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Sunday, March 26, 2000

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Homo Porn Director Murdered

Gay porn director Steve Cadro was brutally murdered in Budapest, Hungary this weekend. He was shot to death.

Homo porn actor Kyle McKenna has committed suicide in Salt Lake City.

Chasey Lain Flakes

Brooks writes:

VAN NUYS, CA (March 25) -- Chasey Lain, the beautiful but boring porn star, cancelled her three-day show at the Spearmint Rhino Club in the Valley.

The cancellation was made at the last minute. Still, Chasey was supposed to have started dancing yesterday (Friday) at a 2PM matinee. If she did not show up, then the Spearmint Rhino Club should had said so on its web site, which currently at 11:15 PST is still touting Chasey's appearances.

This action on the part of the Club is morally dubious at best. The inimitable (but old and flabby) Teri Weigel filled in for Chasey. The show was quite forgettable, and blonde Teri was obviously out of breath after only ten minutes. I did see the blonde chick Cricket(from Gangbang Audition #3) there, trying to snag lap dances.

"Stars" such as Chasey Lain and Jenna Jameson (who flaked on Spearmint Rhino a few months ago) may get a slight rush or tingle out of breaking contracts. For us fans, it's just another reason why these chicks, whose on-screen performances were lackluster, should just go away. There are other nicer, more punctual porn stars who put these washed-ups to shame.

Streaming Magic

Jose from StreamingMedia.com writes Luke: My hunt for the story about QSound/Stream Magic has led me to you and your web site. I'm writing to ask if I can talk to you sometime soon (on the record or off) about a story I'm doing about this deal. Having been in the streaming industry for a while, I've never heard of Stream Magic. And the link to VCA and Babenet are interesting and something that I will report on. Do you have any other information? Can you tell me more about the principals involved, including Nolan Quan, VCA, Babenet, Alchemy, etc.?

Cable TV And The Race Question

Phil Goldmarx, a former reviewer for Adult Video News, writes on the newsgroup RAME: On prior threads dealing with interracial porn, a claim had been made that Veronica Hart, ex-porn legend and now an in-house director at VCA, verified contentions that leading porn studios(VCA in particular) had a no "black male/white female" sex scene rule, and that this was done either at the behest of cable companies and/or disgruntled redneck home video renters/purchasers. After having written to her via e-mail, she got back to me a week or so later and spoke to me yesterday via car phone. This is what she told me:

1) There has never been a "No BM/WF" rule while she has been involved with VCA (since the early 90s). Nobody has told her - or any other VCA director - that you can't have an interracial sex scene. She pointed out, as her most recent example, scene(s) in "Still Insatiable" with Marilyn Chambers. There ARE other VCA policies which do indeed qualify as rules, such as mandatory condom usage.

2) Occasionally, there have been suggestions from the VCA office to lay low on BM/WF interracial that in turn arise not from the rules of any cable companies per se, but from beseiged local cable stations that carry Playboy, Spice, Adam & Eve, etc. These stations then voice their complaints to the adult provider. VCA employees are free to ignore suggestions, and she does not know of any punitve action taken against those who avail themselves (including herself) of the opportunity to forge ahead with interracial scenes.

3) The operative word here is "besieged." Local cable stations depend on a friendly political atmosphere because it is the city legislatures that decide whether or not to renew their licence to operate, without which they are out of business. The local stations, who do not have sufficient clout to defend themselves, i.e. ability to afford capable First Amendment lawyers or lobbyists, are very sensitive to complaints coming from the local pols. Complaints about the aforementioned interracial sex scenes have been directed at cable stations in the South from sizeable numbers of these legislators' constituents.

4) In addition to a license to operate, cable stations also need substabtial advertising revenue to make it worthwhile to stay in business. Sponsors that fear boycotts will withdraw commercials, or make enough threatening noises to do so, prompting the cable station to either snip the offending scene from the movie or ask the adult cable provider to do that for them.

5) The number of complaints lodged against interracial sex scenes varies from time to time. Right now, things are quiet. But in the past, complaints rose to reach a critical mass, prompting the adult cable providers, especially Playboy, to wonder whether it made financial sense to feature BM/WF sex. Playboy adopted a policy suggesting (not mandating) that its porn suppliers not put in those scenes. Hugh Hefner was almost certainly unaware of this, since he had already retired from day-to-day involvement with Playboy. Although Playboy had been very pro-integrationist in the past, risking losses, now it was becoming all about $$$.

6) Playboy's policy was scrapped due to the intervention of Andrew Trentacosta, who rose to the ranks in each of the "Big Three" adult cable providers. Trentacosta convinced all of them that even a suggeston to nix interracial stuff was bulls---, and that they could weather any storm or fallout from the presence of BM/WF sex. As a result, the burden now rests solely on the local cable station to edit out anything it deems risky.

7) In the past, Veronica had talked about these issues, but was not as well-informed about them as she is now. She continues her producer partnership with Michael Ninn (going on eight years) and is starting up a new adult business called Hope Ranch, LLD.

Murray writes: hey luke, frist off who watches porn on cable in the first place? i mean i get spice where i live and the actual scenes are the same as cinemax or showtime as far as no penetration. i dont think vca hasd a no bm/wf clause cause i saw a nina hartley tape and she had sex with a black couple.....i thought the porn companies made more from rentals anyway, if theyre scared of a few rednecks boycotting them then thats why a lot of the porn out right now is crap. as far as extreme porn goes, hey the hardcore stuff is the best out! that couples stuff from wicked, vivid and vca is boring as f---! give me some rocco, private or anabolic and that's real porn.

