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Shay Sight's Healing Touch
2002-10-27 08:56:24

I arrive on set around 1PM. I spot a dog locked in a car. It looks fierce and I feel frightened.

I walk in the house and look down to the living room where Shay Sights is going at it with Evan Stone on a couch. Rinaldi lies back on a couch looking at a monitor. Barry Woods, the long-haired Englishman, weilds the camera.

I carry with me two books - The Wallflower at the Orgy by Nora Ephron and Media Ethics Goes To The Movies.

When Shay takes a break from her sex scene, she sips Camomile tea. She's tall, with big fake breasts and long fake eyelashes. She's covered in sweat. Evan is a hearty aggressive male performer, married to Jessica Drake.

Bobby: "Come on Shay, make it look like you're enjoying it. Get back into character."

Bobby and Barry discuss the recent VH1 special on the 100 sexiest male rockers. Bobby protests that Steve Tyler was ranked among them.

Luke: "Who do you think are the sexiest male rockers?"

Bobby: "It's not something I've thought about much."

The room comes to life for the pop shot. There are about six representatives of the porn media on hand. They crowd around snapping photos. Evan pops into Shay's eye and face.

Jason Sechrest (Jasoncurious.com) appears more substantial than I've seen him before.

Luke: "Jason, have you been working out?"

Jason: "Well yes I have."

Jason's KSexradio show brings together the gay and the straight porn audience, like Jason himself.

Jason: "I've had sex with more people than most people do because I've incorporated both genders into my ass."

I meet 28-year old redhead Renee LaRue. She says her husband rarely comes to sets. "He's done some scenes and he hates it. He's more of a voyeur than an exhibitionist.

"Aside from that I do movies, we would be the most boring couple. We're couch potatoes. We sit and watch movies. We worked in offices for ten years before we got into this business. This is a business that has allowed me to live my life the way I want to live it."

Marianne aka Kelly Nichols does Renee's makeup.

Renee says she won't go to Richmond, Virginia, next month to dance if they don't catch the sniper.

Luke: "What's the best real movie you've seen about strippers?"

Renee: "Strip Tease with Demi Moore."

Luke: "How long do you want to stay in this industry?"

Renee: "I want to keep doing movies until next year and stay dancing for the next five years. After that, I'd like to move out to the middle of a desert and open a bar and be the porn star bartender."

Luke: "How did you get into the industry?"

Renee: "I was working in a riverboat casino stationed in Mississippi, figuring out the winning percentages of various table games... Soft count. I was trying to go to school. I started dancing to put myself through school. So the feature dancers came through. I loved their costumes. I talked to them and did some research on the internet and sent out some emails and came to California and talked to Jim South and got started. Gina Ryder had just started at the time. She gave me lots of good advice."

Duc to Marianne: "What movie best explains your life?"

Marianne: "Private Benjamin."

She once joined the Marines but quit before bootcamp.

Renee is about to work with muscular Dillion Day. In the industry five years, like his wife Vivid girl Dascha, he plans to retire June 2003.

Dillion: "We've saved every penny we've made the last five years. We want to retire and have kids and have a normal life. It's been crazy. I've done about 1300 movies.

"Dascha and I got in about the same time. We both met when we'd each been in the business about three months. She's the fastest Vivid girl signed in history. She walked in their offices and said she'd like to work for them. They gave her a scene to do. The next day, after her scene, they offered her a contract. I just worked with her yesterday."

Jason and his webmistress want to videotape an interview with Shay.

Shay points out to the webmistress that her lens cap is on.

Jason makes fun of the developmentally disabled. "Come have sex with a retarded homosexual." He goes into contortions. "Girls love that."

Duc to Jason and Shay: "Have you guys ever consumated the deed?"

Jason: "We signed the contract."

Shay giggles: "He's tried."

Jason: "You've tried too."

Shay: "Hardly anyone in porn does that..."

I get into a long conversation with Shay about her makeup.

Shay: "I use stuff from Wholefood's Market. I shop there constantly. I use stuff all organic with no preservatives."

Luke: "Shay should do TV endorsements."

