Star Trading for calling Roxanne Hall a "cunt." Monday night, she wrote this open letter to the folks at PST, upping the temperature in this bitter controversy that threatens to engulf the entire porn and internet words: First of all...i would like to make one thing clear: The only reasoni am even wasting my time with this response is because ...well...I am bored. First things first: I WILL NEVER SAY I AM SORRY>I have NOTHING to be sorry for! I have seen many people say and do worse things than say f--- this room.or call someone a cunt. I would like to say thank you to jimmy D and jim Gunn for their defense of "doing the right thing" because they are fair , level headed people who did not take my side, but knew the REAL reasons behind my banning. and is me being BANNED supposed to hurt my feelings?or affect my life in some major way? so a group of the same couple of people, obsessed with nothing else in life but porn , not wanting me in a f---ing chat room with them is supposed to be some sort of punishment???!! LOL. you are too much!!! And the rest of you YOU ARE DEMENTED. HYPOCRITS. In one breath,you like me ,some of you even tell me that you feel i am treated very unfairly and that you feel badly.Yet not one of you speak up. no wonder i said f--- THE ROOM IN THE FIRST PLACE.and now you say apologize???!!! f--- YOU.f--- YOU .f--- YOU. i seem to recall a few of you sending me things, bitchy letters about why your boyfriend was lying to or cheating on you and you believed him , letters from your friends telling me to stay away from your man....Others of you ,who sent me disturbing poems or pictures of slashed wrists.Others of you with nothing more on your mind than the possibility of actually talking to a pornstar in a chatroom,hoping maybe to bang a few.some of you who spent hours after hours discussing one pornstar (can we say OBSESSSIVE??) , some whom i have actually spent time with and may have nightmares of for the rest of my life. AND this is the room i am banned from???hmmm...i sure am dissapointed.I am truly , truly traumatized.im not sure i can go on...How i will surely miss playing games such as scrambling pornstars names and guessing them for hours.that takes sooo much skill. LOL The funny thing is that somewhere in the midst of all this, i actually liked a few of you...however the only people i see with balls are the ones who would gladly say to my face what they say behind my back.I invite ANY of you to do so. Jimmy D ...you know me too well. They cant handle it b/c i defend myself and tell them to f--- off when i think they are wrong. Yes i was banned also b/c i said f--- you to pst b/c i realized how f---ed up i wsa treated, not b/c i have a pornstar ego.i simply expect people to have some respect when talking with me..like most people do. mike...trailer trash?is that the best you've got? you did not seem to feel that way when you were begging me to hang out with you and kelly at ecvs? and yeah, you did snd the pix of heather around.thats why there a several people who have them.like i said, hope u have id on file. hmmm...this from people who spend their time trying to bash a 22 year old girl.how old are you again mike south? oh and you werent trying to f--- kelly? LOL how bout she would never cuz you look and talk like a f---ing piece of trailer trash yourself. and yes, i am the evil spawn. where do u think i got it from? Fred writes: It wasn't exactly clear to me what was going on between Kendra and the other people in the chat room. Were folks sending her letters/e-mails with wierd stuff (poems, pictures of slashed wrists) in it? Where did they get her address? Exactly what was going on? I think there may be an interesting story here--I bet numerous stars receive odd stuff from folks from time to time. I bet it would be interesting (maybe even a hoot) to put down a few coherent paragraphs. That might help to flesh out more about the whirling, twirling life of a porn star. On another note, you should make sure that when njg actually goes out with Decker, you or she should write synopsis of the date for l-keford.com--sort of like a web-based version of Love Connection. You can play the role of Chuck Woolery (sp?). BTW, from what I recall of her phone call, this will probably be the first Jewish guy that njg dated. If I recall correctly, fixing njg and Decker up is a Mitzvah. Luke, you're a good boy. Roscoe Jones writes: Dear Mr. Ford: Might I suggest a change to the content of your web site that would at once make it both more readable and informative? Stop providing blow-by-blow descriptions of the utterly inconsequential pissing matches between people named "Brandy", "Kendra" and after points of the compass. It is unreadable and quite dull. Why not ask these people to contribute original short essays on some topic of broader interest than whether or not they are permitted to participate in something known as "PST". This is as entertaining as listening to the millionaire Howard Stern berate his unpaid interns. I know that you are always on the lookout for cheap content, but enough is enough! Please return to the disemenation of scurrilous rumors about the players and played of your business. And a further suggestion - go easy on the NJG material. I suspect that this could end badly. Luke: Thanks, good points, perhaps you could contribute an essay on your relationships with porn and Judaism? How about gracing us with an essay about your participation in porn's glory days, the 1970s, and your work with Gloria Leonard in Misty Beethoven? Roscoe: Dear Mr. Ford: I would love to contribute essays along the lines that you have suggested, and would, but for the following facts: 1. I am Lutheran, not Jewish. 2. I am 12 years old, and my parents do not approve. Madison Fan from PST writes: "id like to respond to comments made by "Fred" regarding this kendra jade event and in particular the subject of the "poems, pictures of slashed wrists". First of all, im the one that sent that stuff to kendra, they were not sent out of the blue, they were sent during a conversation we were having to an email address that kendra gave to me, basically she wanted to see the pix and i sent them to her. kendra and i were having, what i then thought, was a private conversation in which we were sharing personal things with each other, during this conversation it came up that something we had in common was bloodletting, i.e. cutting ourselves to deal with emotional pain or other problems. i was under the impression that this was a private and personal conversation but seeing how she wrote about it in her rant, in a context that made it look like some strange obsessed fan was mailing her stuff, evidenced by freds comments, i was mistaken. i always liked kendra and thought of her as a friend in which i cared very much about but seeing how she thought to INclude me instead of EXclude me in her negative comments about PsT channel and the people within, i now know i was wrong about her, sadly." Mike South writes: OK Luke I did some checking. Kendras ban for bad mouthing Roxy was lifted a long time ago. Kendra was most recently banned from pst because she got in a huff and started shouting f--- all of you I am never coming back here. After she left we made sure that she doesn't return by banning her from the channel. Imagine Kendra