I chat with Cynara Fox, Jill Kelly Productions contract girl, 4/8/03. She's lying on the couch half-asleep. She's the star of today's show, appearing in three scenes.

Cynara tells me after our interview, after she was warned about me, that she thought I was with HBO. She didn't know I was a notorious gossip monger. I believe I identified myself by my real name and by the website www.setgo.com. I try to do that with everybody. Whenever I arrive on set, I try to check in with the production manager. I did that today with Robert. I introduced myself by name and site and shook his hand. He grunted and ignored me the rest of the day.

I'm on set because of an invitation from the JKP publicist who has dealt with me for about three years.

Cynara speaks slowly and sleepily. She just got pronged by two guys and had lunch. I'd be sleepy too. Or at least I usually am after I've been pronged by two guys and had lunch. And it's warm outside.

Cynara: "My birthday is June 22. I was in Pittsburgh, where I'm from. I went to a club where Stephanie Swift was featuring. I talked to her and asked her how to get into the business. I've always been a big fan of the business. She told me that as soon as she got back home from dancing, I should come to her house [in Los Angeles] and she would show me.

"That's what I did. I got into the industry in July 2002. I flew out here. I stayed with Stephanie for a while. I didn't work much. It didn't work out with her being my manager. I went through a couple of bad agents."

Robert the production manager comes by and says we need to be quieter because they are shooting Lee Stone's scene upstairs with Tyler Faith. Tyler is a buxom blonde JKP girl and I joke with her much of the day.

"I met with Jill Kelly. I think when she met me, I don't want to sound conceited, but it was like her eyes lit up. She walked up to me and I was a big fan of hers. I sent her an email and left her a message, saying I wanted a contract. I met her at Skye Blue's studio around November.

"My agent [Jim South] would not allow me to work for her. Jim South did not get me any work. It was an awful situation.

"I would credit Wesley Emerson for discovering me and helping me out and bringing me outside of myself to see what I wanted to do and help me do it. I credit where I am at now to him. He's a good friend of mine. He got me my first job with Jill Kelly Productions for 100% Jenna. A couple of weeks later, I got my contract.

"When I was at home in Pittsburg, when Jill first formed her company, Jill and all her girls went to the AVN Awards in matching denim jeans, bandanas, and big crystal belly bracelets. When I saw the picture of them in AVN, I thought, I have to be one of those girls. My dream came true. I'm happy now and I'm right where I belong."

Luke: "So you feel at home with the other JKP girls?"

Cynara: "Yes, they're amazing. It's the best family. We all look out for each other. They're so welcoming. There's no cattiness in the girls. It's just like a big family where everyone helps each other and everyone looks out for each other."

DUC keeps a straight face.

Cynara: "That's what I was looking for. When you are not under contract, you never know when your next check, your next job, is going to come.

"My roommate Amber Roxx does anal and everything. She's the kind of person who should not get a contract because she can get so much work because she does all that stuff on her own. There are two types. People like her who should not get a contract because they can make so much more on their own. Then there's me. I want stability. I want to know when my next job is coming.

"It was frustrating over the winter with Jim South."

Setgo.com contacted Jim South via email for comment and has not heard back from him.

Luke: "What do you love and what do you hate about the industry?"

Cynara: "It's cool meeting new people and going to cool locations. There are so many girls who would die to be in my position right now. There are only a handful of contract girls in this business. Some girls are just in it for the money. They don't want to be recognized. I'm the opposite. I came into it because I want to be recognized. I want to be a household name like Jenna Jameson and have my pictures everywhere in expensive ads and have people know my face. JKP spends so much money on ads and on promoting you. Everybody that works with Jill are people I've worked with in the past and that I have the best chemistry with. Like Skye Blue, Wesley Emerson. Wes completely saved me. I credit everything that I will be to him."

Luke: "How did he save you? Save you from what?"

Cynara: "From stupid people pretending to be my agent. Pretending that they were going to give me work. Talking so much and never coming through with any of it. I was having a hard time there when I was pretty much living out of my truck. Jim South was my agent. He knew that. He knew that I was living out of my truck and that I had no work. I met Wesley Emerson in Jim's office. We talked. Wesley took me into his house and let me stay there for like a month. He gave me a room. He helped me get my head together. He asked me what I wanted. He saw some kind of spark in me. He helped me clear my head and to forget about the bad things that happened... He helped me in every way. Financially, emotionally... He pushed me. To this day he pushes me to be my best.

"Here are the things I don't like about the business. Jim South the agent. He expects you to sit on a couch in his office all day long, like you have nothing better to do, and wait for some people to walk in. I found out why I wasn't getting any work. One woman wanted to hire me for a movie and had called Jim's office when I was still with him. If you're an agent, and one of your clients is requested, don't you think you should say good things about your client and why they should be hired?"

Luke: "Yes."