Extremism In Defense of Porn

Hume writes on RAME: I'm just wondering out loud here... Why is it that people on this n.g. seem to be drawn to the most extreme porn? Double-anal penetration, gangbangs, coprophagia, bukkake... the kind of s--- that most people wouldn't do in a million years in their real lives... It also occurs to me that the kind of porn that gets trumpeted here is the kind of porn that most women wouldn't be caught dead watching. Is there a connection?

It seems to me that the kind of film that your girlfriend *would* watch with you, and that *would* turn her on and actually get you some actual sex, is the exact kind of video most likely to be scorned by many of the men who post here. Why is that? Why do so many people here foam at the mouth about inter-racial sex, as if it's the be-all and the end-all of porn?

I've watched Sean Michaels f--- plenty of women and enjoyed it -- but it never made me *more* turned on because it was a black guy f---ing a white woman. What's the big deal? It seems to me that many people here need their porn to be as extreme as possible -- just two attractive people having hot sex isn't nearly enough.

It's almost as if porn is a kind of drug that has to be taken in stronger and stronger doses. Is this just a reflection of the Age of Extremes that we live in? I'd be interested in some serious attempts to answer these questions -- or at least grapple with them.

Rtl replies: Yo ! you done missed de boat...the attraction of porn for many ( most ? ) males is the re-connection to earlier ageswhen women were treated like horses and cattle.

Patrick Riley: Just which "earlier age" was this? 100 years ago? 500 years ago? 2000 years ago? 50,000 years ago? Obviously the further we go back the less information we have as to the status of women however within recorded history the idea that they were treated like horses and cattle is simply untrue and a feminist canard to boot. One only has to look at the bible to see that females had an important place in daily life far above the status of animals. Early myths and legends such as those of the ancient Greeks and Romans show females as goddesses and having lots of power in society. As we move forward in time towards the current day we find female leaders ruling over men (Catherine the Great, Queen Victoria) and even at the more popular literature level there's little support for your idea. I suggest some further research before you make such wild accusations.

Rtl: look how f---ed up the worldhas become since women were allowed to vote. in any sane modern society women could be bought/rented at Home Depot. think back to the cave era - after a successfull hunt the men and dogs sit around the fire gorging out while the women whimper in the back of the cave. what i wanna know is: who was the first faggot to feel sorry for them and invite them to sit by the fire ?

Riley: If such a thing happened he was your ancestor. Seriously! Inviting the mother of your children to sit by the fire and share in your "gorging" was very smart evolution-wise, giving your children a decided advantage over other more selfish males.

Patrick Riley writes on RAME about body doubles used for nude scenes in mainstream films: Somehow in all this heat over actresses who will/won't do nude scenes and whether Showgirls made money (Who cares?) we seem to have forgotten something: The movie is intended to play on some emotion in the viewer and as such is a work of fiction, not a documentary or an attempt at social engineering. Contrary to Mike Paul's assertion there is a skill or attribute involved in nudity and it's a different skill than that of acting or even non-nude eye candy.

Jennifer Love Hewitt is great eye candy in a clothed state but I could well imagine that her rather large tits might appear saggy and empty if she exposed them. Gwenyth Paltrow's back is populated with too many moles so, fine actress though she may be, her nude back shots would probably be better done with a body double.

In the porn world, Mirage has a gorgeous face but her butt is flat and her tits are too droopy; Melody Love has an ugly face and very poor dentition however her body is just the right shape. Take Mirage's face and Melody's body and you have a real winner in a porn star.

Unfortunately the technology doesn't yet exist to do a good enough job in the porn area but it certainly seems to in the much less complicated mainstream movies. A valid criticism would be that it's not well enough done but posters who contend that the real actress has to shed her clothes for some social engineering reason or from desire to see the real person are simply confusing fantasy with reality. (And David Austin says he doesn't see much of that on this NG .)

Gina Ryder

Charlie Mingus writes on RAME: Gina started off with so much promise especially as a fellatio artist. Shelooked so much cuter with the long black hair. It appears she gained about 25 pounds and changed her hair to an unsightly short light brown. Whoever is her webmaster has screwed up big time with her site, so that even if you were a fan of Gina's there's not enough thought or content put into the site to make it worth more than one visit.Now worst of all she is coming out with all of this girl-girl crap. She went from mega hot to one of the most boring performers out there.

Judge Kimba Woods

David Constantine writes: Just an interesting observation regarding your article about Marilyn Star. Judge Kimba Woods refused to allow any evidence regarding Kathryn Gannon AKA Marilyn Star's background. This is the same Kimba Woods who was at the top of PresidentClinton's short list for nomination to the Supreme Court but was ultimately stopped when House Republicans exposed her personal life, specifically her decision to pose nude for Playboy in the 1970's. Personal experience extending to her decisions in this case?

Tiffany Mynx

Master Daniel writes Tiffany Mynx: Greetings, Tiffany. I hope this message finds you doing well. While I have been an ardent supporter of both yourself and Van Damage through all of the sturm and dang that occurs in the porn industry, I must say that I am very dissapointed in the quality of www.tiffanymynx.com, feelings that apply to the photographic content as well as the overall design. This is especially disheartening given the quality of your preview site from several months ago, which was impeccable.

