Tuesday, August 17th, 1999
Luke's bought a shiny new toy.
And
he's going to bring it with him when he goes scooping.
So
go ahead, make Luke's day.
Feel
like paying Luke a surprise visit? He's got a greeting for you.
Go
ahead, make my day.
I'm
thinking of you baby.
Go
ahead. Dare me.
I
want you so bad.
Darling.
Sweetie.
Luke Goes Bonkers?
David Schaeffer writes from the University of Arizona: "Luke F-rd - I would not consider myself a fan of yours, but I have read your site a few times over the past few weeks. And yes, I did find out about you through the Rolling Stone article. It made you seem a bit interesting. Slightly silly, but interesting nonetheless.
"I'll cut straight to the chase here, Luke F-rd. It is simple to get a rather clear outline of who you are by the way that you write and by the information that you choose to put on your site. An interested observer can find out much about your family and history in a short time. Myself and a few of my co-workers have spent some time looking into you, and discussing you and your possibilities. And judging by the recent pictures you posted to your site of you and your newly purchased gun, your possibilites seem to be narrowing. Luke F-rd, I know this may sound a little strange, but I would like to ask you to walk away from your present profession. It appeals only to your base self, and offers nothing real. Yes, I understand the appeal of pornography and those attractive young women who will kneel down upon request. But try to look past it, Luke F-rd.
"You are caught up in a trap that many have been in before, and it will be difficult for you to escape this. But Luke F-rd, I looked at those armed pictures of you for some time, and there is a thing in your eyes that warns of madness. Luke F-rd, every intelligent person in the world can see you every day. Your life is open to us all. We see what is happening to you. We know."
Anonymous writes: Ive been reading your page for more than one year. In that time, its gone from a nice resource on the various personalities in the industry, from your point-of-view, which I find very entertaining. To what it is today, basically a page that is a look into the life of a intellagent mensh, whos in his final days above ground.
Luke you are young and have a whole life ahead of you, that must be worth a who lot more, then prodding and up-setting scoicopaths, who think little more then swatting you *down* for life, with no more remorse then a anoying fly buzzing around there breakfast table. Posting pix of you with your new firearm, are not going to prevent anyone who wants you gone, from moving foward, if anything it only confirms there plans, to include a higher level of caution and preperation. I dont know how much value you attach to your work, a book is one thing, but your covorting in a arena, in whixch you post questionable info about people, on/in a industry that has players, who are barely (if so) above the level of mid to upper level narcotic traffickers. IMO these people have the same, ability/mentality to *eliminate* prolbems in there scope of business. However if you attach so much value to this work, that its worth losing your life over, seek profesional help, and not some flunky, who plays match-maker with his charges.
Luke remember "the best things in life are not things". If your trying to extend your 15mins, or leverging your next book proceeds, your underestimating your abilities, you dont have to be, disturbing idiots to the point of them being, homocide seeking revengfull nuts, nor do you have to cover the adult industry. You have many options. Just dont let ego get the best of you, and maybe all of you!! IMO your someone who could crossover and cover/write, about other topics/industries and be sucessfull. If not, why dont ya take out a nice size life ins policy, and name a loved one or the state of Iseral, as a beneficery. Wake up friend, your in peoples gun sites. I hope all works out for you;-)
AConcernedFriend: "Luke - have you lost your f---ing mind????? Do you feel so threatened or are you itching for attention? What is the answer? Has it all gotten to you - are you flipping your lid? What's with the pics of the pistol? Are you sending someone a message? And if so - just what is the message and to whom is it directed? Believe me my friend, no one is going to be concerned - its the guy that packs the heat and tells no one that concerns people - now everyone knows that you're looking to intimidate, and not follow through. Gheez dude......what's the deal?"
KevinKorey: " KevinKorey: Hey Luke, your pic, "I want you so bad," looks like it is in prep for an insanity plea. With a GANG load of medications and supplements in the background! Medications and guns......hum..."
Mike: "Luke, You look tired and on the edge, dude. If you've got problems of any sort involving depression (not that I'm saying you do), you should get help. Quickly. If it's just bad lighting and you're in a good mood, hey, cool gun, dude!"
Jimplasti: man what happenned to you? Luzdedos1: sorry, had a hot date Jimplasti: you didnt make it, then I heard something about you taking pictures with a gun in your mouth? Jimplasti: whats up with that.... Jimplasti: dont even joke Luzdedos1: just kissing my new weapon, not in my mouth, no way Jimplasti: kissing? Jimplasti: why? Luzdedos1: i like it Jimplasti: I have lots of guns...but I never kiss them
Rabbi Hillel writes: "Luke, I applaud your decision to buy a piece. If you are not for yourself, who will be? And if not now, when?"
Paul Cowan writes: "Again, perhaps I'm a bit thick headed, but is that thing real? And, if so, why (now)? And, is it loaded?"
Luke: It is real. If not now, when? No.
Monty writes: Luke, I feel compelled to tell you that I cringed at the sight of your "Gun Toting Luke" pictures on 8/18/99. I have owned guns since I was 12 years old, and I have carried a gun every day of my life since I was 19 years old (please don't bother telling me that this was illegal). I learned long ago that it is a bad idea as a responsible gun owner to broadcast that you are armed. This gives 2nd Amendment-ignorant people the idea that gun owners are violent lunatics who want to shoot babies and grandmothers in broad daylight. For the sake of all gun owners, I ask you to please refrain from further displays. I hope that you will carry your weapon religiously and responsibly, and never have need to use it.
Dennis: "Luke, I was a Range Officer for a Federal Law Enforcement Agency in Texas for about four years. You can't beat a revolver for reliability. The weapon is only as good as the person using it and it depends on you to do the thinking about safety and when to shoot and when not to shoot. An accidental shooting of someone else can bring a life time of regret. I hope you will find a competent instructor and learn from a pro. What ever you do I highly recommend that you purchase some "safety slugs" since they expand and expend all their energy in the human body. If you miss they tend to shatter more when they hit a wall etc so they don't hit someone you had not intended to hit. Call B&B Guns and I bet they have them although hollow points are still an excellent choice. I hope you never need it, but you can't be too careful these days. It is considered a social boo boo among the firearms set to joke around with a firearm by pointing it at yourself or others. Be cool, guns don't think and oops won't cut it if you put a hole in someone. One good rule of thumb they hammered into all Marines consider the gun ALWAYS LOADED even if you are sure that it isn't. More people are shot with "unloaded" guns then any other kind."