Jason imitates: "If you want to know what the porn stars use to keep their skin so fresh and supple..."

I hate the sin going on in this house but I love the people.

Luke: "I'm known for asking the hard-hitting questions about cosmetics."

Duc to Jason: "In a male-male relationship, do you play the male or the female role?"

Jason: "I'm a male."

Shay: "Do you take it or do you give it?"

Jason: "I've only bottomed three times in my life. With women I'm more submissive than I am with men. With men I want to spank and spit and pull hair and smack them around."

Shay has brought a bunch of New Age healing thingies like crystals, candles, and books (including A Course In Miracles).

Jason: "Today, we're not only getting physical, we're getting meta-physical with Shay Sights."

Shay: "Do you want to read the script?"

Luke: "Yeah."

I get a copy. It runs ten pages. Shay wrote it.

Jason: "It's based on her experiences as a Reiki master."

Shay: "You've got to put the sex in it because that's the only avenue I have [to promote her values]."

Jason: "It's helped her open up more and gives her more freedom to express her sexuality. It will help her let loose more in this movie than ever before."

Shay: "Where have I heard that before?"

Porn people are generally refreshingly without pretension.

Jason, like a good gay man, objects to the interior decorating. "It's as tacky as hell. Everything is ridiculously inappropriate."

I tape Jason's interview with Shay.

Shay says her script is based on the universal energy source. "I've learned a lot about shachras. I do a lot of energy work. I deal with problems before they manifest themselves physically."

Jason: "If I had an ache or pain or cancer, you could heal me?"

Shay: "Disease is dis - ease."

Shay left Canada nine years. She became a stripper and then entered porn to boost her dancing.

Jason: "It sounds very kabbalic [Jewish mysticism]. You're becoming the Madonna of the porn industry, bringing enlightenment to the masses through your own form of entertainment."

Shay: "This is the first movie I've had so much press at. Why is it that? I don't take the credit. It's not as much about me as about this message I'm trying to get across."

Jason: "When you're doing good things, the more good comes to you."

Shay: "My relationship with Nick [Manning] has been my greatest work."

Jason: "I'm sorry to keep bringing up kabbala, but I've been studying it lately. They define satan as fear."

Shay: "The Devil is what we create."

Jason: "How has all of this incorporated into your sex life?"

Shay says it has helped. "I get so many emails..."

Jason: "You've brought joy and light..."

Shay: "I don't disagree [with Judeo-Christian organized religion]. A lot of people need leaders. But we should do what makes up happy and not judge each other. Do you really think that G-d, whatever your G-d is, is going to judge us? No. I do porn. I'm really happy. I'm spreading a wonderful message. Go focus your energies on what makes you happy."

Jason: "This whole work has opened you up sexually and given you more freedom."

Shay: "Yeah."

Jason: "There's no one else like Shay Sights out there. There's Nina Hartley, who's very spiritual.

"Ladies and gentlemen, Shay Sights, happier than she's ever been."

After the interview, Jason says the last girl he had sex with was Starry Knights at a Jill Kelly Productions party. She's Italian looking, of medium height, dark eyes, and she hosts a show on Ksexradio.com.

Luke: "Is that one of the requirements for being a Jill Kelly Productions girl?"

XXX: "It's a perk."

Jason: "That's so rare for me. Star is a special girl and a good friend of mine. I rarely feel comfortable mixing business with pleasure. It was a party with some straight male strippers and Star and I share a fondness for turning straight men gay. So we took him into the closet and got crazy with him."

I walk upstairs and into the kitchen. Joel Lawrence, wearing a white sweater, sits at a table reading today's Los Angeles Times. He looks like a college professor and has played one many times in a porn movie. Aria, a tight-bodied spunky brunette, waltzes in and grabs a Krispy Kreme donut. Feeling guilty, she says it is her first donut in three years.

Aria reads the script. "Oh, I have cancer."

Shay: "Don't worry. I heal you."

Aria: "Yeah, by f---ing me?"

Joel, 38 years old, objects to Shay's script: "There's no cuddling in porn."

Luke: "How about you just slap her around?"

