Belladonna On ABC Thursday Night
2003-01-21 08:35:31
I thought it fair and accurate (except for perpetuating the myth that porn is a $10 billion a year industry, more like $4 billion).

AVN's Tod Hunter keeps warning porners that mainstream journalists are not your friends. Well, take it from me - any journalist who claims to be your friend is no journalist.

Yes, it is possible for a journalist to be your friend and to write about you, but as long as he allows his friendship with you to effect his reporting on you, he's no journalist.

The flip side of the constant AVN warning that mainstream journalists are not your friends is this obvious point - Adult Video News journalists are not journalists. AVN is not journalism. And none of the other websites "reporting" on the adult industry are journalism either.

There is nothing morally superior about being a journalist versus being a shill, which is what AVN and company do. But just remember when you read AVN and company, you are not getting the truth. You are getting as censored and manipulated view of porn as Russians got under communism.

It was not AVN that broke the news on porn's HIV cases post 1997. It was a few independent voices on the internet.

If you want to face the hard truth about porn, you can find it at times on setgo.com and in the mainstream media. You wont get it on the purported "porn news" sites (though the people running them are often nice people and my friends).

{URL=http://www.pornoblography.com]Carly Milne repeats herself and almost every other porner pundit here[/URL]: "But the one thing they didn't point out throughout the entire piece is that women are here of their own free will."

Guess what porners? Even if people consent to destroying themselves, catching vicious diseases, ripping apart their own psyches and souls, causing irreparable pain to their families, forever killing their own chances for social standing, THAT STILL DOESN'T MAKE IT OK FOR YOU TO PROFIT FROM. I know you don't understand this but most people do. It's obvious to most people. Assisting someone committing suicide is a crime and making pornography is a way of assisting suicide, in the view of most people.

As the LA Times pointed out two weeks ago, legal experts say you can't sign away your rights to sue if you catch some horrible disease on the job.

And just because people consent to something doesn't morally absolve you, or your industry.

According to the ABCNews website: "How does a nice Mormon girl end up starring in porno films? Primetime investigates the hugely profitable adult film industry, and talks to some of the young men and women who are drawn into the business by the
promise of quick cash."

Mike Paul writes on RAME: Ummm, I'd say "Pornography Chainsaw Massacre" comes close. It appears that no matter what an actress says about how much she enjoys the work, it's probably a lie. From Ona Zee through Bella Donna, and probably beyond.

Who told Dr. Koop that the fans despise the actors?...

It will seem odd if/when OSHA mandates condoms for sex workers, when the Justice Department wants nothing to do with the Industry about discrimination or other job-related problems.

Edroogie writes on RAME: Some errors are blatant. Koop says the users (us consumers) despise the talent/producers of porn....I have found no evidence of that after 30 years of viewing. They (Koop & Sawyer) state that there are no health benefits/insurance or unions. I defy them to find any of those things on ANY independent film or video poduction with a budget of 5-15 grand...it's unheard of. They speak of residuals and
profit-sharing...most if not all "non-SAG" straight actors get their "day rate" and that's it! As for "Bella" she may not like herself at times (which brings her to tears in the piece) but is that not in itself the exact psychological "turn-on" which submissives/masochists seek? No matter what ABC tells us, she's totally into being ravaged/choked/gangbanged by 12 dudes as well as being tied up and slapped/whipped...not to mention her winning awards at AVN.

Lordish writes on RAME: This wasn't the hatchet job I was expecting. What it did mostly was to confirm what was in the recent New York Times article on the same subject. The porn industry is very hard on the women and it's clearly
ready for major reform.

Now I was both impressed and saddened by Bella's story of her start in the biz. It's sad that she feels trapped, but she DID get serious recognition for her work and she's developed LEGIONS of loyal fans, and that seemed to compensate for her difficulties. Even though she's paid a price Bella impressed me as a very resilient young woman--she fought back from her depression and kept soldiering on. Whether or not the
extreme stress of the business gets to her like so many others remains to be seen.

As for the drugs she's started it's everywhere in society and no
evidence was presented that showed that the porn industry was worse than any other sector.

The one thing that really pissed me off was Sawyer's constant harping that what was happening was disgusting. Clearly a very large percentage of the video renting and buying public disagree. I'm one of them.

What has got to be done is to try to remove the stigma that punishes ALL sex workers. Like I've been saying, the people in porn are people and they deserve the dignity that their labor should give them. Dr. Koop was right. I for one really apprieciate what the girls do. I admire them. They surely should be compensated more than $1500 for potentially
dangerous scenes like double anals. Prostitution should have been legalized nationwide decades ago as it was in Europe Working in porn should NOT turn the workers into social pariahs. Why has there been no union organizing?

Some technical way has to be found to preserve an illusion of
unprotected sex. It was asserted that sales go down when male condoms are involved in a scene. Are there any kind of alternative means? Perhaps the female condom? I hear that they are difficult to use but it may be worth the effort.

What is necessary is state health regulation of the business that recognizes the economic truth of the business, and some kind of union for the performers. There should be some kind of union person at offices of the agents handling porm to fully inform new performers EXACTLY what they are getting involved with.

I know that everyone who reads or posts to RAME knows that World
Modeling primarily handles people in porn. It is unconsionable that the new girls find out ONLY after they've started their interviews. World Modeling needs to put the fact on their advertising matter.

I note now that Bella has her own production company. God bless her and good luck to her! No matter what, she's turned out to be BRILLIANT at what she does.

PS Natcho Vidal is now on my thug list with TT Boy, Rocco Siffredi and Max Hardcore. What he's been doing to Bella in their scenes together is horrifying.

JMT writes on www.simplyjimmyd.com: If you professional porno people made your stuff seem anywhere close to as depraved and filthy as this Primetime Live thing depicts it, your sales would go way up. I'm eagerly awaiting the next 30 minutes . . . .

The phrase "double-anal" is first uttered on American network TV. Leonard Goldenson spins in his grave. And my local ABC affiliate mysteriously loses its satellite feed ... hmmmm.

Undertaker writes on RAME: I felt bad for BellaDonna when she was beaten up by the Spanish actor she had fallen for. She obviously thought the guy liked her and she was smitten with him.

The voice over on the ABC show said that the beating the guy gave
BellaDonna was not in the script and it didn't make the final cut in the video. Roughing her up that way was totally unnecessary. I got the impression that she isn't going to remain in the industry much longer.

DDD says: Damn, jim south is creepy. Johnathan morgan....drugs took their toll...ugh jim south just went up on the creep-o-meter. wow./bellas kiddie pics. damn.this abc show is creepy. again mr south gets creepy.

Steve Banan writes: "ABC spent almost two years with Bella and tonight presented to the world a negative slant on the industry. The industry was portrayed as monsters were horrible people exist, something like a snake pit would come to mind

"It shed a horrible light on this industry and the people that make it up. I am sure from the presentation by ABC this evening, that Middle America, will get the idea that our industry is just waiting in the shadows to grab these young girls and put them in to porn - slavery."

Fast Eddie writes: Well, the one thing I gained from the show was the fact that Porn isn't going away... with the dollars it now generates, and the corporate involvement, it's bigger than Disney! The one laugh I got was the comparison to the NFL in terms of the amount of money it generated... The ABC producers failed to take into account the 100 billion or so generated by gambling on pro football....

While I thought the show was fairly straight forward in what it was about, it did focus on the "lowest common denominator" in the adult industry, the nastiest of the gonzo product... but that's what gets the ratings, I suppose... I mean, what kind of an "expose" would it be if it concentrated on the Vivid's and Wicked Pictures's kind of porn...

A couple of specific observations.... What was Jim South, Patrick Collins and Jonathan Morgan thinking??? Are they of the opinion that any publicity is good publicity? I don't care how mainstream porn is becoming, isn't it common sense to keep as low a profile as possible? Obviously they're not as smart as GM or Marriott.

Also, Randy West looked to be about 70 years old. Ona Zee is looking her age as well.

I do agree that there should be better self-policing, but truthfully, what industry left to self-examination has ever done so in a straight forward and honest manner... The AMA? The Airline Industry? The drug companies? It just doesn't happen... When the watchdogs are the same people who hold the purse strings, what can you expect.

Unfortunately, most people see the porn industry the same way they see escorts... They only know what they hear from the media, and the media usually goes for sensationalism... so prostitutes are all seen as drug addled women who hate men, hate themselves, and come from a shattered home life... they see only the story of the street hooker, and extrapolate that to include all working girls... I'd bet that if you asked the average person, they'd say that escorts don't kiss. And if you told them that some escorts are passionate, vocal and highly skilled at making a man feel good, they'd think you were crazy.

The same can be said of the porn industry... when stories are told, it's always a tragic tale like Shauna Grant's that get attention, and it's always the extremes of the porn industry like Rob Black's kind of videos that get the focus. It's easier for people to think that all pornstars hate what they're doing and are exploited... But for every Bella Donna out there, there are others who have used the industry to create a lucrative feature dance career, or a profitable website, etc. who knew exactly what they were doing and what they were getting into... I'm not saying that the industry doesn't take advantage of naive young women, but so does hollywood, madison ave., and virtually any business that uses sex to sell or enhance their product.

.....................................

I hung out with Belladona on the set of Jill Kelly Productions "LatinaX" shoot 1/23/03.

I walk in at 10:30AM. Lola sits on a couch ready to take on Julian St Jox and Mark Ashley. Lola says she heard Alexis Amore has signed with Jill Kelly Productions. Lola says she wants a contract.

Jason, behind the scenes camera guy, says many companies have been competing for Alexis. He implies that companies are not competing for Lola.

Lola says she hasn't been exercising and that she is out of shape and overweight.

Bud Lee, an amiable grandfather figure, is today's director.

Lola says she was sexually active with other girls by the age of seven. She lost her virginity to a guy at age 14.

Along with Jason the camera guy, I chat with Dee and find out she split a year ago from her husband Rob. They had a porn company together - Rob/Dee Enterprises. It's now owned by Rob. Dee took the house and has her own company, Diva, distributed by Video Team. Her business partner is Video Team director Vance Styles.

Rob does promotion for Oz Entertainment, which used to be the strip club Bob's Classy Lady.

Dee says Jason's a boring interviewer. I think he generally asks good questions but he's unable to fire up Dee.

Steve Chase is the production manager for Jill Kelly Productions, earning $100,000 a year. He owns the Lee Network, a big agency booking strippers, with Tony Endovino.

Steve says that Jason and his friend Scott Justice, Michael Raven's businss partner, both need to stay away from the buffet.

Steve brought his wife Rebecca Bardoux into the business in 1992. Steve had a long relationship with Lita Chase, now on the escorting circuit. He's now married to porn star Sondra Hall, several months pregnant and a PA on today's shoot.

I follow Jason to interview Belladonna. We've never met. She gives me an enthusiastic greeting. She's read my stuff for years.

Belladonna broke up with her boyfriend Nacho Vidal at the recent AVN Expo.

Bella: "We're both working and doing good. We're happy."

Bella is a stunning curvaceous woman covered with tattoos. She's just moved back to Los Angeles.

Bella: "I was born in Biloxi, Mississippi. I went to Idaho, Germany, California, Delaware, Utah. My Dad was a bishop in the Mormon Church. My parents had eight kids.

"When I started in porn, I didn't care what they thought. They're just people. After I started, I called them up and said, 'Guess what I'm doing? I'm doing porno.' They asked, 'Are you happy"' I said, 'Yes I am. I have a lot of money.' They said ok."

Bella entered the industry three years ago when she was eighteen.

Jason: "Are you scared about the ABC show tonight? You know they're going to chop it up to make you look bad."

Bella: "Yeah I'm scared. They've been following me around for two years. I hope they don't chop me up. I'm really nervous. I made sure every time I said something, that if something is bad in my life, it's not because of porno. I've done my own things. You could ask another girl and she could've had a totally different experience in porno. You can't take my story and make it seem like everyone's story.

"I watched THE VIEW yesterday. Diane Sawyer was on there. She showed part of my interview, where I was crying. She made me cry. She asked me questions I didn't expect. I was already nervous because it was her. I hadn't eaten all day. She was like, 'Why are you smiling while you are saying all these things?'

"She was asking me questions about my life and how I had a lot of depression problems in my life. I was just being honest."

Jason: "What questions did she ask that made you cry?"

Belladonna: "Why I was doing videos... I've stopped a couple of times. I was like, I like the attention. I like a lot of attention. In my family, we had eight children. I didn't get a lot of attention when I was young. I was like, wow man, I'm getting a lot of attention and I'm getting paid for it."

Jason: "Why were you smiling?"

Bella: "Diane would ask, what do you do? And I'd say, Oh, I do anal. And I'd always smile. That's who I am. And she asked, why are you smiling when you say these things? And it hit me off guard and it made me think and I started tearing up. I want people to see me happy. I don't want everyone to know my problems. I have a lot of drama."

Jason: "With a name like Belladonna, we'd expect nothing less than a lot of drama."

Luke: "Did they get to see much of your drama?"

Bella: "I'm sure they did. They met me before I met Nacho. They saw me meet Nacho and they saw me fighting with Nacho and they saw me break up with Nacho. I have no patience. I like change. I'm always changing. As I get older, I think I know what I want more.

"Over the past three years, I've done a lot of hard work and now I want to rest."

Jason: "So what do you want?"

Bella: "I want to be done doing porn in six months. I want to go to massage therapy college. I'm good with my hands. I love to massage people. I'm so good at it. I heal people. I have magical hands. Underneath your skull, I like massaging the bone structure and behind your ears."

Jason: "They do it my salon when I get my hair done, while they're washing it, they massage through it."

Steve Chase: "They massage you while you have a mask and cucumbers on your eyes and a wrap. And a pedicure too."

Jason: "Well, yeah, I crossdress."

Bella: "I had my legs waxed for the first time in Spain a month ago and it hurt. I was crying. I hadn't shaved in a month. When I'm in Spain, I don't shave. I was bushy. I love it. I think it is so sexy. If a woman is sexy and she likes to be hairy, she can look good too. But I didn't keep it for much longer because I care about other people."

Luke: "What did you fight with Nacho about at AVN Expo?"

Bella: "I wanted to not be with him. When I break up with someone, I don't want to hang out with them and still be friends. If I'm away from them, I'm not going to torture myself about being jealous of every little thing.

"I wanted to be alone and he wanted us to be friends. Finally, I just gave in but the whole time in my heart, I felt like I needed some separation. It was me. Nacho is a great guy. I have a lot of issues I have to deal with in my life."

Luke: "Did you feel better after crying with Diane Sawyer?"

Bella: "I got to spend a couple of hours with her in New York. I felt better after crying but really I felt like it could've been done somewhere else. It didn't have to be with Diane Sawyer. I could've called my family and cried about those things.

"I didn't expect her to make it look like that. They had been telling me, 'Oh, she's not going to make you look bad. She's not going to bag on the industry.' But when you make someone cry..."

Jason: "That's her forte. It's not in hopes to make you look bad to bring out the inner person."

Bella: "She was a great woman. She had a lot of nice things to say. I gave my opinion on the industry and my experience of the industry. Many people may not agree with me telling the truth. Every industry in the world has similar problems [to porn]. I'm not the kind of person to go on a show and lie because I want everything to look perfect.

"I was a f-----up person before I got into the industry. If they think I'm f-----up because of the industry, they're stupid."

Jason: "I think most of the girls are a little bit f-----up on the way in."

Bella: "If I was a happy person with a lot of self esteem and confidence that I could get another job, I probably would never have done porn. I could've done something else and had a lot more. Now people are always going to think that this is the kind of person I am.

"When I am at home, I like to make passionate love. I'm a freak in bed if you want me to be. I'm not always into rough sex. I adapt to whatever my lover likes. I like to be whatever that person wants me to be because that makes me horny.