2LT Gregory of United States Army Europe writes: "Luke, 1. It is cool that you bought a gun and all I am an avid supporter of the 2nd Admendment but the pictures do look a little careless. Remember guns aren't toys. 2. Okay enough preachy crap I know that the guy from Arizona is a fag and obviously some whacked out bleeding heart liberal, f--- him. 3. I read your column everyday and it is great. Keep on putting it out. Guns and hot chicks, what else could a guy ask for in a web site."
Myra Breckinridge
Rich writes: "Any idea what ever happened to Roger Herren, the hunky guy Raquel Welch raped in the 1970 film Myra Breckinridge? I recently set up a Myra B site at ... http://www.geocities.com/WestHollywood/Chelsea/8214/ ... and I and several visitors have wondered why we never saw this guy in any other movies. The only tidbits I've uncovered are that he had a bit part in Paint Your Wagon and played "cowboy" in southwest stage production of Boys in the Band."
Luke's Tuesday
Luke spent Tuesday morning in Westwood, taking a friend to and from laser surgery on her eyes. Meantime I walked around the campus of alma mater - UCLA.
While in the waiting room, I saw actor Michael Douglas, who walks with a huge swagger just like his dad Kirk Douglas.
Then Luke drove north on the 405. After picking up his Smith & Wesson .38 Special with a three inch barrel from B&B Guns on Oxnard Blvd, Luke stopped by Sharon Mitchell's Adult Industry Medicine clinic at 14241 Ventura Blvd, #105, Sherman Oaks, CA, 91423, 818-981-5681, www.aim-med.org. Luke's latest lay has insisted that he get an HIV test so Luke invested in a state of the art $85 PCR DNA job from the redheaded tattooed phlebotomist named Wednesday.
Mitch spent last week driving around California with her mother who lives in New York. While I waited for my blood to be drawn, Mitch received a bouqet of flowers from mom, thanking her for the trip.
When I got home, I talked to Dr. Jim Bonura who phoned from his new clinic, the Family Medical Center located at Coldwater and Riverside, 818-487-1980. "It's state of the art," says Doc, who holds a Ph.D. in Psychology. "A full service medical clinic... They're flipping out when they walk in.
"We're going to provide full service to the industry, from medical to psychological. It offers urgent care. We've got a series of programs for the children. We've made a dramatic upgrade. This is just five minutes from our old clinic, the North Hollywood Clinic on Coldwater and Sherman Way.
"We're open seven days a week. Monday through Friday, 8:30 AM - 9:30 PM... And Saturdays, 9AM - 8PM, and Sunday from 10AM to 7PM.
"In the next week, we're starting two government-funded programs that offer free screenings for all sexually transmitted diseases, from chlamydia to gonorrhea, free pap smears, free birth control, free contraceptives, sterilizations... Anything sexual or gynecological in nature will be free... And in a couple of weeks, we'll offer a program for the children of the industry... They will get free immunizations and physical checkups, dental assessments, nutritional assessments, TB vacinations... We have Dr. Rose Lepley, who's very popular with members of the industry...
"It sounds like you're doing pretty good with the women?"
Luke: "Yep, I'm out there trying to touch the world with Judaism. You wouldn't believe some of the places I've put Judaism... Chicks love guys who carry guns..."
Former Free Speech Coalition insurance commissioner Greg Zeboray writes: "I would like to remind everyone that the Maxicare (talent) medical and Delta-PMI dental programs formerly offered through the FSC are now available only (and exclusively) through PC Cast & Crew. Having recently reviewed the web sites of the FSC and PAW, it has come to my attention that they continue to promote the Maxicare and Delta-PMI programs as one of their own. I am not personally aware of either organization maintaining a contract with Maxicare or Delta-PMI. In fact, it is my understanding that PC Cast & Crew maintain the only true group programs available to individuals within the adult industry. Once again, I would like to remind everyone that they should contact me directly (949-498-7107 ext. 4) for access to these plans, and that there remains no additional fees or membership requirements to obtain them."
Luke: I spent Tuesday night on a hot date watching the terrific new film The Gambler about the great novelist Fyodor Dostoevsky.
Russian Beauty Katya Lands in LA
Danger Boy Video's new girl Katya, the Russian pediatrician turned porn star, flew into LAX this morning at 11AM and was greeted by Brad and Mila and crew.
Brad told me by phone: "Mila and Katya were going around on the luggage carts flashing people... Pulling their pants down... They flashed some security guys. They had a couple of bell caps pushing them around on dollys while they were naked...
"We've just left AIM where we got Katya tested... Now we're going out to Tarzana to shoot some girl-girl stuff and some European stuff... We'll probably end up at the Rainbow tonight."
Mila gets on the phone: "Luke, what are you doing? I want you to party with us. Not maybe, but for sure Luke. If you're not going to go, I'm not going to go."
Brad writes later: "Ok, so you left off with the airport...we went to AIM and shot Katya's first Aids test (I know, not original, but we shot it for prosperity), and then we went to our set where Mila did everything possible to this young girl. We're talking a whip cream bath,bananas and rasberries up Katyas ass. Bro, Im talking fruit salad, or even a smoothie.... They did lots of dildos and then Mila went in to an uncontollable tirade screaming "f---in lets do some European s---, shoot this f---er, camera...hello....shoot this *******going up her ass"...After that, The queen introduced Kat to the garden hose trick that basically wrecked Mila's ass in the first place. Well, lets just say that was Katya's first and last colonic in America. We have no idea (once again) what we are going to do with this footage, being that we are out on girl/girl stuff and we cant f--- Kat until the test comes back. Mila was just showing off as usual.
P.S.- Jimmy.....I know you're reading this...and I told you that we were going to dirty you up....well, we were in MUD today.
P.S.S.- Luke- I'm gonna have Mila stop offerring you Blow Jobs if you
don't come out with us one night.
Terri Hess, Gallagher and XON
XXX writes: From the "lots of balls for someone who has none" department, famed DechTar (DechTar Direct and Voyages catalog) bankrupt artist/transgender Terri Hess has started a new company called XON. Mark Gallagher of Seduction (formerly Plush) is the other partner and rumors have it, Jack Gallagher is the money behind this.
Terri Hess left dozens of the biggest mail order porners in the lurch financially (especially Astral Ocean, Xplor and some other biggies) when she foolishly bankrupted DechTar by reckless spending and a failed IPO offering. XON is reportedly currently surviving on remnant orders of an old Voyages catalog. In the boldest move of all, Terri marched into Toshi Gold's office (Toshi having been stiffed upwards of $70,000) and "gave notice" for all of Toshi's employees, stating that he/she was going to steal all of them within 90 days. Later, the customer service manager and the lead CS person defected to XON.
