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Host victim and parasite
The dynamics of porn

Gregory Bowman wrote l-keford.com 4/23/01:

The reality of the porn industry being "for profit" is apparent like no other business. The not so shocking truth behind this reality is that it is at any cost regardless of risk. No other business puts such disregard for human life as does porn. Tragically, the never- ending supply of disposable talent lends itself to an abundance of activity. Those that prey on this group profit from and have no regard for their well-being; "Predation alive and well" should be their slogan. They are merely parasites.

The host or talent, the most vulnerable of society, flocks to the adult world for a number of reasons. One would think the economic aspect of working in the adult business would be alluring; but at what cost and for how long? For most it is a fleeting moment ending in suffering and disillusionment. The clear reason for most who have the desire to be talent in the adult industry stems from some psychological pathology resulting from a number of reasons, most being sexual abuse in the past. The repeated reenactment of some past traumatic event is a clear symptom of addictive behavior.

More than one porn actress has told me her "fantasy" is to be abused by a stranger, stemming from being sexually abused as a child. Where else but in the porn business can one so easily live out this fantasy. What they cannot resolve, they revisit and with increasing intensity and destructiveness. Although most will defend their position and discount this opinion, the proof is self- evident. The resultant equation for consequential life chaos is abundantly obvious and profoundly tragic.

The abused hosts seek out the reassurance of their pathology in porn and the abusers, no more than social parasites, must live and are glad to confirm and support the cause towards a self destructive end. When the host talent is no longer able to provide for the parasite porn profiteer, the parasite merely finds a new host, another abused and confused pretty girl is just a phone call away. Good times for all. I would appreciate your comments sent to nathans_parable@yahoo.com.

From l-keford.com April 20, 2001

Flashman calls: I talked to the top booking agent in Rio De Janeiro, Brazil. The girls down there are very attractive. And they'll do anal for $300, while the San Fernando Valley norm is $1200.

"Due to Brazil's financial crisis, persons currently receiving antiretroviral therapy through the public health system are expected to be cut off starting in October; expensive treatments for other diseases, including hemophilia, tuberculosis, diabetes, and malaria, are also threatened. Because of the cost of the drugs, the government would need $110 million to continue the program." (New England Journal of Medicine April, 2001)

The Life Of A Porn Publicist

XXX says: After the Janet Jackson Super Bowl fiasco, mainstream radio and TV didn't want to do porn stories. Talk show hosts didn't want porn guests. Then after the HIV crisis, I was fielding calls from the early morning until late at night from the media.

I'd try to figure out the tone of a story before I'd cooperate. It usually wasn't difficult. I didn't get burned. Now things are back to normal.

Duke Turned 38 May 28

I called Papillon. "I don't think you're two-faced," she said. "You just match other people's moods. When they're rude, you're rude."

Because she had no money, Papillon racked her brain to think of a kind thing she could for me.

Variety's Dana Harris Condemns Primetime

Belladonna's husband Aiden, an Evil Angel webmaster, writes:

And a section at the end that had ME in it. I gave no permission to use that on ABC, I signed no model release form. There was some random guy who looked like he came in from the beach there with a handy cam saying "if my wife knew i was taping this, she'd kill me". Such bullsh-t! Here is the asshole who gave the footage to ABC. Anyone know who this balding, double chinned piece of sh-t is?

It looked like a normal fan. they never said ANYTHING about ABC, they never asked for an official interview. He said he was a fan taping this for his friend and his wife would kill him if she knew what he was doing. sounds all good to us, so we let him. from now on, no more cameras.

Tricia Devereaux writes: "They called the Evil Angel offices to ask if she would be willing to do an interview. Our general manager was diplomatic, but basically asked the producer person who called if they were aware that Evil Angel almost sued ABC last year after the first special, and that we most likely would not be offering them any interviews in the future."

Dana Harris writes on AdultDVDTalk.com:

Hi, all - My name is Dana Harris and I'm a film writer for Variety who also covers adult for the paper. I've been writing about the industry for about five years and have gotten to know some people in it pretty well.

This is my first post. I missed this the first time it aired, as I find most mainstream coverage of the adult industry pretty reprehensible.

But after all the fracas that followed last year, I made a point of watching the rerun last night. Jesus H. Christ.

How does Diane Sawyer sleep? There may as well have been a crawl at the bottom of the screen that read: FREAKS. THESE ARE ALL SICK FREAKS. TRAGIC, REALLY, BUT WE'RE NOT HERE TO JUDGE. Over and over and over until the hour was up. Zero investigation. Zero news. Zero balance. And the worst part is the piece gave me the feeling that the idea of balance was "beneath" the Primetime crew - after all, this is PORN we're talking about. What kind of SICK FREAK would suggest that there was any balance to be had?

Adian, I do hope you take action. That was really, really low - buying footage from a fan and then, not only using the images without permission, but also making it look as if Belladonna allowed Nightline to shoot her again, even after seeing what the program had done to her last year. That, to me, is character assassination. Anyway, don't want to hog the stage on my first outing.

LFP's Darren Davis Fired For Criticizing AVN?

On May 19, I learned that AVN's advertising manager Jennifer Rosenblatt, along with six other AVN employees, has been fired.

Jenn's husband D$ AKA Darren Blatt started a thread on GFY.

LFP's marketing head Darren Davis posted to GFY:

This just ain't right... I've got no idea WTF Fishbein and those f-ckers are thinking, but Jenn was never anything less than world-class professional in my working with her. D$, It doesn't seem quite right to say you've got my sympathies -- you/Jenn don't need 'em. She's gonna bounce back, faster and higher than ever. But you've definitely got me f-ckin' amped up... Jenn was one of 2 people on the magazine side of that place who didn't have their heads embdedded neck-deep in their colons. We're talking about a woman who skipped the Phoenix show entirely, just to make sure the magazine got done. I weep for the future of that dysfunctional playpen.

Easton replies: "just curious, are you talking about your personal feelings or are you representing Hustler with these comments?"

Three hours later, Darren was fired from LFP, presumably for that post.

D$ posts about the highest paid employee in porn:

She was Senior Vice President of AVN and Vice President of Sales and Marketing of AVN Online. But in my opinion, she should have also had the title Associate Publisher because she also did the magazine layouts and other duties associated with that title.

For those trying to reach Jen, she hasn't taken anyone's phone calls since this happened. She will be in touch, just felt it's a bad idea to speak to people right now. She is reading this thread and really appreciates all of the great comments people are making in her support.

Not too many people devote 9 years of hard work and loyalty without any kind of ownership or stock in their companies, [like] she did. She always looked after the best interests of the company and put her blood sweat and tears into it, even until the final minutes.

I always felt that if and when she'd one day leave, she'd go out with a hero's salute. I'm shocked with the way it ended.

I don't know of any porn employees who get stock options or part-ownership. There have been a ton of people dismissed from LFP over the past year who never had any stock options. What happened to Jenn is typical for this business. One thing was atypical -- the amount of money she made.

I believe Jennifer was the highest paid employee in the history of porn, on the way to making a million dollars a year in 2005 (earning about a third of that in 2003).

Relations between LFP and AVN have been particularly snug in the past three years. Porn is an oligopoly. AVN, LFP and Vivid dominate. If you get on bad terms with one of these parties, you are on bad terms with all three.

Tabetha Yang Weighs In On Primetime

Tabetha Yang of Tymanagement.com writes l-keford.com:

I generally spend free moments tuning in the news when I can and happened to catch Diane Sawyer's "Primetime Thursday" tonight at home. I have to say the segment was surprising, sad and a serious slap in the face to this Industry. Production Companies, Agents/Managers and Cable TV were painted as heartless, cynical, money hording, conniving, Ebenezer Scrooges! Likewise, Talent who enter this Industry as adults were painted as mindless, senseless drones that were pulled into some sort of demonic black hole on their way to Disneyland. AIM was introduced as the Arch-Angel of Reform, which offered sanctuary to the Industries battle worn, but did not mention that (being a non-profit organization) it was funded and supported heavily by the very Companies the segment was out to crucify.

Is this how we want the world to view us? The same world that has America's hottest "pop stars" mimicking America's hottest "Porn stars" so as to cover their lack of talent because they cannot sell their records? What about the mainstream movie that was in local theaters a month or so ago titled "The Girl Next Door", which portrayed a young high school girl who was worshipped for her secret life as a Porn star? Or how about the few reports that state: "adult programming has been the innovator of most new technologies" or "the reason for home video (VHS/BETA).initially was to supply adult programming." I believe the same connection can be made with Pay-Per-View, therefore making it look like the technology of home entertainment was created and DRIVEN by our own Industry! (www.pbs.org - Frontline: American Porn). Certainly you don't see or hear about the basic scene statistics that show out of a potential 300,000 - 400,000 Talent shot over the past 5 years that only 3 individuals contracted HIV while performing on set.

