Monday, July 3rd, 2000

Happy Fourth of July to l-keford.com readers!

More Holy Land Exclusives

Then it was off to the Red Sea for religious reflection and refreshing recreation!

Goddess writes: Aw, fess up, Luke. You aren't anywhere NEAR the Holy Land. You're schlubbing around your apartment in your fatboy silk boxers, all the while trying to convince us that you actually have a life. We know better.

Extra! Extra! Mr. Marcus Sighted At The Wailing Wall

Is this adult film star, Mr. Marcus, at one of Israel's most holy sites? If so can he deny his Jewishness much longer? "Shalom to all my homies on da west bank!"

MrMarcus.com - Porn's Authentic Voice

Aghast writes on MrMarcus.com chatboard: "Reports continue to stream in of Mr. Marcus sightings in Israel.

"Mr. Marcus will you only be touring sites of Hebrew interest with your Jewish singles group or will you hit some Christian points of interest too? Also a flight from LA to Tel Aviv must be at least 12 hours long. Tell me did you break any of that fine Jewish pussy in to the "Mile High Club"?

"Black Unity! Jewish Unity! Shalom my homie!"

AHornyJewess writes: "Jewish girls need Mr Marcus too! You might be surprised at how many of my Jewish girlfriends are BIG fans of Mr. Marcus. Why don't you have an all Jewish volume of Casting Couch? I think it would sell. Come on bring the Jewish and Black races closer together with your sweet cock."

Chaim Amalek: "This is an example of jewish racial treason, as is often practiced by the young jewess on her way to revolting middle age. These women make it that much tougher for jews to marry each other, as clearly few jewish men can ever hope to measure up to Mr. Marcus, either in penis size or in raw sexual power. I mean, what is the average Jewish accountant to do when he learns that the jewesses he pines for really want large, muscular negroe gentiles?

"The truth is that this woman, like the traitoress Amy Sohn (who is dating a shagetz) and many other secular jewesses, are handing Adolf Hitler a posthumous victory. They are responsible for the disappearance of the jewish people, for ONLY JEWISH WOMEN can make jewish children. The next time you jewesseses fantasize or act on having sex with the goyim, I want you to think about the six million jewish men, women, and children consigned to an early grave, and the fact that because of people like you, their numbers will never be made up.

"Living a Life of Ohavat Yisroel, Chaim Amalek "

Rumdar writes: Luke. Chaim Amaluk is off his tree again. Granted only Jewish women can produce Jewish children. That means that all Jewish chicks being impregnated by the Marcus Brigade will bear little Jewish kids (albeit a darker version). This is a positive in all respects. First, scores of sexually satisfied Jewish women. Second, the return of the Jewish athlete. How long has it been since we have seen a Jewish baseball player with the talent of Hank Greenberg? Give it a few years and there will be young (naturally tanned) Jewish lads named Mr.Lips---z dunking basketballs with the best of em. Look on the bright side and get your season tickets early...

Mr Marcus writes on his own chatboard: "So many thoughts. It seems there is to much hate on this subject/topic/site/whatever. To much bitchin' and not enough f---in'. Why bring your hate here? it's intense while you're here, then what? find something else to change. People f---in' white or black, Jewish or Catholic, tall or short, broke or poor, smart or ignorant will never change. It's because your human first, some of us below human. The difference is the preference. Respect my choice as I will always respect yours. I say my choice cause I cant speak for everyone else. If they agree then so be it. For all the ignorant post. Ignore them and if possible educate them. I played in to them. My mistake. Women are beautiful, COLOR will NEVER be a issue. It will always be what makes us/them unique.

"Hey it wasn't me I didn't post that s--- about smoking weed. None of it......I don't care to talk about this now. You white boys need to get the f--- outta here and go rent one of my movies and jack off you bitchs."

Doug Moon writes on MrMarcus.com: " yo. some times i kick my hat to the back like Mr.Marcus and Left Eye from TLC... Any truth to the rumor that she is jewish and that you tapped the ass after she got dumped by that NFL brother Andre Rison..? Matter of fact i'm smokin' trees right now.. dip my s--- in glue cuz i heard thats what the boys in the hood do. Marcus you sorta remind me of Easy-E. So make sure you wear a Jimmy-hat so you don't go out like he did.. Big up to Luke F-rd butt he should write more about the gay aspects of porn and tell me what Jeff Stryker has been up to lately..."

Mr Potter writes: Delete us? Go ahead nigger. go ahead we will see you on saturday. Maybe I will find a picture of some dickless niggers after the Klan finished with them I wii show them to you. Maybe the before the next time you touch a white girl you will think.

Dick Clark writes on MrMarcus.com: "I just read your latest pitiful diatribe. It wasn't an easy task, as your grammar and punctuation would shame a first-grader. I suggest you return to school, learn how to read and write, and maybe then...just maybe, you won't have to go out with the Klan on Saturday. You might be able to go on your first real date with a girl. But you have a lot of work to do first. You tell Mr. Marcus that he will have to think before he touches a white girl again. I suggest you put some energy into that activity yourself . It could only help. By the way, who turned on your computer for you?"

Al writes Luke: "As a Falasha jew I am always amazed by some of the casual racism in america, especially among jews. You ,Luke F-rd, are a perfect example of this, but you are also something worse. You are a convert who is "Poisoning the relations even more .Why? Do you dislike yourself so much that the only way to validate yourself is to degrade others? Wake up and question your own motivation!"

Kristina St James

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My Biography

Just how did I get in the business anyway? Well, I began my career in the adult industry almost by accident when I just was eighteen years old. After finishing high school, I took a job in a local factory and began living on my own. With a new apartment and other new expenses, I soon realized that having a low wage job was not quite making ends meet. While looking for a second job, a friend approached me about trying exotic dancing. I was hesitant at first, but decided to give a try. I quickly over came my shyness a few weeks later and became popular among the customers who frequented the in which I danced. After exotic dancing for several years, I began to explore other opportunities. I decided to freelance modeling in Dallas, Miami, New York. Most of modeling involved lingerie and swim suites for department store ads. I also worked at Car Shows posing for corvettes and for the ZZ Top car.

Then in the late 80's I caught the acting bug, moved to Los Angeles, and found success in Hollywood fairly quickly. I had made several appearances in local and national commercials. Just to name a couple of films I appeared in was Nixon with James Woods, Anthony Hopkins, and Oliver Stone the director, also Indecent Behavior III with the sexy Shannon Tweed. It wasn't until the 90's till I got into the Adult movies. I'm still making lots movies, magazines, and feature dancing near you in the year 2000.