How does Astral feel about this? They're pissed but "no worries. Our catalog is so strong with over two million subscribers and hundreds of orders a day. Besides that, we can actually afford to have our catalogs printed for cash. The buzz around the industry is that even Terri Hess' cash is no good."
There's much more here dude. Aren't you curious to find out how they're going to get videos? I have no idea! That's the joke!
Luke: What do you mean even terri's cash is no good?
XXX: How is she going to pay COD when she has outstanding balances with Evil Angel (who's suing) Vivid, and more.
Moffit Timlake, CEO of Xplor Media, writes: "Luke, just read the disturbing yet ominous report that Terri Hess is getting back to the mailorder business. Now I've encountered some sick, twisted, deluded, cheating, dishonorable, sociopathic, sadistic, criminal, incompetent, larcenous, and downright butt-ugly people in my 7 years of time in the adult video realm, but in my opinion nobody comes remotely close to the ambiguously-gendered Terri Hess. That "it" could even entertain the notion of coming back to this business is testimonial to the probability that he/she/it lost its mind along with its balls in whatever backwoods, third world-inspired sex-change operation it underwent.
"I would invite anyone considering doing business with this freak to get my full accounting of www.xplormedia.com 's nightmare involvement with Terri Hess and Dechtar. I would also like to warn the Gallagher's (if indeed they are partnered with Terri) that I currently have my attorney contacting the US Bankruptcy court in SF to investigate any fraudulent conveyance of assets by Terri Hess, Dechtar, Voyages, and whatever other entity that may be related to Dechtar's bankruptcy filing. Terri may claim that Voyages was entirely separate from Dechtar, but if you simply examine the information provided in Dechtar's prospectus from its aborted attempt to go public, I think you get a clear picture that there is barely any "corporate veil" between the two. I will never forget the damage caused by Terri and I will do whatever I am legally empowered to do to see that Terri is held accountable for her/his/its past and present incompetence."
Astral Ocean sales manager Lysa Stone writes: Hi Luke. I saw the posting on Terri's new company on your site and thought I might weigh in. Yep, 'tis true the so-called woman came in here and did just that to Toshi. Can you believe the nerve? Whatever, some people in this biz have more integrity than others. We at Astral like to think we do. I just can't even believe the chutzpah of that Thing coming in here after having screwed Astral and a whole bunch of other really good people.
"It would seem that we'd be really tweaked about this whole thing especially with some people leaving here. We've definitely turned a negative into a positive. The folks who left had been here a really long time and sometimes that can lead to stagnation, boredom. They were great people, but now we have some really amazing stuff brewing that no one can touch (non-porn stuff, stay tuned). It's almost like a new start for us. At this point, I think if anyone else leaves, Toshi is pretty much going to just shrug it off because we've been a strong company for the last 7 years and we've grown leaps and bounds in the last year. When I came to work here a year ago, we had 20 employees. Now we have 40. I also have to think "what a risk!" for these people who have left to go work for someone who's bankrupted 3 (!) companies in the last 10 years. I worked for one of them and although it was a fantastic job (DechTar), I had to go when I overheard things like "we might not make payroll this week". Thanks for the opportunity to speak Luke, hope all is well with you."
Luke: "Yeah baby, things are groovy. Look at my new toy."
Jim Gunn Blasts AVN
World famous pornographer Jim Gunn is furious with AVN for giving his latest epic, Strap-On Sally 13, only two stars out of five in its August issue. Luke's horrendous porno What Women Want also received two stars from AVN, showing just how low the industry's trade magazine viewed Mr. Gunnn's long awaited extravaganza.
Fans wanting to register their displeasure with the review can phone AVN publisher Paul Fishbein at 818-786-4287.
From page 147, the review is written by Adult Video News publisher Paul Fishbein: "A softer, prettier SOS, with cute Miami newcomers and a still-nasty Marilyn Star."
Auteur Jim Gunn: "You've told me that I am a stickler for the truth so what I am going to tell you is absolutely the truth.
"I mean give me a f---ing break- I shoot the movie on Beta SP which a lot of people don't do anymore, it has Marylin Star who gave a nasty performance in every scene. Lotsa brand new girls, great tropical outdoor locations, six scenes with decent heat and even a semblance of a premise. That deserves 2 A's? Compared to all the other low budget, poorly directed all-girl movies out there? I'm sorry that's a f---ing insult.
"I've never complained for years about my reviews... Two stars to me, and I've been reading AVN for years, means it must be a pretty s---ty movie. Three stars is average..."
Luke: "Paul Fishbein slammed you."
Jim: "Now you can slam him on his f---ing awards show which is f---ing disorganized and a f---ing mess. I like Paul personally but I get short-shrifted a lot in my reviews because I am not in California. I am out of sight, out of mind. People reviewing my movies for AVN either are not fans of lesbian movies or they don't recognize the people in them...
"SOS 13 is technically one of the best movies I've done. We shot it on Beta SP, which most people don't do anymore. Shot in gorgeous outdoor tropical locations... Marilyn Star in every scene, talking dirty, wielding the strap-on... She has a number of new girls. I discovered all of them here in Florida...
"I've been nominated four time for AVN Awards over the years... I've never won and never complained..."
Luke: "Do you think that AVN f---ed you because you've written for my site?"
Jim: "No... I am not a conspiracy person. I don't think AVN is that small minded... I am not in your camp...Two stars is an insult. It means that something is fundamentally wrong with it... Based on all my readings of AVN, it means that the lighting is inadequate or the girls are fat and ugly...
"Now, let me tell you how their awards shows are f---ed up. I don't think they are fixed, they are just a disorganized mess. I don't think the awards are just given to advertisers. If that were true, I'd have a lot of awards because Pleasure Productions is a huge advertiser.
"In 1997, they gave the award for the Best She-Male Movie to Pleasure Production's A Real Man which was just a straight white gay movie with no she-males in it... And noone said anything about it... How could a gay movie win for Best She-Male Movie? That means that whoever is in charge of nominating these things didn't watch it.
"We at Pleasure all had a good laugh about it... But I always wondered how could that happen?