That is just one more reason why the HEARD System was developed and why it should be used. Diane Sawyer stated to ex-Surgeon General, Dr. C. Everett Koop regarding Talents well being that "these companies want to make profits but not get involved." After this last week of talking to Agents and Production Companies, I firmly disagree with that, but this is what the media and perhaps even government would have the world believe. Are we going to continue to stand by quietly while the legislative gallows are being built on the Hill? Dr. Koop referred to Talent as "throw away people", something that I think the Talent of this Industry that have been around a few years would take offense to - I know I did. In the past as a Manager I have helped countless Talent by lending money, giving a ride across town, invited them to dinner with my family, gone shopping with them - even provided them a place to stay occasionally. I happen to know many Producer/Directors who have done the same as well, and never once did it ever occur to me to "throw them away" like an old suit I had out grown. Well here is how the www.heardsystem.com can change some of this for everyone:

1. Increased frequency and types of testing have been proposed to include more STD's and occur every 14 days.

2. Quarantine lists would be created for every positive entered into the system including all non-life threatening STD's.

3. Production Companies and Talent Representatives that used the HEARD System would share the cost of Talent's testing.

4. Scene data would be more thorough and generated within minutes so as to lessen exposure to other Talent.

This is just a fraction of its foundation and creates a way for Talent, Talent Representatives and Production Companies to work together for betterment of the whole. And as you probably have noticed I refer to it as a "System" rather than JUST a "database". Because it is a way for the Industry to take the reigns of a charging horse that has wildly gone down the wrong path, without having to call in the Calvary.

With programs like "Primetime," reports in the LA Times and local news hounds looking for a "story" - we're being eaten alive. However the fact is - this Industry is envied from the other side of the fence and lusted after. We are the living example that fire and brim stone will NOT rain down on your head for having multiple sex partners - married or not. We are a leader - of sorts - of the free sexual world and those who wish to live their lives as openly as their favorite performer. Therefore it's time to step up and be accounted for in the most powerful way of all: through organization, unity and strength in numbers. Be HEARD!! www.heardsystem.com Tabetha Yang www.tymanagement.com

Why So Serious, David Aaron Clark?

Many of the funniest pieces I've ever read on porn were by former Screw writer David Aaron Clark. In 1998, David become a director and I don't recall laughing at anything he's written since. What happened? There's something about responsibility that inhibits satire. Thank heavens there's still Mike Albo and his gal pal Lara "I want to live" Roxx

Mike Albo, writing with renewed respect for my investigative skills:

Luke:

How do you find out these things? Lara and I were waiting for this HIV hoopla to die down before we announced our, uh, relationship to the world. But as long as the cat's out of the drowning bag, I might as well tell you a few things you might not know.

Lara's really 35, so it's not like I'm talking her into anything as we guys in our 60s are wont to do with these chicks. She LIKES making me frosty chocolate anal milkshakes. Honest. (I won't drink them, though. I wait until she's left the room and then I pour them into a potted plant.) And while I'll be the first one to admit that she might not be the foxiest babe in porn, she's a little go-getter with big dreams...for a Canadian.

When her CD drops, it's going to be major. I've even managed to snag a producer's credit, but that's mainly because of my high standing in L.A.'s hip-hop community. The first single, "Take Tobacco Road to the Hershey Highway" b/w "Quebec City Limits" will surprise many. Yes, soon Lara and I will be living the dream life of, say, a Jeff "Mutt" Lange and a Shania Twain, but with a hip-hop "flava," of course.

As for Lara's asking on Primetime last night, "Who's going to want to have a dog and kids with me, you know, and a house?" Well, I think she knows the answer to that one. But let me ask for all the world to see, anyway. Lara, will you please be the mother of my dog?

Of course, you may receive word that Lara claims she doesn't know me, and, in fact, has never heard of me. That's just her way of protecting her privacy, a thing she values very highly. Don't you believe it.

Irresponsibly, M.A.

May I quote you?

Like I care. My reputation's already ruined. Just show a little more respect to DAC and all the other funny-boys with real talent out there...

Tipping My Hat To Lensman

When I quit Adultbeat.com in a snit April 22nd, I despaired of ever again receiving one of those super-sized Adult.com paychecks.

In an act of forlorn hope, however, I mailed off my last expense account. Within a few days, I was paid in full. Within a few weeks, my writers were paid in full (hoping you got that final check Henri Pachard). Integrity is not dead in porn.

Chasing Chelsea Charms

Her escorting schedule. Her FAQ.

ABC's Primetime Porn Special

I watched the show. I read all the comments on it and found nothing I wanted to quote. I can't think of anything to say. It was what you would expect. There was no new information here. Ho hum, life goes on.

Here's a collection of links from Fleshbot.com:

When ABC Primetime broadcast a segment on Belladonna in January 2003, it was widely criticized as an example of the worst kind of biased mainstream coverage of the adult industry: says Bella, "I said a lot of things that I really wanted everyone to hear and they took everything bad and made the whole story look like I was a victim." Diane Sawyer and company revisit Porn Valley tonight with an updated segment focusing on the recent HIV crisis; we'll see whether the slant has changed this time around. (We're not holding our breath.)

"'PrimeTime Thursday' Updates Controversial Segment on Adult Tonight" (AVN)
"Love on a Porn Set: A Mormon Girl Gets Her Start in the Adult Movie Business" (January 2003 ABC Primetime segment article w/video @ abcnews.go.com)
"Recent Prime Time Show" (2003 discussion thread @ adultdvdtalk.com)
Previously: Belladonna Interview, Porn's New HIV Crisis: Updates, Women And Porn "Porn in the USA", Celebrity Sex Tapes @ ABC

Autumn Rayne writes: "There are many negative aspects of being in porn, especially if the lady is young 18-23, or on drugs, or no self esteem. If you have a good head on your shoulders, you can handle the people that try to 'force' you to do something you don't want to."

MikeSouth.com reports:

They painted Laura Roxx as this poor Canadian girl trying to earn her way through college. Never mind the fact that she hasn't been enrolled in any college. They didn't mention her drug use, they didn't mention the fact that she was turning unprotected tricks out of that 44.00 a night hotel room she was in. Ya know, now that I think about it, they probably did us a favor after all that IS the kind of girl that many people in this business prey on. Many of the scumbags in this business can smell desperation in a girl a mile away. Primetime said she was expecting to do only regular sex, Dugmoor was advertising on GFY that she would do double anal, he gloated that he was in a 400 dollar a night room and he had her in a 40 dollar a night room. Theres a word for guys like him, predator. Of course Laura knew she was doing anal long before going to L.A., she had already done it in Canada, another fact that Primetime overlooked. Nor did they report that it is equally likely that She gave the disease to Darren as it is that he gave it to her but you can thank Sharon Mitchell for that.

Speaking of Sharon, they referred to her as "Doctor" Sharon Mitchell, proving that they didn't do any background on that either and did us yet another favor. Had they pointed out that she calls herself "Doctor" yet she has no MD nor does he possess a Phd from any accredited University, or even a bachelors degree....we would have appeared even much more underhanded and slimey. If they REALLY wanted to do a hatchet job on us they could have ripped us to shreds, was it fair and balanced? Hell no, But what it is, is entertainment, that's all, they pander to what they think the audience wants to hear.

Speaking of Darren, it's time he became a man and answered some questions. If printing his real name will make that happen, I will do it. What's he hiding anyway?

The first Belladonna special aired on ABC January 23, 2003. I spoke to Bella the next day of the report and the day after. Here's what I published then on setgo.com:

I thought it fair and accurate (except for perpetuating the myth that porn is a $10 billion a year industry, more like $4 billion) but with the dramatizing and hype you'd expect from TV.

AVNers such as Mark Kernes keep warning porners that mainstream journalists are not your friends. Well, take it from me - any journalist who claims to be your friend is no journalist.

Yes, it is possible for a journalist to be your friend and to write about you, but as long as he allows his friendship with you to effect his reporting on you, he's no journalist.

The flip side of the constant AVN warning that mainstream journalists are not your friends is this obvious point - Adult Video News journalists are not journalists. AVN is not journalism if it claims to be on your side. And none of the other websites "reporting" on the adult industry are journalism either if they claim to be your friend.

