Pregnant Porn Star Needs Help says Shelley Lubben

From Shelley Lubben

Written by Nyesha

Many days I sit and wonder at what point I lost control of my life and put it in the hands of porn valley agents. Many girls in porn come from backgrounds of drugged filled homes, have been beat or raped.

My story is a little different. Growing up my household at times was filled with domestic violence but my parents stayed together and it seemed to rarely effect my sister and I. I went to church weekly, involved in beauty pageants, Cheerleading, dance , girl scouts and had all the material things a young girl could ask for. That soon all changed when my mom decided to leave our dad and our household income changed for the worst. There was a time when we lived with different family members, would be low on food and even got kicked out of our apartment.

The winter of 2004 due to money issues we lost our condo and were forced to live in a house that was filled with drugs and crime. I was dating a great guy at the time and his house became my safe heaven but that relationship soon ended. My sister and I moved and I became a hooters girl but still wasn’t making enough money for rent and school so I start stripping but only for a few weeks.

Looking in the news paper I saw an ad seeking swim suit models and I decided to go in for a test shoot and the next day the agent called and said he had a shoot for me which would pay $600 and all I had to do was go topless. So, I did. After that came solo work and eventually BG (boy-girl) scenes. I hated this guy and how dirty I felt when he touched me. He would book me at least once a week and I needed the money so I sucked my pride up and ignored the wrong I was doing. Needing more money to be on my own I posted photos on sexy jobs not knowing this would be the biggest mistake of my life.

The following morning my phone was blowing up with offers. I did my first scene not knowing anything and started flying across the map each week, booked everyday and made a nice sum of money. I soon started missing class, quit cheer and knowing that I hated what I was doing I kept shooting only looking at the money.

I would cry on the set and scrub my skin so hard after scenes because I felt dirty and just hated myself and how I was being treated. I couldn’t sleep at night and began taking up to twenty pills a week! While in porn I had money stolen from me from the agent I had. I did scenes for cheap rates and was told that if I canceled a scene I would have to pay a kill fee so at times I was forced to do stuff I didn’t want to do.

The first time I did a swallowing scene and facial I was forced. They waited to the very end to tell me. It was only my second time doing porn.
My worst day was when I was forced to use a sponge to do a scene because it was already booked and my monthly came early I had never did anything like this. The sponge was pushed so far and got stuck that I had to be taken to the hospital I had caught a infection and they had to open me up to remove the sponge. I wasn’t able to work for a few weeks and the agent stole two of my checks to replace the money he didn’t get from me leaving me broke and without food. I was threatened by other girls that if I didn’t do the parties the agent set up I would stopped being booked, and would have to find a place to live.

The worst mistake I made was allowing my 18 year old sister Raven Sky to get into porn. She started partying, hanging with the wrong people and did everything I stayed away from. She left porn when she became pregnant with her daughter who is truly a blessing and changed her life for the better. She did a few scenes but I am proud to say she’s in college doing great and now porn/drug FREE!! I soon quit porn myself and should have stayed gone…

I went back to school and tried to get control of my life again got back into cheerleading, dating a new guy but deep down was still depressed and needing money again. I turned to private dates because I thought it would be easier then porn but it was all wrong and dirty. I went back to porn and decided to get a female agent hoping things would be better because she said I would have more control over my career.

NONE of this happened and I was booked out, not sleeping, going to club events and my life was a mess again and sleeping pills ruled my life. I was a well known escort making good money but deep down it wasn’t me. I didn’t own my life anymore. Porn, money and sex did. VERY nasty and untrue rumors started to spread around about me around the same time I also found out I was pregnant and I do blame all the traveling, stress and crazy life style I was living for the loss of my baby. I slumped into an attitude and became very depressed but hid it with material things. I covered my swollen eyes from crying with makeup, smiling on the outside when I really wanted to just end my life.