Kristina St. James Credits

She's been in more than 125 Adult Films and continues to be in more each month. Examples: Beauty Captured for VCA costars Stacy Valentine, As Sweet as They Come for Vivid costars Raylene, Coming to Beverly Hills by SilverStar Productions, and many more. She is on the Playboy and Spice Channel. She has her own official website www.kristinastjames.com, which includes access to Fan Club information, appearances, boutique of her sexy merchandise, movies in action, lots of hot photos, chatrooms, and much more.

She owns her own company, Kristina St. James Enterprises/Fan Club with a lot of great promotional items. She is on the Cover and Centerfold of numerous men magazines such as Score, Leg Sex, Leg Action, Hustler Erotic, Exotic Dancer, Avn, Oui, Scandalous, Over 40, Xcitement, Panty Play, Gents, and many more. She has Hosted many shows for the cable show "Entertainment and Sports Today" for Adult Events for about 3 years. She's been a special guest on many radio stations. Examples: KLSX 97.1, KVCM 99.3, and continues on.

She started doing Mainstream movies in the early 90's for 5 years and has worked with such Actors as James Woods, Anthony Hopkins, Director Oliver Stone in movie Nixon, Shannon Tweed in Indecent Behavior Part III, and Daniel Stern from Home Alone, and etc She's been in many Local and National Commercials such as ones for the Super Bowl, exercise equipment, and music bands.

She has been modeling since the age of 18 where she traveled to Miami, New York, and Dallas doing Freelance Modeling for many Department Store ads for Lingerie, and Swimwear, Car Shows for Corvettes, and more to come. She is currently feature dancing at many Gentlemen's club in the U.S. She has beautifully designed costumes, great hot and sexy shows, upbeat and fun personality. Stay tuned for her current new movie releases, magazine layouts, and feature appearances at your favorite top Gentlemen's Club near you.

New York Park Attack Tapes

Junior writes: Luke, I have been a fan of your site for years and I find it very informative. I am a resident of New York. I do not know if you were made aware of the sexual assaults that occured at the end of our annual Puerto Rican Day Parade. A group ranging from 30 to 50 men went around dowsing women with water and then it escalated to some of theses women being stripped of their apparel. This occured during the daylight hours and the Police refused to respond. The time in which this spectical took place was about an hour. The news media made a point of showing the footage, which displayed many individuals with camcorders taping the incidents.

If you are currently aware of this incident are you aware of any sites or production companies offering to purchase this footage. This event was taped and recorded by both the attackers and spectators who pursued the gathering of men as they approached women in the park. The NYPD has about 8 of the tapes and are presently in the process of screening the footage to find individuals in which to place blame on. Do you think that it is likely that footage will eventually collected and be offered for sale by a production company like the Pamela and Tommy tape or other similar materials.

All the footage was captured in a public area out in the open. Does the right of the attacked women supercede the right of the cameraman and his documenting things in a public evironment. Would this tape, despite the fact that it contains misdeamenor crimes, be significantly worse than all the other voyeur type tapes offered for sale; these tapes ranging from upskirts to buttwatching tapes. I would appreciate your detailed input or maybe an article based upon this theme. Thank you.

How To Help Israel

Following up on Dr William Pierce's rant againt white slavery, Chaim Amalek writes: Welcome to the Jewish State of Israel! I hope that you enjoy your stay, and develop a real desire to help out the Jewish State as best you can.

In your case, that does not mean by buying Israeli Bonds, but by warning the Israeli public of a rising peril to Israel's moral standing in America. You see, the enemies of judaism have fixated on white slavery in Israel as proof of their most heinous lies about the Jewish people. To the extent that their facts are correct (I leave it to you to make this determination), then the facts must be changed. Remember, we jews cannot keep the truth from the goyim forever. And I understand that there is even a moral argument against trafficing in white slaver girls (although the rabbi in my shul does not make much of it).

Please get the copy of the Jerusalem Post referenced in the attached article, as well as the article itself, and confront every jew you can about this issue. Believe me, you will be doing the Jewish State the biggest favor you could by helping to bring the trafficing in white christian girls to an end. And enjoy your trip!

PS As per the Mossad guy's stated reason for wanting to interview me, be sure to extend a hearty hello to all the jewish amalekites you meet while in the holy land.

PPS Seems you already got the portion of the week and posted it on your web site! Good for you. Let us know how the jewesses on the trip reacted to it. (And if you want to bang a few of them, you WILL raise the topic with them, hold your chuckles inside when they say "eeeeeeeew!" to you, and wait a day or two. remember what the mack teaches us about women!

A Suggestion To Elegant Angel

Rumdar writes Elegant Angel: I would like to make a suggestion. I think you should star Luke F-rd in one of your videos. Either in a f---ing or non-f---ing part. Perhaps he could play the role of a spoiled Rabbi who is seduced by some porn harlots. I could come with up more ideas for this suggestion if it wasn't so late in the evening. Anyway, think it over. Luke has millions of fans. I believe a Luke porno would increase sales of your product. Luke is also anti porn so I am wondering if he would accept the job. Wouldn't hurt to ask.

Harry Jose from Elegant Angel replies to Rumdar: HI: "I see that you CC your e-mail to Luke F-rd himself. We don't plan to pursue Luke to do any videos. If he is interested I am sure he can get in contact with us. Thank you for your idea, and for choosing Elegant Angel."

Rog's Top 20

Regading Pat Riley's reviews of porn stars: So Mr. Riley wants a small, anorexic, non-pushy pretty face, eh? Why doesn't he just screw an inflatable doll and shut the f--- up? A REAL woman would take that ugly mug of his in between her powerful normal-sized thighs and crush it into jelly. Tell him my cane, floggers and paddles are waiting to reduce him to even more of the quivering heap of crap that he is. Sincerely, Jaded Jewish Girl

Trinityfan writes: Hi Luke, I'm a daily reader of your columne, had never written to you before, but I have to write an e-mail now because of the not so nice Pat Riley's comments to Rog's top 20 list: Sometimes I think Pat Riley isnt always up to date in the BIZ! 2 examples for that: 15. Trinity Pat Riley: Who the hell is Trinity??"

When he doesnt know Trinity, maybe he still lives in the last Millenium! Trinity- the blonde amazon from Tampa (FL) - 6 tall, 24 years of age voluptuous, beautiful face , wide hips, other than many a lot of to skinny blonde changeable starlets - whatawoman! - pity Pat doesnt know her. She starts to do movies at the CES 2000 in Vegas, did about 20 movies up to now -so for example: I Swallow # 8 Rodney Moore I Swallow # 9 Rodney Moore We Go Deep # 6 Sean Michaels We Go Deep # 7 Sean Michaels Rocks that Ass # 9 Sean Michaels Filthy First Timers # 17 Elegant Angel Double D Sluts(Stan Randalls) BiG TOP My Cock Your Wife Bedtime Prod. Sweetback Part III Young Budding Bootys Bedtime Prod. Bedtimes Busty Babes Part II Bedtime Prod. Trinity/Tyler Squirting Video Mystic Productions Roger Pipe Trinity Naughty Coed Solo Mystic Productions Roger Pipe Trinity does Bedtime Bedtime Productions and others....

other example: Kim Chambers (HM) Pat Rileys comment: FAT" It must be asked when did Pat see Kim the last time??? Kim lost so much weight (unfortunately for me!) the last years - she is more a little to slender now compared to her physique - than fat?? - never Pat - watch her more exactly before you give ugly comments! See the (too) slender Kim in GENT's July Issue!! But its an "excellent company" for Kim to find herself together with Pat Riley's all the other too fleshy or fat starlets: Cherry Mirage, Tera Patrick, Tasha Hunter, Nikki Anderson, Taylor Hayes, Silvia Saint, Temptress.....