There is nothing morally superior about being a journalist versus being a shill, which is what AVN and company do. Just remember when you read AVN and company, you are not getting the truth. You are getting as censored and manipulated view of porn as Russians got under communism.

It was not AVN that broke the news on porn's HIV cases post 1997. It was a few independent voices on the internet.

If you want to face the hard truth about porn, you wont get it on the purported "porn news" sites (though the people running them are often nice people and my friends).

Carly Milne repeats herself and almost every other porn pundit here: "But the one thing they didn't point out throughout the entire piece is that women are here of their own free will."

Guess what guys? Even if people consent to destroying themselves, catching vicious diseases, ripping apart their own psyches and souls, causing irreparable pain to their families, forever killing their own chances for social standing, THAT STILL DOESN'T MAKE IT OK FOR YOU TO PROFIT FROM THAT. This is obvious to most people. Assisting someone to commit suicide is a crime in most states and making pornography is a way of assisting suicide, in the view of many people.

As the LA Times pointed out two weeks ago [January 2003], legal experts say you can't sign away your rights to sue if you catch some horrible disease on the job.

And just because people consent to something doesn't morally absolve you, or your industry.

According to the ABCNews website: "How does a nice Mormon girl end up starring in porno films? Primetime investigates the hugely profitable adult film industry, and talks to some of the young men and women who are drawn into the business by the
promise of quick cash."

Mike Paul writes on RAME: Ummm, I'd say "Pornography Chainsaw Massacre" comes close. It appears that no matter what an actress says about how much she enjoys the work, it's probably a lie. From Ona Zee through Bella Donna, and probably beyond.

Who told Dr. Koop that the fans despise the actors?...

It will seem odd if/when OSHA mandates condoms for sex workers, when the Justice Department wants nothing to do with the Industry about discrimination or other job-related problems.

Edroogie writes on RAME: Some errors are blatant. Koop says the users (us consumers) despise the talent/producers of porn....I have found no evidence of that after 30 years of viewing. They (Koop & Sawyer) state that there are no health benefits/insurance or unions. I defy them to find any of those things on ANY independent film or video poduction with a budget of 5-15 grand...it's unheard of. They speak of residuals and profit-sharing...most if not all "non-SAG" straight actors get their "day rate" and that's it! As for "Bella" she may not like herself at times (which brings her to tears in the piece) but is that not in itself the exact psychological "turn-on" which submissives/masochists seek? No matter what ABC tells us, she's totally into being ravaged/choked/gangbanged by 12 dudes as well as being tied up and slapped/whipped...not to mention her winning awards at AVN.

Lordish writes on RAME: This wasn't the hatchet job I was expecting. What it did mostly was to confirm what was in the recent New York Times article on the same subject. The porn industry is very hard on the women and it's clearly
ready for major reform.

Now I was both impressed and saddened by Bella's story of her start in the biz. It's sad that she feels trapped, but she DID get serious recognition for her work and she's developed LEGIONS of loyal fans, and that seemed to compensate for her difficulties. Even though she's paid a price Bella impressed me as a very resilient young woman--she fought back from her depression and kept soldiering on. Whether or not the
extreme stress of the business gets to her like so many others remains to be seen.

As for the drugs she's started it's everywhere in society and no evidence was presented that showed that the porn industry was worse than any other sector.

The one thing that really pissed me off was Sawyer's constant harping that what was happening was disgusting. Clearly a very large percentage of the video renting and buying public disagree. I'm one of them.

What has got to be done is to try to remove the stigma that punishes ALL sex workers. Like I've been saying, the people in porn are people and they deserve the dignity that their labor should give them. Dr. Koop was right. I for one really apprieciate what the girls do. I admire them. They surely should be compensated more than $1500 for potentially dangerous scenes like double anals. Prostitution should have been legalized nationwide decades ago as it was in Europe Working in porn should NOT turn the workers into social pariahs. Why has there been no union organizing?

Some technical way has to be found to preserve an illusion of unprotected sex. It was asserted that sales go down when male condoms are involved in a scene. Are there any kind of alternative means? Perhaps the female condom? I hear that they are difficult to use but it may be worth the effort.

What is necessary is state health regulation of the business that recognizes the economic truth of the business, and some kind of union for the performers. There should be some kind of union person at offices of the agents handling porm to fully inform new performers EXACTLY what they are getting involved with.

I know that everyone who reads or posts to RAME knows that World Modeling primarily handles people in porn. It is unconsionable that the new girls find out ONLY after they've started their interviews. World Modeling needs to put the fact on their advertising matter.

I note now that Bella has her own production company. God bless her and good luck to her! No matter what, she's turned out to be BRILLIANT at what she does.

PS Natcho Vidal is now on my thug list with TT Boy, Rocco Siffredi and Max Hardcore. What he's been doing to Bella in their scenes together is horrifying.

JMT writes on www.simplyjimmyd.com: If you professional porno people made your stuff seem anywhere close to as depraved and filthy as this Primetime Live thing depicts it, your sales would go way up. I'm eagerly awaiting the next 30 minutes . . . .

The phrase "double-anal" is first uttered on American network TV. Leonard Goldenson spins in his grave. And my local ABC affiliate mysteriously loses its satellite feed ... hmmmm.

Undertaker writes on RAME: I felt bad for BellaDonna when she was beaten up by the Spanish actor she had fallen for. She obviously thought the guy liked her and she was smitten with him.

The voice over on the ABC show said that the beating the guy gave BellaDonna was not in the script and it didn't make the final cut in the video. Roughing her up that way was totally unnecessary. I got the impression that she isn't going to remain in the industry much longer.

DDD says: Damn, jim south is creepy. Johnathan morgan....drugs took their toll...ugh jim south just went up on the creep-o-meter. wow./bellas kiddie pics. damn.this abc show is creepy. again mr south gets creepy.

Steve Banan writes: "ABC spent almost two years with Bella and tonight presented to the world a negative slant on the industry. The industry was portrayed as monsters were horrible people exist, something like a snake pit would come to mind

"It shed a horrible light on this industry and the people that make it up. I am sure from the presentation by ABC this evening, that Middle America, will get the idea that our industry is just waiting in the shadows to grab these young girls and put them in to porn - slavery."

Fast Eddie writes: Well, the one thing I gained from the show was the fact that Porn isn't going away... with the dollars it now generates, and the corporate involvement, it's bigger than Disney! The one laugh I got was the comparison to the NFL in terms of the amount of money it generated... The ABC producers failed to take into account the 100 billion or so generated by gambling on pro football....

While I thought the show was fairly straight forward in what it was about, it did focus on the "lowest common denominator" in the adult industry, the nastiest of the gonzo product... but that's what gets the ratings, I suppose... I mean, what kind of an "expose" would it be if it concentrated on the Vivid's and Wicked Pictures's kind of porn...

A couple of specific observations.... What was Jim South, Patrick Collins and Jonathan Morgan thinking??? Are they of the opinion that any publicity is good publicity? I don't care how mainstream porn is becoming, isn't it common sense to keep as low a profile as possible? Obviously they're not as smart as GM or Marriott.

Also, Randy West looked to be about 70 years old. Ona Zee is looking her age as well.

I do agree that there should be better self-policing, but truthfully, what industry left to self-examination has ever done so in a straight forward and honest manner... The AMA? The Airline Industry? The drug companies? It just doesn't happen... When the watchdogs are the same people who hold the purse strings, what can you expect.

Unfortunately, most people see the porn industry the same way they see escorts... They only know what they hear from the media, and the media usually goes for sensationalism... so prostitutes are all seen as drug addled women who hate men, hate themselves, and come from a shattered home life... they see only the story of the street hooker, and extrapolate that to include all working girls... I'd bet that if you asked the average person, they'd say that escorts don't kiss. And if you told them that some escorts are passionate, vocal and highly skilled at making a man feel good, they'd think you were crazy.

The same can be said of the porn industry... when stories are told, it's always a tragic tale like Shauna Grant's that get attention, and it's always the extremes of the porn industry like Rob Black's kind of videos that get the focus. It's easier for people to think that all pornstars hate what they're doing and are exploited... But for every Bella Donna out there, there are others who have used the industry to create a lucrative feature dance career, or a profitable website, etc. who knew exactly what they were doing and what they were getting into... I'm not saying that the industry doesn't take advantage of naive young women, but so does hollywood, madison ave., and virtually any business that uses sex to sell or enhance their product.

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I hung out with Belladona on the set of Jill Kelly Productions "LatinaX" shoot 1/23/03.