saying things like that..... As for Brandy, Brandy is disruptive and uses every opportunity possible to undermine the ops and the regulars in the channel. Brany has run 3 chats into the ground and we will NOT let her do that with PsT. Her problems are not just with Diablo, speaking for myself if Diablo lifted his ban I would place one. We have much better and nicer people in PsT than Brandy and Kendra. Personally I like Kendra just fine her mom and her step sisters are regulars in PsT. If Kendra petitions Ed and gets the ban lifted she would be expected to behave while in channel, the rules for pornstars are the same as the rules for everyone else in pst. We welcome all but do yourselves a favor and read the FAQ so that you do not end up in trouble. BrandyAlx1: In response to Mike South's comments, you need only look at the log of my chat with another Op that I sent you. What Mike is babbling about is stuff that went on before the last ban was lifted. I had a clean slate and maintained it as far as that chat is concerned, and the latest ban is not valid. And his claim about my running chats into the ground is founded on nothing but flame material told to him by other people. He wasn't even around! Mike doesn't know his ass from a hole in the ground and my mere presence reminds of that. That's the only reason he would continually support a ban and I'm afraid that's not a valid reason according to the rules that he professes they all live by. BA: Diablo, too, for that matter. In PsT, obviously, the men can call the girls cunts and stupid and whores, but the girls are only permitted to take it. They may not express opinions of their own whether or not they are based in truth or personal experience. I noticed in your posting of further chat from PsT that Mike South called Kendra a cunt. Has he been banned for that yet? I'm sure he has his reasons..., but then I'm sure Kendra has her reasons for calling someone by that name as well... The more they talk the more they prove just how hypocritical they are and that this whole thing is nothing but an exercise of their control obsessions. Their sides of the arguments would be better served if they stopped talking. Know what I mean? Kendra Jade writes: f--- YOU MIKE SOUTH. at least i did not spend all of ecvs trying to get in Kelly Jade's pants, nor did i take nude photos of an underage girl (Heather) and send them to all my friends on the net. I hope you have at least a fake id on that model release. Mike denies this. Full details in the log below. John Gotti from PST went to dinner last night with Rob Spallone and James DiGiorgio. "Real authentic NYC italian food for real authentic mobsters," says Gotti. Darthwhack: Luke, I have unfortunatly had the pleasure of being around during most of this Kenda vs The World thing. I am quite firm in agreeing with a certain porner that the emotitional underage and unstable factor is what is dragging this thing out. As far as Brandy Alexandre goes, I have a feeling that she will NEVER be allowed back into PsT, and I am so happy she had to step on up and share her feelings on this subject. Tut tut, dear Kendra. Remember, WE ARE THE HARDCORE FANS. Never underestimate the power of a computer geek. Kendra writes to Madison Fan: "I apologize for including you in my rant.I did not say your name.you did.and i apologize that it came off the way you felt it did.I liked you also , until i read the posts on lukes site where, not ONCE did you have a nice word about me. Except my being "interesting". Or you having "no opinion" i guess what i am getting at is that you seemed to be claiming to me that you cared on one hand, and on the next while around your pst friends, claiming you had NO opinion. "Well, i am sorry but when i care about someone who is being trashed without the opportunity to defend themselves..I personally would take it on myself to stick up for them. And my only point in mentioning our discussion or those pix, is because i was trying to show that people in pst are not as "above me" as they claim to be. at least i am adult enough to apologize to you publicly and if you dont accept thats fine, but i never meant any harm to you. it was very thoughtless of me.And i guess when i feel i am being attacked..i just attack back without second thoughts. i am a lousy friend and a horrible person." Brandy Alexandre writes: Per Mastrick's Suggestion... I'm positive this will have no effect because the "I hate Brandy" club has taken on a life of its own and my alleged wrongs have increased exponentially within it without my participation. Mike South says that I am and have always been disruptive in PsT. This is untrue. Knowing full well that my every movement is deeply scrutinized, I have always made an effort to conduct myself not only as others do, but beyond reproach. IF I have ever been abusive to anyone it was in response to someone else initiation of abuse. I recall quite clearly several incidents where "Causing Trouble" tried desperately to start a flame war in the channel and I simply refused to participate. Not only was my behavior commendable in light of such unprovoked personal attacks, Causing Trouble's behavior was not given warning or even questioned. This occurred with a number of regular participants to which a blind eye was turned. On the other hand, if I made the slightest comment with an opinion in the opposition to someone else's, I was berated by others, such as Mike South, adamjm, Diablo, et al, who never were expected to explain their behavior. In recent days there has been discussion about a ban being valid because Kendra Jade called someone a cunt. Such name-calling is not allowed, you said, and so that was a good reason for the ban. That sounds like just a good excuse, because in the aftermath, Mike South called Kendra cunt in channel and Diablo called me one as well. These are obviously not rules, they are only acceptable reasons for when someone, for perhaps entirely different reasons that cannot be defined, wants someone out. Surely you all have seen my chat with Mastrick wherein I question why ops don't remove bans made for invalid reasons. The overall impression I got from what he said and what he didn't say implies You are not organized, top-heavy in ops, and care more about not stepping on anyone else's personal power trip than about the fair and even application of some fluid rules regarding conduct. All Masterick cares about is the girls. All Mike is pissed about is that I don't let him put me down. Speaking of Mike, his most vocal complaint in the chat arena is that I once banned Luke F-rd from a chat before he even said a word. My reason was that he logs the chats and posts them on his web site. This activity bothers people and they cannot freely and comfortably chat knowing that what should just be "coffee shop banter" may become world-read gossip. His mere presence was disruptive. Well, Mike said that was total bulls--- and you would think that this opinion would mean that no one is banned from one of HIS chats just because one or two other people are uncomfortable with their being there. But in the end, that is the only reason I can see for my latest ban from PsT. As I pointed out, while I may have been banned in the past for my behavior in response to personal attacks (again please note the attackers