Luke's Mom Writes

Luke's mom writes: My dear Luke: I avoid writing to you any more to post on the internet since you allow anyone to comment on our letters and criticize us in response. But I do object strongly to your posting someone's response that your dad was cheating on your first mother while she was sick. The comment was "Luke's father was cheating while luke's sick mother was ill? What a bastard!" And I want you to publish this in response.

In letting someone say this, you are virtually endorsing it as though it was an established thought elsewhere, and others reading are going to presume this is true. Anything your dad and I said or did before marriage could have been posted on the church bulletin board. Your mother wanted your dad to remarry partly for your sake because you were three when she died. It was understood from the beginning (about 1.5 years before she died) that we would probably marry. They talked it over before they talked to me. She gave the relationship her support to make the transition easier for your dad and we went out for lots of long walks. She was in a wheelchair and you were usually there until you went away to stay with Uncle Ken. Your mother spoke to her mother, sister, and church leaders to say, back off, leave us alone; this is what I want for the family. Your father was in public work and she realized it would have been difficult for us to get to know each other easily after she died. She said these things to me. A lot of people would think this all strange, but it is not uncommon for mothers with terminal conditions to want the family to stay intact after they are gone. It's the last gift to the living, and it was clear for years before that her condition was terminal. She nearly died a number of times. Your mother was a saint, and more than that, she was the sort of saint that everybody loved.

The psych report was that you have a narcissistic personality disorder and that you are currently not ready to address it. This is a real disorder and shouldn't be thought of as nothing. And it's not easy to treat. Though the psych felt we should not read your website, I will still do it from time to time to find out what you are doing and check up on what you are telling the world about the family, even though it makes me gag. Conditions like personality disorders are poorly understood as far as treatment. And treatments of all conditions change through the years so the advice we were given might be different at another time. I have to go by my own gut instinct. You know I rarely called you even before we advised recently to back off and let you learn from your mistakes. But it's hard to let you go altogether and not keep at least a loving eye on you when you don't seem to have the insight or maturity to make smart decisions about your life and you are playing among a tough crowd. People have been shot for much less than you have said and done. What is going to happen to you if you keep publishing fiction on the web and getting sued? I am thinking of the story of the man who cut his mother's heart out and as he carried it along he dropped it, and he heard her say, Are you all right, son?

Ex-porn star Brandy Alexandre writes: I was thinking more on what I wrote to you last night. Your family seems to be so dismayed that you don't take your "serious" personality disorder seriously. They seem to be so very concerned, and sigh at thought of so many years of psychotherapy necessary to "fix" you. But have they stopped to think what (who) created the "disorder" in the first place? True, all Fruedian fingers point to xxx, but in this case it seems more truth than poetry...

You were passed around and the result is the root of your "disorder" is your inability to bond. If you never learn to bond, it haunts you for the rest of your life. You still need the same things as the "normal" people--acknowledgement and validation--but you didn't get it then, so by example you don't know how to give. Further, it keeps people at an emotional distance. Generally speaking, if you can't bond, you don't care. You may want to care, but you were never given the psychological tools you needed at an early age to know how to get there. You probably love your family out of a sense of familiarity and duty, but not to the extent that you care one way or another what they think. You are so different from them at this point, I would bet that if you removed the relationship from the equation these are not people you would ever choose to hang out with.

People like to believe that the sense of right and wrong is based in religion. That unless you believe in god, there is nothing to compel you to "be nice." I don't believe that's true. Or desire to be "good" comes from the bond we have with those who keep us safe, happy, and warm. Usually a mother. If we have bonded with our mother we always want to please her, otherwise the safety and happiness might go away. We continue to follow the direct, indirect, and instinctive dictates of our early upbringing even though we intellectually understand that we are no longer dependent. There have been stories of Romanian orphans who never had a chance to bond with anyone and were subsequently adopted by American families with disastrous results. They "know" right from wrong, but there's nothing to compel them to actually follow it. They didn't learn to bond, so now they just don't care. They still wanted love, but everything they did shattered the prospect or, at the very least, made it extremely difficult.

Anyway, in the present day your family thinks your religious upbringing should have made you an acceptable human being. Since you're not, according to them, there's something wrong with you. Some pathology, some trauma, some illness must be responsible. Honestly, I think it's just a delayed reaction to how you were raised in those extremely important formative years. You said you are only now acting out what you've felt all along. I can congratulate you on being true to yourself. Under other circumstances it would be admirable. But regardless of who or what is at fault, your "self" is damaged and probably shouldn't be so blindly followed. There, I just saved you a lot of money. Too bad knowing what the problem is does nothing to fix it. Good luck.

Luke's Weekend on Stradbroke Island

I spent my weekend on an island 20 miles outside of Brisbane - Stradbroke Island. It is 20 miles long and eight miles wide at its widest point. About 3500 people live there. I finished the book "Schindler's List," and "The mayne Inheritance," about a murderer in Brisbane's past, and have started on E.M. Forster's "Howards End."

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Luke Gets Mail

DoneDone@aol.com writes: Oh my f---ing god. I am watching this MTV special on porn, and there is a crazy piece on Jim South. Luke, you have to be kidding me??!!?!? This guy is f---ing nuts. Hes not cool, nice, good looking, nothing...yet he controls 75% the flow of all porn chicks into the industry!? I am appalled. Then they show Sharon Mitchell, Ed Powers, Chloe...None of these people are very hot. The hottest chick on the whole special is Brooke Ashley, and shes got the hiv. But seriously, Jim South....that is amazing.