After graduating college with a degree in business economics from UC Santa Cruz (associate's degree in music), Joel worked in the rockn'roll industry. Eighteen months after college, Joel ran a service booking bachelor parties. "It was just a way to get a bunch of girls to take off their clothes and make a bunch of money doing it."

He did a couple of porn scenes in San Francisco before moving to Los Angeles in 1997 to pursue porn fulltime.

Luke: "How does your family feel about your porn career?"

Joel: "My Dad's cool and my Mom's not. They are each on their third spouse. They are years from having much to do with each other than us the kids.

"Dad's cool with it, as guys tend to be. He wants to see my tapes, which is a little distressing to me. I didn't give them to him for years. Eventually he started talking about them. It was obvious that he'd gone out and got them. My Dad came to a convention. I won Best Actor [AVN Award] a few years ago. The next year he came. It was cool.

"I was dating Syren at the time. All the girls have their porn personas. My Dad was waiting in line. She did her whole [flirtatious thing]. Then he introduces himself as Joel's Dad. My Dad has been a fan all his life. When I was a kid, I used to bust into his footlocker and it was filled with late '70s porn like Swedish Erotica on film.

"He put a lock on the front. I knocked the pins out. I watched every film until I broke one of them. Obviously he found out eventually and that was the end of that."

Joel has dated many porn girls. "Hopefully there's some love there because that's what's missing from the porn industry. If you don't connect with a girl on a deeper level, what's the point? If it's just f---ing, you might as well get paid for it.

"The typical drawback [with porn girls] is that they tend to be more psychotic. But then, I'm probably more psychotic than the average guy. If things go bad, they talk sh-- about you around the industry. They take their pound of flesh. Young girls are mercurial."

Luke: "How are porn girls in bed compared with civilian girls?"

Joel: "Porn girls are much better. No one will ever f--- you like a porn girl will f--- you. As far as sheer sport f---ing, porn girls are the best. But I'm 38. I get as much sex as I want on the set. What I crave is more emotional, intellectual and spiritual."

Barry Woods, cameraman: "Don't believe anything he says. He's an asshole."

Duc to Joel: "How would you be different if you had never entered this industry?"

Joel: "I think my attitudes about women and sex and relationships have all been affected in various ways. For good and for ill."

Barry: "Why are you speaking in that funny voice?"

Joel: "Because this is like an interview... You can't help but go through years of f---ing and have it affect you in various ways.

"I was in Prague with Brian Pumper [black male performer] last August. This English couple is talking. Brian says, 'You guys speak really good English. Where are you from?' And they said, England.

"I picked up this 18-year old at a strip club this week. If you f--- and 18-year old well a few times, they're in love. For me, it ain't the same. I'm just f---ing doing her. I can easily be detached about it. Men can be that way. But if you're asking for things that have been amplified, that's one of them.

"I've even said it to girls. 'You know, this isn't going to mean the same thing to me that it is to you.' You're girl number 2000 and I'm boy number 12. There's no way you're going to stack this against each other and have two people come away with the same experience. I know that so I'm cool with it and I can be honest. But there was a price to pay for those 2000 girls."

Luke: "Do you think you lost part of your soul?"

Joel: "No, that's not possible. Have I lost an awareness of my humanity? I'm capable of detaching easily. Your humanity is gauged by how well you connect with people sincerely and honestly. How much empathy and sympathy you have for the other person. Do you really listen. When you detach during sex, you're not being sincere and your humanity is compromised. This industry has a lot of superficiality that impregnates you on some levels because you have to deal with it. That I'm aware of all that implies that I have not lost it completely.

"Have you ever heard the sh-- story of Barry on mushrooms. It's the end of a shoot. They're on a houseboat. It's late at night. They all decide to do massive quantities of drugs. We won't much who and what and how much. The generator goes out. Barry's had massive quantities of muchrooms and beer."

Barry and Joel and other porners are now eating a late meaty lunch.