were never likewise punished) that ban was lifted. I had been chatting and getting along fine with everyone, even past launchers of personal attacks, who admitted that I was as bad as they had been told (note: these were people who I had never spoken to before, did not know, and were only operating what others told them). Then Bianca Trump returned from one of her excursions, arrived in chat, and before I said a single word (and wouldn't have said anything to her even though she MANY TIMES launched into vulgar tirades, calling names worse than Kendra could ever do, without warning or banning). A heinous miscarriage of justice and poke in the free speech eye, according to Mike South. Diablo is a keeper of logs. He always has a chat log handy to use against someone at any given moment. He would have all the evidence you need to prove or disprove that I have been any more or less disruptive, abusive, or obnoxious than any of the ops or other chat participants. Not only do I believe my ban is invalid according to the smokey rules, I think it should be lifted, the rules defined, and all ops made to abide by them and given the authority to personally remove a ban that is not within the parameters laid out to them. Otherwise, all you have is a bunch of control-freak egotists and nothing good can ever be said about chatting in PsT. What? You don't want so much regulation? From what I've been reading there already IS suppose to be a lot of regulation. Just not in the right place. You cannot say on one hand you have guidelines and other the other say you would never mess with another ops ban. There's either a reason or this is not. Depending on the "offense" there should be limits to the length of the bans. While Mike may bitch and moan that he doesn't ever want me to be able to come in PsT again, at least in the chats I've "run into the ground" (more accomplished by the nuke attack levied against people who didn't likewise vacate the channels) every week you started with a clean slate. Even Luke F-rd was eventually permitted. 11/19/99 Mike South writes: OK Luke I am gonna go tell it like it is here. There are a lot of girls in this business who have no business being in the business, and Kendra Jade is one of them. Performing hardcore sex in adult videos requires a degree of emotional stability that Kendra does not posess. This is not a slam on Kendra, most girls and indeed most guys do not have the emotional and moral freedom to participate in this business without paying paying a spiritual price for it. When I interview prospective girls to appear in my videos I always ask why they want to do it. I am looking for the guilt free attitude about sex. I will turn her down if she is doing it to support a drug habit, a layabout boyfriend or if I think she is emotionally unfit. Heather Jade is a fine example of this. I would not shoot Heather because she is not emotionally equipped to handle being in this business. I do not want a girl that I shot to be wringing her hands over it two days, two weeks, two months or two years later, it is not worth it. An analogy that I like to use is fairly simple and straight forward. if you wish to be an opera singer you have to be able to sing, some people can learn to sing and some simply cannot. To be a successful pornstar you have to be able to have sex in front of people, for the entire world to see and feel no guilt about it. If the guilt is going to be an issue you should not even try to be a pornstar. To many people sex is fun, as is exhibitionism. There is no guilt attached to sexual acts and in many cases pride is even attached. For people with this attitude porn is a valid career choice. As for Kendra, I can empathize, but as an adult it is her choices that have put her where she is and it will be her choices that will determine her fate, in or out of this business. If kendra wants to change her life she has every opportunity, she can go back to school, she can continue in the business she can even commit suicide and ultimately it is her choice and she bears the brunt of responsibility because they are her actions. I think most of the people in this business would be hesitant to shoot Kendra, I know I wouldn't shoot her because I do not want to compound a poor decision on her part. Don't get me wrong Kendra is not the only one but she is currently the most visible "victim" even if she is a victim of her own poor judgement, as are most victims. If Kendra honestly wants help, give her my phone number, I can and will help her, but if all she wants is sympathy and a handout forget it. It will take a lot of hard work on Kendra's part to get her out of the situation she has gotten herself into. The road to salvation for Kendra has to come from a self awareness that she does not yet seem to have. If you don't love yourself how can you expect someone to love you? Craig Vasiloff writes: "Luke - read the Mike South post on your site. He didn't need to do that. Kendra is the best and I will work with her anytime."' Kendra: "It's not that I don't have the "skin" for this biz or emotional stability. My emotional health would be the same no matter what biz. It just comes to a point when someone has had enough, thats where i was at, stressed. That happens to everyone and if i quit my jobs everytime I got stressed, where would i be? I just had a lot going on around me, more than you or any of your readers know. I am fine. "Plenty of people will and would like to work with me. Why ? because I am professional and friendly and a hard worker and I will continue to be just that. "And tell Craig I appreciate his support. Even tho it must only be "because he's f---ing me."" Dago writes: Hey Luke, I just read the letter about Kendra from Mike South, and I would positively have to disagree. I spent quite allot of time speaking with Kendra via computer, through email, and IM about a deal I wanted to get her involved in. I don't care what anybody says, she is a very smart, articulate and hard working woman. this was at the time when she was just launching her website, and she was working tirelessly on that, and other projects at the same time. I got into some legal wranglings at the time, and through things beyond my control, I dropped the ball with her. I have regretted not being able to put that deal together very much. But it was my fault, and had nothing whatsoever to do with anything on Kendra's part. She is very driven, and from what I saw, a very nice person to boot. Saying she isn't emotionally stable is really not fair. As you know I was engaged to a former porn actress for over 2 years, and have Been on the fringe of the business, and in the adult industry as a whole for several years in the strip club end. I certainly don't have the porn biz experience that Mr. South has, but I just feel in my humble opinion that with regard to Kendra he is mistaken. In my opinion she would be an asset to any company,
in the adult biz, or any other. One just needs to look at the loyalty
she has shown John Bone to see that when she commits to someone or something
it takes allot for her to break that commitment. I wholeheartedly believe
every word I have written here, and felt that because of my negligence
with regard to the deal I proposed, then dropped the ball on, I owed
it to Kendra to write you this letter.