Ben writes: Hi Luke Buddy, Luke!I just cannot let them do this to you.YOUR SANE BUDDY, I would reject Dr. R's therapy. Don't let the Dr. distress you with imaginings.Many fears are born of fatigue and very poor therapy. You should always ask a few questions of your psychiatirst first before you place yourself in his or her care. (eg.) If your driving down the freeway in LA,and you throw out a TACO BELL BAG and turn up the RAP MUSIC What does this mean? If his or her answer is,say " ANTI SOCIAL" you will know the Dr. is behind the times. The right answer we all know,is:- That car that is tailgating you,is a car high jacker and when they hear the rap and see the bag go out the window,they know your from around,and know not to f--- with you, you may be packing. I also have a cure for your low self esteem and the need for reinforcement,plus it helps your ego. Try and find a chick that SWALLOWS while your on holidays.Those types that spit it out are very hard on the male ego and will set you back years.Your going to find it hard to have any self esteem with those types. Luke,I want you to have no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.Have a great time down there.

Stacy writes: Hi Luke It'a Crystal White! I was on Howard I was the Balloon Girl on Monday night on "E". My friend Jon just showed me your website address. Pretty cool. You are like a Howard on the net. Better than the Enquirer.

Galifrey@aol.com writes: Luke- I have a question about all these freaks who keep writing in to your website endlessly analyzing the minutia of your life... and my question is purely an aesthetic one: Why do they continually say your name in every sentence? If they're writing to you, you've already been identified. And yet, most of these people mention your name in practically every sentence on every line. For instance: "What you need to worry about Luke, is to focus more on what you want, Luke, and that is why, Luke, you need to write more, Luke...etc. etc." This is just an example. Is your name that catchy? Is it like "Jake" or "Jack" or other one syllable names that just cry out to be used in every sentence? Would you be as successful if your real first name was something other then Luke, less easily pronounced, like Boris, Ephraim, Englebert, etc.? I realize this is a shallow observation, but one that may be highly relevant to the ongoing search not only for your own psychological issues, but those of your readers as well.

GreatScott writes: sexaddict here- Your niece is way off base here with the patriarchal politics polemics. I would believe FBI profilers, people who professionally hunt serial killers and also interview the caught ones for insight, over cited academic references.

The profilers say that patterns of abuse and anger set many of their sick needs in motion. Each serial killer has a very specific style in their murders which they cannot help because of their obsessions. The obsessions stem from personal events, not a general need to put women down. The women are targets often due to personal power issues that these men have, many with their mothers. Also, serial killers are into getting a high from their murders and therefore are careful in their methodology so they can keep on murdering. Their targets are therefore weak and easy prey, such as women and children.

Nice try with the feminist silliness, Lukeniece, and it's nice that you got a 7, but trying to force politics onto an essentially psychiatric/criminal matter is not only intellectually dishonest, but would get more people killed while inaccurate profiles circulated. Hope you get streetwise or get another career path.

Alan Watts writes: Peter Hayes attributes Luke's failures as a journalist to inexperience. I say Luke is a rank amateur and homespun bulls--- artist.

Here's what celeb/attorney Gerry Spence has to say about bulls---ters like Luke in his bestseller How to Argue and Win Every Time:

"THE BULLs--- ARTIST: But if we do not prepare,(Luke), if we do not know the facts intimately, our only alternative is to fake it or admit we don't know. Those who peddle bulls---(there is no more descriptive word for it) are fixtures of American society. The bulls--- artist often occupies important positions, from the White House to the television studio. He abounds on Madison Avenue. His stock in trade is hype, rhetoric, and the verbal mirage. He is sometimes accepted, sometimes adored--but not for long. He is always exposed, and in the end he can win no arguments. He victimizes himself when he fills in factual voids with specious constructions. Eventually he cannot identify fact from fiction...and his argument will finally prove to be as incredible as he."

I'd also like to put in a few words of encouragement for XXX: I don't know you, Christi, and don't care to, I don't even know what you look like...but I'm on your side, babe. Don't worry about that stupid TV interview (just don't take THE DRUGS next time). Hurry up and get home now so you will be ready to kick Luke F-rd's ass all over town...you're going to win and win big. Love ya Christi!

Luke, I realize you are probably bristling for revenge against me and your family members for attempting to intervene. I'm outta here, all aliases, permanently, kaput. Of course, there's really no reason why I should care about you, your family, or anything related... This is my final e-mail all aliases. You will never hear from me again, I promise, it was nuts of me ever to contact you in the first place. You'll have to do your own writing from now on... Good luck, bad luck, whatever.

Alan Watts writes: I'd like to address the following to Luke's family, who tried so desperately and futilely these weeks to come to some understanding of Luke, and finally intervened with medical testing as a last resort.

We all thought psychology/medicine was the answer, but ultimately it comes down to choice. Sometimes the best way to understand a problem is from the inside out, and having corresponded personally with Luke over the past 6 months or so, I feel I have come to my own final understanding of what motivates Luke, and what l-keford.com ultimately means to him, and I would just like to share it with you, for whatever relief it may hopefully provide.

I originally saw Luke on TV. After visiting his site, I thought it was all a joke, an act, but eventually I realized that he really is a dysfunctional, mentally ill person as advertised. But now I realize that all my previous attempts at understanding Luke really missed the point.

The "point" I am making, my own solution to the Luke F-rd question, is that LUKE HAS FOUND HIS SWEETSPOT, HIS NICHE, HIS CONNECTION TO THE MONEY.

