The Adult Industry Medical Healthcare Foundation is now AIM Medical Associates P.C.- Doors are open and the clinic is better than ever!
Van Nuys, CA – Thursday, February 3rd, AIM (formerly Adult Industry Medical Healthcare Foundation) re-opened for full services. According to Sharon Mitchell, AIM CEO "We’re up and running and here to stay!" Mitchell emphasized, "Yes, we’re back and still providing the same important services for early detection HIV, STDs (testing and treatment), doctor visits, and general health check- ups. From Pap smears, to Pelvic exam, we continue to provide the same stellar service in a one-stop visit." AIM’s counseling and referral services are available by appointment as usual. AIM-Med.org offers online testing throughout the USA. AIM provides services for the sexually active person to be as safe as possible while enjoying work or play. "Our outlook has been and always will remain, Sexual Health in Body, Mind, Emotion, and Spirit."
As the doors re-opened on the clinic there was one big change, "The Adult Industry Medical Healthcare Foundation" is now "AIM Medical Associates P.C." a private corporation. Visitors to the clinic will experience only improvements in the day to day client services provided by AIM. The change in the corporate status of AIM will now allow for the evolution into the vision begun 13 years ago. Relieved from pointless harassment that came with oversight from the County Health Department, the new AIM more appropriately is responsible to the California Medical Association. AIM plans to provide more services, both on the internet and in house, and continue its relationships with current clients while welcoming new ones.
"We at AIM would like to take the opportunity to thank our Board of Directors for their commitment to the mission, serving without compensation, despite unfair adversities. Also our attorneys, CPA, and the Staff who have been invaluable especially in these last 55 days to get us here and now. Most of all, AIM would like to thank you, our clients who kept us going these last two months. Through your support, we knew that we would once again look forward to this day, and being of service to you. Thank you."
Sharon Mitchell PH.D.
CEO, AIM Medical Associates P.C.
(818) 981-5681 Ph – (818) 981-3851 Fx
www.AIM-Med.org
So,
Who, besides me of course, knows the answer to the million dollar question?
Who owns the new private corporation known as AIM Medical Associates, and who are the ‘associates?’
How did all of the assets of AIM Healthcare end up as the property of the new for porfit clinic?
Your tests are no longer tax decuctible.
Is AIM still charging producers for access to test results?
What makes the new AIM think that California Medical Association is going to stand by and let a pro profit clinic charge money to third parties for access to HIV results? Only in porn.
I respect AIMs decision to change their status to a “for profit” organization. When is AHF going to do the same? They’re making a hell of a lot more money than AIM ever did, “profit” or not.
Sharon Mitchell PhD…that’s funny, worth as much as Seth Dickens U of Phoenix diploma
There needs to be a NEW entity / organization all together independent of both AIM and the AHF to take care of the physical AND psychological needs of performers.
I do believe AIM is trying and has done their best, but there are some lingering issues. I also think the AHF has good intent but that was a BAD move teaming up with Lubben (even if only on certain issues).
I hate to say it, but I actually feel the government may need to step in temporarily at this stage.
Performers need a union. Its ridiculous. Sports leagues have them, mainstream Hollywood has them–why not adult performers? There needs to be some kind of collective action strike so that performers get more rights. The level of disease is ridiculous and most girls age 10 years while only performing for just a couple.
@origen LOL – a union? And stop the madness? In an ideal world that would be great idea, I actually thought that was what LATATA was leading up to. Is LATATA even still active? Christian had faith in it according to the site’s fundraising effort.
Monica,
Just the fact that you have to ask if LATAA is still active shows how ineffective they are. If it wasnt for this site and one or two others nobody in the industry would even know that LATATA ever existed.
LATATA’s fundraising efforts LOLOLOL
Raising money off of the backs of talent to pay lawyers to defend producers. Now there is a worthy cause. Only in porn.
This press release states..”AIM-MED.org offers online testing throughout the USA.”
So does AIM Healthcare Foundation still exist? Where does the money from the online testing go, to the new for profit clinic. How does this private clinic get away with using the ‘non profit’ AIM website to test people? And how did all of the assets of AIM Foundation end up in the hands of this private corporation? FOLLOW THE MONEY!!
It is hilarious how the industry attacks these other organizations, but turns a blind eye to the shenanigans of their own industry. A health clinic that advocates unprotected sex with prostitutes, only in porn. I wonder how the California Medical Association is going to react to one of its members advocating unprotected sex with prostiutes?
On 2nd thought @origen I think attempting to put together a union within the porn industry is a great idea – and I’m on it. Anyone else who wants to get involved can contact me.
Afterall, if a braindead wackjob like Dr. Rick Fitzgibbons can manage to brainwash a group of people to scam money from well meaning people of the Catholic Church in the name of “saving pornstars from the devil” in an effort to push his own hateful agenda – surely I along with the help of other people who genuinely care about others in a realistic and healthy way can manage to piece together a union.
Do not ever address me on here again Lubben aka Joe Know or anywhere else for that matter.
R U now saying that Shelley Lubben = Joe Know, Monica? This is right up there along with your sizism theories in terms of brilliance!
@jeremy – I’ve already identified many of Lubben’s Judas Goats on this board and others. Our side has what Lubben lovingly calls “snitches and double agents” too. But, really, all it takes is one. One reliable source who’s got names and dates and emails to back it up. One whose conscience got to him/her. The intelligence is flowing — because these guys leave a very clumsy trail.
There’s no way “Joe Know” is Shelley Lubben, Michael.
I never claimed that to be so, Jeremy.
The issue, in any case, is not “who” but “what” the posters in question are.
You didn’t. Monica did.
Just keeping the record straight.
@Monica,
Wasnt it YOU, Monica, a few weeks ago who was so concerned about your real name, and those of your family beingostedon the internet. You were very concerned, and righfully so,about your safety and the safety of your family.
Over the last few years I have posted on several boards, and more often than not the subject of alot of the threads I have participated in has been, :Who is this guy, where does he get this info, and there have even been times when ‘rewards’ were offered to anyone who could ‘out’ me.
MONICA, why do you think these people are trying tofind my real identity, to send me Christmas cards. I dont think so. Whyis it that you will take legal action to keep yours and your family names off theinternet, then call me a coward for posting under an alias.
MONICA, dont you think if my identity were known that I would be in the same boat as your releatives. People arent trying to find my real identity so they can be my friends. You know as well as I do that only negative things would happen to me if my identy were known. About three years ago there was a thrad on GFY about who is this poster. It had over 35 direct threats, and had over 250 total comments, including offeres of rewards for my real identity.
MONICA, why do you think someone would offer a reward for my real identity? What do youthink they would do with that information?
And as usual, when you cant win the debate at hand, you make ad hominem attacks against your opponent, a tactic that hasnt stopped me for over five years now.
ps. MONICA,
DO NOT EVER ADDRESS ME AGAIN WITH YOUR HYPOCRITCAL ACCUSATIONS OF COWARDICE. IT IS THOSE WHO THREATEN ME WHO ARE THE COWARDS. IF MY WORDS UPSET YOU, BECUASE THEY ARE TRUTHFUL, THEN SO BE IT. I HAVE BEEN THREATENED SEVERAL TIMES AND IT DOESNT STOP ME.
Actually, go ahead and keep addressing me, just as I will keep addressing you. If you dont like what I have to say ignore it, or stick it up your ass(isnt that what you do for a living)
If someone isn’t a coward, then they should have entered this industry with their real names from day one. Don’t call anyone a coward when you’ve been the coward since day one. Don’t call anyone a coward fro trying to protect themselves & their families. What’s being done to you now is what would be done to the anonymous ones. When the anonymous ones have been threatened for years with threats of rape and even death, that’s why we continue to stay anonymous.
If you’re not a coward, post on your website right now your real name, address, phone number, other personal information, the names of your family, address, phone number, criminal records, and all their personal information. If you’re not willing to do that right now, then you’re the coward. We stay anonymous because that’s what would happen to us and exactly what’s being done to you now by that forum.
If you’re not a coward, why is your Twitter now a protected page and after you blocked many of your loyal followers?
You were warned about the person behind that forum. You saw no problem going to a sexist, racist, and homophobic forum. You didn’t seem to care what that forum was doing to all the women they were harassing. You only began having a problem after they did the SAME EXACT THING to you now. Not a single person in this entire industry registered for an account there except for you. Not a single person in this entire industry went to that forum as the name we all know them as. YOU are the only person in this industry who went there and became an active member. You saw no problem with what they were doing to all the women there and you never stood up for any of those women and you never defended them. You cried & wanted sympathy only after they started doing to you the SAME EXACT THING they had been already doing to everyone else.
You’re losing every friend and supporter you ever had and you’re now the laughing stock in front of the entire industry. You attack and accuse people with these wild accusations when they’ve never done a single thing to you except try to help you. The people you attack and accuse are the people who thought you were a friend and were there for you trying to help you throughout all this time. What’s being done to you now by that forum was brought on by you. You should never have gone there and you were repeatedly warned about him.
You also shouldn’t accuse people with your wild accusations even after that person became a bigger target by that forum because she was defending you.
who the hell is Darrah talking to? lol Want to include a subject besides “you”…
It’s certainly easy, Ms. Ford, for you to be perched wherever the hell it is you live, NOT being a performer, and never having to face the cruelty and prejudice of everyday people who follow your pal Mrs. Lubben’s philosophy that ALL people in porn are sick, diseased, mentally ill, drug-infested, morally bankrupt and demon-possessed, to call performers cowards.