12/13 Kendra Jade went in for extensive plastic surgery Friday. She had her nose straightened, breasts and lips adjusted as well as extensive liposuction. Then she developed two blood clots that almost killed her. Kendra was in great pain when I talked to her Sunday morning. Kendra: "They thought I was going to die. I had to go back in for surgery again yesterday so they could remove both of the blood clots. One was up behind my nose, towards my brain. And one was in my left shoulder. Right above my chest, near my heart. "Today I am just laying here relaxing. I'm happy to be alive." 12/14/99 Kendra Jade Recovering From Surgery I talked to Kendra Jade late Monday afternoon. Kendra: "I just got back from the doctor... He says I'm doing splendid, healing up well. I can't drive for a week. I had a couple of my casts off today. He took all the xxx out of my nose and the cast off my boobs. I still have a cast around my stomach and around the top of my boobs and a cast around my nose. But all that is coming off Thursday. I'm surprised you haven't been up here yet with your little f---ing digital camera, taking pictures." Luke: "That would be exploitive." Kendra: "Yes, I'm eating right now but I can't eat that well. Kinda messy because I can't close my mouth all the way [after collagen implants into her lips]. I can only eat soft food." Luke: "Are you pleased with how your lips look?" Kendra: "Not right now. They're only three days old and they still have a lot of swelling to go down. Right now they look like they are going to burst off my face. I look like a gorilla." Luke: "You're going to look like Houston." Kendra: "No... I'm crunching on a carrot and watching "The Mummy" on TV. But the doctor said today that I looked unbelievably well and that I am healing very rapidly. And I haven't taken a single medication, no pain pills, no nothing. Because I believe that the body heals itself naturally. "I'm staying with Tony [Eveready].." Luke: "Does he rape you and beat you up?" Kendra: "No... He's got his new girlfriend here... And Dynamite and her husband... Dynamite is a really nice girl who's been taking good care of me and making me eat really good food. She got me oatmeal, and Cream of Wheat and today she made pasta salad. Everybody has been taking care of me and helping me out and s---. "I read what Ms. f---ing Lynne had to say about nobody could fix my nose because it was always up in the air..." Luke: "She didn't say that. Somebody said that to her." Kendra: "Well, so what? I don't care anymore who says what..." Luke: "Is your nose always up in the air?" Kendra: "It is now. I have to keep it elevated... I'm not one of those girls who try to hide it. 'No, I was just born looking great.' f--- it, if I had a nose job, I had a nose job, who care? At least I don't lie. But I read that and it did not make me happy. "People always want to attack you when you're down. Like if I'm at my strongest, nobody really f---s with me because I'll be the first one to say 'f--- you.' But now I'm kinda sick and kinda sluggish... And people want to get you... "But who cares? There are more important things like the fact that I almost died on Saturday [from blood clots near her brain and heart]. "My stupid mom, I am so mad at her. She did not even call me to see if I was ok. Nothing. She sent me an email. 'Hope your surgery went ok. Love mom.' She didn't even know that I almost died on Saturday, that I had to go into emergency surgery Saturday. I think people when they get into an accident, expect everything to go bad... But I think people take for granted when you do something that is optional, like a nose job... Just because I chose to do it doesn't mean it is any less dangerous. I don't think I took it as seriously. I chose to do it so nothing can go wrong. Which is far from the truth. It's very dangerous. I'm not having any more surgery after this. "But my mom! She cracked me up. My uncle Donny called me today. 'So did you have surgery?' 'Yeah, three days ago.' 'Did everything go okay?' 'Yeah.' People just crack me up. "Donny is my mom's brother. He's one year older than me. He's running a porno company. He's the boss. He's got a big house all to himself. He's done really good since he came out here. Now he's working on his band... One of my best buddies. "And you have not come to see me, even one time!" Luke: "They didn't tell you I came by yesterday?" Kendra: "Liar! And that's very hurtful. Wait till you get a nosejob and some liposuction and see who is going to be there for you." Luke: "Have my breasts redone." Kendra: "My doctor has to do the breast massage thing. And they have to squeeze my boobs. And I said, 'ouch!' And he said, 'Oh Kendra, it doesn't hurt that bad.' I said, 'You put some f---ing implants in your tits and tell me it doesn't hurt that bad.' I feel like I've got these things sitting on my chest that just want to explode." Luke: "Come over here and I'll massage them and make them feel better." Kendra: "Yeah, you'll make them burst and then I'll be back in the hospital again. "Yeah, I think I am going to go to your speech on Sunday. That will be cool. Nice Jewish Girl is coming." Kendra: "I'm up for 20 minutes and then I go to sleep for 20 minutes. And I'm just napping a lot during the day... I think I've got that Chronic Fatigue thing you've got." Luke: "It's the weather. It's the time of year. You just feel like lying in bed." Kendra: "I feel like lying in bed every day anyway." Luke: "That's where you do your best work." Kendra: "Very funny. Have you ever noticed in porn sets that they don't usually put you on beds though. They put you in all these places where you wouldn't normally do it." Director James DiGiorgio writes: "Just to set the record straight, the 'sick minded producers/directors' whom Emmett refers to tried, unsuccessfully, to dissuade Kendra from what we considered to be completely unnecessary surgical procedures." Emmett writes: Dear Mr. DiGiorgio, I apologize for making that ill comment on 12.13.99 about how all producers verbally force women to get operations to look better. But you cannot deny this fact sir, most producers will not hire a women in porn or keep them long if they do not get some type of surgery done to reduce the natural aging process or get rid of the natural looks that the actresses were born with! Sergio writes: "I always believed that porn often destroys everything that's good. And that seems to be the case with Kendra Jade. It was REALLY necessary for her to make that surgery? I don't think so. She was already gorgeous. She could even be making mainstream stuff. Maybe TV work, Troma, Roger Corman - but hey, it's a beginning! But risking her life cause some PORN producer thought she wasn't fit for some 1 day nude shoot? C'mon! More power to Kendra. And let's hope that her surgical improvement can give her a chance with something bigger, more mainstream, and with more money involved. THAT could make her current suffering worth something. Go Kendra! Porn star Cindy Plenum writes: "I found the reports of Kendra's plastic surgery very interesting, as it reminded me of the operations I had done recently in San Francisco by a doctor friend of mine. Unlike the procedures Kendra had done, mine were wholly natural, as I shall explain. "First off, lets talk tits. Of course, I wanted bigger ones, but I also wanted them to be natural. At the same time, I felt that I had too much fat on my hips, so I wanted that removed. Most docs would have approached this as a two separate problems, but not my doc! First, he had me gain about ten pounds in preparation for the operation. Boy was I fat! On the day of the operation, he sucked the fat out of my hip region. Then, he pumped it into right back into my chest! He has some proprietary system which makes use of drugs that trigger the growth of blood vessels into fat, so that the fat cells are fed by my blood and can thrive in my chest, where they are most welcome. No scars, nothing artificial. He just takes from area A and moves it to area B. Someday all the girls will be getting this done! "Next, lets talk lips. I wanted that bee-stung lip-look so popular these days. My doctor uses real bees to achieve the desired look. Sure, it hurts some, but it makes me even hotter looking, and at my age, that is all that really counts! With my swollen lips and new chest, I can walk down the street with my head up in the air!" Luke talked to Kendra Jade at 7PM Tuesday evening. Kendra: "I was reading your site today and everybody was so full of nice things to say about me. That I didn't need surgery and was gorgeous and stuff like that. Where were those people a month ago when I needed them? When everybody was saying Kendra's really ugly, Kendra's a bitch." Luke: "l-keford.com is always behind you Kendra Jade." Kendra: "I'm sitting here waiting for my f---ing gorilla lips to stop swelling. I had a fat transfer. No collagen for me baby, natural. My own body fat." Luke: "Cindy Plenum did that." Kendra: "She's full of s---. She was patronizing. Who the f--- is Cindy Plenum anyway?" Luke: "Chaim Amalek's girlfriend." Kendra: "My lips are so f---ing fat, I think my blowjob