True, he's also found his connection to the attention and other psychological motivations that are so obvious to all of us, but the critical thing to understand in all the smoke and mirrors is that LUKE HAS SUCCESSFULLY HONED IN ON A PROFIT-MAKING NICHE IN THE SEX INDUSTRY.

Say what you will, think what you will about Luke, he has zeroed in on his profit center and HE IS THERE TO STAY, LIKE A BEE TO THE HONEY. Journalism really has nothing to do with it, ego/celebrity misses the point, mental illness is irrelevant, as are pornography, sex, writing, Judaism, and even controversy and all the other smoke and mirrors, because what Luke really provides to the sex industry is FREE PUBLICITY in return for keeping him in the loop, and in turn this information/publicity exchange keeps him connected and in business.

It's all totally obvious once you get past the emotional issues. Luke was successful in winning mainstream TV and media attention for the sex industry, period. And the sex industry for its part will keep coming to Luke EVEN IF HE WERE THE DEVIL, all for the free publicity. There are NO other important side issues, period. That's what Luke F-rd is really all about, staying connected to his "sweetspot", his profit-center, his niche.

Take a look at the quality of Luke's journalism, it's transparent bulls---... Look at the quality of the writing and writers...again pathetic, you won't learn anything here. Luke's Judaism may or may not be real to him, it really doesn't matter, it's just his personal diary, something to keep his name going on his site, it attracts only a few interested chatroom buddies.

Look at the chatroom characters on this site...pathetic and uninteresting, in fact, they're irritatingly immature, unattractive people. NONE OF IT MATTERS. Luke has MADE HIS CONNECTION (TO PROFIT), he has identified a real, genuine profit-making sweetspot, he's got his probiscus in, and that's where he's going to stay.

I admit I was snookered by the drama of a mentally ill person running his own website. In the end, is Luke in fact CERTIFIABLY debilitated by mental illness to the point of being unemployable? Yes, that's what the psychiatrist Dr. R said this week, and, on that basis alone, he no doubt legally qualifies for disability payments, but again, that is all perfectly irrelevant to the real discussion of Luke and his sweetspot, which he will never, never leave. That's Luke's choice for Luke, now you must make yours, realizing full well that Luke has no reason nor motivation to change. Good luck, folks!

Goddess writes: Luke, I can't believe you didn't take Chaim on vacation with you!! He's probably the only true friend you have (wink, wink), and you're making him work his ass off while you lounge around, having CAT scans for the sheer hell of it. BTW, what the HELL is a digeridoo??? and can you bring one back for Gene, please?

Luke: It is a long skinny wood pipe that you blow. It is an Aboriginee instrument that makes a weird sort of music.

Goddess writes: And, hey, Luke!! Don't forget to bring back a present for Mike South, too. How 'bout one of those boxing kangaroos?? I think Mike needs to get his clock cleaned a few times

Does Syntax Error Expose Chaim?

Chaim: “…Not that you are blameless in all this. I seem never to have learned the meaning of discretion, of maintaining certain useful fictions and omissions about yourself to make your life more palatable…”

Lynne writes: Dear Luke:

I take it your family isn’t thrilled by your career choice. Actually that was my mother’s first question when I explained that I wasn’t interested in dating because there was someone serious back in Los Angeles, from THAT business. “Maybe he’s ready to get out, too.”

Remember what I told you when I drove up here last time I called you in tears? That I didn’t feel being up here was my choice, that it was the result of XYZ’s actions? I finished the movie, achieved a sense of closure, and the drive became one long panoramic postcard, every second a prettier shot than the last. When you are ready to do something else, you will.

All this kicking and screaming on the part of your parents and their friends makes it impossible for you to make a clear decision on your own, and so, even if you were inclined to make a change now, you can’t. You’ll never know if it was your decision. They could be complaining that you won’t join the Hitler Youth, and that it embarrasses them and hurts them therefore you should do it! People complain that Jews are pushy, but Christian fundamentalists “take the cake.” I don’t know what they do with it - apparently not eat it.

Speaking of Christian fundamentalists… Dear LPLCOBE: Please don’t worry about Jesus and Satan battling over my soul. They are busy fighting in much bigger arenas. Anyway, they’re your metaphors for what I refer to as the spiritual and the carnal (or corporeal, which is probably a better word). And we’ve yet to agree on a common concept for “soul.” Luke is already on the side of God. I am not.

I don’t worship Luke - I don’t follow him. If Luke and God get together and decide to make something special of my feelings for Luke, I’m sure Luke will let me know. But as to a mutual ministry for Christ in Southern California, to save the lost sheep of the fornication factory? I think not. I attempted to minister to those particular lost sheep for ten years and have decided to move on to four-legged sheep in a rural environment.

Perhaps, out of love and devotion to me, Luke will abandon his website and return to school in Oregon, renew his relationship with his parents and make a good Jew of me. Yours in Ecumenical Devotion, Lynne

This new letter from Gillian is a little more insightful than last year’s but I’m still appalled that it was written at all. Luke, I learned things about you in that letter that you choose not to discuss with me, and I felt ASHAMED.

Here’s what I want: PLEASE pull the plug on it until you get back. I AM trying to quit porn, which is what your family says they want of you. But instead of having your support through my tough transition, paying attention to people’s reactions and concentrating on what I need for myself, I’m standing by helplessly watching a pack of wild dingoes tear you apart. I rarely raise my voice but, out of DEFERENCE TO ME, EVERYBODY (including me) who is busy telling the world what to think of Luke F-rd NEEDS TO CARRY ON THIS ASSAULT AT A MORE APPROPRIATE TIME.