I follow Jason to interview Belladonna. We've never met. She gives me an enthusiastic greeting. She's read my stuff for years.

Belladonna broke up with her boyfriend Nacho Vidal at the recent AVN Expo.

Bella: "We're both working and doing good. We're happy."

Bella is a stunning curvaceous woman covered with tattoos. She's just moved back to Los Angeles.

Bella: "I was born in Biloxi, Mississippi. I went to Idaho, Germany, California, Delaware, Utah. My Dad was a bishop in the Mormon Church. My parents had eight kids.

"When I started in porn, I didn't care what they thought. They're just people. After I started, I called them up and said, 'Guess what I'm doing? I'm doing porno.' They asked, 'Are you happy"' I said, 'Yes I am. I have a lot of money.' They said ok."

Bella entered the industry three years ago when she was eighteen.

Jason: "Are you scared about the ABC show tonight? You know they're going to chop it up to make you look bad."

Bella: "Yeah I'm scared. They've been following me around for two years. I hope they don't chop me up. I'm really nervous. I made sure every time I said something, that if something is bad in my life, it's not because of porno. I've done my own things. You could ask another girl and she could've had a totally different experience in porno. You can't take my story and make it seem like everyone's story.

"I watched THE VIEW yesterday. Diane Sawyer was on there. She showed part of my interview, where I was crying. She made me cry. She asked me questions I didn't expect. I was already nervous because it was her. I hadn't eaten all day. She was like, 'Why are you smiling while you are saying all these things?'

"She was asking me questions about my life and how I had a lot of depression problems in my life. I was just being honest."

Jason: "What questions did she ask that made you cry?"

Belladonna: "Why I was doing videos... I've stopped a couple of times. I was like, I like the attention. I like a lot of attention. In my family, we had eight children. I didn't get a lot of attention when I was young. I was like, wow man, I'm getting a lot of attention and I'm getting paid for it."

Jason: "Why were you smiling?"

Bella: "Diane would ask, what do you do? And I'd say, Oh, I do anal. And I'd always smile. That's who I am. And she asked, why are you smiling when you say these things? And it hit me off guard and it made me think and I started tearing up. I want people to see me happy. I don't want everyone to know my problems. I have a lot of drama."

Jason: "With a name like Belladonna, we'd expect nothing less than a lot of drama."

Luke: "Did they get to see much of your drama?"

Bella: "I'm sure they did. They met me before I met Nacho. They saw me meet Nacho and they saw me fighting with Nacho and they saw me break up with Nacho. I have no patience. I like change. I'm always changing. As I get older, I think I know what I want more.

"Over the past three years, I've done a lot of hard work and now I want to rest."

Jason: "So what do you want?"

Bella: "I want to be done doing porn in six months. I want to go to massage therapy college. I'm good with my hands. I love to massage people. I'm so good at it. I heal people. I have magical hands. Underneath your skull, I like massaging the bone structure and behind your ears."

Jason: "They do it my salon when I get my hair done, while they're washing it, they massage through it."

Steve Chase: "They massage you while you have a mask and cucumbers on your eyes and a wrap. And a pedicure too."

Jason: "Well, yeah, I crossdress."

Bella: "I had my legs waxed for the first time in Spain a month ago and it hurt. I was crying. I hadn't shaved in a month. When I'm in Spain, I don't shave. I was bushy. I love it. I think it is so sexy. If a woman is sexy and she likes to be hairy, she can look good too. But I didn't keep it for much longer because I care about other people."

Luke: "What did you fight with Nacho about at AVN Expo?"

Bella: "I wanted to not be with him. When I break up with someone, I don't want to hang out with them and still be friends. If I'm away from them, I'm not going to torture myself about being jealous of every little thing.

"I wanted to be alone and he wanted us to be friends. Finally, I just gave in but the whole time in my heart, I felt like I needed some separation. It was me. Nacho is a great guy. I have a lot of issues I have to deal with in my life."

Luke: "Did you feel better after crying with Diane Sawyer?"

Bella: "I got to spend a couple of hours with her in New York. I felt better after crying but really I felt like it could've been done somewhere else. It didn't have to be with Diane Sawyer. I could've called my family and cried about those things.

"I didn't expect her to make it look like that. They had been telling me, 'Oh, she's not going to make you look bad. She's not going to bag on the industry.' But when you make someone cry..."

Jason: "That's her forte. It's not in hopes to make you look bad to bring out the inner person."

Bella: "She was a great woman. She had a lot of nice things to say. I gave my opinion on the industry and my experience of the industry. Many people may not agree with me telling the truth. Every industry in the world has similar problems [to porn]. I'm not the kind of person to go on a show and lie because I want everything to look perfect.

"I was a f-----up person before I got into the industry. If they think I'm f-----up because of the industry, they're stupid."

Jason: "I think most of the girls are a little bit f-----up on the way in."

Bella: "If I was a happy person with a lot of self esteem and confidence that I could get another job, I probably would never have done porn. I could've done something else and had a lot more. Now people are always going to think that this is the kind of person I am.

"When I am at home, I like to make passionate love. I'm a freak in bed if you want me to be. I'm not always into rough sex. I adapt to whatever my lover likes. I like to be whatever that person wants me to be because that makes me horny.

"I was always sexual. At five years old, I was humping girls. I had dreams about f---ing guys at age eight or nine. My parents were strict Mormons. We weren't even supposed to masturbate. I wasn't supposed to use tampons. I felt guilty. Now I feel free. You should never tell anyone what they should be when they're young. They will always remember that."

Belladonna won four awards at the AVN Awards earlier this month in Las Vegas:

Best Oral Sex Scene - Film
The Fashionistas, Belladonna & Rocco Siffredi, Evil Angel

Best Supporting Actress - Film
Belladonna, The Fashionistas, Evil Angel

Best Tease Performance
Belladonna, The Fashionistas, Evil Angel

Best All-Girl Sex Scene - Film
The Fashionistas, Belladonna & Taylor St. Claire, Evil Angel

DUC asks Belladonna about her fight with Nacho Vidal at the AVN Awards.

Bella: "I was getting my awards and Nacho got pissed off at me because this guy was talking to me and holding my hand the whole time."

Bella takes my hand in hers. She's sexual. I can't help getting excited by this 21-year-old nymph.

Bella: "And I'm a nice person so I was just listening to what he had to say but Nacho didn't like that. 'Why did you let him hold your hand for that long?' Because I'm that kind of person. I'm not going to do anything with him. We were fighting over something stupid like that."

Luke: "How did you like getting your awards?"

Bella: "It was nice. I enjoyed doing that movie (Fashionistas for Evil Angel) so much. It got a lot of attention and it deserved it. I never enjoyed doing dialogue so much in my life. I like working with John Stagliano. He's such a creative guy."

I chat privately with Belladonna about Australia and other topics and then we go our separate ways.

Dee gives Jason a hard time about his lame question selection for her.

Jason: "I don't like it when people give me a hard time about my questions."

Bella has to run off in two hours to do dialogue for Jenna Jameson's movie I DREAM OF JENNA.

Bella: "I did a scene with her last night. It was great. I'd never met her. I'd never wanted to cry after having an orgasm before. She did me anally with a strap-on. It was a hard scene. Afterwards, we were just holding each other. It was passionate. There were five other girls (including Nakita Denise) and T.T. Boy f------. You could hear screaming. TT did all the girls except Jenna and I.

"TT is Nacho's best friend so I could never work with him."

Billy Glide and Belladonna would like to own their own porn production companies but they're not aggressive or skilled enough.

Billy: "If somebody got the ball rolling, I could keep it going."

Bella: "I think my ball got pushed with the Fashionistas. Now I don't have to do many scenes any more because I have my series (for brand new company Cineplex)."

Bella says she needs to smoke marijuana because she's so hyper. "I have so much energy and I won't stop talking [without dope]. You can get like a year's worth of content in one day."

Bella didn't start using drugs until she entered porn, as pointed out by the ABC documentary.

Bella to Billy: "How many times did I come over to your house before I fu---- you? Four or five times.

"He treats me like a goddess. He massages me. And he's such a handyman around the house.

"I'm a freak. Maybe this is why we shouldn't smoke weed. Do you smoke?"

Luke: "No."

Bella has real breasts. "I have a bra on that makes them look bigger."

Mark Ashley: "How did you learn to arch?"