"I was always sexual. At five years old, I was humping girls. I had dreams about f---ing guys at age eight or nine. My parents were strict Mormons. We weren't even supposed to masturbate. I wasn't supposed to use tampons. I felt guilty. Now I feel free. You should never tell anyone what they should be when they're young. They will always remember that."

Belladonna won four awards at the AVN Awards earlier this month in Las Vegas:

Best Oral Sex Scene - Film
The Fashionistas, Belladonna & Rocco Siffredi, Evil Angel

Best Supporting Actress - Film
Belladonna, The Fashionistas, Evil Angel

Best Tease Performance
Belladonna, The Fashionistas, Evil Angel

Best All-Girl Sex Scene - Film
The Fashionistas, Belladonna & Taylor St. Claire, Evil Angel

DUC asks Belladonna about her fight with Nacho Vidal at the AVN Awards.

Bella: "I was getting my awards and Nacho got pissed off at me because this guy was talking to me and holding my hand the whole time."

Bella takes my hand in hers. She's sexual. I can't help getting excited by this 21-year-old nymph.

Bella: "And I'm a nice person so I was just listening to what he had to say but Nacho didn't like that. 'Why did you let him hold your hand for that long?' Because I'm that kind of person. I'm not going to do anything with him. We were fighting over something stupid like that."

Luke: "How did you like getting your awards?"

Bella: "It was nice. I enjoyed doing that movie (Fashionistas for Evil Angel) so much. It got a lot of attention and it deserved it. I never enjoyed doing dialogue so much in my life. I like working with John Stagliano. He's such a creative guy."

I chat privately with Belladonna about Australia and other topics and then we go our separate ways.

Dee gives Jason a hard time about his lame question selection for her.

Jason: "I don't like it when people give me a hard time about my questions."

Bella has to run off in two hours to do dialogue for Jenna Jameson's movie I DREAM OF JENNA.

Bella: "I did a scene with her last night. It was great. I'd never met her. I'd never wanted to cry after having an orgasm before. She did me anally with a strap-on. It was a hard scene. Afterwards, we were just holding each other. It was passionate. There were five other girls (including Nakita Denise) and T.T. Boy f------. You could hear screaming. TT did all the girls except Jenna and I.

"TT is Nacho's best friend so I could never work with him."

Billy Glide and Belladonna would like to own their own porn production companies but they're not aggressive or skilled enough.

Billy: "If somebody got the ball rolling, I could keep it going."

Bella: "I think my ball got pushed with the Fashionistas. Now I don't have to do many scenes any more because I have my series (for brand new company Cineplex)."

Bella says she needs to smoke marijuana because she's so hyper. "I have so much energy and I won't stop talking [without dope]. You can get like a year's worth of content in one day."

Bella didn't start using drugs until she entered porn, as pointed out by the ABC documentary.

Bella to Billy: "How many times did I come over to your house before I fu---- you? Four or five times.

"He treats me like a goddess. He massages me. And he's such a handyman around the house.

"I'm a freak. Maybe this is why we shouldn't smoke weed. Do you smoke?"

Luke: "No."

Bella has real breasts. "I have a bra on that makes them look bigger."

Mark Ashley: "How did you learn to arch?"

Bella: "My first boyfriend... I have a constant need for attention. So even if I get f-----, I want to get f---- again right after. Again and again. I'm begging for it. I'd be laying in bed and I wanted to get him to look at me. I wanted his attention. So I'd keep my ass arched as far up as possible, but still laying down. And I'd wear the tightest shortest pair of shorts. And I'd stay like that for hours so he'd notice me."

Luke: "That's funny."

Bella: "I know. So sad. But I learned to arch. That and gymnastics."

Thom Burr writes on RAME: Wow. They must have actually *worked* to find a porn "starlet" as seedy and degraded as Bella. Tarnished Jenna J. looks and sounds like a princess compared to Bella the Gap-Toothed Gape Whore.

Why do I sense a vicious little hatchet-job coming down the pike? I mean, if you're following _Bella_ around to get info on the porn biz, just how unwonderful is porn going to oh-so-quickly look? Unless one is very jaded, or determined to be naive, Bella is a poster girl for the darker sides of porn...

Speedskater writes on RAME: "Lured by the promise of quick cash"? Like they're offering candy to 5-year-olds. You know, the promise of cash is the reason I went into the f---ing newspaper industry.

It's obviously going to be a slanted, preachy, distorted hatchet job, but I'll watch, rooting for Bella to hold her own. Just be thankful they didn't have the idea of profiling Bisexual Britni.

From the Salt Lake Tribune:
The story is so familiar: Michelle Sinclair was an 18-year-old from Magna who wanted to make it big as a model in Los Angeles.
Two years ago, she packed her bags and headed west with a portfolio under her arm and an offer for work, except the job was not modeling clothes -- it was posing in the nude. That led to photos in sex magazines and, ultimately, lesbian porn movies.
Today at 20, Sinclair -- whose stage name is "Belladonna" -- is a rising star in the adult entertainment industry, a far cry from the outgoing schoolgirl attending church with her mother, father and six siblings.
Sinclair's journey is the focus of a "Primetime Thursday" special that looks at the growing pornography industry and the impact it has on the people who perform in it. It airs at 9 p.m. on KTVX Channel 4.
Television news crews followed Sinclair for two years, tracking her ups and downs in the business, which generates between $10 billion and $12 billion a year, according to the report. The show's host, Diane Sawyer, also interviews Sinclair's mother, 43-year-old Dianna Hamilton.
Hamilton, who was unable to provide a working telephone number for Sinclair, has felt helpless to stop her daughter from continuing in the sex-film industry.
"I don't want her doing that. It will hurt her eventually," Hamilton said Wednesday in an interview with The Salt Lake Tribune. "She told me that they always use condoms, and they are always tested. She seemed so professional about it, but at the same time, I know it has to hurt her sometime."
Sinclair was born in Mississippi, the daughter of an Air Force personnel officer who had to uproot his family many times, according to Hamilton. Sinclair's father declined to be interviewed.
The family finally settled in Utah after friends said the job market was good, and "we always wanted to live in the center of the Mormon church," said Hamilton, who at the time was an active member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
Sinclair was soon in trouble, dropping out of the ninth grade at Hunter Junior High School in West Valley City and running away from home to be with a boyfriend.
Hamilton was at a loss for ideas.
"By then, my marriage with [Michelle's father] was falling apart," said Hamilton, who has since remarried. "He was washing his hands of her, and I was getting frustrated with her. It was a big mess and a very frustrating time. It felt like there was nothing that would work."
Sinclair met some Salt Lake City strippers and made $500 dancing in the nude at a bachelor party.
"She thought this was easy money," her mother said. "She was all confused inside."
While Sinclair was working in a Salt Lake City strip club, a local photographer assembled a portfolio for her so she could head for Los Angeles.
"She told me she was going to do lingerie modeling, but she actually went to do lesbian porn with her friend," said Hamilton. "She showed me some magazines that were disgusting. They were pictures of people having sex. Then she admitted to doing some actual sex. It took me a year to fully learn what she was doing."

.............

I hang out with publicist Jason Sechrest and porn star Shay Sights. He says that Shay won't be doing a scene with her ex-boyfriend Nick Manning tomorrow afternoon.

Jason: "It's ridiculous that anyone who is going through a breakup should have to have sex with the person they are emotionally distraught over."

Shay: "I don't think it was unprofessional for me not to want to do that."

Jason: "Nick thought it was unprofessional for her to pull out of the scene. You have to think about your soul and what's good for you personally before you think about work."

Shay: "You have to take care of yourself. If you're not grounded and stable and you don't take care of yourself first, then how do you handle this industry?"

Luke: "What happened between Shay and Nick at the AVN Expo?"

Jason: "We are not going to comment on that at this time. I'm sure Nick will have a lot to say."

Shay: "I have nothing but good things to say about Nick. I learned a lot from him over two years. He's a great guy."

Jason: "You've rehearsed that so well."

Luke: "At the AVN Awards, was that all your real hair?"

Shay: "No."

Jason: "Yes."

Shay: "Yes."

Laughter.

DUC to Shay: "What's the biggest rumor about you?"

Shay: "That I was in a relationship for two years in which I had no control. I was just sort of there and Nick bossed me around. I was there out of choice and I don't regret it. I didn't live in a POW camp."

DUC To Jason: "Is it true you have ties to organized crime?"

Jason laughs: "I wish. One big rumor about me, more in the gay industry, is that I am really 30 years old. I'm 23. A lot of people don't believe that I could've come so far and write what I write."

Shay: "You're an old soul."

Luke: "Who are the biggest Mafiosi in porn?"

Jason: "I know nothing about Mafia in porn. I don't associate with VCA Pictures."

Shay: "VCA? I thought it was Metro."

Luke: "Jason, how come people don't hate you for your hard-hitting gossip on jasoncurious.com?"

Jason: "Number one, as you said, is that I check my sources and I make sure that everything is true before I publish. More than that, I learned everything I know about writing gossip columns from Liz Smith. I love to think of myself as the Liz Smith of the porn industry. She will write something scandalous but she will put such a positive spin on it. She will write something horrible that a Hollywood star has done and then go, 'Oh, but who cares? Shouldn't we all just look beyond that to the person who is inside?'

"I find a way to do it so that other people can't be angry. And I link to everyone."

Luke: "Why did you say Paul Fishbein was your idol in your piece on the cancelation of the GAYVNs?"

Jason: "It was another example of my way of what I just explained. Doing a negative piece but putting a positive spin on it so they were not angry at me for it."

Luke: "Are you related to DJ Ryan Sechrest of American Idol?"

Jason: "No. But my friend Sam Phillips went out with Ryan once and he told her that he gets asked all the time if he's related to me."

I ask several porn studs, Mark Ashley, Julian St. Jox, Billy Glide and company if the US should go to war with Iraq and they all say no.

It seems more porners drive the SUV Cadillac Escalade than any other car.

I hear Janine is marrying Jessie James, who does shows on the Discovery Channel.

I interview Lola.

Lola: "Lola has been getting her sh-- back together again and she is going to come back and possibly do A. I've never done anal before. I think it is time I kick it up a notch. I want to get really nasty."

Luke: "What have you been doing to get your life back together?"

Lola: "Getting rid of the boyfriend [Mickey G]. We were called the Ike and Tina [Turner] of the industry."

Luke: "Did he beat you?"

Lola: "No. I beat him. He deserved it. I gave him a couple of black eyes and a fat lip.

"Mickey G is in his own world. I tried to fit in but it didn't happen. I'm ok with that because I don't want to fit in to his world.

"Mickey and I never had rought sex. It was the opposite. It was delicate. I was like a flower.

"For me to succeed at anything I do, I can't have anybody in my life."

Luke: "Is the industry a nurturing place for relationships?"

Lola: "Not at all. There's nothing nurturing to relationships in this business. If anything, it destroys them. Only one couple I know has survived all that - Kim Chambers and Scott Styles.

"I love men but because I've worked with so many men in movies, I'm starting to like women more than ever before. I've had so much cock... In some ways, I get jaded and want nothing to do with sex. Being in front of the camera boosts my ego."

Luke: "What do you love about the industry?"

Lola: "Makeup. That's my favorite part. I love meeting new people."

Luke: "What do you hate the most about the industry?"

Lola: "The attitudes [of superiority]. But I realized when I took a break that every industry has that.

"I want a contract. There's no company right now promoting a latin star. I've been in the industry for a while and I've made a good name for myself but nobody seems to be picking up on that."

I chat with photographer Larry Sultan. He's smart and takes great photos that appear in New York Times Sunday magazine, Esquire, Details, Detours, etc. He's working on a coffee table book of pictures from porn sets.

Larry needs more photos of men for his book that comes out next spring. The most photogenic men he finds are the Puerto Rican crew members Sean and Spud.

Sean is a terribly forbidding looking guy with a tattoo that reads, "Today I kill, Tomorrow I'm king."

I chat with Billy Glide. He remembers his early porn days in 1999 when he was passing out all the time on set from taking the drug GHB.

Jason, the behind the scenes cameraman, is quick on his feet and with the camera. I ask him if he has a background in ballet. No. He was a pulling tackle at CSUN. His fighting weight is 240.

I chat with Duke Hunter from www.thehardcoresource.com. He's been a bounty hunter for 20 years. He arrests people who skip out on bail and takes them to jail. Dangerous, exciting work.

Mark Ashley is from Vancouver, Canada. He started out in amateur videos for The Firm, before moving to LA a year ago. He's done over 100 videos.

Mark: "I have a much higher style of living than I was used to."

Mark's porn star girlfriend is Petra.

Luke: "How do you have a relationship and work in porn?"

Mark: "You have to acknowledge that sometimes you get jealous and if you have to deal with it. Acknowledge that you're better off in a relationship. I deal with my job better, with stress better, when I am in a relationship."

Mark's alienated from his family. "I was never close to my family. Obviously, if I got into this business, my family was not an issue. My brother hung up on me."

Luke: "What do you hate the most about the industry?"

Mark: "Doing gangbangs."

Belladonna Responds To ABC TV's Primetime
2003-01-24 14:26:13

Belladonna was embarrassed and ashamed of the documentary and the way she came across.

AVN's Mark Kernes reacts with fury to the documentary here.

Mike Quasarman writes www.simplyjimmyd.com: "Anyone who gives this girl a job in the future should be brutally beaten with a bag of hammers. Her performance last night makes Alexandria Quinn's Hard Copy performance of a decade earlier look like an infomerical by comparison. I shot Bella twice and at no time did she indicate to me that her "smile" was a facade. At no time did she mention that her deeply religious mother was disappointed in her. It was indeed difficult to ascertain her troubled history while she was yelling "f--- me harder you f---!!!!" May Bella Donna be relegated to the only thing she is truly qualified for; collecting public assistance."

What Mike and other porners don't get is that people are different around different people. Belladonna the porn star is a different person to the girl away from porn, be Michelle alone with her family or with Diane Sawyer. People are complex even when they're porn stars and they liked to get f---ed hard on camera.

I walk in to the Jill Kelly Productions set at 11AM. Bud Lee is shooting another scene for the movie LatinX. It features Jezebel Bonde, as white as they come, and a muscular Puerto Rican named Talon. Bond has severe toothache and a swollen face. She and Talon do their scene on bar stools.

"That's why they call it work," says director Bud Lee.

Jason, the behind-the-scenes camera guy, and I step outside with Belladonna.

Jason: "This is the day after we saw your program Primetime. They chopped you up."

Bella: "Yeah, they chopped me up a lot. They didn't let me finish. There were certain things I said and then afterwards I said something else. Those parts weren't even shown.

"They made a lot of things up. I was never waiting for a contract from anyone. There were so many things they added."

Luke: "Did you apply for a contract at VCA?"

Bella: "No. Never. The whole mailbox thing. I was checking my mail one day and they were recording me. I wasn't waiting for a contract in the mail. I never wanted a contract because I knew I could make more money doing my own thing.

"This is embarrassing. There was so much cut-out."

Luke: "What about your mother wanting to be your personal assistant on a series?"

Belladonna: "When I got my series, I told her that I wanted her to come work for me. I'd love to be able to take care of my Mom. She's a great worker. I brought her out here and I gave her $5000 cash and appointed her my production manager. I was going to pay her $5000 every month.

"But the money I was promised at first to do my own series got changed. Everything went wrong and she ended up going back [to Utah]."

Jason: "Did you actually send your sister to college?"

Bella: "I paid for most of her college. She's graduated. She was in Washington [State]. She had two part-time jobs. She said she didn't have enough money for school. So I was like, I will pay you to work for me.

"She said, 'What do you want me to do?' I said, 'I don't know. Whatever you want.' I sent her money every month. She was supposed to be working for me. She went to tax classes so she could do my taxes for me.