Barry: "His girlfriend's in AA. She's mad he's drinking beer. They went to bed early. It's the last day. I have a nice bed in my truck at the top of the hill but everyone wants to sleep in the houseboat. All the lights go out. I desperately need to take a s---. I know the bathroom well. I know the door's here and the toilet's over there. I open the door and I pull my pants down and I sit where I think the toilet is and I miss the toilet. It's pitch black. I've had quite a few beers. I can't see anything. I try to wipe it up. I do my best and I think I've got it all.

"I'm walking up the hill and I hear Mike Mamano, a little Jewish man, go 'What the f--- is that smell?' And then the generator starts up and everyone gets up and goes, oh no. Of course I've smeared it all over the walls and everything. They're getting the mop out and all I can do is laugh."

Joel laughing: "It's the smearing around and the leaving that really gets me."

Dillion: "This is lovely dinner conversation."

Joel: "It's amazing how proud Barry is... It's one of the best two or three sh-- stories I've ever heard."

Aria: "Did you hear the one about the girl..."

Joel: "The Johnathan Morgan sh-- fountain story?"

Aria: "The one with the Black & Decker drill up the girl's ass?"

Barry: "I shot it. Alex Jordan. Jim Lane shoot."

Joel: "They've got this girl up on two pedestals. They've got her spread-eagled and chained up. She's squatting. They're shoving this dildo up her ass. Then someone gets the bright idea to put the dildo on a Black & Decker and spin. So they do this. It tickles. So she sh--- and it gets sprinkled everywhere. It was August in the Valley with only bottled water and baby wipes to clean up."

Barry: "Teddy Fine is shooting Alex Sanders. He pulls out and is ready to pop in her ass. Just as he pulls out, she sh---. He couldn't see. He pops."

Joel: "The Johnathan Morgan one ten or twelve years ago. A white carpet and a white piano. A new girl. An anal. She's not sure how to do anal. He says to use an enema. She goes into the bathroom. She comes out. They do the scene. They do the last position. Johnathan's doing piledriver. She bends over. And she'd never taken the enema out. She says, 'I think something's wrong.' She's bent over and a stream comes out. He goes, 'This scene is over.' He turns around and leaves."

Aria: "I was doing my fifth scene ever. This new girl has only done anal once. She liked anal beads. We're fooling around. It's sexy and hot. We swap into a 69 scene. I'm on the bottom. I'm pinned underneath her. We put in the anal beads and she sh--- in my open mouth. We try not to say anything so we don't embarrass her. She turns around and freaks."

Hysterical laughter around the table.

Joel: "This guy came all over me yesterday."

Luke: "Did it enhance or diminish your performance?"

Joel: "It was the end of the scene and it would've diminished it.

"There's nothing sacred left in porn."

Barry's been married for three years to porn star Sindee Coxx.

Dillion: "Have you heard all the hype about my father (Papa Wadd) and I? We're doing it next week. We did our first movie Island Rain with Sin City. Next week we're doing a scene together with a young lady. The following week we start out own line doing threeways with chicks. It will all be off the wall, unrehearsed, unscripted craziness.

"My Dad's like my best friend. We've done everything together. We've done threeways together. We used to manage a nightclub. He'd hang out with me. I'd DJ. Girls would hit on me and then they'd hit on my Dad and the next thing you know, we'd be out in a van, the three of us, getting it on.

"My Dad came out to stay with me for a while before I retire and it all just fell into place. Why not make some money off it? It's never been done. It's something we're going to do anyways."

Luke: "How does your wife feel?"

Dillion: "She thinks we're nuts anyways so it doesn't surprise her."

Luke: "Has anyone in the industry given you a hard time over it?"

Dillion: "No. I'm sure there are people out there who think it's sick. But brothers double team chicks. You've got the Sin City twins. This is a way for us to do something together, have some fun, and make money. In the end, it all comes down to f---ing hot chicks and getting paid."