Shame on you!
Setting aside the fact that people often change their names to make them sound more appealing (Tom Cruise = Thomas Cruise Mapother IV), your argument (if one can call it that) neglects to consider the FACT that there exist REAL sexual deviants, rapists and stalkers out there, who can be and are drawn by sex “celebrities.”
But you’ll never have to suffer that because no one thinks enough of you.
I wonder why someone with so much venom for so many people in this industry would inject herself (quite needlessly, pointlessly and haplessly) into it with such vigor? I wonder . . .
Right Origen, who’s “you”? I think Joe Know and Darrah should have a love child; name it Retardo Montalban.
This has nothing to do with Shelley, Michael. It’s between me and Monica. I’m just sick and tired of who I considered to be friends ending up turning on me again. Then I came here and read her comment to Joe and that’s why I said what I did. It’s people constantly attacking me or throwing accusations at me when I never did anything to them.
Then I get messages yesterday asking what happened to Monica and if she’s okay. I was like what the hell happened now and what did that forum do to her now. I logged into Twitter to read it all but I couldn’t because she blocked me, again. So I’m asking people what happened and if they could send me her tweets because she blocked me. One person asked me what did I do to Monica to make her block me. That really PISSED me off that he thought that. I came here after and read her comments to Joe and that’s when I said what I did.
It’s probably you Michael filling her head with all these conspiracy theories about “big bad Shelley” that she’s now publicly having these meltdowns and accusing a new person every other day of being behind that forum and who might be behind stalking her. From me to Cindi to Powder to one of her best friends who recently retired from porn. I don’t know you Michael and you’re probably a nice guy for all I know. But I just see it as you’re the one using everyone to further your agenda in this industry. You latch on to one former porn star to now Monica who is still in porn. To me it seems like it’s you using them to make a name for yourself in this industry.
The people I’m against are the ones who run this industry and mistreat the women in it. My venom is mostly aimed at them and me trying to inform as many women as I can to either leave porn or to be more informed & more careful.
Myself and Joe might be more rough around the edges. But we do care about the people in the industry. One person told me how he and a group of other men for years came on LIB and other blogs and forums calling female porn stars whores, sluts, tramps, and hookers so they could force these women out of porn trying to save them. He told me that if the women couldn’t handle being called that, then they shouldn’t be in porn and would be safer out of the industry.
Harvey Dent once wrote in the comments here how Luke Ford had told him the reason why he was more harsh and severe towards Teagan Presley is because he liked her and he wanted her to leave porn. So with the way he badly treated her was his way of trying to save her.
I’ve never been against porn or porn stars. I’m against the people who run the industry and how badly they treat the performers.
Joe Know and Shelley are not the same and are two completely different people.
Maybe we can be friends again Monica in the future. But nor right now. I’m saying this all here because there’s no way now of me contacting you. You blocked me on Twitter and possibly in emails too considering you never replied to my last email. Just try to stay away from the forums where most of the problems lie. I warned you about who runs the forum and you wouldn’t listen. I wish someone had warned me about XPT before I went there. Being on that forum ruined a lot of things for me which I’m still paying for now. I had to completely leave all forums for my own sanity. Stop giving them what they want = the public meltdowns. It happened to me too and they were all just sitting back laughing enjoying the show. Which is what’s happening now to you.
And what exactly is your problem with me? If you support people going on that forum, then why don’t you join too. They’re already waiting for you and looking for information on you.
@Darrah – With respect, you are wrong again. I have met Monica exactly ONE TIME — when I filmed an interview with her. I did not latch on to her — I read her written comments critical of Lubben, did some research, and then Julie Meadows (who is friendly with her, and had already interviewed her for an unrelated project) called her up and we shot an interview. Neither of us told her what to say.
Monica has a mind of her own, why do you assume I’m “filling her head” with anything? I must say, you seem to have a remarkably contemptuous, condescending view of women in this industry. To you they’re seemingly all malleable, impressionable idiots waiting to be preyed upon and have their heads filled full of lies my men. They must all be powerless to resist! I must be a mesmerist! They’re all victims! Give me a break.
As you must know, Monica is a strong-willed person with strong opinions. I have never, ever filled her head with anything (nor any other part of her, for the record; she is an acquaintance). Likewise, I have never ever shared any confidential information I have received with her — or anyone. Ever. She also has never seen any of the cuts of our documentary. Everything she knows about Lubben derives from the public domain, whatever sources she might have that are privy only to her, and whatever research she may have done. I don’t control her. I barely know her. I like her, I think she is a nice person, and she is well-spoken on camera, but I barely know the woman. I am not her, or anyone else’s, Svengali.
I am amused at your remark that I am latching on to porn stars. I’ve been around lots and lots of porn stars since I came to LA in 1993. My oldest friend in the world, whom I met when I was 9, is an ex-porn star and porn producer/director. I was financing, producing, directing and distributing movies in this business and in the softcore business (in addition to mainstream titles) long before anyone had ever heard of YOU, Darrah.
I assume you are referring to Julie Meadows as the person I’ve attached myself to. She has been a close friend since shortly after she entered the business in 1998 (after I interviewed her for an internationally syndicated feature). We also worked together a year ago on the anti-piracy PSAs which are on many, many current XXX DVDs. I had never heard of Lubben until I heard about her from Julie.
To make a name for myself? I have three movies on Pay TV right now. That’s millions and millions of views. My first feature (as a director) alone, from 2004, had 9 million views. I have enough income to work whenever I get the urge, and not otherwise. And, to make “a name” compared to whom — you? What the hell have you ever done in this industry? No offense, but I’ll stack my track record up against your any day of the week.
And you know what, although I will graciously accept the compliment, I don’t know if I’m a “nice” guy, but I’m a honest man, I’m loyal (perhaps to a fault), and I have character.
BUT, here is where you and I TOTALLY AGREE, Darrah: boards like this one ARE a magnet for sick, diseased and disordered people to vent their sickness, and to aim them at performers (not just female performers) in the adult industry. And yes, there are plenty of reprehensible people in this industry. But you know what?, I came from the corporate world and I met A LOT more freaks, abusers and drug addicts there than I ever did in the porn business. This is also a running theme that appeared in the interviews Julie and I have undertaken in the last few months. It’s not just me.
But my point about the name-calling, insults, and stereotyping is that people like your pal Shelley DO THE SAME THING — only it’s worse because SHE is pretending to help them. Saying that everyone in this business is sick, diseased, drug-infested, mentally ill, demon-possessed, etc… FOSTERS this incredibly destructive stereotype. Saying these terrible, insulting things about people in the industry, promoting these stereotypes, WILL MAKE IT HARDER FOR THESE PEOPLE TO TRANSITION OUT if and when they so choose. It doesn’t HELP them, any more than sending them a shirt with the words “Ex-Porn Star” on it, or a candle with a Pink Cross label, or a pink lip gloss will help them find a job or pay their rent. Have you ever seen the contents of a Pink Cross care package? They are ridiculous! Shameful. If you want, I’ll be happy to email you a video of Julie going through the contents one by one. Or Julie can send it to you.
In my opinion, your statement that you “care about the people in the industry” would carry a lot more weight if you repudiated people like Mrs. Lubben who exploit women in/from the industry to promote themselves.
I am sorry our first dialogue had to bear this tone, but before you put me down or accuse me of anything, Darrah, you’d better grow some gravitas. There are assholes, and then there are assholes with portfolio. I may be the latter, but you most assuredly are not.
Cordially,
MW
I never said Julie told Monica what to say or filled her head up. I’m claiming you might be the one responsible for that.
@Darrah – Your reading skills are clearly wanting.
If you can’t keep up with the conversation, you’ll have to go sit at the little kids’ table.
BUT OF COURSE — it couldn’t have been a performer (or ex-performer, in Julie’s case) — they’re all stupid victims. It MUST have been a predatory male. Where would a victimized woman even GET ideas to pass on to Monica? It HAD to be a man, right?
You are so fill of shit.
And by the way, the only person in this conversation latching on to an ex-porn star is YOU, darlin’. You threw your lot in with Lubben and now you’re stuck defending her. how does that make you feel. How do the words of defense that you utter taste to you?
A woman who calls herself the “Rebel Prophet” and has an 8 foot staff and a 24-hour a day lit altar at her home where she dances for YAHWEH.
A woman whose utter lies and fabrications and distortions are about to be debunked once and for all. By people WHO WERE THERE. And through Lubben’s OWN WORDS and inconsistent accounts.
I pity you.
I could go on and on defending myself or countering what many of you are saying about me, how I think, what I write or how I live but I won’t and here’s why.
I’m right.
Shelley Lubben is behind the harassment and cyberstalking I and my family have been dealing with and this is something that many people DO NOT want put out into the public because The Pink Cross is a money making machine at this stage (along with being in the first stages of becoming a very influencial and lucrative cult).