Here is my list (not 20) but 7: 1.Kim Chambers 2.Trinity 3.Tawni Lyons (Pat Riley: This womans body died years ago - the cellulite-ridden badly damaged belly Tawni! - No Pat, Tawnis body is very alive , hot and wonderful fleshy - but I know you hate female flesh - pity - I love it!) 4.Lovette 5.Donita Dunes 6.Sierra 7.Keisha (Dominguez) retired starlets: Dawn Phoenix, Blake Mitchell.... I know, that is a disgusting list for Pat - sorry!

Pat Riley writes: Jaded Jewish Girl sounds more like Testosterone Enraged Redneck: quick to resort to violence to compensate for her/his own inadequacies.

As to Trinityfan, jeez I wonder why the porn industry attracts so many bizarre people both among its denizens and as its fans? Drool over your beasties, Trinityfan (probably Roger Pipe in disguise), while I join the gazillion normal people leering at Britney Spears, Alyssa Milano, Jennifer Love Hewitt, and similar. I hear Rosie O'Donnell is looking to break into the porn business; maybe you can join Ron Jeremy and give her a welcoming DP. Just don't send me a screener, please.

IceT Adult Web Guy? Fact? Fiction? Fantasy?

Aurore Dupin [new E Mail: dcscweb@yahoo.com] writes: Congratulations on your safe arrival in Israel! Although you and I [& 2 others] signed nondis deals for our Web Biz meeting Thursday June 22, I THINK I CAN safely say, without getting sued [although I am not sure what YOU can safely say without getting sued] that we talked about the Internet.

Last Thursday June 29 I spotted, at our NYC sponsor's place, THE PERFECT FEMALE for a secret deal. I waived to our top spokemodel, pointed out the New Creature, and OUR WOMAN asked New Creature to hook up with us BEFORE I had the chance.

New Creature seemed GO! But then, she stalled. She said she HAD a Web presence exclusively with Rapper IceT. Did I read about such on your site, Luke? I think for sure Howard Stern mentioned that deal.

Upon further Q&A it seemed that she did NOT YET have a Web Site up [the old Coming Soon thing.] I mentioned with B+ result from New Creature that Our Secret Guy likely knew and did at least SOME biz with IceT. So she left it for Our People to Call Her People. OK. But whatzup with IceT?

I know that our good talent contact in LA used to work with him on odd projects, pre-Web. But DOES HE REALLY DO WEB STUFF or did he just use that line to Bed Down New Creature and more? Or does he just License His Name to an Adult Web Guy? Do they have an office or means of contact? How legit?

Our Very Legit Web Site goes Beta Trial Monday July 10 [at least I hope so] and Full Beta on Bastille Day Friday July 14. We have a publicity stunt that will make your old guy Craig Vasiloff look VERY ROOKIE! So please tell all your readers to watch out here!

What A Grouch!

Curious calmly responds to Lynne: Hey, I was being sincere. I do honestly respect your rearranging of your life in such a positive way. I really do praise your courage in the face of your overwhelming challenges of the past year. We disagree on a lot of things, this is true, but I always enjoy your intellectualism, insight and wit. You probably don't believe it, but I do like you.

I will absolutely apologize for the nude photo of you as a cheap laugh, but not the disgust with the cradle robbing idea. We are a society of laws and you may argue that some of them are quite arbitrary, but the boundaries do exist. Psychiatric offices across the USA are filled with patients who were sexually exploited as adolescents and children by adults who should have known better. I truly would have fired off the exact same letter if Chaim was wondering aloud about a sixteen year old girl.

Remember how you counseled DLR a/k/a "Hot Tub Biker" about the pitfalls of his impending marriage to a twenty-something "child bride"? What if he was forty-four thinking about a sexual relationship with a sixteen year old. What would you say to him? Be honest.

ps Luke has my full permission to privately give you my email if you want to discuss this further off line, but remember this is l-keford.com where nothing is private. ;-)

Nice Jewish Girl writes: Dear Lynne: You and I are friends no? Well then let a friend tell you honestly, that she thinks that you are being way too harsh on Curious. I find Curious to be interesting and grounded. And I think you are getting way too defensive in your defending of porn. If you would just listen to what he is saying instead of reacting it might be a good thing.

I think it is good he told you to "simmer down", and also the 16 year old as a lust object thing was a bit much and completely inappropriate no matter how much you rationalize it as just being "fantasy". It is wrong, plain and simple. Yes, even to fantasize about 16 year olds. Morally reprehensible.

NotBruceWalker writes: *lynne*, I cant stand it anymore. My name is NOT Bruce, Bruce is a nickname Amanda *Adamms* gave me when she was watching me work out one day. Bruce (Bruce Lee get it?) it was stupid then and it's worse now. And I AM NOT (wait a minute let me check......no I thought so) I AM NOT DEAD!!! But the more you reinforce the idea to millions of people the closer I get. How many times do you have to be told WORDS HAVE POWER. Dammit your alterego Luke (aka cool forty) is right STOP LIVING IN A FANTASY WORLD, it has real effects in the real world. Dont bother replying to this mesage the account will be disabled. I cant stand to hear one more bulls--- message. Theres a real life out there and YOU ARE PISSING IT AWAY. WAKE UP

NoBananaButts writes: Lynne, For a while now youve been pretty harsh with dear Luke...and since waiting to be asked for ones opinion is way passe, here's mine. I think you should lighten on Luke and show some appreciation for what he's accomplished. He's created a thoughtful, spiritually oriented community from a group who's original purpose on the Internet, was to find pictures of a girl with a banana up her butt. Requests to "dumb up" not withstanding, they come back. This site and it's cast are unique, a real accomplishment "out here". Not to mention completely f---ing depraved. (which is why I come back:-) That's it. Less chastisements RE: self involvement and more pats on the back, (or wherever) Besides.....he's cute. I'd do him.