"Around 1995... Ed Powers shot a lesbian movie on film... And it got rated along with the lesbian videos instead of classed with the films... Few people waste the time and money to shoot a lesbian movie on film... His girlfriend at the time, Bonita [aka his radio cohost Elizabeth], directed the movie. It was good. He put a lot of money in it... And it won...
"I wasn't a crybaby... Oh Paul, even though it was good, it should've been put in the category of film...Now I'm complaining about it because I'm pissed.
"Now, do you want to check your facts on this?"
Luke: "Nah, don't worry about it."
Jim Gunn's 18-year old discovery Ashley Heart has signed to do a series of films for LGI Distributors. "I will shoot all six this year, in a series called Late Night Network. She'll play a hostess of a latenight sex variety show which is broadcast over the internet as an interactive show...
"She appears in Strap-On Sally 13 and it is her very first time with a girl. She's never even kissed a girl before... And her first adult movie."
Luke: "What role does she play in SOS?"
Jim: "What role does she play? She's one of the girls in the movie... It wasn't really a role... She's in a single scene and the big orgy scene at the end."
Luke: "A versatile actress."
Jim: "I shoot a lot of brand new girls unlike everybody else who say they shoot brand new girls, I actually do shoot brand new girls. How many times have you seen on a box "Introducing so and so" and it is her 33rd movie. Frequently, my new girls only do a few movies for me and then wind up disappearing."
Luke: "Do you have them whacked? I think it is the Mafia."
Jim: "I shoot them for a snuff film for that extra..."
From :
Producer/director Jim Gunn is the latest of the porn clan who has taken his case to the Internet Court of Last Resort. Gunn aired out his gripes concerning a AA review of Strap on Sally 13, starring Marylin Star, to Luke F-rd and had this to say in a follow-up interview with Judge Gene. What might make Gunn's comments particularly moot was an investigation discovering an error in copy editing which will be corrected in the October issue. Strap on Sally 13 gets a AAA rating. Nonetheless, this is what Gunn had to say in the passion of the moment. Gunn: "I was venting, and he [Luke F-rd] seized on the moment..."
To appreciate how thinly-written such tomes as Luke F-rd's A History of Sex truly are, one only had to gravitate to the History Channel Monday night to catch the first installment of their new series on The History of Sex, narrated by Peter Coyote. Even Ford might have saved himself some valuable research time in the long run, because this insightful and comprehensive five-part series seems to have it all, including portraits of many key sexual/historical figures that Ford eliminates entirely of mention in his book - particularly, Margaret Sanger and Anthony Comstock; Sanger being THE advocate of women's sexual freedom at the turn of the century, Comstock, the ultimate anti-porn crusader.
Brandy Alexandre comments: "I saw that Jim Gunn got what he wanted out of his Luke F-rd rant. Unfortunately, when he spoke to you, he made it sound as if Ford took advantage of him at a weak moment to get him to say something 'on the record.' I was in the chat room where this all took place and Jim practically begged Ford to let him call and get something up on his site that was anti-AVN as quickly as possible. When I confronted Jim with this in tonight, his response was, '(JimGunn) Brandy, I aired my grievance and got results.' I guess that's all that counts..."
Alicia Rio Update
At 5PM, porn star Alicia Rio phoned. "I feel great... I've just come back from 30 days of dancing at a club in Anchorage, Alaska... The days would last 22 hours... Incredible sunsets... I feel great.
"I'm doing a photoshoot on September 12 at Marina Studios...323-222-8044. Amateur photographers can come in and shoot me... Marina Studios are at 1760 N. Main Street, LA, 90031.
"I will judge the Showgirls Deja Vu contest in San Diego on September 22."
When It Came To Sex Games Nothing Was Out Of Bounds For My Hutch
Luke has attended only one rock concert in his life - by the Australian band INXS in 1986. It's one of Luke's favorite bands.
From Scottland's Daily Record: PAULA YATES has told of the extraordinary sex life which she believes destroyed her tragic lover Michael Hutchence. INXS star Hutchence - found naked on the floor of a Sydney hotel room with a leather belt hanging from the door - was ruled by a coroner's court to have committed suicide.
At first, Paula blamed her ex-husband Sir Bob Geldof for driving Hutchence to his death in the bitter battle over custody of the couple's children. But now Paula is determined to prove that Hutchence did not take his own life.
She insists his November 1997 death was the result of a kinky sex game that went horrifically and tragically wrong.
In a remarkable TV documentary, Paula lifts the lid on the torrid sexual practices which formed the erotic backdrop to her two-year relationship with one of rock's wild men.
Tonight's programme - In Excess: The Death of Michael Hutchence - also features the astonishing story of how insatiable Hutchence allegedly once made love to Kylie Minogue on a jumbo jet in full view of Australian Prime Minister Bob Hawke.
In a bid to establish that the heart-throb singer WAS a victim of his own dark sexual cravings, 38-year-old Paula goes on to reveal how Hutchence:
Was fascinated by auto erotic asphyxiation - where people strangle themselves to the point of unconsciousness in search of thrills.
Choked, strangled and tied Paula up in bed as part of their wild romps.
Believed there was absolutely nothing ''out of bounds'' when it came to sex.
Thought of Paula as a combination of a baby doll nightie wearing temptress and a homely mother with lots of children.
Launched his affair with Paula by making love to her just 30 minutes after she had interviewed him for her regular slot on The Big Breakfast.
Talking of her late lover on the documentary, to be screened at 10pm on Channel 4, Paula said: ''He was a dangerous boy. Dangerous. Wild. He could have done anything at any time. The one thing he wouldn't have done is just left us.
''I can't think of anything really sort of out of bounds. Dogs, maybe. No he didn't have anything that wouldn't have seemed acceptable, I don't think.''
Paula added: ''Michael thought I was a kind of combination of someone who wore baby doll nighties but, at the same time, had a lot of children and he liked that idea that he could have everything.''
Paula also reveals that Hutchence often talked about auto eroticism and said he would like to try it, but was scared that it would kill one of them.
Asked if the singer ever choked, strangled, or tied her up in bed, Paula replied with a laugh: ''Yeah, he did everything.
''He certainly would have done all manner of things just to try it or do it.''
Paula also relived the moment she heard of his death. She said: "My friend Belinda came round to my house in the middle of the night and told me. I punched her straight in the face and then went berserk. Apparently, they could hear me screaming right across Chelsea."
Two days after Hutchence was found dead, she arrived in Sydney on a flight from London. Paula and her daughter visited Glebe mortuary where her lover's body was taken for a post-mortem. She recalled: "I remember being at the mortuary and just being so stupid thinking I could wake him up and then I did things like I washed him."