All anyone with half a brain has to do is read about the platform of Dr. Rick Fitzgibbons and then read the posts on the Donkey forum. All the themes match up. Dr. Rick Fitzgibbons is who most likely “healed” Shelley Lubben from her SSAD – check out how he’s listed under “resources” on the Pink Cross’s new production company Anteroompictures dot com
Deal with the truth. If you don’t like it then as another poster said, IGNORE ME. After all, what I think shouldn’t matter that much anyways now should it considering that I’m not an active talent.
Darrah asks: “And what exactly is your problem with me?”
Answer: I don’t feel much like writing a novelette, right now. To start with, you jump to conclusions like a sailor on shore leave jumps on the first hooker he sees. Time and again and again and again you have proven this.
I never said the women are stupid. But in this industry, the women are victimized by the predatory men who run the industry. It’s a common fact where they publicly talk about what’s been done to them. Many of the women go public while still in porn or usually after they leave so they won’t be threatened in to keeping quiet.
I’ve never latched on to Shelley, I’m not associated with her in any way, I haven’t thrown my lot in with her, And I’m not stuck defending anyone. Anyone that knows me knows I speak my mind on many things despite what the popular opinion might be.
Why do you care what Shelley has in her own home? If she has an alter or if she worships a pet rock, it’s her business.
I came in on this post to talk about Monica. You’re the one that brought Shelley into this because you’re consumed & obsessed with her 24/7. I went back to re-read my comments and I’m now assuming my comment about you latching on to a former porn star is what made you think I was talking about Shelley. I wasn’t referring to Shelley but I was talking about you latching on to Julie. Former porn star meaning Julie and current porn star meaning Monica. I didn’t put Julie’s name in the comment because she had nothing to do with my argument and I didn’t want to drag her into it. But I meant how it seems you’ve latched on to one former porn star (Julie) to now a current porn star (Monica) and to me it seemed like it was your way in coming in to the hardcore side of the industry so you could promote your agenda.
I have no agenda. I started a blog three years ago and I usually complain about the rampant abuse in the adult industry.
You constantly complain about Shelley making money from Pink Cross. But she has to pull a salary so she can feed her family. With the amount of time she spends working for Pink Cross, she needs to pull a salary. Non-profit doesn’t mean you can’t make a living. You can up to a certain amount. Even the executives in the multi-million dollar “non-profits” fly in private jets, live in mansions, and pull a 6-7 figure salary.
Shelley having her rap CD and making her documentary is part of the marketing campaign I assume. How else can you get your message out if you don’t promote it or find new different ways of getting your message out?
With so many things to complain about in this industry, you pick Shelley Lubben to complain about instead of the real villains? I’ll never understand that. Many have had great experiences with Shelley while others haven’t. You can’t please everyone and there will always be someone whose upset because Shelley didn’t do everything for them. You talk about personal responsibility but the people she helps have to also help themselves instead of trying to find someone to solve all their problems for them.
I jump to conclusions? This coming from someone who came to the conclusion that there’s no such thing as HIV.
Darrah, again your reading skills are ridiculously poor.
Here is MY statement:
“I assume you are referring to Julie Meadows as the person I’ve attached myself to.”
Here is how you comprehended it:
“I’m now assuming my comment about you latching on to a former porn star is what made you think I was talking about Shelley.”
No, genius.
Why don’t you learn to read before you bother me any more with your claims?
How can you expect anyone to read your blog when you don’t even understand simple English?
But I do find it hilarious to see you write that you have no connection to Shelley Lubben, and are not a member of her cheering squad — but simply another unbiased observer who just loves and cares about the performers — yet you link to the Pink Cross site from YOUR site, and you devote three paragraphs of your response here to a defense Shelley which is right out of her playbook. A beaming, ass-sucking defense which doesn’t even concede that it’s POSSIBLE that she’s done anything wrong.
For the last time, the only person here latching on to an ex-porn star to create some artificial relevance for themselves is YOU, Darrah, not me.
Julie and I attacking Lubben for FREE. It’s a labor of love. It’s what we believe. We will NEVER EVER take a cent from the documentary. PERIOD. Nor will any of the many people who donated their time to aper in it, and to provide information and other resources.
Why don’t you ask Julie, whom I know you know, if I’m “latching on” to her, or if I put words in anyone’s mouth. That what a REAL journalist would do, Darrah, not a PR person for Lubben’s half-assed ministry. That’s what someone with ethics and good taste and self-respect would do. That’s what I do — or at least attempt to do, since some people will refuse to comment — before I level charges. I’ve contacted people from all aspects of Shelley’s life. From different eras of her life. Some talked, some didn’t. And if anything learned did not support my theory, I didn’t ignore it, I adapted or adjusted my theory. You have the resources – why don’t you use them? But I think we know the answer to that, don’t we?
Monica just emailed me to say she thought your accusation/implication that she is not “capable of independent thought” was “comical” and “humorous.” I wish I had her sense of humor.
And, once again, you go on and on supporting Shelley, and justifying her modus operandi (do I need to define that term for you?) “She has to pull a salary so she can feed her family.” That’s an extraordinary statement. That would also justify a thief or a drug dealer’s actions, too, would it not? If what I am claiming about her is true, would that really be a justification? Jim and Tammy Fae had to support their family, too.
You write, “Even the executives in the multi-million dollar ‘non-profits’ fly in private jets, live in mansions, and pull a 6-7 figure salary.” Yes, Darrah, but THEY actually help people. Pink Cross took in $125,100 in cash in 2009, and Lord knows how much in 2010, and it has helped HOW MANY girls get out of porn in its history? How many success stories ?– and I do not mean girls who now work for Shelley, dress in the little cult-like uniform, and call themselves her DISCIPLES. And I do not mean girls who recorded a testimony video for Shelley to use to raise money for Pink Cross, and then were never heard from again. I mean girls who are now on their feet and say it was because of Shelley and Jesus. How many, again? Where are all those happy shiny faces, Darrah. The only shiny face i see is Lubben’s after the latest round of botox or filler or whatever it is she’s doing to her face time and time again. Porn is not glamorous, but apparently a tax-exempt money-making scam machine is.
Darrah, have you ever seen Lubben wear the same outfit twice when she makes appearances (other than her gaudy Pink Cross shirts)? And why cant Garrett Theodore Lubben work? Was that ne’er-do-well fired from ANOTHER job? He has a history of that. According to Shelley, he was fired from his job when they were first together for being high at work. She decided to omit that from her book, but she’s said it before on the record. She also neglects to mention in the book that he was dealing drugs back then. Just like she deletes the reference to the lithium that she was prescribed for her bipolar disorder.
But back to you. . . .
And then, above, you borrow Lubben’s whole party line – the performers need Shelley because she cares and she helps them, the women porn are abused, abuse is rampant, they’re threatened into silence. The last one is an extremely convenient logical fallacy, since it can never be disproven — they’re silent! What a fucking joke.
That’s just like when I asked Lubben to prove she ever HAD herpes — since the foundation of her claims against the adult industry are that she was victimized by it, and ACTUALLY damaged by it physically as well as emotionally — and she responded, “Prove I didn’t have it.” That’s your savior, for you. The silicon savior.
(And by the way, Darrah, of the FOUR miscarriages and pregnancy complications Lubben suffered which she now blames on the porn industry, THREE of them occurred five and a half years before she ever walked onto a porn set. A FACT.)
Back to you . . .
You write: “Why do you care what Shelley has in her own home? If she has an alter [sic] or if she worships a pet rock, it’s her business.” Why should we care? BECAUSE IT’S INSANE. BECAUSE IT’S BLASPHEMOUS.
Then there’s this prize quote from you: “there will always be someone whose [sic] upset because Shelley didn’t do everything for them.” Again, attacking the victims. That’s your calling card, and it’s despicable. You assume these were only women who wanted Lubben to do EVERYTHING for them. What about all the women who say Lubben did NOTHING of any significance for them, all the while raising money under their names and NEVER forwarding a cent of that money to them? No. it;s all those selfish girls’ fault. Bad porn stars, bad! Stand back, I say! Don’t you know Shelley needs that money to fly her entourage to Las Vegas and get them hotel rooms?
Darrah, I think you are a transparent and despicable failure. You drip with sheer contempt for the people who populate an industry that you profit from while excoriating, and this destructive mindset only serves to blind you to inconvenient facts. You’re in denial, honey. You purchased a non-refindable fourth class ticket on the USS Lubben, and there’s not enough room in the lifeboat. I suggest the backstroke.
Now if you can carefully read AND comprehend (that’s a big one for you) any of the things I’ve written, and if you’d care to ask Julie Meadows for her side of this, then please do so and then get back to us. If you are unable to complete these simple steps, then go back to your hole in the wall, regurgitate some more press releases, and kindly fuck right off.
Cordially,
MW
Darrah, you leaped to the conclusion that I claimed that people who died of diseases really didn’t die, which I never said or insinuated. AIDS is not a disease or a new disease, but a collection of old diseases, all previously unrelated to each, all with their own previous specific causes. Meanwhile the co-“discoverers” of “HIV” (Gallo and Montagnier) both admit HIV was never isolated (sources available once again upon request). It is NOT an idea I came up with. I know this sounds ridiculous but its true. There’s so much fuckin’ money and thus coercion in this racket that AIDS orgs like AHF and all those who profit from the phony AIDS epidemic suppress the truth and attack those who attempt the share this info. Never in the history of the world has a scientific hypotheses had so much capital invested and reaped. Its a huge racket and the facts will not get in the way of the mind-blowing profits, if they can help it.