"Now I've got her a job out here. She's office manager for Red Light Video. She's the blonde girl. She's amazing. She's so talented. She would never do porno. She's the opposite of me."

Dion's Red Light District Video, like many porn companies, is funded by organized crime, in particular, by Dion's brother's gambling operation out of Costa Rica.

Jason: "Don't you think they took the worst things. They were following you for two years. Because you're young and you are new in the business, you are not going to be very stable in what you want."

Bella: "Ohmigod, I still am not."

Doesn't it make you feel morally clean that pornography depends on the consent of emotionally unstable girls who do not know what they want? Terrific, we're all absolved because they consent.

Jason: "They took the most negative things about you and portrayed them out of context..."

Luke: "As most journalists do..."

Bella: "She talked about those times when I thought about suicide or depression... Those are things I've been dealing with since I was a child, before I got into this industry. You're asking me a question and I'm giving you the honest to God truth but you're not showing the honest to God truth."

Belladonna was most anxious yesterday to say she hadn't said anything bad about the industry to ABC and she's even more anxious today to reiterate her point.

Bella: "It wasn't because of porno. Porno just happened to be a part of that.

"Diane Sawyer didn't do anything. She did that one interview of me. That was the only time I ever met her. So all her crew was doing all her stuff. I just think it's embarrassing."

Luke: "Who's your friend who came out from Utah and you got her into the porn industry?"

Belladonna: "Gia. She's gorgeous. [ABC blocked out her face] because she didn't want to do porno and she didn't want her face used. She didn't even want to be on camera. She was only in porn for two months.

"She came out here. She needed a job. The only thing I know out here is porno. You don't have to do it. I would never ask you to do it. That's the only help I can give you.

"At first I got her to do girl-girl stuff. Then she on her own decided to do boy-girl and anal. She wanted money fast."

Jason: "That original 12-prisoner gangbang [for Anabolic], was that disturbing for you?"

Bella: "Yeah. I didn't want to do it. I told my agent [Roy Garcia?] at least four or five times, I didn't want to do it. Then I had the owner of the company [Christopher Alexander aka Biff Malibu] begging me to do it. Begging me. Begging me. I don't know how many times I told him I didn't want to do it.

"I was on my period. I was leaving that night to go to Seattle to visit my sister. And he just kept on. I'm the kind of person who has the personality where I just give in. Ok, ok. I'm a people pleaser."

Jason: "Have you gone past that? Do you know not to give in to what you don't want?"

Bella: "I'm still working on it. My problem is that I am a people pleaser. I want to give everyone what they want."

Jason: "I need some pleasing. Could you help me out?"

Luke: "She is. She's giving you an interview."

Jason: "That's not what I'm talking about.

"You went to the wrong location this morning. What's up with that?"

Bella: "My mind is gone right now."

Jason: "Because of last night?"

Bella: "Yeah, that and I had 30 million messages on my answer machine."

Luke: "What have people been saying?"

Bella: "They were calling me before I even saw it because they saw it on the East Coast. They said, 'Ohmigod, I love you. I thought it was just great. I was so happy. I was crying.'

"I said, 'Well, I hope it looked good.' I don't know."

Luke: "It was heartbreaking."

Bella: "It was disappointing. It wasn't all the things that I felt every day. It was just that one time [when she broke down]."

Jason: "What would you like to set straight?"

Bella: "I wish that you could see the whole story. My experience in porno is my own experience and I never blamed anything on this industry. I never wanted anyone to help me get out of this business."

Luke: "Suppose your mother would've come to LA, put you in handcuffs and taken you home to Utah. How would you have reacted?"

Bella: "I probably would've fought her the whole way. Even if my Mom would've come to try to stop me, I would've done this anyway. I'm that kind of person. I have to find out things for myself."

Luke: "Did you hear from your Dad?"

Bella: "No. I don't really talk to him much. My Dad's always been supportive. I don't know what my Mom was saying on that tape. Of course he was probably embarrassed. My Dad has always been the first one to come to me. 'Whatever you need. I love you. You're a great person.'

"I've done lots for my whole family. I'm the one who paid for Christmas last year. I'm the one who brought my sister out to Christmas because she couldn't afford it.

"Everyone was always like, 'You're never going to be smart. You will never get a job.' Well, look who's supporting everyone now? The people who were saying I would never have a good job don't have good jobs."

Jason: "You can only criticize the hand that feeds you so much. You're bringing a better life to them."

Bella: "not only that, but I think I'm a pretty damn good person. I think I treat people nicely. Porno has nothing to do with anyone's personality."

Jason: "What do you see for yourself?"

Bella: "I see a bright future."

Jason: "How much more do you want to accomplish in this business?"

Bella: "In six months, I will be done. But I will always have my website and my live webcam. I want people to see what my life is like."

Luke: "Are you in therapy?"

Bella: "I was in a hospital for a year straight when I was younger. When I was twelve, fourteen... I've always had a lot of problems. I had my first boyfriend when I was 15. He was 22. I've always liked older men."

Jason: "Have you thought about regular therapy?"

Bella: "Yes, I'd love to have someone to talk to, at least once a week. I'd love to get on a medication. It's not that I have huge problems but I have low self esteem. I have manic depression. I'm bipolar. I have ADHD. I was diagnosed with all these since I was a little girl."

Jason: "You have the money. Why don't you do it?"

Bella: "Sometimes you just get caught up in other things. I was dealing with relationship problems. Now I'm definitely going to do something about it."

Luke: "Did you cry while watching the show?"

Bella: "I didn't cry. I was laughing. Ohmigod. I was embarrassed. I was hiding my face from my friends. It was so embarrassing. They'd say one thing, like, Michelle has chlamydia. Who doesn't?"

DUC to Jason: "Do you have chlamydia?"

Jason: "I've never had an STD."

Luke: "Neither have I."

Bella: "If you haven't, it's probably because you've protected yourself. A lot of people out there have probably had it more times than I have. I never had an STD until I got into this business, when I was 19 years old."

Jason: "I'd like to take a shot at getting one from her."

Bella: "It sucks man. You don't go out looking for this."

Luke: "Diane Sawyer made a good point that you always smile."

Bella: "I always do."

Jason: "A defense mechanism."

Bella smiles: "Constantly. You got me on that one."

Luke: "We need to ask the question like Diane Sawyer did."

Jason: "We're not going to make her cry."

Bella: "I really am a happy person. It's when I'm by myself and I start to think about things I've done in my life, that's when I become depressed. I didn't know what I wanted for my future. I need change all the time. That's the whole ADD [Attention Deficit Disorder] thing.

"My goal for the year is to buy a house and be happy and that's it."

Luke: "What was that with Nacho slapping you?"

Bella: "That was for a movie. I liked that."

Luke: "You didn't look like you were enjoying it."

Bella: "I really was. I like the adrenalin rush. It's like role-playing when I have sex [on camera]. That's not who I am. In porno I've done everything. I need something to really make me go crazy. Nacho had the power to make me go crazy."

Luke: "How did Chris Alexander [owner of Anabolic] treat you after the gangbang?"

Bella: "I really was upset. I was balling. I was crying. I was downstairs in the shower room [in the prison]. It was real [prison]. He comes down. I'm in the shower crying. And he's [oblivious]. He didn't even pay attention to the fact that I was crying. He walked out.

"I didn't really want him to say anything to me because why would I want him to say anything to me? He basically fu--ing begged me to do this."

Luke: "Is this the worst experience you had in the industry?"

Bella: "It's the only bad experience I've had in the industry. I've had little things happen to me. That was the only time I cried."

Luke: "There was another time, when you went to Prague, that you got all beat up."

Bella: "Oh no. That was my skin. Did you see it? I was all beat up. My skin was really bad for a long time. They had the cameras on me the whole time and none of the time I looked good. I looked beat up. I had just had sex. I had five different loads on my face. I had pimples everywhere."

Jason: "Like Lola did yesterday after her scene."

Belladonna runs off to do her scene.

I chat with Dylan, husband of Vivid girl Dascha. They plan to leave porn in the next three months and move to the Czech Republic, where Dascha is from.

Dylan: "My peepee is about to fall off. I need to give it a rest."

Jason: "Did you enjoy the AVN Awards this year?"

Dylan: "It was a joke. It was ridiculous. This year was awful. I think guys who sit in an office and view tapes and have no clue what is going on out there in the trenches [should not be deciding awards]. The directors and producers who put movies together know what is going on. Most of the people who won this year were ridiculous.

"I'm not saying that I should've won. I was nominated for seven awards and I think maybe I should've won one, if any. I'm upset that people who should've won, didn't. Perfect example, Stephen St Croix, hands down, Best Actor. No one even close.

"Lexington Steele. I love him to death. Male Performer again? No. I'm sorry. I've acted with the guy."

Luke: "Do you think the AVN awards are political?"

Dylan: "Yeah, I think you have to suck a lot of ass. I don't care. I'm not an ass kisser. I'm not here to please people. I work seven days a week. I am one of the top-paid guys. Directors give me the pat on the back, that's what matters to me. I don't care. A piece of plastic on my mantel ain't gonna make no difference on my career.

"What's next for me? We're going to move on and have kids and I'm going to become a slum lord in the Czech Republic. I'm going to take the country over and make it my own province."

Dylan will work today with Belladonna. "Bella's cool. She's sweetheart. She loves what she does. It's always a good scene with her."

Other porn girls on set today include Temptation, skinny little thing with pumped-up breasts, Tyler Faith, a busty tall blonde, and Monica Mayhem, a slender blonde from Australia.

Monica worked in financial services in London. She started stripping. Then a part-owner in the Spearmint Rhino chain sent her to Los Angeles two years ago to do porno movies.

From Los Angeles, Temptation has worked as a stripper for three years. She's done porn for two months.

Her legs are all bruised from stripping. Normally she wears boots to her knees but she didn't on her last outing and thus sustained bruises.

DUC to Dylan: "You were going to do a series with your Dad. How many scenes have you done together?"

Dylan: "We haven't done any together. I've been trying to put together a line with Sin City with Scott Justice but I'm having a hard time getting them to come through with their end."

Photographer Larry Sultan: "That's interesting."

Bella’s former agent Roy Garcia writes: www.belladonnaxxx.com has risen to the top of the Alexa Rankings in a 24 hour period. On Thursday her rank was 279,000… early sat morning it was @ 4,726. Folks, as far as porn goes, I think that that is a record. If you can’t see the writing on the wall here then you never will.

I would, however like to make some serious corrections on 12 of the show’s GROSS inaccuracies:

1. In my 37 years on this planet, I have never met a more sexually aggressive woman than Bella Donna.

2. During Bella’s first scene, (real sex video magazine) she was so turned on, that SHE suggested to do anal!

3. Since I was the agent who discovered her, and paid for the BLUE Top Ramen hair extensions to be removed from her head, paid for her $200 dye job, and booked her first 50 scenes… you must know - she was BLONDE in all of them.

4. The real reason that Bella left Los Angeles & went back to Utah for almost a year: Vince Vouyer wanted her to stop doing porn because he was in love with her… and Bella was in love with doing porn.

5. When Bella CALLED ME around Christmas time of 2000 – it was to get back into Porn because she loved sex, especially porn sex, didn’t feel guilty about it at all, and had an insatiable sexual appetite.

6. Bella’s biggest fan is Bella… she gets every movie she ever did before it hits the streets, invites all of her friends to watch it, and critiques it herself. A true professional perfectionist… I bet that she’s reading all of these reviews.

7. Bella’s 12 guy gang bang for Anabolic was about her 100th scene – not her second, and all her idea.

8. The only thing that bothered her about the gang bang was that Jeremy Steele was in it.

9. Bella had BLACK HAIR IN THE GANG BANG – NOT f---ING BLONDE!!! HOW COULD THIS BE HER SECOND SCENE IF HER HAIR WAS BLONDE FOR THE FIRST 3 MONTHS IN PORN????

10. The real reason for her tears on national TV was that she was, still is, and always will be - TRAUMATIZED BY f---ING JEREMY STEELE!!!

11. The real reason that I am writing this is to publicly apologize to Bella for booking her a scene with Jeremy Steele.

12. ABC followed Bella for 2 years? That’s funny… I never met them. It was more like: One day last summer & 2 weeks later when she returned from filming “Bella iz Buttwoman” abroad. She was only crying because she missed her boyfriend Nacho Vidal & the Italian espresso roasted coffee.

Roy Garcia, Owner/President, Sex Symbols Talent Management

Porn girl Angela writes from Vancouver: Today is a sad day in the world of porn. Everyone and their dog is talking about the Prime Time Special, and the snow ball affect is happening. Tonight after I turn on the TV to find "another" porn special on Passionate Eye, Luke you are on this one. It is older but hey the media is on a roll now, ratings were probably great last night, so why stop there. So now they are airing this special tonight, I had to leave the room or the TV was going out the window. Why do they concentrate on the screwed up people in this industry and the problems? There are level headed, healthy people in it too, a good example would be Stephanie Swift. She's intelligent, healthy minded, hard working and seams to stay out of the "limelight" so to speak. I'm feeling very anxious and angry and purely disgusted with the media's slam on porn and it all seems to be coming to a head. First Seymour, then Max, then Sweet and now this s---. Please for porn's sake, DO NOT agree to an interview if you do not represent the majority. I lost respect for Belladonna greatly last night, she made the industry look horrible. And now we will have to deal with all this media crap for awhile. But I will continue to work hard to break this stigma, as will alot of other girls in this industry.

Khunrum: Why do porn people give interviews to mainstream journalists that often make them and porn look bad?

Helpful writes: "They are unable to distinguish between "celebrity" and "infamy." If I was in that profession I would never go mainstream for fear that someone who I love and respect would see how far I had fallen."

Director Of Talent for Digital G, Robert Lombard writes: In regards to the ABC PrimeTime Special.
We should read between the lines of this report. One type/genre of pornography was dragged through the mud. This type/genre I must agree is most degrading to females but "Freedom Of Speech" for those who produce this type content allows them do so. However, I truly believe the higher end Adult Content providers like Vivid, Wicked Pictures, Digital Playground, VCA etc along with utilizing the likes of solid directors like; Michael Raven, Brad Armstrong, Jane Hamilton, JimmyD, Nic Cramer, etc. etc will also view this report as reaching out for them in a 'round about way' to continue producing/directing couples oriented Adult content.

The corporations that have a part in providing this content to the consumer will continue to thrive and the non degrading side of pornography/sexuality will win out. There are a lot of 'closet adult fans' that will come out of the closet once it has become more acceptable. And it will! It takes time!

So you say. Why did ABC PrimeTime drag the community through the mud? Well for me it was ABC's right under "Freedom Of Speech" but again I say 'read between the lines'...the Adult Content providers are being challenged to clean up their acts.

Remember....the Executives at ABC today are laughing as they read all the ranting that is being done. Further proving that some of us are unable to communicate without further degrading Females, Male Talent and The Business itself...This business will grow and acceptance will never be 100% but the 'talented ones' in this business will win out in the end. YOU all know who you are....just like the bad ones know who they are.

And finally..... Let us take the AVN Awards....you want to reach out to more of those 'closet fans'... Giving On stage Award presentations for "Best Blow Job" etc. is not the way to reach out...there are a lot of talented individuals in this business [I have mentioned a few above]. Give out On stage awards for Art Work Design, Acting, Directing, Screenwriters, Lighting, Marketing Campaigns, Editing, Special Effects and to still have some spice "Best Performer Male and Female". NO more "Best Sex Scene" or "Best Anal".

Fred writes: Diane Sawyer is better looking than Belladonna. Note that Ms. Sawyer first made a name for herself by
winning a beauty contest--the more socially acceptable
form of exhibitionism. (Although I must admit I would
not look forward to an Anabolic video with her and Sam
Donaldson.)

