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The Penthouse Pet for the February 2006 issue calls me back at 4:50 p.m. Tuesday, April 4, 2006. Luke: "What did you do today?" Charlie: "I did a catfighting scene for JenzDollhouse.com." Charlie yells at her Italian greyhound Kobe: "You do not eat your treats on my bed." Charlie returns to me: "Kobe is the sunshine of my life." Luke: "Do you take him for walks every day?" Charlie: "I take out to go to the bathroom but I don't walk him around the neighborhood. I don't live in the best of neighborhoods. I try not to go outside. "I have my own studio apartment [in the Woodland Hills, Chatsworth, Canoga Park area]. It's small but it's mine." Luke: "When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?" Charlie: "I wanted to be a child counselor. That was because I didn't think modeling was going to go through. My dream since I was two was to model. I did mainstream until I was about 12 (TV commercials, catalogues, beauty pageants, dance competitions). At least in porn people are getting ----ed and they're open about it. They're ----ing their way to the top. They have problems. They don't give a ----. They don't try to be somebody they're not. "Porn gave me self-confidence. Mainstream ripped me apart because of my ass. I have such a tiny frame and a big butt." Luke: "How did mainstream hurt your self-esteem?" Charlie: "Instead of hearing about how beautiful I was... When I first went to work for Suze Randall, I was scared ----less because I did not have good self-esteem about my looks. I knew I was cute as a kid but as I got older in mainstream, you start getting ripped apart more. 'This is wrong with you.' 'This is wrong with you.' "In porn, they were like, 'Wow, that's great.' 'Wow, that's great.' I wasn't hearing all the negative all the time. They pointed out the positive in me. And I kept hearing it. "I guess some guys are assholes and some guys have good taste. "I have the polaroids from my first shoot [for Suze Randall]. You can see the fear in my eyes. I was like, 'Why do these people want to shoot me?' I was waiting for something bad to happen. My worst fears were ready to come true. Instead, everything I've ever wanted, especially since Penthouse came out, has been happening. I've travelled and seen the US. I have the recognition of that name behind me. "I've only done five scenes in five months. I was doing two-three a week, making my living from doing girl-girl. I've been doing a lot more modeling the past few months. It's a breath of fresh air, even though I love the porn side. I love licking pussy. But my passion is modeling." Luke: "Have you ever worked with guys on camera?" Charlie: "I did one a long time ago. It came out on some porno gossip website a couple of years back. It was devastating. [The scene] was probably one of the worst experiences of my life. I had to get wasted to do it. It was strictly for the money. It's not something I'm proud of. It wasn't what I wanted to do with my life. "If I could do boy-girl, I'd be making a lot more money but I take act between a guy and a girl so personally that the minute a camera's around or there are other people, ohmigod, what's going on. "I get more pussy than my guy friends." Luke: "How old were you when you got into nude modeling?" Charlie: "Eighteen. "I started nude modeling on the East Coast. I did a couple of workshops. Those gay workshops where you go to this big house and 12 different photographers shoot you. "I had those pictures up on a profile page on 1modelplace.com. John Stephens emailed me. 'I can guarantee you magazine work in Hustler, Cheri, Penthouse...' "I wanted to do more like mainstream and swimsuit stuff, but I realize now that I look better with my clothes off. "My grandma knows what I do. When I go home, she's like, 'Have you done any clothed jobs lately?' I say, 'No, grandma. I look better with my clothes off. Sorry.' "I came out here in November 2002 for three weeks and shot with Suze, Earl [Miller] and Stephen Hicks. I worked for Ed Powers and first did girl-girl. I moved out here in February 2003." Luke: "What do you love and hate about being a part of the Adult industry?" Charlie: "I hate the assumptions that other people make about you. I hate that just because we do what we do for a living, we're automatically judged. "I do like the ability to be who you are. I don't have to fake anything around people at work. Everybody knows that I'm a pothead. Everybody knows that I'm goofy. I don't have to be Miss Priss. 