rate is going to go up immediately... Though that doesn't sound appealing to me right now. I can barely get my lips around a straw. I ordered a milkshake today and I had to drink it with a spoon because I can't suck on a straw. "My breasts are really good. They sound like water balloons... Can you hear them? Because they're new. "They're not bigger. Though they look bigger now because they're swollen. Most of the surgery I had was not even optional surgery... My breasts were encapsulated so I had to get them redone. I didn't get bigger implants, I just changed the implants. "We had to remove a lot of scar tissue from the first boob job which caused them not to set right. So now as long as I take care of them good. Last time I was a real slacker...and I didn't go back for my post operative visits and s---... I didn't take good care of the work that he did. Dr. Hayworth in Beverly Hills did a great job, except I didn't take good care of them. Because I did not want to wear my casts. I ruined his masterpiece." Lynne L-patin writes Luke: Poor Kendra.... Poor little girl. She knew that even elective surgery is dangerous and beauty at any price carries a risk, but we don't like to see Luke's friends in trouble, being that he has few enough friends as it is. Having so much medically unnecessary surgery done despite the risk for vanity's sake leaves one's self-esteem in question. I can't believe there were so many things wrong with that pretty girl that needed to be changed! As a mom I would be distressed to hear of both the plans and the reaction to the surgery. Kendra had a dangerous amount of work done on top of which she had to deal with her mom's cavalier attitude. This is a pretty drastic way of trying to get a mom to look and approve. As a pornographer, I mourn the loss of Original Kendra and her original breasts. Fortunately men really do find all sorts of different types of women beautiful and even we terribly imperfect ones find guys who think we're just gorgeous. Why is it okay to artificially alter your body with knives but not with chemicals to kill the pain? Martyrdom for beauty's sake? 12/15/99 Kendra: "I was reading your site today and everybody was so full of nice things to say about me. That I didn't need surgery and was gorgeous and stuff like that. Where were those people a month ago when I needed them? When everybody was saying Kendra's really ugly, Kendra's a bitch." Fred writes Luke: So why do you think Ms. Jade had plastic surgery? Was this an economic decision? Or do you think a large amount of her sense of self-worth is tied up in the way she looks, and she neede surgery to augment her sense of self worth. Is this vanity or economics? Have you ever heard of a guy in the industry doing this sort of thing? I suppose some guys take steroids to make them look more like a hunk, but from what I can tell, no male in the porn industry does anything to make himself look better although I suspect that a small number of them actually go to the gym and work out. I think Ed Powers could save a lot of money by simply putting a paper bag over his head. Why Can't Porn Chicks Keep Their Mouths Shut, When They're Not Sucking Dick? Lou Cypher writes: what up luke? merry chanukkah and happy christmas. just a few yuletide bleatings i wanted to get off my saline/silicone free chest: why is it porn chicks use your site as some sort of cyber-therapist whenever they've bitten life off in a chunk bigger than they can chew? (i won't even get into swallowing here). it's like a broken condom, i mean record, ya know? the world is against me, the business is against me, the trenchcoat cloaked smut consumer is against me. why does everyone talk smack about me. notice anything redundant about that paragraph. its the word me. i swear to god that these deluded, inflated, jaded and multi-masturbated broads wouldn't be able to form a coherent thought (or incoherent thought given most of the rambling nonsense found here) unless that two letter word is peppered in out and around about their entire dialogue. earth to whiny, misinformed porn chicks - the center of the universe is the sun, not you. thanks for f---ing and sucking for the viewing pleasure of scumbags and letches everywhere. we appreciate what you do for what it is, those of you that actually know what you're doing that is. but you've got to realize that you engage in an activity most men's right and/or left hand has mimiced throughout our post pubescent lives. it's not like we can't live without you. most men would prefer a warm, fleshy fun box over their g.i. joe with the kung fu grip style hand to gland combat, but we are more than willing to pass on any and all broads who can't keep their yap shut. (except for the testosterone-deprived pussywhipped poor excuse for a man guys who can't think for themselves unless a woman gives their brain a stamp of approval - they like marching orders). believe me, if i had to listen to any of the squawking heard so frequently here on your site by these skeezers from one or both of my hands i would run to the nearest lumber yard and shake hands with a wood chipper. my point is be happy for what you've got. we all have our cross to bear but when you continually cry about how heavy it is or that the nails hurt your palms, we can't help but chastise you. just drag it through the crowded masses in town and take your place up on the hill until its over. you'll be going to a better place, its ok. i know this monotonous monologue may be somewhat out there, but i can't help but get caught up in the holiday spirit and share the thoughts of esteemed african-american patriot Rodney King over a steaming mug of mad dog 20/20 and egg nog: "Can't we all just shut the f--- up!" Lou says he is not the husband of Jessica Darlin. He writes: is she related to jessica rabbit? hell no brother. i like sweet girls that only act like porn sluts behind closed doors, not sound stages. i'd be perpetually disgusted by dating any woman that took ron jeremy's cock in her ass, whatever the reason. i'm a simple, enlightened male who refuses to be blinded to women's trickery just because my balls swell if i don't blow a load once a day. 2/2/00 John Kenney: If Kendra Jade Wants To Get Paid, She Can Suck My Dick! Rob Spallone phoned me at 11AM, Wednesday. Rob: "LGI and Kendra Jade have no more contract. Contract is finished. If Mr. Bo [John Kenney, LGIDistributors.com owner] would like to take us to court, let him go ahead. He broke the contract. He didn't send her money. "He told Kendra Jade 'You wanna get paid, you gotta suck my dick.' In front of eight people. He said this in Vegas on the telephone. The Kendra Jade movie is owned by me until it is paid for. Blue Light Pictures [owned by James DiGiorgio, Kosa Nostra and the Yakuza] is editing the movie for me. Blue Light and I have a receipt, that I dropped the movie off. There is no movie being sent to anybody until there is a $3000 money order to Blue Light. If he wants to take me to court, he can take me to court. That's not the way I usually work but if that's the way he wants to work, that's fine. Kendra Jade now has another contract with a guy who will be a man of his word [Craig Vasiloff, Luke's sponsor and homosexual lover]. "Bo told me he was a man of his word. I called him three times and left messages with his wife. He never returned a phone call. Now Bo's going around telling people that I am full of s--- and that he's suing me. He can sue me for anything he wants. He has nothing with my f---ing signature on it. And he didn't give Kendra her money. "Kendra showed up for the show [Consumer Electronics Show in Las Vegas in January] on her advance. And Bo was too stoned, snorting his coke and stuff... Any company that has a contract girl, when they have a signing, they get a room and food and everything paid for. Bo did not get Kendra a room. He put her in his room. She told him 'I ain't f---ing you, I want my own room.' "Bo replied, 'Oh my secretary messed up. They didn't get you the room. I'll have it for you tomorrow.' Bo was out partying all night. There was cocaine all over the place. Kendra Jade told him 'If you don't have a room, I'm leaving.' The next morning she went to sign, Bo never showed up at the show. Kendra Jade went home. She wants nothing to do with him. She was willing to finish this movie for him but he told her that if she wants to get paid, you gotta suck my dick. "So all the nice things that I wrote, how I stuck up for him, and people were saying that he was robbing them... I thought he was a stand-up guy. He ain't a stand-up guy." Luke: "Do you think he's a cunt?" Rob: "Ahh, he ain't a stand-up guy." Luke: "The Kendra suck my dick stuff. Who did Bo say that in front of?" Rob: "James DiGiorgio, this kid Josh. Bo told Josh 'Tell Kendra I'll give her $2000 to come to my hotel' when he was in town once. I'm here every day. Bo has my number. He went to my father yesterday and told my father he doesn't do things my way, with baseball bats. He's going to take me to court. I spoke to Bo's friend and he said, 'If he's f---ing you around, do what you have to do.' That's from his own good friend."
