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Erica McLean Shoots Barely Legal 69

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I stop by Monday afternoon. I'm given an address of 4208 and I end up standing on a street corner near downtown L.A.

I call publicist Jason Sechrest who calls the set which sends out a bloke named Lucas who sports tattoos and piercings.

Then I'm brought within the warm welcoming bosom of Erica's shoot.

"Hi," I say, "Jason Sechrest sent me."

"Hey everybody," says Erica to the crew, "This is Jason. Say, 'Hi Jason.'"

Everybody says "Hi Jason."

I don't bother to correct anyone.

The girl scheduled for the first scene (Kaycee Dean?) did not have an up to date AIDS test, so a replacement (Renae Cruz?) had to be rushed in.

The scene calls for Renae Cruz to paint the Virgin of Guadalupe while Jeremy Holmes walks by and looks up her skirt. Renae accidentally spills paint on Jeremy's crotch and to remedy her error she blows him.

Erica to Renae: "Say, 'This is from my culture.' You're going to be up there [on the ladder]."

"Say, 'This is a tribute to my heritage.' Can you remember that?

"Hike your skirt up so we can see your panties."

"What are the three positions that you like? Do the 69, reverse cowgirl, cowgirl, doggie... Soft and hard."

"That's it. You look great. Isn't she adorable?"

On December 6, Renae will have been in porn for three weeks. She's worked almost every day.

Of Filipino and Brazilian heritage, Renae is an army brat.

Before her boob job in August, she measured 34B. Now she's a 34C.

According to her MySpace:

i dont make babies.... i make money

i dont talk about my life with anybody my drama my business... i let the haters and the wannabes do that for me......... i wanna be jus like paris hilton or adriana lima but truth is, im not--- im me

dont come at me wit that relationship shyt stuff off the internet oohh Nooo..

but the seven things that he must have or be [she then lists five, leaving us in suspense about the other two qualities she seeks in a man]...

Renae blogs:

i just realized why i dont like to like and love because in a way you become weaker to somebody else, somebody takes power of you,, somebody can make you a nobody, and have you do things that you would normaly never do, which personally scares me.

...its amazing how much one can really do?.. one lonely number but with infiniti possiblities... because afterall, its amazing how much just one day can change a lifetinme, how one man can change one heart, how one dollar can multiply to a million, how one idea can change a whole meaning, how about how one smile can change a sad face.

Luke: "How did you pick up English?"

Renae: "English is my first language."

Luke: "How did your family react to your getting into porn?"

Renae: "My stepmother loves it. She calls me four times a day. 'What are you doing now? How did your scene go?' My dad doesn't want to know. My little sisters don't need to know."

Renae just graduated highschool in Massachusetts. Then she stripped in Las Vegas for a week and then started doing porn.

She first had sex at 15 and by the time she was 18, she says she had had sex with about 20 guys.

Luke: "Do you regard yourself as a slut?"

Renae: "No. Just sexually open."

"I liked the dancing part [of being a stripper]. I just didn't like asking people [if they wanted a lapdance]. I can talk all night."

"I don't have boyfriends. I have boys who are there for me, except for one of them who got mad [when she entered porn] and doesn't talk to me anymore."

Erica spent much of 2005 working on her memoir with Jann Robbins.

"My husband [Clive] was given two months to live [in August 2004 but he lasted eight months] and these people [quacks] came in like vultures. Ozzy Osbourne said it well: 'If it wasn't for who we are, it wouldn't be happening.' A normal person if he has cancer -- there aren't that many sharks who are going to come in.

"It's a love story. It's a story about hope and craziness. It's a beautiful story. It will save other people. According to Kundilini, if you save one person, your baby will be a healthy and happy child."

"Our take on Adult is to make it look great, to make everybody look professional, like family. Anybody, you, me... You'd never pick me out for what I do or where I am. It just adds a touch of class. It's just an amazing story. Clive's a colorful person. He was in the music industry. He travelled extensively with the Rolling Stones, Led Zeppelin, Cat Stevens' manager... Then Larry [Flynt] brought him over here in 1975.

"I met Clive in 1989. We got together in 1991 and married in 1992. I did production for him. We started Barely Legal in 1999. There was no Hustler Video.

"I worked for Playboy for five years as a make-up artist but they would put me in scenes when someone wouldn't show."

"I was by his side 24/7 until he went to the spirit world [March 29, 2005]."

Luke: "Do you think the alternative therapies helped Clive live longer?"

Erica: "I don't think so."

Jeremy Holmes, 31, says he's done about 130 scenes during his eight months in porn. He began in Florida working for Bang Brothers.

"At some point, I should let my family know. I want to be a success at it and win an award. 'This is what I've been doing.' They think I'm out here trying to be a mainstream actor.

"All my friends are supportive of me."

"I left Florida with the mission to be A-list male talent.

"I've wanted to be a rock star for a long time. I've always had a creative side. This is a rock star lifestyle, or at least that's what people think.

"This by far is the toughest job I've ever done."