Cynara: "Jim South told her every reason not to hire me. He made stuff up. Oh, she disappears for weeks at a time. You don't want to hire her, she won't show up. There are a lot of bad rumors. There is so much bad bad gossip in this industry. Certain website are just out there for gossip for people in the industry."

Luke: "That site f-ckinggossip.com."

Cynara: "That site is disgusting. I don't know who Eddie Tour is. He said some really bad things about me. I cried about some of the things I read on there and I was going to write back but there's no point. I knew the truth. I just forgot about it. I took a lot of advice from Wesley and just let it go. I guess that's the best thing to do. If you respond to those kind of things, it keeps it recycling. It's an evil fight and you just shouldn't do it.

"I was sitting right next to [a certain director] when he made a call to Jim. 'Hey Jim, what's up with that Cynara Fox? Can I get her some work?' I heard Jim say all kinds of terrible things about me. Then, when I walk in his office and ask him if there's any work for me, he says, 'No, nobody's called. It's so slow right now. I'm real sorry. If it means anything, I still love you.' In his little Southern accent."

Luke: "Why was he trashing you?"

Cynara: "I don't know. I'm really an eccentric strange person. People can take it one way or another. People can either see it and understand or they can see it and take it the wrong way, thinking the person is on drugs and emotionally unsound. There are some very bad people in this industry who are trying to represent people right now."

Luke: "Was there ever a time in your career when you were not showing up for shoots?"

Cynara: "In the beginning, yeah. Jim said I disappeared for weeks at a time. I asked him what he meant. He had my cell phone numbers. He had so many phone numbers for me. When he said I disappeared for weeks at a time, he meant that I wasn't coming in and sitting on his couch all day like I had nothing better to do. I called him at least three times a week. 'Jim, do you have anything for me?'

"There was a time when I was sick one morning and I didn't make it to a shoot. But I called as soon as I woke up and was able to talk. Everyone has done that. I don't know why Jim wanted to work against me when he could've made money off of me."

Luke: "How many movies have you done?"

Cynara: "A dozen."

Luke: "Who are your best friends in the industry?"

Cynara thinks. "Wesley Emerson is my best friend. I don't know. I'm not much of a partier. I don't go out and stuff. I just like to stay in and watch movies all night. I don't have that many people I hang out with. I don't know. Everyone in my life right now is a nice acquaintance. I can't tell you who are going to be my friends."

Luke: "Does your family know about your new career?"

Cynara: "Yes they do. They're very happy for me. The only family I have is my Dad and his new wife. They're both big porn fans. They do not watch my stuff. They will look at my magazines and a lot of my still pictures and they will read my articles. They think it's awesome. They're happy that I am doing what I want. My Dad's Mom is happy too."

Luke: "Why did you want to get into the industry?"

Cynara: "I don't know. I need to be on camera. I want to be an actress. I'm going to take some classes."

Luke: "Are you primarily heterosexual?"

Cynara: "It's guys who buy the movies. I'm not going to lie. When I do my films, I do it with the intention making the guys watching it happy. That's the only thing on my mind. In my personal life, I prefer women. I was a big fan before I started so I treat fans like they are normal people. I'm no better than them."

Luke: "How old were you when you lost your virginity?"

Cynara: "Fourteen."

Luke: "Was it a good experience?"

Cynara: "Yes. I'm going to keep the details a secret."

Luke: "What's the last book you enjoyed?"

Cynara: "Umm, I just bought Alistair Crowley's Diary of a Drug Fiend. I've read the first page. I used to read books all the time. Now I'm into movies and documentaries and non-fiction on TV. I plan on writing a book on my life. I think I'd have to take each chapter of my life and make each chapter a book. Otherwise it would be too big.

"I'm the biggest critic of myself. Of all the movies I've made so far, I've not found one that I want to send back to my friends to watch. I want them to see me looking good, just as good as all the rest, fitting in just as well as the rest of the people in the industry.

"In my personal life, I just like to sleep, watch TV and eat a lot of food."

Luke: "Have you always been this skinny?"

Cynara: "Yes. That's where some of the drug rumors came in on the net and stuff because I have pale skin. If you'd look at my parents, they're thin and pale. I don't tan easy. A lot of people have said I'm too thin for the business. Ok, now I'm starting to think about other bad things in the business. People really really want to put you down all the time. It's hard on your self esteem. 'Oh, your hair color is not right for you. You don't look good like this. Oh, are you anorexic? Oh, please don't do that to yourself.' And I'm sitting there eating like a truck driver. There's nothing I can do [to gain weight]. I don't even smoke cigarettes or drink."

Luke: "Did you ever have a drug problem in the industry?"

Cynara: "In the industry? No."

Luke: "It's strange there have been these rumors."