Bella: "My first boyfriend... I have a constant need for attention. So even if I get f-----, I want to get f---- again right after. Again and again. I'm begging for it. I'd be laying in bed and I wanted to get him to look at me. I wanted his attention. So I'd keep my ass arched as far up as possible, but still laying down. And I'd wear the tightest shortest pair of shorts. And I'd stay like that for hours so he'd notice me."

Luke: "That's funny."

Bella: "I know. So sad. But I learned to arch. That and gymnastics."

Thom Burr writes on RAME: Wow. They must have actually *worked* to find a porn "starlet" as seedy and degraded as Bella. Tarnished Jenna J. looks and sounds like a princess compared to Bella the Gap-Toothed Gape Whore.

Why do I sense a vicious little hatchet-job coming down the pike? I mean, if you're following _Bella_ around to get info on the porn biz, just how unwonderful is porn going to oh-so-quickly look? Unless one is very jaded, or determined to be naive, Bella is a poster girl for the darker sides of porn...

Speedskater writes on RAME: "Lured by the promise of quick cash"? Like they're offering candy to 5-year-olds. You know, the promise of cash is the reason I went into the f-cking newspaper industry.

It's obviously going to be a slanted, preachy, distorted hatchet job, but I'll watch, rooting for Bella to hold her own. Just be thankful they didn't have the idea of profiling Bisexual Britni.

From the Salt Lake Tribune:
The story is so familiar: Michelle Sinclair was an 18-year-old from Magna who wanted to make it big as a model in Los Angeles.
Two years ago, she packed her bags and headed west with a portfolio under her arm and an offer for work, except the job was not modeling clothes -- it was posing in the nude. That led to photos in sex magazines and, ultimately, lesbian porn movies.
Today at 20, Sinclair -- whose stage name is "Belladonna" -- is a rising star in the adult entertainment industry, a far cry from the outgoing schoolgirl attending church with her mother, father and six siblings.
Sinclair's journey is the focus of a "Primetime Thursday" special that looks at the growing pornography industry and the impact it has on the people who perform in it. It airs at 9 p.m. on KTVX Channel 4.
Television news crews followed Sinclair for two years, tracking her ups and downs in the business, which generates between $10 billion and $12 billion a year, according to the report. The show's host, Diane Sawyer, also interviews Sinclair's mother, 43-year-old Dianna Hamilton.
Hamilton, who was unable to provide a working telephone number for Sinclair, has felt helpless to stop her daughter from continuing in the sex-film industry.
"I don't want her doing that. It will hurt her eventually," Hamilton said Wednesday in an interview with The Salt Lake Tribune. "She told me that they always use condoms, and they are always tested. She seemed so professional about it, but at the same time, I know it has to hurt her sometime."
Sinclair was born in Mississippi, the daughter of an Air Force personnel officer who had to uproot his family many times, according to Hamilton. Sinclair's father declined to be interviewed.
The family finally settled in Utah after friends said the job market was good, and "we always wanted to live in the center of the Mormon church," said Hamilton, who at the time was an active member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
Sinclair was soon in trouble, dropping out of the ninth grade at Hunter Junior High School in West Valley City and running away from home to be with a boyfriend.
Hamilton was at a loss for ideas.
"By then, my marriage with [Michelle's father] was falling apart," said Hamilton, who has since remarried. "He was washing his hands of her, and I was getting frustrated with her. It was a big mess and a very frustrating time. It felt like there was nothing that would work."
Sinclair met some Salt Lake City strippers and made $500 dancing in the nude at a bachelor party.
"She thought this was easy money," her mother said. "She was all confused inside."
While Sinclair was working in a Salt Lake City strip club, a local photographer assembled a portfolio for her so she could head for Los Angeles.
"She told me she was going to do lingerie modeling, but she actually went to do lesbian porn with her friend," said Hamilton. "She showed me some magazines that were disgusting. They were pictures of people having sex. Then she admitted to doing some actual sex. It took me a year to fully learn what she was doing."

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Belladonna was embarrassed and ashamed of the documentary and the way she came across.

AVN's Mark Kernes reacts with fury to the documentary here.

Mike Quasarman writes www.simplyjimmyd.com: "Anyone who gives this girl a job in the future should be brutally beaten with a bag of hammers. Her performance last night makes Alexandria Quinn's Hard Copy performance of a decade earlier look like an infomerical by comparison. I shot Bella twice and at no time did she indicate to me that her "smile" was a facade. At no time did she mention that her deeply religious mother was disappointed in her. It was indeed difficult to ascertain her troubled history while she was yelling "f-ck me harder you f-ck!!!!" May Bella Donna be relegated to the only thing she is truly qualified for; collecting public assistance."

What Mike and other porners don't get is that people are different around different people. Belladonna the porn star is a different person to the girl away from porn, be Michelle alone with her family or with Diane Sawyer. People are complex even when they're porn stars and they liked to get f---ed hard on camera.

I walk in to the Jill Kelly Productions set at 11AM. Bud Lee is shooting another scene for the movie LatinX. It features Jezebel Bonde, as white as they come, and a muscular Puerto Rican named Talon. Bond has severe toothache and a swollen face. She and Talon do their scene on bar stools.

"That's why they call it work," says director Bud Lee.

Jason, the behind-the-scenes camera guy, and I step outside with Belladonna.

Jason: "This is the day after we saw your program Primetime. They chopped you up."

Bella: "Yeah, they chopped me up a lot. They didn't let me finish. There were certain things I said and then afterwards I said something else. Those parts weren't even shown.

"They made a lot of things up. I was never waiting for a contract from anyone. There were so many things they added."

Luke: "Did you apply for a contract at VCA?"

Bella: "No. Never. The whole mailbox thing. I was checking my mail one day and they were recording me. I wasn't waiting for a contract in the mail. I never wanted a contract because I knew I could make more money doing my own thing.

"This is embarrassing. There was so much cut-out."

Luke: "What about your mother wanting to be your personal assistant on a series?"

Belladonna: "When I got my series, I told her that I wanted her to come work for me. I'd love to be able to take care of my Mom. She's a great worker. I brought her out here and I gave her $5000 cash and appointed her my production manager. I was going to pay her $5000 every month.

"But the money I was promised at first to do my own series got changed. Everything went wrong and she ended up going back [to Utah]."

Jason: "Did you actually send your sister to college?"

Bella: "I paid for most of her college. She's graduated. She was in Washington [State]. She had two part-time jobs. She said she didn't have enough money for school. So I was like, I will pay you to work for me.

"She said, 'What do you want me to do?' I said, 'I don't know. Whatever you want.' I sent her money every month. She was supposed to be working for me. She went to tax classes so she could do my taxes for me.

"Now I've got her a job out here. She's office manager for Red Light Video. She's the blonde girl. She's amazing. She's so talented. She would never do porno. She's the opposite of me."

Dion's Red Light District Video, like many porn companies, is funded by organized crime, in particular, by Dion's brother's gambling operation out of Costa Rica.

Jason: "Don't you think they took the worst things. They were following you for two years. Because you're young and you are new in the business, you are not going to be very stable in what you want."

Bella: "Ohmigod, I still am not."

Doesn't it make you feel morally clean that pornography depends on the consent of emotionally unstable girls who do not know what they want? Terrific, we're all absolved because they consent.

Jason: "They took the most negative things about you and portrayed them out of context..."

Luke: "As most journalists do..."

Bella: "She talked about those times when I thought about suicide or depression... Those are things I've been dealing with since I was a child, before I got into this industry. You're asking me a question and I'm giving you the honest to God truth but you're not showing the honest to God truth."

Belladonna was most anxious yesterday to say she hadn't said anything bad about the industry to ABC and she's even more anxious today to reiterate her point.

Bella: "It wasn't because of porno. Porno just happened to be a part of that.

"Diane Sawyer didn't do anything. She did that one interview of me. That was the only time I ever met her. So all her crew was doing all her stuff. I just think it's embarrassing."

Luke: "Who's your friend who came out from Utah and you got her into the porn industry?"

Belladonna: "Gia. She's gorgeous. [ABC blocked out her face] because she didn't want to do porno and she didn't want her face used. She didn't even want to be on camera. She was only in porn for two months.

"She came out here. She needed a job. The only thing I know out here is porno. You don't have to do it. I would never ask you to do it. That's the only help I can give you.

"At first I got her to do girl-girl stuff. Then she on her own decided to do boy-girl and anal. She wanted money fast."

Jason: "That original 12-prisoner gangbang [for Anabolic], was that disturbing for you?"

Bella: "Yeah. I didn't want to do it. I told my agent [Roy Garcia?] at least four or five times, I didn't want to do it. Then I had the owner of the company [Christopher Alexander aka Biff Malibu] begging me to do it. Begging me. Begging me. I don't know how many times I told him I didn't want to do it.