I suspect that:

a) ABC was out to make porn look evil. Merely by way
of example, one rarely sees the sort of slapping that
ABC showed.
b) They edited the s--- out of everything to take
stuff out of context, etc.
c) Belladonna was not terribly innocent when she
entered porn, her Mormon upbringing notwithstanding.
d) I don't believe that she was uncomfortable and
disgusted by what she was being called upon to do.
e) She's probably a nice kid, but not very savvy in
the ways of TV interviewers out to do a hatchet job.
f) Why does Dr. Koop think that porn viewers hate the
performers? Where the hell does that come from?

Lebong writes on RAME: There are several things that bothered me in the "Primetime" show on
porn:

1) Typically, it avoided the economic complexities of women who may not be trained in skilled positions seeking money to pay for
themselves and their families. Bella/Michelle was paying for her
sister and eventually got a job (as personal manager?) for her mother.

With the knowledge that the father was divorced from the mother
implies to me that perhaps Bella is the best source of financial
security for some or all of the children. But I'm just drawing that conclusion. This piece didn't go there and explain fully.

2)As usual, the network had disdain for the pixilated and titillating porn scenes which they showed in copious amounts. The show could have easily done without it. It's very presence was hypocritical. "Here's the sick stuff you shouldn't see.", it was saying.

3)It wasn't about Bella and it wasn't about corporate greed. Once they got Bella crying, they cut. She says she doesn't like herself but let us believe it's the porn. She doesn't say, and if they asked follow-up questions, we don't see it. The corporate culpability segment was probably five minutes and was a series of no-comments which is not investigative.

4) I didn't see anything positive said about people like Sharon
Mitchell, even though she was featured. I didn't even notice an
on-screen credit for her.

5) It assumed all porn was awful and evil, period. This is most
evident in Dr. Koop's assertion that even the viewers of porn hate the performers. This is so wrong, that if he had said it about an indididual, it would have been slanderous. But the good doctor, seated in front of the library of medical volumes so as to let us know what an authority he is, had his words go completely unchallenged.

So even though the piece was structured as if someone cared about
Bella/Michelle, it was the same sort of judgmental, hypocritical and removed perspective we're so used to in mainstream media. Make no mistake, I know first hand how sleazy the business is and how disposable its performers are treated. But that point can be made without the moralizing of the genre. But those at Primetime Live aren't capable of doing that. No surprise.

ABCInsider writes l-keford.com: ABC Insider Writes: For the first four months, I was one of the assistant producers on the Primetime segment that aired last night. I have to tell you that it was not always intended to be such a one-sided piece against the industry. Originally, we just wanted to follow a couple girls as they got into the business and show what happened to them in an objective fashion. However, that all changed the day we followed Samantha to her first shoot with a director named
(rhymes with "s---rock"). Actually, we didn't follow her to the shoot (she was too nervous), but we caught up with her afterwards. One reason she felt compelled to take a long, hot shower afterwards was that she said Mr. Whitrock made her s--- for him. I don't know if this is standard in your business, to have attractive young women defecate on camera while someone furthers their humiliation by filming it from the toilet's point of view. I doubt it is - but when Ms. Sawyer heard about it, she blew up. She decided then and there that your industry was evil and needed to be taken down. It's unfortunate that one bad
egg turned Ms. Sawyer against your entire industry.

Harvey writes: Diane Sawyer's muckraking has brought the ugliness that is so prevalent in porn nnow innto the living rooms of middle America. The power of that one broadcast is worth 1000 anti-porn rants by NOW or other organizations that nobody pays attention to. And anyone who disputes the basic truth of that piece is self servingly delusional. That young, naive girls are taken horrible advantage of by much of this industry is all too obvious. Brace yourself for a crackdown
folks.

Poon writes on RAME: The show mentioned she had picked up Chlamydia. Even though most hired fornicators have some variety/cocktail of venereal diseases, why would she
advertise this infomation? This info can't be good for future work.. yes, chlamydia can be treated, blah blah blah. Do the porn producers just ignore these tidbits concerning venereal diseases when it happens not to be HIV/AIDS? If I was next to work with her I would be sporting the worry willy, of course that dude probably already has got some form of dick rot.

Perhaps that's the badge of success in the jiz business: that certain burning sensation at the loo.

NTfighter writes: I only saw a small bit of the interview the part with Belladonna crying and another bit, a gangbang with men in prison uniform. I'm a long time consumer of porn and I along with a few other I've read on this group lament the passing of sex between adults who are not degraded or injuried. The peice I veiwed of Belladonna being gangbanged was disturbing to say the least, It was distrubing to see some guys hand being forced into her mouth as if he was trying to land a woman sized fish and another with a quick flash of a guy spitting into her mouth. I am not comfortable supporting an industry which consume and discards the most beutiful and youngest women it can trick
trap or cojole into sex that at the least is mentally and physically damaging. Todays porn (B & D-lite) is not aimed at the arverage consumer No doubt the many viewers of this glimpse into the world of porn got an education that will bear fruit in time. Where did this extreme trend start? among the consumers, I think not. There was never a letter writing campaign to get pornster to make ever more gross and vile f---'em till they throw up, beat' em till they bleed, how many dick can she take up the ass movies, we get what we get. Competition between companies and jaded movies makers have brought it to this low
state. One phrase I read a lot in this group is "I only like to see it if the woman enjoys it." Well Belladonna give us the facts.

BT writes on RAME: This illustrates the double edged sword of porn, especially for the girls. They get into the business, thinking they're going to be stars. But it doesn't happen -- and won't. Yes, you'll have a turnaround story like Traci
Lords, who has had some modicum of success moving beyond her past and landing some mainstream work. But the more common story is that of Ginger Lynn and Ashlyn Gere -- both stunningly beautiful women in their prime, with mainstream, onscreen charisma. Yet they could never successfully move beyond
their porn pasts. And now at the end of their careers, they're back having sex on camera.

Jenna may have more luck, but the Jenna's of the world are very few and very, very far between; Tera thinks she's going to change it, but she's doomed to be forgotten in about ten minutes or to return to the sex industry; likewise Alisha Klass, who unfortunately will never cross over.

Porn is a brutal business -- the fact that you have to take two dicks in your butt to make an extra $500 says it all. And it's great to say that the girls should get more money, etc., but the fact is, the economics just aren't there. Fans like those of us on RAME ain't gonna pay $100 for a DVD, or $20 a night for a rental; for every girl who says I want more, there are
dozens of new girls getting off the bus who will do it for even less; and despite all the chatter about the glamour and big money in porn, the fact is that only a few tapes sell more than a few thousand copies. So, even the best intentioned producer couldn't pay more and still make a buck.

MEC writes on RAME: My wife and I, who are both pro-porno and enjoy watching it (the wife actually enjoys the fetishistic stuff, but hates facials--go figure), sat in bed and watched the whole thing from start to finish.

Firstly, one has to accept that this is tabloid journalism at it's most base level; the show is running against late prime-time shows in the time slot, and this has to draw in the ratings. What better subject than the "evils" of pornography.

Now, to preface the entire situation, I don't doubt for one moment that pornography is a business filled with social rejects, broken home runaways and trustees of modern chemistry. Even Chloe has said that porn is prostitution, pure and simple--normal people don't typically enjoy doing this sort of thing, but normal people LOVE watching it. For every girl who goes into the biz genuinely wanting to f--- for cash, there are three who were sexually assaulted as youngsters, have serious attention cravings, or are otherwise inept at doing anything
well other than have sex.

The idea that in this modern age when porno is literally at one's
fingertips online or on cable, that a girl figures a little nudity or porn will launch her career as a mainstream actress is BULLs---. True, Cindy Crawford, Kim Basinger, even Vanessa Williams gained a great deal of notoriety for their nude pictorials resulting in an enhancement of their careers, but it took Vanessa many years to crawl out from under the stigma of her girl/girl pictorial in Penthouse--plus the fact she is a phenomenal singing talent to begin with. Virtually every mainstream actress of any weight in Hollywood has a
skeleton in her closet in the form of a nude pictorial or nude scene in a B-type film. Some decide to push it away and attempt to make it disappear like a bad dream, others like Sharon Stone make no bones about disrobing for the camera.

And IMHO, actresses and actors are not normal people in the strictest sense. These are attention-craving, egomaniacal 'artistes' who can't get a real job and thus go to Hollywood to make their fame and fortune the easy way, but don't think they have to eat crow to get where they are, either. There are as many casting couches in mainstream films as in porn, but they don't make it to your local video store. Plus, who
in Hollywood DOESN'T come from a broken home, or a religiously strict childhood or an abusive past? The lack of attention and love they experienced is typically one of their primary impulses to pursue acting, to become, in essence, someone other than the neglected child they were long ago.

But back to Bella. Aside from her phenomenal body and amazing sexual talents, she is not beautiful to look at. The hair does not go well with the gap in her teeth, and she doesnt' carry herself well on camera other than when she is being a f---beast. The Jenna Jamesons and Tera Patrick's would never have to go the route she did because their looks launched them to superstardom. Even though Tera did her share of hardcore nastiness, she can easily put it all behind her to
go forward to the next level as Jenna has; Bella doesn't have that option, imho. She went hardcore at a frantic pace from the start, and that put her down a path to rapid burnout. If she is still in the business for another year, I will be quite surprised, esp. after this interview.

She didn't like what she was doing? She was ashamed of herself? She was so ashamed of herself that in less than two years she became the double anal queen, eh? Gawd. I would think that once you agree to do a 5-guy DP gangbang that any notions of decency or personal pride have long since flown the coop. Why didn't she walk off the set? No one was holding a gun to her head. It all comes down to the issue at hand: Money, plain and simple. The same force that drives all of us to do the things we do. I applaud her for using her money to send her sister to college--I'd be curious to know how many porno stars use
their wealth to help their families.

Then they switched over to the 'helpful' arm of the porn business. You have Sharon Mitchell talking about AIDS testing and safe sex and risk, then you have Bill Margold talking about what a s---hole the biz is, and how the women should be older. Nina Hartley and some of the legends have been pushing for a starting age of 21 for almost ten years, but the movie producers all know that the 18-20 range is the golden corral of talent, and the amount of profit to be lost incalculable. I do agree with Koop that if they could get unionized or some decent healthcare, it may help, but could such a monumental
task ever work in the porno biz? They are still just figuring out how to get names in the credits spelled correctly!

And another thing: isn't Jim South about 70 now? Does anyone
remember that rental flick "Fallen Angels" from the early 80s that focused on young talents like Kristara Barrington, and (at the time) fringe porno directors like Bruce Seven? Jim was looking old back THEN. Lordy!

Regardless, you get a media whore like Diane Sawyer on the air, trying her Baba Wawa routine of "let's get the interviewee to cry...come on, lemme see some f---ing tears you wench!" Journalists seem to be as adept as porno directors at getting their talent to give their all. Then they give their update of Bella's mom becoming her manager, and the whole thing devolves into a bad Springer episode.

Porno is not glamorous when viewed in the real world. It is a fantasy pure and simple, and if anyone truly sat back and looked at the lives of performers in the business, many fans would likely lose their love of the tease quickly. It is a business at heart, and anyone will tell you in corporate America people are disposable at all levels.

Here's an excerpt from the Biff Malibu profile on www.l-keford.com:

Anabolic's Rough Sex Goes Too Far

Ridley99@aol.com writes on RAME: "Rough Sex 2 " and every-RAMERs responcibility to speak out when they feel something has gone too far. The adult movie bussiness must be held accountable to the product it sells. Women should not be physically and emotional abused. The argument that any Censorship is dangerous and if you don't like it don't buy it, does not float here.

What is depicted in Rough Sex 2 is wrong, it is also irresponcible and dangerous both to the porn industry and the actresses involved. Self censorship is the only thing that works, or has the porn world become a lawless entity where anything goes as long as nobody gets hurt and people make f---in money.If the porn world can not police its own house it is a certainty that its house will be policed for it. 8 years under the administration of the " first Rain-coater" is coming to an end. There will be no Oval office Blow Jobs in the Gore whitehouse. And we all know Tipper Gore is a fierce reactionary. Movies Like Rough Sex are an almost perfect weapon for anti-porn activists. First of all its boxcover is a perfect bill board for Dworkin and her she bitches to rally around. Also magazine shows like" 60 minutes" or 20/20 can show women getting slapped in the face or choked, something they couldn't do with videos in which penetration is the main selling point. Do not assume the courts will leave the Porn Industry alone forever,this is foolish and Naive. I will give you an example :

I live in New York. New York was once the world capital of sleaze. If you wanted it , no matter what it was, it could be found on 42nd street as well as the 8th ave district where Show World ( sigh ) held court. Show World had it all : live sex acts, guys f---ing girls on stage, women getting it on with each other, porn stars performing dildo shows asnd getting freaky with the audience, etc,etc. Along comes Mayor Rudy Guiliani, in his first term he broke 42nd street, raising the rents so high the porn shops had to flee but it was in his second term that he really went commando. He wrote laws that just about out lawed any kind of sex scene in NYC. And it just about happened overnight. Strip clubs were padlocked,stores that sold Porn tapes shut down. Do you know what Show World is today? A f---in souverneir shop that sells I love NY Tee- Shirts .Brothers, I am telling you the courts can do anything they want. The courts could shut down the sex Biz in one day, if they wanted too. And if you don't think the LAPD would get their kicks shuting down porno sets ,then you just are not aware.

Under the first" Rain-coater" things have been quiet, great, porn is more diversified and bigger then ever, so why shouldn't we let sleeping dogs lie and police are own house. Its not so much Rough Sex 2 that scares me as much as the thought of Rough Sex 6, I mean really where does Ananbolic go with this idea, Anabolic has chosen the hard rough sex angle with all its videos and this is dangerous. Other videos can sell product with a new pretty face such as Tara Patrick or Anastasia Blue, Ananbolic is under different rules, it can only sell videos by ever increasing the shock value of its product. It started with DPs, then Gang Bangs, the Gangbangs become rougher, ass-licking was added, spitting, hair-pulling, verbal Abuse and now the ultimate: real slapping and choking. So where do they go from here. Another problem is the Talent, sure right now they probably have some sick girls who enjoy this type of treatment, but porn is voracious, it demands new girls, sooner or later girls who do not like this treatment will be " forced" into the part of punching bags. It is wise for Ananabolic to cut this series now, since Anabolic only cares about profit I feel it is up to every Ramer with a conscious to let them know how they feel. I for one am an intelligent human being and I do not enjoy seeing women Physically and emoptionally abused.

Sin City star Linda Thoren writes on RAME: I agree. My x-boyfriend Tomas Edberg interviewed Jewel Valmont last week in LA for the European magazine Cats. On the question, if it was anything she regrets in her carrier, she said that, doing this scene for Anabolic in Raw Sex #1, is the only thing she would like to be undone. She was even forced to do things she had clearly said she didn't want to do. (in Europe we call these things rape...) I fear that Anabolic -- if they continue doing these kind of scenes -- jeopardize the whole future of the Biz.

Brandy Alexandre writes: An interesting thing to think about would be how porn legality was won. In the Freeman decision, the victory centered around the performers being actors for whom the graphic depiction of sex was an integral part of their role. Now that the industry has turned predominantly to Gonzo--tapes that is nothing but a collection of staged sexual encounters--I wonder if the utter lack of any attempt at plot, story, and acting is going to shed a whole new light on what is and is not prostitution vs a porn performance that was produced during the Freeman era.

The prosecution was based on a definition of prostitution and pandering that relied on the hiring of women for personal sexual gratification, that was defended by the fact that porn hired men and women to "work" with each other to produce a teleplay. But now toss into the mix these little producers who are, themselves, paying women to perform sex acts with them attempting to wedge themselves under the same protective umbrella (I'm just playing devil's advocate) under the guise of producing a teleplay that obviously isn't by the lack of any script, story, plot or acting. Doesn't this, then, create a gentle breeze that will tumble the house of cards the industry has built over the last couple of years? All it's going to take is one tape that someone finally says is seriously offensive obscene, that doesn't have the protective elements from Freeman, and that will be end of that.