Michael Whiteacre has been a fixture in the adult industry since the early 90s. He was around and good friends with Brittany Andrews and many others when I entered the industry in 1998. We have been friends since then and he has never “latched onto me.” We found common ground in the lies Lubben tells and with my documentary shot last year, and both our passion for uncovering truthful things, we found a reason to work together. We aren’t doing this for profit, we’re doing it because it’s the right thing to do. We are peers. Besides, Doug would never let another man latch onto me. Michael is a friend and well-respected director. He’s a mench.
Neither of us are trying to hurt anyone, but she does lie. Guy DiSilva was part of that gang bang Lubben claimed she was raped during and not only is he one of the nicest personalities to ever come out of the adult industry (I know because I, myself, worked with him many times), he says he never raped her or anyone else for that matter. He thought they were on friendly terms. He invited her to a party a week or two after that scene and she showed up with a friend and networked. This is the scene she says she definitely caught herpes during, but he said she seemed fine. She was sociable, trying to find work and never mentioned being upset. He said she was the aggressor in the scene, and the director of the movie can back that up.
Claiming every man in the porn industry is hateful and mean and manipulative is irresponsible and untrue. I should know, I worked in the industry. I make no money from it so I have no reason to lie. It’s just not true. As in anything you surround yourself with people who will be nice to you, even if you are having sex for money. I was an escort for a year and a half, and most of the people I met in that job were also very nice. There are always a few rotten apples, but only a few. Saying that women can’t change America and validating the idea that all women in porn are mindless sex objects is manipulative and wrong. Simple. We don’t agree with her and Michael has more reason to be passionate about the lies she tells because he has been around and part of the industry for almost twenty years. That’s a long time to know and develop friends in an industry. It might be just a moonlighting gig for some people, and I’m not trying to insult you by saying that, Darrah, but living here and having twenty years worth of human ties is nothing to sniff at. We are pissed at being insulted and told we are mentally ill just because we don’t denounce an industry that didn’t treat us badly because it’s made up of actual people. She talks like someone who hypothesizes because they really doesn’t know. If she was drunk and high and lying and using people during her time in porn, chances are she doesn’t know. Sinnamon Love can agree with that, since she is also someone who has been in the industry for almost twenty years and even worked with Lubben in 1994. She also claims that Lubben was not raped. In fact, she made the choice not to work with Sinnamon, which completely negates her story that she was raped and made to do whatever the director wanted in every scene she shot. It doesn’t matter what her intentions are if she’s going to insult me and people I care about just because we aren’t angry the way she is. She seems bitter and we’re only out to uncover the truth. What we are finding is disturbing, but hopefully our efforts will help her see that she is a predator for some. She may help a couple of people, but she’s threatening the livelihood of a lot of adults who enjoy what they do and never in any way went out of their way to hurt her the way she hurt and manipulated people during her stint in porn. She spent it badly, and that is not the industries fault. It’s her fault. Only a child would think differently.
Hell to the fuckin yea Julie!
Know what Darrah, you’re just a jerk and a bitch. You were never my “friend” because I have no idea who the hell you are and neither does anyone else. Do you really believe that just because someone communicates with you from time to time on twitter that you’re actually real “friends”? No – that makes you an online aquaintance – nothing more and nothing less.
The only one trying to influence anyone’s thoughts around here that I can see is you, Lubben, “Joe Know” and the multitude of other idiots with a Hitleresqe agenda. The MOMENT that I acknowledged to ChristianXXX that I was sorry about how badly I spoke about him you went ballistic on twitter via direct messages to me which is why I blocked you and why you will remain BLOCKED. I find it disturbing that you monitor my twitter as closely as you do and felt the need to carry the incident over onto this blog – can we say psycho overly fixated stalker?
Yes, I did post openly on Donkey’s forum – I post openly EVERYWHERE because I have no reason to hide. The only reason many adult talents DO NOT is because of EXACTLY what I’ve experienced in regards to the online harassment via psychotically obsessed individuals on the fringes of the industry. People such as yourself Darrah have the GOAL of presenting adult talents as “victims” and they maintain that stereotype by silencing anyone who breaks that stereotype through harassment and intimidation. I have no fear of faceless cowards so that shit doesn’t work with me and in time, it won’t work with many others either.
I might have made mistakes in the past in regards to my personal choices and how I’ve judged people but when I do make mistakes and I realize that I have, I acknowledge it and learn from it. That’s what people who are healthy, who grow, who progress through life, and who evolve do.
Who exactly is “laughing” at me Darrah in the industry? People who you regularly communicate with online who think as you do? OH NO, I’m SOOOOO worried about that. I seriously doubt anyone in the porn industry really takes ANYTHING seriously that anyone would say about me negatively because I’m a good, ambitious and productive person who does her own thing and owns her own product and online presence. People like me in the porn industry, entertainment industry and in business as a whole Darrah are the FUTURE, and THAT is what bothers you.
Really LOOK at your blog (and all this other anti-porn industry crap for that matter) compared to what things like Michael, Julie, myself and many others are doing. Your shit is half ass and sucks and that eats you up inside.
It’s sickening that you’re supposedly a woman spewing the shit that you do. How dare you infer that Michael (a guy I have only met in person ONCE who’s been around the adult industry and who actually interacts IN PERSON with those in the industry for quite some time and who doesn’t hide his face) or Julie (a very caring, thoughtful and intelligent woman) have somehow influenced my thoughts and/or stance. Do you really believe that I or any solid woman for that matter can’t think for herself who has chosen a path in adult entertainment, either currently or in the past?
Maybe you view your own choices as victimization but I don’t and neither do many others. I’ve gone through a LOT of self evaluation of my choices in life and have documented them in my blogs. I’ve come to terms with my decisions and WHY I’ve made certain decisions and in the end I’ve found that my choices all stemmed from being exactly who I am. There’s elements of myself that I didn’t want to face in the past because they weren’t what I considered to be “perfect”, but after much self assessment I know that I’m not MEANT to be perfect and that I don’t need to worry about judging anyone else, or myself. I just need to LIVE and let LIVE.
From this stage on I’m putting my energy only into being who I want to be – which is a successful awesome person who spreads love, positivity and who teaches others what I’ve learned on my life’s journey. I have no need to defend myself any longer to petty negative weirdos like you Darrah, or Lubben or Fitzgibbons – however I WILL expose the truth of what losers like you are really about.
Hell to the fuckin yea Julie!
Know what Darrah, you’re just a jerk and a bitch. You were never my “friend” because I have no idea who the hell you are and neither does anyone else. Do you really believe that just because someone communicates with you from time to time on twitter that you’re actually real “friends”? No – that makes you an online aquaintance – nothing more and nothing less.
The only one trying to influence anyone’s thoughts around here that I can see is you, Lubben, “Joe Know” and the multitude of other idiots with a Hitleresqe agenda. The MOMENT that I acknowledged to ChristianXXX that I was sorry about how badly I spoke about him you went ballistic on twitter via direct messages to me which is why I blocked you and why you will remain BLOCKED. I find it disturbing that you monitor my twitter as closely as you do and felt the need to carry the incident over onto this blog – can we say psycho overly fixated stalker?
Yes, I did post openly on Donkey’s forum – I post openly EVERYWHERE because I have no reason to hide. The only reason many adult talents DO NOT is because of EXACTLY what I’ve experienced in regards to the online harassment via psychotically obsessed individuals on the fringes of the industry. People such as yourself Darrah have the GOAL of presenting adult talents as “victims” and they maintain that stereotype by silencing anyone who breaks that stereotype through harassment and intimidation. I have no fear of faceless cowards so that shit doesn’t work with me and in time, it won’t work with many others either.
I might have made mistakes in the past in regards to my personal choices and how I’ve judged people but when I do make mistakes and I realize that I have, I acknowledge it and learn from it. That’s what people who are healthy, who grow, who progress through life, and who evolve do.
Who exactly is “laughing” at me Darrah in the industry? People who you regularly communicate with online who think as you do? OH NO, I’m SOOOOO worried about that. I seriously doubt anyone in the porn industry really takes ANYTHING seriously that anyone would say about me negatively because I’m a good, ambitious and productive person who does her own thing and owns her own product and online presence. People like me in the porn industry, entertainment industry and in business as a whole Darrah are the FUTURE, and THAT is what bothers you.
Really LOOK at your blog (and all this other anti-porn industry crap for that matter) compared to what things like Michael, Julie, myself and many others are doing. Your shit is half ass and sucks and that eats you up inside.
It’s sickening that you’re supposedly a woman spewing the shit that you do. How dare you infer that Michael (a guy I have only met in person ONCE who’s been around the adult industry and who actually interacts IN PERSON with those in the industry for quite some time and who doesn’t hide his face) or Julie (a very caring, thoughtful and intelligent woman) have somehow influenced my thoughts and/or stance. Do you really believe that I or any solid woman for that matter can’t think for herself who has chosen a path in adult entertainment, either currently or in the past?
Maybe you view your own choices as victimization but I don’t and neither do many others. I’ve gone through a LOT of self evaluation of my choices in life and have documented them in my blogs. I’ve come to terms with my decisions and WHY I’ve made certain decisions and in the end I’ve found that my choices all stemmed from being exactly who I am. There’s elements of myself that I didn’t want to face in the past because they weren’t what I considered to be “perfect”, but after much self assessment I know that I’m not MEANT to be perfect and that I don’t need to worry about judging anyone else, or myself. I just need to LIVE and let LIVE.