I’m driven to balance out the “karma:” for every three pages of disturbance in the force, I need to create three pages of love just to keep even. NOT NOW, PLEASE!!!!!

Luke, please post a “Gone Fishin’” sign for the remainder of your Australian stay and enjoy a well-earned vacation. You are undoubtedly valuable to your family although they have a funny way of showing it. If not valuable to the porn industry, you have at least been good entertainment. To me you are irreplaceable. Honored as always to know such an amazing man as you, Luke.

Best Regards, Lynne

P.S.: Maybe you ought to have the laugh trademarked?

P.S.S.: “They” gave women the vote because they thought we’d be just as easy to scam as the men are….

I Still Love You, You Asshole

Lynne writes: Dear Luke:

I never asked you to be perfect. Someone has to put the "condition" in "unconditional." No one has to worship the water you walk on -- just let you be one of the fallible rest of us.

I just got back on line. I was rear-ended on my way to check out the college, so I stopped at the insurance agent.... I guess I'll go to the college tomorrow. I should be okay. (I am glad to see that the accident theory of sex madness and mental illness has been laid to rest. I was afraid whiplash was going to give me uncontrollable shopping binges.)

I was just sitting at an intersection, waiting to make a right turn and WHAMMO. (One more sentence beginning with "I" and I can be a narcissist, too.)

Good to hear you're reading. For a change I am not. I've not had the time. I'm sure there will plenty of reading, soon enough. I might go read something now. Driving and sleeping and worrying about you. Unpacking and worrying about you.

I have nothing nice to say about your family at this point. If I were a "decent woman," I would be offended not only by your website but also by the spectre of a mother-in-law who feels the need to prove her son is mad. I'm not "decent" and I am offended. Your whole situation sounds so alienating and depressing. Stranger in a strange land, surrounded by hostile natives. It will take a while to heal from this sojourn.

I can't keep up with your website. I don't really want to now. I just want my nice, normal, neurotic Lukey back in one piece. I don't want to be on a pedestal. I don't want to be "idealized." I just want to be your friend, and make you smile, and some day be in the same room with you and maybe even share a few worldshattering orgasms with you. The thrill isn't gone -- it's just waiting for you to get back to the sacred. Please let me know you're all right. I miss you so much.

Regards, Lynne

Meanwhile, I'm very happy with the RESPECT and ATTENTION you give me...

Lynne writes: Thank you for the photos. You look like Donny Osmond. In the movie, you are totally mussed up and half asleep and you look so stunningly gorgeous. If you had never been interested in porno, I would never have met you, and we could never go off together ministering Christ's love to fallen fornicators or anything else. If you had not identified yourself as a Jew, I would never have given you a second look. "My, my, there's a pretty little jewboy wandering around my set... I'm the producer, dammit, and I want one!"

Luke, I would like to address this to Alan Watts, your mom and sister: Alan, when Luke first mentioned that he was going to Australia, and that part of the programme was to examine his desire to write about pornography, I snorted, "But there's nothing wrong with you!" At the time it seemed like the whole issue had the potential to be funny. After all this angst, I don't feel that it's funny.

It sounds like Gillian and Elenne will be very disappointed (though it was an ill-conceived plan from the beginning), and I'm distraught at seeing my FRIEND treated so harshly by the very people who are supposed to be loving and accepting of him. Plus the timing was awful. I am glad we now have your permission to drop the psychology and discuss real issues.

1. Confront Luke with the pain -- believe me, Luke knows how you feel. He'll turn away, or make a noncommittal statement, but he won't stop what he's doing for it, any more than we stop disciplining a child because the child is unhappy about it. You now reap what you sowed many years ago regarding Luke's sexuality. He'll stop being a porno commentator when it can be his own decision. He's a very sensitive man. He knows you hurt about this issue, and he isn't happy about it, but things are not changing this week. Making a career change is a tricky move and asking someone to throw one's life up in the air and expect it to come down beautifully arranged is unrealistic. I was happy to hear Luke had the chance to visit Australia, but the money you spent on the trip might have been better saved until Luke is ready to do something else and needs financial help to make the change.

2. LUKE IS NOT A PORNOGRAPHER. ALAN, ARE YOU A PORNOGRAPHER? WHY ARE WE YELLING? I was a pornographer, Luke comments on the adult industry. And I don't know how one could hide behind Judaism -- there's no magic underwear for Jew pornographers. A pornographer creates and distributes sexually explicit material aimed at sexually arousing the consumer. At best, Luke F-rd documents that material. He is the first one to do so from the layman's perspective and considering his competition over the years (there has been very little) he's good at it. PORNOGRAPHERS DON'T CONSIDER LUKE A PORNOGRAPHER. Why should his family? Because it makes it easier to disapprove what he does with PORNOGRAPHER sewn to his sleeve like a Star of David during the Holocaust?

3. I am very proud of Luke. MY FRIEND LUKE IS THE FIRST PERSON TO DOCUMENT THE ADULT INDUSTRY AND TO ATTEMPT TO TELL THE TRUTH ABOUT IT AS IF IT WERE JUST ONE MORE INDUSTRY. Not that he knows the truth or even gets most of his stories right, but he tries, which is more than anyone else has for years. YOUR SON IS NOT A PORNOGRAPHER. YOUR BROTHER IS NOT A PORNOGRAPHER. Even if he were, we don't eat children and Elenne has only to worry about the attitude she demonstrates to her children, to let them know that, even if they do something undesirable like Uncle Lukey, she will still love them.