'Oh, I'm so perfect.' I'm a dork and I'm proud of it. "It was hard coming out here from a small town [in Wisconsin]. But the great people I met [in Adult] made me realize that we're all misfits. We all come out here. We all got no families. "The industry is only as bad as you make it -- if you get into the drugs, the parties, and you do stuff you don't want to do. "My famous saying is, '---- the industry. Don't let the industry ---- you.'" Luke: "What have been your best and worst experiences in the industry?" Charlie: "My best experience by far has been Penthouse. "The worst experience was my original test shoot for Penthouse with Earl Miller. He made me ball my eyes out because I was 'fat and a pizza face.' I was 18. Of course I had a couple of zits. I'm sure you've never seen me fat. I was 98 pounds. He's quite an asshole. He made me cry. I refused to work for him anymore. "I'm at my heaviest now and I weigh 112. I'm almost 5'4. "I didn't grow up dreaming about being a porn star. I grew up dreaming about being a model and traveling around. "When I do promotions for Penthouse, I get picked up at the airport by a limo. When I go to my hotel room, there's flowers or cheese or wine waiting for me. Everybody treats you with respect." Penthouse Pets often note that fans are more respectful towards them than they are towards porn stars. Porn stars at conventions get grabbed and pinched and groped and commented on. Luke: "How did your family react to your choice of career?" Charlie: "My whole family knows. My mom is proud of me. She's seen my life. She was bi growing up as well. When I told her what I was going to do, she said, 'As long as it makes you happy. As long as you are not doing anything against your own morals and you're making bank, then go for it. If I had the body, I'd be doing it too.' "My little cousins know. One is sixteen. She sat me down one day. 'How do you do it? Isn't it weird, all those people looking at you?' I said, 'It is weird at first. Either you enjoy it and get comfortable with it, or you realize it is performance.' It's both for me. I'm not as noisy in real life as I am in my scenes. "It's great that I am getting guys off without them even knowing me. They've never touched me. Just by looking at me, they get a hard-on. That's rad." Luke: "How has it affected your love life?" Charlie: "For the first two years I was in porn, I was in a relationship. It was very hard on it. You're still ----ing someone else, be it a girl or a guy. If they're not in the industry, it is hard for them to understand. It's hard for them to separate work from real life. That judgment is there that this person is automatically a whore. They do this all the time. It's not just their job. "On the other side, there are a lot of people who want to sleep with Charlie Laine, but there aren't a lot of people who want to sleep with [her real name]. "It has been hard but it's given me the self-esteem not to settle. I don't bang random. I think that's disgusting. A guy has to work to sleep with me. "Through porno, I've realized that girls have a lot of power when it comes to that. "If I'm going to give you that side of me, you have to earn it. You have to make me feel good about me as a woman. I don't have to hear that I'm beautiful. You don't need to tell me I'm sexy. I hear that all the time from my fans. If someone is to sleep with me, they have to make me laugh. They have to make me comfortable. They have to make me feel at home with myself." Luke: "What type of men do you find yourself attracted to?" Charlie: "Bad boys, but they have to be funny. I love baldheads, goatees, broad shoulders. A guy with an edge. But he has to be a dork. He can't be conceited." Luke: "What kind of crowd did you hang out with in highschool?" Charlie: "A mixed crowd. I had a couple of friends in the popular group, and the dork group, and the pothead group. I still talk to all my friends from highschool." Luke: "How do you spend your spare time?" Charlie: "I smoke pot. I watch cartoons. That's pretty much it. I'm not that active." Luke: "What are your ambitions?" Charlie: "To run this out as long as I can. Once I'm done, I want to be a mom. I've gone to make-up school, so if I have to, I have something to fall back on. I plan on going back and getting my GED. I want to make something out of porn because for the past three years, I've blown my money. I'm glad Penthouse came when it did because otherwise I'd be going out broke." |