Doss2s@yahoo.com writes: Greetings,there Luke.This is the Dossman.I envy you for your hedonistic pleasure cruise to the Holy Land.I too am enchanted by the seductive,dark-haired,sexually voracious Jewish ladies.By the way if your secret desires for Mrs.L-patin's flesh are not fulfilled,I would be more than willing to give her a hand in that department.She seems like a fascinating lady,with a extremely interesting background in the sexual arts.

Today's essay on what a piece of s--- I am

Lynne L-patin writes: Note: On June 30, before Luke went to Israel, he posted the first part of my essay on what a lousy sex life I’ve had over the past year, and to what extent I may have exploited my sex partners or been exploited by them. As a joke, I quoted MYSELF out of context. Lousy editor that he is, Luke loved my headline so much he repeated it twice, making no sense and ruining the joke…

Pornography encourages us to explore our sexuality, but it rarely reflects the consequences of that exploration, which can be devastating to parties involved. Unwanted pregnancy, fatal disease, physical damage and emotional exploitation aren’t erotic and do not belong in porn. Unfortunately, because our society hesitates to discuss sex openly and honestly, much of what we learn about sex comes through pornography, and porn offers us a half-baked look at sex.

It must have been porn that taught me that school and sex could be combined. In fact, I’m sure of it. Carnal College Coeds, Playboy’s look at Campus Cuties, even Robert Rimmer’s The Harrad Experiment: it didn’t occur to me that college is supposed to be for learning and sex should stay in the videos where it belongs. I thought I would kill two birds with one well-cast stone and find a combination algebra tutor/f--- buddy. A square root here, a blow job there, everyone gets their rocks off and gets good grades besides. It sounded like a good equation for the summer at the time.

My math teacher is really big on "ask your neighbor" and "help each other." The class itself is accelerated, compressing an eleven week term into five weeks, and as a group, all of us are treading water as fast as I can. After four days of class, I knew there were concepts I wasn’t getting, which I’d anticipated – math is NOT my favorite subject. I started looking around for help, and decided to ask the young man who’d most impressed me with his intelligent, outspoken behavior and willingness to help for some extracurricular tutoring. I thought that bringing sex into my studies would make them more palatable somehow. Unfortunately, I wasn’t thinking straight. I’m not sure I was thinking at all.

I found out, to my dismay, that I’d miscalculated and made the wrong choice of a tutor cum sex partner, having mistaken one very large male accelerated high school student for a fellow adult.

The moment I realized that he was underage, I readjusted my mindset, but it was apparently too late. I don't know if he or his father read l-keford.com and recognized the situation. Maybe it was simply walking him to the parking lot where his dad waited to pick him up -- we discussed TUTORING and class schedules and why he was on the college campus and I was totally appropriate, polite and well behaved – maybe Dad freaked out. All I know is that when I went to class the next day, and the attendance sheet was passed around, the boy had DROPPED THE CLASS, and I felt like the biggest piece of s--- on the planet.

I don’t know why he made the decision he did, and there even could be reasons other than my actions for it, but I have got to take responsibility for it and blame myself, because regardless of what I did, my intentions were inappropriate. I can re-evaluate the situation in my mind and try to find an excuse or justification, but the reality is that someone else’s needs and desires were compromised, and it is probably my fault.

Although all I verbally proposed was algebra tutoring, and even though I was more than willing to back down and graciously offer my sincere apology for any embarrassment I’d caused, I had no opportunity to do so. That made me feel doubly s---ty, but not nearly s---ty enough considering the damage I caused.

I sat in class, taking my quiz, pursuing my own agenda, knowing that someone else had been harmed by my mistake. Knowing that if someone had to drop the class it should have been me – even if I had not voiced my intentions, I made a mistake, and someone else should not be suffering for it.

There is a reason why adults do not have sex with children. It is not that children are innocent of all sexual impulses, because they are not. Children are sexual beings, despite our self-serving attempts to define them as "innocents," and they have a right to their own sexuality, which does not include adults. Even teenagers, whether they are sexually active or not, have different sexual needs and desires than adults, and when we fail to respect anyone’s sexuality, be they women, children, homosexuals or even heterosexual men, we do them a disservice.

Time moves differently to adults than it does to teenagers. Young people are developing so quickly at that age that even a few months can make major changes in their bodies and their emotions. Percentage wise, two years to an adult is a small fraction of a life, but to an adolescent, even six months is a huge chunk of time. They haven’t lived long enough for it to be otherwise.

There are no absolutes or rules when it comes to initiating sexual behavior. For some teens it may be healthier to fumble through a first encounter with a peer; for others, that could be devastating. Some teenagers are more ready for sex than others. Some are aggressive and seek it out, like I did, but that was MY choice. Some young men might prefer an older woman; some might be scared to death at the thought. But it has to be their choice, their decision, just as it was my decision to blow the rabbi and to keep a scorecard of the men I’d had (until I lost count…always did hate math). To stereotype all teenage boys as unwilling victims of raging hormones who will shag anything that moves is unfair to those who hesitate entering into sex at all.

The mistake I made was to look for sex in the context of algebra class. That is porno thinking. Porno thinking does not translate very well into real life. We do not get REAL WORLD sex at the Laundromat, or from the pizza man, or at the bus stop. In the real world, sex belongs in RELATIONSHIPS, because it is less dangerous that way.

Occasionally it occurs to me that I should listen to Luke rather than follow his promiscuous example, and wait for a relationship which can include sex, if only to keep MYSELF out of trouble. Meanwhile, mea culpa, and I must return to my homework, because I owe a kid an "A."

Lynne writes: Dear Luke:

I am very glad I got THAT off my chest. Here's another dark alley question for you: If you were on your way home through a bad part of town, and you got a flat tire, and some tattooed, scary characters approached you, who would you rather have with you: Lynne in a tank top with a gun in one pocket and some good drugs in the other, or Dennis Prager in a three piece suit? Cause I'd pass around a doobie and get the gangbangers to change the tire!

There are two SDA churches within walking distance of my house: one is Vietnamese, and the other is Korean. I'll bet they have some incredible potluck suppers...

NJG is in love, and wants ME to find a real relationship, too. That is, a relationship with someone who isn't Luke F-rd. Even Chaim would rather see me happily attending Star Trek conventions than continue to make bad decisions because I can't balance my life properly with Luke in it. Me? I think I'm doomed. I think I was doomed from the minute I met you.

You're just too damn special. Look at you -- brilliant, beautiful, hard working... PEOPLE magazine came out with the 100 most eligible bachelor issue, and I want to know why your publicist missed that one, too (because you should have been in their "most beautiful people" issue as well). ENTERTAINMENT magazine has a list of the 100 most creative people....you belong on that, also.

I try to dwell on your positive qualities, especially since I am coming out the loser in this year's morality race. Last year I was TOO GOOD for you; this year, you are TOO GOOD for me. Do you think it will balance out? All I know is that "relationships" happen when one least expects them to, and that all one can do is to be open to them when they do show up.

