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World Modeling talent call. Tuesday afternoon. April 5, 2005.

Eden says her breasts sprouted in third grade. "They're as much of a curse as blessing."

Annie Body: "I had to wait until I bought mine."

Duke: "What keeps you in the industry [after five years]?"

Annie: "I love it. Some of us just belong here."

Duke: "When did you realize that?"

Annie: "Back in kindergarten. I just knew it. I've been in the adult business for many years. When I got to Los Angeles, I said, 'I'm home!'"

Some producer says to Annie: "I'm sorry it didn't work out."

Annie: "Don't worry about it. Make it up to me."

Annie got into trouble in highschool. "I didn't necessarily want to go to class. I got into trouble for smoking. I got into trouble for playing with boys. I got into trouble for playing with girls."

Annie spent one day in a reform school before they kicked her out. "I got into books and learned and got my GED and got back into books and learned some more and did a bit of college and decided school wasn't my thing. But I enjoyed learning. My nose is still in the books. Lately it's been mostly computer stuff. Graphic design [on her site www.anniebody.com] and animation. I do my own html. I was dating someone who did [html] professionally and I learned a lot from them."

Several people ask me if Scott Fayner is really dead (as an April First posting on l-keford.com said). No, it is not true. Scott lives. It was an April Fools posting.

Autumn Bliss gets on the phone with Ed Powers and schedules a scene.

I talk to Saskia Steele, who appears in her late thirties. She's half-American and half-Dutch. She has a strong accent. "I did some mainstream modeling when I was younger. I wanted to challenge myself [through porn]."

She's done about 50 scenes. "It's made me less self-conscious. There's no embarrassment. I'm comfortable being in front of people.

"[Porn] was much easier than I expected. I expected people to be more harsh and not accepting. I know I'm not typical. I'm not 18 and blonde. I found that when you are on set, everyone tries to insure that you have as smooth and good time as possible. I didn't expect everyone to be friendly and polite. I work on commercial sets. I didn't expect a set for pornography to have the same kind of feeling but it does."

Natasha is about 40 years old. She and her husband got into porn when their agricultural pump company got beat out by competition from China. Needing money, they entered porn two months ago.

I'm told that when Ron Jeremy pulled up beside World Modeling, he whined that he couldn't get a parking meter with unused minutes on it. Ron is more careful about saving his money than any porn star I know.

Summer and Craig say they're taking him to a buffet dinner.

I ask Celestia Star why there are so many British porn stars. "Because everyone is so repressed over there," she says. "It's raining all the time. It does something to the libido."

Jackie Brown shows up at 4:30pm, after the casting call had finished.

I have a long chat with Eden, who's about 33yo. She says she's dealt with nothing but nice people in porn. She stands 5'8" barefoot. She laughs. "Guys aren't used to looking at somebody in the eye."

From Louisville, Kentucky, she worked as an interior designer for 11-years before "I had a mid-life crisis. I turned 30 and woke up one day and decided I wanted to do something different. I'd always had this crazy fantasy about being a stripper. It was the ultimate sexual power thing. So that became my goal. I started working on my body and lost a lot of weight. I did an amateur night one night at a strip club and won. They offered me a job. I started working. After three months, I was making three times as much money as I was with my career so I quit the career and started dancing fulltime.

"I ended up coming out to Las Vegas as a tourist. I ended up falling in love [with Vegas]. I figured that if you can be a dancer in Vegas, you must be pretty ok. So I went home, packed up all my stuff, and came to Vegas.

"I have a man. I've been married for 14-years and been with him for 18-years. He loves [Eden working in sex]. He's fascinated by it. What guy wouldn't be? He loves to watch me because it excites him.

"We're not really swingers. He's known that I like girls eversince we started dating [at age 15]. We occasionally like to have fun. Let's leave it at that.

"[Porn] was a fantasy. I was working for a company at the AVN convention [in January 2005]. I was swamped by producers. They followed me into the bathroom. They followed me to my car. I couldn't breathe. There were crazy people wanting to talk to people and have me do stuff. It was overwhelming.

"The next day, my phone was ringing off the hook. I start calling people back. I'd ask for their websites. I wanted to see what quality it was. I consider myself a topnotch girl. I don't do anything that is not the best. I wasn't going to do anything that I'd have second thoughts about.