Some producers would be hard pressed to come up with stories that repeatedly required the serious abuse of women who clearly didn't know what they were getting into.

Chaim Amalek writes: Luke, Ridley is correct in his warning to porners. And for that very reason, those who oppose commercial porn should cheer on the Max Hardcores of the world as they spread gasoline all over their industry. On the other hand, if you happen to like porn and feel a need for it, then the coming changes do not auger well for you.

First, a few basic facts. Most Americans, even most of those Americans who, from time to time, view porn, do not care much for the industry itself, and they specifically do not care for the men who have made their fortunes on the gaping orifices and saliva and semen covered faces of the young, fundamentally dumb women who are its backbone. Moreover, they would care a whole lot less if it were brought to their attention just what sort of pornography is being made these days. That it is not generally known just how abusive some of this stuff has become is due in part to the lack of a prominent politician with the smarts to see just how much political hay could be made of this. All that is needed is for someone of Giuliani's stature to take on the California-based porn industry, targeting the most egregious of its exponents for the initial attack, and you will see both conservatives and liberal feminists joining forces as never before to "regulate", if not entirely shut down, this industry.

Oh, I know what you social liberals are thinking. You expect the first amendment to cover your behinds. Listen up - we live in an age in which even basic political speech can be anathematized as "hate speech" and, even worse, medicalized as indicia of insanity in need of psychiatric treatment. (Just think about what has happened to John Rocker.) Do you really think that you will be able to hide behind the first amendment (the first and last refuge of all scoundrels in this country) forever? Do you think that a smart national politician like a Senator Rudy Giuliani would be incapable of drafting meaningful, hard-hitting legislative attacks on the porn industry that it cannot evade? Consider his success in shutting down most of the commercial sex industry in hyper-liberal New York City, using nothing more elaborate than the zoning laws, and think again.

Cultural liberal elites have benefited in recent years from having as president a man who is a wannabe of theirs, and from the general stupidity of republican politicians who might otherwise have used this against him. As soon as a smart politician comes along who appreciates just how revolting many porners are both as human beings and in what they do to young women to make money, things will start to change very, very quickly in this country. So, the bottom line is this. If you hate the porn industry, support the "Max Hardcores" of the world and help rub America's nose in their work.

PS If anyone wants to get the ball rolling, he should contact Don Hewitt of 60 Minutes, Jerry Rivers (Rivera), or some younger, hungrier journalist with some of the particulars. As Ridley has noted, the story of the rise of blatently misogynistic porn would be a very, very easy story to tell on television, and certainly would garner very high ratings.

(And Luke, if you really were a journalist with ambitions beyond coveering the world of masturbatorial video, you would be contacting big media in New York yourself (LA's media are too whore-like and intellectually weak for this purpose), and push them to run with this story.)

Al writes: Hey Luke! I love your site man ! I just came from the anabolic web site ,and I saw that Gangbang girl #20 was no longer for sale. Knowing full well that some porners would sell their own mothers , I have to ask. What gives? Do you know?

The director of Anabolic's controversial series "Kahn Tusion" writes on the rec.arts.movies.erotica (RAME) newsgroup:

Until Linda Thoren’s post, I had refrained from entering the debate concerning my video series, Rough Sex. However, after reading Thoren’s thinly veiled accusation of rape, I feel it is incumbent upon me to respond with the facts concerning Jewel Valmont and Rough Sex in general.

Please note, that both proponents and detractors of the line have generally been wise enough to understand that all the participants are consenting and engaging in consensual behavior. However, that is half the story. The other half is this: I will not shoot anyone that is merely consenting, they must demonstrate desire. That’s right, I could shoot dozens of ladies that would do this series for the money. That’s not good enough for me. They must want to engage in rough sex and I must be convinced they will derive extreme pleasure from doing so. On a rare occasion, I am fooled by a participant’s bonafides. When that happens, I (usually not the participant) immediately halt the scene, pay the appropriate kill fees and send everyone home. Under no circumstances am I interested in engaging in any coeriscon to illicit any type of behavior or sex act.

As far as the objectionable behavior in the Jewel Valmont scene (Rough Sex 1), these are the facts: Jewel did indeed request that we do not call her “s---hole”. She did agree to wear a “s---hole” collar and eat from a “s---hole” bowl, but did not want to hear those words uttered to her. Unfortunately, one of the performers felt that this was a barrier that Jewel wanted to overcome. He demanded that she refer to herself as a “s---hole” and she quickly responded. (After the scene, I profusely apologized to Jewel and I additionally rewarded her two fold; 1) for my indiscretion and 2) for an excellent scene. I continue to apologize to Jewel about this incident whenever I see her) As an interesting side note, following the “s---hole” incident, Jewel (by her own admission) then experienced between 5 and 10 orgasms. We tried to count, but it was difficult as they were coming (no pun intended) fast and furious. Let’s call it a baker’s dozen!

Now, for all you RAMER’s to think that these women are choiceless and engage in Rough Sex to support a drug habit, or additional dependents, let me tell you about Jewel Valmont. She is drug and alcohol free, does not support dependents, to my knowledge, and most importantly she is one the most beautiful and desirable woman I know. She lives in a neighborhood that would be recognized the world over as one of the best neighborhoods in Southern California. She has an active social life outside of the business, and as far as I am concerned, she could choose any number of rewarding professions. She has chosen this one! She did not have to do Rough Sex, she wanted to do it. She orgasmed over it, and has discussed it with me on numerous occasions since its shooting.

You need more? I am happy to say, because of the courage and vision of Anabolic’s founder and president, Chris Alexander, I am inaugurating a new line at Anabolic (release date, some time in February). Who was the first person that I wanted to shoot? Jewel Valmont. She gave me an excellent scene and, as always, was a great pleasure to work with. I look forward to Linda Thoren’s appraisal of this coming series.

So my point is this, I have read with great interest all the hoopla over Rough Sex, and I can recognize that both sides make meritorious arguments. But, please try and refrain from slander. After all, even us misogynist / human pieces of vomit have feelings too. Luckily, Linda Thoren’s irresponsible charge immediately showed up on L-ke Ford, thereby completely discounting it’s validity.

And lastly let me state, that unlike most people in this industry, I don’t use a variety of Internet outlets to level threats of lawsuits and demands of apologies. I just go on doing what I do. With that said, I don’t harbor any ill feelings toward Linda Thoren, as a matter of fact, I would love to shoot her in Rough Sex 3. To describe what occurred, as rape is an egregious misrepresentation of the facts. A more appropriate word that now applies might be “witch hunt.”

2/18/07

Belladonna's brother in gay interracial video

Jack writes: "Jason Sinclair, Belladonna's brother, takes it...from a black guy!"

One porner says Jason stole $9,000 from him last year.

STORY SLUG: YOUNG WOMEN, PORN AND PROFITS: CORPORATE AMERICA'S SECRET AFFAIR
PRODUCER: ABC NEWS
INTERVIEWER: DIANE SAWYER/CHARLES GIBSON
INTERVIEWEES:
ALICIA SINCLAIR, ANGEL, BILL MARGOLD, C. EVERETT KOOP, DIANA HAMILTON, DIANE SAWYER, DR. SHARON MITCHELL, FEMALE EIGHT, FEMALE ELEVEN, FEMALE FIVE, FEMALE FOUR, FEMALE NINE, FEMALE ONE, FEMALE SEVEN, FEMALE SIX, FEMALE TEN, FEMALE THIRTEEN, FEMALE THREE, FEMALE TWELVE, FEMALE TWO, JENNIFER, JIM SOUTH, JOY KING, KEN DANISH, MALE FIVE, MALE FOUR, MALE ONE, MALE SIX, MALE THREE, MALE TWO, MARK KRIELOF, MICHELLE SINCLAIR, NACHO VIDAL, ONA ZEE, PATRICK HOLLANDS, RON JEREMY, STEVE ORENSTEIN
TAPES: (NUMBER 1) 1
DATE: 01/23/03
TRANSCRIPT DATE: JANUARY 27, 2003