"I was on my period. I was leaving that night to go to Seattle to visit my sister. And he just kept on. I'm the kind of person who has the personality where I just give in. Ok, ok. I'm a people pleaser."

Jason: "Have you gone past that? Do you know not to give in to what you don't want?"

Bella: "I'm still working on it. My problem is that I am a people pleaser. I want to give everyone what they want."

Jason: "I need some pleasing. Could you help me out?"

Luke: "She is. She's giving you an interview."

Jason: "That's not what I'm talking about.

"You went to the wrong location this morning. What's up with that?"

Bella: "My mind is gone right now."

Jason: "Because of last night?"

Bella: "Yeah, that and I had 30 million messages on my answer machine."

Luke: "What have people been saying?"

Bella: "They were calling me before I even saw it because they saw it on the East Coast. They said, 'Ohmigod, I love you. I thought it was just great. I was so happy. I was crying.'

"I said, 'Well, I hope it looked good.' I don't know."

Luke: "It was heartbreaking."

Bella: "It was disappointing. It wasn't all the things that I felt every day. It was just that one time [when she broke down]."

Jason: "What would you like to set straight?"

Bella: "I wish that you could see the whole story. My experience in porno is my own experience and I never blamed anything on this industry. I never wanted anyone to help me get out of this business."

Luke: "Suppose your mother would've come to LA, put you in handcuffs and taken you home to Utah. How would you have reacted?"

Bella: "I probably would've fought her the whole way. Even if my Mom would've come to try to stop me, I would've done this anyway. I'm that kind of person. I have to find out things for myself."

Luke: "Did you hear from your Dad?"

Bella: "No. I don't really talk to him much. My Dad's always been supportive. I don't know what my Mom was saying on that tape. Of course he was probably embarrassed. My Dad has always been the first one to come to me. 'Whatever you need. I love you. You're a great person.'

"I've done lots for my whole family. I'm the one who paid for Christmas last year. I'm the one who brought my sister out to Christmas because she couldn't afford it.

"Everyone was always like, 'You're never going to be smart. You will never get a job.' Well, look who's supporting everyone now? The people who were saying I would never have a good job don't have good jobs."

Jason: "You can only criticize the hand that feeds you so much. You're bringing a better life to them."

Bella: "not only that, but I think I'm a pretty damn good person. I think I treat people nicely. Porno has nothing to do with anyone's personality."

Jason: "What do you see for yourself?"

Bella: "I see a bright future."

Jason: "How much more do you want to accomplish in this business?"

Bella: "In six months, I will be done. But I will always have my website and my live webcam. I want people to see what my life is like."

Luke: "Are you in therapy?"

Bella: "I was in a hospital for a year straight when I was younger. When I was twelve, fourteen... I've always had a lot of problems. I had my first boyfriend when I was 15. He was 22. I've always liked older men."

Jason: "Have you thought about regular therapy?"

Bella: "Yes, I'd love to have someone to talk to, at least once a week. I'd love to get on a medication. It's not that I have huge problems but I have low self esteem. I have manic depression. I'm bipolar. I have ADHD. I was diagnosed with all these since I was a little girl."

Jason: "You have the money. Why don't you do it?"

Bella: "Sometimes you just get caught up in other things. I was dealing with relationship problems. Now I'm definitely going to do something about it."

Luke: "Did you cry while watching the show?"

Bella: "I didn't cry. I was laughing. Ohmigod. I was embarrassed. I was hiding my face from my friends. It was so embarrassing. They'd say one thing, like, Michelle has chlamydia. Who doesn't?"

DUC to Jason: "Do you have chlamydia?"

Jason: "I've never had an STD."

Luke: "Neither have I."

Bella: "If you haven't, it's probably because you've protected yourself. A lot of people out there have probably had it more times than I have. I never had an STD until I got into this business, when I was 19 years old."

Jason: "I'd like to take a shot at getting one from her."

Bella: "It sucks man. You don't go out looking for this."

Luke: "Diane Sawyer made a good point that you always smile."

Bella: "I always do."

Jason: "A defense mechanism."

Bella smiles: "Constantly. You got me on that one."

Luke: "We need to ask the question like Diane Sawyer did."

Jason: "We're not going to make her cry."

Bella: "I really am a happy person. It's when I'm by myself and I start to think about things I've done in my life, that's when I become depressed. I didn't know what I wanted for my future. I need change all the time. That's the whole ADD [Attention Deficit Disorder] thing.

"My goal for the year is to buy a house and be happy and that's it."

Luke: "What was that with Nacho slapping you?"

Bella: "That was for a movie. I liked that."

Luke: "You didn't look like you were enjoying it."

Bella: "I really was. I like the adrenalin rush. It's like role-playing when I have sex [on camera]. That's not who I am. In porno I've done everything. I need something to really make me go crazy. Nacho had the power to make me go crazy."

Luke: "How did Chris Alexander [owner of Anabolic] treat you after the gangbang?"

Bella: "I really was upset. I was balling. I was crying. I was downstairs in the shower room [in the prison]. It was real [prison]. He comes down. I'm in the shower crying. And he's [oblivious]. He didn't even pay attention to the fact that I was crying. He walked out.

"I didn't really want him to say anything to me because why would I want him to say anything to me? He basically fu--ing begged me to do this."

Luke: "Is this the worst experience you had in the industry?"

Bella: "It's the only bad experience I've had in the industry. I've had little things happen to me. That was the only time I cried."

Luke: "There was another time, when you went to Prague, that you got all beat up."

Bella: "Oh no. That was my skin. Did you see it? I was all beat up. My skin was really bad for a long time. They had the cameras on me the whole time and none of the time I looked good. I looked beat up. I had just had sex. I had five different loads on my face. I had pimples everywhere."

Jason: "Like Lola did yesterday after her scene."

Belladonna runs off to do her scene.

I chat with Dylan, husband of Vivid girl Dascha. They plan to leave porn in the next three months and move to the Czech Republic, where Dascha is from.

Dylan: "My peepee is about to fall off. I need to give it a rest."

Jason: "Did you enjoy the AVN Awards this year?"

Dylan: "It was a joke. It was ridiculous. This year was awful. I think guys who sit in an office and view tapes and have no clue what is going on out there in the trenches [should not be deciding awards]. The directors and producers who put movies together know what is going on. Most of the people who won this year were ridiculous.

"I'm not saying that I should've won. I was nominated for seven awards and I think maybe I should've won one, if any. I'm upset that people who should've won, didn't. Perfect example, Stephen St Croix, hands down, Best Actor. No one even close.

"Lexington Steele. I love him to death. Male Performer again? No. I'm sorry. I've acted with the guy."

Luke: "Do you think the AVN awards are political?"

Dylan: "Yeah, I think you have to suck a lot of ass. I don't care. I'm not an ass kisser. I'm not here to please people. I work seven days a week. I am one of the top-paid guys. Directors give me the pat on the back, that's what matters to me. I don't care. A piece of plastic on my mantel ain't gonna make no difference on my career.

"What's next for me? We're going to move on and have kids and I'm going to become a slum lord in the Czech Republic. I'm going to take the country over and make it my own province."

Dylan will work today with Belladonna. "Bella's cool. She's sweetheart. She loves what she does. It's always a good scene with her."

Other porn girls on set today include Temptation, skinny little thing with pumped-up breasts, Tyler Faith, a busty tall blonde, and Monica Mayhem, a slender blonde from Australia.

Monica worked in financial services in London. She started stripping. Then a part-owner in the Spearmint Rhino chain sent her to Los Angeles two years ago to do porno movies.

From Los Angeles, Temptation has worked as a stripper for three years. She's done porn for two months.

Her legs are all bruised from stripping. Normally she wears boots to her knees but she didn't on her last outing and thus sustained bruises.

DUC to Dylan: "You were going to do a series with your Dad. How many scenes have you done together?"

Dylan: "We haven't done any together. I've been trying to put together a line with Sin City with Scott Justice but I'm having a hard time getting them to come through with their end."

Bella's former agent Roy Garcia writes: www.belladonnaxxx.com has risen to the top of the Alexa Rankings in a 24 hour period. On Thursday her rank was 279,000. early sat morning it was @ 4,726. Folks, as far as porn goes, I think that that is a record. If you can't see the writing on the wall here then you never will.