From this stage on I’m putting my energy only into being who I want to be – which is a successful awesome person who spreads love, positivity and who teaches others what I’ve learned on my life’s journey. I have no need to defend myself any longer to petty negative weirdos like you Darrah, or Lubben or Fitzgibbons – however I WILL expose the truth of what losers like you are really about.
I have no idea who this Darrah person is – has she ever been on a porn set, ever been anywhere near the SFV porn industry in real life?
I assumed it was some female porn fan from far away who picked up this failing old lukeisback blog, fascinated by the industry, but without any real life connections to it.
For the record, Monica, Joe Know might be an ass but he genuinely cares about performers. He used to work at AIM or sumthing like that.
Something like that. 😉
With respect, origen, that’s kinda like saying that someone who carries around a bible everywhere they go follows the teachings held within. It might just as well be the indicator of an perverse obsessive agenda — or the disarming instrumentality for one.
Saying once cares about someone doesn’t MEAN one does, or that one is helping that person. There are plenty of weirdo stalker/kidnapper/rapists who did what they did because they “loved” the object of their obsessions SO MUCH and wanted them to be with them because only THEY could love them enough and take care of them. Not that I’m equating Joe, personally, with any of that. Hiding one’s face, though, can’t figure out why one would do that . . .
Hating producers and hating Sharon Mitchell does not mean you care about the performers. All I read from Joe is hate speech directed at the “industry” which is then meant to be “excused” by his supposed compassion for the talent. He sounds like the kind of guy who was dipping his pinky in the girls’ urine samples to feel “closer to them” if you ask me. But that’s just my impression.
I agree Mike and Joe goes too far in condemning erotica entirely (IMO).
But there are a lot of douche-bag producers in the Industry who admit they do not care about their performer’s welfare.
If ANY producer is doing something illegal, they should be prosecuted. But we don’t prosecute thought crimes in this country — not yet.
If those producers ADMIT that, and it’s known — and believe me, word gets around fact in this industry — then performers sensitive to that should stay away. Everyone has a right to be in business as long as they’re not breaking the law, even people with ugly thoughts
“If ANY producer is doing something illegal, they should be prosecuted.”
If you want to talk about legality therein lies the rub. What about those Cal-OSHA workplace regulations?
All I’M saying is that producers should “do the right thing”. Don’t pressure girls to fuck without condoms if they are against it. Don’t fudge AIM tests (Brian Pumper). Don’t give girls herpes (Brandon Iron)…
Laws and regulations like the current bogus set of rules get tossed out all the time.
In America, people and entities have the right to petition fro redress of grievances. Unjust, inequitable, unfair and unconstitutional laws are promulgated, passed and enforced ALL THE TIME.
If justice prevails, those same laws and regulations are struck from the books.
But until “justice prevails” the status-quo hold true, no?
People have a DUTY to object to, and protest and RESIST unfair, oppressive laws.
If you don’t like the Rosa Parks example I made earlier, then ask Gavin Newsom.
How is the concept of operating a business that profits from an unsafe practice a part of our natural, unalienable, rights?
The fact that sometimes people get injured does not make it per se an “unsafe business practice” under law. Look at professional sports, or coal mining, or working in a factory near loud engines and toxic chemicals.
Coal mining, professional sports, and working with toxic chemicals are also unsafe yet they are not necessarily prohibited by law. If the government were to restrict those commercial activities in the name of the public good it would not be unconstitutional or unethical.
The govt is not saying that a group of consenting individuals cannot fuck bareback, put it on film and sell it. It is saying that PRODUCTION companies cannot have people fuck bareback where there is a high of disease transmission.
Again, I’m not for mandatory condoms–I’m just trying to illustrate the importance of the need for a reduction in STDs.
You assume that an intrusive government program would work best. I do not agree, nor do I believe that opening that door — a door which will never again be closed — is prudent.
I do not assume anything, sir. I am simply saying there needs to be more diligence on the behalf of producers to make sure performers are safe. If condoms are no good, production schedules must be designed to support performer testing periods and testing must be more comprehensive.
I support all of that in principle.
I’ve never made a dime from this industry. I also do a lot of work away from my blog that no one knows about without asking for money. My first blog is now just for press releases. Press releases which are to SUPPORT and PROMOTE the industry and its performers. My second blog is for everything else that isn’t a press release and a place for me to complain. Complaining is what I do best it seems.
Press releases are used for promoting a performer and/or a company. Careers are made and begun with a simple press release. Publicists have thanked me for running their press releases with one publicist thanking me saying how the women aren’t getting enough press. I can’t be that anti-porn if I run their press releases which are to promote them.
I also link on my blogroll to AVN and XBiz though I’ve always been critical of them. They’re resources which I provide to anyone who wants to visit.
I’ve been attacked many times for even mentioning Shelley’s name. So this “artificial relevance” reference holds no ground. I support her for trying to reach out to people who need help. Cindi even supports Shelley even though she attacks me for being anti-industry though Shelley wants to shut down the industry. So people support one another on certain issues but not necessarily on every issue. Jerry Falwell was one of Larry Flynt’s best friends. But that doesn’t mean he supported him 100%.
Clearly this shows you don’t know the first thing about being a woman. Hey, do you also know we have different handbags & shoes to go along with each outfit for each different season??
You want her to show you her medical records? She doesn’t have to prove anything to you. Ask the biggest current names in this industry and they’ve publicly said they & every other porn star at the least has herpes.
I’m the one who gets attacked for defending them and calling them victims. Now you say I’m attacking the victims? Unless they’re physically not able to work, then they should get off their butts and help themselves too instead of depending on someone else to do everything for them.
Years ago, XXXChurch and Shelley helped Trinity James leave the porn industry and helped pay for her AND her husband’s expenses and found them a new home. Eight months later she found out she was pregnant with a child she could not afford. Her suitcase pimp then found a job at a Home Depot working 40 hours a week.
After Trinity left porn, she and her husband start complaining that XXXChurch and Shelley didn’t help enough. Dead beat husband and expecting father complains that his mother was giving him and Trinity more money for food, clothes, rent, and insurance than XXXChurch and Shelley were. How about they get off their lazy fucking asses and support their own family?? Two grown psychically able adults can’t financially support themselves?? They seek and get help from two anti-porn organizations by claiming Trinity was a single mother when in fact she was very married. XXXChurch and Shelley should have sued both Trinity and her husband for fraud! Two pathetic wastes who then have a child neither of them can afford start complaining that they weren’t given enough aid. That money would have been better spent on a woman who would truly appreciate the help instead of someone who made a mess out of her own life and her husband who was pimping her and then running off to his mother for money.
Trinity then complained on her blog that the help she got from XXXChurch and Shelley had now ruined her marriage and put her in more debt. No one put a gun to her head. She sought these organizations out asking for help leaving porn. They helped her AND her husband but then complain that it wasn’t enough help. Trinity seems more upset about not having a man in her life anymore and now trying to raise a child on her own.
Trinity later came back working at the Kit Kat Ranch in Nevada. Will she be seeking help from religious organizations when she runs out of money again?
I asked a few people in the industry about him and they didn’t know who he is. I went to a few of his profiles to read up on him and saw how he has been around Hollywood for a while. Then I see him on your blog and here on LIB yelling about things and I just don’t know that much about him yet. I just don’t know that much about him yet and so do many others regardless if Michael is out there in the open using his name.
Do you expect someone to admit to you that he’s a criminal and how he attacked a woman? Many of the most well know serial rapists in this country’s history were known as charming great men when they never were (Ted Bundy, John Wayne Gacy, …..)
I’ve always been up front that I’ve never been in the industry and only put out there news about what’s happening in porn and usually my opinions on it. He’s been throwing his accusations around and so I’ll throw mine around too. I just don’t trust him.
Get off this bullshit that someone can’t be trusted if they don’t show their faces. Many of the people out there who are helping whichever industry are usually doing so behind the scenes. One of the most successful blogs in Mexico today is an anonymous blogger reporting about the drug cartels and gangs. Why is he anonymous? Because he’ll be killed if he’s revealed.
Regardless of you saying you’re not equating Joe to a stalker/kidnapper/rapists, you do seem to be hinting at that. You are way out of line and stretching it far even by your standards. Most of the people on the blogs and forums are IN the industry. Maybe, JUST MAYBE (hint, hint), Joe knows what the hell he’s talking about.
The women who do go to the police are never taken seriously because of the profession they’re in. Many women in this industry have told me & gone public how they’ve been raped and attacked on set and off set, they went to the police, and nothing was ever done because of their profession. The women who are vocal in this industry are labeled as difficult, threatened, and lose work. Most women keep quiet because they’ve been conditioned to believe by society that it’s their fault and whatever abuse they receive is their punishment. Alana Evans went public with her rape and the mainstream press had a field day labeling her every word you can think of and how she’s lying and only after attention & money.