"I knew somebody who worked here for Jim. I talked to her. I started calling people back. Within a week, I'd done five films in five days."

Eden wears a 38DD bra but her measurements are 42D-30-41. "The hourglass."

Duke: "What are your ambitions?"

Eden: "I want to be famous."

Duke: "How has your time [in the sex industry] affected you?"

Eden: "I don't think it has affected me at all. I'm very smart. I'm very grounded. I'm a very good person. I'm as clean as a whistle. I've never touched a drug. I'm not a drinker. I'm the furthest thing from the stereotype for strippers and porn stars.

"The main thing I've learned is that everybody is so critical of themselves and there's really nothing wrong with you. I'm so hard on myself, yet everybody likes me just the way I am. That's been a nice thing to realize.

"[Sex work] has been good for my self-esteem. Mentally. Emotionally. Yeah."

Duke: "What about your view of men?"

Eden peals off in laughter. "You don't want to go there.

"I told you I have a power trip thing. Women definitely have the power. Men are just too stupid to realize it. Doing this you are exerting that power over a lot of people and they don't even realize it. Sex is such a powerful thing and girls are the ones in control.

"Everybody is weak in ways.

"I have a small group of friends who know what I do. Beyond that, I don't tell people. When people ask me what I do, I still tell them that I am an interior decorator. Nobody raises an eyebrow at that. Sometimes when I tell people I am a stripper, I instantly get bad looks and nasty attitudes."

The inability to tell people honestly what you do for a living is one of the biggest prices paid by those in the sex industry. It isolates you. Your world becomes constricted. When you can't interact honestly with strangers and acquaintances, you become a practiced liar. That exacts a huge price on your soul and psyche. You lose much of what it means to be human -- to interact honestly with others and to put yourself forward into the world openly. To be who you are. Instead, many of us in the sex industry become practiced deceivers.

One of the first questions that the sailers in the Biblical book of Jonah ask the protagonist is -- what do you do for a living? That's typically our opening question with strangers because it tells us more about a person than any other question.

Jonah 1:8

So they asked him, "Tell us, who is responsible for making all this trouble for us? What do you do? Where do you come from? What is your country? From what people are you?"

Eden: "People in general look down on you for it because they think you are the stereotype. You are the whore. You are the druggie. You are the alcoholic. You are doing crack in the back dressing room between dancers. That's not what I am. I don't tell a lot of people about what I do because I don't want the negative feedback that comes with it.

"I haven't told many people at all that I do the porn stuff because you get even worse reaction from that.

"My family knows that I was a dancer. Initially my mom was just furious beyond belief. Her crying and everything that you would think a mom would do. Then, after a while, after I told her I'm not into drugs and I'm not a drinker, I'm not doing anything bad. I'm careful and smart about what I do. Then she realized she didn't have to worry about me. I wasn't going to fall into that dumpster that a lot of girls fall into doing that. I'm smarter than that. I'm better than that. I refuse to let that happen to me.

"After talking to her about, after two years, she came around. She's to the point now where she calls me and says, 'Are you on your way to work? Did you have a good night last night?'

"When I told her how much money I made dancing, she couldn't believe it.

"But doing the porn thing, I don't know if that would go over as well. But maybe eventually. It would still the same scenario. She'll think about all the stereotypes... Eventually she's going to know. It will all hit the fan. The first movie I filmed comes out this week. Somebody is going to see me and eventually my friends and my family will know. We'll deal with it at that point. I know that I haven't done anything wrong. I respect myself. I hope they will do the same."

Duke: "What are you ambitions?"

Eden: "I want to be famous. I want to be known."

Duke: "What would you like to be known for?"

Eden: "For being a beautiful person. Not necessarily just on the outside. You can look at the pictures of all these beautiful girls on the wall and some of them are complete idiots. Some of them are bitches. I would definitely like to be known, not just for what I look like, but for what I am on the inside. And for being good at what I do."

Duke: "Does being a dancer and a porn star help people appreciate what's on your inside?"

Eden: "Sometimes. Initially, most people judge you for the package. They judge the big boobs. Instantly you're an idiot. Whereas I'm probably a whole lot smarter than they are."

Duke: "How do you spend your money?"

Eden: "I want to be debt free. I want to pay off my car, my house, my mom.

"Then I want to do what they do here -- promote people in a healthy and clean way. There's so much money to be made."