Cynara: "It's not strange. I can understand when I'm really skinny and pale. I suffer from depression and I have panic attacks and mild seizures. My doctor gave me some medicine for my seizures because they're brought on by either cold weather or anxiety. My whole body will shake really bad and go into a fit. It isn't very attractive. I have to keep a constant level of that medicine in my body so I don't go into those things. Sometimes it makes me look tired. It calms you down."

Cynara lies on the couch during our interview. "I came here to take a nap. I thought I'd catch some sleep because I'm going to be working late.

"Oh, because of my seizure issue, I can't take drugs. I did some drugs between 14 - 17. I started young and quit young. My seizure problems probably are from drugs. My doctor randomly drug tests me. Whenever I go in to see him, or my counselor, they randomly drug test me. I don't know when it's coming. I have copies of everything. They test for every single drug. I have copies in my folder that I bring to work with me every day."

I see the copies of her tests and they read negative for everything.

An hour after my interview with Cynara, I sense a rising level of tension on set. Mark Kernes from Adult Video News has been trashing me, creating hysteria in Cynara and others. Mark starts ranting against me in front of cast and crew and HBO.

I catch his last few words on tape.

Mark: "This man hates the industry. You've probably heard this before. I don't know why you let him on sets anymore."

Skye Blue yells at Mark and everyone to be quiet because Jill Kelly is shooting upstairs and the sound carries.

Cynara insists that I tape her final words to me: "I want people to know that I remember what I said during my interview and if it comes out wrong, I will be on the net explaining what I said. Because I was under the influence that it was somebody else. I didn't really know because HBO is here and a lot of people are here and I didn't know anyone else is here and if there's any gossip about me on the net, then that's it. This s--- needs to stop. We're all people and we need to be respected and not talked s--- on unless it is something that someone needs helps with. I really hope that my words will be used as I spoke them and not mixed around and not certain parts left out and certain parts put in. And if they are, I'm not going to be very happy."

Luke: "Give me your email address and I will email you the interview before it goes up on setgo.com. I've worked with your publicist for years."

Cynara: "If I would have known, no offense, I would never have done that. Never."

Wesley Emerson phones me Wednesday morning, 4/9.

Wesley: "I have a question. When you interview people, why don't you introduce yourself instead of blindsiding them and saying, 'Hi, I'd just like to ask you a few questions.'"

Luke: "I do."

Wesley: "No you don't. You didn't introduce yourself to Cynara Fox."

Luke: "You're wrong. I did."

Wesley: "Do you have that on tape?"

Luke: "I don't know if I have that introduction on tape..."

Wesley: "Well, you should from now on. If you say anything nasty about her or twist her words, I will come after you. I promise I will. I've helped her out too much for people like you to go f--- with her. I love you dearly but I'm tired of people like you f---ing with people. I'm so tired of the gossip. I feel like I'm dealing with Hedda Hopper. It appalls me. She's giving you the benefit of the doubt. I want some respect taken.

"You caught her in the middle of falling asleep for a nap. She had no idea who you were. It just hurts when she finds out who you are. I'm counting on you not to go on any of your normal dark places."

I contact Eddie Tour of www.f-ckinggossip.com for comment. He replies:

I would like to comment on Ms. Fox. First of all I would like to say that I am VERY glad to hear that she is not using any illegal drugs. I will give her the benefit of the doubt on that one, however there are MANY legal drugs, which can cause very similar effects when ABUSED. Percodan, Perocet, Xanax, Darvon, Vicodin, ect., are all perfectly legal, but can cause a person major social problems, just look at Anna Nicole Smith. I have no evidence that Ms. Fox is on any or all of these drugs, however, unless she has some extreme form of narcolepsy, I’m not quite sure what could be wrong with her. Even if she is quite ill, and has been prescribed very powerful drugs, a doctor would not advise her to take so much as to put her into such a state; difficulty standing, difficulty reading, and falling asleep on live TV. Please note: these are all verified facts, either noted by myself personally, or verified by multiple sources.

I do find it interesting that Ms. Fox is claiming Jim South told people not to hire her. This could go one of two ways, either Ms. Fox is a raving liar trying to cover for herself for not getting any work, or Jim South knew something was so wrong with her that he chose to give up money in order to fairly warn others not to shot her. I tend to lean towards the first option, knowing that Jim South will send a 30 lb. over weight, 35 year old, stripper to Vivid in the hopes of making a buck. Mr. South is also well known for knowing little to nothing about his girls, seeing as he has so many. This statement “She had a horrible experience with agent Jim South who told porners not to use her” is the strongest evidence AGAINST Ms. Fox, it clearly states that she is either willing to blatantly lie about the most successful agent in the industry, and if so what else would she be willing to lie about, or that there was something so very wrong with her that even Jim South picked up on it.

I never intended to hurt Ms. Fox’s feelings, however a rational person would not be “hurt” when confronted with the truth. This is a VERY small industry; everyone knows every thing about everyone else. Ms. Fox is just embarrassed by her own actions.