[01]19:49:52 ANNOUNCER
This program is intended for mature audiences. Viewer discretion is advised.
[GRAPHICS: VIEWER WARNING]
[01]19:50:02 DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Girls. The Hollywood dream. About to do something most of us could never imagine.
[GRAPHICS: GIRLS]
[HOLLYWOOD DREAM]
[01]19:50:13 MALE ONE, INTERVIEWER [Johnathan Morgan]
The new, hot, fresh talent is, is always better than the old, used.
[01]19:50:21 DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Inside the new world of pornography.
[GRAPHICS: INSIDE THE NEW WORLD PORNOGRAPHY]
[01]19:50:25 MALE THREE, PHOTOGRAPHER [Morgan]
You've never done any sex on camera or any of that?
[01]19:50:27 MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
No.
[01]19:50:29 DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Be there as an 18-year-old makes a decision she can never take back.
[GRAPHICS: DECISION]
[NEVER TAKE BACK]
[01]19:50:34    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
I had to do a lot of things that I can't imagine anyone wanting to do.
[01]19:50:38    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Tonight, America's giant appetite for pornography, a $10 billion industry. And you'll be surprised who's cashing in. Big names you know.
[GRAPHICS: 10 BILLION]
[01]19:50:48    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) Is this an edict from General Motors not to talk?
[01]19:50:52    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) Fortune 500 corporations reaping profits and looking the other way as young women go further and further.
[01]19:51:00    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) So why won't you protect yourself?
[01]19:51:02    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
The fans don't like to see condoms.
[01]19:51:06    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) What makes a girl do it? We follow a teen along the road, from her first movie to the roughest side of raw, X-rated fame. Tonight, an unprecedented two year look inside the business, porn, big money, shattered lives.
[01]19:51:21    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) But when you're telling me about things that really made you suffer, you're still smiling.
[01]19:51:28    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Now I'm going to cry.
[01]19:51:31    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) And what's real? What's not hidden?
[GRAPHICS: PRIMETIME THURSDAY]
[01]19:51:36    ANNOUNCER
>From ABC News, this is "Primetime Thursday" with Diane Sawyer and Charles Gibson. Tonight, "Young Women, Porn And Profit: Corporate America's Secret Affair."
[GRAPHICS: ABC NEWS]
[PRIMETIME THURSDAY]
[YOUNG WOMEN, PORN & PROFITS: CORPORATE AMERICA'S SECRET AFFAIR]
[01]19:51:54    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) Good evening. Charlie's off tonight and we welcome you to this special "Primetime" hour. Tonight we are going to take you into the parallel universe of pornography in America today. It's now an estimated $10 billion business, which is bigger than the NFL, NBA and Major League Baseball combined. More than all the tickets spent at movie theaters. And as you're about to see, not only is the appetite for porn apparently endless, some of the most respected corporations in America are making millions from it while saying nothing publicly at all. So with porn so mainstream, we set out on a journey. Two years ago we went to LA, and some of the young women you're about to meet will make a decision to enter the porn business. We wanted to know why they did, and who are they? Some of them just 18 years old, about to have no health protection, and no slice of the big profits. Just girls whose dreams are about to turn triple X rated.
[01]19:52:54    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) Every week they come to Los Angeles by the dozens. So many of them just teenagers taking the buses from Texas or Minnesota or Alabama. Somebody's sister. Somebody's daughter. On one of those highways of dreams.
[01]19:53:10    MALE ONE, INTERVIEWER [Johnathan Morgan]
Can you act?
[01]19:53:12    FEMALE ONE, INTERVIEWEE
I don't know.
[01]19:53:13    MALE ONE, INTERVIEWER
Can you at least memorize lines?
[01]19:53:14    FEMALE ONE, INTERVIEWEE
Yes.
[01]19:53:15    MALE TWO, INTERVIEWER
Have you been in a high school play?
[01]19:53:16    FEMALE ONE, INTERVIEWEE
Yes.
[01]19:53:17    MALE ONE, INTERVIEWER
Well, there you go.
[01]19:53:19    FEMALE ONE, INTERVIEWEE
That's me winning a little plaque for 4H.
[01]19:53:22    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) They just want to become stars, but how do you get there?
[01]19:53:26    JIM SOUTH, WORLD MODELING AGENCY
We have some R-rated movies, quite a few, really.
[01]19:53:30    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) This is Jim South,(SP?) who runs the World Modeling Agency recruiting girls for photo shoots.
[01]19:53:36    JIM SOUTH, WORLD MODELING AGENCY
Now, you do understand that most of it is nude.
[01]19:53:39    FEMALE TWO, INTERVIEWEE
Uh huh.
[01]19:53:40    JIM SOUTH, WORLD MODELING AGENCY
Arch the fanny just a little bit. And then give me a little smile.
[01]19:53:44    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Nearly every girl we meet says she's prepared to show a little skin in a photo. In this day and age, they say it's kind of glamorous and might lead to that big break.
[01]19:53:54    JIM SOUTH, WORLD MODELING AGENCY
We had a couple of people in "Indecent Proposal" with Robert Redford and Demi Moore.
[01]19:53:59    FEMALE THREE, ACTRESS
I think it's an average of about 100 girls a day coming in from all over the world to do this.
[01]19:54:05    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) And the money?
[01]19:54:07    JIM SOUTH, WORLD MODELING AGENCY
Now, if you're a bikini, it's $100. If you're topless, it's $200. If it is centerfold, it's $5,000 and bingodidda-bong we're off to Acapulco, right?
[01]19:54:19    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) This is Jennifer from New Jersey. A teacher of emotionally disturbed children who says she really needs some extra cash.
[01]19:54:26    JIM SOUTH, WORLD MODELING AGENCY
Head down just a little bit. Smile. Okay.
[01]19:54:33    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) And this is Angel, who came to LA from the Midwest hoping to be a regular movie star. Samantha wants to be a fashion model, but the effort has beat her down. She asked us not to use her real voice and told us a lot of people took pictures of her, but never called back.
[01]19:54:52    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) A photographer saw Samantha and suggested she go to see Jim South.
[01]19:55:00    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) South, smooth, casual direct, introduces a new thought. How would Samantha feel if instead of nude photographs she's in a film?
[01]19:55:09    JIM SOUTH, WORLD MODELING AGENCY
You make $15,000 to $20,000 in a month. And I'm not exaggerating. Huh?
[01]19:55:14    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) It seems like a small distinction, but in fact, it's a giant fork in the road. Right away, Jennifer starts pulling out altogether. She says no.
[01]19:55:24    JENNIFER, INTERVIEWEE
Well, thank you very much.
[01]19:55:25    JIM SOUTH, WORLD MODELING AGENCY
Thank you.
[01]19:55:30    MALE ONE, INTERVIEWER
So, you're the new to the adult business?
[01]19:55:33    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) But so many girls tell us they imagine it will be something erotic, like some of the scenes in feature films. And Samantha says, after all, she's sure famous people have done work like that.
[01]19:55:45    MALE ONE, INTERVIEWER [Morgan]
You can put your clothes back on.
[01]19:55:49    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) And it's clear the directors put a premium on the new, the young.
[01]19:55:53    MALE ONE, INTERVIEWER
The new, hot, fresh talent is, is always better than the old, used.
[01]19:56:03    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) So the same day Samantha meets Jim South, she agrees to get an AIDS test.
[01]19:56:10    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) And the next day she's in front of a camera having sex. And then, the regret. She says afterwards she took a long, hot shower thinking about what she'd done. Angel, the girl from the Midwest who wanted to be a regular actress says she let herself get lured in, and afterward, she's desperate to get out.
[01]19:56:34    ANGEL, TRIED BEING A PORN STAR
I don't want to do anymore sex.
[01]19:56:35    JIM SOUTH, WORLD MODELING AGENCY
Okay. That's fine. It's your life. The money, of course, is excellent.
[01]19:56:41    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Jim South agrees to cancel Angel's next shoot, but the director makes it more difficult.
[01]19:56:48    JIM SOUTH, WORLD MODELING AGENCY
He's just disappointed. He's not mad. He wants to know if you will do it for $1000 if he gets you out in two hours.
[01]19:56:56    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Angel agrees to listen.
[01]19:56:58    MALE THREE, PHOTOGRAPHER
You really are cute.
[01]19:56:59    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Thank you.
[01]19:57:00    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) What about this girl? 18-year-old Michelle Sinclair.
[01]19:57:03    MALE THREE, PHOTOGRAPHER
You've never done any sex on camera or any of that?
[01]19:57:06    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
No.
[01]19:57:07    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Michelle is a former cheerleader, field hockey star, anyone's kid next door growing up in a family of eight kids in Mormon Utah.
[01]19:57:16    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) Happy?
[01]19:57:17    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Happy. Very happy. I wanted to be a gymnast in the Olympics. A ballerina, art teacher.
[01]19:57:25    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) In the course of this hour you will learn how the 18-year-old daughter of a Bishop in the Mormon Church would become one of the most talked about stars in one of the roughest parts of porn.
[01]19:57:36    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) And you will also learn something else about pornography in America today. How so many respectable Fortune 500 companies like General Motors, Comcast, AOL-Time Warner and some of the leading hotel chains are making money from the distribution of porn. But try to get some answers from them about accountability or profits? Well.
[01]19:57:58    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) Is this an edict from General Motors not to talk?
[01]19:58:01    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) They don't want to talk about a business that places 18-year-old kids at risk. Only a handful of porn production companies insist on condoms to protect against AIDS and other diseases.
[01]19:58:12    MALE FOUR, PORN STAR
If you really want to work continuously as a male performer, you have to, it's basically, you're riding bare back.
[01]19:58:20    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Most offer no health plans, no benefits.
[01]19:58:24    DR. SHARON MITCHELL, ADULT INDUSTRY MEDICAL CLINIC
The person that packs the porn in a box in the warehouse is entitled to hepatitis B vaccines. But someone that's having unprotected anal sex, hmm. There is no standards.
[01]19:58:37    C. EVERETT KOOP, FORMER SURGEON GENERAL
They're not protected. They don't even have workman's compensation.
[01]19:58:41    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Former US Surgeon General C. Everett Koop says America's big corporations are complicit in a public health hazard.
[01]19:58:49    C. EVERETT KOOP, FORMER SURGEON GENERAL
We have an industry that is making billions of dollars a year, is spreading to cable television and to the Internet, and yet their employees are considered to be throwaway people.
[01]19:59:01    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) So you're saying that they want it both ways? They want to be profiting from it, but they don't want to get involved?
[01]19:59:07    C. EVERETT KOOP, FORMER SURGEON GENERAL
They don't want to get involved, and people don't care whether they get involved or not. You have to remember that even the people who enjoy looking at pornography really despise the people they're watching, and they have no sense of protection for them.
[01]19:59:24    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) And yet, to keep the revenues coming, the pressure on the performers is always to go further, to do something new.
[01]19:59:32    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) Like this film, recently, one woman having sex with hundreds of men in only 48 hours.
[01]19:59:39    FEMALE FOUR, PORN STAR
I can't stand up.
[01]19:59:42    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) She's so physically bruised, she's treated with ice. Contrast a porn set with a Hollywood feature film where . . .
[01]19:59:49    C. EVERETT KOOP, FORMER SURGEON GENERAL
You have the animal rights people taking better care of cockroaches than they take care of people.
[01]19:59:54    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) What about these individuals? Do they deserve it if they get into it themselves?
[01]19:59:58    C. EVERETT KOOP, FORMER SURGEON GENERAL
I don't think anybody deserves the kind of things that happen in the pornographic industry. Remember, these are kids, most of them. These are ordinary people who have made bad decisions, all who have been pushed into bad decisions.
[01]20:00:13    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Back at Jim South's agency, Samantha discovers that after her first time, she's suddenly a big property.
[01]20:00:20    JIM SOUTH, WORLD MODELING AGENCY
Legends wants to book you, Nick at Ultimate wants to book you. Do you know who Peter North is?
[01]20:00:27    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) She tells us she's never had this much attention or money in her life. So she suppresses her regret, saying, I'll just try to close my eyes and imagine I'm somewhere else. But Angel who also desperately wanted money and stardom decides she cannot do it.
[01]20:00:44    ANGEL, TRIED BEING A PORN STAR
There are people I don't want to find out about this. My family.
[01]20:00:48    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) She puts down the phone and decides to walk away.
[01]20:00:52    ANGEL, TRIED BEING A PORN STAR
Really I just, I can't.
[01]20:00:54    JIM SOUTH, WORLD MODELING AGENCY
If you can't, you can't.
[01]20:00:55    ANGEL, TRIED BEING A PORN STAR
I can't do it.
[01]20:01:00    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) But Michelle Sinclair, the girl from the Mormon family in Utah will make a different decision.
[01]20:01:07    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
I wanted that attention. I wanted people to love me, love me. I don't know why.
[01]20:01:12    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Hers will be a searing odyssey of confusion, unimaginable choices and a journey into a kind of hell.
[01]20:01:23    ANNOUNCER
For the very first time, Michelle make a movie and is asked to do something she's never done before, but nothing could compare to her next job.
[01]20:01:32    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
At first I said, no. No way. There's no way I'd ever do that. That's sick.
[01]20:01:36    ANNOUNCER
"Young Women, Porn And Profits: Corporate America's Secret Affair" will be back in a moment.
[GRAPHICS: PRIMETIME THURSDAY]
[YOUNG WOMEN, PORN & PROFITS: CORPORATE AMERICA'S SECRET AFFAIR]
[COMMERCIAL BREAK]
[GRAPHICS: PRIMETIME THURSDAY]
[YOUNG WOMEN, PORN & PROFITS: CORPORATE AMERICA'S SECRET AFFAIR]
[01]20:03:53    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) The porn industry claims that more than 30 percent of movies bought or rented on the East and West coasts of America are sex movies. And we're also told that in hotel rooms where porn is available, half of the guests who rent movies rent adult movies. And something else. Porn is no longer catering just to men who skulk into the seedy part of town, it's a growth industry among women as well. And you should know there are different kinds of porn. Some made in what are called high-end studios. They often market their videos as hard-core and then edit them for sale as soft core as well. And then there are what are called gonzo productions, deliberately amateur looking and the content going as far as it's possible to go. So as we continue, a teenager has to make a decision. What is she going to do?
[01]20:04:43    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) We begin again with Michelle Sinclair, who is just 18 years old. A girl who just wants everyone to love her. Always surprising people with presents and flowers. For months, she says, she refused to try sex on film. Then one day, with no money and no prospects, she agreed.
[01]20:05:02    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) And that night, when you're lying awake that night and thinking about it?
[01]20:05:07    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
I think I was just so, like, wow, I'm going to be famous, and, you know, people are going to want my autograph one day, and I had all this money. I could go shopping and, you know, get whatever I wanted.
[01]20:05:20    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) She dyed her hair coal black not long after the first time.
[01]20:05:24    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) Do you think anything fundamental has been lost? Have you given something important up?
[01]20:05:31    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Of course. My sexual privacy is the most private, it was. But I'll get over that.
[01]20:05:43    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) But would she really get over that first day? She said she showed up expecting one regular sex scene.
[01]20:05:54    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) But the director said he needed more. A different kind of sex.
[01]20:05:58    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
And I'm like, well, I've never even done anal sex in my entire life. Never. Never even thought of it. It was painful. You know.
[01]20:06:06    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) She says afterwards she was shattered, but she just didn't know how to refuse.
[01]20:06:11    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Because I didn't know any better, you know. I didn't know that I couldn't get work if I didn't do that.
[01]20:06:18    ONA ZEE, PORN STAR
They lie to you all the time.
[01]20:06:20    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Ona Zee, who's been a performer for 15 years and is an advocate for reform.
[01]20:06:25    ONA ZEE, PORN STAR
You show up expecting to do one thing, and then you do something else and you're in, you're in a trap, because you've planned on the money that you're going to make.
[01]20:06:31    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Performers generally get a flat fee. $350 to $1,000 for a conventional sex scene.
[01]20:06:41    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) But some of the cassettes can ultimately bring in as much as $1 million for those who are making and distributing them.
[01]20:06:48    STEVE ORENSTEIN, OWNER WICKED PICTURES
In our business, a movie doesn't die. It doesn't go away. It doesn't end. I have my Jenna movies that are from seven years ago that are still selling better than some people's new movies.
[01]20:07:01    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Michelle's agent tells her he has another job that can bring her some extra money and sends her to what turns out to be a real prison, but with actors in prison outfits. 12 men.
[01]20:07:12    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
At first I said, no. No way. There's no way I would ever do that. That's sick, you know?
[01]20:07:17    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) She says she tried to back out with a variety of excuses, but the director was insistent. She was paid $4,000. A warning. This is not easy to watch. The men come at her, man after man, for all kinds of sex.
[01]20:07:32    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
It was really hard, because I felt really, really felt like a piece of meat. Like you really took a piece of meat, threw it in a lion's cage. 12 lions. I had to do a lot of things that I can't imagine anyone wanting to do, and, you know, the guy who I shot it for saw me and just didn't even say anything. Like, didn't even, are you okay? You know, nothing. It was like, he got his movie, and he got his box cover. So he was happy. But I wasn't very happy.
[01]20:08:06    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) She says afterwards she couldn't stop crying, and so Michelle Sinclair packed up her bags and went back home to her Mormon family in Utah. Again, she was just 18 years old. And all that happened was perfectly legal in America today where pornography is enjoying a respectability unimagined 30 years ago.
[01]20:08:31    FEMALE FIVE, SEX TOY DISTRIBUTOR
I'm the soccer mom.
[01]20:08:32    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) This woman says she has more than 3,000 distributors for her sex toys. Many of them stay-at-home moms whose make up to six figures.
[01]20:08:40    FEMALE FIVE, SEX TOY DISTRIBUTOR
I am the woman next door. I am your best friend. That's who I am. And, and I can answer your questions when it comes to sex, too.
[01]20:08:54    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) This is a couple. Parents of five children from Ohio who won a contest to be on the set of a porn movie.
[01]20:09:06    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) Joy King(SP?) who works for Wicked Pictures was even asked recently to speak about pornography to a secret society at Yale University.
[01]20:09:14    JOY KING, WICKED PICTURES
All these Yale yuppies sitting there watching porn, eating fried chicken and drinking beer. I went, wow, our market has changed. Hasn't it?
[01]20:09:26    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) And porn stars openly woo college kids at spring break.
[01]20:09:36    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) Hard to believe, but 30 years ago, pornographers operated in fear of prosecution where the charge could be an obscene violation of community standards. But today, prosecutors say how can you win a pornography case when the standard has virtually disappeared.
[GRAPHICS: LARRY FLYNT PUBLISHER "HUSTLER" MAGAZINE]
[01]20:09:59    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Today former porn star Veronica Hart directs her own movies for a high end company, VCA. Another career girl and mother of two boys trying to have it all.
[01]20:10:11    MALE FIVE, VERONICA HART'S SON
It's definitely been tough for me. Even though I'm 18, I don't know if I'm comfortable meeting a stranger and telling them exactly what my mom does. I mean, very few of my friends know, exactly.
[01]20:10:27    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) In higher end companies like VCA and Wicked and Digital Playground, the girls are put under contract. Then they usually get to pick their sex partners and condoms are required.
[01]20:10:44    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) And they can sound like cheerleaders about the profession, insisting, no drinking, no drugs.
[01]20:10:49    FEMALE SIX, PORN STAR
I've been very happy. It's been a very wonderful adventure.
[01]20:10:54    FEMALE SEVEN, PORN STAR
A lot of females, they look at me kind of as a role model. I've had nothing but positive attention.
[01]20:10:59    FEMALE EIGHT, PORN STAR
I love reading. I'm a big "Harry Potter" fan. I mean, I'm just a normal person.
[01]20:11:04    FEMALE NINE, PORN STAR
We're pretty much normal.
[01]20:11:05    FEMALE SIX, PORN STAR
I haven't changed as a person. I just have a very bizarre career.
[01]20:11:12    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) But remember, and once again, this is a warning, when they go to work, it is this.
[01]20:11:20    ONA ZEE, PORN STAR
I don't think someone who thinks of themselves as priceless could be a sex performer.
[01]20:11:26    ONA ZEE, PORN STAR (CONTINUED)
I think the women want to create an overall ambience that it's all, it's easy, it's fun, it's great. We never get a yeast infection. We're happy. You know, we don't have to worry about, it never hurts.
[01]20:11:40    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Veteran porn star and reformer Ona Zee says no one wants to wake the public up to the reality.
[01]20:11:47    ONA ZEE, PORN STAR
I see it everyday. I mean, I see girls come, girls come to the set drunk, not in their bodies.
[01]20:11:52    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Ona Zee, who is still in the business, says it is ripe with drugs.
[01]20:11:58    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) And for every vulnerable female, a vulnerable male. Viagra, they say, is everywhere.
[01]20:12:04    MALE SIX, ASSOCIATE OF ONA ZEE [Jay Shanahan]
His equipment doesn't work at all.
[01]20:12:05    ONA ZEE, PORN STAR
He's old.
[01]20:12:06    MALE SIX, ASSOCIATE OF ONA ZEE [Jay]
The guys that are popping sometimes five and six of these a day. And they raise your blood pressure. I mean, do you know what that stuff does to you?
[01]20:12:13    ONA ZEE, PORN STAR
Lights, camera, Viagra.
[01]20:12:16    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) And it is probably not a surprise that many of these actors came from troubled homes or a history of abuse.
[01]20:12:23    ONA ZEE, PORN STAR
When those things happen to us as people, it breaks down all of our boundaries. And, and this, this is the person they're looking for. A lot of these people in the business are looking for.
[01]20:12:35    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Though it did surprise us how many of the performers said they came from intense religious backgrounds. Like Michelle, from a Mormon home so strict, she couldn't play with Barbie dolls because of their voluptuous bodies.
[01]20:12:49    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
I was raised in a very strict family where we weren't allowed to do anything. I wasn't allowed to watch "Roger Rabbit" or "Simpsons" or "Dirty Dancing." I wasn't allowed to watch that.
[01]20:12:59    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Growing up, Michelle had a learning disability, trouble in school, and, she says, a boyfriend left her for a stripper. She says, too, there wasn't much money in the family, until her journey into porn.
[01]20:13:12    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
I'm like the one that they thought that would never have the money, and I'm the only one that has money in that whole family. My sister, I pay for her college. You know? My older sister.
[01]20:13:22    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Michelle's older sister Alicia.
[01]20:13:24    ALICIA SINCLAIR, MICHELLE'S SISTER
I can remember the day that, like, my mom called me and told me that she moved out here and that's what she was doing. And I, like, remember crying on the phone and thinking, like, what has her life become, you know? And being really upset about it, you know, because it's not like you exactly expect her to become a lawyer or anything. So, I mean, but it's not exactly like you expect her to become a porn star either.
[01]20:13:46    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) So, just one year after she left the business, the lure of the money brings Michelle Sinclair back.
[01]20:13:52    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
I'm like, wow, this is going to be cool.
[01]20:13:55    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) She tries to get a contract with one of the high-end companies.