How does a Christian minister end up with a son who is fascinated by pornography? Maybe now that chemical imbalance and frontal lobe disturbance have been ruled out, Gillian & Elenne and Desmond can look back at their lives and see how circumstances molded Luke into whatever he's become and accept this as part of God's unknowable plan, instead of complaining about how unhappy they are with it.

Luke flaunting his sexual lifestyle in pornography? Hardly! Luke barely has a lifestyle, let alone one in pornography. He has a website as a vicarious excuse for a life. And how can you say Luke has no sense of shame? If that's true, he obviously got it from his family, who seem to feel no shame at informing strangers that maybe fallout from Chernobyl made Luke crazy. If this is a true expression of unconditional Christian love, please, stay far, far away from me!

[Luke: My family never wanted me to disseminate their letters and concerns on this website. They offered me the trip to Australia and the opportunity to consult with doctors, and I welcomed and accepted the opportunity. I am having a lovely time down under. First time with my big sister in nine years...]

I AM A PORNOGRAPHER, and what XXX writes about Luke embarrasses me. Things Luke and I barely discuss privately she shares with strangers. Maybe whatever shame Luke felt over his sexuality as a young man is being returned to his family four-fold. I do know Luke feels shame. I've seen it. Luke and I have tried so hard for so long not to hurt each other, because it feels bad to do it. For me it is easy not to hurt Luke, but Luke must struggle to keep hold of his ethics. Perhaps some day Luke and his family will come to the same arrangement. If I, as a pornographer, can love Luke unconditionally, surely a Christian minister's family could do a much better job.

Luke is well aware of the "shameful realities of his choice to be a pornographer." But on one hand, you write that Luke should be dead to preserve his family from shame, and then you ask for help in changing him. I'm hoping Luke thinks it's all a sick joke, because I'm not amused, I'm horrified. If Luke's family longs for reconciliation with him, they sure have a brutal way of going about it.

Alan, you suggested a few days back that I should "dump Luke" because he is an "asshole." As I mentioned, Luke and I have a deal -- we don't get to be assholes to one another or the friendship's off. And according to Gillian, Luke will dump ME when he's finished using me. But please follow through on your threat, Alan, and give up on Luke. You don't enjoy being "just one of the many silly cartoon characters" on his site, so since you can't play nice with us, go find another show.

Luke, I like Alan's idea that you tell your family that you are sorry, you're driven to do what you do, and hug and cry and so forth. They did try very hard to reach you. They are as misguided as you are. Things will be better in a few years.

This is also Alan's: "If you truly feel you can't change your choice for a career in pornography, tell them so, and also tell them how very sorry you are that it causes such pain, and that you are therefore willing to accept whatever consequences this choice brings in terms of your family relationships."

If that would lead your family to "dump you," I will be continue to be angry at them and very sad for you. You try so hard to keep one foot outside porn, which they don't see. They don't see the part of you that disavows your work on a daily basis. They don't see the conflict between you wanting to be accepted for yourself, as a nice normal guy (which you aren't, but never mind) and your compartmentalized work. That your strongest ties are not to the porno industry but to what came before and to what will come after.

If Luke is a professional pornographer, I am a flying gerbil. Luke isn't even an amateur pornographer. Why should Luke lie to his parents? Don't lie to your parents, Lukey, lying is wrong even when gurus say otherwise. Luke is a commentator on the adult industry. Professional, only because there's money involved. His style is often amateurish and his journalism questionable. Did Walter Winchell apologize to his parents? Hedda Hopper?

As one of my new friends said to me today, in reference to my having to explain what I did as I go through matriculation, if it wasn't illegal and didn't involve children, it's no one's business. It wasn't, it didn't and it's not. Luke's a brilliant, unconventional, charismatic man, and far better to love him for himself than to wish he could be someone else, because it isn't going to happen.

Chaim Amalek writes: Luke, Laura attempted to smother your rising racial consciousness by noting that certain populations of asians score higher on intelligence tests than whites. Since Laura apparently concedes that there are differences in over-all levels of native intelligence ("g", as the psychometricians call it, by whichever test one might use) among asians, whites, and blacks, and since not even she is willing to deny that there are also corresponding differences in levels of violence among these groups, is she not a racist? Lots of New York Jews are. (Not for nothing do these clannish, mostly godless folk, choose to live amongst their own kind in New York, even though they could obtain much cheaper housing in the darker quarters of town.)

Nici Sterling Mysteries

Nici Sterling says the following story, and the ones similar to it that have circulated, are rubbish.

XXX writes: A few months ago I was hanging out on the IRC on a channel called impregnationsex. I guy is on there and we get to talking. He wants his wife to get pregnant to get citizenship and to get her in the wonderful world of porn. He says he is a Kmart manager and originally from somewhere in Eastern Europe(I forget where it is in my IRC logs). He wants her to get into extreme European stuff(dogs and whatever). He plans on sending his wife to me alone. We exchange pictures and emails. The pics he sends are of a fairly hot looking girl. He then gives me a phone number. He claims to be in Colorado. The number turns out to be an answering maching in California of one Nici Sterling.

I do a little checking because I don't know who Nici Sterling is. I read a few fan pages, the pictures look like the same woman, but not tarted up. There is also something I read about her having been to Colorado. I figure I am dealing with a wack job, call Ms. Sterling's residence and warn her there is somebody using pictures of her, etc and leave my name and phone number. Just doing a good turn. I tell him via email he is full of s--- and that if he keeps it up I'll break his ass. End of story one.