Meanwhile, we struggle on together, you and I, each of us working very hard in our own directions, wondering how to pull it all together, work and love and staying true to our goals and ourselves. But how can I love someone as much as I love you? I know I can -- I know that every single one of us is special in his/her own way, and that although a man might not have your genius and your beauty, he is still a valuable person and has a lot to give, including maybe to me.

But we do all right, Luke. We are each of us in a better place than we were a year ago. Things seem to be going well for both of us. I love having your love keeping me straight and focused. And how many of your fellow single travelers can count on having love letters in their e-mail twice a day?

Today is a day for wonderful adventures! And if anyone laughs at you for bringing your work with you....they're right. This is a great chance for having fun, I sure hope, and that is rare enough in anyone's life, and we moron readers can wait. We aren't worth that much attention, dear. You take time for YOU. I don't seem to know much these days, but I know you are IMPORTANT and deserving of only good stuff.

I'll write you in the morning when I get up. My dreams included airplanes and "Lou Scorbick" last night. But I'll settle for anything other than algebra.

I love you very much. Lynne

P.S.: Maybe we should try NOT to bore them with love letters like when you went to Australia....

Lynne writes: Dear Luke: It has been thirty six hours since I've heard from you and, honestly, I have been so busy and feel plenty good, and haven't needed to call for the straitjacket once. Disappointed?

Although I have not heard from you since you took the great, red-eyed silver bird to the homeland of our people, I trust you have arrived safely and are having a wonderful time.

My fondest hopes for you are that:

You realize one of the women in your group is your Destiny, and you have the chance to propose to her in the Holyland.

All thirty-five women in the group realize you are THEIR Destiny and spend the entire three weeks fighting in the hallway over you while you make love to them one after the other in an effort to promote peace in the Middle East.

You find a glorious Israeli Sabra with a large Uzi, who you sponsor for immigration to the U.S., and who will protect you and love you with all the ferociousness of the Lionesses of Judah.

Despite your sartorial incompetency you realize you are gay, and that one of the men on the trip is your true soulmate, and you cannot wait to get back to West Hollywood and go shopping together.

You discover the Lost Kibbutz of Amazon Jewish Women who hold you hostage as their love slave, forcing you to bask in the sun in the nude, improving your tan and serving as the willing toy of their desires.

You are captured by Palestinians who are so impressed with your religious sincerity that they lay down their assault rifles and, hand in hand with their former Jewish enemies, establish a Golan Heights branch of the Luke F-rd Center for Ethical Monotheism.

You are captured by Jews, who realize the inbred sterility of their religion, and create a breeding program based on disseminating your sperm to the Jewish masses, giving purpose to your compulsive masturbation.

You come to your senses and realize none of the women on the trip can compare to me in brains, writing ability, looks, love for you and devotion to you, and that you miss me, just a little.

Luke: Dear Lynne.

I miss you.

Luke

John Arnold: " Lynne, don't let these people make you feel guilty about lusting after a 16 year old. You were attracted to this kid. So what? You're not responsible for feelings that come up within you. Your feelings aren't "wrong." Sixteen isn't even that young. I think people in puberty are ready to have sex, if they want to. Sixteen year old guys definitely have the capability--they have hard-ons constantly and are always horny. Doesn't that mean they're suppossed to be sexually active? According to nature, yes. If it's a mutually satisfying sex encounter, what's the problem? People get way too hysterical about "underage" sex. If you gave the kid a blowjob he probably would have loved it. Who cares if "society" frowns on it?"

Final Thoughts On Porn

Dudley Moore writes: Here goes with more of my final thoughts: 7. The ultimate, underlying fantasy and excitement of porn is precisely and definitively that of MALES SEXUALLY COMPROMISING THEIR FEMALES, shamelessly violating all societally established sexual boundaries and norms, for the blatant and raw purpose of sex only. Thus, porn is purposely anti-thetical to concepts of stable, longterm monogamous relationships with women. That's why men are so intent on f---ing women in the ass, and getting their dicks sucked. They are successfully compromising the woman's preference for longterm child-rearing monogamy by getting the woman to agree to an outcome of sex only, through such explicitly terminal forms of sex. Compromising women sexually, and violating monogamous preconditions, is the true essence of what porn is really all about, males attempting to con the females into terminal sex that has no future potential in terms of relationship, family or larger societal aims. The male fantasy is simply that of compromising females for sex only. Porn also harkens back to a time when every male had a shot at the female, who would shamelessly reveal her receptivity by displaying her genitalia in front of the whole troop of males, like chimpanzees still do today.

But why else is compromising women sexually so exciting to males? What is it in our programming that would make us want to violate social norms and established monogamous boundaries? The psychoanalytic answer is that it is a way to go back and violate our own mothers, who were the first emotional/romantic objects of our childhood. Our mothers were taken by our fathers, and rendered forever inaccessible to us little men. So we get revenge on our mothers (for rendering us impotent and dickless by choosing our fathers over us) by violating these other women. Violating them enables us to go back and reclaim the sexual power we lost in losing our mothers to our fathers.

As an example of women's sexual power over their males, note that men walking with female partners(such as wives and mothers), pretend not even to notice anonymous females, nor take second looks. In fact, their women engage in far more intense(and disapproving)staring at scantily clad females in public than do their monogamous males who are kept in tow by their female partners. Thus, men remain under the sexual power of their women even as adults in society, just as they once were under their mother's sexual control. Porn is thus a way to level the playing field, and reclaim sexual power over women, if only in ever more extreme fantasies.

8. Porn is about first-time, every-time sexual turn-on. For example, many men exhibit an instinctive "prairie dog" response of popping their heads up and turning whenever any attractive female passes by. Each and every female is always inspected from a first-time, every-time perspective. These men are under enormous amounts of hormonal pressure not to lose any opportunity. Something inside says this is the first time(and possibly the last time)they will ever see a female, so better take note! Reciprocally, many females have much in common with circus "plate-twirlers." These women, most often found in fast-track office environments, see their mission in life as keeping as many men as possible in a constant state of turn-on, penises in the up and on position, with no relief in sight. They enjoy keeping men in a state of perpetual sexual suspense and pent-up frustration (with a knowing look or a short skirt here, a bend over there), like so many twirling plates that must never be let down or allowed to stop spinning, in an amazing display of their sexual power over us helpless men.

9. The practice of early primate genital inspections of females seems to have a great deal to do with porn. Most women's hottest fantasy is to awake to find their pussies being examined closely by a Tarzan-like man, holding their buns in his hands. This again harkens back to the female behavior of bending over for male inspection(much like modern-day baboons and strip-dancers). As an aside, there also seems to be something distinctively cat-like in the way lap-dancers rub up and down the bodylengths of their male customers, just like housecats marking their owners and territory for resources.