[01]20:13:59    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
I think that I will be a superstar one day. We'll see.
[01]20:14:03    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) She has a shot at the big time. A small part in a VCA movie, the same company where Veronica Hart is a director. On the set, she's star struck.
[01]20:14:12    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
He is a riot.
[01]20:14:15    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) There's Ron Jeremy, one of the biggest names in porn.
[01]20:14:18    RON JEREMY, PORN STAR
No bras. No panties.
[01]20:14:21    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) But she gets bad news. She doesn't get her contract.
[01]20:14:26    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
We're going to rock the world.
[01]20:14:29    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) So she takes another offer.
[01]20:14:37    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) A trip to Prague to shoot her first starring role in a feature film for a company called "Elegant Angel." And as you'll see, it will be an experience that will totally turn her life around.
[COMMERCIAL BREAK]
[GRAPHICS: PRIMETIME THURSDAY]
[YOUNG WOMEN, PORN & PROFITS]
[01]20:18:05    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) Once again, here's how the business works. Every year an estimated 11,000 hard core porn movies are released, and the people who make the videos then market them to middle men, distributors who feed them to the giant cable and satellite companies and hotels, or they're sold over the Internet and in video stores. As we said, the performers tend to get flat fees, just a tiny fraction of the money a movie can make. And while some production companies encourage condom use and offer health coverage, most do not. And we're told every performer has a story. And often they're stories of troubled childhood and abuse.
[01]20:18:44    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) As we begin Michelle Sinclair made a few dozen videos. Her screen name, Belladonna. Poison flower.
[01]20:18:52    DIANA HAMILTON, MICHELLE'S MOTHER
She said, when she first left for LA, she told me she was going to model negligees.
[01]20:18:58    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) This is Michelle's mother, Diana Hamilton(SP?).
[01]20:19:01    DIANA HAMILTON, MICHELLE'S MOTHER
And then I ran into a couple of people who actually were fans of hers, and people I work with. And that was a little, little strange, but.
[01]20:19:11    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) Did you go through the what did I do? Did I do something wrong?
[01]20:19:15    DIANA HAMILTON, MICHELLE'S MOTHER
I have. I've wondered. What did I do wrong? Was it because I went through a divorce? Was it because I raised her in the church? Or was I not rich enough? Was I not humble enough? I don't know.
[01]20:19:28    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Michelle's father is in fact a retired Air Force Captain, and a former Bishop in the Mormon church.
[01]20:19:34    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) What does her father really think about this? Do you know?
[01]20:19:38    DIANA HAMILTON, MICHELLE'S MOTHER
I think he's totally disgusted by it and embarrassed, and very, very sad.
[01]20:19:45    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) And slowly, as we talk, Michelle's mother reveals that like so many others in the business, when Michelle was 14, she was molested by an older boy. Afterwards, she had a breakdown, attempting suicide.
[01]20:19:58    DIANA HAMILTON, MICHELLE'S MOTHER
She was, you know, what, 14? I could lock her away, I could protect her. I could go visit her and take care of her. I can't do that now.
[01]20:20:12    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Back in Los Angeles, Michelle goes off to the Czech Republic to begin shooting her first starring role.
[01]20:20:23    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) The movie will be part reality based, part scripted.
[01]20:20:29    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) Director Patrick Hollands(SP?) wants his star to roam Prague with a handicam in search of sexual adventures. He starts thing off at the LA airport.
[01]20:20:37    PATRICK HOLLANDS, DIRECTOR
I got $50 if you'll just undo the buttons on your blouse. We'll make it $100. Cash.
[01]20:20:44    FEMALE TEN, AIRPORT SCREENER
That's $100.
[01]20:20:44    PATRICK HOLLANDS, DIRECTOR
That's $100. Okay, I want to see that, come up, a little bit . . .
[01]20:20:57    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Two flights and 15 hour, later, Belladonna looks less the porn star and more the kid next door. In Prague, when Michelle is introduced to one of her leading men a few days later, she falls for him, in a childish infatuation.
[01]20:21:15    NACHO VIDAL, PORN STAR
Sometimes you find the woman.
[01]20:21:18    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
You're so beautiful.
[01]20:21:25    PATRICK HOLLANDS, DIRECTOR
That's Bella playing hard to get.
[01]20:21:30    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Her new love, Nacho Vidal, a porn star from Spain who has been paired with just about every starlet in the business, but Michelle believes this is it for her.
[01]20:21:41    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
There's nothing bad about you.
[01]20:21:43    NACHO VIDAL, PORN STAR
No?
[01]20:21:43    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
No.
[01]20:21:44    NACHO VIDAL, PORN STAR
You don't know me very well.
[01]20:21:46    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Don't say that.
[01]20:21:47    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR (CONTINUED)
The day we met, he said, you are going to be the mother of my children. I love you. Like, you know, I mean, I'd never had that before. Never had a guy be so in love with me.
[01]20:21:58    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) He is less sentimental about commitment.
[01]20:22:01    NACHO VIDAL, PORN STAR
I see already the way she feels. I cannot be with one girl. You know?
[01]20:22:07    PATRICK HOLLANDS, DIRECTOR
Action.
[01]20:22:10    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Hi. My car broke down.
[01]20:22:12    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) And when the filming actually begins, the tone changes. None of this was scripted or suggested by the director. It didn't even appear in the final version of the film. And though Michelle seemed shaken afterwards, she insisted she was okay.
[01]20:22:28    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
I look torn up, can you tell? I mean, I took a beating today, and it was great.
[01]20:22:34    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Another girl considered disposable by a business feeding a giant appetite.
[01]20:22:38    KEN DANISH, PRESIDENT OF EROTIC NETWORK
The careers are, are pretty short.
[01]20:22:41    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Ken Danish(SP?) is President of the Erotic Network whose parent company, New Frontier, feeds cable companies like Time Warner and Comcast.
[01]20:22:52    KEN DANISH, PRESIDENT OF EROTIC NETWORK
I don't think that we can take responsibility for what we're doing to society. I think society is, is, is taking the entertainment community where it wants to go.
[01]20:23:03    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) In just three years, Danish says, his Erotic Network has grown from about a million and a half households . . .
[01]20:23:09    KEN DANISH, PRESIDENT OF EROTIC NETWORK
To last count, over 35 million.
[01]20:23:11    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Danish used to sell country western and educational programs. The CEO of New Frontier, Mark Krielof,(SP?) used to be a banker.
[01]20:23:20    MARK KRIELOF, CEO EROTIC NETWORK
It's a very inexpensive form of entertainment for a lot of Americans. And they're willing to pay a big premium to get it discreetly, to get it in the privacy of their own home.
[01]20:23:30    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Krielof and Danish are two middle-class guys from the suburbs of Colorado who recognize a growth industry.
[01]20:23:39    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) And up next in the porn world, do it yourself porn, with interactive technology, too.
[01]20:23:44    FEMALE ELEVEN, DISPLAYING INTERACTIVE PORN
It's all shot from point of view so you can imagine yourself as the viewer, oop. You can see there? See, she's reacting. She didn't like the way you touched her.
[01]20:23:53    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) By now, Michelle Sinclair is no longer the new girl in the business. She's made 200 to 300 movies with scores of sex partners and she has to do ever riskier things to earn her money. Again, we warn you, this information is not pleasant to hear, but it is true.
[01]20:24:10    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
For, like, DPs, which is, like, double penetration, $1500. And, you know, if you do, like they even do double anal. Which is like $1500, $1600 also.
[01]20:24:26    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) One person in the industry called it sexual Olympics?
[01]20:24:30    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
It definitely is. You have to really prepare physically and mentally for it. I mean, I go through a process from the night before. I stop eating at 5:00. I do, you know, like two enemas. The next morning I don't eat anything. It's so draining on your body.
[01]20:24:48    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) At every stage, the medical risk increases. Always the fear of AIDS.
[01]20:24:53    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
It's something I always think about. Pray.
[01]20:25:00    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Michelle has already contracted chlamydia, a venereal disease which can make you sterile.
[01]20:25:08    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) So why won't you protect yourself?
[01]20:25:11    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
The fans don't like to see condoms. If I would have said I want to use condoms every time, I really wouldn't get any work.
[01]20:25:18    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) Are you shocked it's not against the law?
[01]20:25:20    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Yeah, because you're talking about your life. You know?
[01]20:25:25    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Michelle's mother, Diana Hamilton told us, she had not watched her daughter's tapes, but she did listen as Michelle told me the graphic details.
[01]20:25:34    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) But I can hear lots of parents out there saying, I would be on the next train, plane, automobile, if I had to take handcuffs, I would get them home and get them out of this.
[01]20:25:48    DIANA HAMILTON, MICHELLE'S MOTHER
I don't know. I mean, maybe if I had really felt the truth of what was happening at the time. If I'd really felt or knew, you know what I mean? But she's an adult. I can't chain her down, I can't tie her down. She has to find out for herself.
[01]20:26:04    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
People have tried to tell me, you know, this is how it's going to turn out, and I've never listened to anyone. Never.
[01]20:26:11    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) But the longer we talked to Michelle, the more unnerved I became by something. No matter how ghastly the stories of what she had done, no matter the pain she described, Michelle always smiled.
[01]20:26:23    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) When you're telling me about things that really made you suffer, you're still smiling.
[01]20:26:29    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Because I like to hide. Everything. You know?
[01]20:26:37    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) And what's real? What's not hidden?
[01]20:26:45    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Now I'm going to cry.
[01]20:26:48    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) Why?
[01]20:26:53    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
I don't know. I don't know. I just, I like to hide my real emotions, because, I want everyone to see how happy I am inside, really, and I'm not happy. I don't like myself at all.
[01]20:27:21    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) We'll have more from Michelle in a moment, but a couple of other notes. There are four female porn star whose have spoken out publicly saying, they've contracted AIDS. And one of them is bringing suit. And we also thought we'd tell you that brothels in Nevada are legal and regulated, and the brothels require that the girls be protected with condoms.
[01]20:27:44    ANNOUNCER
American porn. Hard-core profits for some. Throwaway lives for many. Fortune 500 companies with an X-rated secret.
[01]20:27:53    DIANA HAMILTON, MICHELLE'S MOTHER
I hate them. Their kids get to go college and live in a big, beautiful home and go on wonderful vacations, and my daughter had to, and will, suffer for that.
[01]20:28:05    ANNOUNCER
"Primetime Thursday" will return in a moment.
[GRAPHICS: PRIMETIME THURSDAY]
[YOUNG WOMEN, PORN & PROFITS: CORPORATE AMERICA'S SECRET AFFAIR]
[COMMERCIAL BREAK]
[01]20:30:31    ANNOUNCER
What's happened to a young girl's Hollywood dream? Now she's a star in the roughest part of the hard-core world.
[01]20:30:38    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Oh my God. I didn't know I had that many fans.
[01]20:30:40    ANNOUNCER
But what's the price of fame? Her mother has a question for all the corporations cashing in.
[01]20:30:46    DIANA HAMILTON, MICHELLE'S MOTHER
Would you allow your daughter to work in this industry?
[01]20:30:49    ANNOUNCER
"Young Women, Porn & Profits: Corporate America's Secret Affair" continues after this from our ABC stations.
[GRAPHICS: PRIMETIME THURSDAY]
[GRAPHICS: YOUNG WOMEN, PORN & PROFITS: CORPORATE AMERICA'S SECRET AFFAIR]
[COMMERCIAL BREAK]
[GRAPHICS: PRIMETIME THURSDAY]
[YOUNG WOMEN, PORN & PROFITS: CORPORATE AMERICA'S SECRET AFFAIR]
[01]20:32:55    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) As we said, just a generation ago, pornographers lived in fear of prosecution and videos tended to play in seedy neighborhoods. Well, not so today. Some of the country's most glittering corporate establishments have gotten into the profits. So we wondered, what would they say? Do they approve of the legal age limit? 18-year-old girls? What about the fact that condoms are not always required or that performers are treated, in the words of Dr. Koop, like throwaway people. So we started asking some questions and discovered that pornography, profits and responsibility are a secret in the corporate attic.
[01]20:33:33    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) Who are these companies? None other than General Motors which owns Direct TV. Direct TV delivers soft and hard-core porn via satellite into homes bringing in millions. Comcast, the giant communications company, which supplies porn, including hard-core, to homes via pay per view. And how about Time Warner? It owns a cable company which offers erotic programs from "Playboy" and other outlets including hard-core.
[01]20:34:01    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) So, how many millions and millions of dollars do these Fortune 500 companies make from porn? Well, we can't tell you, because they don't publicize it anywhere at all. We went through their financial statements, and there's not one mention of money made from the sex movie market. But one industry analyst we spoke with estimated that the combination of cable and satellite outlets makes about a billion dollars a year from the adult movie market.
[01]20:34:31    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) And the hotel industry is also reaping the spoils. Major hotel chains. Some 40 percent of all the hotel rooms in the country offer adult movies, ranging from soft to hard-core. So it's a lot of easy cash for hotels, in the millions. But, again, you'll never find a mention on any financial statement. So I got on the phone to try to find some answers from these companies. Direct TV, General Motors. I tried the Chairmen. Finally, a PR spokesman said they were not permitted to talk.
[01]20:35:03    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) Is this an edict from General Motors not to talk?
[01]20:35:06    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) Comcast would not comment on the record. And companies like Hilton and Marriott, nothing on the record. In fact several companies wouldn't even go on the record to say no comment. At the end of the day, no executives at Time Warner Cable would talk either, but public relations spokesman Mark Herad(SP?) said I could record his voice for broadcast.
[01]20:35:27    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) Tell me about the nature of what you're offering. Where do you draw the line?
[01]20:35:31    MARK HERAD, TIME WARNER CABLE
Time Warner Cable has traditionally offered what they've called soft core programming. And . . .
[01]20:35:38    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) But do you offer hard-core?
[01]20:35:39    MARK HERAD, TIME WARNER CABLE
In a couple of divisions they have increased the programming to the next step up, if you will, which I think some people would understandably call hard-core, and that decision has really been driven by consumers.
[01]20:35:55    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) And no one expressed a willingness to take responsibility for the young girls helping bring in the profits. Again, former Surgeon General Dr. C. Everett Koop who says most companies do nothing to insure health care or simple safety regulations for the performers who are often still in their teens.
[01]20:36:13    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) As you know, producers have said and distributors have said, well, they're not really employees, so we don't have that responsibility for them. They're, they're contract players, in effect, independent ones.
[01]20:36:24    C. EVERETT KOOP, FORMER SURGEON GENERAL
That's just a cop-out, and these youngsters are not unionized. They don't know how to do anything for themselves and they're really stuck.
[01]20:36:33    DR. SHARON MITCHELL, ADULT INDUSTRY MEDICAL CLINIC
This is not a moral issue. It's an issue about disease, about HIV, about chlamydia, gonorrhea, young men and women entering an industry that they often don't know enough about.
[01]20:36:41    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Dr. Sharon Mitchell(SP?), Head of the Adult Industry Medical Clinic. Bill Margold is a veteran porn star himself who now counsels others entering the business.
[01]20:36:51    BILL MARGOLD, COUNSELOR
I get 18, 19-year-old girls who just don't understand that once you do this, you are sociologically damned forever. I do not think that people are capable, at 18 years old, of making life-changing decisions.
[01]20:37:06    C. EVERETT KOOP, FORMER SURGEON GENERAL
I think that what this needs is somebody in either the House or the Senate to have some hearings on the regulation of this industry.
[01]20:37:15    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) What about the mental health consequences to these kids?
[01]20:37:18    C. EVERETT KOOP, FORMER SURGEON GENERAL
What happens to youngsters who are used in the pornographic industry is almost indescribable.
[01]20:37:25    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Again, performer and porn executive Ona Zee says . . .
[01]20:37:29    ONA ZEE, PORN STAR
We don't think about the repercussions, the movies created on the psyche of the girl that we used in the film. I mean, many times I saw myself get up from my body, and I was having a scene outside of my body. It's a severe form of splitting off.
[01]20:37:45    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
I call it the other half.
[01]20:37:50    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) We've noticed since we first met her, Michelle Sinclair has changed dramatically. When we first met her, she told us she wouldn't use drugs.
[01]20:37:57    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Never, never.
[01]20:38:00    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Now we learn, like so many others, she's been using drugs during some of the scenes.
[01]20:38:06    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
And I'm like this when he's, he's like calls me back, and he's like, is there something I did wrong or, or, you know, were you not into it or something? I'm all, no. I think I was really stoned.
[01]20:38:17    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) And we aren't the only ones who were stunned by the changes in her. One of her old friends from home came to visit.
[01]20:38:23    FEMALE TWELVE, MICHELLE'S FRIEND
When I got off the plane, I went straight to one of her scenes. Like, I had never seen anything like that before. I was shocked.
[01]20:38:30    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Michelle says, at times, it has driven her to despair.
[01]20:38:34    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) Recently, did you have a breakdown?
[01]20:38:36    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Yes.
[01]20:38:38    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) What was it?
[01]20:38:39    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
I just, I didn't want to be here anymore at all. I wanted to leave, you know, this world.
[01]20:38:47    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) Suicide?
[01]20:38:47    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Of course. I mean, I don't want to do this anymore, at all. But there's that part of me that's like, you'll have all that money again.
[01]20:38:55    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) And who's going to win?
[01]20:38:57    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Me, this time, I, I really hope.
[01]20:39:01    BILL MARGOLD, COUNSELOR
There's a delusion that the X-rated industry is a stepping-stone into the real world. The X-rated industry is a tombstone to the real world.
[01]20:39:09    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) Do you hate the big businesses that make so much money?
[01]20:39:13    DIANA HAMILTON, MICHELLE'S MOTHER
Yes, I do. I hate them. I hate them that their kids get to go to college, and live in a big, beautiful home, and go on wonderful vacations, and my daughter had to, and will, suffer for that.
[01]20:39:29    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) If you could talk to the head of one of these corporations, making countless millions on the industry, saying nothing publicly about it, what would you say to him?
[01]20:39:39    DIANA HAMILTON, MICHELLE'S MOTHER
I think my first question would be, would you allow your daughter to work in this industry?
[01]20:39:43    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) There are a lot of people, I suppose, who'd like to think that if we don't take responsibility for it, it will go away?
[01]20:39:49    C. EVERETT KOOP, FORMER SURGEON GENERAL
Oh no. It won't go, it'll never go away. It'll just get worse. The appetite for pornography seems to be insatiable.
[01]20:40:00    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) We know of one hotel chain, Omni, which decided to stop providing sex movies in rooms, and the company says it's forfeiting millions a year by doing so. But the CEO said he made the decision after asking himself, what are we doing?
[01]20:40:16    ANNOUNCER
Two years in the world of porn.
[01]20:40:18    MALE THREE, PHOTOGRAPHER
You've never done any sex on camera or any of that?
[01]20:40:20    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
No.
[01]20:40:22    ANNOUNCER
What's happened to the young women who took the dare?
[01]20:40:25    MALE SEVEN, AWARD PRESENTER
And the winner of the AVN Award for best all-sex video is . . .
[01]20:40:31    ANNOUNCER
Will Michelle make it to the top? Or bow out? When "Primetime" returns.
[GRAPHICS: PRIMETIME THURSDAY]
[YOUNG WOMEN, PORN & PROFIT: CORPORATE AMERICA'S SECRET AFFAIR]
[COMMERCIAL BREAK]
[GRAPHICS: PRIMETIME THURSDAY]
[YOUNG WOMEN, PORN & PROFITS: CORPORATE AMERICA'S SECRET AFFAIR]
[01]20:44:14    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) When we left Michelle Sinclair, she was at a crossroads. The average career in hard-core pornography is brief, reportedly just 18 months. So we thought we'd tell you what happened to some of the people you met here tonight.
[01]20:44:27    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) We checked back in with Samantha, who became much sought after. Her first porn scene, you'll remember, had been the day after she walked in the agency. She told us after a few months, she'd had enough. She didn't feel it was for her.
[01]20:44:46    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) But after two years, Michelle has become a major name. Belladonna, famous, celebrated for the kind of sex that once horrified and hurt her.
[01]20:44:56    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Oh, my God. I didn't know I had that many fans.
[01]20:45:00    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) She told us she's made more than $100,000 a year. At Michelle's first Las Vegas Adult Video Awards Show, a kind of porn Oscars, her movie, the one she shot in Prague, is nominated.
[GRAPHICS: ADULT VIDEO NEWS AWARDS]
[01]20:45:18    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Veronica Hart, up for Best Director, does not win.
[01]20:45:25    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(VO) And Bella's now former boyfriend, Nacho, up for five awards.
[01]20:45:30    FEMALE THIRTEEN, AWARD PRESENTER
And the winner is . . .
[01]20:45:32    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) Loses out each time.
[01]20:45:33    FEMALE THIRTEEN, AWARD PRESENTER
Lexington Steel(SP?).
[01]20:45:43    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) But belladonna . . .
[01]20:45:44    MALE SEVEN, AWARD PRESENTER
And the winner of the AVN Award for best all-sex video is . . .
[01]20:45:51    FEMALE THIRTEEN, AWARD PRESENTER
Bella, "All Day Angel."
[01]20:46:01    MICHELLE SINCLAIR, PORN STAR
Roar. That's all I have to say. What's up? I worked hard for this one.
[01]20:46:08    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) And even more awards as the months move on. For her biggest movie yet, a disturbing marathon of anal sex and S&M. She is now 21, and there have been other changes in her life. Her friend from Utah, who was once so shocked by the business, decided the money was good, so she'd try it, too.
[01]20:46:36    FEMALE TWELVE, MICHELLE'S FRIEND
My first time was horrible. Horrible. I was like almost in tears. Like I hated it so bad.
[01]20:46:41    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(VO) She says it was Bella who convinced her to stick with it. And what about Belladonna's mother, who was so worried about her daughter in the porn industry? Her mother decided to become her personal assistant on a new series Belladonna was going to direct and star in. But that deal fell through. Her mother went back to Utah.
[01]20:47:05    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS (CONTINUED)
(OC) And you can find more on our report at abcnews.com. We'll be right back.
[GRAPHICS: ABCNEWS.COM]
[GRAPHICS: PRIMETIME THURSDAY]
[YOUNG WOMEN, PORN & PROFITS: CORPORATE AMERICA'S SECRET AFFAIR]
[01]20:48:40    DIANE SAWYER, ABC NEWS
(OC) That's it for us tonight. Don't forget to join me tomorrow morning for "Good Morning America." I'll see you then. I'm Diane Sawyer and from all of us here at "Primetime Thursday," we hope you have a good night.