14-year-old Elizabeth Smart was kidnapped, raped, and held for months by her kidnappers. If you read the websites and especially the comments section, many blamed Elizabeth for how long she had been kidnapped asking why didn’t she escape and get away. When she was tied to a tree being raped & sodomized for much of that time, I don’t blame any CHILD for being fearful of trying to escape. She testified in court that she first felt if she rolled over on her stomach that he wouldn’t be able to rape her anymore. She said she found out the hard way how you can still be raped even in that position. But many still blame her. So if many in society blame a child for her own rape & kidnapping, why do you think many never take a porn star’s accusations seriously?
Producers admit to crimes they commit? A crime is only “proven” if the criminal admits it himself? Why isn’t the victim’s word taken seriously by you Michael?
Performers can’t stay away from the bad seeds when their agents are forcing them to go. Crimes are committed in this industry every single minute in one way or another. Read their social networks and you’ll see. But to you, these victims are lying and it’s only proven if the criminal admits it.
Amy Fisher has publicly come out saying how she’s being pressured to do scenes she’s not comfortable with. How she’s been told she won’t have a career if she doesn’t. She’s a contract girl, makes millions for these producers/companies, can get on any single mainstream show/magazine to promote her new DVD, is one of the most bankable porn stars out now, and is still being treated badly and forced to do things she’s not comfortable with (anal). She tweeted how her fans might soon find her working at Taco Bell if this keeps up.
Those people are not being forced to be there.
The gov’t should intrude… on behalf of the people in general, not the corporation-nation. The gov’t is supposed to exist to represent the people, not those who are hostile to the people. Its not necessarily about non-governmental intereference, because a lack of oversight allows corruption just as much as corporate control of government.
Before I say anything, I want everyone to first know why Monica first turned on me. I saw on Donny’s forum a Youtube link of a woman claiming to be this new porn blogger. I sent the link to Monica so she would know what’s being said about her and how it’s up on Youtube. Monica accused ME of all people of being on Donny’s side and me trying to hurt her. Everyone knows my hatred of him but the Mensa member over there accused me of working with him.
I didn’t go ballistic. I warned you about Christian because I wanted to protect you. I told you to ask Aryana Starr what he’s doing to her now and putting her through. But you know what he is but you still insist on associating with him. What would possess you to apologize to anyone who never apologized to you after everything he said to you on LIB? He called you everything from pathetic, stupid, and poor. Did he apologize to you? But you now defend Derek Hay and Christian only because that forum targets them the way they are now with you. You don’t care what he’s doing to Aryana and costing her work. Just like how you’ve never once cared about any of the women in this industry after joining that forum.
I never said I was YOUR friend. I know you turn on everyone eventually. I said you were MY friend. I would assume we were at the least friendly considering we communicated every day or several times a week. Keep on showing how much of a fraud and a user you are using everyone who befriends you. You’re a fake, fraud, hypocrite, and full of shit.
So because you don’t know who I am means you can’t trust me? I wouldn’t want to know someone like you. You turned on one of your own best friends who retired months ago. You threatened to kill Powder White on Twitter. You accused me, Cindi, Powder, Jules Jordan, and Will Ryder of either coming after you, being behind that forum, Derek Hay, Shy Love, or supplying Charlie Sheen with women so he could profit from scandals. By you turning on your best friend C, that shows me you can’t be trusted even in the real world.
I’m now stalking you because I read your Twitter? Don’t flatter yourself. I read many people’s Twitters. You’ve read my Twitter too and replied back after what I had tweeted or sent me DMs after what I tweeted. Have I ever accused you of stalking me? You should find it flattering that anyone reads your Twitter. It’s not like you get any traffic to your website and blog. According to Alexa, both my blogs get more traffic than anything of yours. I then carried it over on here after I read you calling Joe a coward. YOU are the coward who dragged your entire family into the mess YOU helped create.
You had no fucking right to ever register on that forum. You’re a disgrace and an embarrassment! You’ve brought this all on yourself for even associating with them. You proved to the entire industry you’ve never cared about the women that you claim you want to help. You saw no problem going there knowing full well what they were already doing to everyone else. You probably only went there to promote your website. Now you cry like a fool after they do to you exactly what they were already doing to everyone else. Which makes you the psychotic one to not have seen that coming. Tell us exactly why did you go even though you knew what they were doing to everyone else?
If I’m the one presenting the women as victims, then why are YOU now presenting yourself as a victim though you brought it on yourself for joining a sexist, racist, homophobic forum?
You’re more on the fringe of the industry than most others.
Most people have never joined or even posted on that forum. Most on that forum are the alts of 1 or 2 people. You actually went as yourself. More people read the forum more so than actually participate in it.
I can’t be that much of a coward when I continually stick my neck out trying to help people, like you, and I end up getting burned for it.
You have no fear of faceless cowards? You’re the one making a jackass out of yourself on Twitter threatening to kill yourself and how members of that forum are trying to kill you and how you’ll be reporting them to the FBI. Good luck with the reporting. You do know filing a false report is a crime? The FBI will now have a file on YOU about a crazy porn star whose accusing a new person every day of being out to get her.
You’re not healthy at all. You need serious help before you end up hurting yourself or someone else.
EVERYONE is laughing at you. You’re the industry joke now and you probably like it in some sick way. Most didn’t know who you were before. The Dykstra thing made you more known. Now after the publicity died down because you couldn’t figure out a way to ride that to bigger things, you probably miss the attention and in some sick way might be getting off on this with what’s happening between you and that forum.
I tried helping you after what Dykstra did. I told you who to contact for representation but you wouldn’t listen. You couldn’t even figure out a way to make any money from your RadarOnline interviews. EVERY porn star who does interviews on RadarOnline gets paid but you were never paid.
You’re not a good, ambitious and productive person, How can someone who has been in the adult industry for the past 10 or so years as you have be financially broken with a bogus $1,000 check? And is it true from what that forum says that your father financially supports you sending you checks every month? What exactly have you done with all your money all these years? If a woman who has been in the industry for as many years as you have being a cam girl, dancer, and porn star but still have no money where $1,000 broke you financially, you can’t claim to be a productive person. And you also can’t claim to be a good person when you’ve turned on everyone around you accusing them of plotting against you.
My blog can’t suck as you claim and be half assed when you’ve told everyone on your MonicaAtHome video shows that my blog is one of your favorites. You’ve commented on my blog and linked back many times. It also can’t suck that much when both my blogs get more traffic than yours do. You claim to have this strong online presence though my two blogs get more traffic than anything you have. Even after being on the Cosby parodies and all the mainstream press you got after what Dykstra did, your blog is still extremely low in traffic according to Alexa.
I’m actually writing about the bullshit happening in the industry while others usually never talk about what’s going on because it would make the industry look bad. You talk shit about the industry and the people in it also. Why am I any different? I’ve always read your blogs, loved your MonicaAtHome video shows, promoted you to many people, but now you’re critiquing my writing when you’ve always praised it.
You were bragging how look at Kacey Jordan who also took a check. Don’t compare yourself to her for also taking a check. She took a $30,000 check from Charlie Sheen who pays all his escorts extremely well and always has. You took a $1,000 check from a KNOWN criminal and con. You then complained how your bank account was drawn out. HOW can any woman in this industry be broken by $1,000 when she’s been around for as many years as you have? The ones who have no money are usually the ones with drug problems, children to support, or a husband/boyfriend.
Nothing eats me up inside or bothers me. I don’t make my living in this industry unlike you. I have never cared what people think of me while you do. I’m my own worst critic while you attack many who try to offer you advise. You take yourself WAY too seriously while I never have of myself. You’re the one who can’t handle that others are more successful than you in one way or another. I wouldn’t want to be you. Your life is in shambles and a bogus $1,000 check broke you financially. My main problem in life is I can’t sleep. You have far worse problems than I do.
I’ve never said you couldn’t think for yourself. I only suggested that Michael might be filling your head up with all of this. So Michael runs to you claiming I said you couldn’t think for yourself? I never said that. Now look whose twisting everything around for his own agenda. And you still think he’s not the problem? You obviously have a brain when you know how to run and manage your own websites while many don’t. You even wrote your own book while most have real writers doing all the work. There aren’t that many porn stars wo can say they wrote a book. The ones who have a book out never wrote a word while the ghost writer did all the work.
I was always criticized by people asking me why was I promoting your book as much as I was when you had no right in writing a book about how to get into porn. They said you didn’t do that many movies and were only in porn for about two years. I’m the one that told them you’ve been in the adult industry for about ten years as a cam girl and dancer. But they still told me you didn’t have that much experience in porn and had no business in writing the book you did. But I was still trying to defend you tot hem.
You are not a successful awesome person who spreads love, positivity and who teaches others what I’ve learned on my life’s journey. You’re not that successful in many ways. You’re not an awesome person when you quickly turn on people who are trying to help you. Including your own real world friends. How can you claim you spread love when all you’ve been doing now is accusing people of being terrorists behind a forum and trying to destroy you?
Psycho overly fixated stalker? YOU are the psychotic one. Want me to tell everyone the Montana Fishburne story of yours?? You’re now also threatening to expose me. Doesn’t that make you the stalker?? You can’t even find who owns that forum but you’re now claiming you’ll be finding me? Careful what you wish for. You’ll regret it eventually. Many who have come after me have regretted it in one way or another.
I’ve helped you considerably since I first knew about you through XPT and LIB. I also help many people every week while never asking for anything in return. You turned your back on every woman in this industry after registering on that forum. My conscience is clean when it comes to issues concerning you. I’ve done nothing to you while you’re the one who turned on me.