10. Porn is totally visual. I'm always amazed by the reality that "all" women have to do to prove their value to us men is to be beautiful. In other words, their value is immediately obvious to us males, and completely visual in content, whereas our worth to women must be proven through careful demonstration of our social skills and ability to form a lasting relationship.

11. It may well be true that male porn addicts have inadvertently identified themselves as men who would not make reliable mates. They may even be incapable of monogamous relationships. I think women should realize that the sexual needs being "met" by porn are entirely derived from the excitement of violating essential sexual boundaries, and thus outside the realm of their sexual relationship. They will not be able to fulfill these self-destructive needs of their male partners, which require professional help in the form of therapy and support groups, such as Sex Addicts Anonymous.

12 Porn is clearly part of an obsessive-compulsive strategy for sex, that is, trying the same thing over and over again, whether successful or not. From an evolutionary perspective, this was adaptive in that males who were rejected by one female could thereby go on to the next female, without being incapacitated by emotional attachment or grief. However, sex addiction is the painful modern-day reality for all who pursue the anonymous, indiscriminate sex of porn, since it is impossible to ever really claim love objects in porn, or even to ultimately satisfy one's sexual needs with porn. But take heart: "You may not be able to control your addictions, but you can control whether or not you get help!"(The new l-keford.com motto.)

13. The female counterparts of male porn consumers are the bi-lesbians of the sex industry, dancers and porn actresses, who hold out the allure of sex with no relationship. Since the bi-lesbian women of the sex industry do not need stable monogamous relationships with men (they really prefer women), they offer sex to men in exchange for resources only. This perfectly explains everything you see in the behavior of all these women, that is, sex for resources only. That's why they are really just con artists. In point of fact, they are merely doing a reverse con on the men, who are seeking sex only.

You Can Go Your Own Way

You can go your own way. You can call it another lonely day... Go your own way. Or you can go God's way.

It's 4AM, and we're flying over North Eastern Canada, 5700 miles away from our destination in Tel Aviv. I'm sick. I'm feverish. And my conscience is bothering me.

I'm surrounded by single Jewish females and some of them like me. May even want me, or at least, may not resist me.

I've been thinking about joining the Mile High Club. Some temporary fleeting pleasure would make my body and soul feel good. It would restore my feeling of potency and desirability, move me on from my introspection, sniffles and sadness.

I feel disgusted with myself. Up here in the heavens, flying El Al (the Israeli airline), I feel closer to God. And his presence pierces me. I am crucified.

But I can go my own way. I can call it another lonely day... Or I can turn my life around.

During the early '90s, in the years leading up to and from my conversion to Judaism, I determined that I would not hurt people needlessly. For instance, I would not pass on gratuitous negative information about persons. I would not gossip. Even if the gossip did not return to hurt the objects of my gossip, it would smudge my soul. Now that I'd heard the call of God and His Moral Law, I'd strive to live my life in accordance with that call.

My first fall from this newfound sense of grace, came with "Lana." I played with her large breasts and emotions. I trifled with her feelings and fiddled with her body. Then I moved on to Debbie, who I wanted. We lived together and she found she did not want me.

So I moved to Los Angeles and in my first year in town, I slept with about 20 women. In two years, I'd moved from never touching a woman to touching many.

And during that same time period, I moved from a resolve to not cause others needless pain to an attitude of consensual morality. Whatever people consented to in their dealings with me, I would push to my advantage. This quickly led to a morality of feeling - if I felt what I was doing was ok, then it was ok.

That's a far cry from my earlier enthusiasm to follow the dictates of an external transccendent moral code (as spelled out in the Torah and Jewish Law). I once led my life by Torah Law. Now Torah has a vote but not a veto on my behavior.

I know many people with a similar approach, and they seem to lead moral lives. Atheist porner Jim Gunn is a far more moral man than me.

But I am slovenly and self deceived. Unless I hear the call of God and His moral law, I tend to do what is easiest. And this has led me to where I am today - pitchforking people off theporno truck and tossing them into another truck, where bleeding, they're carried away to oblivion.

I am not directly involved in the flesh trade. Rather I work in the soul trade.

I find out the soul secrets of porners and others and reveal them to the world, causing oceans of pain. I no longer care if my work hurts an innocent person, because I don't think of porners as innocent. Rather, I feel like divine karma.

I'm just giving them what they deserve. I'm letting them reap what they sew. I help along God's plan, assist divine justice. I spear porners on my pitchfork and twirl them bloody into the air and on to the truck leading to Hell.

It's no wonder that many religious Jews will have nothing to do with me once they know what I am really like. My life mocks the Torah and Jewish Law. I am an anathema to decency. My self control is so low that when my penis stands up, my weak conscience leaves quickly. Porn is no place for the morally weak but mainly the morally weak come here.

I came to porn because I like to play in the dirt. I like to play with my penis. I like to play with my fantasies. I like to play with people's minds and souls and lives and f--- them in many different ways.

Perhaps I should stay where I am, in porno, and make a moral stand. Concentrate on those writings that uplift people and fight evil. Minimize the content that wrecks lives and does no good.

But I have little moral discipline. And porn inherently diminishes the human being. It toughens and enlarges our calloused hearts. God promises to replace our hearts of stone with hearts of flesh. We must meet Him part way. We must turn aside from doing evil and do good.

Dear reader, do you realize what working around pornography does to the soul? It hardens me and makes me less feeling towards others.

I am staying in Israel. I won't come back. What is there to come back to? I lost my most valuable friends when I started smearing the good name of Dennis Prager.

I've lived in Los Angeles over six years but have developed little in the way of religious community and a support system. The people I most want to get close to are beyond my grasp while I persist in my wicked ways. I will stay in Jerusalem and enter yeshiva. I will cleave to the Torah.

Strong Torah Jews should live in the world, at times, and witness to God. I am too weak to make it morally in the real world.

I heard Dennis Prager say on the radio Friday that when you have sex outside of emotional intimacy, it makes emotional intimacy more difficult. Uncommitted sex makes achieving intimacy with another human being more difficult.

I make a nice living providing salacious details of the lives of porn actresses. I basically take a cut from whoredom. And I've become callous. I almost never think before publishing, oh, this might hurt somebody. I just think - they deserve it. They're public figures. They're putting themselves out there in the most extreme manner and are asking for it.

I am Luke, God's helper. I help deliver divine karma.

