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Alexis Devine Interview

I read her comment in this MySpace thread.

The former nude model calls me Sept 26.

Luke: "When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?"

Alexis: "A Christian singer. I went to Rayma Bible College in Texas."

Luke: "What did your parents want for you and from you?"

Alexis: "My dad left when I was just a baby. My mom raised me. She was evil and abusive. I wanted to become a pastor."

"I got married young to a man who turned out to be abusive. I had a couple of kids and developed post-partum depression and became agoraphobic. I got into porn to save myself and have an income and escape that marriage. I was mad at God.

"I was in porn from 30 - 32. I'm 32 now. I did several movies. I only did solo scenes. All the producers let me work from home with my own equipment.

"I was doing snuff films for a while. We did it out in the yard. In the middle of the snow, I would lie out naked with fake blood. One movie was called, 'No Angel.' And 'Cam Girl.' They ran them on cuddlynecrobabes.com.

"They are based out of New Jersey. They're always getting into trouble with the law. Things had to be done in a certain way.

"I booked models for Playboylive and Hustlerlive -- webcam sites. I was pretty successful for a long time with everything I did."

Luke: "Tell me about your life from 18 to 30."

Lisa: "At 18, getting out of highschool, I was pregnant with my first child. My life is kinda weird because I went through different phases of being homeless and being sold on the streets when I was a teen, and then I would clean up and go back to God. It was back and forth.

"I met my husband at 19. I had my daughter at 23. That's when I developed agoraphobia from the post-partum stuff. I've been in my house for ten years. I have to move today and I go doctor's appoints a few blocks away. I just pop a xanax and I go.

"There's no cure for agoraphobia. I'll never get better."

Luke: "Did you work as a prostitute?"

Lisa: "I did from 15 - 18 [in Northern California]. It was crazy. I never knew what was going to happen, if I was going to get brutally murdered or raped. One of my best friends got killed."

Luke: "Why did you leave porn?"

Lisa: "I just woke up one day and said, 'I'm done.'"

Luke: "How does it affect your dating life to be agoraphobic?"

Lisa: "I'll probably live the rest of my life as single and I'm OK with that."

Luke: "Do you have custody of your kids?"

Lisa: "Yes, I'll do. I've always made sure to be a good parent and keep them separated from my whole [porn] life."

"From all the other women I've talked to in the industry, women who've gone deeper than I, not one relationship has survived. It's a sad life. I used to hire models for productions and webcam work. They'd be fine for a long time and then boom, their relationship would fall apart. They'd lose their kids. They're on drugs. I made a boundary for myself and stuck to it. I'm probably rare. Ninety percent of the women I've talked to in this industry have had drug problems or they've been abused as children. I've yet to meet a mentally healthy woman who works in that industry."

Alexis emails me:

Have you ever interviewed a former boss of porn stars? I worked very closly with several producers and it would be interesting if you could capture the true essence of what these men and women think. How they trick the girls into getting what they want, what the producers REALLY say and think about these girls, and how they're sexually messed-up from staring at naked women all day. I was a boss...and if you could capture 'through the eyes of evil' I think it would make a really interesting story. Most of these bosses cannot even function in real society after a time. I was a boss..a model, but more of a boss then anything. Producers make fun of these girls, and find ways to make them suffer a little at each shoot. We would look for a certain type of woman, and treat her like family then throw her out like trash when we were done. Now..that's an interesting angle...one I'm not proud of, but maybe if these girls saw what I saw..they would understand more.