On www.simplyjimmyd.com, James DiGiorgio says there's something wrong with fathers and sons doing sex scenes together:

Here we have three people, temporarily sharing one roof. All three are at some level of being legitimate porn stars. Remember...this is the jiz biz, where supposedly, a blowjob is on the same level as a handshake. So why would the fact that one is the father to the guy, and father-in-law to the girl, prevent anyone from thinking some special family closeness might be taking place? It certainly took place on a set--granted, minus the daughter-in-law, in front of a camera and a group of strangers, later to be shown to possibly millions, including a great percentage of those possible millions jerking off while watching. And all this with an AVN reporter in attendance--AVN supposedly being the voice of this business--reporting on the event like it's such a wonderful, unique thing.

Extreme Associates recently claimed to have shot a mother-and-daughter team peforming sex together. Is that okay? What are we saying in our porn flicks? Vice is nice but incest is best? Do I have a problem with that? You betcha!

In the article [on avninsider.com] we're told the father had a hard time getting the pop shot. But eventually, he managed to blow his wad on the girl's face. It was such a jubilant moment, according to AVNinsider, that the son ran up, hugged his Dad, and they high-fived each other. I guess it's just like high-fiving your son who just scored a touchdown in an important football game. What's more natural than that? "Hey Dad! Great pop shot! You really splashed her mug with that sh-t!"

I read this and tried to imagine my father getting his penis sucked by some pornstar with extra-big, bolt-on tits, and then watching him stroke his penis till he finally managed to blow his seed--the same seed that created me--into the girl's face. Somehow, I couldn't manage the image. Why? Because it was beyond my imagination's ability, I guess. Or maybe because it simply made me want to heave.

Duc to Dillion: "What does your mother think?"

Dillion: "I haven't spoken to my mother in about eight years. That side of the family, they don't exist. I have two younger brothers. My youngest brother thinks it's cool. His college buddies always want me to come to their parties. How many college kids can go to school and say my brother is a big porn star? My other brother thinks I'm nuts."

Jason Sechrest said he once did a guy with his father.

Nick Manning talks about his solo masturbation video for Playgirl.

Nick: "It was stupid. Imagine the pretty girls [still photos] if you were the girl? It's one thing if you're f---ing, but it's another thing if you're trying to be sensual with yourself. It's hard for me to jerk off [on camera] in the first place, let alone make it erotic. I should call myself a bunch of names - you c---sucker. After I shot a load into the air, I jumped into the waterfall. It was ice-cold."

Luke: "How do you feel about the guys who will rent your video?"

Nick: "A bunch of members of my website have been emailing me all along to do solo jackoff videos. If I'm going to drop a load, I'm going to get paid for it."

Dillion: "What he did wasn't gay. He got paid for it. Anybody's money is as good as anyone else's."

Nick: "I'll take a gay man's money. You've got email, right [Dillion]? How many times a week do you get email from a guy who wants to suck your dick? Whatever knocks their socks off. Their money is as green as anyone else's."

Duc to Nick: "Have you ever been tempted to cross over to the dark side?"

Nick: "No. I was offered close to $100,000 to do a scene and I wouldn't even think about it."

Dillion: "I introduced my wife Dascha to xxx to see if she would work with him. She has a list. And she said no as soon as she saw him. I want to keep her with guys like yourself [Nick] - guys who stay in shape, take care of themselves, good looking guys... If you'll just do anybody, you'll stay at a certain level. I never tell her not to work with somebody."

Aria (formerly Marie Silver), of www.ariaxxx.com, says: "I had sex with my husband in this club called Spa in New York about a year ago. They had a party there. People were getting naked. They had this big box called the freak box, which looked like a big standup tanning booth. There was a huge wide-lens camera that filmed everything that went on inside the box. At midnight they let the public in. My husband and I went in. They said we could do anything. So we went in. I went down on him. He went down on me. We did three positions and he popped on my face. I blow bubbles for the camera. People are banging on the walls cheering. There are 3000 people there. It was reported in the New York Post."

Renee LaRue remembers how a guy at a stripclub brought her a Bible. She replied to him, 'Yes, I believe in God. I'm a good person. I'm probably a better person than you. Who are you to tell me what to do?'"

Jason: "I definitely believe there's a Higher Power but I don't want to be so naive as to say that I know what that Higher Power is."

Renee: "Exactly.

"If G-d can love a murderer who killed 20 people, he can love me even though I do porn."