I recently did my last scene and walked away from it all having nothing. I struggled for awhile with money, having a normal relationship and just finding myself again. Not only did I lose myself but I lost friends and family. I found out in the Spring that I was pregnant and from that moment on I knew I had to fight to keep my life safe from porn, escorting and sex.
My baby is due very soon and though I won’t be able to give he/she right now or all the things a newborn needs he/she will have the love of a pure clean mom that he/she can be proud of and look up to. I wake up knowing that my life is changing for the better and although times are hard due to being on bed rest for a high risk pregnancy I have turned down all private work and offers for pregnant porn, I will never go back to that lifestyle.
Yes the money was great but it didn’t make up for all the pain and trouble my body has went through. I’ve decided that all any help and knowledge that I receive from the Pink Cross I will use it someday to help other girls who are also caught up in the porn life style and believe they can’t survive without porn.

Thank you to Shelley and everyone at the Pink Cross who give girls like me hope and a new out look at life. Thank you to any of you who offer to help me and my baby.

Nyesha

PLEASE HELP NYESHA WHO IS PREGNANT AND ON BED REST BY DONATING SECURELY ONLINE AT www.thepinkcross.org
 

SHE REALLY NEEDS OUR HELP ASAP. SHE NEEDS RENT, FOOD, BABY SUPPLIES, STROLLER, ETC… PLEASE HAVE A HEART AND HELP HER. THANK YOU FOR CARING!



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46 comments

  1. sammyglick

    “My sister and I moved and I became a hooters girl but still wasn’t making enough money for rent and school so I start stripping but only for a few weeks.”

    While sympathetic, clearly this woman made numerous poor choices in her life. Why didn’t she simply get a lower rent, and/or delay going to college until she could afford it?

    “There was a time when we lived with different family members, would be low on food and even got kicked out of our apartment.”

    She mentions having a half-way decent family support structure…yet oddly, they all but abandon her in 2004? Likewise, she mentions how that same year, her family (I assume she means, herself, her sister and mother) lost their condo.

    Now again, I don’t want to judge…but you’d think that a few wise budget decisions, might have clued her family into how they couldn’t afford a condo (and would have done better with a small, abet crowded, apartment).

    “Looking in the news paper I saw an ad seeking swim suit models and I decided to go in for a test shoot and the next day the agent called and said he had a shoot for me which would pay $600 and all I had to do was go topless. So, I did. After that came solo work and eventually BG (boy-girl) scenes.”

    She mentions making money doing topless/softcore stuff. She seemed okay with that — so again, why did she throw all reason aside and start doing B/G scenes?

    “Growing up my household at times was filled with domestic violence but my parents stayed together and it seemed to rarely effect my sister and I. I went to church weekly, involved in beauty pageants, Cheerleading, dance , girl scouts and had all the material things a young girl could ask for.”

    It seems to me, based on her testimonial, unlike other former porn chicks who have personal histories filled with drug/sexual abuse, this woman has zero excuses for they way her life turned out.

    Or better put, she made her bed and now it’s time to lie in it.

  2. BrianJay

    okay forced a facial and forced a swallow…

    1) WTF… your doing porn, the clueless taken advantage act is getting really old by the lebben girls..

    You have the vagina, you have the looks you make the rules.. you dont like something dont do it, yes you may get a director mad at you, but if you dont want to do it dont..people will still hire you…

    “I tired dancing but that only lasted a few weeks”

    all that means is dancing was to hard and i went to porn because it paided more money and it was easier..

    escorting was easier too because you didnt have to photograph it…

    uhhh

    dont play the i am innocent and didnt know any better .. you were lazy and liked the money…

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  4. ST94

    Good points Sammy and Brian.

    I’d like to add that there are a lot of people that are worse off than this that don’t resort to selling themselves for money. And if she hated it so much, but the money was good, why wasn’t she saving it up to have something to live off of when she decided to leave? What happened to all that “good money” she “earned?”

  5. sammyglick

    That’s a very good point ST94 — she doesn’t mention having a massive meth/alcohol habit or a loser boyfriend/suitcase pimp…or does she?

    “I went back to school and tried to get control of my life again got back into cheerleading, dating a new guy but deep down was still depressed and needing money again…I went back to porn and decided to get a female agent hoping things would be better…NONE of this happened and I was booked out, not sleeping, going to club events and my life was a mess again and sleeping pills ruled my life. I was a well known escort making good money but deep down it wasn’t me. I didn’t own my life anymore. Porn, money and sex did. ”

    So despite claiming that her life was “owned” by “porn, money and sex” she spent untold additional $ on an addiction to ‘sleeping pills’??? Wait…there’s more that happened to her after the lost of her first child.

