Marina Maywood’s Tombstone….

both blogs by Marina Maywood

Monday, October 19, 2009
   
I quit this shit   
Current mood:  determined
Category: Life
To hell with non-mainstream shoots and self-destructive behavior.

I recently took a trip and it opened my eyes to so many things.

I love myself and others, and I deserve to be loved in return. I finally believe that.

I’m starting over.

Erase and rewind.

 

Wednesday, September 23, 2009
   
Random thoughts on the industry & my experiences with it
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
I started doing adult movies because I was bored, and I wanted to experiment and stretch my limits. I stayed in porn because it was fun and I met a lot of cool, open-minded people. I left because I was tired of the drama (this biz is like high school when it comes to gossip!), and I also wanted to see if I can have (and enjoy) a normal life. The truth is that being out was great for a while. I was starting to make non-industry friends, and I was in love (though that person was pretty much out of my life at the time of my decision to leave, as he is now, but that’s neither here nor there).

Ultimately though, I missed "glamour" modeling, so I came back to that. Especially since I think I look better right now than I ever have, so hopefully there’ll be enough newer pictures of me out there to drown out the older crappy ones…ha ha. (Seriously, looking at old photos of myself is like seeing another person… So strange!) I also missed doing girl/girl scenes, so I became available again for that too.

I highly doubt that I will ever do a boy/girl scene again. To be honest, I’ve always been more into girls than guys, and can you really blame me? Plus, the scare that happened this summer hit kind of close to home… I knew both patient zero and her boyfriend/costar at the time, though I wouldn’t say that I was good friends with them or anything. I actually came close to renting a room from the girl right before the whole thing exploded (I changed my mind regarding the move the last weekend of May), and I had known the guy for a while before that because I did a bj shoot with him over a year ago, and also I tend to run into other porn people all the time anyway. Of course, now the guy won’t even admit that he was dating patient zero before, during, and a little after he worked with her on that shoot. (The date of the shoot keeps changing depending on whom you ask, but does that even matter when we know they were hooking up outside of work anyway?) Not very honest of him, I should say… By the way, when I hung out with the couple (at the time), the girl struck me as very smart, articulate, and she had a great energy. I wish her the best of luck.

I think I’ve digressed…

To conclude that whole topic of staying in vs. leaving porn, I started doing it for fun, and I will keep doing it for fun, for now. If I don’t like it anymore for whatever reason, I will stop. But, I don’t think that I’ll ever be ashamed of anything that I’ve done. As one of my college professors once told me — in the end, your life is simply a line between two dates, and you have the right to do whatever you feel like with that line. (I’m sure he wasn’t talking about doing adult movies, but that’s not the point.) I have a feeling that if I leave porn again (though I will keep doing glamour modeling as long as I can), it’s going to be because of the whole drama issue again. No wonder I get annoyed all the time… Oh by the way, who the heck is this Colonel guy on that gossip blog? He’s hilarious! I’ve never seen so much random hate come from one person, and it just entertains me for some reason.

And oh yeah… Well of course I’m not some big shot famous porn star. A lot of people within the industry know me, and I have my fans as well, but thankfully I’m not a big name. The last thing I need is for my porn name to be out there all the time. Especially since I’ve been branching out a little into mainstream stuff.

Also, if you just read that whole thing, you’re a loser.

Kidding. =)

 

 

7 thoughts on “Marina Maywood’s Tombstone….

  1. I read the whole thing and I LOVE YOU MARINA! You’re right! You deserve to be loved and to love yourself and others! You know where I’m at if you need a friend.
    Love,
    Shelley

  2. The Colonel says:

    That’s right, Harvey, love is in the air. I’m freeballin’ right now, and I can feel the love breeze on my testicles.

  3. Pornodudestud says:

    i love u too Marina!!! I want to be the first one to have ANAL sex with you when you come back to the industry and only me…not you old friend GAY boy derileict derrick or those other phony dick extention dudes with there 5,000 dick extentions…lol peace baby!!!

  4. LifesACuntSoFuckIt says:

    What’s a “dick extension” Pornodude? Penis enlargement surgery doesn’t work to my knowledge.

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