6/28/00 Kendra Jade Returns Kendra Jade's retirement from movies has not lasted long. She jumps back in front of the camera tomorrow to do a scene with Tyce Bune for Sopornos 2. In the morning, Jewel DeNyle will take on Herschel Savage. Kendra: "Just doing my last thing for rob. I agreed to do it a while back and its good for me...a good project. But I've turned everything else down." It appears that Craig Vasiloff is selling www.kendra-jade.com for $10,000. KendraJXXX: whatever.f--- everyone who has ever leached off of my name or continues to do so. 11/16/00 Luke Takes Kendra Jade, Rob Spallone To Jewish Singles Event I met Kendra Jade and Rob Spallone at Bruno's Italian restaurant in Santa Monica Wednesday night. While it was great to see my buddies again after four months apart, I bemoaned that I was missing a Jewish singles get together at the XXX Coffee House. Then I solved my problem. I decided to take Kendra and Rob with me to the event. They promised to be on the best behavior. Normally I don't mix my two worlds of porno and Judaism. The religion of the Torah holds that all sex, including porn, outside of marriage is sinful. But tonight I decided to risk it, figuring that the crowd was going to be overwhelmingly secular. As I walk into the coffee house, a woman comes up to me and says, "I saw you on TV last night. The Linda Lovelace story." I was already outed. Rob responded: "Who's Linda Lovelace?" Kendra, wearing jeans and a sweater (with newly blond streaks in her hair), looked similarly mystified. I whisked them past the name tag givers and we wandered to the back of the coffee house. I introduced them on the way to several of my friends (many of whom knew who they were). We passed Arnold Schwartzpecker, a muscular Jewish male performer who wore his real name on his tag - Mike.... We settled at the back and a couple of guys recognize Kendra and start talking to her. She became the belle of the ball. Rob gets antsy. "This is the biggest collection of nerds I've ever seen," he tells me before goofing on a nerdy Jewish guy next to us who's trying to make polite conversation. I introduce Yankel to Rob and Kendra, who I've known for five years from various orthodox syngagogues in my neighborhood. He's a lawyer and a big porn fan. Yankel starts talking about his favorite kinds of porno - the gonzo and amateur types, particularly Ed Powers. Yankel repeats, while looking at Kendra: "Too cool man." Rob starts talking loudly about The Sopornos until I shush him. An organizer approaches us and asks us if we'd like to submit our business cards to win a free shabbat dinner. I give Rob and Kendra the look and they smile back. Kendra's only business card features a naked picture of her. Forty minutes after we arrive, Rob's antsy to leave. We walk out. Yankel asks Kendra for a hug and gets a big one. Rob and Kendra leave. I return to the coffee house. A man yells at me, "I saw you on TV last night. You wrote that book on porno." A Jewish woman next to us looks disgusted at me. Afterwards Yankel tells me: "Kendra is so hot. I like the way she was modestly dressed. I'm going to rent all her movies over the next two weeks. "The cool thing is that they [Rob and Kendra] were friendlier than everyone else here." Yankel says he just rented an Ed Powers tape the night before. Ed gave a promo for his radio show on the tape and mentioned that he'd had Luke F-rd on as a guest. Fred writes: Well, last night's post about the Jewish single's event was pretty interesting to me. I've attended a number of Jewish single's events, but I don't think any of them have ever been attended by a stripper/porn star (at least to the best of my knowledge). I am curious about the topic of conversations that Kendra had. Were any of the conversations related to her profession? [LF: Almost all the conversations were related to her work.] Did anyone get her phone number? [LF: I believe that a couple of guys got her email address.] How did she like hobnobbing with a bunch of Jewish singles? [LF: She enjoyed it.] Finally, was anyone able to discern that she was not really a nice Yiddishe maidel? Inquiring minds want to know. [LF: I think most were able to tell quickly. Many of the guys recognized her.] I was also interested by the fact that there is was a Jewish male porn star at this event. Do people know what he does for a living, or does he succeed in keeping it under wraps. [LF: He keeps it under wraps usually but he felt like coming out of the closet last night when he saw all the attention Kendra was getting. I told him that was a very bad idea. It's bitten me in the ass many times. Which raises the question, why did I bring Kendra and Rob to such an event? More seeking attention for Luke? Attention that will bite him in the ass.] Fred writes: You ask why you brought Kendra to the event. Here are some possible theories. 1. You were getting attention for yourself. (I don't believe this.) 2. You enjoyed the pleasure of her charming company, and thought she might enjoy going to the event. (This is the obviously correct answer.) 3. You wanted two observe two sets of friends socialize who do not normally get together. I speculate that 90% of the Jewish singles are a) MBAs, lawyers, accountants and MDs, b) are highly nerdy, c) don't normally get to meet a porn star or stripper in a social situation; and d) would greatly prefer to meet a porn star or stripper in a social situation rather than meeting gold-digging ball-busting female MBAs/lawyers/accountants/MDs. I speculate that Ms. Jade does not socialize very much with nerdy Jewish lawyers/MBAs/accountants/MDs, and it was kind of a trip for her as well. Further, she probably found it a nice ego boost having all these guys asking her questions about her life. Everyone likes attention. (Or maybe after knowing you all these years, she's thinking of converting, and scoping the place out for future mates.) What do you think of these theories. [LF: I think #3 is the primary answer.] 