Chaim Amalek writes: Luke, I provide the following filler so that you can minimize the time you must spend putting this update together, and spend the bulk of your time enjoying yourself. (And please don't tell us you enjoy yourself playing with your computer. You should be spending no more than ten minutes a day on this crap, if that.) Here is my Rashi to your mishna:

"It's 4AM, and we're flying over North Eastern Canada, 5700 miles away from our destination in Tel Aviv. I'm sick. I'm feverish. And my conscience is bothering me. I'm surrounded by single Jewish females and some of them like me. May even want me, or at least, may not resist me. I've been thinking about joining the Mile High Club. Some temporary fleeting pleasure would make my body and soul feel good. It would restore my feeling of potency and desirability, move me on from my introspection, sniffles and sadness. I feel disgusted with myself. Up here in the heavens, flying El Al (the Israeli airline), I feel closer to God. And his presence pierces me. I am crucified. [Your Christian heart yearns to be free!]

"My first fall from this newfound sense of grace, came with "Lana." I played with her large breasts and emotions. I trifled with her feelings and fiddled with her body. Then I moved on to Debbie, who I wanted. We shared a bathroom together and she found she did not want me. I slept with about 20 women."

GODDAMN, LUKE! Breast fondling, sex with no fewer than 20 women, all on an El Al flight not yet over the Atlantic! You DA MAN! Mr. Marcus is an impotent little jewish wimp next to you!

"I once led my life by Torah Law. Now Torah has a vote but not a veto on my behavior."

You know (actually, I am sure that you do) there are shuls in Manhattan that say almost the same thing: "Come to Bais Modernica, Where the Past Has a Vote, Not a Veto."

"I know many people with a similar approach, and they seem to lead moral lives. Atheist porner Jim Gunn is a far more moral man than me. " OK but let's tell the full story here. Is Jim Gunn richer than you? Does he get more, younger, prettier women than you? Is he happier than you? OK, so the answer is yes. But does Lynne L. love Jim Gunn as she loves Luke F-rd? Advantage Luke F-rd.

"I am not directly involved in the flesh trade. Rather I work in the soul trade. " s--- luke, are you not in Israel, one of the world's leading destinations for those involved in the flesh trade. Follow the lead of the rabenim, stop trafficking in souls, and start peddling the flesh of christian girls. Remember, you are not a true jew until you see that the highest calling of the christian is to service the basest desires of the jew. (copyright to Chaim Amalek, 2000) That is God's Will.

"Perhaps I should stay where I am, in porno, and make a moral stand."

NO - if you really want to take a moral stand, take one where you stand. Stand up for the rights of Christian girls NOT to be pimped out to smelly, hairy-palmed haredi jews. As a tactical matter, present this as a national security issue, a mortal threat to the jewish state.

IF you are on some sort of "mission", likely you will get to interact with government officials of various sorts. You will have their ear, especially once they learn that you folks are from Hollywood. Speak up, speak loudly, speak often wherever you go in Israel.

"I am staying in Israel. I won't come back. What is there to come back to? I lost my most valuable friends when I started smearing the good name of Dennis Prager." OK, you will think that this is a flip comment from me, but I do not think that is such a bad idea. I am sure that, just as you supported yourself in the United States by running a web site to report inside dope on women who sell their bodies to men for money on video, you could in Israel do likewise. A web site that reports on which Russian or Ukrainian girl is working where, and that opines on (after having sampled same) the merits of her goyishe flesh. I am sure that there are sheckels to be made there.

Beware The Jerusalem Syndrome

Lord Peter Luther Christian writes: Dear Luke:

You are on a voyage of self-discovery, seeking to separate your feelings towards your father from your natural, instinctive desire to return to the warm, nurturing bosom of your Father Jesus Christ. Do not confuse the two, and you will be well on your way to redemption from the hell of pornography that your hegira in Judaism (if I may be permitted the use of that word - it is, after all, levantine in origin!) has thus far failed to rescue you from.

But there is one immediate peril, one snare above all others that Satan has set before you, as he has set it before many a seeker. It is known as the Jerusalem Syndrome, the tendency of pilgrims to Jerusalem to come to believe upon entry into that special city that they are the personal tools of God, subject to direction by divine revelation. Some of these poor souls actually come to believe that they are Christ Himself, returned to earth to redeem the sinners! Yes, Jerusalem is a spiritually potent city, but do not let the emptiness within be filled by Satan's chimeras of deception. You are still Luke F-rd, a man like all others, and in need of Christ's love.

Yours in Christian Love,

Lord Peter Luther Christian, OBE

Lynne L-patin Explains Emotional Intimacy

Luke: I heard Dennis Prager say on the radio Friday that when you have sex outside of emotional intimacy, it makes emotional intimacy more difficult. Uncommitted sex makes achieving intimacy with another human being more difficult.

Lynne writes: Luke, that's a sweeping generalization, and not necessarily true and you know it. Emotional intimacy and sexual intimacy can be had together, or separately, depending on the people, the time, the place.... Uncommitted sex (and masturbation) feel great physically but emotionally they are empty and hollow, but because they eliminate the hard work and responsibility of a relationship, there are those who prefer that. Those people wouldn't be capable of emotional intimacy even if they were celibate.

There are a great many men in so-called committed relationships who NEVER achieve emotional intimacy with their spouses. You and I have each had more than our share of uncommitted sex, and I am quite capable of being emotionally intimate, which you know full well. You do not have the same capacity for the time being, but please don't blame having had sex for this. We learn to be emotionally intimate by becoming attached to our caregivers at an early age, and by having it be safe: that wasn't possible for you.

You fear becoming emotionally involved with your sex partners, or becoming sexually involved with those with whom you share emotional intimacy, because you fear emotional pain and loss. Along with love comes hate, because it is the negative which makes us appreciate the positive. You are still too fragile to handle the emotional upheavals that are part and parcel of any long-term relationship, and the wise part of you knows that, and holds you back.

I don't think you have the conscious control over your behavior that you believe you have, which is why you were diagnosed as having a personality disorder. You are not a bad guy, Luke. That you even think about these things reveals you to be far more moral than most, who only act out and justify. And in terms of porn, you have done more good than anyone else I can think of in twenty-five years. You force us to think about what we do, you call out those who deserve it, and you have become the conscience of the industry.

If your sexual self-control was as weak as you suggest, you would have f---ed me and thrown me over a long time ago. It is YOUR strength that has kept our relationship proceeding on a slow and steady course, allowing me to love you for who and what you are, without exploitation, without regrets. If it had been up to me, I would have f---ed it all up within a few months. I trust your hesitation more than I trust my willingness to proceed full steam ahead with nary a thought to the consequences.

Addressing these conflicts is your primary therapeutic task , and because you are not nearly as lazy or slovenly as you like to think you are, with some hard work you will meld these two sides of your personality sooner or later. You have come a long way in the past year. Everything will be all right.

Regarding Pat Riley's reviews of porn stars: So Mr. Riley wants a small, anorexic, non-pushy pretty face, eh? Why doesn't he just screw an inflatable doll and shut the f--- up? A REAL woman would take that ugly mug of his in between her powerful normal-sized thighs and crush it into jelly. Tell him my cane, floggers and paddles are waiting to reduce him to even more of the quivering heap of crap that he is. Sincerely, Jaded Jewish Girl

SO WHO'S THE CHILD MOLESTER?