    “I slumped into an attitude and became very depressed but hid it with material things.”

    What’s truly baffling about her story is, she seems to have possibly quit her sleeping pill addiction upon her first pregnancy….only to then go back to porn, escorting, and who knows what else (all of this mind you, from a woman who had a decent upbringing, some post-high school education and enough ambition and self-awareness to actually sober up during her first pregnancy, change porn agents, go back to school, support her sister’s good choices and even follow in her footsteps for a while).

    “I recently did my last scene and walked away from it all having nothing. I struggled for awhile with money, having a normal relationship and just finding myself again. ”

    At this point, she’s seemingly broke (again, you wonder how much she was throwing down on sleeping pills, loser boyfriends and new shoes/handbags) and yet she then makes the wise decision to get pregnant again!?

    Again, why should anyone care about this woman’s idiotic choices in her life? She did hardcore porn, made decent money at it, escorted on the side, made decent money at it, and got pregnant twice before she finally decided to do something else with her life. BFD.

    Instead of looking for a handout from random perverts, this woman should realize she isn’t living the daily struggle of tens of millions of people vastly less fortunate than she’ll ever be. As she’s a natural born citizen of the greatest nation on earth with limitless opportunities that are hers for the taking!

  6. freepornstarpix

    This is another person in financially desperate situation being paid to tell their porn ‘horror’ story. This is just one of the reasons Shelley Lubben is bad news.

  7. girlygirl23

    could you guys be nice to ONE person who obviously has lacked love for a good portion of her life? just like some people don’t agree with your lifestyle, but you want them to stop badgering you about it … it would be nice if you would show the same courtesy to others by not trying to cause more negativity and pain in someone’s life who is trying to find peace.

  8. sammyglick

    Girlygirl23,

    Why should anyone be nice to someone who has obviously made numerous bad choices in their life (despite being better loved than a LOT of people in this world, not to mention, growing up in America) and then turns around…and wants the rest of us to subsidize their stupidity?

    That’s like asking for your money back after watching the entire movie…a theater isn’t obligated to refund you for being a dumbass who sits through an entire movie that you most likely hated in the first 15 minutes.

  9. jed

    yeah sad story, but it’s bullshit to suggest you can have all this regret after the event, yet not have some misgivings before you’re about to smoke a pole on camera. that’s when you make your choice.

  10. Ruby

    Here’s my problem with this whole thing, there are already good programs for this girl, exploitation comes in many forms including religious exploitation, she is being further exploited by The Pink Cross org, she should find out what is available to her and stop allowing people to exploit her and take control of her own life, your decisions are your own, own them, take care of your kid and get clean and quit whining and maybe you’ll earn respect, you don’t have to fuck or suck to be the object of exploitation, you just have to be a weak minded individual.

  11. BrianJay

    yeah what ruby said..

    no but seriously.. compassion? okay there are so many bad war stories, and people in much worse shape than she is.. she made porn and now regrets, and now pregnant.. okay regret it.. if she didnt have this story i would have ever heard of her. so she has the chance to start her life over, fact is shes still making money off of the thing she hates and allowing pink cross to make more money off her story.. so do i have compassion yes, i am vegan for a reason, I work in social work, the first thing they teach you, don’t baby your patients, give them the tools (not money) and let them make it happen, if they want it they will get it) so compassion for her, no not really..

    sorry girlygirl 23 you have a lot to learn..

  12. “This is another person in financially desperate situation being paid to tell their porn ‘horror’ story. This is just one of the reasons Shelley Lubben is bad news”

    Tara I am agreeing with you. I think that behind of that sweet curtain of love could be a very interesting business….

    Anyway, I’d like to ask Nyesha, There are no any other jobs to choice for living? Waitress, bar tender and lots like that?? You knew the risk of porn and how much adorable could be some people in the business…

  13. Ruby

    People who exploit other people in the name of God are far worse than run of the mill pornographers, they are truly reprehensible.

  14. sammyglick

    RockPepe, that’s what doesn’t add up in her story.

    She came from a decent family, was able to hold a decent job, and has some formal education. Yet all of that STILL lead to her doing porn, getting pregnant twice, and now into the arms of Lubben’s nonsense?! She vaguely mentions being addicted to sleeping pills, but honestly, I don’t see how this could have significantly impacted either her bank account, or decision making abilities.