The other night I am back on the same IRC channel. Met another guy looking to get his old lady knocked up. This time he is in California. Sends me a picture of her. Its the same one I got before. I say, "Hey you pulled this s--- a few months ago only you said you were from Colorado then. blah, blah, blah." He says, "Wow! Good memory.". He then confesses to being Nici's husband, this is his fantasies etc. Sometimes she is in on it. Sends picture of him and Nici from what I take as their wedding. It is all a big joke to him, even when people are making long distance calls to warn his wife. HA f---ing HA. End of story two.

Now I read through your site and saw that some European porn producer was getting emails and I think the general consensus was that it was some deranged fan with heavy duty fantasies. I'm pretty sure its a deranged hubby, with heavy duty fantasies and possibly a deranged pornstar.

Don't know how much documentation I have. Certainly the latest pictures and all the IRC logs. Don't know about the past pics or the email exchanges. They may have been deleted. As I said I don't know if this is old hat and a well known thing in your industry. If it was of interest the logs would have to be edited to remove my nickname and email address. As I said I don't know if it is a worthy story or not. Let me know.

Breaking Racial Barriers On The Days Of Awe

Emmett writes: First I thought Jackie Chan was trying to break racial barriers with films like "Rumble in the Bronx" and "Rush Hour"... but then there is Martial Law with Arsenio Hall and now Jet Li with Allyiah in "Romeo Must Die". Perhaps I am looking into it too much... but Chris Tucker was a 'side-kick monkey man' for the super-hero Jackie Chan, Arsenio Hall is a side-kick with the "black-with-an-attitude problem", and all Jet Li fights in "Rome Must Die" is black thugs. I don't know which is worst, black porn or blockbuster movies featuring black people. Perhaps both are equal. Each side f---s black people over to s---.

Chaim Amalek writes: Luke, when you picked this time of year for your trip to Australia, were you aware that you would be missing out on the culmination of Secular Hollywood Jewery's Days of Awe - the days leading up to the Academy Awards? It is on this evening that the goyim and jews huddle around their television sets to see which millionaire actor's name is inscribed in the Book of Popularity for the year to come. And to think, you could have been there (or at least within flash-bulb distance of our God-like Celebrity Class).

This Emmett fellow is on to something. I saw that "Romeo Must Die". And no, he is not looking into it too much. The Negroes of this flick are either fat fools, or just meat for the asiatic kung fu artists to chew up and spit out. I am afraid that this is a harbinger of things to come, as immigration brings more and more people not sufficiently sympathetic to black history to our shores. (And this is a weirdly chaste movie, too. Jet Lee has a hot black love interest, but not once do their lips meet.)

Chaim Amalek - "The Hardest Working Man on l-keford.Com"

PS This job is a breeze! No wonder you will not let go of it!

BrandyAlx1: I posted a picture of my boobs to the PsT newsgroup mostly because I knew it was against the FAQ--you aren't allowed to ask about me or post any of my pictures or something. Anyway, a bunch of lurkers loved it and we're thinking of starting "The 13.4 Club," the paragraph that bans me.

Laura writes to Chaim Amalek, who's been courting her: "To answer Chaim Amalek's question's no I am not a racist just because I noted that Asian's score higher on tests than white's. Furthermore I don't live in NY nor am I a clannish Jew. None of my neighbor's are Jewish, my neighborhood is ethnically mixed."

Johnny Castano

Longhard writes: I was driving through Las Vegas after finishing some "work" out in LA. A friend of mine, who will remain unnamed, told me to call this old dude to pick up a quick 100.00 for some solo pictures... said it would only take an hour. This guy sounded like death over the phone but I figured what the hell, 100 bucks is a 100 bucks. I drove over to his house and almost fell over when this hunched over little troll answered the door.

This house looked like a throwback from the sixties porn days. s---ty as they were, pictures of girls he shot adorn the walls. He wouldn't shut up for two seconds and kept bragging about all of the parties he used to go to and all of the models he used to f---. He showed me some of the magazines who publish his stuff and then took me in to a back bedroom where he keeps his computer. He bragged about having a bunch of email names and sending threating stuff to anyone who he didn't like. He told me he's ratted on other porn people when they got on his bad side. All of this in the first ten minutes of meeting this guy. what a LOSER.

I wanted to get back on the road (I live in phoenix) so I asked if we could get started. First thing he did once I was naked was ask me if he could suck my cock for an extra 20.00. I've done jerk off photos before but NEVER done any gay stuff. I told him I didn't do that and then he asked me to f--- him in the as. I couldn't get my clothes on fast enough. As I was walking, running, to the door, he said he'd give me 50.00 to piss in his mouth. I stopped in my tracks. It was the easiest 50.00 I've ever made. He laid down right on the living room floor and I pissed away. He said not to worry about it spilling over on to the carpet...vinegar would take care of the smell...Now I know what the smell was when I walked in ten minutes earlier. Gross!!! So hey guys, if you;re ever in Vegas and need an extra fifty, just call Johnny. His phone number is in the back of City Life Magazine.

New writes: When is Lexington Steele going to do his own movies, staring him of course. He is a very talented cock and should pursue this while it's one of the hardest in the business. He's making Devils Films, Anabolic, Jack Steed, etc., very rich. I've never seen him in an interview however, maybe he is not so bright. Lately his being mumbling "Monsters, Ha HA" a lot (smile). I would love to see a movie thru his eyes. Go Lex Go