I would, however like to make some serious corrections on 12 of the show's GROSS inaccuracies:

1. In my 37 years on this planet, I have never met a more sexually aggressive woman than Bella Donna.

2. During Bella's first scene, (real sex video magazine) she was so turned on, that SHE suggested to do anal!

3. Since I was the agent who discovered her, and paid for the BLUE Top Ramen hair extensions to be removed from her head, paid for her $200 dye job, and booked her first 50 scenes. you must know - she was BLONDE in all of them.

4. The real reason that Bella left Los Angeles & went back to Utah for almost a year: Vince Vouyer wanted her to stop doing porn because he was in love with her. and Bella was in love with doing porn.

5. When Bella CALLED ME around Christmas time of 2000 - it was to get back into Porn because she loved sex, especially porn sex, didn't feel guilty about it at all, and had an insatiable sexual appetite.

6. Bella's biggest fan is Bella. she gets every movie she ever did before it hits the streets, invites all of her friends to watch it, and critiques it herself. A true professional perfectionist. I bet that she's reading all of these reviews.

7. Bella's 12 guy gang bang for Anabolic was about her 100th scene - not her second, and all her idea.

8. The only thing that bothered her about the gang bang was that Jeremy Steele was in it.

9. Bella had BLACK HAIR IN THE GANG BANG - NOT f-ckING BLONDE!!! HOW COULD THIS BE HER SECOND SCENE IF HER HAIR WAS BLONDE FOR THE FIRST 3 MONTHS IN PORN????

10. The real reason for her tears on national TV was that she was, still is, and always will be - TRAUMATIZED BY f-ckING JEREMY STEELE!!!

11. The real reason that I am writing this is to publicly apologize to Bella for booking her a scene with Jeremy Steele.

12. ABC followed Bella for 2 years? That's funny. I never met them. It was more like: One day last summer & 2 weeks later when she returned from filming "Bella iz Buttwoman" abroad. She was only crying because she missed her boyfriend Nacho Vidal & the Italian espresso roasted coffee.

Roy Garcia, Owner/President, Sex Symbols Talent Management

Porn girl Angela writes from Vancouver: Today is a sad day in the world of porn. Everyone and their dog is talking about the Prime Time Special, and the snow ball affect is happening. Tonight after I turn on the TV to find "another" porn special on Passionate Eye, Luke you are on this one. It is older but hey the media is on a roll now, ratings were probably great last night, so why stop there. So now they are airing this special tonight, I had to leave the room or the TV was going out the window. Why do they concentrate on the screwed up people in this industry and the problems? There are level headed, healthy people in it too, a good example would be Stephanie Swift. She's intelligent, healthy minded, hard working and seams to stay out of the "limelight" so to speak. I'm feeling very anxious and angry and purely disgusted with the media's slam on porn and it all seems to be coming to a head. First Seymour, then Max, then Sweet and now this sh-t. Please for porn's sake, DO NOT agree to an interview if you do not represent the majority. I lost respect for Belladonna greatly last night, she made the industry look horrible. And now we will have to deal with all this media crap for awhile. But I will continue to work hard to break this stigma, as will alot of other girls in this industry.

Khunrum: Why do porn people give interviews to mainstream journalists that often make them and porn look bad?

Helpful writes: "They are unable to distinguish between "celebrity" and "infamy." If I was in that profession I would never go mainstream for fear that someone who I love and respect would see how far I had fallen."

Director Of Talent for Digital G, Robert Lombard writes: In regards to the ABC PrimeTime Special. We should read between the lines of this report. One type/genre of pornography was dragged through the mud. This type/genre I must agree is most degrading to females but "Freedom Of Speech" for those who produce this type content allows them do so. However, I truly believe the higher end Adult Content providers like Vivid, Wicked Pictures, Digital Playground, VCA etc along with utilizing the likes of solid directors like; Michael Raven, Brad Armstrong, Jane Hamilton, JimmyD, Nic Cramer, etc. etc will also view this report as reaching out for them in a 'round about way' to continue producing/directing couples oriented Adult content.

The corporations that have a part in providing this content to the consumer will continue to thrive and the non degrading side of pornography/sexuality will win out. There are a lot of 'closet adult fans' that will come out of the closet once it has become more acceptable. And it will! It takes time!

So you say. Why did ABC PrimeTime drag the community through the mud? Well for me it was ABC's right under "Freedom Of Speech" but again I say 'read between the lines'...the Adult Content providers are being challenged to clean up their acts.

Remember....the Executives at ABC today are laughing as they read all the ranting that is being done. Further proving that some of us are unable to communicate without further degrading Females, Male Talent and The Business itself...This business will grow and acceptance will never be 100% but the 'talented ones' in this business will win out in the end. YOU all know who you are....just like the bad ones know who they are.

And finally..... Let us take the AVN Awards....you want to reach out to more of those 'closet fans'... Giving On stage Award presentations for "Best Blow Job" etc. is not the way to reach out...there are a lot of talented individuals in this business [I have mentioned a few above]. Give out On stage awards for Art Work Design, Acting, Directing, Screenwriters, Lighting, Marketing Campaigns, Editing, Special Effects and to still have some spice "Best Performer Male and Female". NO more "Best Sex Scene" or "Best Anal".

Fred writes: Diane Sawyer is better looking than Belladonna. Note that Ms. Sawyer first made a name for herself by winning a beauty contest--the more socially acceptable
form of exhibitionism. (Although I must admit I would not look forward to an Anabolic video with her and Sam Donaldson.)

I suspect that:

a) ABC was out to make porn look evil. Merely by way
of example, one rarely sees the sort of slapping that
ABC showed.
b) They edited the sh-t out of everything to take
stuff out of context, etc.
c) Belladonna was not terribly innocent when she
entered porn, her Mormon upbringing notwithstanding.
d) I don't believe that she was uncomfortable and
disgusted by what she was being called upon to do.
e) She's probably a nice kid, but not very savvy in
the ways of TV interviewers out to do a hatchet job.
f) Why does Dr. Koop think that porn viewers hate the
performers? Where the hell does that come from?

Lebong writes on RAME: There are several things that bothered me in the "Primetime" show on porn:

1) Typically, it avoided the economic complexities of women who may not be trained in skilled positions seeking money to pay for themselves and their families. Bella/Michelle was paying for her sister and eventually got a job (as personal manager?) for her mother.

With the knowledge that the father was divorced from the mother implies to me that perhaps Bella is the best source of financial security for some or all of the children. But I'm just drawing that conclusion. This piece didn't go there and explain fully.

2)As usual, the network had disdain for the pixilated and titillating porn scenes which they showed in copious amounts. The show could have easily done without it. It's very presence was hypocritical. "Here's the sick stuff you shouldn't see.", it was saying.

3)It wasn't about Bella and it wasn't about corporate greed. Once they got Bella crying, they cut. She says she doesn't like herself but let us believe it's the porn. She doesn't say, and if they asked follow-up questions, we don't see it. The corporate culpability segment was probably five minutes and was a series of no-comments which is not investigative.

4) I didn't see anything positive said about people like Sharon
Mitchell, even though she was featured. I didn't even notice an
on-screen credit for her.

5) It assumed all porn was awful and evil, period. This is most
evident in Dr. Koop's assertion that even the viewers of porn hate the performers. This is so wrong, that if he had said it about an indididual, it would have been slanderous. But the good doctor, seated in front of the library of medical volumes so as to let us know what an authority he is, had his words go completely unchallenged.

So even though the piece was structured as if someone cared about
Bella/Michelle, it was the same sort of judgmental, hypocritical and removed perspective we're so used to in mainstream media. Make no mistake, I know first hand how sleazy the business is and how disposable its performers are treated. But that point can be made without the moralizing of the genre. But those at Primetime Live aren't capable of doing that. No surprise.

ABCInsider writes l-keford.com: ABC Insider Writes: For the first four months, I was one of the assistant producers on the Primetime segment that aired last night. I have to tell you that it was not always intended to be such a one-sided piece against the industry. Originally, we just wanted to follow a couple girls as they got into the business and show what happened to them in an objective fashion. However, that all changed the day we followed Samantha to her first shoot with a director named (rhymes with "sh-trock"). Actually, we didn't follow her to the shoot (she was too nervous), but we caught up with her afterwards. One reason she felt compelled to take a long, hot shower afterwards was that she said Mr. Whitrock made her sh-t for him. I don't know if this is standard in your business, to have attractive young women defecate on camera while someone furthers their humiliation by filming it from the toilet's point of view. I doubt it is - but when Ms. Sawyer heard about it, she blew up. She decided then and there that your industry was evil and needed to be taken down. It's unfortunate that one bad egg turned Ms. Sawyer against your entire industry.