Hutchence's brother Rhett claimed he would try anything when it came to sex. Rhett said: ''He was an explorer. He tried many different kind of sexes, like twosomes, threesomes, foursomes and what not, whatever was going.
''Knowing Michael, there was always something other than the missionary position.
''There may have been hidden cameras in the room. There may have been another person involved. There may have been two other people involved. There may have been three girls and him. I mean, I know, all that kind of stuff happened.''
In the programme forensic science experts, including a leading authority on auto erotic asphyxiation, have backed Paula's claim that Michael didn't take his own life. Hutchence was said to be depressed because of the delays in the custody battle with Paula and her former husband Sir Bob Geldof. However, the documentary claims that contrary to the pathologist's report, the hotel room contained a number of clues that indicated that Hutchence, who was surrounded by pictures of Paula, was involved in a kinky sex game at the time of his death.
In his highly emotional final night in Sydney's Ritz Carlton Hotel, the singer made distraught phone calls to his manager in New York, an ex-girlfriend and Bob Geldof. He appeared distressed about Paula and Bob's long-running battle over their children - Fifi, 16, Peaches, eight, and seven year-old Pixie. Police officers found a belt hanging on the back of the door while Hutchence's dead body was found kneeling on the floor with his arms resting on his legs. Medical officers also found traces of semen on his leg.
Mexican Pop Singer Gloria Trevi Scandal
Boo writes: Hi Luke: I don't know if you've heard of Mexican pop singer named Gloria Trevi. You may have accidentally caught her singing while flipping through the UHF channels. I think she sings like a chicken, but she sells millions of records here in the states as well as Mexico. Her big selling point in my eyes is her body--she's sexy. Anyway, according to the 8/24 issue of the Star, she is caught up in a big sex scandal involving her manager and boyfriend, Sergio Andrade. Sergio has an ex-wife named Aline Hernandez who has written a book that claims she was recruited by Trevi at age 13 to audition for the singer's manager. Not long after, she claims Sergio brainwashed her, beat her with a belt and forced sex on her. Segerio married Aline when she was 15 years of age. In Aline's book, she claims Gloria was a willing accomplice to his manipulations and claims that Trevi often joined them in bed.
you can find hot pictures of Trevi nude at this website: www.escherent.com/page/Gloria%20Trevi.htm
and partially nude at this website:
www.geocities.com/RainForest/3658/gloria.htm
AVN Backs Zane
I quote from the August 13 edition of : "Kid Venom writes: That was an interesting item you posted yesterday about Zane selling their duplicating operation. You put a generous spin on it, to put it kindly.
"Let's recap the recent symptoms of Zane's financial situation. 1) Zane pulled out of the VSDA show at the last second. 2) Zane didn't take ANY ads in the current issue of AVN. 3) Now Zane sells off their duplicating operation and offers the space for lease to raise cash.
"Does it sound like Zane is in a little trouble? My VENOMous sources tell me that the vaunted Zane racing car and Matt's struggling record label have sucked the company's bank account dry. Rumors are rampant that some of their customers have quit paying them on the assumption that they're ready to go bankrupt for the (third?) time. Zane & Co. are desperately hoping that this doesn't turn into a stampede, and that their vendors don't make a run for what's left of their assets.
"But then, what's another bankruptcy? Matt got in Rolling Stone and Guitar Magazine, man! Isn't that all that really matters...?"
When read the Kid Venom comments, Chuck Zane said he was going to lock the company gates to stave off the stampede. "What racing car?" Zane asked. "What idiots! I got a racing car! This is stupid and ridiculous. Prices are way too low. If Kid Venom wants to come up with about $3 million, he's welcome to come on down."
Gene [Ross] adds: "Matt seems to be struggling so much he's got all these club bookings around the country."
On Monday, Gene ran this:
RETRACTION
Paul Fishbein has this to say: "We apologize for for the anonymous posting [an infrequent poster who identifies himself as Kid Venom] Friday from a source concerning Zane Entertainment Group's selling of their duplication lab and their decision not to currently advertise in AVN. Paul Fishbein had a meeting with Chuck Zane on these issues earlier last week, however did not share the information with Gene Ross. Had Fishbein given the information to Ross, the anonymous posting would have been moot. He would have noted that the decision to sell the lab was a sound business decision and that Zane asked Fishbein advice on this matter and that Fishbein agreed it was a smart maneuver.
In addition, Zane explained his reasons for not advertising in the current issues of AVN after talking about his current marketing strategeies, but that was not communicated to Gene prior to that posting. As far as AVN is concerned, Zane is in optimum financial shape and continuing to put out quality product on a regular basis, as will be evidenced by a series of reviews in the upcoming September AVN issue.
Luke says: Chuck Zane has twice taken Zane Entertainment into bankruptcy and to the best of my knowledge and that of Zane's enemy Rob Black, has never repaid his creditors for those bad debts. Zane Entertainment has also produced much of porn's foulest product. How can anyone treat Chuck Zane with any credibility? Why is Fishbein going to bat for him?
The best thing Zane Entertainment has going for them is their beautiful but taken PR whiz Adella O'Neal.
Kid Venom, send your stuff to me. I will print it without worrying about fairness, truth or accuracy.
Hustler Hollywood Hosts AIM
Hustler Hollywood hosts a porn star auction and lingerie show for Sharon Mitchell's Adult Industry Medicine Thursday night from 6 - 9 PM.
On Friday, August 27, AIM's Support Group of the Month runs from 1-4 PM. "Dr. Mace Beckson and Dr. Nancy Soble will counsel on Single Mom's in Porn."
Sunday, August 29, is Curveball 99 at Blair Field, 4700 Deukmejian Dr in Long Beach.
From the AIM Newsletter:
Happy Anniversary! - Yes, we've done it! Our first year in business despite many obstacles and we're still standing. And we have many of you to thank:
Adult Video News, All Good Video, Annabolic, Atlas Multimedia, Awesome, Baccus, Blake Lundquist, Brittany Andrews, Bud Lee, Cass Paley, Danni's Hard Drive, David Brett, Doc Johnson, Ed Powers, Ed DeRoo, Elegant Angel, Evil Angel, Exquisite Pleasures, Extreme, Fallen Angel, Five K. Sales, Golden Orchid, Ora Levine, Jeff Kahn, Jeffrey Douglass, Free Speech Coalition, Jim Malibu, Jim South, K-Beech, LBO, Legend, Leisure Time, LFP Video, Lucky Smith, Marc M. Kerener MD, Marc Teitler, Metro, Michael Zimbelt, Mike Hott Photography, Moonlight Entertainment, New Beginnings, Pacific Media, P.A.W., PGI, Private Video, Regan Senter, Ron Vogel, Roy Garcia, Shane, Sin City, Thomas Payne Entertainment, Trac Tech Stage, VCA, Video Team, Viva, Vivid, Vouyer Productions, Warren Record, Wicked Pictures and Zane Entertainment.