    Likewise, she talks about how she HELD jobs and MADE money from porn, yet she’s now broke and nearly living on the street? Again, I doubt that buying a few Ambiens put her into the poor house.

    As for Girlygirl23, Michael Jackson has nothing to do with it. He was a phenomenal, once in a lifetime, talent. Regardless of one’s feelings about the rest of his, often bizarre life, there’s no denying that he had singular talents and unique gifts that few, if anyone, could match. When history looks back at 20th century American music, they’ll talk about influential giants such as Elvis, Sinatra, Cash, Dylan, Holiday, Armstrong, and Jackson.

    On the other hand, this ‘Nyesha’ might be a pretty face and a nice person, but no one is going to remember her brief stint in Porn Valley.

  15. Third Axis

    Ah, yes, another tragic tale of a young woman sucked into porn and then dissipated by its vampiric minions…

    Lubben has now “saved” how many people? Less than a dozen? Wow! She’s amassing a veritable army of crusading ex-porn talent! These women are no different than any other of life’s losers, selfish substance abusers, skill-less slackers, and societal parasites. I place Shelley Lubben in the latter category.

    Woman-up, Nyesha. Get a starter job, learn some skills, and take responsibility for yourself. Life is hard – get used to it.

    Shelley, you are nothing more than a circus barker, touting the freaks in your little midway show. Pathetic.

  16. pornfan

    ruby, if you think about it or would like to, put a link with your name like others do here, something to let us know what your’re up to. thanks

  17. “to do was go topless. So, I did. After that came solo work and eventually BG (boy-girl) scenes. I hated this guy and how dirty I felt when he touched me. He would book me at least once a week and I needed the money so I sucked my pride up and ignored the wrong I was doing.”

    “While in porn I had money stolen from me from the agent I had. I did scenes for cheap rates and was told that if I canceled a scene I would have to pay a kill fee so at times I was forced to do stuff I didn’t want to do.

    The first time I did a swallowing scene and facial I was forced. They waited to the very end to tell me. It was only my second time doing porn.
    My worst day was when I was forced to use a sponge to do a scene because it was already booked and my monthly came early I had never did anything like this. The sponge was pushed so far and got stuck that I had to be taken to the hospital I had caught a infection and they had to open me up to remove the sponge. I wasn’t able to work for a few weeks and the agent stole two of my checks to replace the money he didn’t get from me leaving me broke and without food. I was threatened by other girls that if I didn’t do the parties the agent set up I would stopped being booked, and would have to find a place to live.”

    Larry, Coronel, Jed, El G, how can I have missed that.

    Her agent was the Earl of Pimpwich!!!!

  18. MonicaFoster

    Harvey, I don’t think this is ms. Stylez. I think her stage name was Mahlia Milian. She made her way around the circuit. Check freeones.

  19. Yes, someone miss identificated her. And confused her with Eunique.

    Who was Mahlia Milian agent? The Donkey?

    Is a decent male agent in the Valley or South Florida.

    I see a pattern of behavior in porn “talent” pimping. Most agent seem cut with the same mold.

  20. sammyglick

    If this is in fact, Mahlia Milian, then a LOT of her ‘story’ is utter BS…or she’s a cunning liar, as when I briefly met her she was far from the picture of a self-loathing porn girl…

  21. Lostbutterfly

    To Luke and members.; I found out who’s been hacking my site and putting spywear on my cell phone. It was PoonTalk.com and I checked there site. They stole all my codding for my site and used it for their’s! I have told wordpress.org about it and I am considering taking legal action against Poontalk.com and the owner of that site. They did it this morning. If they want to change their site they can do their own researching, for their site themselfs and stop stealling all my hard work, and trying to screwup my site!

    I believe the only way to get the idiots who run this site to leave me alone is by taking legal action. I will wait to see what wordpress.com does when one of the site owners hacks and steals codex coding from another site owner. Well see!

  22. I hate when women leave porn and try to make it look like they were a victim. I also don’t see how she could not have saved any of the money she made.