August 28, 2007

She blogs:

*sigh* Well, my plan WAS to fill you all in on my past week and a half of life. But, sometimes things change in an instant. I CAN tell you that a few weeks back, I was as high on life. I felt that there was nothing in the world that could bring me down. I was given permission, by my husband, to have sex with other men. When I was first told, I never thought for a second that I could actually ever go through with it, so I just teased him by telling him stories of me having sex with other men, and it was a lot of fun. I did mention to him that if I were ever to do it, it had to be someone I was extremely attracted to.

Well, that day came along. I found the perfect man to share this experience with. I told this man that I wanted to have sex with him and that I would pay for him to get tested so that we could enjoy ourselves knowing that we were safe.

I had been around this guy in the past and Herpes was brought up, but it was never a straight forward question, so my answer was that 99.9% of the porn industry has Herpes. I thought by saying that it was pretty clear, but I should never have assumed.

I got the test results back from Aim Healthcare and his test was negative for everything, so we set a time and a place for our rendezvous and I went on about my merry way. I was in heaven, feeling like I was thirteen year old again and having my first kiss at Skateworld. I had so much desire for this man and didn't even know it until my husband told me of his fantasy.

Well, I went to meet up with him and we shared some of the most incredible sex I've ever had. We began to talk about how responsible we felt for doing it this way and that people should do it like this more often. Get tested, get permission and totally enjoy yourselves. It didn't even take ANYTHING away from the excitement of it! In fact, it may have made it even better! Then we started talking about STDs and he brings up Herpes! He says, "You don't have that do you?"

My heart almost hit the floor and my gut tightened up like a knot. It's a little late in the game to be asking this now, don't you think? It was as much his responsibility as it was mine, so I can't really place any blame. I really thought he knew since we had talked briefly about it before. NEVER ASSUME ANYTHING!!!!

I couldn't even tell him the truth at that moment because I was so embarrassed. I just blurted out, "NO!" I kept thinking how am I going to tell him. This is a man who doesn't work in the adult industry, granted I don't know what he does in his personal life, but I should have said something before it was too late. I never said a word and left.

I called Aiden right away and told him what happened and immediately after that I called "the other man" to tell him that I lied. I explained everything and told him how I felt and he was actually really calm and nice about it all.

I took him to Aim Healthcare the next day to talk about it and told him I would pay to get him tested again and that I would take care of it for him. I am just crossing my fingers that I did not give him HSV-2 for life. Now you all know why I posted the Herpes blog because I went through a lot emotionally and got very stressed out over it all. I actually lost sleep and my appetite for awhile.

Now everything is calmed down and I feel a lot better. My husband's fantasy is gone. And even it if it weren't I don't think I could have sex with anyone else at this point. I am fine with having sex with just my husband for the rest of my life. You don't have to ask me twice.

Anyway, here's the kicker. I started shooting the Vivid feature, The Devil in Miss Jones: Lost Paradise and everything was going well. I've been working 13 hour days and it's been challenging because I don't usually do these kinds of projects. I know that it's worth it to me though, because when I get to sit down and watch the finished product, I'll see all the hard work I put into it.

The night of the 23rd, after my shower, I was putting some lotion on and felt what I thought was a rash on my upper butt cheek. I was like, what the hell is this? and kept trying to think of how I could have gotten it and from where, or was it a bug bite or something? I could not seem to pin point it. I left it alone and thought, well, it will be gone in a couple of days, no worries. But it has only gotten worse.

I had to cancel my sex scenes for today and I went to the doctor, only to find that he thinks it Herpes. I am not 100% sure yet because the culture won't be back until Friday, but he loaded me up with medication. The thing is, it's not a normal sized breakout. It happens to be 2 inches in diameter and it's on my ass!!!!!!!!

This isn't the worst thing that could happen. I am totally aware of that, but it is a big fucking deal to me considering the size and the placement! He even said it could very well leave a scar because of the size of it. I nearly cried! It's days like this that make my job suck. If there were one thing that I could name that would make me not want to have sex for a living it would be STDs! And that is why I am telling you all of this today. I will no longer be performing with other people. I'll still be doing solo scenes for extras on my movies and also directing, dancing and signings.

This is really a big decision for me and it hurts me in some ways, but the way I look at... it's time to let me body relax. I just don't want to risk getting Herpes all over my body, or in my eyes, or genital warts or even HIV Don't worry, I'm not leaving the business, I'm just not going to be performing in front of the camera anymore. I know that is why a lot of you are my fans, but I hope you continue to be a fan of my work directing and behind the camera in the years to come. I can't thank you all enough for supporting my career throughout the years! And I'll still be here telling you all about my adventures in life and all of the other really hot guys and girls I've been shooting. So don't go anywhere yet, I have much more in store for you.

Kurt Lockwood writes Aug. 20: "My life includes trips to Vegas, fucking Belladonna while co-starring with her in THE main VIVID feature this year, THE DEVIL IN MISS JONES 2."

August 30, 2007

Click here for the video.

Belladonna says: "I'm sitting here hoping for a miracle."

"I honestly don't know what happened. I don't know how this came about. I could've been under a huge amount of stress and caused it on my own."

How does one cause one's own STD?

Bella: "It could very well not even be herpes. I'm waiting until Friday to find out for sure. I'm crossing my fingers that it will not be something that will be there my entire life."

"This was something that was supposed to happen to open my eyes to the bigger picture. In a way I'm glad it did happen. I've been waiting for a time to leave and I think this is the best time."

"People keep saying goodbye to me but I'm not going anywhere yet."

"I have had herpes for five years. I haven't had an outbreak on my ass. I haven't had this kind of thing happen to my butt. I have no idea what this is."

"I have had herpes for five years. No one ever asks me about it. If you read my herpes blog, I'm honest about it, replying to comments. It's just that nothing like this has happened to me."

"I don't go surfing the net and reading gossip sites about myself. I know there are people out there who don't like me...and don't care that I have a positive attitude about my life."

"It could be my own doing. I could've stretched out so much that I broke out in she-molds or herpes. Please know that it is not anyone's fault."

"I don't want to show people [the infection]. I can show people that I have a bandage on. That's about it."

"If you want to see what happened uncensored, then you can visit my website enterbelladonna.com. Real s---."

"People looked past my looks and my body because they really liked to see my energy... I want to teach that to other people."

"Learn from me, OK? Practice safe sex or don't have sex at all."

Sept. 23, 2007

She writes on her MySpace:

Aiden and I started shooting for our movies a couple of weeks ago. As I was shooting, I couldn't get away from this feeling of sadness. Watching two people together and not seeing myself as one of them was going to be so hard for me. I didn't honestly think it would be. I always thought it would be the easiest thing to just say, "I'm done", and walk away. I was wrong once again. Then came the feeling of disappointment in myself. I had made such a huge deal out of all this. A part of me was saying, "You can't go back on your word, that's not stable." Then, Aiden sat me down and said, "Michelle, this is no one's life but yours and if this is something that you want to do then you know what to do about it." And he's completely right. This is my life and no matter what you all might think of my decisions or the way I choose to go about things, I am the one who I should think about first and foremost just like each and every other person in this world! I know a lot of people read my blogs and some of you are even in the same industry. I'm positive that you'll all have your opinions on what kind of person I am, but I know who I am and I know that I'm a good person. I wear my heart on my sleeve like so many of you say and I'm okay with that! I realize that I'm an open book and I like to be like that because I have nothing to hide from anyone. So judge me how you will, it's only human of you.

For those of you who'd joined me on the 20th for my Live show, I would like to give you all a very sincere thank you! I had a lot of fun showing off how to make a belladonna fist from scratch. Amazingly enough, Aiden has already archived the live show for anyone who missed it! I have to say that my Belladonna fist by Doc Johnson is a wonderful toy to own and I highly recommend it to those of you that would like to use a fist for whatever it is you choose, but don't want the huge man fist that they currently sell. My line of toys will be available in 2008, but that's all I know right now. I'll post more on the releases as I get them from my contact at Doc Johnson.

First off, I have received the itinerary for Sexpo in Melbourne, Australia. You can view my signing days and times on my appearances page! The convention will take place in Melbourne Australia, November 15th - 18th at the Melbourne Exhibition centre, 2 Clarendon St, South Melbourne. I'll also be signing in New Zealand, November 9-11, 2007! And if that isn't enough, I have some VERY exciting news! I will be signing at the FICEB show this year in Barcelona, Spain! So, for all of you Spaniards out there who love me, come and get a picture with me at the Milkyway booth, October 3-7, 2007! For more information, check out the my website!

BlackSix writes on ADT: "She has been saying she was leaving the business since she was 19. Sheesh."

Kinkaid writes on ADT: "She must be one hell of a performer to have so much support. I've only seen pictures of her and her looks aren't that great as far as porn stars go."

Alfan writes:

Bella should just let her work stand and that we have a lot to enjoy and remember her by. But, it is confusing and "drama queenlike" to pull all these stunts.

I wonder if she has it all together. She has herpes and could spread it to others and almost did! It just does not make my viewing of her product....all that much of a fantasty to me. I like to just view and enjoy the product and not all the drama of thinking......porn is my escape.