We in particular would like to thank Dr. Stephen York, our MD, Stephanie Rand - Cofounder, Jacquelyn Nicole, John Keeler, John Buckman - Accountant, Ira Levine, Maggie Knowles - web mistress, Jacqueline Esquivel - LP, Dr. Marc Kemer, Dr. Matt Gitchtin. Dr. R. Levine, Ph.D., Dr. Mace Beckson - Psychiatrist, Michael Zimbert - Attorney, Bridgette Skirkegian, all of our volunteers named James Andrew Beck, Database, Scott Brasco - Pacific Media Video Coordinator for new client program, Rob Spallone, and all of our talent we keep healthy each month. It takes a lot of love to keep our hearts from freezing over and we're pushing on. Remember the world is watching us make PCR-DNA HIV monitoring a historial process. You should be proud.
And for those Video Companies who have held steadfast and true, AIM will introduce a certification program for you to put on your video productions to certify your responsibility as a Video Company. The document shall state that all of your talent has been counseled and currently tested for HIV & STDs and Prevention Education Awareness by AIM Healthcare, the Official Health Program for the Adult Entertainment Industry...
HEALTH: Chlamydia is back again big time. Come in and [get] the test as part of your routine each month. As always we have chemical barrier protection available for free and of course free condoms - skinless skin, pink in color and barely detected by the cameras. Come in and get tested and have some extra protection on us. We also have new information on health tips for "working girls" and "transgender folk."
PROGRAMS: We love Steve Drake! He has put together a comprehensive program for newcomers which includes information on health, sex etiquette, how to f--- and suck on camera, insurance, financial aspects... Steve Drake and AIM will be working together holding monthly workshops at Hollywood Community Hospital in Van Nuys.
Luke F-rd Suffers For Our Sins
I received issue ten of "Adults Only" Panik magazine today. The cover, which pictures a busty babe having her tummy licked by a Christlike figure, screams "Jim Goad [who writes regularly to NiceJewishGirl]...Richard Ramirez, Berlin Lust, Necro Cannibalism and so much more."
Panik's editorial statement reads: "Panik magazines doesn't encourage anyone to commit murder, rape, torture, massacre or promote any criminal activities. Most opinions expressed here-in are for entertainment and information purposes only, and Panik will not be held responsible for your actions. If you're under 18, run ask our mother the permission to read this magazine..."
Page four contains a photo of a handsome couple. Above them reads the headline, "We don't screw to Rock Music because we have to. We do it because we like to."
Underneath, the ad reads: "Now you can reach a level of sexual pleasure that only months ago was unheard of. Rock Music specially designed to give a man or woman gentle urging sensations. Yet, with a force and vitality as strong as a jungle night. Made with new 'nude' technology Man's Ruin Records vinyl and cd products are scientifically patterned as to impart a maximum of stimulation at a minimum price....www.mansruin.com..."
Others ads scream about "Psycho-Sexual Terrorism - Infernal Texts - Political Pornography - Scientific Threats..."
Page eight begins a long investigation of lesbian clubs in decadent Berlin during the Weimar Republic (1920s), prior to the rise of Nazism.
Page twelve begins a long interview with the late Anton Szandor La Vey who wrote The Satanic Bible. Sexpot Jayne Mansfield had a passionate and deadly affair with La Vey.
Page 16 features an interview with Hustler cartoonist George Trosley, who says about his magazine: "The best way to describe it is just call it adult. Even if it isn't sexual, it's still disgusting and degenerate. I don't know why we call that "adult," though, but that's just the category it falls into."
The Panik interview with Trosley features some of his cartoons, including a professional father carrying a briefcase telling his son, "You think kissing ass to get through college is bad - in the work world you've got to lick the actual hole!"
Page 20 features an interview with convicted murderer Nicolas Claux. He says: "Corpses of teen turn me on. Corpses with scars turn me on. I like young girls with pale skin and long hair..."
On page 38, Dennis Lorence gives this porno review: "With The Bride of Countess Recula, Mondo Family Films have explored a new genre, "Gornography," and raised the stakes of bad taste. This blood drenched excretion from the bowels of the same people who provide us with "Mondo Video A-Go-Go" blends B-Horror with hardcore pornography resulting in a toxic shock that is sublime in its impurity."
The piece on me runs on pages six and seven under the headline, "Luke F-rd Suffers For Your Sins - A candid interview with the leading purveyor of gossip on the skin trade."
Rodger Jacobs writes:
The command center for Luke F-rd's suicide mission against the adult entertainment industry is a dank bungalow in Beverly Hills, a stone's throw away from the headquarters of Larry Flynt Publications. It is from this small and cramped bunker that Ford, the heretic son of a Christian evangelist, lobs his poisonous grenades filled with scurrilous gossip against the stars, producers, directors, and distributors of skin flicks via his website at www.l-keford.com.
Someday Luke F-rd - described by The Weekly Standard as "a kind of shaggy-haired, acid-washed Brad Pitt [who] serves as the industry's Matt Drudge" - will be silenced, either by voluntary exclusion, banishment from the business he so despises, or worse. But until that fateful day teh Australian-born hellion remains the most visible sniper in a lone shooting spree against easy targets. For two years now Luke F-rd has shaken the insulated establishment of the XXX trade by daring to expose their dark underside - as if it wasn't already understood on a pandemic level that porn attracts "scum bags, dishonest types, showmen, scam artists, prisoners, and career criminals."
Ford's "report now, verify later" style of gossip mongering has caused him to inherit a multitude of harsh critics, including porn journalist Gene Ross of Adult Video News, who, in a 1998 editorial, dubbed Ford "a pen-wielding Rosemary's Baby...a keyboard vigilante with a penchant for a hanging. Ford...chooses to essay the role of some bow-wielding William Tell figure whose quest for truth and justice is achieved by methods best understood by the Ku Klux Klan."