  23. jeremiahsteele

    I think the porn industry’s motto should be “We hire the handicapped” (mentally handicapped)…

    Hey Sophia Mounds, you insane idiot. Wankus told me last year you accused him of hacking your site.

    What is this latest conclusion based on? And spywear on your cell phone?

    “stealling all my hard work”? I checked your site and it consists of copy and pastes from other porn sites, as well as your illiterate, insane ramblings.

    You don’t need any hacker to fuck your site up. You do it all by yourself.

    This is what you posted there:
    “I’m very sorry but an EVIL hacker who’d I’d love to tie up and **** with a nail studed strap-on has attacked this site. So I have made my own site and since the site is under construction because of this MF the site is a continues work in progress. Which makes it hard for me to update posts and keep up. This could be done by any jelouse hater/X CRAZY Roomate or any number of stupid X-boyfriends I’ve had. Or the stupid Kurt (FAT-ASS) Fag Club… Or it could be the super douchbag Kurt Lockwood himself. Or it could be the ugly, flaby drunken, slopy, pathetic, super-douch, I just dumbed.”

    But no matter who’s involved, just know I know how to program and can fix your douchbag fuck ups!”

    SO LEAVE ME AND MY SITE ALONE!!! Thank you…”

  24. sammyglick

    Can you two just get a room so the rest of us don’t have to listen to your insane ramblings about website hacking (as if Sophia Mounds is even that worthy of being ‘hacked’).

    In fact, the only thing that’s actually been hacked around here, beyond your tiny tin-foil covered skulls, is this thread that you two numbnuts are attempting to hijack…

  25. sammyglick

    As for JaneB’s question about WHERE this former pornster’s money went, perhaps it’s somewhere in this rambling paragraph;

    “NONE of this happened and I was booked out, not sleeping, going to club events and my life was a mess again and sleeping pills ruled my life. I was a well known escort making good money but deep down it wasn’t me. I didn’t own my life anymore. Porn, money and sex did. VERY nasty and untrue rumors started to spread around about me around the same time I also found out I was pregnant and I do blame all the traveling, stress and crazy life style I was living for the loss of my baby. I slumped into an attitude and became very depressed but hid it with material things. I covered my swollen eyes from crying with makeup, smiling on the outside when I really wanted to just end my life.”

    So let’s see…she might have spent her money clubbing, air travel, sleeping pills, hotel rooms & cab fair (while escorting), legal action fighting the rumors about her, medical care after her miscarriage, makeup (to cover up her depression), and random shit at the mall (to make herself feel better from the depression she supposed had being female porn talent/internet escort).

  26. freepornstarpix

    I remember that she had issues with stealing credit card numbers to buy makeup and was doing check fraud when she lived with her agent Shy Love. The story is in the adultfyi.com archives. She stole Kenzi Marie’s credit card, ordered makeup online, and had it sent the house! Donny Long paid her with a check and she duplicated it somehow to make other checks.

  27. Lostbutterfly

    Ya douchbag, then why does your whole site look like the way mine would of looked if you hadn’t copied and pasted my codex code into your site? “THIEF!”

    Keep talking I have the I.P my stolen codex code to my site, has made your’s look the way mine would have looked if you hadn’t stolen it! THEIF! And you’ve herassed and harassed me for over two years I’m waitting to see what wordpress says about it because I did notify them and I did send the I.P adress to the cops for criminal stalking. “No more Misses nice guy.” And you will be talking to my attorney soon!

  28. jeremiahsteele

    Sophia Mounds is leaving threats of violence comments to me on poontalk even though it’s been clearly shown in numerous ways that I am not the editor of poontalk.com (assuming he’s guilty of her accusations). I don’t know shit about codes but now Sophia says to me “It’s On!” and that she’s gonna attack me. She also says once again that anything goes now that I’ve fucked with her site, when I haven’t.

  29. sammyglick

    She sounds like a ‘winner’ (not) the more she’s discussed!

    Yea, she claimed to be dating some NFL player and that she was deep in the midst of getting a college degree when I meet her. Well, as a wise man once said, “whores lie…porn whores twice as much.”