Harvey writes: Diane Sawyer's muckraking has brought the ugliness that is so prevalent in porn nnow innto the living rooms of middle America. The power of that one broadcast is worth 1000 anti-porn rants by NOW or other organizations that nobody pays attention to. And anyone who disputes the basic truth of that piece is self servingly delusional. That young, naive girls are taken horrible advantage of by much of this industry is all too obvious. Brace yourself for a crackdown folks.

Poon writes on RAME: The show mentioned she had picked up Chlamydia. Even though most hired fornicators have some variety/cocktail of venereal diseases, why would she advertise this infomation? This info can't be good for future work.. yes, chlamydia can be treated, blah blah blah. Do the porn producers just ignore these tidbits concerning venereal diseases when it happens not to be HIV/AIDS? If I was next to work with her I would be sporting the worry willy, of course that dude probably already has got some form of dick rot.

Perhaps that's the badge of success in the jiz business: that certain burning sensation at the loo.

NTfighter writes: I only saw a small bit of the interview the part with Belladonna crying and another bit, a gangbang with men in prison uniform. I'm a long time consumer of porn and I along with a few other I've read on this group lament the passing of sex between adults who are not degraded or injuried. The peice I veiwed of Belladonna being gangbanged was disturbing to say the least, It was distrubing to see some guys hand being forced into her mouth as if he was trying to land a woman sized fish and another with a quick flash of a guy spitting into her mouth. I am not comfortable supporting an industry which consume and discards the most beutiful and youngest women it can trick
trap or cojole into sex that at the least is mentally and physically damaging. Todays porn (B & D-lite) is not aimed at the arverage consumer No doubt the many viewers of this glimpse into the world of porn got an education that will bear fruit in time. Where did this extreme trend start? among the consumers, I think not. There was never a letter writing campaign to get pornster to make ever more gross and vile f-ck'em till they throw up, beat' em till they bleed, how many dick can she take up the ass movies, we get what we get. Competition between companies and jaded movies makers have brought it to this low state. One phrase I read a lot in this group is "I only like to see it if the woman enjoys it." Well Belladonna give us the facts.

BT writes on RAME: This illustrates the double edged sword of porn, especially for the girls. They get into the business, thinking they're going to be stars. But it doesn't happen -- and won't. Yes, you'll have a turnaround story like Traci Lords, who has had some modicum of success moving beyond her past and landing some mainstream work. But the more common story is that of Ginger Lynn and Ashlyn Gere -- both stunningly beautiful women in their prime, with mainstream, onscreen charisma. Yet they could never successfully move beyond their porn pasts. And now at the end of their careers, they're back having sex on camera.

Jenna may have more luck, but the Jenna's of the world are very few and very, very far between; Tera thinks she's going to change it, but she's doomed to be forgotten in about ten minutes or to return to the sex industry; likewise Alisha Klass, who unfortunately will never cross over.

Porn is a brutal business -- the fact that you have to take two dicks in your butt to make an extra $500 says it all. And it's great to say that the girls should get more money, etc., but the fact is, the economics just aren't there. Fans like those of us on RAME ain't gonna pay $100 for a DVD, or $20 a night for a rental; for every girl who says I want more, there are dozens of new girls getting off the bus who will do it for even less; and despite all the chatter about the glamour and big money in porn, the fact is that only a few tapes sell more than a few thousand copies. So, even the best intentioned producer couldn't pay more and still make a buck.

MEC writes on RAME: My wife and I, who are both pro-porno and enjoy watching it (the wife actually enjoys the fetishistic stuff, but hates facials--go figure), sat in bed and watched the whole thing from start to finish.

Firstly, one has to accept that this is tabloid journalism at it's most base level; the show is running against late prime-time shows in the time slot, and this has to draw in the ratings. What better subject than the "evils" of pornography.

Now, to preface the entire situation, I don't doubt for one moment that pornography is a business filled with social rejects, broken home runaways and trustees of modern chemistry. Even Chloe has said that porn is prostitution, pure and simple--normal people don't typically enjoy doing this sort of thing, but normal people LOVE watching it. For every girl who goes into the biz genuinely wanting to f-ck for cash, there are three who were sexually assaulted as youngsters, have serious attention cravings, or are otherwise inept at doing anything well other than have sex.

The idea that in this modern age when porno is literally at one's fingertips online or on cable, that a girl figures a little nudity or porn will launch her career as a mainstream actress is BULLsh-t. True, Cindy Crawford, Kim Basinger, even Vanessa Williams gained a great deal of notoriety for their nude pictorials resulting in an enhancement of their careers, but it took Vanessa many years to crawl out from under the stigma of her girl/girl pictorial in Penthouse--plus the fact she is a phenomenal singing talent to begin with. Virtually every mainstream actress of any weight in Hollywood has a skeleton in her closet in the form of a nude pictorial or nude scene in a B-type film. Some decide to push it away and attempt to make it disappear like a bad dream, others like Sharon Stone make no bones about disrobing for the camera.

And IMHO, actresses and actors are not normal people in the strictest sense. These are attention-craving, egomaniacal 'artistes' who can't get a real job and thus go to Hollywood to make their fame and fortune the easy way, but don't think they have to eat crow to get where they are, either. There are as many casting couches in mainstream films as in porn, but they don't make it to your local video store. Plus, who in Hollywood DOESN'T come from a broken home, or a religiously strict childhood or an abusive past? The lack of attention and love they experienced is typically one of their primary impulses to pursue acting, to become, in essence, someone other than the neglected child they were long ago.

But back to Bella. Aside from her phenomenal body and amazing sexual talents, she is not beautiful to look at. The hair does not go well with the gap in her teeth, and she doesnt' carry herself well on camera other than when she is being a f-ckbeast. The Jenna Jamesons and Tera Patrick's would never have to go the route she did because their looks launched them to superstardom. Even though Tera did her share of hardcore nastiness, she can easily put it all behind her to go forward to the next level as Jenna has; Bella doesn't have that option, imho. She went hardcore at a frantic pace from the start, and that put her down a path to rapid burnout. If she is still in the business for another year, I will be quite surprised, esp. after this interview.

She didn't like what she was doing? She was ashamed of herself? She was so ashamed of herself that in less than two years she became the double anal queen, eh? Gawd. I would think that once you agree to do a 5-guy DP gangbang that any notions of decency or personal pride have long since flown the coop. Why didn't she walk off the set? No one was holding a gun to her head. It all comes down to the issue at hand: Money, plain and simple. The same force that drives all of us to do the things we do. I applaud her for using her money to send her sister to college--I'd be curious to know how many porno stars use their wealth to help their families.

Then they switched over to the 'helpful' arm of the porn business. You have Sharon Mitchell talking about AIDS testing and safe sex and risk, then you have Bill Margold talking about what a sh-thole the biz is, and how the women should be older. Nina Hartley and some of the legends have been pushing for a starting age of 21 for almost ten years, but the movie producers all know that the 18-20 range is the golden corral of talent, and the amount of profit to be lost incalculable. I do agree with Koop that if they could get unionized or some decent healthcare, it may help, but could such a monumental
task ever work in the porno biz? They are still just figuring out how to get names in the credits spelled correctly!

And another thing: isn't Jim South about 70 now? Does anyone remember that rental flick "Fallen Angels" from the early 80s that focused on young talents like Kristara Barrington, and (at the time) fringe porno directors like Bruce Seven? Jim was looking old back THEN. Lordy!

Regardless, you get a media whore like Diane Sawyer on the air, trying her Baba Wawa routine of "let's get the interviewee to cry...come on, lemme see some f-cking tears you wench!" Journalists seem to be as adept as porno directors at getting their talent to give their all. Then they give their update of Bella's mom becoming her manager, and the whole thing devolves into a bad Springer episode.

Porno is not glamorous when viewed in the real world. It is a fantasy pure and simple, and if anyone truly sat back and looked at the lives of performers in the business, many fans would likely lose their love of the tease quickly. It is a business at heart, and anyone will tell you in corporate America people are disposable at all levels.

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Patricia Kennedy writes:

Okay I am going to turn 37 July 6th. I am not some old hag that has to pile on the make-up. Go see my pic's on my group and judge for yourselfs. I have to say it was pretty hurtful to read some of the things on here, not being in the business for so long and then reading things like that makes a girl want to back out again and never come back. No I never was a great Beauty in Porn standards but I rock it better than most. Thanks for all the support from my true fans, it means a lot.