A devout convert to the Jewish faith who feels "a strong attraction to pornography and sin, and to the flight from moral responsibility," Luke F-rd is a human Rubik's cube, a complex maze of dazzling colors and contradictory schemes that rarely match up. At times he dutifully plays the role of a self-appointed messiah, a weeping martyr wandering through the burning desert of sin and damnation with bleeding blisters on his bare feet. In contrasting moments he seems hedonistically immersed in the world of bare flesh and writhing orgasms, a fallen angel enjoying the lusty delights of human existence.
And like every writer seeking validation, particularly internet scribes, Luke F-rd sat down and wrote a book.
Prometheus Books accepted accepted Ford's challenge to the limits of his own audacity by agreeing to release his self-indulgent polemic, A History of X, upon the world. The book flap hails A HIstory of X as "an in-depth comprehensive history of cinematic pornography," and hilariously salutes Ford as "the best known source on the contemporary world of pornography."
The critics don't share the lavish praise of Luke's own publishers. The January 28 1999 issue of Publisher's Weekly hacked into Luke's book, asserting that it achieves "neither coherence nor climax...most disturbing of all, Ford doesn't appear to be especially well-informed on his topic." One magazine editor preferring to remain anonymous confided to met hat he was "a little aghast that Prometheus let this book slip through...it has no logical structure whatsoever." Stylistic criticisms aside, A History of X is striking a chord with readers, ranking number 35 on Ingram Books list of the Top 50 requested pop culture titles for the week of June 14, 1999...
It is with an odd mixture of pride and revulsion that I call Luke F-rd my friend. He can be kind, affable, and keenly intelligent while possessing all the nasty traits of a venomous snake who bites simply for the sake of striking out at something - in other words I have been the victim of his poison pen. What follows is an interview with a confused messianic prophet who I sincerely hope does not end up crucified on a cross of his own invention.
RJ: (1) How do you react to some of the hostile critical reaction your expose of the adult industry has received?
LF: I think the bad reviews the book has received are largely deserved. It is poorly written. Most of the original information in it was cut out by my editor for being defamatory, libelous, gossipy, etc… This is my first published book. It is an interesting process.
RJ: (2) Why do you think there has been so little literary output about the adult business? Because it is such a low down scummy impolite subject to write about, so nice people stay far away. Having anything to do with porno, quite properly, carries social contagion. You are tarred, forever, with the muck of a sinful industry.
RJ: (3) What compelled you to make the sex business the focus of your journalism?
LF: The primary reason was professional - it had not been done, at least not since Sinema in 1974. I wanted to write about something that people would buy to read, and thus thought a history of X would be popular. I was right. The other reason was personal. I personally am interested in sex, and the sex industry. I feel a strong attraction to pornography, to sin, and to the flight from moral responsibility, and ultimately, God.
RJ: (4) You seem obsessed with colorful tales of Mafia involvement in porn. Do you believe that organized crime still exterts a strong influence?
LF: I think it still exerts an influence. I think one valid perspective on the porn industry is to view organized porn as organized crime. Porn attracts the same people as organized crime - drug addicts, drug smugglers, psychopaths, scum bags, dishonest types, showmen, scam artists, prisoners, career criminals… The legality of porn depends upon community standards, and these are always shifting.
RJ: (5) You cover the infamous Traci Lords scandal in your book. Don't you believe that it was Traci who victimized the industry --- considering she willfully faked her I.D. in order to appear in porn --- rather than the other way around?
LF: In Judaism, a child becomes a man at age 13. I hold Traci Lords responsible for her shenanigans, for the negative consequences she inflicted on people's lives and on porn. So yes, I believe Traci victimized porn, rather than the other way around. I feel funny using that language however. I feel that porn attracts unethical types like Traci. So saying Traci victimized porno is like saying Henry Hill victimized the Mafia. Porn deserves Traci Lords and Linda Lovelace and their ilk.
RJ: (6) How do you feel about Linda Lovelace's cries of victimization in her book "Ordeal'? Shouldn't these stories be taken on a case-by-vase basis, rather than handed down as blanket indictments against the business?
LF: The public's perception of porn as a form of contagion, moral, spiritual and physical, is basically correct. While on the surface there's nothing unethical or immoral about consenting adults filming consenting adults in consensual legal behavior, the consequences of porn, like those of homosexuality and other sins, are profoundly destructive and hence immoral. Porn is another form of rebellion against God. Porn is anti-God, and in the final analysis, God is the Creator, the source of life and of right and wrong. He is the repository of meaning. So while Traci Lords and Linda Lovelace are Very Big Liars, I have no problem with the public's kneejerk blanket indictment of porn as an immoral business. I agree with that. By the way, I view Hollywood, TV, teacher and lawyer unions, much of the Democratic Party, etc as even more destructive. I believe that there are forces for good in this society (churches, charity groups) and forces for evil. Porn is a force for ill, for both the individual user and producer, and for his society.
RJ: (7) By your own admission your are not a regular consumer of porn. How do you feel qualified to write about a business that you apparently have such little affection toward?
LF: I despise the particularly American preoccupation with credentials. That I've made a living for two years off my writing makes me a writer. That enough people visit my website and patronize its advertisers is all the "qualification" I need to write about porn. Or any subject. I see no need for a writer to like his subject, be it baseball or movies or porno. Empathy with one's subject is not necessarily better than lack of empathy for one's subject.
RJ: (8) Has porn permanently settled into the popular culture or is it just a passing phase?
LF: The pornographic male imagination, which produces pornography, has been with us always… The amount of physical pornography in a society depends on its laws and mores and these will vary. If America undergoes a religious revival, porn will play a much smaller role in pop culture.
(9) Honestly now: is there anyone in the adult business that you truly admire? And if so, why?
LF: Yes. I really like AVN publisher Paul Fishbein. I think he is a mentch. And I also like VCA owner Russ Hampshire.
(10) Because of incendiary material you have posted on your website you have received death threats and numerous threats of litigation for slander. Would it be fair to say that Luke F-rd is a man who lives his life in constant fear?
LF: I live my life in frequent fear - of myself. Of my own moral weakness. My biggest struggles are with my evil inclinations. Dealing with the porno world and the outer world is much easier than dealing with my inner world. My problems are not in porn but in myself.
Edited by Michel Berandi, Panik's address is 996 Redonoda Avenue, #626, Long Beach, CA, 90804, or email panikink@juno.com.
NiceJewishGirl phoned Luke at 4PM:
NJG: Lukey sweetie.
Luke: NJG darling...