You attack Shelley Lubben accusing her of stalking you only because you & she had an argument I believe here on LIB. I have arguments with many people and we eventually move on in life. That’s what grownups do. Unlike you who goes running to the police reporting a religious anti-porn organization and this doctor of “stalking” you & being terrorists and Nazis.
@Monica,
How’s that union coming along? The instant you said you ‘were on it’ I knew it wouldnt be long before the first meeting. So Monica, how many people have contacted you about this so far? (LOL)
Darrah, you really don’t know when to quit. Comparing female porn performers WHO ARE ADULTS to Elizabeth Smart, a 14 year old MINOR CHILD. That confirms everything I wrote about your opinion of the “helpless women” of this industry — and the vicious, predatory male exploiters (all rapists or waiting to be one) whom you claim prey upon them daily — agents, producers, talent. You are a deranged person who sees bogeymen.
Your rad fem bullshit doesn’t fly, Darrah. Radical feminism is to feminism what national socialism is to socialism. You’re not doing women any favors by asserting that they all need protection from men, and that they are all victims who have no choice and who are routinely “forced” or coerced or threatened to do things. Women have agency, Darrah, sexual and otherwise. And just like any human, male or female, they sometimes express regret after the fact by looking for someone else to blame for their mistakes. Just go off and rub one out to thoughts of Andrea Dworkin masturbating in a pile of her own feces and get it over with already.
I don’t care what HEARSAY you claim to have received from women in the industry who you do not name and who are not available to state their own case AND proffer evidence that their claims are true. RAPE IS NOT A WORD YOU CAN JUST THROW OUT THERE TO WIN AN ARGUMENT, babe. Rape is a crime. Rape has a definition. Someone’s bad feeling after the fact does not mean there was a rape. And the required assumption that there is some conspiracy of silence on sets, where PAs and others who are making little money would ALL put their freedom at risk to protect bold criminals is ludicrous.
And, no, complaining is not what you do best, complaining is what you do most. What you do best is make a fool of yourself. You are extraordinarily accomplished and well-practiced in that, my dear.
So, you asked some of the people you “know” in the industry — have you actually ever met these people, by the way, or are they Twitter pals, too? — and they didn’t know me. Wow, I must be a phantom! I simply used different pen names when I was sidelining as a journalist than I did for other businesses (I actually used to go to sets, Darrah, and saw things for myself. I didn’t just take people’s word for it. I went to 2-4 sets a month for SEVEN YEARS just as a writer — more in an unofficial capacity, like visiting a friend or a client). I was not known as Whiteacre until I began directing late-night erotic movies in 2004.
I will forward your comment to Guy DiSilva –one of the nicest men ever to grace this business, and a gentle soul — and see if he wishes to give you his thoughts on your statement. He and Shelley had worked together before that gang bang where she claims she was “raped.” She let them shoot that first scene at her home. She invited these people into her private home. Would you do that if you felt continually raped, abused, and threatened by these evil industry people? And she socialized with Guy later, at a party at the home of a prominent adult movie director/producer. At that party, Guy introduced her to lots of people. There are witnesses to all of this, too.
This was when, according to Shelley, she had already decided to quit the industry because 1) she’d had a 120 mph car accident that she walked away from(!) and 2) she had a severe herpes outbreak. If that’s true, what was she doing at that party, networking with porn producers and directors?
Have you seen the gang bang video? She is not being raped. She’s the enthusiastic aggressor in the scene. In her idiotic self-published book she claims that her eyes turned black as SATAN himself entered her body her to give her strength to get through the gang bang. Really. The video shows no such thing, of course.
Comparing Guy to John Wayne Gacy is both disgusting and ironic, because it is Lubben who more closely resembles Gacy: someone who puts on a lot of make-up — A LOT OF MAKE-UP — and goes out and pretends to be a decent caring human being when something much darker and more sinister lurks and festers behind that facade.
Why should Shelley prove she ever had herpes? 1) BECAUSE SHE IS CLAIMING THAT GOD HEALED HER OF AN INCURABLE DISEASE. When you make a claim like that, shouldn’t you have to back it up? Are you insane? Even Mother Teresa had to go through a process of investigation by the catholic Church prior to beatification. Even someone with a lifetime of good works has to be proven to be related to or involved with miracles. And we all know Shelley is no saint.
2) Because her claim that SHE DEVELOPED ALL THESE HEALTH PROBLEMS AS A RESULT OF HER TIME IN PORN RELIES UPON THE FACT THAT SHE ACTUALLY CONTRACTED CERTAIN DISEASES — herpes and HPV. Its the foundation of her arguments. “I know, I was there, these things happened to me.” If they DIDN’T happen to her, and if she is lying about it, that kinda shoots her down as a noble defender of truth, and deprives her of whatever standing she now claims.
In the end though, we have a woman who hasn’t been on a porn set in nearly 17 years being defended by a woman who has, as far as I know, never been on a set, and both are claiming that everyone who actually HAS been on a set and disagrees with them is lying and/or mentally ill and/or a predator.
Nothing you write makes any sense, Darrah. However, I no longer pity you. You’re getting what you deserve. I’m actually amused by you, because you’re such a comical caricature.
MW
Darrah Ford writes (to Monica Foster):
“So Michael runs to you claiming I said you couldn’t think for yourself? I never said that. Now look whose twisting everything around for his own agenda.”
Wrong again. Monica visits and posts here on LIB and she can read. I didn’t have to run to anyone. People that despise you don’t need my encouragement, you worthless bitch.
Don’t you ever get tired of being so wrong so often, Darrah
Aren’t you from the Boston area, Darrah? I used to live there — for nearly a year.
Nice place. Made some good friends there.
Boston = “nice place”? Don’t push your luck with them Massholes…
OK, Darrah – That was quite a post to read and very creative, but I think you need to stick to fictional blogging, because you really seem to believe what you think you know about me and my life to be factual.
You are definitely an obsessed fan – it’s kinda cute but also sad, sick and scary.
I’m trying to figure out who my “best friend C” was.
I think at this point Darrah is just seeking attention and to be a “victim”. I wish I’d never tweeted with him/her. I don’t suggest anyone else does unless they want to be stalked.
Darrah, Joe Know and Lubben ….. why do they even bother reading these blogs or posting – I suppose lack of a purpose.
And by the way Darrah don’t flatter yourself – I’m not looking for you because you don’t matter – I’m simply looking for some truths and transparency – and I will find both (now continue to rant like a lunatic).
Ha! I love that term! Two of my best friends from the region refer to themselves as such, and one of them had a band with the word in the band’s name.
I was lucky — the year I was there we had a relatively mild winter. I enjoyed my time there, and met two of my mentors in the world of writing and research. And one of my best friends in the world hails from there, though he lives in LA.
Unfortunately, Boston also has its share of angry shut-ins, spoiled trust fund babies, and dried-up academics, no possessing any sense of the real world. Which, of course, doesn’t stop them from commenting on it, ad nauseum. Thank you world wide web.
Massholes, also known as Massochewshits, Bos-stoners, Rich Kids, Sufferable Sox Fans.
Make fun of Massachusetts all you want but alot of good has come out of that state. Some of the best colleges and hospitals and medical research are done in MA.
Not to mention the Patriots, Celtics, and Red Sox are always in the thick of playoffs. Bruins are… well OK usually the Bruins just suck but can’t have it all. This year they are in 1st place in their division so we will see. Also alot of movies and shows are set or filmed in the Boston area.
Musically alot of great bands and artists have come from MA as well as many well known tv and film stars.
The blood of patriots was spilled in Massachusetts. They fought to make oppression fade into the mists of history. They perished so that freedom would thrive.
Don’t get me wrong, here, fellas. Boston is the home of the revolution. We can never take that for granted.
“Don’t get me wrong, here, fellas. Boston is the home of the revolution. We can never take that for granted.”
Washington, Jefferson & Madison all just rolled in their graves….
I doubt it, Origen. However, I’d love to see a meaningful (and not mentally distrubed) horror movie for a change, such as one which depicts lots of heroic historic leaders rolling and then rising from their graves to haunt U.S. citizens for allowing our politicians to give our country away to bankers and other treasonous multi-national corporate thieves and murderers. The irony would be these famous zombies walking the Earth would recognize that the living are much bigger zombies than the undead can ever be!
I was just forwarded a psychotic, rambling blog by Darrah Ford in which she accuses me of “stalking” Shelley Lubben and her husband (and for the record, Darrah, it was not Monica Foster who sent it to me). “Stalking” is a strong word, Darrah. And it only serves to demonstrate, once gain, how stupid you really are.
You see, Darrah, when one actually has ethics — journalistic or otherwise — it behooves one to do proper research. That means talking to people on both sides of the issue. It means doing exhaustive research. It means searching public records and publications. It means contacting as many people who may have relevant information as possible. What one does not do is simply formulate a premise, find a bunch buddies to comment on it, and do a hit piece.
Have you ever seen a biographical program on TV — like “E! True Hollywood Story,” and such? What they do is go to the subject’s old neighborhood, show their childhood home (“”From humble beginnings,” blah blah blah), talk to their friends and associates, etc… You know the drill. They don’t just line up a bunch of talking heads. It’s called production value. It’s called professionalism.