Lynne writes: Funny how I can admit that a young male might be pleasing in his youthful innocence, and that Curious objects out of concern for that young male's emotional development, but Pat Riley describes his ideal woman as resembling a twelve-year-old child and no one notices. A certain body fat ratio is required for a female to reach reproductive maturity -- small, anorexic, non-pushy females are immature beings, physically and emotionally. Fear me, Pat -- I can leg press 260 pounds, and I'm getting stronger every day...

The Love That Dare Not Speak Its Name

Lynne writs: Dear Luke: So you want to show our faithful readers what it is like to be loved... And that YOU are loved....even though you know it bores them to tears.

Some of it is just jealousy, but mostly I think it is just that discussing relationships is difficult for men, and has always been verboten in the context of porn. You show such curiosity over how people in porno manage to maintain relationships, especially performers who are sexually promiscuous, and you wonder how it would be possible to maintain love under such circumstances. It's really just a matter of compartmentalization mixed with a little delusion, and the money helps. Obviously being a porn performer makes it hard to maintain love, but most people are not porn performers and their relationships fall apart easily as well.

Women are expected to want sex within the context of a relationship; it has always been assumed that men don't care. What a sexist stereotype! As if men have no feelings, no craving for intimacy beyond the physical. Just because it is hard for them to express themselves in that gushy way that comes so easily to women doesn't mean that men's feelings aren't equally as tender and as powerful.

It is easy for me to be honest with myself and say, "I'm horny and wanna f---," but that is not true for most of my gender. As to yours, for you to say, "I'm lonely and I want love" is equally suspect. Men are strong! Men want nothing! Men can take it or leave it! That isn't true at all!

But because men can't express their needs easily, it's always a crap shoot trying to guess whether the man is being the "strong, silent type" or whether he just doesn't care...

Women's magazines are full of "relationship" articles; men's magazines avoid mentioning the "R" word (except as something that interferes in a man's ability to lead a full and promiscuous life).

When you first e-mailed me that we could never have sex and that you were uncomfortable talking about it, I was very confused. I thought you might be overstating something, like a reference to my marital status (which changed sooner than we knew it would). My mind ran through all the physical possibilities: erectile difficulty, hypospadias, micropenis... I couldn't imagine that someone as beautiful as you could have any physical imperfections, but because I have always respected you tremendously, I didn't push you on it. I wonder what I would have thought if you had said instead that you had emotional problems that seemed to get in the way of relationships. Probably, knowing me, I would have said, "Damn the relationship! Let's just f---!"

And look at what I would have thrown away! Because it is our relationship that means everything to me, and which is now the foundation on which we build, you and I. We are secure in each other's love. We actually know each other well enough now that the physical component has become irrelevant to the feelings we share. You know that I love you for you, and not just because a momentary, ultimately degrading lust is calling out for justification.

I think it is good that you have had sex with many women. It has taught you the difference between empty sex and the potential of sex with love. You know what is missing from casual fornication, and you are in a better position to evaluate what it is that you do want.

It was so sweet of Chaim to point out that although we have many friends who are good people, and successful at what they do, none of them have my love the way you do. (In fact, Chaim has gotten downright sweet lately....could it be that he is getting soft and flabby in his maturity?)

Bruce's first and second wife bemoaned his constant infidelity, but with me, he was faithful for ten years. What made the difference? That I loved him, physically and emotionally. That I always pulled my own weight, and gave as much as I expected back. That I didn't reject him sexually once he had made an emotional committment. I hear that is a thing women do. Silly me, I always thought marriage included all the sex one could physically stand.

Luke, I do not think that you will find what you are looking for in further study of Torah. Torah is a guideline for life. Without life, and temptation, and struggle, Torah is only ancient philosophy. You can memorize it all you want, but you will be impoverished compared to the man who has never heard of Torah, but who loves his family and receives their love and respect in turn.

Nor do I think there is anything wrong with waiting to be sure that you are loved and desired before you make a commitment to a woman. In fact, it sounds like a good idea to me. You bonded to so many women as a little boy, all of whom left you (except for GXXX, and she's not too thrilled about the adult you've become). How can you possibly be sure that a woman means it when she says she will stand by you?

You have given me enough time to try to prove myself. You have exposed me to your work and to the world through your site, and I still love you. I have caught plenty of s--- from my professional porn peers over my involvement with you, and they are the ones I have chosen to leave behind. They had their chance, and they blew it. How many editors has AVN gone through in the past few years? Can I not write as well as most of them? AVN has never had a female columnist -- there was a time when they had no females at all judging videos for their dubious annual awards, which I pointed out to Paul Fishbein and which was rectified thereafter. Alex Ladd is directing his first movie for Sin City. Alex Ladd was a still photographer for Parliament News when he got into the business, and he's a friend of mine, but no better director than I am. He just has different genitalia. I could go on and on about how the men I "came up with" have succeeded with no more talent than that between their legs.

But you, Luke -- despite your claims to the contrary, you are the radical one. Women, blacks and wankers are all equal on YOUR site. Relationships are acceptable. Discussion is open. Someone said today on the site that I have been "too hard" on you. I have? Gee, I hope not! Maybe they just don't get the jokes?

I've given you the rundown on my last twelve months of sexuality, coming round full circle to saying that no matter what I seem to do, I seem always to be left with the realization that it is you I truly love, and it gets easier to say every time I think about the alternatives I've sought to it. I know that sometimes you resent our relationship being the one that seems to keep working, when other women are more appealing to you. My love for you comes from the respect we shared for one another for months before I realized how I'd come to feel about you. I know that you meet a woman and, without knowing anything about her, decide that she would be a suitable partner for you, and that you want it to work so badly you fantasize about what could happen if it does

I know that my love for you gives you hope that some other woman might be as devoted to you, and I'm sure that's possible, but you forget WHY I love you, and how much time we spent as GOOD friends before I began to give you that love. The women in your singles group SHOULD like you. You are likable. Although they may find your job to be strange and distasteful, and your bachelor habits are decidedly unusual, you are not unlikable. What could I say to these women? That if you should decide on one of them as your best potential mate, I would tell her that you are the most special guy I've met in a very long time, and to be sure to give you enough love to take the place of mine. (Then I'd probably scratch her eyes out, but who would blame me?)

I think your readers are now all bored to tears, and have left you for Mr. Marcus or Gene Ross, so I will go and have some dinner, and read some true crime books. I have not figured out how to adjust my tantric energy to your new time zone (my evening being your morning, and vice versa, it is hard to "sleep" with you and my body is very confused). In that regard, I miss you. But I keep you in my heart, and in THAT regard, you haven't gone anywhere.