  30. Sophia, I don’t know what’s happening behind the scenes. But I looked at Poontalk’s site and your site. What codes do you suspect he stole? Both sites are completely different. His has a white background with a blue header and two sidebars while your site has more color and only one sidebar. Whoever it is is just playing with you and you’re playing into their hands. You also can’t add javascript to your blog because it’s not allowed. So the codes you have is html. And unless you purchased the CSS upgrade, then the codes on your blog is what WordPress designers put in there.

    About spyware, everyone gets it and especially if you visit porn sites. My computer was infected the other week after I downloaded the new version of TweetDeck for my Twitter account.

    Change your password to a very hard password, don’t allow anyone else to have access to your blog, and you’ll be fine. You’re just being paranoid because of the games of whoever is playing on you. Stop blaming Poontalk. Poontalk isn’t Jeremy and has never done anything to you.

  31. jeremiahsteele

    The last time she said anything goes was after she said I killed her cat, thus justifying her borrowed maxim, “Allz fare in love and war”. Here we go again.

  32. sammyglick

    Isn’t there any site moderation at work?

    You’d think someone at NotLuke would just create a separate Sophia vrs. Jeremy thread that could be updated each day with the nutty ramblings from each…

    For example — today it’s her site being hacked by Jeremy’s drones, tomorrow it’s the supermarket deciding to drop her favorite cereal as a vast conspiracy propagated by Obama, and by the end of the week its Sophia going on and on about her TV picking up ‘strange transmissions’…

  33. Sophia, go to Poontalk’s site and at the very bottom, it says:

    Copyright © 2008 · Revolution Code Blue theme by Brian Gardner

    Poontalk self hosts and his template is designed by Brian Gardner. Your template is Sandbox which means yes you bought the CSS upgrade and did the coding yourself. Maybe you mixed up the codes and now it’s doing some weird funky sh*t screwing up your site.

    But Jeremy knows nothing about blogs. How many times have I and others told him to get a free WordPress.com blog and he doesn’t know how. He doesn’t even know how to label each picture with it’s own tag.

    Exactly what is happening to your site? Are things missing or changing when it shouldn’t? Weeks ago my blog was suspended and I thought finally someone from the porn industry reported me. But it was actually WordPress that accidentally suspended me and he told me my blog has never had a single complaint. It could be error on your part or some glitch with WordPress. But exactly what is happening to your site? If you complain too much, they might help you anymore without serious proof that someone else is screwing around with your blog.

  34. sammyglick

    “But Jeremy knows nothing about blogs. How many times have I and others told him to get a free WordPress.com blog and he doesn’t know how. He doesn’t even know how to label each picture with it’s own tag.”

    Ms. Darrah, how do you know beyond a 110% reasonable doubt, that he DOESN’T know anything about blogs? It could just be a diabolic trick to lull everyone he knows into thinking he’s just a simpleton with a laptop. When in fact, he’s the world’s most brilliant hacker, who for shits and giggles breaks into the Chinese Defense Department’s computers and posts pictures of Sophia Mounds…

    THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE!!!!! BEWARE THE GLOBAL CONSPIRACY!!!! DON’T TAKE WOODEN NICKELS!!!! AN APPLE A DAY KEEPS THE BLACK HELICOPTERS AWAY!!!!!

  35. Lostbutterfly

    No you can code codex too a there sites ussing codex in the css area to add diffrent fonts headers and what not too your blog. Go too wordpress.org and read about it…

  36. jeremiahsteele

    Hey Sophia. Fuck you. You’re just like that other retarded moron ex roommate accusing me of shit based on no evidence, whatsoever, then deciding anything goes after that.

    Word out to you and the other moron who still reads LIB; The very fact that you say that I OR my friends did something means you don’t know who did it, do you get it? .. nope, probably not. Too hard for you to understand…

    Remember Sophia, you accused Wankus of hacking into your site. What evidence did you have for that accusation? The same you have for the current one; none.

    And if someone asks you what your evidence is and your response is “I know you did it!”; that response is NOT evidence…. Do you understand? Nope… probably not….

  37. Larry Horse

    If this girl was so bright why didnt she go out and get a script for some birth control. If more women got birth control the US health care costs would drop a fair amount, same thing goes with guys and condoms. Condoms, those things the Trannyfucker doesnt like using, he’s not too high on girls using sponges or diaphragms either. Sophia, you said Wankus hacked into your site, huh? Steele might be able to hack in, but Wankus, too funny.

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