4. On another note, I don't think it would behoove your friend Mike/Schwartzenpecker to out himself. I have a feeling that perhaps about 5% of the females at a Jewish singles event might find it interesting to talk with or date a porn star, but most would consider him inappropriate mating/dating material because of financial reasons or because they're not interested in someone who will doubtless be screwing other women. He would have done well to not out himself. (Men, on the other hand, are not so preoccupied with financial status when deciding who to date or mate.) I do know of a couple of exceptions to this. A former law partner of mine, female, about 40, has a long history of dating blue collar studly looking fellows who are clearly below her social class. She's one of the few female professionals I know of who are like that. Luke replies: I got a kick out of bringing Rob and Kendra because it was just so interesting and amusing and incongruous and rebellious. Chaim writes: Brilliant. Outstanding. This will HELP you with the younger set of jewesses worth having, and to hell with all the old crones who cannot take the invidious comparisons to their better-looking, in-shape gentile distant cousins. You made it sound like all the jewesh nebishes were in on it and drooling over Kendra, which makes me wonder about the gathered jewesses - were the gathered liberal jewish yingels paying THEM any attention, or were they tightly focussed on KJ? Bet you made a whole bunch of enemies among the spinster class, but then why should you care? What is important is that you live your life as a jew, even if you are not (yet) rich or do not even pretend to know any of the Hollywood Gedolim. Luke F-rd Social Director Fred writes: Sort of reminds me of a Thanksgiving dinner party I threw about 18 years ago. I invited my friends (mostly engineers and MBA types from Silicon Valley high tech companies) and my housemate, who was a bit of a low-life, invited his friends (bikers, druggies, a couple of ex-cons). It was a very interesting dinner. After it was over, my house-mate pulled me aside, and said that his friends thought that my friends were quite wierd. I didn't know what to say, so I simply nodded. Anyway, it was a good choice to bring Ms. Jade to the party. Sounds like everyone walked away happy. You have a career ahead of you as a social director. Luke says: Next I want to introduce some members of William Pierce's National Alliance to my liberal Jewish friends. Frank writes: The standard feminist psychobabble explanation for this sort of thing is "low self esteem." I always had a tough time accepting that explanation, but there is some sort of quirk at work. What do you think--does Ms. Jade have low self esteem? I don't think that's the explanation. I have no doubt that Ms. Jade could attract any of a large number of males, including fairly well to do males. I also have no doubt that many of the males Ms. Jade could attract would treat her quite well. I also have no doubt that she would be inclined to dismiss them as nerds or otherwise as uninteresting to her. (Of course, a young lady simply has not lived until she's done it with a patent attorney.) 11/26/00 Kendra Jade Maid I talked to Kendra Jade Sunday afternoon. Listen to our conversation here. Kendra: "Whatcha doing?" Luke: "Thinking about you. What you doing?" Kendra: "I'm sitting here folding the laundry. I'm so domesticated." Luke: "What are you wearing?" Kendra: "Boxers and a tank top. And I am watching my two younger sisters fight and almost break my dishes. They're trying to do them and they're arguing. "They're staying for a few weeks. The oldest one may stay indefinitely." Luke: "Are you going to try to get her into the industry?" Kendra: "No. She's 13." Luke: "Do you think that is too young?" Kendra: "I'll break her neck. And in the meantime, I'm also babysitting my friend's baby who is two months old. "What else is up?" Luke: "I'm dating too many women to keep track of... Three." Kendra: "Why? Do they know?" Luke: "About all the women I'm seeing. Well, they do if they read my website." Kendra: "You sneaky bastard." Luke: "I'm not having sex with any of them." Kendra: "So that makes it ok?" Luke: "Yes." Kendra: "That does not make it ok." Luke: "We haven't approached an exclusive relationship yet with any of them." Kendra: "Yes, but a relationship is a relationship. If you're trying to have one with one person, you shouldn't get into one with another. So how could you know where one could be if you're too busy with lots of different women?" Luke: "Good point. But the women I'm seeing are dating other people too. And Luke F-rd don't care about no chick that dates other fellas." Kendra: "Then it's just purely about dating. You're not interested in meeting anyone that you truly want to spend time with." Luke: "I want to get married." Kendra exasperated: "Then you can't date women who are dating other men." Luke: "My therapist thinks I am unrealistic and that I am a wimp with women." Kendra: "You should choose Persian Kitty, the dietician. She'll keep you the healthiest." Luke: "But she watches too much TV." Kendra: "How do you meet all these dieticians? I need a dietician." Luke: "There are a lot of Jewish female dieticians." Kendra: "I need to lose some weight." We call PK but she's not home. Kendra: "I need to lose 25 pounds. I weigh 120 pounds and I'm 5'1". It's not that I'm fat." Luke: "You're just big boned." Kendra: "That's not even it because I spend most of my time on the road dancing. So most of my weight is muscle. I don't have any cellulite. I just think it looks manly when your legs start to look big. My legs are rockhard from all the dancing. So I need to lose weight and look feminine but still stay toned." Luke: "You need a personal trainer." Kendra: "I do. Why can't you start dating one of those? C'mon Luke, hook me up." Luke: "That was so fun the other night when I took you to the Jewish Singles Coffee House." Kendra: "That was crazy. You say don't say nothing [about porno] to anybody and then everybody starts saying stuff to you." Luke: "What did the guys say to you?" Kendra: "It was the cheesiest lines, Luke. It was so bad. 'So, what do you do? Where are you from? What kind of things do you do for fun?'" Luke: "Did they know who you were?" Kendra: "The one guy said to me, 'You look really familiar. I'm not sure why. What do you do?' I said, 'Oh, I'm an actress.' And he's like, 'Really, what kind of stuff have you been in?' And I go, 'You know, different things. Nothing too important.' And then people are coming up to you and going, 'Luke F-rd, your website... Blah, blah, blah... I love porn.' "There are two different problems. I liked it. It would've been cool if I was a normal person. But in the same breath, anything that you go to involving porn, you already feel like you are at a meat market. And that that's the only reason people want to talk to you. I kinda felt the same way there, like everybody just wanted to pick you up. So I didn't dig that vibe. However, the social going out and meeting new people, that was cool. If I thought they were actually interested in meeting new people, and not just someone to take home. But of course, you're just a horndog looking for somebody to take home." Luke: "That's not true." Kendra: "Then why are you dating 20,000 