NJG: Sweetie, your sex thing. I don't understand spiritually how you could like have any kind of sex with people you don't love.
Luke: The thing stands up sweetie, and I roll over and stick it in.
NJG: Really? I don't get that. I don't understand that.
Luke: When the penis stands up, the brain leaves. It's easy for me to have meaningless sex.
NJG: It's very disturbing. I know that deep inside you are really spiritual... But that is not spiritual sweetie. I feel like that every person that you have any sexual relations with, you take on that energy... You take on that energy even though you think you don't... And you think you have boundaries...
Luke: I'm a very big fornicator... I like to get my rocks off...
NJG: Getting off is fine, but I don't know Luke... It's cotton candy. I felt that you had sex... It's so empty... Don't you think it is better when you love somebody? When you really love somebody, your souls are connected and your minds are connected... And everybody else, like, why go there. I'm going to have to get on your case more about this.
Luke: Yeah, you're going to have to clamber on top of my bulging...
NJG: Only if we were married sweetie. We can always get married but we'd have to live in separate cities...
Luke: Yeah, how could I report on the porn industry from San Francisco?
NJG: Sweetie, wouldn't it be better if you were with someone you love. And every time you f--- her, you say I love you. You know? You like this don't you?
Luke: I do. But the chicks I like, don't give it to me.
NJG: You don't make enough money for them. You don't have a nice car or a nice apartment.
Luke: If I got to bone them once, they'd turn around.
NJG: You think you are her type but you're not. You're my type. I'm seriously concerned about your soul. I thought it was cute that your father was flipping out about you... He was flipping out because of my rape stories... I don't know if I can influence you... I'm very strong and smart and spiritual. Can you feel my spirituality baby?
Luke: I can. Its pulsating.
NJG: I'm very evolved spiritually. I am on a higher level.
Luke: You are. I am on a very tawdry level sometimes... I get sucked into sin.
NJG: Luke, it's so disappointing.
Luke: I try to be strong and then she starts sucking on my schlong.
NJG: It's really sad sweetie.
Luke giggling: I'm pretty cut up about it. I feel pretty rotten baby.
NJG: On your website you pretend to be cut up about it but it's not really true.
Luke: Baby, would I write something that wasn't true on my website?
NJG: A part of you comes out and is so brilliant. There is a part of you that wants to be a rabbi. And that's the part of you I adore. Then the other part, the tawdry salacious part... You're like, anybody is ok, I'll f--- anything...
Luke: That's true.
NJG: When we were at Tea With Mussolini, didn't you like cuddling up with me? Wasn't that sweet? That was real. That was the realest thing that happened to you in a long time. It was so sweet and innocent... You looked dead on into my eyes... I'll be back in December and we'll go to the movies but we'll have to see what I want to see. I'll teach you more about spirituality.
I'm not going to sleep with you.
Luke: That wouldn't be spiritual.
NJG: Unless we got married, drove to Las Vegas... We could always do that. It would be cool.
Luke: That would be interesting. I'm not scared.
NJG: I'm going to go but I will pray for your soul sweetheart.
Luke: I've been taping this. Is it ok if I use it on my site?
NJG laughs. That's fine, but why?
Luke: Just material for the fans...
NJG: That's ok. Just put me up on that cross for everybody. I have to say that your site is so much better... You're not so focused on porn. I was really impressed with your interview with J.D. Considine...
Am I your sweetie pie?
Luke: You're my sugar sugar.
NJG: Your spiritual girl.
Luke: You're my candy girl and you've got me wanting you.
NJG: It's ok that it goes on your website as long as you tell them how much you love me and that you don't love Kendra Jade because she's a XXXXX. She's a tra----- ---- ---- -----. You're in love with me and not Kendra Jade... She's XXXXX. And she's probably got... [XYZ disease]. Bye sweetie. I'm going to shul on Friday night. You have to call me this weekend. Do you love me?
Luke: I love you lots.
NJG: I love you too. Bye.
Later NJG called to say that she has a letter from Jim Goad, in prison for thrashing his girlfriend. Goad wrote the book The Redneck Manifesto.
NJG: I just got his letter. He says I'm his type. We've been writing each other... I haven't told you. You're not jealous, are you?
Luke: Oh no honey, I understand. After all, he's such a fine upstanding man... I'm honored to be in his company...
NJG: I look similar to Sarah Jessica Parker [of HBO's Sex in the City]... He says that: "If you look even remotely like Sarah Jessica Parker, I would find you wildly attractive... I've been sporting wood for her for years now. I had a dream of you last night laden with sexual overtones. You looked nothing like Sarah Jessica Parker. In fact you were quite homely."
Then he writes: "The child molestor in the bunk across from me woke me up with his crocodilian snoring."
Luke: You're not at all homely.
NJG: He did me in his dream...
NJG: You knew this I hope. Anton LaVey was the child of Russian Jewish immigrants. They bought that house he lived in. The one that there's a big court deal over. His mummy and daddy. Of course, the Devil would be Jewish! Jews know how to get people to follow them by saying outrageous things they don't necessarily believe. Think about it. Jesus was a scam artist, he was the Howard Stern of his day. Rabid fans who followed him and believed in him.
Oh here's some of Jim Goad's letter to me: "I'm not sure why you told me about your tragic web romance other than to shout in a very loud voice, "stay AWAY from me, Jim! I'm nutty as a fruitcake! After all, it was a girl with SERIOUS abandonment issues who led me down the path to prison! Yes, in a perverse way, I'm probably drawn to the aura of pulsating danger which surrounds your every move! And yes, sex with you would probably be the most intense peak experience of my life! But when I realized that you don't want to commit, I'd probably find a way to send you back to prison!" Was THAT your message? Am I reading too much into it? I mean, I can handle it. You should see some the GIRLY mail I get.....
---NJG interjects: I did NOT send him GIRLY mail. I merely told him what happened. BTW these are his words to me. I didn't say anything like that to him.
...I mean, as I see it, women view their roles on this planet as being somehow divinely ordained to TAME men. They're attracted to bad boys, but they don't want them to remain bad, because goils crave stability while boys wanna spray their seed as if it were cat urine and the world was a new set of expensive curtains. My problem in the past is that I stupidly believed that I could somehow reconcile these conflicting male/female objectives, when the truth is that they're eternally designed to be at loggerheads. I LIKE the wild male within myself, and I don't ever see myself being willing to surrender it, as is required you queen bee chickies.
NJG---Luke, am I a queen bee chickie?