I know this must all sound unfamiliar to you, since you possess neither talent nor ethics, so maybe you’d like to print this out and keep it for future reference — although I sincerely doubt you’ll ever snap out of your trance or change your spots. You’re a hack, and you’re angry, and … well, that’s about it, really.
As for your statement to the effect that, in the thread above, I’m implying I’m stalking YOU — you really have far more hubris than your lowly station in life accords you, darling. I’m not doing a documentary on YOU, Darrah. Never will (who on G-d’s green earth would want to see that?). You do not matter to me. I do not care where you live, or who you are. What matters is WHAT you are, and I think we all see what that is, don’t we? I mentioned the Boston area simply because I had lived there and I generally LIKE the people there — that’s all. You’re just a less-than-notable exception to that rule.
Good luck.
PS Do you think Shelley sent her dad a birthday card?
It looks like Darrah has proven herself an idiot, again. Surprise, surprise! Stalking, huh? … What else has he done, Darrah? What do the little voices in your head tell you, now?
All I ever said to you was I didn’t trust you and how you’re filling Monica’s head will all these conspiracy theories. Then you come after me calling me a worthless bitch and you putting out that thinly veiled threat of trying to find me. Which proves I’m right and you are trying to find me.
You’re the one who has no ethics. You constantly attacked Shelley and others in the past saying they were never abused even as children and how their lying to serve their agenda. While your agenda is pushing this new documentary you’re trying to put out. And the ones in that documentary are either lying because they’re still in porn making their living or trying to come back in. When they leave with no intentions of ever coming back, they’ll start telling the truth. You weren’t there, you know nothing, and you’re only reading the script their telling you to read because you’re trying to come into this side of the hardcore industry to make a name for yourself.
Why don’t you tell Monica she has no ethics when she constantly attacks people saying how they’re out to get her and who really owns that forum. She’s accused me, Cindi, producers, directors, and even threatened to kill someone she’s known in the real world for three years. She has no proof of anything she says but you attack me but not her.
There is rampant sexual and psychical abuse in this industry, rampant STDs, and rampant drug use. Drugs and alcohol are provided on many porn sets where many of the women are still teenagers. I saw a website for one of Charlie Sheen’s escorts where she’s doing drugs on set and the pictures are everywhere.
The biggest haters of this industry are industry members. They’re the ones who go through the experience first hand while you know nothing. You have no right coming into this industry telling them they’re lying when you know perfectly well they’re telling the truth.
The rape victims can’t go to the police because nothing is ever done. Porn stars, prostitutes, and strippers have repeatedly said they have gone to the police and they were treated badly and nothing was ever done. But of course you already know this and you don’t care.
Ask Monica about the abuse in this industry. She’s said many times how she’s been abused and how her next book will be about the abuse & racism she’s faced while in porn. Her own blog is filled with anti-porn stories of what she and others have gone through in porn. Is she lying too or is she the only one telling the truth because you’re all “friends”? Be warned she will turn on you the way she’s turned on every single person around her. Fact.
I never said you were making a documentary on me. But what you said is a thinly veiled threat against me trying to find me. Now airhead Monica is also stalking me threatening me and saying she will find me and “expose” me. Now the voices in her head are saying I’m Dave Pounder. She also listed his real name on her blog but went back and deleted it. The woman who attacks a forum for posting her personal information is then blackmailing me on Twitter and threatening me that she’ll expose me. She thinks I’m Dave and she revealed his real name before deleting it later. Now that forum is doing to Dave what they’ve been doing to Monica. WHY DON’T YOU CALL OUT HER ETHICS??
We all know she has no work ethic and can’t even find proof as to who owns that forum. She’s even three and a half hours late for her own Valentine’s Day edition of MonicaAtHome show. She flakes all the time. She’s a failure in so many things in life and is once again playing victim but bitches me out for labeling women in this industry as victims. She wants to be the only one considered a victim because of her over-inflated ego. But she’s the one crying on her Twitter she wants to die because of a porn forum. She saw no problem going to that forum seeing what they were doing to everyone else but is now playing victim. When you lie with dogs, you get fleas.
Darrah, how does me reading that you think I want to find you, then responding that I’m not (and explaining why) PROVE that I am? Only in your messed-up head…
You write: “the ones in that documentary are either lying because they’re still in porn making their living or trying to come back in. When they leave with no intentions of ever coming back, they’ll start telling the truth. You weren’t there, you know nothing, and you’re only reading the script their [sic] telling you to read because you’re trying to come into this side of the hardcore industry to make a name for yourself.”
What idiocy. Haters like you and Shelley start from the premise that you are right and that everyone else is wrong and lying and abused. If anyone disagrees with you — they are liars or they have malicious hearts. You have a sick worldview, babe.
And for the record, I have absolutely no interest on shooting hardcore porn. I was offered several times — the first time was in 1999 by a company owner. I have NO interest in it. It’s not for me.
For the last time, Shelley’s Lubben’s attacks on the porn industry do not constitute a case of he said-she said, it’s a case of THEY said-she said. You claim they’re ALL lying. How can you know that SHE isn’t? Just because her story matches up with your worldview — which is entirely based on hearsay?
Thus, it’s hilarious that you tell me “you weren’t there, you know nothing.” I’ve been on hundreds and hundreds of sets, and been acquainted with a large section of the talent and production pool, going back to 1993. Have there EVER been abusers and people with problems — of course there have. Just like in any business, especially one where there’s a good deal of cash to be made quickly. But those people get weeded out. Like Shelley Lubben.
Just like worthless commentators who don’t know what they’re talking about, and habitually insult the golden goose, find themselves talking to the wind.
And for the record, of there is anyone in this discussion who fits your description of someone who came back to the porn industry to make a living and to make a name for herself, it’s your pal Shelley Lubben.
Darrah, I notice that you tweeted that I am trying to “find you.” That’s how you wrote it, in quotation marks. That constitutes a false attribution because I never said or wrote that. It constitutes defamation, babe. That, in combination with your false assertion that I am stalking people, actually makes it pretty bad for you. If you do not remove or retract it at once, I will then be FORCED to find you to serve you with a host of charges. And I am not kidding.
Guide yourself accordingly.
One last thing — I honestly cannot see why you’d object to anyone referring to you as a worthless bitch, especially after you’ve done everything in your power to earn the moniker.
Suing Darrah is A) impossible (since its impossible to find her) and B) a complete waste of time.
Write to her host provider instead…
@origen – Nothing is impossible. And making a point is not necessarily a waste of time.
Good name in man and woman, dear my lord,
Is the immediate jewel of their souls:
Who steals my purse steals trash; ’t is something, nothing;
’T was mine, ’t is his, and has been slave to thousands;
But he that filches from me my good name
Robs me of that which not enriches him
And makes me poor indeed.
People always say, “I’ll sue you” and it’s just a lot of talk. Well, I have the will and I the resources. My first year in Boston was spent in law school — I transferred to Vanderbilt after my first year (1L). If that’s where she is, one of my friends and classmates can find her if need be.
This issue will be addressed — either by Darrah retracting, repudiating and rescinding her remarks, or by me in a court of law. A or B.
I would like to know exactly what Darrah’s specific mental condition and/or disability is- why she’s at home all the time obsessing about the porn industry and nuttier than some of the porno roommates I’ve had.
The flight to wherever she is would cost more than anything you’d actually receive from Darrah. IF you win.
..and if do you win, she’ll keep on doing the same shit. Its the nature of deranged internet bloggers.
Go after the big fish. Her twitter account, her website, etc…
origen — Oh yes, I’m not talking about an exclusive remedy — it’s not “either or.” Your advice is quite solid.
Have you seen “The Devil And Shelley Lubben” yet? Episodes 1 & 2 are on YouTube now.
You’re such a piece of shit. I only said that to Monica Foster because she said it to me and Joe Know. But you already know this but still throw out your lies. Why didn’t you go against her for calling us cowards when all Joe & I are doing are, as you said, just trying to make our way in life without being harassed? But considering who you and Monica both are, I don’t expect much from either of you.
Go start your own organization trying to help people. What exactly do any of you do to help anyone? You told me on Twitter that you’re a film maker and that’s why you haven’t started an organization. You can’t walk and chew gum at the same time? I don’t see any of you lifting a finger to help anyone in this industry but you’re willing to throw stones at the people who at least try. You also don’t care much for people and would also have to admit that the industry is flawed if there are people who need help leaving.
You claim Shelley is lying about being abused as a child and was never raped on set. You don’t know and you weren’t there. It’s people like you who have created a rape culture and attack anyone who says they’ve been raped and slander others when they say they were abused as children. So you rather see all victims keep quiet and never come forward saying what’s been done to them? You want more rapists to get away with their crimes and you don’t want more people to speak up about what’s been done to them?
You claim Shelley is libeling her rapists because you interviewed him and he said she’s lying about being raped. What do you expect him to say? Do you expect him to say that yes it’s true I’m a rapist?? You have no proof but you rather believe someone who is pro-porn than someone who is against it.
Pick more fitting people than Monica Foster and Kayden Kross for your documentary if you want people to take you seriously. Monica is also very anti-industry and constantly writes about what’s wrong with it. She also says she’s been abused and she will name names in her next book about what she’s been through while in the industry. But because you and Monica are now “friends,” you believe her claims but not Shelley. Why??