women?" Luke: "I haven't had sex in 17 months." Kendra: "Lukey, that's a long f---ing time. No wonder you're so insane. You've had no form of release. I think I need to get you a hooker." Luke: "It's just not spiritual." Kendra: "I'll take you down to the Bunny Ranch. I'll hook you up with a nice girl." Concerned writes: Next time ask Kendra what she would do if her 13 year old sister started sticking pages from the Holy Bible up her ass? Fred writes: So, sir, if you haven't been laid in so many months, and Kendra is obviously a good friend who is rather free about these things, how come you and her don't get together to take care of these things? Also, do you suppose her 13 year old sister (who lives with her) knows what she does for a living? (I can't imagine that she doesn't know.) 12/26/00 Kendra Jade Controversy XXX says: Kendra Jade has nothing to do with KendraJade.com or Tabitha Yang. I just read that stuff on your site. Kendra says she has nothing to do with them. XXXeZone is making money off her name and saying that site is offcial and kendra claims she never signed anything with them. Kendra trashes xxxezone and tabitha in her mailing list. Tabetha Yang writes: Dearest Luke, Thank you for writing and inclosing this "interesting" comment. Call Kendra yourself, you know her personally - let that be your guide. I DO have a signed contract and so does XXXeZone. But of course if she wasn't supporting it - I don't suppose she would have spent 4 hours on Saturday night (the 23rd) taking new photos for it in her own apartment. I'm currently in Maui right now and won't return until the 31rst late, but I would love to be a guest of yours ANYTIME. Also I haven't been able to read your column as I can only go to an internet cafe to read my mail. I look forward to the day of meeting you and hope your holiday went well. Ron Berry from XXXEZone.com writes: Luke, Saw your post about Kendra. Puzzling, I personally shot new content with her on 12/23 for release 1st week of Jan for her "official site" KendraJade.com. It would appear that someone has given you false information, but in this we know this never happens - LOL Anyway, Kendra will be shooting twice monthly starting in Jan for the site ! Cleopatra, a porn star and stripper managed by Charley Frey, writes: WHO THE f--- IS TABATHA YANG? As far as I've ever known...Charlie Fry managed Jasmin StClair and started Zoe, and helped Kendrajade. I was there. I saw him do a ton of work for them. Where is their gratitude? Who has this yingyang chic ever made? Luke writes Kendra Jade: Are you still associated with XXXEzone and Tabetha Yang? Kendra replies: Yes why? Luke: Because I heard from a very good source that you've been trashing them and denying any association. Kendra: ummm...source is misinformed Kendra Jade Tour Dates 3/5/01 Nici@Nicisgirls.com writes on BigDoggie.net: Hi Guys! Porn Star Kendra Jade is now accepting HOURLY appointments while she is on tour. She is available for incall at a rate of $1,200 per hour and $800 for each additional hour. Her current schedule is: Philadelphia, 3/5-3/10 * Los Angeles, 3/11-3/22 * Pittsburgh, 3/23 * Philadelphia, 3/24 * Los Angeles, 3/25-4/6 * Boston, 4/7 * Los Angeles, 4/8-4/18 * St. Louis, 4/19-4/21 * Los Angeles, 4/22-4/26 * Tampa, 4/27-4/29 Please book your appointments ahead of time because she is only in each city for a few days. She will be featuring at a Gentlemens Club in each city so she is limited to appointments between 10:00 AM and 7:00 PM except for Los Angeles where she is available from 12:00 PM until 11:00 PM. Please e-mail nicitour@pacbell.net to schedule an appointment. You can see recent pictures of Kendra Jade in the Online Portfolio under Porn Stars at http://www.nicisgirls.com. 11/27/04 Kendra Jade Chat KendraJXXX: why you flirting so much with mary
carey dont you know ill be jealous? 2/7/06 Kendra Jade Visits Howard Stern Feb 7
Kendra blogs on MySpace Feb 16:
Kendra Jade Shoots For Suze Randall Luke: Shoot today (2/21/06) with holly? Kendra Jade replies (2/22/06) to me: "The shoot [yesterday] with Suze was AMAZING! They made me feel great. Holly and I had some good laughs during my interview, and we had a fun day. I looked briefly at them polaroids, and they appear to be the best shots I've ever seen taken of me!" Holly says: "My mom REALLY liked her." I call Kendra at noon Wednesday. "Did they do anything to you against your will?" KJ: "Yeah, they put me in ridiculous poses. I'm kidding. Suze knows how to make you feel good about yourself and confident." Luke: "Like I always do." KJ: "You know how to make people feel really good. Oy ve." Luke: "What type of outfits did they put you in?" KJ: "Lingerie. All black. Suze said I'm such a bad girl, she couldn't imagine me in anything else." Luke: "What was the interview about [that Holly shot]?" KJ: "Nothing deep and emotional. She asked me what kind of guys I like. I blurted out, 'I like guys who look smelly but don't smell.' "So Mary and Tawny had a fight? That will be over in two days and they'll be best friends again." Luke: "So how long have you been friendly with [ex-Vivid girl] Cassidey?" KJ: "We met six years ago. For some reason, we stopped talking for a while. We just started talking again last year. We get along well. We've been living together for a month. "My sister, 19, lives with us. Cassidey and I walk around the house naked. We forget how much more innocent she is than us. My sister goes to college fulltime (Psychology major with a 4.0 GPA at community college) and she works fulltime. I have to drive her. She doesn't have her license." Luke: "Do you have a cold?" KJ: "No. I just woke up. I normally get up at 7:30 am to take my sister to school. She's afraid to drive. I bought her a car for Christmas, hoping that would encourage her. She knows how to drive but she doesn't drive enough. "So what's the story with you and Holly? Are you in love with her?" Luke: "I'm not going to touch that." KJ laughs. "That's your famous answer these days. That's your answer to all questions regarding Holly. "She's a cute girl. She's really nice." Luke: "And she's a ballbuster. We get together on her terms only." KJ: "That's so different for you. You used to be a serial dater. It had to be on your terms." Luke: "We see Narnia and Harry Potter movies. I've asked her out about 30 times and she's come with me twice (once to a porn party and once to dinner). So it is stupid to ask her out. But I enjoy chatting with her online almost every day. She's my muse." We talk about Porn Star Karaoke. KJ: "Every time I went, it was mostly dudes. I want to have fun. I don't want to be hit on or asked to shoot. No, I don't." |